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Glamourmilf
05-16-2018, 08:02 AM
I confess that I hate it when young dudes bring up their girlfriends​ in conversation.:-\
I went to a mechanic to see about a second opinion on some car repairs.
When I was walking back to my car, one of the mechanics was leaning against the wall, smoking a cigarette James Dean style, staring me down.
He purposely says hi, and starts making conversation.
We car talk a bit, but everything out of his mouth was, " Oh, my girlfriend would kill me if I ......(insert, found out I bought my car, bought your car, blah blah blah)."
He ended with, " Looking forward to seeing you on Wednesday when you come back."
Dude, such a turn off.
We both know there's an attraction between us.
Don't try to make it hotter, and more taboo, by talking about your girlfriend. (Unless she wants to join) ha ha!
I'll report back after my appointment today.
Or after I take him home with me, and rock his 20 something year old ass.:D

miss.a.p1600
05-16-2018, 09:58 AM
called up a psychic .... and she was a bit helpful but very long winded lol. I spent more than I had planned to. Now I gotta get my sub to call me to pay for my psychic call.

WendiStarr
05-16-2018, 01:23 PM
I want to sit on the face of my boss at my new vanilla job so bad!

trustfundkiller
05-16-2018, 03:27 PM
I judge men based on what type of customers I think they'd be in the strip club.

lynn2009
05-16-2018, 07:43 PM
There are some people who I wish would leave me the fuck alone and let me be a recluse. Like you ask me every week what I am up to, and the answer is always nothing. I am fine with doing fucking nothing. If the pity looks from you are never going to end, stop fucking asking already.

lilylilylily
05-16-2018, 09:15 PM
I'm officially a recluse. My one and only friend who for the last 2 years I always felt was toxic, stopped talking to me. It began when she was always calling me to talk about nothing but her man and to gossip, and I was ignoring her calls, kept telling her politely to text me because I don't feel like chatting on the phone these days. She got pissed and told me let's not talk at all then. I didn't respond and I'm not going to. She's always treated me like shit and never took responsibility for it so I'm glad she cut herself out of my life

miss.a.p1600
05-17-2018, 06:35 AM
I judge men based on what type of customers I think they'd be in the strip club.

LOL!!! I feel ya

Many times I think of dudes like "if yo ass was in a strip club rn, I'd have you gleefully at the atm making withdrawls for me right now"



I'm officially a recluse. My one and only friend who for the last 2 years I always felt was toxic, stopped talking to me. It began when she was always calling me to talk about nothing but her man and to gossip, and I was ignoring her calls, kept telling her politely to text me because I don't feel like chatting on the phone these days. She got pissed and told me let's not talk at all then. I didn't respond and I'm not going to. She's always treated me like shit and never took responsibility for it so I'm glad she cut herself out of my life

I had a "friend" like that once. Sometimes it's good to drop dead weights as these people really are not good friends.

SnuffleUffleGrass
05-17-2018, 11:10 AM
Funny confession- I am totally obsessed with this Hollywood gossip site Crazy Days And Nights. It's like a crack sandwich of entertainment.

I do have to say though that the author does seem to reach in some of the blind items. (One particular claim about an alleged incident on set doesn't make sense if you know a lot about what was going on at the time, etc. Stuff like that.)


Aside from that the blog DOES say that it contains "fiction" as well as gossip so that kind of protects the site from lawsuits. I guess throwing in some complete BS helps the author when some things are proven to be truth....

lilylilylily
05-17-2018, 12:10 PM
I judge men based on what type of customers I think they'd be in the strip club.

I still do this even tho I don't dance any more lol

Aurora_Sunset
05-18-2018, 09:50 AM
I think I will probably always have a bit of a crush on my old neighbor. He's just a really good guy. I think the only reason he remains single for long stretches of time is because he's a workaholic.

It's probably a good thing that I don't live nearby anymore and only go down to visit him for a night maybe twice a year. It's always a really fun time, but then I can leave it behind without falling down that hole of really really liking him again.

It does kinda depress me though, because he can treat me better in one evening as a FWB than some of the guys I've attempted to actually date. Buys me food and beer, makes time for me even when he's obviously tired, good listener, super chill and good sense of humor, smart, good kisser, good sex, good cuddler, very affectionate without being weird about it - if he has to leave early in the morning, he trusts me to just sleep in at his apartment as long as I want. *sigh* Yeah, I need a bf like that lol There's a reason I'll always have that little crush.

WendiStarr
05-18-2018, 01:40 PM
Mr. Flaky had perfect timing today. I got a flat and he just so happened to text me at that moment. I'm not going to lie. He looked good. I didn't flirt though because I'm still leery of him. You can't trust someone with a history of flakiness. I ended up hugging him after I thanked him and he hugged me back. I felt tempted to tell him to just hold me and never let go, but that's crazy talk. I know I said that I was done with him and shouldn't have responded to his text in the first place. I think I'm just lonely, but I don't think it'd be fair to anyone for me to date anyone right now.

Glamourmilf
05-19-2018, 07:59 AM
Mr. Flaky had perfect timing today. I got a flat and he just so happened to text me at that moment. I'm not going to lie. He looked good. I didn't flirt though because I'm still leery of him. You can't trust someone with a history of flakiness. I ended up hugging him after I thanked him and he hugged me back. I felt tempted to tell him to just hold me and never let go, but that's crazy talk. I know I said that I was done with him and shouldn't have responded to his text in the first place. I think I'm just lonely, but I don't think it'd be fair to anyone for me to date anyone right now.

Who said anything about dating?:D
Much as anyone tries, it's tough to fight animal Attraction.
I don't know about anyone else, but it's extremely rare to feel that for someone.
But when I do, I'm gonna ride him till the cows come home.
Or till my uterus falls out.
Whichever happens first.

ScarletKitten
05-19-2018, 12:11 PM
^lmao, I agree. Fuck dating. I don't have time to be dating anyone anymore. And guys don't seem to ever want to date me seriously. They all end up fucking off. So I've adapted to this madness. I only fuck now. I don't date. Keep it simple. I don't have a boyfriend. I have boy toys who I play with whenever I feel like it.

WendiStarr
05-19-2018, 12:28 PM
Who said anything about dating?:D
Much as anyone tries, it's tough to fight animal Attraction.
I don't know about anyone else, but it's extremely rare to feel that for someone.
But when I do, I'm gonna ride him till the cows come home.
Or till my uterus falls out.
Whichever happens first.

I can't have sex though. I'm still going through health issue with abnormal cervical cells. My doctor has me on 'No sex' restrictions and I have a biopsy this upcoming week. I want to have sex but I'm not supposed to. I'm scared to.

miss.a.p1600
05-19-2018, 12:31 PM
I think I will probably always have a bit of a crush on my old neighbor. He's just a really good guy. I think the only reason he remains single for long stretches of time is because he's a workaholic.

It's probably a good thing that I don't live nearby anymore and only go down to visit him for a night maybe twice a year. It's always a really fun time, but then I can leave it behind without falling down that hole of really really liking him again.

It does kinda depress me though, because he can treat me better in one evening as a FWB than some of the guys I've attempted to actually date. Buys me food and beer, makes time for me even when he's obviously tired, good listener, super chill and good sense of humor, smart, good kisser, good sex, good cuddler, very affectionate without being weird about it - if he has to leave early in the morning, he trusts me to just sleep in at his apartment as long as I want. *sigh* Yeah, I need a bf like that lol There's a reason I'll always have that little crush.

He must be hot....cause I've have a plethora of neighbors all try to offer me some dick and I refused everytime. I go into friendzone with guys who I am out of their league but I would let them do some hard convincing if it is worth my while.

I wish I did have a hot sexy attractive neighbor

And BTW I instantly saw a fine ass dude at Whole Foods as a ....... cashier?!?

I started thinking about how I'd like to press my naked body against his naked body and just.....mmmmmm

I mean seriously I have not seen a guy looking this good that just got my mind all instantly discombobulated. Tall, dark, body like a greek god, great sense of humor.

He handed me my items and I just had to 'accidentally' brush my hand against his.

Then I was like "wait! - what is this mf doing as a cashier?" "omg - self, is this dude over 18?" "I hope this mf is 18 cause it would not be right having these thoughts in my head"

Now I am sweating bullets trying to formulate in my head how the dude I am fantasizing about MUST be 18 or older.

Glamourmilf
05-20-2018, 07:19 AM
He must be hot....cause I've have a plethora of neighbors all try to offer me some dick and I refused everytime. I go into friendzone with guys who I am out of their league but I would let them do some hard convincing if it is worth my while.

I wish I did have a hot sexy attractive neighbor

And BTW I instantly saw a fine ass dude at Whole Foods as a ....... cashier?!?

I started thinking about how I'd like to press my naked body against his naked body and just.....mmmmmm

I mean seriously I have not seen a guy looking this good that just got my mind all instantly discombobulated. Tall, dark, body like a greek god, great sense of humor.

He handed me my items and I just had to 'accidentally' brush my hand against his.

Then I was like "wait! - what is this mf doing as a cashier?" "omg - self, is this dude over 18?" "I hope this mf is 18 cause it would not be right having these thoughts in my head"

Now I am sweating bullets trying to formulate in my head how the dude I am fantasizing about MUST be 18 or older.

I love attractive cashiers, waiters, busboys,etc. Neighbors too.
That's the one thing I miss about LA. Gorgeous people are everywhere, waiting on you. Flirting with you, ( fucking you), etc.
I love where I now live, but damn, the people are butt ugly.
I think that's why I still cam. At least I get to see hot young dudes everyday, without even leaving my couch. Lol!

Elektra Luxx
05-21-2018, 12:17 AM
I'm on a all girls weekend with my sister and several of our friends. We're staying in a really nice condo, but I can't sleep. I can't sleep because right now, this very second, my friend Julie is being murdered in the room next to mine by a good looking neighbor and it's turning me the fuck on.

miss.a.p1600
05-21-2018, 11:26 AM
^ lol! reminds me of that time Amanda Bynes told the world she wanted that rapper Drake to 'murder' her vagina

#dead

lynn2009
05-26-2018, 11:43 AM
Xxxccxx

SnuffleUffleGrass
05-27-2018, 09:06 AM
I hate Derek more than ever lately, and this has coincided with a definite uptick in my mood. A couple nights ago I couldn't sleep, was up all night and couldn't stop thinking about what a douchebag he could be and I finally got up and threw the really nice wooden military urn that cost two hundred dollars. I left it on the floor and in the last few days keep kicking it as I come and go and even stomped on it this morning. I ripped up almost all my pictures of him, stomp on his clothes all the time now and even (I feel a little bad about this one) ripped his name badge from the military. Maybe it's just because the weather is so much nicer but I've been cleaning up after myself more, went for a really nice long walk today....

Have you thought about getting counseling? I know there's little I can say that will help. But you shouldn't have to suffer so much. I hope you feel better.

Aurora_Sunset
05-27-2018, 11:47 AM
People keep asking if I like my new city since I moved here, and I always say oh yeah, it's awesome, but honestly... not really. It's a weirdly sized and designed city. It's hard to walk anywhere, but we don't have good, convenient public transport, and driving is congested on tiny roads. In my old city, most anything you could want to get to was pretty much walkable if you really wanted to. Otherwise, parking was abundant and affordable. I routinely would just walk out of my apartment complex and take a nice stroll to any corner of town. I lived in a more secluded area and I still could get to any bar, grocery store, or restaurant without much difficulty. Here, I can't even get to the bar/restaurants/mall technically right across the street from me because it's such a busy road to cross on foot. I never just go out for walks anymore. Traffic and parking is a pain. Public transport is practically nonexistent. There's maybe 2 areas of the city worth visiting for food/nightlife/going out. The rest just seems like urban sprawl that doesn't even have anything that good, unique, or interesting in it, and living there isn't even that appealing, because you HAVE to drive in traffic to get 2 miles down the road, because walking isn't an option, but it'll take you 20 minutes to get there... it's all honestly just a pain. I've literally been to the actual grocery store maybe 4 times in the past year. I otherwise use Peapod because there are no easy-to-get-to stores anywhere near me.

At this point, I would honestly prefer to take my job experience and move back to my old city and re-try for the hospital there. I always wanted to "get out" but now I miss it compared to where I am. I do know, though, that when I first moved to the old city, it took me awhile to adjust, get to know it, and let it grow on me to where I knew where things were, the best ways to get around, found my favorite spots... I keep telling myself maybe I just haven't given this place enough time. But I don't know. I really don't like it as much as I thought, and not much in general...

DonaDiabla
05-27-2018, 12:26 PM
I am pretty happy that I found two psychic companies to work for now. I have better clients and readings go a lot smoother now. However, I am not thrilled with changing my name on those sites but it was an overall great experience. :)

seashell
05-27-2018, 04:37 PM
Two confessions!

One... I had a nightmare that a male intruder was in my apartment, and it’s freaking me out...

Two... I got a text from a guy that I really miss. We had a nice little chat, just catching up and joking around. I didn’t think I’d ever hear from him again, so that made my day.

Ifyouseekamy
05-28-2018, 04:41 AM
Oh gosh. I’m confessing to having c-PSTD. Ugh, I cope so well I “forget” until I’m stressball. I’m prescribing myself Daily meditations, daily affirmations, and daily goals. It just sucks to constantly live like this and getting Shamed for stripping really gets me going!

I didn’t do anything BAD, but I had a shitty attitude. I should have just said, “I have too much on my plate right now, so I’ll get around to it when I can!” I just have nothing left to give right now and any small request feel like WTF!!!! I just had no tolerance for other people’s short comings. I will remember to just ignore people when they want my time and attention. I just need to let go and let god. It’ll all be okay. I don’t need to sweat the small stuff.

Lol...I reread my text and even when I’m PISSED I’m respectful. I’m just really blunt. I don’t have to be nicey-nicey like society says “good girls” are.

Glamourmilf
05-28-2018, 08:01 AM
People keep asking if I like my new city since I moved here, and I always say oh yeah, it's awesome, but honestly... not really. It's a weirdly sized and designed city. It's hard to walk anywhere, but we don't have good, convenient public transport, and driving is congested on tiny roads. In my old city, most anything you could want to get to was pretty much walkable if you really wanted to. Otherwise, parking was abundant and affordable. I routinely would just walk out of my apartment complex and take a nice stroll to any corner of town. I lived in a more secluded area and I still could get to any bar, grocery store, or restaurant without much difficulty. Here, I can't even get to the bar/restaurants/mall technically right across the street from me because it's such a busy road to cross on foot. I never just go out for walks anymore. Traffic and parking is a pain. Public transport is practically nonexistent. There's maybe 2 areas of the city worth visiting for food/nightlife/going out. The rest just seems like urban sprawl that doesn't even have anything that good, unique, or interesting in it, and living there isn't even that appealing, because you HAVE to drive in traffic to get 2 miles down the road, because walking isn't an option, but it'll take you 20 minutes to get there... it's all honestly just a pain. I've literally been to the actual grocery store maybe 4 times in the past year. I otherwise use Peapod because there are no easy-to-get-to stores anywhere near me.

At this point, I would honestly prefer to take my job experience and move back to my old city and re-try for the hospital there. I always wanted to "get out" but now I miss it compared to where I am. I do know, though, that when I first moved to the old city, it took me awhile to adjust, get to know it, and let it grow on me to where I knew where things were, the best ways to get around, found my favorite spots... I keep telling myself maybe I just haven't given this place enough time. But I don't know. I really don't like it as much as I thought, and not much in general...

I know how you feel.
My new city town has everything except culture, and black men.
My cam customers​ tell me to move. ( So I'll have hot stories about fucking black men).
Yeah, right dudes.
I'm going to go from living in a quiet, big house with a yard, to a noisy city and pay 3× the amount for a shoebox so you can get off on my stories.:no:

DonaDiabla
05-28-2018, 05:09 PM
Thanks Panthera,
I would say that Psychic Today and Purple Ocean have been pretty great so far. I have been working at those places for a month. Psychic Today is an UK company but they have been pretty nice about taking phone calls. They are an no-pressure site and really allows for you to grow. Payout is 50 and you can make that within the first two weeks depending on much you are on there. Meanwhile, Purple Ocean is an app ran by Bitwine and must provide an track record but you will have an great group of customers.I was also on Oranum and found it to be very disheartening.


Hello! I just saw your post and I was like.. Whoa! I am also a psychic (lol, sounds funny even to me when I write, it but I am) and I used to work on Oranum, which frustrated the heck out of me because half of the people there wanted me to get naked and do sex shows (and, of course, for a small fraction of the price I am charging on Streamate, because it's a psychic site, not a sex site, duh!). It infuriated me, because when I started there I started with so much joy and hoping it will help me get rid of sex camming for good, and oups... it was almost the same shit! I was literally sick for a week because of how upset I got. While ago, I gave it another try with a higher rate, and still got the same 50/50, 50% readings, 50% sex, ratio. I decided to look for a better Psychic site, but I am afraid this happens everywhere so I am biased :(
How is it for you? And if you don't mind sharing, which sites are you on?
I wish you the best of luck! oxox
I have a ton of Tarot and Oracle cards with which I do readings (and a certification from DV), I also know Astrology and spiritual-based healing, I have a Life Coach certification as well, so I know I would be able to do a great job in this field!

Glamourmilf
05-30-2018, 07:57 AM
Met a guy at my grief group last night, and I'm totally in love with him!:iloveyou::lovestruc
He's well read, upbeat, loves to travel, handsome, tan, wealthy. An east coaster.
Too bad he's gay.
I'm gonna fix him up with a gay buddy of mine, who's exactly the same.
49960

miss.a.p1600
05-30-2018, 12:49 PM
OMG, OMG, OMG!

Just saw a dude I used to go to college with and back then he was busted and scrawny and just ..... i would have never given him the time of day.

Now....

He looking fine af, supervises a large group of people, and that body looking good (well judging from my xray vision)

Shiiiiit - I'd ride his face ALL night

mmmmmm

miss.a.p1600
05-30-2018, 01:03 PM
OMG, OMG, OMG!

Just saw a dude I used to go to college with and back then he was busted and scrawny and just ..... i would have never given him the time of day.

Now....

He looking fine af, supervises a large group of people, and that body looking good (well judging from my xray vision)

Shiiiiit - I'd ride his face ALL night

mmmmmm

Damnit! I can't concentrate now. All I can think about is him pleasing me - pinning me against a wall, lifting up my shirt whilst squeezing my breasts just right, kissing my neck as I tilt my head back, then pulling my g-string to the side and..........

I hope I did not look thirsty.

You know how dudes be looking at you with that look of lust?

I hope I did NOT do that. Gotta play it cool.

He gave me his card.....

WendiStarr
05-30-2018, 01:53 PM
Why the heck does my vanilla job have to have some sexy bosses? I can't help but fantasizing about being called into the office, bent over the table, and pounded hard. I need my biopsy results to come back soon because I'm super horny today and I've not been able to have sex all this time.

miss.a.p1600
05-31-2018, 09:41 AM
Damnit! I can't concentrate now. All I can think about is him pleasing me - pinning me against a wall, lifting up my shirt whilst squeezing my breasts just right, kissing my neck as I tilt my head back, then pulling my g-string to the side and..........

I hope I did not look thirsty.

You know how dudes be looking at you with that look of lust?

I hope I did NOT do that. Gotta play it cool.

He gave me his card.....

OMG!!!!

So I emailed hot sexy dude and you know what?

He responded this am!

AND he ended the message "good to see you" with a wink face........what does this mean? IDK what this means. But I do know I cannot stop thinking about him. In my head I'm like "thanks sexy, good to feel you make love to me - in my subconscious mind which will turn into reality soon"

mmmmmmmm His presence is intriguing

baer45
05-31-2018, 12:25 PM
Met a guy at my grief group last night, and I'm totally in love with him!:iloveyou::lovestruc
He's well read, upbeat, loves to travel, handsome, tan, wealthy. An east coaster.
Too bad he's gay.
I'm gonna fix him up with a gay buddy of mine, who's exactly the same.
49960

You bag that one up and guard it with a pair of dragon glass swords.
Wait...what? NVM, just finish reading your post.

Elle:)
06-01-2018, 11:47 PM
Recently I've been looking up people I used to know in high school and some people I haven't been in touch with in several years on Facebook. I know it's evil and cliche but I enjoy seeing how most of the people that have treated me badly in high school aren't doing that well.

Glamourmilf
06-02-2018, 07:21 AM
A dear ( male) friend of mine called me yesterday to confess that he has been diagnosed with Aids/HIV.
I say confessed, because he doesn't want any other living soul to know, except his Mom.
As I listened to him crying and being hysterical for over 3 hours, I CONFESS that I kept thinking that it could have been me. And how thankful I was that I don't have it, and won't get it because I'm once again celibate. And been tested recently.
He said he got it through unprotected sex with strangers.
God knows I have been exceedingly reckless in that department too.
My favorite saying kept popping into my head.
" God's rejection, is God's protection."
Because I've wanted to have sex with him from the moment we met all those 17 years ago.
Now I know why, even when I stayed overnight​ at his house, he never made any moves.
He hid his homosexuality really well.
All I can do is be there for him.
Thankfully he's on a pill that cost $3000 per month that will keep him alive.
Today I feel emotionally drained.
I pray that I get through my camming shift.

WendiStarr
06-03-2018, 12:46 PM
I quit my vanilla job today. From the start it was a disaster. They had me running this machine that I've never run before and it was so overwhelming, I couldn't keep up. The work backed up and started falling off the line onto the floor. Coworkers were screaming at me and my boss was mad, saying that he couldn't leave on his day off because of me. I ended up getting it straightened out but still, all day these same 5 co-workers kept being bitchy to me and talking shit about me as if I wasn't there. I was tempted to just walk out then and there but I powered through the entire 8 hour shift, pretending that I didn't care. I burst into tears as soon as I walked in the front door of my home.

ScarletKitten
06-03-2018, 01:35 PM
I quit my vanilla job today. From the start it was a disaster. They had me running this machine that I've never run before and it was so overwhelming, I couldn't keep up. The work backed up and started falling off the line onto the floor. Coworkers were screaming at me and my boss was mad, saying that he couldn't leave on his day off because of me. I ended up getting it straightened out but still, all day these same 5 co-workers kept being bitchy to me and talking shit about me as if I wasn't there. I was tempted to just walk out then and there but I powered through the entire 8 hour shift, pretending that I didn't care. I burst into tears as soon as I walked in the front door of my home.

Wow, that sounds really stressful. I'm sorry you had to put up with that. It sounds like you made the right decision to quit. You will find something better. :hug:

BadBitch
06-03-2018, 08:25 PM
I have my period. Day #2 and I'm a fucking sensitive mess. I think the whole world hates me. I tell myself negative stories (like I'm worthless, not good enough, I'm hideous, etc.).

Fuck.

chanzep
06-04-2018, 12:25 AM
@WendiStarr Im sorry you went through that. I know that feeling and its the worst. You will find something better, maybe work from home?

seashell
06-04-2018, 05:34 AM
I quit my vanilla job today. From the start it was a disaster. They had me running this machine that I've never run before and it was so overwhelming, I couldn't keep up. The work backed up and started falling off the line onto the floor. Coworkers were screaming at me and my boss was mad, saying that he couldn't leave on his day off because of me. I ended up getting it straightened out but still, all day these same 5 co-workers kept being bitchy to me and talking shit about me as if I wasn't there. I was tempted to just walk out then and there but I powered through the entire 8 hour shift, pretending that I didn't care. I burst into tears as soon as I walked in the front door of my home.

Sheesh, what a bunch of unsupportive jerks. I mean, you're kind of new, right? Someone should be there to train you or help you out if you're still learning. You'll find a better workplace.

WendiStarr
06-04-2018, 01:06 PM
@WendiStarr Im sorry you went through that. I know that feeling and its the worst. You will find something better, maybe work from home?

If I could find a legit work from home job that would be ideal, for sure.

miss.a.p1600
06-04-2018, 09:57 PM
I wish I could get a massage from a hot guy --- and he could give me a happy ending

baer45
06-04-2018, 10:48 PM
I walked through a bad neighborhood this evening...not by choice. I saw a homeless woman, could be in her late 20s, in dirty clothes, carelessly showed some skin. I could see sores around her neck and chest area. I am no doctor, that looked like sypilis. I handed $10 to her and told her that she should have those sores checked up. She took the money and didn't say anything. It made me feel sad. That's not a way to live, like a cropse, or high on drugs.

SnuffleUffleGrass
06-05-2018, 02:48 PM
I confess I accidentally hurt my surgical incision by stretching my abdomen ....I thought I was all healed up but apparently not. The moral....listen to your doctor.

baer45
06-06-2018, 06:16 PM
I noticed there were only a few minutes between Wendi's post on her favorite movie with the smiley face and the last update of the bad news. I can't imagine what she has been through in that a few minutes. I cried. I am so sorry Wendi.

SweetJuliaXXX
06-06-2018, 07:27 PM
I walked through a bad neighborhood this evening...not by choice. I saw a homeless woman, could be in her late 20s, in dirty clothes, carelessly showed some skin. I could see sores around her neck and chest area. I am no doctor, that looked like sypilis. I handed $10 to her and told her that she should have those sores checked up. She took the money and didn't say anything. It made me feel sad. That's not a way to live, like a cropse, or high on drugs.

That was nice of you :) Just by statistics, it's a bit more likely she's on uppers and did it to herself. So.....yay for no syphilis?

SnuffleUffleGrass
06-07-2018, 08:22 AM
Recently I've been looking up people I used to know in high school and some people I haven't been in touch with in several years on Facebook. I know it's evil and cliche but I enjoy seeing how most of the people that have treated me badly in high school aren't doing that well.

They peaked in high school bwaahahahah lol

I actually felt really bad when I saw one of my former jerk classmates on FB. He lives in his mom's basement (literally) and has meth pickin pocks. His life sucks.

miss.a.p1600
06-07-2018, 08:37 AM
I can't stop thinking about the hot guy from school that I ran into last week.

I must admit he is younger/sexier than the old dude.

But I think I want to do the whole marriage thing (although I really don't understand what it entails) and I am worried I may end up in this dilemma where I'd have to make a hard choice.

Men are always having wives/gf's/main chicks with side options.....So why can't women do the same?

Are humans really monogamous?

miss.a.p1600
06-07-2018, 04:14 PM
OMG!!!

A while back I said I had felt real bad messing with this married dude. I don't know what got into me cause its not something I normally do but the attraction was just hard to resist. He tried to fuck ..... in the cotdamn office......what a bold freak (so I have seen him naked, but I rejected sex from him so then tried to suck the life out this pussy lol and not gone lie, I let him do that,...... what a magnificent 3 minutes }:D) and when I left that career I thought I'd never see him again.

Well to my surprise, when I go back to the vanilla job - his ass is still working there!!! And he saw me and tapped me on the shoulder and was like "hey"! ------- wft

I am getting dick thrown at me from EVERY ANGLE pun intended.

Aurora_Sunset
06-07-2018, 05:07 PM
Deep, depressed confession time:

I don't like anything about my life right now (except my cat). I had to drop the class I was in and defer school for at least another half a year, if not longer, depending on finances. I'm lonely. I'm just sick of being where I am in life.

I don't want to be at the company I work for. I don't want to be in this city. I don't want to be in the adult industry anymore. All I can think about for the last couple months is how much I just want to have a normal, fairly stable life. I want to be done with school and making livable money doing my vanilla career. I want to be settled somewhere instead of moving from shitty apartment to shitty apartment every year. I want a good, long-term relationship. My constant fantasy for the last few weeks is being married and having a family. I don't even like kids! I never thought I'd want them, but the idea of having a family if I was with someone in the type of relationship that I imagine, doesn't seem that bad. I'm really ready right now to just be a normal adult, and I feel like I can't even work toward it in any way. There's only so much I can do about my vanilla job until I have more education to get hired at a better place and be making the kind of money I need to be making - yet, I couldn't handle (or pay for) school right now. I can only cut back on sex work to a point considering the amount of debt I'm in (and the aforementioned shitty salary of vanilla work). The city I would like to move back to doesn't have the job opportunities I need. I can't afford anything other than a crappy apartment right now. And even though I desire it, no part of me could fathom even attempting to date right now. The very thought of trying to get to know and trust someone new and trying to fit a romantic relationship into my crappy life fills me with anxiety and seems impossible. I'm so mad at my ex for getting my hopes up for awhile, being a "great guy" on paper, and then fucking it up the way that he did.

I know I have it a lot better than a lot of people. And I know that things WILL change and get better eventually. That I may be moving at a snail's pace, but I will get back to and through school, into a better job, back to financial stability and all the good things that will come with it - eventually. I'm just so sick of feeling like I've been working so hard to not see any of the forward movement yet - at least nothing that feels like a consequential step. I keep trying to mix things up and set other goals and keep myself busy so that I have something going on that I can focus on and be somewhat proud of. But it feels like I'm just chasing empty highs (even though I know that things like taking care of my health and appearance are not silly things). I just don't know how to keep myself going for much longer. I feel like such a failure.

trustfundkiller
06-07-2018, 05:45 PM
I can't stop thinking about the hot guy from school that I ran into last week.

I must admit he is younger/sexier than the old dude.

But I think I want to do the whole marriage thing (although I really don't understand what it entails) and I am worried I may end up in this dilemma where I'd have to make a hard choice.

Men are always having wives/gf's/main chicks with side options.....So why can't women do the same?

Are humans really monogamous?
My own philosophy? I think having a variety of choices and dating them all is just smart. Until I have a big diamond ring on my finger, I am going to play the field and keep my options open. Too many women waste 10 years of their life on a deadbeat in hopes that he might be *the one* and in the end they have nothing to show for it. Maybe this will backfire and blow up in my face one day, but for now it works well. Men have had their main bitches and side chicks for centuries.