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Glamourmilf
07-13-2017, 05:42 AM
I'm a beauty product and makeup whore. Seriously, I can't go to a Walgreen's without spending $50 on shit that I don't even need. My closet is full of makeup, skincare products, body lotions, body sprays, etc. I went to Walgreen's to get bug spray and ended up buying a bunch of other beauty product stuff that I don't really need.
I use to be exactly like this. Until I had to pack up my entire belongings, and only had a few hours to do it. Everything went into storage. Then I had to not only move it all myself into my new home, bit by bit, but had the go through it all. Ugh!
Reality check.
I've since become one of those minimalist people who I used to despise.
My new home is clutter free for once, and I'm digging it.
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-13-2017, 06:49 AM
I use to be exactly like this. Until I had to pack up my entire belongings, and only had a few hours to do it. Everything went into storage. Then I had to not only move it all myself into my new home, bit by bit, but had the go through it all. Ugh!
Reality check.
I've since become one of those minimalist people who I used to despise.
My new home is clutter free for once, and I'm digging it.
I've had to do that due to packing up a storage unit. My advice, donate unopened health & beauty products to a women's shelter. It will be appreciated.
Aurora_Sunset
07-13-2017, 11:36 AM
Yeah, ok, remember when I was supposed to break up with my boyfriend? I didn't. I tried for literally 6 hours and he would not stop crying, pestering, and would NOT leave my damn apartment until I finally was just so emotionally exhausted that I caved.
Things haven't even been bad since then. I just don't want to be in a relationship. I'm not ready for the super serious, settle-down type of commitment that this relationship would be if he had his way.
He really is a great guy and a good boyfriend. I just... idk Has there ever been someone that you know you should WANT to be with, but you just don't?
Elektra Luxx
07-13-2017, 02:13 PM
He really is a great guy and a good boyfriend. I just... idk Has there ever been someone that you know you should WANT to be with, but you just don't?
Yes my recent ex-bf. I decided that I need to give it another try because "He really is a great guy and a good boyfriend. I just... idk Has there ever been someone that you know you should WANT to be with, but you just don't?"
Well he doesn't know he's getting another chance (because I'm screwed up and I need to feel like I'm with someone or I get crazy at night or when I'm alone, but if I'm with someone, even if that person doesn't know I with, but I know I'm with them, I can be alone and not go crazy. Sheeesh!!!), but he knows I'm spending more time with him and gets all benefits that go with being a boyfriend. So he's okay with it.
whirlerz
07-14-2017, 10:35 AM
There's a bed left out in the hall from room next door..I really hope they make that room into a single, that'd be great then Id only have to contend w/2 ppl, instead of a potential roomful (last week 6 loud idiots were in the room, supposed to be 4 max)
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-14-2017, 11:42 AM
Ugh this is tough to admit but I've been really emotional this week. I'm sick, work is pissing me off & my boyfriend is being a bitch (due to his depression & medical issues.) I can't wait until I'm just responsible for myself again. He's really dragging me down & pissing me off. Nothing but complaints and little boy shit.
Elektra Luxx
07-15-2017, 09:21 PM
I love spending a rainy day cuddling with a guy with big muscle arms, broad shoulders, ripped stomach and muscle chest, but cuddling with my nerdy, slightly chubby guy is very, very nice too. We've spent the whole day laying on the couch with our legs tangled together, cuddling, snoozing and canoodling and it was so wonderful. Best day in a long time.
SimoneGray
07-16-2017, 11:21 PM
I think I want to Sugar Date because I miss the thrill of the first time I did it...but I also think that maybe I just want to do it to get laid...and that is not a good mindset to begin that type of work. I wish I could figure it out, so that I can either decide to proceed and invest my time in it, or just forget about the whole idea completely.
I kinda also wish I didn't feel I have to "work" in order for IRL men to want me...but sometimes I feel that my camming/sex work gets so far in the way of any normal relationship that the only way to get that contact etc is to turn it into a job. I don't know if any of what I've said even makes sense.
whirlerz
07-17-2017, 08:41 AM
Yea^ Check out Tumblr, look up various sugar tags, lots of info much to sort through
WendiStarr
07-17-2017, 09:50 AM
I wish it was possible to adopt new parents. That would be cool to go somewhere and say,"Hi, I'd like a cheesy 80's movie dad and one of those 1950's sitcom sweet, caring moms, please."
JessaJade
07-17-2017, 10:51 AM
I'm such a terrible person. I am meant to be going to a film meetup but feel exhausted and unsociable today...so I am putting a baseball hat on and going to sit on the opposite side of the cinema.
I do actually want to see the film just not meet and talk to anyone. LOL
baer45
07-17-2017, 11:16 AM
This girlfriend of mine is going through a divorce right now. After listenning to her for 30 minutes I could not help taking his side... despite of other issue she mentioned, sex is definitely a main reason their marriage didn't work out. Get this, she never felt comfortable to give blowjob and tried only once during their two years marriage. They have sex twice a month "regularly ". She told me that the medication for her depression made her sex drive at very low level. She doesn't know what I do but I make money off husbands like hers. Being a "good friend", I am siding with her, and hoping she gets as much as she can from him.
xStacey
07-17-2017, 05:49 PM
The managing partner next door is so hot, I would sleep with him and it won't be even for a promotion, because I know I can get promoted without sleeping with the boss LOL
seashell
07-17-2017, 08:28 PM
I reeeally don't do well under pressure. I wanted to get back to Europe so badly, but now my ex-boyfriend is coming, my mom is coming, and I have friends there expecting me to show up. It's making me second guess myself. What if I'm dead broke by the time I pay for my apartment there, or I can't make enough money to afford everything I need? Part of me is like, fuck it... just move to Portland with your cat and travel on the weekends. It was my original plan, last year. It would be the safe thing to do.
I feel shitty about being in this situation, not really having a home or a direction. Once I move, it will be kind of resolved. But it's a gigantic ordeal, no matter where I go.
ScarletKitten
07-18-2017, 03:57 AM
I just masturbated by rubbing a bottle of hair vitamins up against my clit and soaking wet vulva. Omg, it was so good. I've been so sexually frustrated, so I am getting creative with getting off. Maybe we should start a masturbation thread.
xStacey
07-18-2017, 04:04 AM
Sex work is more stimulating than my internship.
Glamourmilf
07-18-2017, 08:57 AM
I just masturbated by rubbing a bottle of hair vitamins up against my clit and soaking wet vulva. Omg, it was so good. I've been so sexually frustrated, so I am getting creative with getting off. Maybe we should start a masturbation thread.
Do it bb!
NOW you're talking my language!
baer45
07-18-2017, 05:53 PM
I laugh everytime when i look at my signature.
WendiStarr
07-18-2017, 06:27 PM
I can't go to sleep without molesting myself first.
lilylilylily
07-18-2017, 07:05 PM
Same here! It's a habit that I don't wanna break lol
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-20-2017, 07:47 AM
I'll write a post about this later but I confess I finally realize why one of my brothers has been such a shithead to me lately. He's depressed due to a few good reasons, but the main one is one of his ex-friends is apparently a child molester. (Part of why he cut this guy off is ex-friend would dump his kids off on brother....& bro caught on to the user behavior.)
Coincidentally I suspected this ex-friend was capable of horrible shit because he said some really weird things to me & I made it clear I had a low opinion of the guy. I guess I was right...
snakesandmonkeys
07-20-2017, 07:21 PM
I hate being a strong, independent woman.
I got my wisdom tooth pulled yesterday, and then had to get my flat tire fixed before the novicane wore off.
Today I worked a 12 hour shift, taking care of other people, in pain, cause I can't take pain killers at work.
I just wanted to come home to someone saying "get in bed babe, I'll make you some soup"
But I came home to "what's for dinner mama" and the dishes I didn't do yesterday.
I know I don't have it the worst. I have dental insurance, I have a good job... I'm just feeling really whiney right now :)
Elektra Luxx
07-20-2017, 09:19 PM
I can't go to sleep without molesting myself first.
A good hard, toe curling orgasm helps me relax.
xStacey
07-21-2017, 05:23 AM
I've been told I have zero chance at all with the hot Australian Managing Partner of the firm. Supposedly when he was single and alone here he never went out to bars or anything and the only thing he loves in life is work. That's what makes him so attractive, the fact that he's unacessible! I obviously have daddy issues.
WendiStarr
07-21-2017, 07:43 AM
^ You're definitely not alone there. I have daddy issues, too.
seashell
07-21-2017, 04:41 PM
I went on a little mini vacation to San Francisco, to distract myself from all the stress going on in my life, and I just freaking love traveling. It's a high, getting lost and exploring. Also, I met a guy and made out with him on the pier last night, overlooking the bay. I forgot how fun it is to be single.
baer45
07-23-2017, 07:00 PM
The best kind of relationship in my mind is: the woman worships the man and the man spoils the woman.
Aurora_Sunset
07-24-2017, 06:14 AM
I've been starting to seriously think about hanging up my heels. I'm still going to try tackling touring in September-October to get the experience and hopefully hoard some money, but after that, if I get the EMT job I want, I think I will focus mostly on that (it'll pay a lot better than my old one). Or, even if I don't get into that company, maybe try to get a full time bartending gig at a nearby bar or restaurant and see if I can live off of that. I'll probably keep my lines of communication with established clients open for the occasional appointment to help out in the beginning, but will take my ads down and start to phase out.
I've loved the last few years and think the adult industry can be a lot of fun. But the social isolation part is starting to get to me. I'd like to soon move on to the next phase of my life where I can look back at this period fondly, but am otherwise normal and able to socialize normally.
I don't want to tell any of my IRL friends this though, because they'll start getting all condescending about how "happy" they are for me "finally moving on and starting my life" or some bullshit like that. And if I don't entirely quit really quickly, they'll start giving me even more stupid comments about it. I hate that people can't seem to comprehend that wanting to get out of the adult industry eventually doesn't necessarily mean that I abhor it or am going to look back on this time in my life as a "mistake" or "wasted time." I am thrilled with the fact that it was a big part of my life for as long as it was, and I want to look back on it fondly and proudly. I just know that it will eventually come to an end to make way for new chapters in my life. But that doesn't mean I want to sweep it under the rug or have people badmouth it the second I quit.
I am, however, irrationally worried that I'll feel boring without it. I know I have other things going on in my life, but I feel like a weird goody-two-shoes without my "secret double life." I don't want to drift into a depressing, overly-normal life and stop caring about my appearance or coming across as having a dark and wild side. I know there are plenty of people who have no idea what I do, and they obviously still like me. But I just worry about how I'll feel.
22lligm
07-25-2017, 07:59 AM
I'm debating whether or not I want to hang up my stripper heels. I'm thinking I might wanna move back home, get a 'normal' job, and stop dancing. Or maybe just dance every now and then but not regularly. Not sure.
EDIT: Omg Aurora I totally did not even read your post until after I posted mine.. LOL! We're in the same boat.
WendiStarr
07-25-2017, 09:19 AM
I've been doing the whole independent woman thing for a while now, paying my own rent and bills. I wish I didn't have to bust my ass so hard. Bf shows no signs of ever wanting to live together. I'm seriously considering going back to escorting. I want to go back to school, finish my degree, have my own business, and do something more with my life, not be stuck in the same spot. Due to my custody arrangement I can't just move out of state with my daughter. Ex(more like his parents since they're wealthy and she's their only grandkid) won't let me leave state with her. I'm stuck here for another 10 years since the age at which a child can legally decide who she wants to live with was increased to frickin' 18. I'm not leaving without her. I'm 30 and I feel like I should be further ahead in life by now.
whirlerz
07-25-2017, 10:36 AM
Yea, I can relate^. I'm just taking library classes for now, going to take some online classes, puter I ordered s/b here today
I so wanna GTFO of this hotel.
Iost an earring taking off this dress I tried on, s/b in room here, going to look & straighten up
SD upset me yesterday, I was making a turn earlier & a truck almost hit me
whirlerz
07-25-2017, 07:46 PM
Whoo hoo, found my lost earring! :)
Elektra Luxx
07-26-2017, 03:53 AM
I've been starting to seriously think about hanging up my heels. ....
I'm debating whether or not I want to hang up my stripper heels. I'm thinking I might wanna move back home, get a 'normal' job, and stop dancing. Or maybe just dance every now and then but not regularly. Not sure.
EDIT: Omg Aurora I totally did not even read your post until after I posted mine.. LOL! We're in the same boat.
With the new job and worrying about my sister, I haven't been on a appointment in weeks. So my hooker heels are hung up, but they are hung up by the door. There are some clients that are so much fun, pay so well and are so nice that I might make an exception.
baer45
07-26-2017, 07:19 AM
With the new job and worrying about my sister, I haven't been on a appointment in weeks. So my hooker heels are hung up, but they are hung up by the door. There are some clients that are so much fun, pay so well and are so nice that I might make an exception.
Escort thing doesn't work well with boyfriends. You know that.
Elektra Luxx
07-26-2017, 09:37 AM
Escort thing doesn't work well with boyfriends. You know that.
Yes, I know.
ScarletKitten
07-26-2017, 06:14 PM
I've been feeling extremely bipolar lately. Like, more bipolar than usual.
WendiStarr
07-27-2017, 06:57 PM
I like to wait until nighttime to take my trash out to the dumpster. I don't care for nosy neighbors trying to make conversation with me every time I throw trash out during the day or Nazi lady staring at me from her balcony, which overlooks the dumpster.
Randi Starr
07-27-2017, 07:11 PM
So many of my clients love to know they are the only one I see that particular day. What they don't know won't hurt them!
whirlerz
07-27-2017, 07:11 PM
Yea, Wendi you're like me.. today I had a hair appt w new stylist (same salon tho) he was making convo like where do I live etc which I don't wanna talk about since I live in a dump hotel so fortunately I derailed that..then he mentions I 'switch stylists' a lot::) which I have a couple times, wtf cares, this time I just wanted my roots touch up before the weekend & everyone's booked.
I got anxiety there later, while styling my hair I so wanted to gtfo of there I left my sparkling water behind, which irritated me, I need it for my reflux issue.
& I can get it across the street, but guys in there are pigs so..
lilylilylily
07-27-2017, 08:02 PM
Same here, i avoid my neighbors like the plague.
I bought leggings today in the children's clothing section lol. Extra large fit me perfectly and they were 4 bucks
WendiStarr
07-27-2017, 08:09 PM
^ Right, yes! I can't stand when people ask questions and it's like you know damn well you can't tell them the truth. You'd just be giving them something to gossip about, I feel.
Randi Starr
07-27-2017, 08:27 PM
Same here, i avoid my neighbors like the plague.
I bought leggings today in the children's clothing section lol. Extra large fit me perfectly and they were 4 bucks
$4 bucks nice!!! I hope they last! last time i bought leggings for that price they practically fell apart in the wash
lilylilylily
07-27-2017, 08:43 PM
The quality actually seems better than the last pair I bought which was around 10 bucks
whirlerz
07-27-2017, 10:50 PM
^ Right, yes! I can't stand when people ask questions and it's like you know damn well you can't tell them the truth. You'd just be giving them something to gossip about, I feel. I have this one nosy neighbor who makes it her mission to watch me. Whenever I go anywhere, she's looking out her window, watching. Whenever anybody comes over, she'll come out in the hall and watch us walk up the stairs. She made a comment to me recently about why do I have so many guys. My bf comes over almost every day. My brother comes over a lot too, sometimes he'll have his male butt buddy with him. Ex fuckboy used to be stalkerish, randomly showing up, and hanging out in the parking lot or hallway of my apartment. Ex comes over sometimes to pick up or drop off my daughter. Other times his dad or uncle is the one picking or dropping my daughter off at my place. She likes to be annoying and ask, "Is that your bf?". Nazi apartment manager lady is nosy too. If she happens to be outside when someone comes over and sees them park in one of my designated parking spots, she'll walk right over to them and ask who they're coming to see. If they say my name then she'll ask questions like,"Oh, is she your daughter?" when I used to go outside during the day to get my mail or throw trash out, she'd be asking me if that was my dad, uncle, bf, or who was that that came over. So annoying.
OMG, that'd annoy the fuck out of me!
baer45
07-28-2017, 12:38 PM
Sometimes I just wish a members here can just fuck off. Get off my back already! I couldn't care less to what she had to say in a subject and would just avoid her since she's a pathetic loser. People don't have their own shit together like to interfere others business.
To be clear, I am not talking about you "wish". It's someone else.
Elektra Luxx
07-28-2017, 01:44 PM
Sometimes I just wish a members here can just fuck off. I couldn't care less to what she had to say in a subject and would just avoid her since she's a pathetic loser. People are don't have their own shit together like to interfere others business.
I think we all know who that someone else is that you're referring to and I don't appreciate it. Pathetic loser? That's a little harsh. I admit that I don't have my shit together most of the time and I do have my faults, but a pathetic loser, I don't think so.
Instead of members being asked to "fuck off", we should all "fuck on"!
WendiStarr
07-28-2017, 03:24 PM
Well, damn I thought this was a place where sex workers could go to find others to talk to with less judgement and maybe make friends with. Elektra, I don't see where she said you specifically. It could be any one of us but for the record, I don't think that you're a loser. I'd prefer to ignore someone over trying to start drama.
baer45
07-28-2017, 05:00 PM
I think we all know who that someone else is that you're referring to and I don't appreciate it. Pathetic loser? That's a little harsh. I admit that I don't have my shit together most of the time and I do have my faults, but a pathetic loser, I don't think so.
Instead of members being asked to "fuck off", we should all "fuck on"!
LOL, WTF, Ava, stop messing with people. Many people don't know you are joking.
Anyway, She's not a frequent poster here in ladies only section. I think. I might have turned on the ignore mode in my brain though. :)
whirlerz
07-28-2017, 05:12 PM
Anyway, I think I could have fibromyalgia..
& I don't like the jumpsuit I ordered
PinkPopcorn
07-29-2017, 06:40 AM
Sometimes I just wish a members here can just fuck off. Get off my back already! I couldn't care less to what she had to say in a subject and would just avoid her since she's a pathetic loser. People don't have their own shit together like to interfere others business.
To be clear, I am not talking about you "wish". It's someone else.
Maybe its best to confront that person privately rather than making other girls feel uncomfortable.