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charlie61
05-02-2017, 09:33 AM
Re: low bank account

I can somewhat relate after paying taxes this last year, though I'm more around the $10k mark. I haven't had this little liquid money since I was like 18!

However, remember that having a ton of liquid money, just sitting in a low - interest checking or savings account, isn't smart! Most of your money should be tied up in investments (e.g. IRA, 401k) and investments backed by collateral (e.g. condo, car - you 'lose' money when you buy a car, but you could sell your car if you needed money = collateral). Sure, it feels safe to me to have beaucoup bucks chilling in a bank account. But unless you're about to buy something large, it just doesn't make good fiscal sense!! You should really only have enough padding for emergency expenses and a few months of rent/living expenses. So calculate that up and aim to keep only that much sitting in there. I live in an area with a high cost of living, so $6-10k is a fairly reasonable amount for me to have liquid. Though even that is probably a bit excessive..

Also, you will always earn far more money off of interest in checkings and savings accounts with credit unions. Fun fact. :) I know you all are super savvy when it comes to finances, but I'm just putting all of this here in case it isn't common knowledge!

♡♡♡

baer45
05-02-2017, 10:39 AM
Agree. Risk averse investment is better than a bank account or under your mattress.

Speaking of emergency money... you just reminded me something. A long time ago I had this crazy fantacy that one day I might get in trouble with something/someone. So I stored a duffle bag in my grandma's house. it has a glock 19 , a few mags, casual clothes and $4000 in it. Not sure the money is still there because I told my grandma that she could use it two years ago when she had a health issue.

lynn2009
05-02-2017, 10:40 AM
........

charlie61
05-02-2017, 10:43 AM
I recently discovered Ulta. Dangerous...

seashell
05-02-2017, 02:43 PM
Omg, I've never had that much $ in my bank account... I've had a habit of dating wealthy guys, so it never mattered until now that I'm poor and dating a poor guy. lol

I confess that my bf is driving me nuts with his moodiness. Yesterday, he was all "Let's do something!" and I threw out a million suggestions, which he would get excited about but then turn down. He said he was feeling stressed/depressed, and wanted to do something but couldn't bring himself to leave the apartment. Eventually he just went to sleep, and I sat around drawing. He wouldn't explain why he's upset, which is even more frustrating. Ughhh

charlie61
05-02-2017, 03:06 PM
I've always had a super skewed perspective on money. When I moved to Tucson in 2013 and was unemployed for a while (on purpose), I had $50k in my savings account alone and *still* had a scarcity complex about money. :eyeroll: Sooooo ridiculous. Still working on taming my anxiety this year after paying off my car loan at $14.5k + taxes at $10k + moving out at ~$3k.

Law of attraction, right? Money comes and goes...

baer45
05-02-2017, 03:41 PM
Money gives me some sense of security. I do get anxious when I don't have a comfortable amount sits in my account. It has a lot to do with that I grew up poor. Money is also the main reason I am in this business. Before i bought the condo, I have all my savings except the 401k in my saving account. About 10 years saving, like $450k, I earned every penny of it. I am very proud of myself though. now I have to start over again for my future goals, buy another property. And I also plan to find a man, get married. FINGER CROSSED. Please be a rich man or someone who has earning potential.

Aurora_Sunset
05-02-2017, 03:50 PM
I'm rewatching The Guild and I am once again seriously considering trying to get into online gaming. Or gaming of any sort. Almost EVERY single person I know games in some way. I have several friends who do tabletop and LARP, my bf has a tabletop thing every week, a bunch of my female friends do MMORPGs online, and my old best friend would do FPS games on Xbox with a headset with other people all the time. The thing is, I got that urge last time I watched the show, tried it for awhile and then didn't care about it enough... which was the second time that I had tried to get into it because I have a lot of gamer friends that talk it up.

I've been so lonely lately and realizing how lonely I am. As weird as it is, now that all of my "I need something from you" friends are gone, I'm super lonely. Like... I obviously am happy to be free of their drama and encroachment on my life, but even if the only times I saw them were during crises every week where they "needed" my help and I was annoyed, at least I saw people and occasionally talked to them. Everyone is gone now... the only people I talk to consistently don't live here, so I've become one of those people who the only person I see on a weekly basis in my boyfriend. I HATE that. It's not even a typical "blowing people off for my bf" thing - I just have NO ONE else to hang out with. And now I don't even have the coworker interaction of my vanilla job anymore.

I'm starting to understand why even super introverted, "I hate people" people turn into gamers. The sense of community. But I don't want to do it just because I'm lonely... Not that gaming is bad in and of itself, but I know that objectively I just don't get that into it, so I shouldn't do it just because of that.

WendiStarr
05-03-2017, 11:27 AM
I put on an act every time I go to my bank in person. Seeing as how my bank is known as being not sex worker friendly, I sometimes think they're going to say,"You know, Miss ______ , you come in here every week depositing large amounts of cash.." Every time I have to go to my bank in person I purposely tend to dress like I did at my former vanilla job..Carhartt jacket, jeans, black steel toe boots, very little makeup, ponytail, and my geeky glasses. Let them think that I'm still sweating my days away doing strenuous physical labor. ;D

chanzep
05-03-2017, 04:11 PM
I go to my bank with my Walmart look, leggings, husbands t shirt and sneakers no makeup.

buttonpop
05-03-2017, 04:19 PM
I can be so dense sometimes.

I looked through all my old posts on here trying to get some insight into myself. The common thread over the past few years was that, ultimately, I date for sex only. I don't know why I didn't realize this sooner but now that I'm taking a dating hiatus its time to get real honest with myself and others about my intentions. Rough, good, no strings attached sex is all I need in life and I need to be upfront and fully honest about that from now on so I stop leading guys on. I'm sure my friends are sick of hearing me talk about my new boo every other month too.

Elektra Luxx
05-03-2017, 09:48 PM
My ex-bf, he's good dad, sweet, so good-looking and I was in completely in love with him, but he was recently divorced and I didn't want to commit. I was totally okay with that. We weren't committed, but exclusive. Right? Wrong! I surprise him at his apartment on a Sunday morning with breakfast and find he with his skinny, tit-less, teenage, bitch, slut neighbor walking around in panties. And I'm like "Oh, I didn't know you had company, well I brought y'all some breakfast, hope you don't choke ASSSSHOLE!!" I didn't want to admit it, but that one hurt and still hurts. I vowed to myself I would stay strong and never see that asshole again and with lynn2009's help I did. Thank you lynn2009, I love you babe, but I let us both down.

That said I screwwww up big time yesterday. I ran into my ex-bf. I really don't want to go into all the details, but he knows just how to get to me. Just what to say and long story short, he just left my apartment awhile ago. Now that he's gone I'm ssssoooo pissed at myself. We laying in bed I literally had to hold my mouth close to stop myself from saying "I love you." I'm pathetic!!!!

I'm still talking to this guy. I told him that I had a moment of weakness when we slept together and that I need time to think and things are not just "great" again. I told him he fucking hurt me. I can't let him come over because he knows how to get to me, but we talk and text, but I need to stay strong. I can't let him treat me like just a piece of ass. Why are relationships so hard for me?

Cashmere Star
05-04-2017, 02:31 AM
I am thinking of becoming an escort.

Violethollywood
05-04-2017, 07:14 AM
I put on an act every time I go to my bank in person. Seeing as how my bank is known as being not sex worker friendly, I sometimes think they're going to say,"You know, Miss ______ , you come in here every week depositing large amounts of cash.." Every time I have to go to my bank in person I purposely tend to dress like I did at my former vanilla job..Carhartt jacket, jeans, black steel toe boots, very little makeup, ponytail, and my geeky glasses. Let them think that I'm still sweating my days away doing strenuous physical labor. ;D

that's the way to do it though. my town is the same way. I bank with PNC though, signed up online so i never have to see those fucks bc there isn't one around me for a few hours .

MY CONFESSION: everytime im working and a guy sends me a pic of his ridiculous small dick and talks about pounding me I laugh hysterically and tell my bf about it. I'm such a bitch. I hate pretending this loser has a monster cock bc in reality no woman could ever feel that pathetic lil thing. LMAO Yes, I'm a bitch but i'm just keeping it real. Like #eyeroll I just wanna tell them your dick is so small and there is no way in hell you would ever have a chance with me . #i'mshallow lol

WendiStarr
05-04-2017, 07:28 AM
I'm still talking to this guy. I told him that I had a moment of weakness when we slept together and that I need time to think and things are not just "great" again. I told him he fucking hurt me. I can't let him come over because he knows how to get to me, but we talk and text, but I need to stay strong. I can't let him treat me like just a piece of ass. Why are relationships so hard for me?

You're not alone. He sounds exactly like my fuck buddy. He was a single dad, divorced, good looking, charming. He also knew exactly what to say to get me to fall for his shit. I could never say no to him and he knew it. He'd just show up at my door whenever he wanted to, knowing I was going to be a sucker who gives in. Men like that are pro's at what they do, sweet talking their way into your life, telling you exactly what you want to hear so you let them in to your life again. You might love him but for men like that everything is a game. They likely have several other women that they string along. The only way to get out of their snare is to cut all contact but I have to admit I'm too weak to do that either. Relationshits suck.

seashell
05-04-2017, 02:58 PM
What is up with me? I'm attracted to every cute person who comes my way... men, women... are my hormones out of whack? Maybe my bf and I have been having too much sex. Is this normal? I feel like a horny teenager, lol

baer45
05-04-2017, 04:45 PM
I'm still talking to this guy. I told him that I had a moment of weakness when we slept together and that I need time to think and things are not just "great" again. I told him he fucking hurt me. I can't let him come over because he knows how to get to me, but we talk and text, but I need to stay strong. I can't let him treat me like just a piece of ass. Why are relationships so hard for me?

You go get a kilo of meth first. Then you get to his place and have the last fuck with him. Put the drugs under the toilet tank. You leave that place and wait for 2 days. Call the cops. He will go away for a long time. ooh la la, problem solved.

miss.a.p1600
05-04-2017, 06:21 PM
This attractive woman asks to sit next to me. I'm like of all the places to sit she sits next to me. Omg I had a straight up lesbian moment.

Elektra Luxx
05-04-2017, 10:22 PM
I am thinking of becoming an escort.

If I could some how talk to my 17/18 year old self, I would tell her not to escort. I was naive and strong willed and loved doing the things I thought would make me seem edgy and disregarded my safety. I apologize if I come across as a know it all.

I will help you anyway I can. PM me if you have any questions.

Cashmere Star
05-05-2017, 03:09 AM
If I could some how talk to my 17/18 year old self, I would tell her not to escort. I was naive and strong willed and loved doing the things I thought would make me seem edgy and disregarded my safety. I apologize if I come across as a know it all.

I will help you anyway I can. PM me if you have any questions.

How come? and how do you feel about escorting now? I would not have been prepared for escorting (nor stripping) at the age of even 20. I am 24 now and it seems like one of those things that if I've been wondering about it for so long, might get my feet wet and get it over with. If I don't like it I don't have to ever do it again.

persianprincess
05-05-2017, 07:37 AM
I regret certain aspects of escorting - maybe not being better informed when I first started and dealing with some dickheads (hobbyists) taking advantage and spending too much time catering to morons who were minimally beneficial. However now with a good handle on things I truly benefit.

I think like everything there are pros and cons, but from a relationship/general life perspective, I would have avoided it had I known better. People do find out, people do know, and now with the internet it goes further and further. So just be prepared for the fallout from it that can happen.

Other than that ... make your money and enjoy doing so.

charlie61
05-06-2017, 08:52 AM
It sounds like a good thread topic. We rarely talk about our regrets on here.. I'd contribute! I recommend starting it in Ladies Only so we can keep it a bit more private.

Selina M
05-06-2017, 10:12 PM
I jammed out to Phil Collins most of the day.

This American Dad scene reminded me I actually really like him for some reason.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QiYQtrY1IZo

rareaspasia
05-07-2017, 10:29 AM
I can't wait to cut my hair short again. It makes me money at the club but I only dance once a week so in June when season ends I'm going to get a cute choppy lob and buy some clip ins.

Jupiter77
05-07-2017, 10:43 AM
my confession is I dont want to be married anymore but im the only one that feels that way and it makes me feel like a jackass.

seashell
05-07-2017, 12:36 PM
One of my childhood friends, who I used to be really close with, got engaged last year. I tried several times last year to hang out with her, but she basically ghosted me, and I never heard anything more about the wedding. I eventually assumed I just wasn't invited. She finally contacted me last week and asked me to be a bridesmaid, but I'm supposed to be in Europe during that time. I told her I'd fly back to be a part of it, since I've known her for 20+ years and she matters to me, but honestly that's a lot of money and effort considering how pissed I was at her for all this time.

buttonpop
05-07-2017, 12:47 PM
^^^ fuck. I would be pissed. I would tell her yes on the condition that you guys have a heart-to-heart about how she treated you this past year. that is a really crappy situation.

miss.a.p1600
05-07-2017, 02:21 PM
There was a member on here, I don't think she's active anymore, but she was clairvoyant and knew more about me (and probably others) than what was posted on he forum. I was in shock and awe at the same time. She was nice and helpful so I wasn't freaked out in a negative way but it was still like dang no matter how little you reveal there is always someone who knows more.

lilylilylily
05-07-2017, 04:32 PM
I had absolutely mind blowing sex with a 21 year old that I met at a bar last night. Omg he was huuuge and knew how to use it. Pretty good for his age. I didn't realize how sexually deprived I was because before the sex all I thought about was food and was always hungry. Today I'm so satisfied that I haven't been hungry and had to force myself to eat. I guess I was making up for no sex by eating all the time? lol.

Elektra Luxx
05-09-2017, 03:20 PM
There was a member on here, I don't think she's active anymore, but she was clairvoyant and knew more about me (and probably others) than what was posted on he forum. I was in shock and awe at the same time. She was nice and helpful so I wasn't freaked out in a negative way but it was still like dang no matter how little you reveal there is always someone who knows more.

I knew you were going to post this. And that little thing you were looking for....it rolled under the bed and is next to that blue sock you lost last week.

SnuffleUffleGrass
05-10-2017, 02:13 PM
There was a member on here, I don't think she's active anymore, but she was clairvoyant and knew more about me (and probably others) than what was posted on he forum. I was in shock and awe at the same time. She was nice and helpful so I wasn't freaked out in a negative way but it was still like dang no matter how little you reveal there is always someone who knows more.

Maybe she was just good at Googling.

LOL. I have a Tarot card reader I've known for over a decade. I'm not making fun of you.

miss.a.p1600
05-11-2017, 09:50 AM
Could be some shady "clairvoyants" ones that would google you or research you then act like they just know however I think there are some people that have a real ability. The trick is knowing the difference and the shady ones can be convincing.

I do think google and artificial intelligence knows more about you than you know about you.

And my confession:

Came across a hot guy in my friends you may know feed. Thanks Facebook. Like instantly could envision myself fucking him. But he didn't look wealthy and he had what looked like two kids. *sigh*

I want to start hustling my friends you may know. I want to believe mark z. serving these men up like virtual strip club customers lol.

WendiStarr
05-11-2017, 10:17 AM
I find myself thinking about and missing fuck buddy(I guess I should say ex fuck buddy now since he moved out of state) way more than I should. He's even been showing up in my dreams. As strong as I try to act, I know I'd be weak if he suddenly called me up to tell me he was in town and wanted to come over. I'd be so pathetic that I'd answer his call on the first ring. He's the only man who's ever made me so weak like this. Any other time I could simply block a number and move on.

SnuffleUffleGrass
05-11-2017, 05:27 PM
Could be some shady "clairvoyants" ones that would google you or research you then act like they just know however I think there are some people that have a real ability. The trick is knowing the difference and the shady ones can be convincing.

I do think google and artificial intelligence knows more about you than you know about you.

And my confession:

Came across a hot guy in my friends you may know feed. Thanks Facebook. Like instantly could envision myself fucking him. But he didn't look wealthy and he had what looked like two kids. *sigh*

I want to start hustling my friends you may know. I want to believe mark z. serving these men up like virtual strip club customers lol.

I discovered that from adding FB messenger to my phone that it's been eavsdropping on my life & putting targeted ads in my FB feed. UGH!!!! Scary Brave New World

ScarletKitten
05-11-2017, 06:08 PM
I find myself thinking about and missing fuck buddy(I guess I should say ex fuck buddy now since he moved out of state) way more than I should. He's even been showing up in my dreams. As strong as I try to act, I know I'd be weak if he suddenly called me up to tell me he was in town and wanted to come over. I'd be so pathetic that I'd answer his call on the first ring. He's the only man who's ever made me so weak like this. Any other time I could simply block a number and move on.

Girl, it sounds like you're in love/ infatuated with him. <3

miss.a.p1600
05-11-2017, 07:25 PM
I find myself thinking about and missing fuck buddy(I guess I should say ex fuck buddy now since he moved out of state) way more than I should. He's even been showing up in my dreams. As strong as I try to act, I know I'd be weak if he suddenly called me up to tell me he was in town and wanted to come over. I'd be so pathetic that I'd answer his call on the first ring. He's the only man who's ever made me so weak like this. Any other time I could simply block a number and move on.

Omg you crack me up! Lol @ answering on the first ring.

It's okay I think we've all been dickmatized at some point in our lives.

Men probably chanting in their caves somewhere talking about penis power lol

ScarletKitten
05-11-2017, 08:01 PM
It's okay I think we've all been dickmatized at some point in our lives.

Men probably chanting in their caves somewhere talking about penis power lol

lmfao.....this is awesome. I am definitely dickmatized myself. And yes to penis power, hahaha.... :pickle: :rotfl:

Wendi, you are not alone honey.

miss.a.p1600
05-12-2017, 06:50 AM
I miss parts of the strip club. I could Unleash my inner findom. and it was okay. Like where else can you order a motherfucker to the ATM to withdraw some cash for you, humiliate and question his manhood if he is too broke, and glimpse in his wallet without looking like a thirsty pickpocket.

Regular dating pisses me off because men try to demonize you if you don't give them the bareback gfe experience for free with no commitment or investment on their end. Strip club forces them to show their hand upfront and pay to play.

I remember some dancer saying how a dude claimed he didn't have any money. She was like liar! Open your wallet and show me. Lol.

seashell
05-12-2017, 11:25 AM
I really don't want to see my mom today. I'm buying her lunch for Mother's Day, so I have to go. I just hope she doesn't start crying. Being around me seems to remind her of her divorce/she vents about my dad a lot. It's exhausting.

Vyanka
05-12-2017, 03:03 PM
I hate being dickmatized. Especially when the guy isn't worth a shit.

miss.a.p1600
05-12-2017, 03:09 PM
^^^you can say that again. I have had instances where I temporarily lost a part of my rational thinking over dudes that had glorious penis / tongue skills - and when I came to my senses I felt completely bamboozled.

SnuffleUffleGrass
05-13-2017, 03:34 PM
I miss parts of the strip club. I could Unleash my inner findom. and it was okay. Like where else can you order a motherfucker to the ATM to withdraw some cash for you, humiliate and question his manhood if he is too broke, and glimpse in his wallet without looking like a thirsty pickpocket.

Regular dating pisses me off because men try to demonize you if you don't give them the bareback gfe experience for free with no commitment or investment on their end. Strip club forces them to show their hand upfront and pay to play.

I remember some dancer saying how a dude claimed he didn't have any money. She was like liar! Open your wallet and show me. Lol.

It's a discussion for another thread but I dated a guy like that who was hiding the fact his family was pretty wealthy.

My "Jedi mind trick" was leveraging customers into feeling I wasn't pushing the money part of the VIP. I know my boobs helped a lot with that lol.

whirlerz
05-13-2017, 07:15 PM
So. Today in church, I got the 'eye' from this guy I like, he's an alderman.
He serves as an usher every week @ Sat mass.
I saw him slyly check me out.

seashell
05-13-2017, 09:24 PM
My bf and I bought tickets to go to Europe together, and teach English for a year... I'm so excited!! I wasn't sure if he was really going to go, but now it's official. He also told a few of his friends about it today. I can't wait... it's going to be an awesome little adventure. ;D

miss.a.p1600
05-14-2017, 01:40 PM
It's a discussion for another thread but I dated a guy like that who was hiding the fact his family was pretty wealthy.

My "Jedi mind trick" was leveraging customers into feeling I wasn't pushing the money part of the VIP. I know my boobs helped a lot with that lol.

Yes that's interesting you mentioned that because I saw a speaker say how sometimes the best ways to get people to buy from you is to tell them it's okay not to. It's like reverse psychology kind of thing.

My last shopping experience and the saleswoman used this tactic on me and I'm just now realizing it. She would show me items/prices and be like you don't have to buy this though if you don't want to. If it's something you kind of want or really want then ego then kicks in and wallet opens. I had not intended to buy anything but she was fairly attractive, seemed genuine, and used subconscious sales techniques and I ended up spending.

And also I do think when you're more relaxed yet confident then the money comes to you so high pressure or bait an switch tactics not necessary although I am convinced a smaller percentage of men get off on the financial domination thing so instead of getting offended like most men then end up being intrigued and turned on

An interesting feeling when you know you're with one of the wealthier customers in the club and the generous ones are the best.

charlie61
05-14-2017, 01:45 PM
I'm a very self-involved person. Not selfish or narcissistic or anything. I'm just very much in my own world. Focused on my own health, thoughts, wants and needs. Definitely creates problems with friendships/ relationships. People feel like I forget about them. And I kind of do.

Aurora_Sunset
05-14-2017, 02:32 PM
I'm a very self-involved person. Not selfish or narcissistic or anything. I'm just very much in my own world. Focused on my own health, thoughts, wants and needs. Definitely creates problems with friendships/ relationships. People feel like I forget about them. And I kind of do.

So many of your posts like this make me feel like I'm not a freak when I'm the same way.

Aurora_Sunset
05-14-2017, 07:37 PM
Over my relatively-many years in the adult industry, I've had a few pretty bad instances. They are definitely the anomaly, and I don't often think about them because I don't want them to define me and I know they don't define me. I've never explicitly sat down and thought about them - I have never shared them with anyone, including on here because I feel like they're my fault and I don't want to think about it. For some reason though, they've been at the forefront of my mind the last week and tonight is really bad. I don't know.

Elektra Luxx
05-14-2017, 09:16 PM
Over my relatively-many years in the adult industry, I've had a few pretty bad instances. They are definitely the anomaly, and I don't often think about them because I don't want them to define me and I know they don't define me. I've never explicitly sat down and thought about them - I have never shared them with anyone, including on here because I feel like they're my fault and I don't want to think about it. For some reason though, they've been at the forefront of my mind the last week and tonight is really bad. I don't know.

Multiple "thanks" for this post.

Is it like when people decide not to get on a particular airplane because they're getting a bad feeling?

SnuffleUffleGrass
05-15-2017, 12:27 PM
In NYC for a friends kidney related surgery - not a transplant - fitting of some PD dialysis thing. Well it didn't go well despite being a simple operation. After days of being unable to go to the bathroom, eat and keep anything down, and getting weaker and weaker, last night he snapped and became delusional.

20 mins of depressed 20 mins of mania and shouting and obscenities and some violence all the way til we got him to the hospital at 8am. We didn't want him to get shoved into any old hospital being his kidney dr was at a specific one.

Well now he is in the ER - still delusional and its not looking good. He punched me last night and today threatened suicide.

So now I am kinda hoping he passes peacefully because I think it's all got too much for him and there's not a kidney in sight.

whoa this is heavy. My thoughts are with you.