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charlie61
05-31-2017, 09:53 PM
Joined okcupid tonight. Had fun filling out the profile after a glass of wine, but now I just feel depressed about it. Like... So many mixed feelings.
miss.a.p1600
05-31-2017, 10:34 PM
I wish the stigma of adult related careers wasn't such a big deal because I had a few visions of being a politician and dominating a mostly male industry. One thing that sucks is getting your past skeletons drug out the closet and having to abide by hella rules. Otherwise I'd be a politician like mayor or governor or some shit.
Aurora_Sunset
05-31-2017, 10:38 PM
Joined okcupid tonight. Had fun filling out the profile after a glass of wine, but now I just feel depressed about it. Like... So many mixed feelings.
I liked filling out my okcupid profile, but didn't enjoy being on there. A lot of my friends are on there, and from what I've seen, it's a good "casual dating" site. Like, you can get some good, fun dates off of there. But that's pretty much what it's for - just fun dating and possibly hooking up. Nothing serious. If you're cool with that, you could have fun on there. I always had issues with it because I'm not a poly person, but I don't think that's in any way a "bad" lifestyle, but the way that questions are worded on there makes it so that if I don't have a specific problem with polyamory or kink stuff and am not like "Omg, gross!" it assumes that I'm all about that stuff... and then all I got was a bunch of kinksters and poly people messaging me. It was like, ok, I'm totally cool with your lifestyle, I don't judge it, but that doesn't mean that that is what I'm into.
If you stay on, a suggestion I got was to have a friend of the opposite sex look at your profile to ensure that you're coming across the way that you actually want to.
seashell
06-01-2017, 12:02 AM
I'm really worried bout my health rn, & trying not to be.. I don't have health insurance bc I was in the middle of a lawsuit when the deadline came up, fearing I'd not have enough to pay that off.
My blood pressure's up, I've been having signs like I could be having mini strokes, which I've already had one so Idk
Do you have anyone around to keep an eye on you just in case? There might also be non-Obamacare insurance companies you could go through... man I hate that they have deadlines, I don't have healthcare either this year for that reason.
seashell
06-01-2017, 12:04 AM
My confession is that I am really really attracted to foreign accents and I have no idea why. Sometimes I wish I had voice recordings of the European guys I dated just so I could listen to their sexy voices again lol.
Aurora_Sunset
06-01-2017, 09:04 AM
My confession is that I am really really attracted to foreign accents and I have no idea why. Sometimes I wish I had voice recordings of the European guys I dated just so I could listen to their sexy voices again lol.
I'll piggy-back off your confession. I also love accents. I love all the typically sexy things. Accents, uniforms, big biceps (omfg, I think biceps are my favorite male body part). I hate admitting that to people though or acting like I'm swooning in front of a guy who has one of these features, because I feel so stereotypical.
chanzep
06-01-2017, 07:22 PM
I keep watching same shows over and over when Im tired so I don't have to concentrate, sometimes im not in the mood to fully focus lol.
DonaDiabla
06-02-2017, 09:16 AM
My confession is I would never do two girl cam show nor phone call. I want all of that money for myself and I do not want to be sharing profits with another chick. Customers keep asking for an two girl phone call but I hate that shit. I do not want to split profits with another cam model or pso ever. You see, I take my income very seriously and I will not allow another person to cut into my income. :)
miss.a.p1600
06-03-2017, 11:16 AM
So this kind of attractive nerdy looking European dude is standing right in front of me and he's holding a medium dark skin brown baby. I am trying not to stare and wonder if that's his biological child.
ScarletKitten
06-03-2017, 02:50 PM
Masturbation has ALWAYS been better than sex to me. For the first time in my life, I have finally found someone in which the sex is sooooo much better than going solo. I have been missing out until now!!! I will never fuck anyone else ever again for the rest of my life. This guy is the quintessence of sex. I am so lucky that I found him.
Yeah so.....he's moved far away from me now. He had to move to another state to go take care of his mom. I had to say goodbye to him today.
baer45
06-03-2017, 09:08 PM
I went to eat steak BBQ yesterday...I didn't stick with my diet.
charlie61
06-03-2017, 10:08 PM
Definitely going through an extended "men are useless and icky" phase over here...
seashell
06-04-2017, 12:07 AM
My confession is I would never do two girl cam show nor phone call. I want all of that money for myself and I do not want to be sharing profits with another chick. Customers keep asking for an two girl phone call but I hate that shit. I do not want to split profits with another cam model or pso ever. You see, I take my income very seriously and I will not allow another person to cut into my income. :)
Yes and yes! Also, the guys who ask for this are such dicks. Like they get all pissy when I tell them no. I can't believe models really do this lol
ScarletKitten
06-04-2017, 12:53 AM
Definitely going through an extended "men are useless and icky" phase over here...
I went through that phase too.....but it didn't last forever.
BTW, I met my current bf (the one who just moved 1500 miles away) from that dating site. I had to kiss alot of frogs to get to the prince, so to speak.
diehardcamgirl
06-04-2017, 02:07 AM
Confession: I really really really want to have a one night stand with a girl. But she has to be a stranger and attractive XD
SimoneGray
06-04-2017, 08:45 AM
Confession: I really really really want to have a one night stand with a girl. But she has to be a stranger and attractive XD
I can't tell you how much I've been thinking about something like this lately for myself as well...I definitely need to get it out of my system or something.
charlie61
06-04-2017, 10:48 AM
I'm so internally focused these days. It feels like I'm suffocating under people's expectations and needs. They don't understand how self work pulls you into another realm, demands your undivided attention. I can't even think about spending time with someone who doesn't Get It. All I want to do is read, write, mediate, take care of myself, eat healthy food, sit in the sauna, go for walks at night.. And I have people interrupting the silence, asking when we're going to hang out next, demanding time and attention..
carmen_b
06-04-2017, 10:55 AM
^ Maybe I can help ! I sometimes will get really self focused and find that social things are best scheduled. For example, if you know you want the next 6-7 days for self work, ask to arrange the next get together 8-12 days ahead . I find my method CUTS flaky people ( we are talking a 100% success rate at cutting flakes here ) . This way, it shows the person they are priority because it's on the calendar.
Also .... lying about work taking up the next 6-7 days is ALWAYS a more palatable excuse for some reason. I will often exaggerate my work hours slightly.
If you think back , you've probably had lonely phases where you WISHED you had more social time ( I know I have ) so it's a good thing if you have people asking to get together as long as it's balanced.
Aurora_Sunset
06-04-2017, 10:57 AM
I'm so internally focused these days. It feels like I'm suffocating under people's expectations and needs. They don't understand how self work pulls you into another realm, demands your undivided attention. I can't even think about spending time with someone who doesn't Get It. All I want to do is read, write, mediate, take care of myself, eat healthy food, sit in the sauna, go for walks at night.. And I have people interrupting the silence, asking when we're going to hang out next, demanding time and attention..
Everything about this.
I cannot stand others' expectations on me, even a little bit, when I'm in a period of trying to figure shit out and grow. I remember another user posting something similar recently. I know I'll want people back in my life eventually, but at the time, I can't handle anyone encroaching on my time.
Sometimes I've tried to tell my closest friends kinda what's going on, and let others just slip away, but even then - a lot of friends, even if they "get it" when I explain it to them logically, still don't really Get It, and act offended. I know too many extroverts and/or people that never truly want to face themselves and go through any period of self-growth, and admit to never wanting to do anything hard or solitary like that, so they'll never get it.
I'm entering another stage like that right now and have been really depressed lately, a lot of it having to do with the fact that I want to be internally focused all the time but everything around me demands my undivided attention and energy. I don't think I can handle it much longer. Thank god I'm moving in a month. I think it will be the time for a clean break and restart from everything grabbing at me right now.
charlie61
06-04-2017, 11:06 AM
Everything about this.
I cannot stand others' expectations on me, even a little bit, when I'm in a period of trying to figure shit out and grow. I remember another user posting something similar recently. I know I'll want people back in my life eventually, but at the time, I can't handle anyone encroaching on my time.
Sometimes I've tried to tell my closest friends kinda what's going on, and let others just slip away, but even then - a lot of friends, even if they "get it" when I explain it to them logically, still don't really Get It, and act offended. I know too many extroverts and/or people that never truly want to face themselves and go through any period of self-growth, and admit to never wanting to do anything hard or solitary like that, so they'll never get it.
I'm entering another stage like that right now and have been really depressed lately, a lot of it having to do with the fact that I want to be internally focused all the time but everything around me demands my undivided attention and energy. I don't think I can handle it much longer. Thank god I'm moving in a month. I think it will be the time for a clean break and restart from everything grabbing at me right now.
Yes. This. This 100%.
Carmen, I try to schedule future time with people, but it always falls on my weekends, when I feel most compelled to turn all of my focus inward. Normally scheduling things out works well for me, but when I'm I the process of descending into myself, any scheduled time with people feels like an imposition.
I'm depressed right now, but in a productive, healthy way (as long as I have the time and space to embrace it). I just want to put all of my relationships on hold/ pause. For a few months, ideally. But they require Maintenance. Ugh..
/threadjack
charlie61
06-04-2017, 05:41 PM
I confess that I have a really intense pet peeve for when people idle their cars. They just sit in the parking lot, idling. Drives me fucking nuts.
DonaDiabla
06-04-2017, 10:52 PM
I confess something about guys with impregnation fetish that makes me cringe. I am not trying to kink shame but this no go limit for me. It never was an big deal before but now this guy that I have been talking to have been expressing this impregnation fetish and I just cringe. Why? Because pregnancy is just not an fetish to me. It is an big deal for me because it is about giving birth to the future of my bloodline and adding to my family tree. I take that very seriously and I find it to be not in my best interest not to discuss this fetish in real life. Giving birth is a very serious matter to me and it is just not all about me.Personally, All that fetish does is make me think of court dates, baby daddy problems, and paternity suits. Rant over! :)
xStacey
06-05-2017, 04:40 AM
I have a date tonight with a stranger who gave me his phone number on a note in Milan.
naughtybustyteen
06-05-2017, 08:01 AM
so gladi found this thread.
I am totally in love with my former therapist.
Let's call him B.
I think aboout him every single day. It so annoying and it really bothers me.
I say love and not cursh cos i think im beyond that now.
Its been nearly 2 years and i'm ready to be doe with it, but still no luck.
WendiStarr
06-05-2017, 10:20 AM
Truth be told I have thought about ex fuck buddy every single fucking day. I've not been able to get him out of my mind and he's been in my dreams. The whole time I was on vacation I kept seeing cars that looked identical to his, guys who looked similar to him, and the real crazy thing is when I was in a touristy city and seen an attraction called Kryptonite(my secret nickname for him). I just returned home today and guess who called me? Him. My "Kryptonite". He told me that he has transferred back to my home state. I know this means that he's going to show up at my place again and I'm going to be weak for him. Like a moth to a flame, I am drawn to him. Then the other part of me feels like total shit because I have a boyfriend. I don't want to lose my boyfriend. I don't want to hurt him. I have strong feelings for him too but in a different way than what I feel for Kryptonite. It's like each one fulfills what the other one lacks. I don't want to give up either one but I know that I can't keep carrying on like this. I am horrible, I know.
miss.a.p1600
06-06-2017, 12:02 AM
I used one of my exes (the one that aggravates me the most) for masterbation imagery and I had a really good orgasm from it. Like wtf?!?
xStacey
06-06-2017, 09:45 AM
Milan is not that fun, I cannot wait to go home on Sunday.
ScarletKitten
06-06-2017, 12:32 PM
I used one of my exes (the one that aggravates me the most) for masterbation imagery and I had a really good orgasm from it. Like wtf?!?
hahahaha....I've done this too. Sometimes the ones I can't stand the most I end up thinking about while masturbating. It's like hate sex, masturbation style. lmao
xStacey
06-07-2017, 07:51 AM
I have a classmate whose boyfriend is a doctor and she wants to introduce me to her boyfriend's best friend. He's 33, good-looking, has a Porsche and speaks 5 languages lol. She was like the only problem is he doesn't like smart girls. So far we were not impressed with the girls he introduced us, they only spoke one language, French, and they never have anything to talk about.
The other girl with us was like oh you both speak 5 languages but different ones, so together you will speak 10 languages and you two will be rich!!!
Elektra Luxx
06-07-2017, 12:59 PM
^^^ Is the other girl playing dumb?
xStacey
06-07-2017, 03:10 PM
No hahahah
seashell
06-07-2017, 07:06 PM
I confess I just bought an iPad Pro that I can't really afford right now, because I really want to do more digital art.
miss.a.p1600
06-08-2017, 12:49 AM
I love reading the comment section of gossip blog sites. Some of the funniest and best reading entertainment.
xStacey
06-08-2017, 03:56 AM
Omfg I was supposed to go on a date with the guy who wrote me the note with his phone number at the restaurant, but i ended up cancelling 4 times although my friends kept saying I should go and he's really hot (I forgot what he looked like but my friends said he's really good looking)...
We start class at 9 am and finish at 9 pm, my classmates are all in a relationship and there's nothing to do here in Milan besides the nightlife, the problem is everybody wants to sleep. I decided well ok I'll accept to go out on a date with him since he's paying and we're going to nice expensive places, if the date is boring I'll leave with plenty of new phone numbers LOL
I decided to ask for his last name and searched him on Facebook and LinkedIn omfg he's really hot and is a director at a luxurious 5-star hotel that costs min $1200 to $8000 for one night near the Como Lake. He's also worked at Bulgari and for the royalty...!!!! Fuck why did I cancel on him four days in a row, now I have like two days left in Milan. If it's fun tonight I'll see him tmrw and Saturday even if it means i'll only sleep 2-3 hours LOL.
I really wanted to go to Armani Prive and Just Cavalli, I asked which one is better? He said Just Cavalli and I asked well can we go to both tonight? He agreed LOL. He kept asking me out to dinner and I asked where?? Because I was concerned about my safety he would say it's a surprise, but it's a very nice place, I thought he was bullshitting and kept declining.... and he wanted to take me visit the Lake Como (probably his luxurious expensive hotel) and on a motor ride but my friends kept saying it's dangerous!!!!!
He works in sales and business development but was shy to talk to me?? Lol
Will update...
Legz541
06-08-2017, 03:02 PM
I really like that so many of my co workers are intimidated by me. This sounds terrible but no one tries to talk to me, stays out of my way and I never get drug into work drama. I'm actually really nice but my resting bitch face is fierce and I walk around with Queen Bitch body language.
miss.a.p1600
06-08-2017, 06:57 PM
If I can tackle this fear of hanging out in new places solo, I am considering going to this charity horse show. Ive never been to any event like this before and it should be interesting.
xStacey
06-09-2017, 03:30 AM
When I play the dating game "right" as I should be, I do not feel anything at all for the guys I date. It's true men love a challenge and to conquer, they do work harder when I play hard to get and the more I make them jump through hoops the more they can't get over me, but I don't have that much fun doing it. I just feel nothing and think I should be compensated for it because it's like working. Is it just me... ? I feel civilian women who don't get usually get paid for it enjoy it more.
Plus when I think business because it reminds me of work, I can't stop myself from weighting what I get and the time invested and it makes everything less romantic.
charlie61
06-09-2017, 08:44 PM
Me trying to cut down on online spending: Okay, now that I've decided to be more responsible and stop buying things I don't need, I can go ahead and buy a few more things that I don't need! #adulting
ScarletKitten
06-09-2017, 08:53 PM
My heart is a fucking mess.
baer45
06-09-2017, 09:34 PM
Me trying to cut down on online spending: Okay, now that I've decided to be more responsible and stop buying things I don't need, I can go ahead and buy a few more things that I don't need! #adulting
When your secret best friend is UPS/USPS delivery man...
WendiStarr
06-10-2017, 06:24 AM
Adult baby/diaper fetish grosses me out. I had to hang up on a caller because I just couldn't. What in the blue ass hell could possibly be arousing about being an adult who is perfectly capable of using the bathroom in a toilet like a normal person but choosing to piss and shit in a diaper for someone else to clean up? I'm a mommy, the oldest of 7, and have worked in a nursing home so I've cleaned up enough dirty diapers to not find it even slightly appealing. Yuck!
miss.a.p1600
06-10-2017, 07:32 AM
That's why I loathe regular dating and in the back of my mind I'm always trying to see what that wallet do.
Regular dating is just .... like a waste of my time. These men have no qualms trying to get every thing they want out of you (for free or very low cost) including your pussy, your time, and mind but very few of them are trying to really invest in you.
They pretend to like you just so they can have sex and once they've fucked they act like "oh I'm not ready for relationship" and play all sorts of devious mind games to try and chase them down for commitment.
Regular dating - it's completely one sided in favor of men. Actually dating in general is like blah because it oven seems like a power battle of sorts. Like who can stay on top, who has control of the relationship, what can "I" get out of this, etc. Rarely do dating partners go in with the mindset of equality it's more like I have to stay on top to prevent the bs that comes with dating.
It's pure bullshit.
When I play the dating game "right" as I should be, I do not feel anything at all for the guys I date. It's true men love a challenge and to conquer, they do work harder when I play hard to get and the more I make them jump through hoops the more they can't get over me, but I don't have that much fun doing it. I just feel nothing and think I should be compensated for it because it's like working. Is it just me... ? I feel civilian women who don't get usually get paid for it enjoy it more.
Plus when I think business because it reminds me of work, I can't stop myself from weighting what I get and the time invested and it makes everything less romantic.
whirlerz
06-10-2017, 07:51 AM
Adult baby/diaper fetish grosses me out. I had to hang up on a caller because I just couldn't. What in the blue ass hell could possibly be arousing about being an adult who is perfectly capable of using the bathroom in a toilet like a normal person but choosing to piss and shit in a diaper for someone else to clean up? I'm a mommy, the oldest of 7, and have worked in a nursing home so I've cleaned up enough dirty diapers to not find it even slightly appealing. Yuck!
I'm so sorry, but this cracked me the fuck up!
Yes, I agree, I was a caregiver for my mom, she was mostly ok but needed a pad as a backup..
Now I can't eat my cereal, lol
xStacey
06-10-2017, 10:12 AM
.......
xStacey
06-10-2017, 01:29 PM
......
xStacey
06-10-2017, 01:40 PM
I think I am starting to enjoy the company of older rich gentlemen more than hot, young and cheap womanizers who don't treat ladies well lol.
carmen_b
06-10-2017, 02:55 PM
You can often cut through some of the B.S. though by just being really clear about what you are wanting ( relationship only, nothing casual ect. ) IF that's what you want.
It'll cut out MANY but leave the good ones left. This is how I met my partner in 2011. I had just HAD IT with no one taking anything seriously and was VERY outspoken about not wanting casual . I think he was one of the rare ones who liked my style . I would have seriously just STAYED single ongoing had he not stepped up!
That's why I loathe regular dating and in the back of my mind I'm always trying to see what that wallet do.
Regular dating is just .... like a waste of my time. These men have no qualms trying to get every thing they want out of you (for free or very low cost) including your pussy, your time, and mind but very few of them are trying to really invest in you.
They pretend to like you just so they can have sex and once they've fucked they act like "oh I'm not ready for relationship" and play all sorts of devious mind games to try and chase them down for commitment.
Regular dating - it's completely one sided in favor of men. Actually dating in general is like blah because it oven seems like a power battle of sorts. Like who can stay on top, who has control of the relationship, what can "I" get out of this, etc. Rarely do dating partners go in with the mindset of equality it's more like I have to stay on top to prevent the bs that comes with dating.
It's pure bullshit.
seashell
06-11-2017, 11:04 PM
I went to an open mic night, just to watch, and it was awesome! I really want to write some intense poetry and read it at the next meetup. It looks like a cool place to meet some artsy and fun people.
xStacey
06-13-2017, 11:57 AM
I hate how fake, two-faced people can be and gossip. Someone reminds me, well everyone is like that in this world. Me replying this is one of the reasons I hate people and rather be alone.
Aurora_Sunset
06-13-2017, 03:39 PM
Really violent fantasies are the only thing that gets me off lately. Like, super fucked up stuff that I don't think I'd be ok with in real life, or even roleplaying. I mean, I have no desire to act out any of this stuff but it's the only thing that gets me turned on enough to orgasm. It's weird.