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whirlerz
10-30-2017, 09:39 PM
Aurora, please accept my condolences!
I didn't know they did at home euthanize.
Your baby's at Rainbow Bridge, & loves you so.
Take care n' hugs

whirlerz
10-30-2017, 09:46 PM
I am developing (ok already have) a big crush on the one cute van driver we have, way younger guy.
Also, he's leaving for another job, Idk when, I'm not supposed to say anything

aliwonderland
10-30-2017, 10:15 PM
I met a guy at a party and we hit it off and he explained he was in an open relationship. We then proceeded to share the best makeout sesh. He was so warm, open, and genuinely a good person that I figured his girlfriend would be that way too and we could all be a big happy family.
Nope. She was massively threatened by me (or hated me, but it makes my ego feel better to think she was threatened)
He still said he was open to us having our own thing, just us two, but I told him I wouldn't want it on my conscience if it made his girlfriend uncomfortable.
Hate myself a little for being a good person because he was such a good, kind human being who is now definitely not in my life anymore. Oh wellllll

Elektra Luxx
10-31-2017, 02:46 AM
^^
Oh Aurora, I'm so sorry hear about your precious cat.

LoveyDovey
10-31-2017, 03:48 PM
So sorry, Aurora. So sad.

chanzep
10-31-2017, 05:39 PM
Aurora im sorry about your cat.

miss.a.p1600
11-01-2017, 02:40 PM
I dated this dude many years back who (at first glance) seemed rich af. Had a beachfront view penthouse, expensive luxury car, 5 star dates. And he had a large dick! Well I just didn't take him seriously. Never fucked or anything sexual. And it just fizzled out.

I googled him years later to find out he was very well known in the entertainment industry .... and really was loaded.

But he had some shady dealings and ended up in prison --- > 2 life terms ..... Damn!

whirlerz
11-01-2017, 04:46 PM
Well. I need to go up & pay my rent..but.
The hot van driver's up there, I don't want to run into him..:(
I also don't want look @/pay with the sourpuss B that works in the morning.
So that leaves the koo-koo loon night guy that (wrongfully) told maintenance guy I took a screwdriver to my door.
UGH

trustfundkiller
11-01-2017, 08:39 PM
After his most recent, and pretty unsuccessful hospitalization, I've finally decided to let my sick kitty go. I spent the whole day with him yesterday, knowing he didn't have much time left, and made the call today to schedule at-home euthanasia. I wasn't quite ready to tell them to come out immediately, but honestly would've liked to have it done tomorrow. But they can't come out until Wednesday morning. I know I should cherish having more time with him, and I wanted today, but honestly, I think another full day of watching him sit around being sick, not wanting to cuddle, not eating voluntarily, and barely being able to use the litter box without my assistance... is just gonna be even harder than getting it over with tomorrow. I don't think I'll ever be ready to say goodbye but at this point he's not himself anymore and I hate watching him suffer. I refuse to put him back in the car and have it done on a sterile hospital table though. The only time he's acted like himself after returning home this time around is the very first night. He wandered all over the place, was super social, and obviously happy to be home. I want him to pass peacefully in his happy place.
I'm so sorry :( I hope you're doing alright. A few years ago one of my Siamese cats got sick with FIP which is essentially a death sentence. There's no cure, the mortality rate is 100%, and the only way I could treat him was to take him in for regular IVs/blood transfusions and if there was any improvement, it would only be temporary. I had to put him to sleep and it was so hard, but I knew it would be unfair to keep him alive and suffering simply because I didn't want to lose him. You absolutely did the right thing and that takes a lot of strength!

BarbieNYC
11-04-2017, 10:51 PM
Aurora I'm thinking about you <3 *big hugs*

ScarletKitten
11-05-2017, 08:31 AM
I really need to get fucking high and cuddle with someone.

seashell
11-06-2017, 07:02 AM
In college, I was really interested in wicca. I've been a skeptical atheist all my life and I don't believe in anything supernatural, but in my experience, the rituals are still really spiritual and cathartic. I want to get more into it, but I'm afraid my boyfriend would be weirded out, haha.

LoveyDovey
11-06-2017, 02:13 PM
I think it's time for me to switch clubs. Tired of working with ratchet bitches. My club keeps hiring these old (50+) overweight annoying women who do extras for money and this club is suffering on the count of it.

xStacey
11-07-2017, 10:46 AM
Being an addictive person has always been an advantage to me when it comes to work and cultivating regulars, but it brings its own shares of problems when it comes to my personal life......

Elle:)
11-07-2017, 12:01 PM
I wonder if I will feel happier if I got a divorce.

ScarletKitten
11-07-2017, 02:41 PM
My manager who hired me at my regular job is so obviously attracted to me. I can feel the sexual chemistry radiating between us every time we talk. It's seriously distracting. He gets nervous when he's around me too, lol. He's also younger than me. So it's a weird dynamic. There's no way I'm ever going to pursue that. Don't shit where you eat, so they say. He's damn cute though, but I ain't even going there!!! But I confess I have naughty thoughts about him from time to time for a brief moment before I come to my senses.

SnuffleUffleGrass
11-07-2017, 10:55 PM
I wonder if I will feel happier if I got a divorce.

Probably lol. I'm just projecting but it's my opinion....

LaurenAus
11-08-2017, 08:13 AM
I need to change my work situation. So fucking miserable.

chanzep
11-08-2017, 07:46 PM
I just got all ready to apply at a club and chickened out lol, at least I know my new wig looks good. I will go next week. need to concentrate on vanilla stuff for a few days and they wont start me until next week anyways.

whirlerz
11-08-2017, 07:56 PM
I just got all ready to apply at a club and chickened out lol, at least I know my new wig looks good. I will go next week. need to concentrate on vanilla stuff for a few days and they wont start me until next week anyways.

Haha, you sound just like me^

xStacey
11-11-2017, 06:55 AM
I don't know how I ended up in a relationship and I'm not even sure I want to be in it anymore. I did not want a relationship at all, but I met the perfect guy and I always said I would be open to a relationship if I meet the right person, but it's way to much to adapt to and I find all of it really heavy. He wants to talk every day, talk on the phone, see each other all the time although he lives far, and is planning on coming back to Montreal in January so I guess he will want to see each other even more often. I'm not the best person when it comes to work/life balance and that is already too much. I am not used to having someone in my life or making room for someone else, he says he understands, but he doesn't seem to at all and expects me to change the next day then he gets mad I'm not emotionally available or ready to make the changes a relationship requires. Ok, maybe I am not ready at all and prefer to be single. I'm still trying to make up my mind.

I want to be single again, to have my time all to myself, not having to talk to anyone when I don't feel like it, to be free, not having to worry about my side job, but at the same time I am scared I might regret leaving such a great guy in the future who treats me so well and not meeting anyone who makes me feel the same way again.

I just know I don't feel well at all ever since I am in a relationship, but I cannot explain why. He's the man I always wished to meet, but it feels very heavy like I can't breathe.

SnuffleUffleGrass
11-11-2017, 12:51 PM
I dated this dude many years back who (at first glance) seemed rich af. Had a beachfront view penthouse, expensive luxury car, 5 star dates. And he had a large dick! Well I just didn't take him seriously. Never fucked or anything sexual. And it just fizzled out.

I googled him years later to find out he was very well known in the entertainment industry .... and really was loaded.

But he had some shady dealings and ended up in prison --- > 2 life terms ..... Damn!

Sug e Knight?

HelenaVixen
11-11-2017, 08:59 PM
Just because I have a child does not mean I want to socialize with yours. As Miranda from Sex and The City once said "I only like my own. Look at that snot nosed brat". Don't get me wrong, children are okay in small doses. But there's a reason why all my friends never thought I would have children. I don't have that much patience and the fact that I deal with Bipolar Disorder Type 1 plays a huge part too. I don't like to feel obligated to like your child. Some kids are dicks. My daughter can be one too. And in this day and age, you can't "punish" another person's child. That's abuse even if you yell at them. So I gotta just sit there and pretend to be nice to your child while they're being destructive and annoying. I hate that I feel this way, I feel like such an asshole. But again....kids are dicks. I remember that and don't feel as bad.

HelenaVixen
11-11-2017, 09:04 PM
In college, I was really interested in wicca. I've been a skeptical atheist all my life and I don't believe in anything supernatural, but in my experience, the rituals are still really spiritual and cathartic. I want to get more into it, but I'm afraid my boyfriend would be weirded out, haha.


You should start with Tarot or Oracle cards. They're easy to conceal and are very good for spiritual development. I started with a crystal oracle card deck and it was very easy to grasp and calming. I also lived with people at the time and I could hide them lol

Elle:)
11-11-2017, 11:03 PM
I had forgotten how much I like Nyx makeup.

DonaDiabla
11-12-2017, 08:13 PM
My confession is that I would have to upgrade all of my equipment for sex work for 2018. I guess that I have to wear than 5 outfits on cam as well :)

ScarletKitten
11-13-2017, 08:07 PM
I psychoanalyze and over think, over-analyze everything waaaayyyyy too much.

Aurora_Sunset
11-14-2017, 06:05 AM
I'm immaturely keeping my phone on 'do not disturb' and ignoring my bf's calls this morning. I am so tired of arguing with him with about the same shit over and over again. He was so great the last few weeks that my cat was really sick and then right after he passed. And I kept thinking to myself what a great boyfriend he was being, but worrying that as soon as the crisis passed, he was going to go back to his same old pissy, insecure bullshit. And he did. Literally the day after we returned from a weekend away to celebrate our anniversary. Who does that? And he does it every fucking time. We spend a prolonged period of time together, and it's like god forbid, once it ends, I dare to go back to my normal world of working and spending time with other people, and he suddenly spirals into this "Well, my 'love cup' wasn't properly filled the last time we were together in order for me to be able to handle you giving attention to other people while we're apart," crap.

I know it drives him crazy to be ignored too, so not answering his calls or even letting them come through is extra cruel. But I don't care. He hung up on me twice yesterday because I apparently uttered "ok" and "Hey, what's up" in what he considered a "snarky, hostile" tone... after we had been arguing all day, and I wasn't feeling particularly "chipper"...

Aurora_Sunset
11-14-2017, 06:06 AM
Also, I've been listening to Christmas Pandora and watching Christmas movies since November 5th.

WendiStarr
11-14-2017, 07:04 AM
Someone who shouldn't be on my mind has been taking up residence there more than I am comfortable with or care to admit.

miss.a.p1600
11-14-2017, 06:28 PM
THis old dude says "I'd like to see you everyday" .... In my mind Im thinking "I'd like you to give me money everyday"

BadBitch
11-14-2017, 09:40 PM
I can't stop being so damn hard on myself. I'm convinced that every guy on SM hates me.

lynn2009
11-14-2017, 10:22 PM
I can't stop being so damn hard on myself. I'm convinced that every guy on SM hates me.

I have to ask, are you using "guy" in a general sense of "person" here, or are you actually concerned with what the men think? If referring only to men, why?

WendiStarr
11-15-2017, 08:38 AM
I'm hoping that the reason my tummy is acting up so bad lately is because of an IBS flare. Also, I feel like I could sleep forever and this worries me.

whirlerz
11-15-2017, 09:59 AM
I didn't know, Wendi, I have that also & mine's flaring!
Feeling very tired as well.
Raining here so maybe weather aggravates it

BadBitch
11-15-2017, 03:23 PM
I have to ask, are you using "guy" in a general sense of "person" here, or are you actually concerned with what the men think? If referring only to men, why?

I'm using "guy" because it's a site where guys come to jerk their cock. I'm saying this because the customers (which are predominantly men/guys) are constantly in and out. It's making me feel ugly or that they all fucking hate my guts.

charlie61
11-15-2017, 11:18 PM
I hate being asexual.

(Side note... here's a good article that might help anyone who's struggling to understand what asexuality is, and what sex is like for many asexuals!: https://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/electrified-and-numb_us_58d018ace4b0e0d348b34624 )

LaurenAus
11-16-2017, 04:01 AM
I don't know how I ended up in a relationship and I'm not even sure I want to be in it anymore. I did not want a relationship at all, but I met the perfect guy and I always said I would be open to a relationship if I meet the right person, but it's way to much to adapt to and I find all of it really heavy. He wants to talk every day, talk on the phone, see each other all the time although he lives far, and is planning on coming back to Montreal in January so I guess he will want to see each other even more often. I'm not the best person when it comes to work/life balance and that is already too much. I am not used to having someone in my life or making room for someone else, he says he understands, but he doesn't seem to at all and expects me to change the next day then he gets mad I'm not emotionally available or ready to make the changes a relationship requires. Ok, maybe I am not ready at all and prefer to be single. I'm still trying to make up my mind.

I want to be single again, to have my time all to myself, not having to talk to anyone when I don't feel like it, to be free, not having to worry about my side job, but at the same time I am scared I might regret leaving such a great guy in the future who treats me so well and not meeting anyone who makes me feel the same way again.

I just know I don't feel well at all ever since I am in a relationship, but I cannot explain why. He's the man I always wished to meet, but it feels very heavy like I can't breathe.




I could've written this exact same thing. I so love my alone time, I don't feel lonely sleeping in my bed alone--I like to do things whenever I feel like it and I'm starting to feel suffocated with the guy I'm currently seeing. Is it possible we're not relationship people?? Who knows..

miss.a.p1600
11-17-2017, 09:51 AM
I wonder what this old dude looked like when he was younger. I probably would have fucked him sooner if he was the younger version of himself.

I really have no clue what it is like fucking an old man (even though I created that thread ... still though it seems like a daunting event) Idk i could just be worrying about nothing. and perhaps the older men are better lovers.

All I know is....if I fuck an old man and his sex/tongue skills are wack and/or he has a micropeen then it's pretty much over......

And I need this old man to spend at least a few more hundred (preferably a few thousand) before he sees the pleasure of these walls

baer45
11-17-2017, 06:26 PM
I love Brazilian food. But boy it can't be good for your health. All the sweet, cream, cheese...

JGB2009
11-17-2017, 06:33 PM
I am thinking about someone that I should not be thinking about. Please leave my thoughts already!!!!

WendiStarr
11-17-2017, 06:42 PM
I am thinking about someone that I should not be thinking about. Please leave my thoughts already!!!!

I'm in that exact same boat, lady. It sucks.

My confession for today is that I didn't feel like working today so I lazed around all day, didn't get much accomplished. I'm just feeling so down and it's hard to get motivated when I feel like this.

BadBitch
11-17-2017, 08:18 PM
I'm in that exact same boat, lady. It sucks.

My confession for today is that I didn't feel like working today so I lazed around all day, didn't get much accomplished. I'm just feeling so down and it's hard to get motivated when I feel like this.

I'm feeling the SAME exact way!

ScarletKitten
11-17-2017, 08:28 PM
I'm listening to 2 songs at the same time. This is awesome. It's a good way to distract your thoughts. Try timing them to play them both at a certain time so they both flow together and blend and it sounds like a really trippy remix. Or just randomly play 2 songs at the same time and let the sonic chaos take over your mind. Play it loudly in headphones/ ear buds.

Also, I drank 3 espresso shots this morning and then smoked a cigarette when I got home. I started smoking cigarettes. It's bad, I know.

ScarletKitten
11-17-2017, 09:17 PM
Also, I no longer feel attraction towards my manager. The more I'm around him, the more I want him to go away.

miss.a.p1600
11-17-2017, 09:39 PM
I think I'm going to ask the old dude for something of monetary value. Although I don't think I should have to ask but I suppose closed mouths dont get fed.....I may have to set some cleavage out to make it hard for to say no... I'm going to leave the denomination up to him - but it better be a good amount.....or else he will be delaying his own gratification lol .... and if he says no - its over.....

BadBitch
11-17-2017, 10:44 PM
I'm starting to wonder if my gay guy friend is strangely crushing on me.

JGB2009
11-18-2017, 01:52 PM
Sometimes I have no self control.....smh

chanzep
11-18-2017, 06:26 PM
When your sat on your couch chilling with Lifetime movie and the house is a mess. Oh well I been running around all day now I work vanilla hours I have to do shit on the weekend. Oh I also got myself a Christmas candle today even though its hot here still too. smells great!.

BadBitch
11-18-2017, 08:38 PM
I just ate 2 Snickers minis, 2 Twixx minis and about 3 handfuls of M&Ms.