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baer45
08-20-2017, 04:34 PM
God I hate drug dealers. Just saw a dead person on the street I go shopping, he looks so young, so thin. So many lives, poor kids from the bad neighbourhood don't have a chance.

Ruined my fucking day. I swear in another parallel life, I would be gunning down every one of those mutherfuckers.

lilylilylily
08-20-2017, 06:07 PM
I'd totally ride their faces.[/QUOTE
Miss a.p love this

WendiStarr
08-20-2017, 06:18 PM
God I hate drug dealers. Just saw a dead person on the street I go shopping, he looks so young, so thin. So many lives, poor kids from the bad neighbourhood don't have a chance.

Ruined my fucking day. I swear in another parallel life, I would be gunning down every one of those mutherfuckers.

Sorry that you had to see that but I hear you. I hate them too and I hate the drugs themselves. I have drug addicted relatives and former friends who are drug addicts and quite a few of them have died as a result of drug overdoses. The whole drug thing pisses me off.

whirlerz
08-20-2017, 06:23 PM
God I hate drug dealers. Just saw a dead person on the street I go shopping, he looks so young, so thin. So many lives, poor kids from the bad neighbourhood don't have a chance.

Ruined my fucking day. I swear in another parallel life, I would be gunning down every one of those mutherfuckers.

Yea, I know..a couple months ago, some guy(s) may have tried to break in
I remembered I'd seen them standing around previously, they didn't look like they were staying here. The guy that works across the street had seen them, he said they are crackheads
Later I found a needle by the bushes.
Also, the opioid Crisis, read, "teen crash into [email protected] 100 mph" in this section - she killed 2 kids
Someone else killed 5 bicyclists on that shit
Really horrible

miss.a.p1600
08-20-2017, 06:51 PM
God I hate drug dealers. Just saw a dead person on the street I go shopping, he looks so young, so thin. So many lives, poor kids from the bad neighbourhood don't have a chance.

Ruined my fucking day. I swear in another parallel life, I would be gunning down every one of those mutherfuckers.

Most of them are narcissists to the tenth power.

I can never understand how they claim to have a meth or heroin crisis with people ODing .... like they don't know who the dealer is. I halfway think that law enforcement/pharmaceutical companies are in cahoots with dealers gettingkickbacks or something.

miss.a.p1600
08-20-2017, 07:22 PM
Ok. Now I'm addicted to swiping left and right.

But when the dude is not your type and you accidentally swipe right though......ooops

BarbieNYC
08-21-2017, 07:56 AM
I don't know if I ever posted this before but I grew up in my mom's house and that place was haunted like crazy and the occurrences got worse the older I got. I moved in with my dad as soon as I could because I couldn't handle it anymore. She's had tenants move out pretty quickly after moving in but she has never wondered why.

She went on vacation for a while and asked me to house sit and water her plants. I literally just go over to water the plants and turn the lights on at night. I won't stay there. I feel like an angry presence follow behind me when I walk around turning the lights on.

It's definitely demonic because one time we tried to cleanse the house and I got scratched on my legs in 3's. Shadow figures and red eyes were common in that house. I honestly don't know how I lasted as long as I did. My mom sages her house a lot which helps for a little bit but it's not enough and it always comes back.

She's never had anything happen to her in the 30 years she has lived there but her attitude has gotten worse and worse over the years. She's a downright nasty mean woman and i know even with aging people can't get that mean that quickly and I worked with the elderly. I feel like it feeds off of her or uses her because everyone tells me before my mom bought the house she was a sweetheart.

I've tried convincing her to sell the house. Even bribed her by offering to help her buy a house somewhere else. Her neighborhood is nicknamed "cracktown" her neighbors are awful and disrespectful, and the city she wants to move to is very affordable and nice. But she won't let go of this evil house. Smh

I'm not sure why I posted this. But last night I got the ultimate heebeejeebees at her house and I think it had to do with the solar eclipse.

seashell
08-21-2017, 08:19 AM
I confess I had a terrible day, and I'm probably going to pick up a pastry later to make up for it.

whirlerz
08-21-2017, 08:58 AM
Barbie, I know my mom who was sweet natured, got Alzheimer's & could be mean/hard acting/strange @ times, just saying.
There's a true story written by a retired NY cop, (Ralph Sarchie) "Deliver Us from Evil", it was made into a movie also.
There's a short documentary on you tube about him, check it out
This guy would go to homes & do clearings, sometimes w/a priest.
Have you considered having a priest or religious person bless the home again?
Just throwing out some ideas for you.
Good luck hon
Edit, I'm in IL, attended a GREAT home buyer seminar (free, incl lunch) there's a lot of grants out there to help people, I know we're in different areas, but this was a HUD approved seminar, I learned a TON!

Grace108
08-21-2017, 10:32 AM
Last Tuesday I had shellac, by Friday was starting to come off. I couldn't go back since today. In this Chinese shops prices are really good, but the customer service is almost cheaper..
When I explained I need to have it redone they barely could understand, or were ignoring me. I don't know if the guy was thinking I was lying or was just annoyed to work... Is almost a year I go to the same nail shop and this happened twice, don't know if this is because of the job or because of the quality of the polish. I am tented to pay 10 more and be considered as human as well!

miss.a.p1600
08-21-2017, 02:02 PM
Omg

Sexy ass dude request to follow me on Ig

I would let him drink from this fountain anytime!

Can't be thirsty.

Must wait at least 30min to accept request.

charlie61
08-21-2017, 11:44 PM
I am so, so thankful i moved out. Pretty sure my partner/ex/whatever is relapsing again. It's unthinkably sad. But at least I'm independent and separated from it this time. I have SW to thank for encouraging me out of that situation. I am so thankful.

ChocoChanel
08-22-2017, 12:49 PM
.......aaaaaand that awkward feeling when you see your relative served up in you potential matches.........and his ass is married.

Not only am I disturbed by seeing someone I know, my my own damn relative (incest much? Gross), and this dude is married and just had a baby.

Sigh

Are all men fucking cheaters? Wtf?

Surely he can't be on here trolling for pussy. Maybe just business networking or friendship or something.

Idk. I'd rage if I discovered my husband on a damn dating app I wouldn't care what reason.

giiiiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrrrrrrlllllllllllllll.... remember that show Cheaters!? they can't even catch them like that anymore with all the technology and texting and stuff. You ain't even gotta leave the house to cheat. BUT! bumble does have a "friends" function, but I though it was for girls to meet other girl friends. I guess It could be for networking too!

seashell
08-22-2017, 01:32 PM
Sometimes I look at people around me who seem so well-adjusted and have natural social skills, and I feel so jealous. Like it wasn't my fault that my parents weren't around growing up, or that I was an isolated only child. I was extremely socially anxious until a few years ago. I'm 28 and I still wish I didn't have to work so hard to just seem normal.

WendiStarr
08-22-2017, 03:13 PM
I've stopped body rubs and sexy house cleaning for now due to an asshole stalker former client and I'm hating this. I miss the instant gratification of cold, hard cash versus playing the waiting game for webcam and pso earnings and hoping that clips sell. I hate stalkers.

Grace108
08-22-2017, 05:36 PM
Need to say I really miss the previous club and would like to go back, because of the money and prestige... I was complaining recently all the time about long hour, the old carpets, etc.. I felt like i was belonging to it and got bit too full of myself i admit. Until when i approached the owner who was in bad mood :/
But now I realised how much I grown in there. I set my life in line thanks to that place. And now that is difficult to find a similar place in town I feel like crying. I don't want to go in a lower club where they touch me all over. Sorry, i did it in the past but now is just difficult go back.
In that place I was making more money than any other club and I was doing less than any club.

whirlerz
08-22-2017, 08:09 PM
I've picked out a couple roommate ads, yet I'm kinda scared.
This motel or hotel it calls itself is draining, not to mention storage.
Then there's the Merc retrograde, where you're not supposed to change things
Ugh

JaceyLynn
08-22-2017, 08:55 PM
I confess I might have fallen in love with a 8+ year regular. Its not about the money or anything like that. Its the devotion.

xStacey
08-23-2017, 08:09 PM
I tried anal three times but it was always with guys I dated that were not good in bed at all, the sex sucked and I didn't really enjoy it. I always loved ass play though so I was willing to try it again in the future with someone I have chemistry with in bed. I tried it last night for the first time with the British and loooved it!!

ScarletKitten
08-23-2017, 11:09 PM
I'm drunk, and I'm tired of trying to find meaning in life. I'm tired of trying to find love and all that shit. I just want to be happy and content. I just want to live and not be suicidal anymore. Just live in peace. I'm not asking for much, just to be content. Fuck all this shit man.

SnuffleUffleGrass
08-24-2017, 01:38 PM
I confess I might have fallen in love with a 8+ year regular. Its not about the money or anything like that. Its the devotion.

Can you share more? Two of my long term regulars in Love turned out to be really creepy & awful once they got to know me better. It stopped me from cultivating regulars.

If it works out for you that's great. I just had a bad experience.

ChocoChanel
08-24-2017, 01:46 PM
Can you share more? Two of my long term regulars in Love turned out to be really creepy & awful once they got to know me better. It stopped me from cultivating regulars.

If it works out for you that's great. I just had a bad experience.

aww yikes. I know this youtube chick from MCF met her BF on there. He was a reg and quit his job and moved to California and they now live together and are pretty cute. But you never know.

Grace108
08-24-2017, 03:39 PM
I know few girls that ended up with a long time regular and they do well

BarbieNYC
08-25-2017, 07:51 AM
Laptop shopping is so nervewracking.

My little 2-in-1 tablet hybrid I bought when I first moved to New York is dying out on me :( of course it would happen during mercury retrograde and right before school starts. I haven't been using it at all because I don't want it to die out on me completely. I've been online laptop/tablet shopping and the options are overwhelming. My 2-in-1 tablet was absolutely perfect for school but they don't make the model anymore. My dad has a microsoft surface that is amazing which I use for schoolwork but he freaks out whenever I bring it to school. I'm also moving out and will need something I can use at my new place. I don't plan on buying any electronics until after mercury retrograde so I'm just gonna use the school computers all day until it ends.

LoveyDovey
08-25-2017, 08:02 AM
Yesterday I was dreaming of becoming a hermit. Just don't want to deal with negative people and get hurt/annoyed/pissed off/stressed out anymore. I want to live in peace.

miss.a.p1600
08-25-2017, 11:41 AM
Finally went on "date" with one of the handful of dudes I met online

He was cool. A bit older and divorced and talked a lot about himself but seems kind so far and I like how he took initiative because I hate men chatting all cotdamn day and night without every trying to pick up a phone, and set up a date. Cheap bastards!

I just hope that divorce didn't suck him dry which I think it may have. Ugh!!!! I need a man with earning power.

lilylilylily
08-25-2017, 02:23 PM
Yesterday I was dreaming of becoming a hermit. Just don't want to deal with negative people and get hurt/annoyed/pissed off/stressed out anymore. I want to live in peace.

I feel you!

miss.a.p1600
08-26-2017, 01:15 PM
The dude asked me on a dinner date. So far he's light speed ahead of the other dudes I matched with.

I'm kind of excited but wtf at the same time. I wish he would ask me 24 hrs or more in advance so I can prepare adequately now I feel like I'm in a rush and so I had to stipulate the time frame and area or wait another day.

We shall see.

Well decided to reschedule for another day....thank goodness....I really just want to be an introvert today.

He said he would call me - and did - so so far he seems like a man of his word.

Grace108
08-29-2017, 03:23 PM
Getting my head around soo many different things.. I just hope to have the energy to give something. Do it properly. At times as this job seams fun one may get confused and ending up don't giving out nothing but rather wanting only to take: And I think that's the beginning of things start to go wrong if is too much in that way. (do you understand what I mean?)
In short: I need to deal with people and I need to find the right channel to recharge my batteries.

BarbieNYC
08-31-2017, 11:19 AM
I'm moving out and feel a little sad about it. I moved out when I was 17 and moved back home around a year and a half ago to go to school. After being on my own for about 7 years it was a really rough transition living with my dad. All i wanted to do was save up and move out but it was nearly impossible with school and not really being able to work. Now that the day has finally come I am delaying packing my things up. I will miss my dog and my stepmom dearly.

I'm only moving 45 minutes away so I'm halfway between LA and my hometown. My school schedule is pretty lax this semester so I'll be working more but I am definitely carving out time once a week to visit.

It's just so weird. When I was home all I wanted to do was find a place and move out. Now that it's finally happening I don't want to go :(

whirlerz
08-31-2017, 04:02 PM
Keep 'em in rotation!

Legz541
08-31-2017, 04:18 PM
I'm pretending I'm ok with my recent weight gain because I'm getting ssssoooooo many compliments but in reality I'm so uncomfortable with it. Ugh.

BarbieNYC
08-31-2017, 04:50 PM
^^I've found that no matter whether I gain or lose weight there's always someone that says I look better at that weight. Do what feels best for you

Elektra Luxx
08-31-2017, 10:38 PM
So against my better judgement I'm leaving for an late night appointment with a couple long time regulars. The clients have been in town for business and are leaving tomorrow. I haven't been on an appointment in a a couple of months. I probably would have turned them down, but I can be relaxed with them and they treat me very well.

I think I should have turned them down, but the longer I go without seeing regulars the more likely that they'll stop calling to see me. I been doing this for over 6 years, it's hard to just walk away from all the time and effort invested to build a good steady clientele. Then on the other hand I think I need to make a clean break.

I may tell them that I'm taking a break for an indefinite amount of time. I guess I'll see how I feel.


Update: I just blew off two really good regulars. I wouldn't call me back if I were them. Not a clean break.

Vyanka
08-31-2017, 10:43 PM
Got my harem back up - thanks to two days on Bumble app.

But now it's down to two dudes. What if I like them both? What's a girl to do?

Have them both and see which one steps up to his game better. Lol. Fuck it. :P

baer45
09-01-2017, 07:52 AM
So against my better judgement I'm leaving for an late night appointment with a couple long time regulars. The clients have been in town for business and are leaving tomorrow. I haven't been on an appointment in a a couple of months. I probably would have turned them down, but I can be relaxed with them and they treat me very well.

I think I should have turned them down, but the longer I go without seeing regulars the more likely that they'll stop calling to see me. I been doing this for over 6 years, it's hard to just walk away from all the time and effort invested to build a good steady clientele. Then on the other hand I think I need to make a clean break.

I may tell them that I'm taking a break for an indefinite amount of time. I guess I'll see how I feel.


Update: I just blew off two really good regulars. I wouldn't call me back if I were them. Not a clean break.

uh oh...

Elektra Luxx
09-01-2017, 03:41 PM
^^^
Yup, i blew it.

baer45
09-01-2017, 04:49 PM
^^^
Yup, i blew it.

call them, tell them that you are sorry for the miscommunication. You are in a relationship now. The BF is not okay with seeing clients. But you would like to keep their contacts if you ever consider returning to this business.

seashell
09-02-2017, 01:01 AM
My dad sent me $100 for my birthday, but I'm still upset with him, and I'm not about to unblock him from my phone/social media...

I don't think my mom told him to, since last time I talked to her, she had blocked him, as well. I kinda hope she didn't, so that it was his own idea. But I'm not ready to have any communication, and honestly even receiving money from him as a gift makes me upset. Ugh lol

xStacey
09-02-2017, 06:10 PM
When I meet nice guys, I get jealous because they're very nice to everyone and I don't feel special... so I'm attracted to assholes because I would feel special they're only nice to me, until they're not anymore.

Work in progress... lol

miss.a.p1600
09-02-2017, 08:17 PM
So this dude I went on daTe with tonight was okay. I think he may be fond of me because I used my sales tactics to find common ground, listened to him, did a lot of smiling and nodding and he said he wanted to meet up again but this occasion he asked me out and it was only for drinks.

I was kind of okay because I didn't have more than an hour anyways.

But I was kind of pissed because I was really hungry and all he offered to order was appetizer.

And then he gave me a hug and tried to squeeze me so my boobs would press into his chest. Really though?!? But if I glimpse into his wallet or do a penis hug then I'm wrong?

I don't know if I'll ever do a "meet me for drinks" cause it's not worth my time and effort and I want to see how generous a dude is right off the bat. I ain't got time to be waiting fucking decades.

Next time and dude asks me to meet him for drinks if I decide to go I'm only doing that shit during the lunch hour.

BarbieNYC
09-03-2017, 08:53 AM
I don't like the place I moved into. It's a long term rental through airbnb but thankfully I only paid for one month. I don't think I'll extend. The airbnb reviews were great but when I showed up the place was in need of a deep cleaning. I won't walk barefoot in the house. The house just smells funky all over the place. My room is thankfully clean but the bathroom I share is disgusting which is ridiculous because I share it with one female. The bathroom upstairs is shared by 4 guys and is spotless. Lol I've been using the bathroom upstairs and showering at the gym.

Honestly if it was just the male tenants I think I would stay but the female tenant in the house is just super chatty and nosy. When I moved in she took it upon herself to show me around which was confusing because she wasn't the owner. She doesn't work and stays at home all day and leaves a mess in the kitchen. She really thinks she is the owner of the house. She uses one entire refrigerator all to herself. She is nice and I think lonely for someone to talk to but I'm not gonna fulfill that role. Everyone's been here long term so she is not going anywhere.

Also I've resorted to wearing my scrubs when I leave the house so she knows I work the night shift. I shower at the gym after work so I don't look like a dancer when I get home just in case she is up watching tv. Lol it was less hassle working when I lived at home.

sweetcrush
09-03-2017, 09:41 AM
Well I've finally decided to end my relationship again. He doesn't know yet but he'll be back tonight. I think he has an ideas but I'm not sure. He told me he wouldn't be with me anymore if I decided to go back to dancing. I had a pretty successful audition last night, and I've already seen 2 clients. At the same time I'm living in a hotel and I'm not sure how I'm gonna stay here. Money is super tight and worse case scenario is im sleeping in my car. I know I should probably suck it up and come to that realization that sleeping in my car may be a real thing I'll have to deal with. Plus it's starting to get cold in the NE. Should I just quit my real job and drive off into the sunset? I'm kind of scared but excited I can go back to doing something I love ��

miss.a.p1600
09-03-2017, 10:15 AM
The older dude is already telling me he misses me n shit. I don't know what to think. He's really nice but he seems opposite of me an like outdoorsy activities and fucking sports like football - ugh. I don't know if I can get jiggy to that shit.

Great I ask for a kind dude a generous dude and so I guess this means I have to compromise

Idk what to do when he tells me he misses me and is thinking about me?

vanessa_mtl
09-03-2017, 12:21 PM
The older dude is already telling me he misses me n shit. I don't know what to think. He's really nice but he seems opposite of me an like outdoorsy activities and fucking sports like football - ugh. I don't know if I can get jiggy to that shit.

Great I ask for a kind dude a generous dude and so I guess this means I have to compromise

Idk what to do when he tells me he misses me and is thinking about me?

In my experience most straight men like sports- you could meet a guy think wow thank god i don't have to watch basketball or football which I hate then, bam it's tennis season and he's glued to his tv for two weeks. You're gonna eliminate 90% of men if you stipulate that you don't want a sports loving man but it doesn't mean you have to care about it too or need to participate in the fandom. You can even say I was never a jock so I don't get team sports.

whirlerz
09-03-2017, 03:18 PM
@ Barbie NY - get ur self some Ozium spray - Target auto section, or auto supply stores
It is an air cleaner spray
@Sweetcrush - be careful, there's parking bans everywhere nowadays, cops check on cars, I think some Walmarts let you stay in their lot over night. Good luck dear
My hotel Halls are funk from these nasty mofos, I can't stand walking thru that for a second even!

I'm chilling @ Starbucks, w/a nice frap after finishing up my storage switch up, yay!

miss.a.p1600
09-03-2017, 05:08 PM
My neighbor just gave me a ton of food he cooked.

It was nice and thoughtful.

However I have OCD or something and I don't trust he washed the plate well nor did I see him cooking the food and how do I know he handled the food properly and the meat is fresh? I feel bad wasting food but I doubt I can eat it.

But I totally appreciate him offering. He's an old dude and he doesn't have any teeth and he talks really fast I hardly know wtf he is saying.

Elle:)
09-03-2017, 08:31 PM
I think I will start dancing again next weekend, if I get hired at the place I will audition at. I haven't danced in a while and I am really nervous. I hope I get hired and I make money.

Aurora_Sunset
09-04-2017, 07:17 AM
When I meet nice guys, I get jealous because they're very nice to everyone and I don't feel special... so I'm attracted to assholes because I would feel special they're only nice to me, until they're not anymore.

Work in progress... lol

Hey, at least this is a very honest assessment!

Elektra Luxx
09-04-2017, 09:54 PM
My sister is going through a bad breakup. They were together 3 years. He started doing drugs and started abusing my sister. He says he's not doing drugs anymore, but I don't trust him. She keeps trying to reconnect with him and she may be happy for a few days, but he does something and she goes on a self-loathing, self-destruction binge. I hadn't heard from her today, so I checked on her at her apartment and she was drunk and throwing up and saying that she doesn't care anymore and what's the point and she wants to kill herself. I cleaned her up and brought to my place and now she's passed out on my couch. She doesn't tell what's going on and I'm so angry and worried about for her I just want to punch her.