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Aurora_Sunset
03-31-2018, 10:53 AM
Hung out with a guy last night that is super sweet, super generous, I could always tell that he was a really good person when my best friend was crashing at his house. I had a ton of fun with him, and I know he's attracted to me. I let him kiss me at the end of the night, but we also had a conversation that nothing could really progress between us....

He's 58. I wish I was the kind of person that could say that age doesn't matter to me, but it does... Especially when he told me all about all the health problems he already has and how no one in his family has lived past their early 70s due to everyone developing heart disease.

It seems weird for me to be against it, since it's not as though I want kids, and who's to say that someone closer to my age couldn't up and die early in life too? I obviously have had sex with a lot of much older men - but the idea of my personal life actually involving dating someone my dad's age who already has grandchildren seems.... too weird to me.

Honestly, the dude would probably be better for me than the guy that I'm currently kinda seeing and have a crush on.

miss.a.p1600
03-31-2018, 11:38 AM
^2 words ---- anna nicole!!! }:D

I find most older men way more kind towards women then these young entitled dudes

And I can't believe fuck fest thread got locked. I was going to create an xxx fantasy fest but now I don't know if I can.....argh!!!

JenniferNorth
03-31-2018, 12:51 PM
Miss P, I took a look at that thread after you mentioned it-it took a wrong turn to weirdsville quickly! Yikes!

I confess my hair looks horrible and I can't wait to get it done tonight. I hate when my color turns brassy and roots start showing. Thank God for Sally's Beauty Supply!

Elektra Luxx
03-31-2018, 07:25 PM
And I can't believe fuck fest thread got locked. I was going to create an xxx fantasy fest but now I don't know if I can.....argh!!!

A xxx fantasy fest sound hot. Glamourmilf ask me to start accepting invites to the Naughty Details group. Anyone that is interested, let me know.

lynn2009
04-01-2018, 05:56 PM
Sometimes I do think my graduate program is too easy. I can't believe the crap I submit sometimes and still get an A.

seashell
04-01-2018, 06:13 PM
A xxx fantasy fest sound hot. Glamourmilf ask me to start accepting invites to the Naughty Details group. Anyone that is interested, let me know.

I'm interested! ;D

I confess that I *really* need to get out of the house, and socialize, and be normal. But I've been really money hungry, and watching my bank account grow has been sooo satisfying.

WendiStarr
04-01-2018, 06:26 PM
Now that jerk has been on my mind for the rest of the day. Ugghh!!

miss.a.p1600
04-01-2018, 06:44 PM
A xxx fantasy fest sound hot. Glamourmilf ask me to start accepting invites to the Naughty Details group. Anyone that is interested, let me know.

Ohhh - Im in there but I STILL haven't got any action besides self pleasure - womp womp womp lol

I wasn't sure if the group you made was more specific to action with actual partner(s) or self action and fantasies?

JenniferNorth
04-02-2018, 03:51 PM
I confess I miss feeling young. Why did I feel so young at 29/30, right after a divorce and a lot of other loss in my life?

I feel old AF at 35. Life is better and a lot more stable, but I feel fucking old, tired, and out of it.

Or maybe it's just my current mental state.

trustfundkiller
04-02-2018, 04:10 PM
I have this ongoing inside joke with myself where I play "So Fresh, So Clean" by Outkast every time I get out of the shower. Idk why or how this started but I never fail to get a kick out of it lol

ScarletKitten
04-03-2018, 05:13 PM
A few weeks ago, I had sex with someone I felt no attraction whatsoever to because I was so fucking emotional that day and just needed to feel a little love from someone, anyone. I was unraveling at the seams. So I went over to some guy's house, got drunk on wine and fucked him. It was the absolute worst sex I had ever had (aside from horrible car sex I had when I was like 19.) The guy didn't even hold me afterwards. He just up and left! Went to go smoke a cigarette outside. I was left in the bed, feeling completely unsatisfied and reeling emotionally. It was fucking horrible. I regret fucking him.

But it was still better than being alone that night.

Elektra Luxx
04-04-2018, 05:08 AM
Ohhh - Im in there but I STILL haven't got any action besides self pleasure - womp womp womp lol

I wasn't sure if the group you made was more specific to action with actual partner(s) or self action and fantasies?

I thought you were talking about fantasy play with a partner. Are you talking just fantasy stuff? Like erotica? That would be okay too.

WendiStarr
04-04-2018, 05:20 AM
I impulse bought a cute hippie/boho looking dress from Target because I thought it would look great with this belt and boots that I have. I didn't even need a dress but I do need pants.

miss.a.p1600
04-04-2018, 06:23 AM
I thought you were talking about fantasy play with a partner. Are you talking just fantasy stuff? Like erotica? That would be okay too.

Cool - ty.

I guess both? Like fantasy solo or partner(s).

I suppose it would be better to post there than try to manage a whole new group that is somewhat similar.

chanzep
04-04-2018, 03:02 PM
I should of been at work today but im at home covered in fake tan ordering cakes on uber eats.

Aurora_Sunset
04-04-2018, 03:25 PM
I cancelled on a new client tonight, because I just want the night off to myself. To be fair, I already did a 3-hour appointment today with one of my least fav clients, and originally the second guy was scheduled for an hour after him. But then he switched the time to 4 hours later... I would have powered through if they were pretty much back to back, but having a 4 hour window of time where I can't relax, drink, smoke, or anything and then have to still work another hour impressing a new guy... no thanks.

Also, the Dominos delivery guy and I have some obvious rapport now from him seeing me so much... we passed that point where we don't pretend anymore that he doesn't know damn well he delivers here all the time.

Winged Dinghy
04-04-2018, 04:53 PM
My foot fetishist client wants me to pee on him. I think I'm going to!

Ifyouseekamy
04-05-2018, 06:13 AM
Found out my crush was trying to fuck me and my friend. On the days she was around he was ice cold to me, then hot once she wasn’t around. Ugh, I didn’t gossip about him, but gave her a vague warning. Hoes before bros every time. I’m gonna be ice cold to him from here on out! I can’t believe he tried to play me like that. Disgusting. (Flush toilet). My self-esteem ain’t that low.

SnuffleUffleGrass
04-05-2018, 06:25 AM
I confess my Facebook stalking backfired on me- I had a legit horror movie moment where I realized an ex-co-worker was crazier than I thought. I legit freaked myself out. lol

LaurenAus
04-09-2018, 04:32 AM
Here's to officially being 30 years old...

WendiStarr
04-09-2018, 05:34 AM
I feel a bit worried now. I have my regs but I feel like with all of the changes going on, I will likely lose some of them that are discount shoppers. This dude that I've seen a couple times off and on for a few years now had the nerve to try to haggle me down and when I refused he started on some crap about how he'll just go to the sc instead because he got bbbj and bbfs for $50. This fucker was bragging about how he "dropped a load in her". If what he said was true, I feel bad for the girl because she's likely new and naive or desperation escorting and that's not a good place to be. Needless to say I've blacklisted him because I don't like guys who take advantage of women like that. I refuse to go lower and I also refuse to do any unsafe bb stuff.

trustfundkiller
04-09-2018, 08:46 AM
I don't know what to do (any opinions welcome. I'm neutral on the matter and would appreciate any input/experiences). My grandpa is in ICU and he's not expected to make it. My dad is flying out on Wednesday to see him and asked me if I want him to buy me a ticket. I'm not close with my grandfather; he always took my huge family on vacations, he sent me birthday checks in the mail, and we were always friendly but our relationship was always very formal. Due to the size of my family and distance, I just never cultivated that kind of a bond with him.

I know if I go it will be the last time I see my grandpa alive. I also know that my grandpa's death will be very hard on my dad, and it's almost like I want to show goodwill/help my dad. The only reason I'm hesitating is because this will basically eat up my weekend which is my prime moneymaking time. Is that sociopathic of me? It sounds awful writing it out, but like I said, I never had a close personal relationship with my grandpa. I can't even recall us having a one-on-one conversation once.

If I don't go, I worry that the guilt will come back later in life when I think back on him: "I could have been there during his final moments and I wasn't, because I didn't want to lose out on 3 days of earnings. I was so selfish." I also don't want to hurt/disappoint my dad.

I'm so conflicted I don't know what to do. I'm leaning towards going.

SnuffleUffleGrass
04-09-2018, 12:53 PM
I don't know what to do (any opinions welcome. I'm neutral on the matter and would appreciate any input/experiences). My grandpa is in ICU and he's not expected to make it. My dad is flying out on Wednesday to see him and asked me if I want him to buy me a ticket. I'm not close with my grandfather; he always took my huge family on vacations, he sent me birthday checks in the mail, and we were always friendly but our relationship was always very formal. Due to the size of my family and distance, I just never cultivated that kind of a bond with him.

I know if I go it will be the last time I see my grandpa alive. I also know that my grandpa's death will be very hard on my dad, and it's almost like I want to show goodwill/help my dad. The only reason I'm hesitating is because this will basically eat up my weekend which is my prime moneymaking time. Is that sociopathic of me? It sounds awful writing it out, but like I said, I never had a close personal relationship with my grandpa. I can't even recall us having a one-on-one conversation once.

If I don't go, I worry that the guilt will come back later in life when I think back on him: "I could have been there during his final moments and I wasn't, because I didn't want to lose out on 3 days of earnings. I was so selfish." I also don't want to hurt/disappoint my dad.

I'm so conflicted I don't know what to do. I'm leaning towards going.

I would go.

miss.a.p1600
04-09-2018, 06:12 PM
I don't know what to do (any opinions welcome. I'm neutral on the matter and would appreciate any input/experiences). My grandpa is in ICU and he's not expected to make it. My dad is flying out on Wednesday to see him and asked me if I want him to buy me a ticket. I'm not close with my grandfather; he always took my huge family on vacations, he sent me birthday checks in the mail, and we were always friendly but our relationship was always very formal. Due to the size of my family and distance, I just never cultivated that kind of a bond with him.

I know if I go it will be the last time I see my grandpa alive. I also know that my grandpa's death will be very hard on my dad, and it's almost like I want to show goodwill/help my dad. The only reason I'm hesitating is because this will basically eat up my weekend which is my prime moneymaking time. Is that sociopathic of me? It sounds awful writing it out, but like I said, I never had a close personal relationship with my grandpa. I can't even recall us having a one-on-one conversation once.

If I don't go, I worry that the guilt will come back later in life when I think back on him: "I could have been there during his final moments and I wasn't, because I didn't want to lose out on 3 days of earnings. I was so selfish." I also don't want to hurt/disappoint my dad.

I'm so conflicted I don't know what to do. I'm leaning towards going.

What you just said.

Either that or def make plans to attend his funeral or whatnot. I personally wouldnt want people seeing me on my deathbed and would rather people, especially if I'm not close to them, just come to my funeral but some people are sentimental, don't care that they are feeling/looking at their worst, and just want to have their final wishes (to be with family/friends even for a few min) in their final stages of life.

miss.a.p1600
04-09-2018, 06:31 PM
I feel a bit worried now. I have my regs but I feel like with all of the changes going on, I will likely lose some of them that are discount shoppers. This dude that I've seen a couple times off and on for a few years now had the nerve to try to haggle me down and when I refused he started on some crap about how he'll just go to the sc instead because he got bbbj and bbfs for $50. This fucker was bragging about how he "dropped a load in her". If what he said was true, I feel bad for the girl because she's likely new and naive or desperation escorting and that's not a good place to be. Needless to say I've blacklisted him because I don't like guys who take advantage of women like that. I refuse to go lower and I also refuse to do any unsafe bb stuff.

I was reading on reddit sugarlife how some sb said she was with this sd for a while and got emotionally connected like trusted him n shit. He lied to her claimed he was single and exclusive with her only and somehow convinced her to let him go in raw. To make matters worse he ditched her and broke off their sugar relationship very soon after. A few days later she said she had some painful bump she though was an ingrown hair but upon doctor analysis turned out to be, based on physical inspection, a primary herpes outbreak --- that she said she caught from the SD.

https://www.reddit.com/r/sugarlifestyleforum/comments/88vo6z/my_sd_of_almost_15_years_lied_to_me_the_entire/

I can't lie - I've had my share of dumbass reckless raw sex as a young naive bish but nowadays -- It's like you can NEVER trust a dude like that. I need to seem dem papers

49755

Reminds me of that narcissist I dated two summers ago. This fool had the gall to try to get me to fuck him raw - RIGHT OUT THE GATE?!?! (https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/showthread.php?211525-So-yeah-I-regret-it-and-I-feel-like-sh*t)Like who does that? I said "no heaux, until I see an std test, I'm using condoms"

He started trying to justify and make excuses.

Saying "oh my doctor just gave me antibiotics cause I get sinus infections all the time so it would clear it if I did have anything" In my head, Im like this fool thinks I am that dumb. The meds to clear std is probably different than meds to clear a sinus infection plus I aint fucking no strange peen raw at this stage in my life. I am too wise for those shenanigans now.

Then when that didn't work he was like "oh you want me to take a blood test"? Dude I want you to take the FULL PANEL - fuck a blood test you need the damn kitchen sink! Everything heaux!

It's really disturbing how lazy some people are with their own health and dgaf about spreading/contracting diseases.

I reported his ass to the dating site I met him on. And wish I could have reported him to one of those forums where ladies blacklist men had I known about it then.

miss.a.p1600
04-10-2018, 08:03 PM
Ok soooooo I think this married man had a quick mind/mental affair with me, twice!!!.....

Some of these ladies in this upper crust circle Im in have some HILF's (husbands I'd like to fuck). Now I would never fuck a woman's husband in real life unless they were in an open relationship.

However, I have been feeling so disappointed that this old dude isn't the provider I need him to be plus his voice and body is not that sexy so the other day I hear a mans voice and it sounds kind of sexy. I look up, see him and Im like mmmm he looks kind of good for a middle aged man - I'd definitely let him eat this pussy right cause he got that mouth I can tell know how to suck the life out the pussy.

Then a few moments later he introduces himself, while his wife is off somewhere, and gives me a handshake with just the right firmness. I got mildly turned on.

I thought about him twice today and hoped I would see him. Sure enough, he was there. And he sat closely behind me twice - that is until his wife aka Bertha #1 got pissed that he was talking to her from 2 rows away and made him sit next to her. Well why tf didn't you have him sit next to you earlier? She sat next to her rough looking friend Bertha #2 and was so busy being a do-bitch for that woman she totally left her husband out and made him sit on another row of benches.

Then later on, I got up to walk out and I caught him looking at me.....with THAT look lol. The look of lust in his eyes. Looking like he is starving for attention and sex.

Glamourmilf
04-11-2018, 03:10 AM
^^ That's hot as fuck! I hope you get to play with him.
My confession. I'm #Homesick
Really, really homesick.:'(
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lilylilylily
04-11-2018, 11:43 AM
I'm getting addicted to taking pics with the Snapchat filters. I look wayyy cuter with bunny ears and whiskers lol

miss.a.p1600
04-11-2018, 03:55 PM
^IKR.

I don't use snapchat but I just found this app called YouCamMakeup and it has tons of filters where you can alter your hair, makeup (eyes, lips, foundation, etc.), and jewelry and more - all without the expense and time of actually buying and putting on makeup.

lilylilylily
04-11-2018, 06:02 PM
Just tried the app, omg very cool! Thanks xx

baer45
04-11-2018, 06:29 PM
I am exhausted. The price I paid to prove that I am a good fit of the position.

Glamourmilf
04-12-2018, 06:47 AM
^IKR.

I don't use snapchat but I just found this app called YouCamMakeup and it has tons of filters where you can alter your hair, makeup (eyes, lips, foundation, etc.), and jewelry and more - all without the expense and time of actually buying and putting on makeup.

I discovered this amazing app a couple of years ago, and shared it in the CC section.
Whenever I take a photo of someone, and they say they don't want to because they don't look good, I tell them about the app.
They get 'final' approval and always love the results.

ScarletKitten
04-13-2018, 03:26 PM
I miss making money damnit. This $350/ week nonsense makes me want to return to the club! How am I even surviving off what I make at my vanilla job I've no idea honestly.

trustfundkiller
04-13-2018, 11:26 PM
I went to see my grandpa and I'm happy I did. I can tell it meant the world to him and it was nice to hold his hand and tell him I love him. He's in bad shape (permanent lung scarring from double pneumonia so he would be on breathing machines for the rest of his life, heart and kidneys are in bad condition) and he refuses to cooperate with the doctors. He takes off his breathing mask because he "hates it" and he tells the doctors to "take these plugs off now and let me die." The doctors aren't giving in and they're trying to encourage him. He's not getting worse but he's not getting much better.

At that point, you don't really get "better". The quality of life would be so low compared to what he's accustomed to. Three weeks ago, he was driving, working in his garden, he was excited for boating/fishing in the summer. It all happened suddenly.

He's miserable and he feels very defeated. He's 87-yrs-old but was always healthy and active up until now and he never thought of himself as an "old man". Hell, I was looking through his medicine cabinet and saw a bottle of Viagra. Go grandpa!

Grace108
04-14-2018, 06:07 AM
At times I am just so bored of all this guys and now when I am off don’t look at any guy (unless he is gorgeous), feels to me as this is work (man = work -lol!).
Pretending I am interested, ... some guys are also quiet naive about the industry (I have one in mind) and I almost about losing my patience... than I try to remember.. They are like babies and is like if I would train them, so some kindness comes back again. Even if he will understand how the business works later on, still I want to leave him (them) good memories about me and the experience.. And be thankful for the good business I made with him/them $$

SnuffleUffleGrass
04-14-2018, 05:24 PM
I confess I finally see the appeal of grocery delivery service. I've been so sick I would pay someone to bring me groceries.

chanzep
04-14-2018, 05:53 PM
^I have a order on the way. Now I work I the vanilla world the less I see people the better. At least people at the club are drunk so more pleasant than the sober people I now deal with.

lynn2009
04-14-2018, 10:53 PM
The first time I heard about professional cuddling, pay was around 40 dollars an hour. Now in my current area, there's three different professional cuddling agencies that I've found for 80 dollars an hour on average, which is about what I used to make dancing. I've been thinking about dancing again for ages but can't ever seem to pull the trigger on it again. And it's not because I know Derek wouldn't approve (although he wouldn't), but I really just don't want to again. But I miss money, and as much as school is a pain in the ass, without something to keep me busy, I spiral worse and worse. But dancing results in cash, which is really important for some things. Oh my goodness...I need a life coach.

SnuffleUffleGrass
04-15-2018, 06:27 AM
The first time I heard about professional cuddling, pay was around 40 dollars an hour. Now in my current area, there's three different professional cuddling agencies that I've found for 80 dollars an hour on average, which is about what I used to make dancing. I've been thinking about dancing again for ages but can't ever seem to pull the trigger on it again. And it's not because I know Derek wouldn't approve (although he wouldn't), but I really just don't want to again. But I miss money, and as much as school is a pain in the ass, without something to keep me busy, I spiral worse and worse. But dancing results in cash, which is really important for some things. Oh my goodness...I need a life coach.

Have you considered waitressing at a small diner? You get the same person to person contact socially, minus the risk.

Glamourmilf
04-15-2018, 09:58 AM
I confess I finally see the appeal of grocery delivery service. I've been so sick I would pay someone to bring me groceries.

I'm right there with you. I was so wiped out yesterday but didn't have anything in the house.
What usually takes a half hour or so, took 1 1/2 hours yesterday! The market was a complete nightmare!
Ugh! From now on, home delivery it is.

ScarletKitten
04-15-2018, 10:38 AM
The first time I heard about professional cuddling, pay was around 40 dollars an hour. Now in my current area, there's three different professional cuddling agencies that I've found for 80 dollars an hour on average, which is about what I used to make dancing. I've been thinking about dancing again for ages but can't ever seem to pull the trigger on it again. And it's not because I know Derek wouldn't approve (although he wouldn't), but I really just don't want to again. But I miss money, and as much as school is a pain in the ass, without something to keep me busy, I spiral worse and worse. But dancing results in cash, which is really important for some things. Oh my goodness...I need a life coach.

Omg I feel this post so much. I'm the same way as you, I need to stay busy all the time or I go towards a downward spiral too. Too much thinking and not enough doing= mental hell.

Professional cuddling might be a good idea though. :)

WendiStarr
04-15-2018, 01:16 PM
The first time I heard about professional cuddling, pay was around 40 dollars an hour. Now in my current area, there's three different professional cuddling agencies that I've found for 80 dollars an hour on average, which is about what I used to make dancing. I've been thinking about dancing again for ages but can't ever seem to pull the trigger on it again. And it's not because I know Derek wouldn't approve (although he wouldn't), but I really just don't want to again. But I miss money, and as much as school is a pain in the ass, without something to keep me busy, I spiral worse and worse. But dancing results in cash, which is really important for some things. Oh my goodness...I need a life coach.

I do professional cuddling on the side. I want to say that if you're working for an agency they will likely want 15% of that $80/hour, so really you'll only get to keep $68 out of that. If you go indy of course you get to profit 100% but I'm not going to tell you that it's always easy. I'd be lying if I did. You get the hidden sexual agenda guys who want to try to get sex or sexual services even if you tell them platonic cuddling only. You also get guys who respect boundaries but have so many mental issues that they treat you like their own personal shrink and by the time you're done cuddling with him, you feel so mentally and physically exhausted and drained. I have had one instance where a guy got obsessive stalker too, just from 4 weeks of platonic cuddling with me. You could try it and try to somehow get them to not treat you like a shrink. Maybe you could bartend or waitress a few nights?

DonaDiabla
04-15-2018, 06:43 PM
I confess that I really do not understand LiveJasmin's Celebrity category. It was made up of mostly girls wearing formal attire, having formal settings, listening to jazzy music, and having unique fairy tale names. There was one alternative girl in that category and it just seems that category is for non-nude cam models who present themselves as high-class 1950's fashion models :)

seashell
04-16-2018, 10:38 AM
Omg I feel this post so much. I'm the same way as you, I need to stay busy all the time or I go towards a downward spiral too. Too much thinking and not enough doing= mental hell.

Professional cuddling might be a good idea though. :)

I am the exact same way! <3 The last thing I need is to be alone with my thoughts. lol.

I confess that I have am SO inexplicably sexually attracted to Kate McKinnon impersonating Justin Bieber on SNL. I wish I could explain it... she just looks like the hottest butch lesbian. I can't get enough. XD

Grace108
04-17-2018, 03:26 PM
I feel so lazy tonight.. I am here at Club... almost sleeping on the chear .. will I make some money tonight? Last thing I feel is to talk to someone, especially those who look hard work... maybe few stage shows would hopefully wake me up ���� .. I have few busy weeks ahead in my private life.. but hope to have the energy to make it both (banking -at least do well enough, and sort out my vanilla stuff too) :-)

lynn2009
04-17-2018, 07:52 PM
People joke about this, but I really need to stop watching Criminal Minds. I get so creeped out in my apartment, for no reason. I've lived by myself before, and put myself in plenty of precarious positions inside and outside a strip club, but I rarely ever 100 percent relax in my apartment. Everytime I check the patio, I'm convinced the door will be unlocked. I just came back from being away for four days, and the front door was locked, but I was absolutely convinced someone was in here, to the extent I actually checked under my bed, behind the shower curtain, etc. This behavior is really so odd for me, but I just can't shake it these days. I used to go for jogs at night, stuff like that and never think twice about it.

Ifyouseekamy
04-18-2018, 12:35 AM
^^^ I love crime shows, but that’s why I can not watch them.

I’m not sure if this a confession, but it’s stripper related and I wanted to get it off my chest.

I watched the view....lol. I normally don’t watch it, but they were interviewing stormy.

I am an adult child of narcissist and a survivor of many traumatic events. I’ve been sick with social anxiety. I live in a small medium city where I have run into people from the club. I was previously open about being an adult entertainer, but after getting harassed and ostracized by 90% of people. I just gave up. I didn’t even want to tell people in my support group.

I watched the stormy interview and after seeing a conservative woman- I forget her name. She said she supports women being successful in an any industry. After stormy said, “my job just my job it doesn’t define my ability not my ability to know right from wrong.” I kinda gave the strength to stand up for myself.

I’m not telling everyone I’m a stripper, but if it comes up I’m being honest. I’d rather die than live another day being sick with this secret.

I’ve never had anyone, so even if everyone quit talking to me....oh well. I’ve survived my whole life on my own-what’s new about being shamed and blamed.

Furthermore, I don’t want to be an elderly dancer that depends on stripping to survive, but there’s a difference been obviously being too old and just straight ageism. I’ve already been married and engaged. Frankly, I’d rather get attention from men and get $$$ than be in an exclusive relationship. Is it fucked up? Probably. But so is that fact that men can abuse and cheat on women and all we can do is pick up the pieces of our lives. It is what it is.

My grandma said to be an independent woman because otherwise when your older you’ll depend too much on a man. My grandpa died before my grandma. Was she sad? Fuck no. She hated him! This whole idea that we need a man and a child to be happy is a complete lie. The fact we can’t be sexy after a certain age is a lie! The fact we get money for sex or dances makes us whores is a fucking lie too!

Fuck the social lies! Seriously what’s the point in being alive if I’m not true to myself.

SnuffleUffleGrass
04-18-2018, 06:34 AM
^^^ I love crime shows, but that’s why I can not watch them.

I’m not sure if this a confession, but it’s stripper related and I wanted to get it off my chest.

I watched the view....lol. I normally don’t watch it, but they were interviewing stormy.

I am an adult child of narcissist and a survivor of many traumatic events. I’ve been sick with social anxiety. I live in a small medium city where I have run into people from the club. I was previously open about being an adult entertainer, but after getting harassed and ostracized by 90% of people. I just gave up. I didn’t even want to tell people in my support group.

I watched the stormy interview and after seeing a conservative woman- I forget her name. She said she supports women being successful in an any industry. After stormy said, “my job just my job it doesn’t define my ability not my ability to know right from wrong.” I kinda gave the strength to stand up for myself.

I’m not telling everyone I’m a stripper, but if it comes up I’m being honest. I’d rather die than live another day being sick with this secret.

I’ve never had anyone, so even if everyone quit talking to me....oh well. I’ve survived my whole life on my own-what’s new about being shamed and blamed.

Furthermore, I don’t want to be an elderly dancer that depends on stripping to survive, but there’s a difference been obviously being too old and just straight ageism. I’ve already been married and engaged. Frankly, I’d rather get attention from men and get $$$ than be in an exclusive relationship. Is it fucked up? Probably. But so is that fact that men can abuse and cheat on women and all we can do is pick up the pieces of our lives. It is what it is.

My grandma said to be an independent woman because otherwise when your older you’ll depend too much on a man. My grandpa died before my grandma. Was she sad? Fuck no. She hated him! This whole idea that we need a man and a child to be happy is a complete lie. The fact we can’t be sexy after a certain age is a lie! The fact we get money for sex or dances makes us whores is a fucking lie too!

Fuck the social lies! Seriously what’s the point in being alive if I’m not true to myself.

This is all true.

Years ago women in bad positions had to make hard unfair choices because they had limited options. My friend's grandma married a super abusive man because she was widowed with 4 tiny kids. She didn't do anything wrong but that was her life. She ended up being an alcoholic to cope with her new husband.

Even today many men still feel women are weaker and stupider than the average man & we have to be "protected" at the cost of our happiness.

I'm very lucky my dad & uncle were wise to the world & told all of us not to marry unless we found "keepers."

WendiStarr
04-19-2018, 01:31 PM
I got some pleasure today(and no I don't mean sexual). I went to lunch with platonic SD. It wasn't busy and was pretty quiet at the restaurant. Who do you think just so happened to be there, sitting alone behind us, facing me? I was laughing about something SD said when all of a sudden I happened to look behind SD and spotted him. Mr. Flaky, that one that I had strong feels for. We made eye contact briefly and I looked away and continued on with my conversation with SD. I made sure to smile and laugh a lot. I could feel Mr. Flaky staring at me. I looked up again and he was glaring angrily at SD(although really he could only see the back of his head). He made a point of crumpling up a napkin and throwing it on the floor near us, stood up, and left. It was funny to me, seeing him act like that. He obviously was bothered by the fact that I was out with someone else and having a good time. I am evil sometimes.

BadBitch
04-19-2018, 08:37 PM
Omg I feel this post so much. I'm the same way as you, I need to stay busy all the time or I go towards a downward spiral too. Too much thinking and not enough doing= mental hell.

Professional cuddling might be a good idea though. :)

I'm the SAME, EXACT way!