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We had a rabbit like you
03-20-2017, 06:34 AM
I know I said for better or for worse but wow..he is getting depression and isnt even cleaning himself properly he smells like an old man! Doesn't actively look for better work, and doesn't wanna relocate to,where we would have a better life or more support. IM the one that's supposed to have post partum blues, but once again I have to be the adult in my relationship and make up for someone else's immaturity.
I wanted so bad to do something for myself with a bit of my tax return but I think I'd probably better save it all, it's not like he has any savings.
Aurora_Sunset
03-21-2017, 11:41 AM
Ugh, so now I'm in this unfamiliar city all by myself with no car and just figuring shit out on the fly. It's exciting, but I'm also incredibly nervous about everything. My flight was ridiculously early, so once I got to my hotel, I took a nap - ended up having a bad dream that put me in a really negative mood. It was a super realistic dream about something that has been causing immense stress in my life, so it's not even like I can just tell myself it was "just a dream."
Gonna have to get over it though - I can't just waste this trip by sitting in my crappy Motel 6.
seashell
03-21-2017, 12:31 PM
I saw Beauty and the Beast with my friend on Sunday, then again with my mom on Monday. I didn't tell her that I'd already seen it, lol. It was SO good!
seashell
03-22-2017, 12:06 PM
I confess that I did exactly what I said I wasn't going to do, and am now in a relationship with my old FWB. It will probably keep me from living abroad long-term. But on the other hand, I'll have someone to travel with, and he's pretty goddamn awesome.
Wrench has been thrown into life plans. Time to reevaluate. But if I can at least spend a few months outside of this desert hellhole in the summer, I'll be okay with living here. lol
ScarletKitten
03-22-2017, 05:27 PM
I've been having nightmares about work lately, and it's made me not want to go to work. I hate how nightmares can have such an effect on my mental/emotional state. Yet, all I want to do is just go back to sleep just to escape reality and my own mental anguish.
buttonpop
03-22-2017, 05:40 PM
I've had nightmares about work lately too. I had a nightmare that my long time regular was stalking me 0.o he's never been creepy or crossed a boundary in a club or shown red flags of any kind before. I'm pretty sure it was actually about something else.
whirlerz
03-22-2017, 06:46 PM
Had a weird ass dream about snakes crawling over me, so yea watching out for the human ones that try to fuck me over
snakesandmonkeys
03-23-2017, 07:44 AM
I am so in love with my FWB guy it makes my head spin. I know we would not make a good boyfriend/girlfriend team. We are both not great with monogamy, and fight like 1 out of three times we hang out, but goddanm. That boy pushes all my buttons.
Vyanka
03-23-2017, 09:59 AM
Had a weird ass dream about snakes crawling over me, so yea watching out for the human ones that try to fuck me over
I have that same belief and it never failed.
seashell
03-23-2017, 02:03 PM
I've been having dreams that I made fat stacks of cash the night before, and in my dream I feel all excited/content that I don't have to work. Then I wake up lol
LeggingsQueen
03-24-2017, 10:09 AM
Met up with a girl on a dating site I'm on. Sometimes I'm active sometimes not but I keep the profile. She seemed down to earth & a lot in common with myself so met up with her. She was really curious and made the move to go down on me. She finished and did pretty well :) Then I go down to do the same and she stops me real quick before I can start eating some kitty and says "Look just so you know I've been with a lot of guys so just want to be up front about that before you go down there". My response. "Well how many hun?" Her response. "well 2 guys in the last 6 months but overall about 10 guys in my life". Which she is about 24 years old. So I'm just thinking in my head...wow this a lot??? LOL Then I think..I'm just going to keep quiet about my guy count because I know I've been with 10 guys through work in the last week :/ lol
charlie61
03-26-2017, 12:42 PM
Just paid my IC taxes from last year! I feel great about being honest! and helping to support my state and country through the tax system! and------ ::has a full on psychotic breakdown::
KaraLynn
03-27-2017, 07:08 PM
I don't know if this makes me a sick person, it probably does but oh well, but I've been watching Criminal Minds lately and I always feel for the killers with the hard pasts, mental illnesses, and who suffered tragedies no matter how awful what they did was. I find myself sympathizing more often than not. Perhaps it's a result of really good writing and acting? Who knows. haha.
chanzep
03-28-2017, 12:03 AM
That is my favorite show, It can make not think bout anything its so interesting I love it.
KaraLynn
03-28-2017, 01:21 AM
That is my favorite show, It can make not think bout anything its so interesting I love it.
I love it too. I have no idea why I just now decided to really sit down and watch it. It's great.
Glamourmilf
03-28-2017, 09:54 AM
I went to the concert by myself last night and it was loads of fun. I made friends with a few girls but I ended up wandering off by myself cuz they all wanted to be smushed in the crowd by the front and I was definitely not down for that. I made my way to the side exit and it was way better that way. The view was awesome and there was space to dance. I noticed all the older people were around me. I guess we have all learned throughout the years. Lol
The concert was way better in New York though. Over there it was in a tennis stadium and he even did an encore. He was not feeling the LA crowd.
I'm off again tonight for the mainstream artist event. Also glamourmilf if you're reading this, your idea to wear Depends is genius and I am definitely gonna do it tonight because those bathroom lines and the state of the bathrooms did not look good. I overheard way too many drunk girls crying about having to pee and their friends urging them to just pee themselves and the pee will dry by the time the concert is over. Like I do not wanna think how many girls peed themselves in that crowd. Thankfully I wasn't there for that long so I was able to hold it until work right after
47750
See? We're not the only ones who wear Depends. Lol!!
lynn2009
03-30-2017, 05:18 PM
I rarely have patience for other people's mental illness and when I read someone go on about how they have a good spouse, job, loving family and friends but 'somethings not right' I really want to push them into a fire.
WendiStarr
03-31-2017, 01:10 PM
I once fucked my dad's boss in the ass with a strap-on while he was dressed in women's lingerie. What made me think about that is when I went to the bank today. I was standing in line, waiting for my turn, minding my own business when guess who walks in and stands behind me. He was dressed in his work outfit, with the company logo on the shirt. He's a good looking, clean cut, boyish looks type in appearance, despite his mid 40's age, and not at all the type you'd think would be into kinky shit. When I seen him I had to fight the urge to start laughing. My dad has no idea. Oh, I forgot to add that I had no idea that he was my dad's boss until afterwards.
Aurora_Sunset
03-31-2017, 01:42 PM
I did something stupid today and asked a former coworker what the honest opinion of me had been in the workplace. He didn't even say anything particularly mean or that I didn't already know about myself deep down.
But hearing it from someone else, is bringing all those fears up about how I don't know if I'm actually cut out for any of the things that I want to do. I don't feel good at anything and wonder if, even with practice, I would never adapt to being good at anything I want to do with my life.
seashell
03-31-2017, 04:52 PM
I confess that I really want to buy a plane ticket back to Europe in case things with the boyfriend don't work out. Does that make me a bad person? >_>
carmen_b
03-31-2017, 09:07 PM
Gah. This is why I probably don't ever ask for feedback. Eek. You can be sure no one notices your quirks.... Until they SAY otherwise.
I did something stupid today and asked a former coworker what the honest opinion of me had been in the workplace. He didn't even say anything particularly mean or that I didn't already know about myself deep down.
But hearing it from someone else, is bringing all those fears up about how I don't know if I'm actually cut out for any of the things that I want to do. I don't feel good at anything and wonder if, even with practice, I would never adapt to being good at anything I want to do with my life.
Selina M
04-01-2017, 11:44 AM
I absolutely crashed just now. My dog drank too much water and promptly puked it all up on the carpet, and while cleaning it up I ended up sitting there crying next to the puddle of vomit. It was not about the dog vomit.
Long reason why: My SO technically 'broke it off' 2 weeks ago; basically he panicked when we tried to set a date + existing depression + he has what therapists would term 'fear of engulfment/abandonment'. He stayed here for a week before I told him to get out. It was like only then did it become 'real' to him. His face when I told him to leave was awful.
He was gone not 48 hours before showing back up crying, having figured out it was him being afraid he couldn't be alone if he needed to (so, he's afraid he's going to marry me and I'll divorce him and leave him with nothing and no identity).
I let him come back. He just resumed his depressive drinking stage. Now it's been another week and he is making no move to leave. He mentioned paying rent yesterday. We were barely speaking until a few days ago, when he finally stopped drinking, resumed staying home at night, and started cleaning and being sweet to me. Just now he came to comfort me and I told him we need to figure this out.
I know this is him being reluctant to leave because he doesn't know what's going on with him... Permanent choice from temporary problem and all. I don't want him to go but we cannot do whatever this is. It's not healthy. He needs to see a therapist, BAD. And I am also very sick of people telling me I shouldn't want him anyway with his issues. Ugh.
Aurora_Sunset
04-01-2017, 03:55 PM
I don't want to put effort into my relationship anymore. I'm trying to turn some major things around right now and get a fresh start, and adding "work on my relationship" to that list just makes me cringe. We've been fighting so much lately, and have been trying to implement strategies to get through it and give each other space - it's not even that it's not working. We've actually been really good lately. But it always feels "temporary" and still like I have to constantly have our issues on my mind. And I just don't want to right now... I want to focus on things I feel I can actually objectively accomplish if I just focus on myself. I don't want to deal with the variable of another person in my intimate life. That feels like such a shitty thing to admit to though.
SnuffleUffleGrass
04-01-2017, 05:02 PM
I once fucked my dad's boss in the ass with a strap-on while he was dressed in women's lingerie. What made me think about that is when I went to the bank today. I was standing in line, waiting for my turn, minding my own business when guess who walks in and stands behind me. He was dressed in his work outfit, with the company logo on the shirt. He's a good looking, clean cut, boyish looks type in appearance, despite his mid 40's age, and not at all the type you'd think would be into kinky shit. When I seen him I had to fight the urge to start laughing. My dad has no idea. Oh, I forgot to add that I had no idea that he was my dad's boss until afterwards.
Hahahah. Awesome. I sometimes have meals with the father of a top Admin cop in my city (Cop's Dad is bffs with a longtime friend of mine.)
OK confession rant- I am haunted by the lame fake "O Face" of a former escorting client of mine. I kept telling myself to stop booking with him & am being punished for taking one last appointment when I needed the money. In a nutshell this guy was using pick up artist tactics to have a FWB relationship with me & I was not going for it (the guy is a mega Narcissist Personality Type in addition to being needy and weird.)
The last time I saw him he was gasping in an exaggerated fashion & making this weird contorted exaggerated face. Like, UGHHHHHHHHHHH.
The memory occasionally pops into my head now when I'm masturbating by myself. Basically this nutter wanted to break boundaries & he kind of succeeded.
TD ; LR - I'm being punished for not losing the number of fucking maniac. I have to work to forget his stupid creepy O face.
buttonpop
04-01-2017, 06:35 PM
Three different people have told me they're in love with me in the past month.
I feel like I'm entering a phase that I've been in once or twice before in my life where I'm at my energetic peak. I'm full of creative inspiration, busy making art, music and writing, and surrounded by all these beautiful, loving people who think I'm the sun and stars and believe in my work. I can barely talk about it because it feels like I'm bragging, but I am dying to share how happy I am with somebody.
A new friend of mine admitted that he ended his 3 year relationship the day after we met. He wasn't expecting anything to happen between us, but having a stronger connection with a total stranger than his long term girlfriend made him realize theyd never fully connect. We had been getting coffee once a week or so and then 2 nights ago he spent the night with me and we had the most incredible sex. He is so fucking sexy to me. Many of you know how much I complain about men & my dissatisfaction with their looks but this guy checks all my boxes. He has long curly hair and he's 6'4'', he has a unique sense of style thats really fashionable (he dresses kind of like a professor? haha it suits him) and super big lips and perfect teeth which are my weakness. And he has the fattest cock I have EVER seen in my life. And he knows how to use it. When we are together we talk about art and spirituality and life-- he's the least shallow person I've ever met, all of our conversations are meaningful. I might fall in love with this guy.
He's an extremely talented artist. The other guy who's in love with me (my friend who I mentioned hooking up with a few weeks ago) is a musician. The european girl isn't an artist but she grew up in the art world and is extremely educated in art and architecture. I love being loved by creative people!! I love them all back but I am not in love with any of them... yet.
I don't know how long this is going to last, but for right now they all know about each other and are fine with me seeing the others. I love being polyamorous.
Legz541
04-02-2017, 02:58 PM
I'm so lazy today. Instead of walking to the lobby for a knife I washed my room key and used it to spread the cream cheese on my bagel.
DonaDiabla
04-02-2017, 06:37 PM
Yesterday, this hot greek guy brought a virtual date with me and I thought it was going to be cool.He is one of my new customers and new to America. However, he complained about everything. So, he was sending restaurant and shopping gift cards. He thought my suggestion of Red Lobster was beneath him. He stated" Girl, Red Lobster is garbage to me and you must eat from Neiman Marcus. You might as well eat at long John Silver's. I am about elegance and formality."He insist on me getting food and shoes from Neiman Marcus. Then he insisted we watch Greek horror film "Death Steps in the Dark" (Which is both super gory and funny at the same time) Personally, I just don't understand how Red Lobster (Middle Class place) is like Long John Silver's?:O But then again, he may think it is garbage because of what he is used to. We need to talk about our virtual dates more before scheduling them.;D
persianprincess
04-02-2017, 09:34 PM
Hahahah. Awesome. I sometimes have meals with the father of a top Admin cop in my city (Cop's Dad is bffs with a longtime friend of mine.)
OK confession rant- I am haunted by the lame fake "O Face" of a former escorting client of mine. I kept telling myself to stop booking with him & am being punished for taking one last appointment when I needed the money. In a nutshell this guy was using pick up artist tactics to have a FWB relationship with me & I was not going for it (the guy is a mega Narcissist Personality Type in addition to being needy and weird.)
The last time I saw him he was gasping in an exaggerated fashion & making this weird contorted exaggerated face. Like, UGHHHHHHHHHHH.
The memory occasionally pops into my head now when I'm masturbating by myself. Basically this nutter wanted to break boundaries & he kind of succeeded.
TD ; LR - I'm being punished for not losing the number of fucking maniac. I have to work to forget his stupid creepy O face.
Totally feel for you, certain clients pop into my head at really inopportune moments and they're always "hobbyists" ...
And definitely always some client I took "last minute" or just to cover something extra I wanted to purchase or some random bills. It's like you know exactly what you're getting yourself into when you book ... but book it anyway ... then their weird little bullshit haunts you.
Aurora_Sunset
04-03-2017, 11:08 AM
Today is day one of eating completely vegan and no alcohol for the next 30 days. I'm really excited about changing my health, but I'm so nervous I'll fail.... Day one is pretty easy when you're all hopped up on motivation, but I expect the first couple weeks in general to be super hard while I fully adjust. I hope I can do it... It would mean a lot to me to accomplish this.
seashell
04-03-2017, 11:10 AM
I'm so lazy today. Instead of walking to the lobby for a knife I washed my room key and used it to spread the cream cheese on my bagel.
Hahaha. I would've simply dipped the bagel in cream cheese. Lazy... or efficient? XD
seashell
04-03-2017, 11:12 AM
I was invited to my high school's 10 year reunion, and the first thoughts that went through my head were, "How do I lie about stripping?" and "Who can I potentially fuck?" Um... guess I should probably stay home.
carmen_b
04-03-2017, 03:27 PM
Gah. I had to put on makeup to scout a new massage shop ( 2 blocks from my house !) and now I regret it ! The lady spoke no English at all so I couldn't even introduce myself and explain I had customers and just wanted an Incall room.
lynn2009
04-03-2017, 04:23 PM
Today is day one of eating completely vegan and no alcohol for the next 30 days. I'm really excited about changing my health, but I'm so nervous I'll fail.... Day one is pretty easy when you're all hopped up on motivation, but I expect the first couple weeks in general to be super hard while I fully adjust. I hope I can do it... It would mean a lot to me to accomplish this.
If you're interested in cookbooks use vegan on the cheap. I got so many compliments on my work lunches from coworkers with the added benefit of actually being cheap.
ScarletKitten
04-04-2017, 04:10 AM
Today is day one of eating completely vegan and no alcohol for the next 30 days. I'm really excited about changing my health, but I'm so nervous I'll fail.... Day one is pretty easy when you're all hopped up on motivation, but I expect the first couple weeks in general to be super hard while I fully adjust. I hope I can do it... It would mean a lot to me to accomplish this.
Congrats on your decision! I know you can do it. :)
Ironically, I had some nonvegan tacos tonight, because Taco Cabana made a mistake. I ordered black bean tacos, but they put refried beans in them instead. Now, I am completely grossed out and feel sick.....I'm never eating at Taco Cabana ever again. Ugh. :/
I love eating a clean, plant-based diet. Animal products gross me out so much.
Legz541
04-04-2017, 04:25 AM
Totally wish I was an escort sometimes. Had this really attractive, fun customer tonight give me like $500ish in less than an hour mostly just to talk. Offered me an additional $1k to visit his hotel. I literally saw the cash...ssssooooooo tempting. Ugh.
miss.a.p1600
04-04-2017, 05:55 AM
^^^^hahaha I'm just thinking the same thing.
I wish I could literally go to some fancy place and pop some pussy and magically open the floodgates of money pouring out to me.
BarbieNYC
04-05-2017, 12:34 PM
I really miss dancing. This semester I am taking the maximum amount of units and I won't be able to go back to work for a while.
I wonder how the clubs have been doing. I'm a little scared to go back because ICE has been raiding all over the place like bus stops, casinos, restaurants. I work at primarily Mexican clubs and don't wanna be there if an ICE raid goes down. *sigh*
seashell
04-05-2017, 03:47 PM
The past two days, I've been pretty carefree. It feels weird. There is no dire situation that I have to take care of. I feel like there must be something wrong with my brain, that it's not freaking out about something. lol
JenniferNorth
04-05-2017, 06:13 PM
Isn't that an awesome-but-scary feeling?!
I have pinned down that I am scared to move forward with my dreams because if I do, I could fail. This is stupid, and I need to get over this shit like, yesterday. I really need to be putting aside money for certs and school for what I want to pursue. I feel like the end game would be so worth it.
LeggingsQueen
04-05-2017, 08:28 PM
Hung out with some old friends today for coffee. They were really stressed out from there jobs. Both getting text and calls. I just sat there and thought. Damn I'm glad I don't deal with those problems. Love having a job where my attitude, body and skills make me money! I'm my own boss. Biggest stress is trying to book multiple clients in a day because I wanna go spoil myself with some shopping!
SnuffleUffleGrass
04-06-2017, 08:58 AM
Today is day one of eating completely vegan and no alcohol for the next 30 days. I'm really excited about changing my health, but I'm so nervous I'll fail.... Day one is pretty easy when you're all hopped up on motivation, but I expect the first couple weeks in general to be super hard while I fully adjust. I hope I can do it... It would mean a lot to me to accomplish this.
Will you update about this? I am too weak to try this yet. lol
Aurora_Sunset
04-06-2017, 03:22 PM
Will you update about this? I am too weak to try this yet. lol
Sure! I'll keep updating. I caved yesterday when I was really hungry while out shopping and got Taco Bell - but still vegan! I made the crunchwrap supreme with black beans, subbed guacamole for the sour cream, and no cheese. Not super "healthy" still, but far better than the original. I find myself getting cranky in the later part of the day - I've gone periods of time without drinking, just naturally, because of my schedule, but I'm not used to feeling the urge to grab a beer after I'm finished with errands and having to skip it, or not being able to unwind with a drink at the end of the night when I'm burnt out on productivity, so it's putting me on edge, I think. I kinda figured that would happen so, while one of the goals of cutting down on/cutting out drinking is that I'll have more time to do productive things in the evening, I'm giving myself permission the first couple weeks to just sit on my ass and watch TV if I'm moody and not feeling up to doing anything - just sit with the feeling of wanting a drink but relaxing without it, and not trying to force productivity in those moments.
One thing I've found with the diet is that I can stay full, but for shorter periods of time. I have to eat more often, which can be tricky. But overall, my sleep is getting slightly better each night, and I can feel the difference in my body already. I have an easier time getting up in the morning, I don't feel bloated, my bowel movements are getting better (if you wanted to know lol), and I've even maintained a pretty rigorous workout schedule every day without feeling weak or anything. In fact, I'm pretty impressed with how hard I've been able to push the workouts and how little i feel sore the next day considering I know I'm very out of shape right now.
lynn2009
04-06-2017, 03:39 PM
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WendiStarr
04-07-2017, 10:31 AM
if you want more unsolicited advice, raw almonds were my favorite snack, especially raw almonds mixed with raisins. I used to keep a baggie in my desk at work but you could also just carry it around with you. If you're interested in almond milk/almond ice cream eventually you'll get an association and eating raw almonds used to taste like ice cream to me.
I should really go back to veganism myself...I did it for over three years.
I was vegan before. I was able to do that for almost 2 years. Be careful with nuts, especially almonds. If you're like me and take snacking on them overboard they can cause you to gain weight. :-/
WendiStarr
04-07-2017, 06:26 PM
I know I shouldn't but I feel like I wish my ex fuck buddy still lived here. He moved out to Tennessee but he still chats with me on webcam and calls my phone sex line sometimes. Pretty sad that an ex fuck buddy has been paying more attention to me than my boyfriend. No action from boyfriend all week and I've been fantasizing about ex fuck buddy every night during self-love time. I don't know what his motive is, seeing as how he now lives an 8 hour drive away. Still..wtf.
JenniferNorth
04-08-2017, 06:19 PM
So, today I stumbled across old pictures of a friend of my husband's that I met not long ago. And she was (still is, I guess) mutual friends with his ex. On her social media, she has a wholllleeeee bunch of pictures of him and ex that she's labeled as "AW! How CUTE!" etc etc. Like you can tell she thought they were the cutest fucking couple ever and I know in her mind there is no one else for him but his ex. I'm not even sure how to feel? Since my ex (husband!) and I didn't even have such lovey-dovey pictures that I can recall (I stayed in a loveless marriage for far too long because I mistakenly thought I had no options whatsoever), I find it gag-inducing almost. I don't know. We are likely moving closer to where this friend of husband's lives, and I feel like resting bitch face needs to be a perma thing around her. I guess I just find it odd, since husband himself has like, none of these pictures of himself and his ex (on social media, his computer, anywhere), yet this friend does, and I find it weird as fuck.
Whatever, I don't go sleeping with his friends and threatening to slit my partner's throat (yeah, his ex, who this friend adores, did both, hence the breakup).
/ end my total cunt behavior.
LoveyDovey
04-09-2017, 04:18 AM
^^ Why would she even do that??? Considering your husband moved on from that trainwreck? Fucking weird.
I think this weirdo custy I have from work is finally getting the hint that I think he is a pervert and he will never ever get in my pants ever.
JenniferNorth
04-09-2017, 07:28 AM
I agree. I noticed she's done the same with other friends of theirs, even though they moved on to other people, too. She's just stuck in 2009 or whatever. I honestly don't get people.
So what did you have to do to make him realize he wasn't getting any action ever? Gag in his face? I hate when people can't take a very simple hint and you have to spell it out for them!
persianprincess
04-09-2017, 07:28 AM
I have so many cops at this point as clients I should literally have some sort of immunity for public service or something like that.
They are all submissive
miss.a.p1600
04-09-2017, 07:37 AM
I think it's very odd when people do that.
Like move on and quit holding on to a past, which didn't serve you and is pretty much over.
Posting pictures with an ex you'll never have again is like locking up your cooch and eliminating your prospects. Dumbest thing ever.