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seashell
01-10-2018, 04:58 AM
I finally told my ex-boyfriend to leave the apartment. And it felt GOOD.
We only have 5 days left here, but being around him is driving me insane. I sometimes find myself shaking with anxiety. He hasn't even paid rent, so I asked him to pack up his stuff and stay in a hostel.
It's worth it to deal with the stress of an international move by myself. I need to get back to being my own person, not a fucking doormat.
ScarletKitten
01-10-2018, 03:28 PM
I finally told my ex-boyfriend to leave the apartment. And it felt GOOD.
We only have 5 days left here, but being around him is driving me insane. I sometimes find myself shaking with anxiety. He hasn't even paid rent, so I asked him to pack up his stuff and stay in a hostel.
It's worth it to deal with the stress of an international move by myself. I need to get back to being my own person, not a fucking doormat.
Girl, make that loser pay rent. Never date a broke joker ever again.
WendiStarr
01-10-2018, 03:37 PM
I'm fucking sore as heck today. 6 and I still have more.
Elektra Luxx
01-11-2018, 02:36 AM
I'm fucking sore as heck today. 6 and I still have more.
"Human Trampoline", someone use that term and it stuck with me. I thought it was the perfect description.
WendiStarr
01-11-2018, 08:56 AM
^ Yes! That fit quite accurately. I sat in a hot bath for a while afterwards and contemplated taking the rest of the week off.
miss.a.p1600
01-11-2018, 11:29 PM
The dude said he would buy me a ring.....um dude what kind of ring are you talking about? And I'd rather have jewelry presented to me not just talking about it.
Legz541
01-14-2018, 02:58 AM
I’m tired...mentally and physically exhausted. The burnout is all too real is hitting at the absolute worst time of year. We’re so slow so I need to be extra aggressive but I just don’t have it in me lately. It’s showing in my earnings obviously but sucks even more because even though I know better I let what I make effect my sense of self worth. It’s a vicious cycle. Ugh.
BarbieNYC
01-14-2018, 05:50 PM
^^the burnout is real with me too. :/ *hugs*
I've been having great shifts, but I just don't want to go back to work. I'm debating applying to some waitressing jobs at the clubs in my area. I've been looking for nightshift jobs because they're the only ones that fit with my school schedule. My club is so far away and that combined with my burnout makes it difficult for me to go to work. My area has some great clubs, but I can't dance in them because of the chance of running into someone I know. But with waitressing I don't think the stigma is as heavy so if I run into a professor or counselor, it won't be as bad.
I just know that when I'm debating taking overnight warehouse jobs over dancing that I am super burnt out. Yikes
SoftballQT
01-14-2018, 06:21 PM
I have a few guys I hook up with depending on what I want. They all think they are the only ones. Is that bad? Lol
Randi Starr
01-14-2018, 08:21 PM
I have a few guys I hook up with depending on what I want. They all think they are the only ones. Is that bad? Lol
Not at all!! I have several guys for several reasons. The guy who eats great pussy/booty. The guy who last a long time. The guy that can just throw me around for some rough sex. list goes on lol.
miss.a.p1600
01-15-2018, 10:50 AM
I think I may have a dilemma. I told this current dude I wasn't dating anyone else buuuuut this other guy I used to date has popped back into the picture and has been texting me on social media.
I am confused and really want to have both of them - or at the least see who would be better to have a long term relationship with.
I feel like until I have an engagement ring I should be able to explore options.
DonaDiabla
01-15-2018, 11:40 AM
Girl, just date both of them until your main one gets you an promise ring. Just keep it light and breezy with both.Then continue to build up your main man until you hit your engagement phase. You keep it casual and light until your main man decides to give that ring. :)
I think I may have a dilemma. I told this current dude I wasn't dating anyone else buuuuut this other guy I used to date has popped back into the picture and has been texting me on social media.
I am confused and really want to have both of them - or at the least see who would be better to have a long term relationship with.
I feel like until I have an engagement ring I should be able to explore options.
SnuffleUffleGrass
01-15-2018, 08:44 PM
I should do a thread about this...I need to do a magick spell to get the memory of one of my first casual boyfriends out of my mind. It's bothering me how almost 2 decades LATER after seeing him last....I still have unexpected dreams about him. The catch was he did not love me, in fact he's a shitty person. So it makes me nuts there are these memories stuck inside my brain.
I know Facebook creeping isn't helping (ironically I love looking at one of his relative's fb pages, that guy is pretty neat) buuuut I'm mostly doing this to myself.
I cringe when I think of how clueless I was when I knew him & how he probably never thinks of me. ugh ugh ugh. Dwelling on that makes me feel like roadkill.
miss.a.p1600
01-15-2018, 08:53 PM
^^^If you are thinking about him a lot then I am sure he has thought about you.
Sometime when people I haven't dealt with in a long time pop into my head, I know it's because they have been thinking about me.
I really believe we are connected more than we realize
miss.a.p1600
01-15-2018, 11:14 PM
Joked around and told my mom I think civilian dating might be too much work and I think I might just want a sugar daddy lol......surprisingly she did not say anything. I dont know if that means she is secretly judging me and waiting at some later time to throw that statement in my face, if she is not aware that sugaring is considered sex work, or if she is just cool with the statement
SnuffleUffleGrass
01-16-2018, 08:39 AM
^^^If you are thinking about him a lot then I am sure he has thought about you.
Sometime when people I haven't dealt with in a long time pop into my head, I know it's because they have been thinking about me.
I really believe we are connected more than we realize
Probably true but the horrible thing is........1) I'll dream of him unexpectedly when I really don't want or need memories from that time of life in my mind and 2) I don't respect him at all. When I knew him I was conflicted by how strongly I was infatuated with him even though he was a massively confused/lazy piece of shit.
& Worse yet I had a premonition I would meet someone like him several days before I actually did.
WendiStarr
01-16-2018, 08:54 AM
I played with myself, twice while thinking about someone I shouldn't be thinking about.
SuccubusSasha
01-16-2018, 10:09 AM
Haven't been feeling the sex work lately.
Lost my regulars recently (a combination of their personal reasons and I raised my prices and was honest that I wasn't feeling it like I used to).
So now I'm thinking about growing mushrooms again =/
Partly for the money to compensate for the side income. also I guess I just always like having a 'risky' side hustle.
LoveyDovey
01-16-2018, 10:11 AM
^^ Hey, as long as it stays in fantasyland, it's all good.
I am having trouble getting up and going for a run, so I'm going to play the theme song to Rocky and get my shit together.
LoveyDovey
01-16-2018, 11:45 AM
^^ Hey, as long as it stays in fantasyland, it's all good.
I am having trouble getting up and going for a run, so I'm going to play the theme song to Rocky and get my shit together.
miss.a.p1600
01-16-2018, 02:07 PM
Old dude texts me with this line "i wish i could make love to you"
Why is my response on the inside like this??? Am I asexual?
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Grace108
01-16-2018, 03:12 PM
I see a SD since a year.. and chemistry is awesome.., but I don’t really tell him.. He does tell it to me sometimes but I jus barely reply :-) He doesn’t know how much he turns me on lol.. But he is so promiscuous that I don’t think Would be any good to get involved more than this.. would be difficult and I would no trust him much.. So like his $$ treats..
Moreover we have a strange dynamic.. he is leading and commanding when to met etc.. Ignoring or pushing, but in reality he likes me to actually take control with him.
But yeah the dynamic sucks a bit, is like sometimes flows sometimes is blocked: no free time from both sides, ., is so casual that sometimes we don’t even reply to each other’s, if will no work out that day. I actually took few months of break from him last year.. but ideally I’d like to keep this minimum emotional investment relating running .. just sometimes I get confused when he comes out with compliments or bit of jealousy.. as I may believe it lol! So I just ignore whatever he says in the moment.. but I need to keep taking care of him at some levels.
... maybe I need to go to another forum and check out how others deal with this situations lol ;)
ScarletKitten
01-16-2018, 05:54 PM
depressed as shit today. been sleeping all day and can't even eat. i feel like death.
miss.a.p1600
01-16-2018, 07:01 PM
I wish someone would come pick me up and take me to get some coke, snickers, oranges, and then drop me off back at home.
I'm always driving and for a change, I just dont want to drive - I want to be driven around.
Ifyouseekamy
01-17-2018, 08:11 PM
This is a big confession.
It was my birthday and I got white girl wasted. I’m a very square person so this is unusual, but i guess I got my dads alcoholism so Im NEVER drinking again. I haven’t drank for years, but I know I’m an alcoholic. I can’t stop once I start.
I never want to party like that again, but I realized I’ve outgrown the party scene. Instead of trying to party to fit in; I’ll stick to low key things like photography. I lost my wallet. I hope I didn’t do anything too crazy. My boss didn’t say anything so that’s a good sign. I’m even thinking about taking a break this weekend to let things blow over. I really don’t remember what happened. I don’t think it was anything that bad. My boss would have talked to me. In the club unless you fight someone, people are pretty desensitized to drunk people. It happened once in three years, so they’ll get over anything I said. I’m usually just honest and tell everyone how much I love them.
I did call my crazy ex. Ugh. What’s the definition of insanity. We were in contact for 3 days before the anxiety got so bad I blocked his number and gave him my email so I wouldn’t feel guilty.
Everyday I told him that I needed to talk to him and he was too busy! we can’t just be friends. Because a) he’s a shitty “friend” b) i can’t heal if I’m still in contact with him. C) I deserve to heal from his abuse. It’s just too retraumatizibg to have any contact with him.
I don’t need feel guilty for going no contact. He said I was stressing him out. I’m like fine. “I’m stressed out. Your stressed. You don’t want to make time talk I’ll handle it myself”. What was I suppose to do after day 3 of begging to talk to him and him acting like I was the biggest problem in the world. He didn’t want to talk to me, so I made an decision. Now I won’t stress him out anymore. Problem solved!
seashell
01-18-2018, 12:38 PM
I was nervous to come back to Croatia as a single girl with no real plans, but I’m here now, and it really feels like home. It’s the 4th time I’ve been to this city, and I’ve got my one Croatian friend eager to meet up, and I already know my way around the city. Things aren’t so bad. :)
Also, I confess I paid for a psychic reading on the Purple Ocean app, and it was so worth it!! I want more, haha. It was my first ever reading, and I now understand why people are into this stuff.
JGB2009
01-18-2018, 07:46 PM
Old dude texts me with this line "i wish i could make love to you"
Why is my response on the inside like this??? Am I asexual?
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Someone saying that to me is a complete turn off!!! Ewwww
JGB2009
01-18-2018, 07:48 PM
I enjoy ignoring you. Somehow I get complete pleasure from it!!!! If you had played your cards correctly, this would have not been happening to you!!!
Aurora_Sunset
01-18-2018, 11:27 PM
I miss stripping like crazy. I know it would be risky to dance in any club around here with my vanilla job so close by. But I need extra money and super miss it. My goal is to hit it hard with the weight loss, toning, and tanning this month and be back in a SC part time by February. Even if I can't change much in my appearance by then, there are enough mid-tier/divey clubs to start at. Maybe those would be better to avoid coworkers anyway.
charlie61
01-18-2018, 11:34 PM
I get so much anxiety whenever military helicopters or jets fly through my area.
Grace108
01-19-2018, 12:20 AM
Need to do my booobs! February is no going to happen... Aiming for August... savings savings savings..
I was also thinking recently: (I start dancing late ... but...) although sex work is hard work.. i really like it!
Is better than office job. I leave in a country where any form is legal, as far as one pays taxes, which I do ;-)
So is really worthy to look into other forms of it (caming, sugaring..) to implement the dancing.. so to make money, in case I need to take a break from dancing, for various reasons... :) or for when I will need to end it one day and do something else
SnuffleUffleGrass
01-19-2018, 12:08 PM
I miss stripping like crazy. I know it would be risky to dance in any club around here with my vanilla job so close by. But I need extra money and super miss it. My goal is to hit it hard with the weight loss, toning, and tanning this month and be back in a SC part time by February. Even if I can't change much in my appearance by then, there are enough mid-tier/divey clubs to start at. Maybe those would be better to avoid coworkers anyway.
Honestly wear a wig at work & duck in the dressing room if you see somebody.
chanzep
01-19-2018, 08:29 PM
I just ordered Pho, Im supposed to eat just veggies this month but fuck it.
miss.a.p1600
01-19-2018, 09:13 PM
I went on a wine binge for the past 3 months.....and I rarely drink liquor.
I made a choice between wine and coke.
I don't think I want to drink wine for a long time.
I should have chosen coke + snickers. I think the alcohol is worse than the sugar? I could always get sugar free or cane sugar coke.
I regret it......
xStacey
01-20-2018, 11:38 AM
I'm really thinking of leaving my boyfriend. I'm very unhappy in a relationship and we don't want the same things in life. My life was so much easier then and I love my freedom too much. I think when you keep thinking about it, it might mean that's what you really want and it might be the right decision, although not for everyone. Well, at least I would have known what it's like being in a serious relationship and that it's not the right thing for me, at least not at the moment. We complain so much about how men don't want anything serious nowadays, and fantasize about meeting the right guy who wants to settle down, is loyal, loving, etc. but it's not right for everybody.
Oh, he's also used to being with weak girls who depend on him. That is not me.
seashell
01-20-2018, 01:44 PM
Tonight I have the unstoppable urge to watch Leonardo diCaprio movies. I'm thinking The Great Gatsby... or Titanic.
WendiStarr
01-20-2018, 02:28 PM
I don't know why but I'm craving red meat so bad. I guess that's not as bad as my usual chocolate candy and cookie pms cravings but dang it! Despite being sick I just can't stop craving meat. I ate a burger with everything on it but no bun, for breakfast and a Reuben sandwich for lunch that I ended up throwing most of the bread out to the birds. Wtf?
chanzep
01-20-2018, 02:43 PM
I hope the Cocaine Godmother with Catherine Zeta Jones on Lifetime is good tonight.
seashell
01-21-2018, 12:24 PM
Every time I'm single, I start questioning if I'm bisexual. I really think the only reason I don't date girls is because I don't know where to start.
baer45
01-21-2018, 08:13 PM
Every time I'm single, I start questioning if I'm bisexual. I really think the only reason I don't date girls is because I don't know where to start.
I want to say you are at the right place.
miss.a.p1600
01-22-2018, 07:44 PM
It's like when I think I want the 2.5 kids the white picket fence and the hot rich husband........I also think maybe I just want to be single, do wtf I want to do, hustle, and keep a harem of dudes.
My coworkers keep trying to invite themselves to my house and I’m not sure if I’m just being a bitch or what but I don’t want them here. I have nothing against them but my gut says don’t do it. It’s not like they don’t invite me to their homes and I don’t go there either. Like they invited me bowling once but it was late and I believe on a school night and I’m a single parent so I said no but why would you invite me to go on a school night knowing that. Maybe I’m over thinking this but one girl invited me over to trade services at her home but her girlfriend doesn’t like me for some reason. And if I’m invited to your house and we’re talking about where you live why tell me a general area instead of the community where you live? I think I’m over thinking this based on past experiences. What do y’all think?
Glamourmilf
01-23-2018, 04:41 AM
^^I never invite anyone to my house, so I'm probably not the one to comment.
My confession is that I've been wearing pajama pants out when I run errands.
Yeah, and nobody blinks an eye.
I had an epiphany a couple of weeks ago when I was all dolled up in my Chanel, feeling uncomfortable as hell.
I bought a few pairs of jammies from a thift store because we're having a bit of a cold snap.
Paired with a cute top, boots, hat, and scarf, and I'm good to go.
*Cut to me designing a line of outerwear jammies. For both men and women.:)
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WendiStarr
01-23-2018, 08:06 AM
I don't think I feel like working Wednesday or Thursday. I already feel like just saying fuck it and staying home. My period is due to start this week. I'm feeling irritable, crampy, not really in the mood to be fucking, and I don't know where the hell red colored condoms can be purchased in person anyways.
PrincessfromHell
01-23-2018, 08:14 AM
Since I am a SW I just notice more how often men take advantage of you and constantly try to gather "homework" material. I just hate it!
All these random fuckers chitchat in bars, asking all types of sex-related questions to beat their little friend later in the night. And they all have "omg I am talking to a real warm female" look to their faces and like if they are about to jizz in their pants. I tell them to go to PSO and then get so bitter and resentful. I am not interested in talking about my sex life/fantasies with some randon dude. What is so surprising about this?!
Men are always trying to take advantage of you. Freeloading all they can.
I am so fed up. Really.
LoveyDovey
01-23-2018, 08:50 AM
My coworkers keep trying to invite themselves to my house and I’m not sure if I’m just being a bitch or what but I don’t want them here. I have nothing against them but my gut says don’t do it. It’s not like they don’t invite me to their homes and I don’t go there either. Like they invited me bowling once but it was late and I believe on a school night and I’m a single parent so I said no but why would you invite me to go on a school night knowing that. Maybe I’m over thinking this but one girl invited me over to trade services at her home but her girlfriend doesn’t like me for some reason. And if I’m invited to your house and we’re talking about where you live why tell me a general area instead of the community where you live? I think I’m over thinking this based on past experiences. What do y’all think?
Listen to your gut. I never have girls feom work over.
JenniKat
01-23-2018, 04:33 PM
My ex is best man at another friend’s wedding and invited me to the bachelor party. I’ve never been to one as either a guest or for work. We’re still friends and I’m also friends with the groom and a lot of the guys going. Part of me wants to go just to see what it’s like. Part of me wants to go because why shouldn’t I? Other than some dates and some tries at being friends with benefits with some of them they’re just friends and I’m one of the guys. Part of me wants to go in hopes it turns into a super porno gangbang that my girlfriends warn me it’ll turn into. Part of me wants to go and fuck the groom because we never dated but his fiancé hates me and is a total bitch.
Most of me knows it’s going to just be another night of drinking, eating and the guys acting stupid.
Ifyouseekamy
01-25-2018, 04:37 AM
I have the hugest crush on a guy I met at work. I DONT get CRUSHES! I usually have zero attraction to most men or people. I hate it. I’m not going to pursue it. I’m not gonna shit where I eat, but I seriously haven’t liked a guy like this in years. I’ve dated on dating sites and quit. I’m a loner. I like my alone time. I just want another weirdo to be weird with. I want it so bad it hurts to say no. I just can’t date someone I met at work. I’m not gonna fuck up my money for a piece of ass. Maybe in a year if he’s proves he’s worth it, I might think about it. For now the answer is no. It just sucks because there’s not many people I click with, but I’m not a foolish girl; I’m a grown ass woman that knows better.
ScarletKitten
01-25-2018, 03:52 PM
When I text my mother, "I miss you too!" but I don't really mean it. Actually, I'm glad we live over 300 miles apart now.
WendiStarr
01-25-2018, 06:28 PM
I finally finished a picture of a bird that I've been working on for a while. I had to fight the strong urge to take a picture of it and text it to someone that I shouldn't. He always liked my art. I'm proud of myself for not sending it. I'm doing my best to remain no contact with him, despite him sending me a,"Hey, you free tonight?" text.