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baer45
09-14-2017, 09:55 PM
I had just graduated from high school and I worked at a trendy clothing shop. I secretly had a thing for the asst. manager. This one evening as we were closing the shop, he invited me to dinner. He took me to a romantic little restaurant and ordered champagne to celebrate his new promotion. He was going to be the new manager for the new store in Kodiak, Alaska and he was leaving the next day. I never saw him again, but I will always remember the night we spent together. Some say he went off into the wilderness to run with the wolves and on a clear night you could hear his haunting, lonely howl. And some say he was attacked by wolves, but he only howled once...when they bit him.
And that's why...
seems like a better story than twilight. I would leave right after he orders champagne...would stay for a beer though.
Elektra Luxx
09-14-2017, 10:02 PM
seems like a better story than twilight. I would leave right after he orders champagne...would stay for a beer though.
Your confession needed a bit more background.
Elektra Luxx
09-14-2017, 10:11 PM
I want, very much to fuck my insurance guy.
Thank you.
You should ask him to explain the "ins and outs" of the insurance business over dinner.
ScarletKitten
09-15-2017, 12:12 AM
I have no idea what I'm doing about my life anymore. I'm at this hotel for another 10 days, and after that, I'm not sure where I'm going to live. I have several options, but uncertainly still surrounds all those options. What makes it even more complicated is that I will be starting a vanilla job downtown soon, but I'm not even sure I will be living in this city after my 10 days is up. Everything is just so goddamn chaotic right now. I want to just pack my bags and move somewhere far away, and honestly....I might just end up doing that. The vagabond spirit in me strikes again.
amberlly
09-15-2017, 01:19 AM
I'm so over my life it's scary.
Glamourmilf
09-15-2017, 07:32 AM
Tomorrow I see SD.. while he helps me out, I can't stand his ass & hate seeing him twice a week especially..he's very one dimensional & talk about the same.fucking.boring.shit, over & over
Also, hes going to grill me about changing insurance companies, wtf.
Then he'll run back to them & gossip about it (like he likes to do about everything) like a little bitch.
Ugh.
I know I've told you this before, but I'll gladly trade places with you.
I listen to boring guys all day, and don't get paid for most of it. AND I have to fuck them.... Which you don't.
Guys irl I meet, seem to have the same ole boring things to say.
I wouldn't mind living in Groundhogs day, if I knew there was money at the end.
Some day, you're gonna miss it.
I get that you can't see where I'm coming from.
It's like the saying, " When I'm hungry, and you're full, you can never know what I mean"
amberlly
09-15-2017, 08:19 AM
Tomorrow I see SD.. while he helps me out, I can't stand his ass & hate seeing him twice a week especially..he's very one dimensional & talk about the same.fucking.boring.shit, over & over
Also, hes going to grill me about changing insurance companies, wtf.
Then he'll run back to them & gossip about it (like he likes to do about everything) like a little bitch.
Ugh.
He sounds super annoying. :s
xStacey
09-16-2017, 04:06 PM
I remember how I used to envy people with picture-perfect lives on Instagram and Facebook, but as I got to know personally some of them, I no longer do.
I have a really good friend, who on the surface it seems her life is perfect, but she just never or rarely talks about the darker sides. She's working at a big law firm, which she got from her boyfriend's connections. She admitted she doesn't love him, but she rather be with a man who loves her more than she loves him. He's a partner at a big law firm so he meets the right criteria on the check-list and she's in her early thirties. I feel she's with him because she thinks it's about time for her to settle down and he's good on paper. They bought a big house in a wealthy neighborhood this summer after less than a year together, she also loves to brag and show off so she posts a lot on Facebook the trips she gets to do, and whenever she's at their secondary residence she would post pictures and write status about enjoying life. I'm close with her so she even told me herself to never base on what people post on social medias because they only show the best sides and even her life is not perfect.
I later learned they fight all the time because he's always checking other girls out and talks about them - even fantasizes about other women overtly with her, is emotionally abusive and doesn't treat her daughter well. She said she will leave him and move out this Fall even though they just bought the house in July so I thought that was very brave of her. She even said he's really bad in bed and has a small dick... But not too long after she told me they got back together and it's temporary, but for her it's broken and she's just waiting for the right moment to leave him because she's graduating this fall, and doing the bar school in winter, she's also applying for permanent positions at law firms so she got back with him to buy her time. In the meantime, she doesn't have to pay for anything and can profit of her boyfriend's connections, because for the competitive jobs she's aiming for, she doesn't really meet the requirements. Then yesterday she posted on Facebook because her boyfriend appeared on a law blog, she shared the article and wrote "So proud of my husband, love you xxx with a kissing emoji" and started posting more photos of their pets in their secondary residence lol.
I love her so I wouldn't judge, but I personally wouldn't be able to share my life with someone like this, living in a lie. I love my autonomy and independence too much for that. I rather work hard, work more hours and be able to come home, go on trips by myself when I feel like it than live in the same house and share a life with someone I don't love and don't care for. Or maybe is it because of sex work I feel it is actually more work than just going to the clubs to make money when I need it ?
Another girl in the law school loves to tell everyone the first time she meets them that her boyfriend is a doctor. She doesn't come from a wealthy background so since she met her doctor boyfriend she was able to travel all over the world, he pays for everything, for lodging and she said she doesn't contribute much. I really don't like her so I don't know her well, although she keeps trying to be friends but everybody says she's an hypocrite so I've been staying away, but another friend of mine said it's not going well between her and her boyfriend the last time she spoke to her they haven't had sex in over 6 months, but she recently posted more travelling photos.
JenniferNorth
09-16-2017, 05:13 PM
OMG. THISTHISTHISSSSS.^^^^ I know a woman who has had nothing but druggie boyfriends. Her newest man is ex military and just got a job as a prison guard. She's bragging about them getting new phones (after months of him being unemployed). She was also complaining one night how much he pissed her off, didn't help with the kids etc etc. but they are getting married in under a month, and she is having his baby (a boy which she desperately wanted). Also, she smokes while preggo, which I don't get (she's not the type you would peg as smoking while preggo and also do the fact they have been flat broke). All I can say is, the online stuff on FB does NOT match what is going on IRL.
My confession is I complain about people I have to deal with for one work purpose or another, or my in laws, on here, and I worry this shit will get back to them somehow!
Elektra Luxx
09-16-2017, 05:45 PM
I'm having an emotional day and can't shake it. It's just a brain chemistry thing or maybe a hormone thing. I just have to deal with it
carmen_b
09-16-2017, 06:28 PM
I've seen wet towels with more personality than the woman my good friend is dating. I KEEP giving her the benefit of the doubt as I have my introverted phases ect. but it may be time to " call it " on this one ! ;/
miss.a.p1600
09-16-2017, 06:45 PM
The old dude (maybe I should quit calling him that idk) has said he misses me a few times. wtf. I dont know what to do with these type of emotions.
baer45
09-16-2017, 09:05 PM
I took a sleeping pill 30 minutes ago. I am supposed to be sleeping...not awake like right now.
Glamourmilf
09-17-2017, 07:34 AM
I'm having an emotional day and can't shake it. It's just a brain chemistry thing or maybe a hormone thing. I just have to deal with it
Have you ever looked at your biorhythms chart?
I swear, it's the most accurate thing I've found to make sense of moods, etc.
I don't get my period anymore, so I never could explain why I wake up and feel pissy, low energy, high energy, emotional,etc.
There are lots of free charts online.
Hope you feel better.
miss.a.p1600
09-17-2017, 08:30 AM
I remember how I used to envy people with picture-perfect lives on Instagram and Facebook, but as I got to know personally some of them, I no longer do.
I have a really good friend, who on the surface it seems her life is perfect, but she just never or rarely talks about the darker sides. She's working at a big law firm, which she got from her boyfriend's connections. She admitted she doesn't love him, but she rather be with a man who loves her more than she loves him. He's a partner at a big law firm so he meets the right criteria on the check-list and she's in her early thirties. I feel she's with him because she thinks it's about time for her to settle down and he's good on paper. They bought a big house in a wealthy neighborhood this summer after less than a year together, she also loves to brag and show off so she posts a lot on Facebook the trips she gets to do, and whenever she's at their secondary residence she would post pictures and write status about enjoying life. I'm close with her so she even told me herself to never base on what people post on social medias because they only show the best sides and even her life is not perfect.
I later learned they fight all the time because he's always checking other girls out and talks about them - even fantasizes about other women overtly with her, is emotionally abusive and doesn't treat her daughter well. She said she will leave him and move out this Fall even though they just bought the house in July so I thought that was very brave of her. She even said he's really bad in bed and has a small dick... But not too long after she told me they got back together and it's temporary, but for her it's broken and she's just waiting for the right moment to leave him because she's graduating this fall, and doing the bar school in winter, she's also applying for permanent positions at law firms so she got back with him to buy her time. In the meantime, she doesn't have to pay for anything and can profit of her boyfriend's connections, because for the competitive jobs she's aiming for, she doesn't really meet the requirements. Then yesterday she posted on Facebook because her boyfriend appeared on a law blog, she shared the article and wrote "So proud of my husband, love you xxx with a kissing emoji" and started posting more photos of their pets in their secondary residence lol.
I love her so I wouldn't judge, but I personally wouldn't be able to share my life with someone like this, living in a lie. I love my autonomy and independence too much for that. I rather work hard, work more hours and be able to come home, go on trips by myself when I feel like it than live in the same house and share a life with someone I don't love and don't care for. Or maybe is it because of sex work I feel it is actually more work than just going to the clubs to make money when I need it ?
Another girl in the law school loves to tell everyone the first time she meets them that her boyfriend is a doctor. She doesn't come from a wealthy background so since she met her doctor boyfriend she was able to travel all over the world, he pays for everything, for lodging and she said she doesn't contribute much. I really don't like her so I don't know her well, although she keeps trying to be friends but everybody says she's an hypocrite so I've been staying away, but another friend of mine said it's not going well between her and her boyfriend the last time she spoke to her they haven't had sex in over 6 months, but she recently posted more travelling photos.
Many women do this (not saying its right or wrong just that its not uncommon probably because they think they can change the dude or grow to love him)....They get into these social circles where image is everything. They'd rather link up permanently with the rich dude with pencil dick and emotionally abusive than be single or be with someone who'd make a better partner but of lesser status. Its "safer" to marry the wealthier successful dude that portrays that happy image than to actually be happy with someone that makes them genuinely happy.
whirlerz
09-17-2017, 09:43 AM
Wish some folks would stop taking my posts the wrong way
ScarletKitten
09-17-2017, 08:11 PM
I got all ready to work at the club tonight. Showered, shaved, gave myself a haircut, repainted my nails, got all dolled up and drove all the way there and just sat in the parking lot. I kept dreading going in. I couldn't force myself to do it. I just do NOT want men's hands on me. I don't want to talk to them, flirt with them, smile at them....much less grind on them.
I really am fucking done with being a stripper. So far past being done. I wasted makeup and gasoline, but I don't care because I just don't have it in me anymore. I tried. The club has gone waaaay downhill anyway. I've only been averaging like $100-$200/night the past 6 months there. It's just really not worth it to me anymore. I'd rather work fast food at this point. I ain't even joking.
Elektra Luxx
09-17-2017, 10:10 PM
I got all ready to work at the club tonight. Showered, shaved, gave myself a haircut, repainted my nails, got all dolled up and drove all the way there and just sat in the parking lot. I kept dreading going in. I couldn't force myself to do it. I just do NOT want men's hands on me. I don't want to talk to them, flirt with them, smile at them....much less grind on them.
I really am fucking done with being a stripper. So far past being done.
I'm there with you. I'm so done.
Elektra Luxx
09-17-2017, 10:21 PM
Have you ever looked at your biorhythms chart?
I swear, it's the most accurate thing I've found to make sense of moods, etc.
I don't get my period anymore, so I never could explain why I wake up and feel pissy, low energy, high energy, emotional,etc.
There are lots of free charts online.
Hope you feel better.
I never have looked into it. I'll have to do some research into it. Thanks for the suggestion.
Elektra Luxx
09-17-2017, 10:23 PM
I took a sleeping pill 30 minutes ago. I am supposed to be sleeping...not awake like right now.
Try not to use them because then you can't sleep without them.
amberlly
09-18-2017, 02:41 AM
I'm playing super loud music and running a bath after a super lazy day.
So much for productivity.
WendiStarr
09-18-2017, 06:44 AM
I'm getting burned out from camming already. I just don't have the patience right now for camming for 4+ hours at a time with a fake ass smile on my face, while dealing with cheap ass guys. I won't have my daughter Friday or this weekend so I'm thinking that I will just escort again.
carmen_b
09-18-2017, 08:29 AM
Sometimes I hate the vanilla business I own.
I will keep going for now ( it's 80% or so of my income ) but I am not sure what to do with it long term.
It's very hard to hire out the repetition that drives me crazy.
I'm experiencing the club equivalent of 6 guys nursing their beers and setting $0-$1 on the stage at a time - ha. I have 6 people " camping " on their service contracts and I need to either get their sale or get them to not bother us anymore. ;/
I am so tired of being the person to " convince " them to go with us and PULL that credit card transaction out of them.
Maybe I will join a business owner social group for real this time. I always thought it was silly but now I am seeing how having a drink and just being able to say " Ugh, I am exhausted " and have people really " get it " may help.
Glamourmilf
09-18-2017, 09:37 AM
I never have looked into it. I'll have to do some research into it. Thanks for the suggestion.
There's one online called Facade.
They are all free, and all you do is type in your birth date/year.
They also explain what each phase means.
It's great because it goes into depth, not only about the physical, mental, and emotional.
But it tells you how intuitve etc you are.
I like to see my month ahead.
Pre warned is pre armed.
whirlerz
09-18-2017, 10:01 AM
Yesterday, I'm in the pool, & fire alarm goes off, (which it does occasionally).
This darn new chick they hired like 6 wks ago is on the phone, obviously w/personal call w/another employee, all I want is another pool towel, when I get up there she just ignored me, like B, can u pull the phone 1 sec & ask what I want?
Nooo, like 6 firemen, 2 cops & a paramedic file in & mill around (she can't help them find the alarm box either )
I'm standing there in my swimsuit & sweater getting Major Side Eye,:firefight lol, embarrassing AF.
beIN dumb must be a job requirements @ The Shining hotel:rotfl:
Glamourmilf
09-18-2017, 10:05 AM
I'm getting burned out from camming already. I just don't have the patience right now for camming for 4+ hours at a time with a fake ass smile on my face, while dealing with cheap ass guys. I won't have my daughter Friday or this weekend so I'm thinking that I will just escort again.
Omg! Preacher=Choir.
I don't know if it's from camming during the summer slowdown that has me burnt out.
Or the fact that I've been Camming for 7 years, and I'm just ' over it.'
I'm constantly comparing it to escort money, but I really need to stop doing that. Because camming money won't ever be like escort money.
Edit to add: The thing I realized that really fucks my head over, is when I see the large % the cam companies take. I WOULD have escort money if they didn't take so much of it off the top.
Elektra Luxx
09-18-2017, 12:05 PM
Many women do this (not saying its right or wrong just that its not uncommon probably because they think they can change the dude or grow to love him)....They get into these social circles where image is everything. They'd rather link up permanently with the rich dude with pencil dick and emotionally abusive than be single or be with someone who'd make a better partner but of lesser status. Its "safer" to marry the wealthier successful dude that portrays that happy image than to actually be happy with someone that makes them genuinely happy.
I have so many thoughts on this, this would be a good thread.
I really do understand why others want as you put it, the "safer" choice and that's their choice and I respect that, but like xStacey said, I want autonomy and independence more, even at the cost of money and status.
DonaDiabla
09-18-2017, 12:21 PM
So, this pso customer told me that I was too smart for phone sex operator and he hang up on me. But he paid for 45 mins and tip me. That was strange to me. Oh well, I got paid.:-*
WendiStarr
09-18-2017, 12:44 PM
Omg! Preacher=Choir.
I don't know if it's from camming during the summer slowdown that has me burnt out.
Or the fact that I've been Camming for 7 years, and I'm just ' over it.'
I'm constantly comparing it to escort money, but I really need to stop doing that. Because camming money won't ever be like escort money.
Edit to add: The thing I realized that really fucks my head over, is when I see the large % the cam companies take. I WOULD have escort money if they didn't take so much of it off the top.
YES! I hate how cam companies take such a large percentage. It's like really, we sit here for countless hours entertaining these asshats and only get 35% of what we earn? I've noticed how webcam companies have gotten so greedy that they even take a large percentage out of our tips. Wtf! I remember the days when our tips were ours, no split. I also remember when guys used to get charged as soon as they took us private and if they wanted to peep in on our shows, they had to pay. None of this freebie shit. I'm 'bout fed up with this shit.
LaurenAus
09-18-2017, 06:11 PM
So, this pso customer told me that I was too smart for phone sex operator and he hang up on me. But he paid for 45 mins and tip me. That was strange to me. Oh well, I got paid.:-*
Diabla if you did just pso and not cam do you think you'd still pull in a good income?
miss.a.p1600
09-18-2017, 06:41 PM
I have so many thoughts on this, this would be a good thread.
I really do understand why others want as you put it, the "safer" choice and that's their choice and I respect that, but like xStacey said, I want autonomy and independence more, even at the cost of money and status.
That is very wise of you
While i do think its possible to have both wealth and true love, it is rare to come by these days. I think as women we will be happier accumulating wealth/status/fame/etc. on our own (well technically all of our money comes from other people but you know what I mean) that way no man will have any carrot to dangle/can't control you. And to learn how to manage finances wisely. It takes a rare man to know you make less but still want to share his wealth with no (or not that many) strings attached.
Legz541
09-18-2017, 11:34 PM
I should've already booked my plane ticket and room to go work in Vegas but I keep putting it off. I'm in a phase of EXTREME burnout and afraid I'll go down there and fail. I'm taking this week off to see if a break helps. Also I've gained about 15 pounds since I've last worked there so not sure if I'll be able to work where I want. Ugh!
Elektra Luxx
09-19-2017, 12:41 AM
...And to learn how to manage finances wisely. It takes a rare man to know you make less but still want to share his wealth with no (or not that many) strings attached.
Wisely or not, married or not, I'm going to manage my finances.
I find that men are more than willing to share their wealth especially with no strings attached. I think it's rare to find a man that's willing to share their lives and hearts.
Glamourmilf
09-19-2017, 04:47 AM
YES! I hate how cam companies take such a large percentage. It's like really, we sit here for countless hours entertaining these asshats and only get 35% of what we earn? I've noticed how webcam companies have gotten so greedy that they even take a large percentage out of our tips. Wtf! I remember the days when our tips were ours, no split. I also remember when guys used to get charged as soon as they took us private and if they wanted to peep in on our shows, they had to pay. None of this freebie shit. I'm 'bout fed up with this shit.
Exactly!
And Don't get me started about token sites.
1 token= 5 cents.
Get real cam sites!
DonaDiabla
09-19-2017, 06:11 AM
Great question, LaurenAus. I would say that a bulk of my adult income comes from Pso work. I just do everything else in the adult world to have multiple diverse income sources. I would say that is possible to make a great income from pso work but it is hard work. I would say that is great to have more than 4 characters, be on multiple platforms, work at least one dispatch company, and market your characters pretty well. I also have my own sites because I love developing my own business. However, most psos just do the platforms and dispatch only. But there is money still be made in phone sex.:)
Diabla if you did just pso and not cam do you think you'd still pull in a good income?
baer45
09-19-2017, 09:04 PM
I was too stupid. I clicked on a link of a disgusting video on youtube. Since then, I still can't not get it out of my head, it's making me sick, and I took two showers already.
Elektra Luxx
09-19-2017, 09:26 PM
I was too stupid. I clicked on a link of a disgusting video on youtube. Since then, I still can't not get it out of my head, it's making me sick, and I took two showers already.
I don't like looking at those kind of videos, but I'm curious as to what shook you up so much. PM me, but only a general description.
baer45
09-19-2017, 09:36 PM
I'm playing super loud music and running a bath after a super lazy day.
So much for productivity.
http://www.cavemancircus.com/wp-content/uploads/images/2017/sept/dumping_grounds/9_19/funny_pictures_14.jpg
baer45
09-19-2017, 09:41 PM
I don't like looking at those kind of videos, but I'm curious as to what shook you up so much. PM me, but only a general description.
I need this now.
https://encrypted-tbn0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQGMvw__RHwNmCBYWtJ-_iAlRZA_PenR5kWrYGF7mpbuGpXZiWG
Vyanka
09-20-2017, 12:20 PM
Damn, went to see a very prestigious PS for anti-aging stuff, he said I looked very young for my age and said I didnt need anything. He's hot, omg. Very intimidating too, such a turn on. I want to bang him! I know doctors keep it professional, but damn... how do I proceed when a nurse is right there being a fly on the wall. Ugh. He said I was pretty too. I got tingly, bc hes the serious hard type. Mmm. I hate going to good looking doctors.
The one who did my boobs was very handsome too.
whirlerz
09-20-2017, 12:36 PM
There was a lady in Cam Conn, she had a hot boob Dr !
lilylilylily
09-20-2017, 12:44 PM
Damn, went to see a very prestigious PS for anti-aging stuff, he said I looked very young for my age and said I didnt need anything. He's hot, omg. Very intimidating too, such a turn on. I want to bang him! I know doctors keep it professional, but damn... how do I proceed when a nurse is right there being a fly on the wall. Ugh. He said I was pretty too. I got tingly, bc hes the serious hard type. Mmm. I hate going to good looking doctors.
The one who did my boobs was very handsome too.
Reminds me of my hot orthodontist. He would call me sweetie and flirt with me all the time. I wanted him so bad too
whirlerz
09-20-2017, 01:06 PM
Sigh. I Still wanna fuck my insurance guy.
JGB2009
09-20-2017, 03:40 PM
The Doctors at the hospital I visit will hit on you. One Dr once asked if I had a sister (Haha)
miss.a.p1600
09-20-2017, 04:01 PM
Damn, went to see a very prestigious PS for anti-aging stuff, he said I looked very young for my age and said I didnt need anything. He's hot, omg. Very intimidating too, such a turn on. I want to bang him! I know doctors keep it professional, but damn... how do I proceed when a nurse is right there being a fly on the wall. Ugh. He said I was pretty too. I got tingly, bc hes the serious hard type. Mmm. I hate going to good looking doctors.
The one who did my boobs was very handsome too.
Yeah I was fond of my gynecologist.
He was ugly but a skilled surgeon, gave one hell of breast exam (any man who is that good with their hands must be a good lover), and always sent christmas cards
Vyanka
09-20-2017, 09:53 PM
Yeah I was fond of my gynecologist.
He was ugly but a skilled surgeon, gave one hell of breast exam (any man who is that good with their hands must be a good lover), and always sent christmas cards
My gyno flirts with me. I need to change bc last time he didn't check my chart, keeps asking me how MANY boyfriends I have. I insist how celibate I am most of the time(sad, but true
:( ), he doesn't believe me and tries to push BC pills on me. He's trying to date me and hustle me.
I think he enjoys fingering me too when doing my exam. Idk.
WendiStarr
09-21-2017, 04:27 AM
My gyno flirts with me. I need to change bc last time he didn't check my chart, keeps asking me how MANY boyfriends I have. I insist how celibate I am most of the time(sad, but true
:( ), he doesn't believe me and tries to push BC pills on me. He's trying to date me and hustle me.
I think he enjoys fingering me too when doing my exam. Idk.
I think that gyno's and doctors all immediately judge you based upon your looks. If you're beautiful they assume that you must be promiscuous. I once had a substitute gyno and I could tell that he thought I was some wild woman. He was lecturing me about sleeping around, pretty much saying that I had got some STD from my promiscuity. At the time I had been celibate for 2 years and I told him this. He made a comment about how some people have sexual diseases for years, undetected. It turned out that I had a yeast infection and all the STD tests came back negative. In the office, he had given me a shot in the ass cheek of a strong antibiotic and a course of antibiotics that made me puke all day long after taking them. I wanted to sue him for that.
Elektra Luxx
09-21-2017, 07:55 AM
^^^
I prefer a woman gynecologist.
ScarletKitten
09-21-2017, 09:11 AM
I'm sitting here and tears keep streaming down my face for seemingly no reason. I was crying last night too as I was trying to get to sleep. What the fuck is wrong with me? Am I about to start my period? Or do I have built up emotions that need to be released?
BarbieNYC
09-21-2017, 09:14 AM
Since gynecologists were mentioned I just wanted to say my gynecologist is a gay guy! Lol and he's fucking awesome. Super non judgemental and funny
I confess that my bank account is lower than I would like it to be and it is stressing me out. I'm going on a mini trip this weekend and I'm not bringing as much money as I was hoping for. I tried to work last night but I was sick and worried about money so I had a horrible shift.
I mean I have enough to bring on the trip but I was really trying to ball out. Oh well I guess I'll just enjoy the fact that it is paid for and I only have to worry about my food and I'll just pregame before going out lol
I think I'll just budget really good during this trip and go back to work after the trip so I won't be worried about making money and my energy/vibe will be better. And i gotta remember that there was a time in my life where the number in my bank account right now would have made me really happy