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carmen_b
10-06-2010, 12:58 PM
Avery : Just roll it up ! Keep it simple. ;)

_Avery_
10-06-2010, 05:48 PM
LOL ^^
I got some help from another member on this thread. ;)
I'm lame when it comes to smoking pot. I rarely, if ever, do it.
I did smoke it, and I dunno, maybe I'm not a "pot head" because I just ate a whole bunch of food and laid down. I've never been a big "downer" person.
It did relax the hell out of me though...lol.
Maybe smoke the rest before bed and sleep REALLLY good. :P

sananeko
10-06-2010, 05:52 PM
My confession.. I need to get out of this state...

Sia
10-06-2010, 06:20 PM
LOL ^^
I did smoke it, and I dunno, maybe I'm not a "pot head" because I just ate a whole bunch of food and laid down. I've never been a big "downer" person.
It did relax the hell out of me though...lol.
Maybe smoke the rest before bed and sleep REALLLY good. :P

But that's what it's best for, lol! I don't get people who smoke and want to do things. I look forward to coming home after a shift, smoking a bowl, eating, chilling out for a bit, then getting some awesome sleep. ;D

_Avery_
10-06-2010, 06:22 PM
LOL, that's a good idea!
I know a lot of girls smoke before or at work.
I can't do that.
The few times I got high at work...it was a complete waste and a disaster!
Dancing realllllyyyy slow to upbeat songs, raiding the vending machine, and eating chicken at the bar..lmao

Jessie_tinydancer
10-06-2010, 06:51 PM
^ I agree Ive never done it because Im sure Id end up passing out on some guys shoulder or something LOL. But I have to say the only chemistry lecture I actually understood was after getting extremely high the night before. ehehe

Winged Dinghy
10-06-2010, 09:01 PM
Yesterday I broke down and called an ex who is a pathological liar, a sex offender (he masturbates in public*), who was totally controlling and borderline abusive when we were together.

But I couldn't help it! I sort of miss him!





*that was how we met, actually, he was masturbating in the sauna at my neighborhood pool. The first two times I saw him doing this, it creeped me out, but the third time I saw him, he had briefs on and wasn't masturbating and revealed himself to be quite well-spoken and charming.

carmen_b
10-06-2010, 09:44 PM
Interesting way to meet.

DirtyLittleSecret
10-07-2010, 01:05 PM
Confessions:

1)I hate this feeling. To describe it would be like my mind feels likes its not even mine. Its pulling in like every direction like an impatient child in a store. Nothing external has changed to set it off. Believe me, my life is as simple as it gets. Its just how my mind is. It randomly tangents until i either go "manic" and do something unlike myself or if i pull it hard enough i go back to being content and neutral (although risk getting depressed). Its so tiring.

2)I hate my OCD's that have become stronger over the year. I don't like wearing make up anymore but if i even think about not doing it i panic. I go to pull my hair up and i get anxiety. If i don't do these things i feel exposed and extremely anxious. So i give in. At night i can't stray away from my routine before bed...certain doors must be shut, certain things need to be checked. I was never this bad before.


3)My SO wants me to go out with "friends" so that he can have 1-on-1 time with our daughter. But, i don't have any friends. I mean i know people and there are people who care about me and talk to me on FB but i do not have that connection with anyone. Girls i would do stuff with live in other states, the ones who are relatively close i haven't talked to in 5+yrs.
I put a invite to hang out at a local park on Friday out there and i can almost guarantee no one will go. It hurts. It really does.

kaiarose
10-07-2010, 01:09 PM
So far today I have eaten a whole cucumber and a slice of chicken lunch meat and 2 diet pills. I ran on the treadmill for 20mins and did some weight lifting. I confess that I feel woozy right now... but I'm going to breathe through it.

carmen_b
10-07-2010, 01:23 PM
I put a invite to hang out at a local park on Friday out there and i can almost guarantee no one will go. It hurts. It really does.

Scrap the park and invite new friends for food and booze , then they will go.

DirtyLittleSecret
10-07-2010, 01:32 PM
Scrap the park and invite new friends for food and booze , then they will go.

:banghead:

Are you f'n serious??????

I am a stay at home MOM. I chose the park because i have A KID who is with me 24/7 and most of the people i know also have kids. Its going to be a beautiful fall day and i wanted to spend it there WITH MY KID, so i figured why not extend it into other people to join me. If they don't oh well, i'm still going to be enjoying the time with my kid.
Apparently being a mother isn't "cool" anymore i guess..... maybe i should pawn her off to someone and go get "blitzed" like all the cool kids.::)

charlie61
10-07-2010, 03:22 PM
^ I don't think she meant any offense...she was just making a suggestion for how to get new friends' attention. A lot of people who go to parks are looking to be alone: she was trying to help you attract peole to your ad. I also don't think she understood that you have a kid.

She may have even been being sarcastic--like making a sardonic comment on human nature that they feel like they have to have alcohol to have a good time?

Winged Dinghy
10-07-2010, 03:22 PM
Interesting way to meet.

Yeah, I think it is partially responsible for my persisting affection for this guy... I loved sharing the "how we met" story with people when they asked.

carmen_b
10-07-2010, 04:03 PM
^ Charlie is right Dirty.
I didn't mean offense by that. I simply thought you were trying to make a new female friend. Your plan is good if your new friends also have kids. In that most recent post, it wasn't really clear that you intended to bring your child. I just meant that as a first outing with a new friend that maybe a meal out / glass of wine might be a better idea.

carmen_b
10-07-2010, 04:08 PM
Winged : So does he just sort of get the thrill out of maybe getting caught ? Or is it that he's scoping out other people while doing this ?

DirtyLittleSecret
10-07-2010, 04:42 PM
^ Charlie is right Ms. Choas. I didn't mean offense by that. I simply thought you were trying to make a new female friend. Your plan is good if your new friends also have kids. In that most recent post, it wasn't really clear that you intended to bring your child. I just meant that as a first outing with a new friend that maybe a meal out / glass of wine might be a better idea.

Ms. Chaos, a little uncalled for dont cha think?

As much as i appreciate the offer, I didn't need advise. This is not a "Ask Jane" thread. If i post here its merely to get something off my chest and vent. Like a confessional at church, they listen, sympathize and you go on your merry way.

Let's put it this way, the whole thing is a super touchy nerve for me. I didn't mean to snap and i apologize.
I'm just sick of ppl thinking its so easy to just go out there and make friends and if you have a kid, you might as well be a monk cause good luck finding one who's on the same level. Like a cancer patient, everyone is nice to you and will say "good job! keep it up!" but secretly they are thankful they aren't you. Unless you abandon your kid, there is no way one could keep up. Not that i would want to.
I haven't had a friend in 7yrs....it just sucks and i needed to get it off my chest.

charlie61
10-07-2010, 04:44 PM
^ I don't think it was at all uncalled for--her advice came from a genuine place. She didn't know that you had your kid with you and was just trying to help you solve a problem (which we've all been doing throughout this thread!) She was just trying to help.

DirtyLittleSecret
10-07-2010, 04:48 PM
^ I don't think it was at all uncalled for--her advice came from a genuine place. She didn't know that you had your kid with you and was just trying to help you solve a problem (which we've all been doing throughout this thread!) She was just trying to help.

I was referring to calling me Ms. Chaos......on which she went back and edited thankfully.

charlie61
10-07-2010, 04:51 PM
^ Oooh, my bad!! :)

DirtyLittleSecret
10-07-2010, 04:55 PM
^ Oooh, my bad!! :)

It's ok.
Like i said, its a touchy subject and i should have known better then to let myself get "revved" up over it. I really do appreciate the advise. I just wish it was that easy. Once again i apologize for getting aggressive over it, blame it on my cranky mood today. I'm even starting to annoy myself at this point. lol.

carmen_b
10-07-2010, 06:11 PM
^ and that was just a typo too ( there is a poster mschoas that I thought was you for some reason ).

GlitterBexie
10-07-2010, 06:57 PM
I came on my period yesterday for the first time in about two and a half months, i was thinking i was pregnant (despite multiple tests saying negative) and was slightly disapointed (whilst also being relieverd) when i did come on, i dont want a baby in any way, im so not ready, but it was making me think, i feel bad cause it wouldnt have been fair on my partner and even when i was fairly convinced i was pregnant, i didnt stop smokin or drinking! Iif anything it would have driven my boy away, but i was getting a bit freaky and actually thinking of baby names lol......

My sister has an audition for a club tommorow and i am ridiculously proud of her, even tho im worried she will make more money than me (and that the club im waiting for a call back off wont ring me and then ill feel worse!) but still, very proud that shes taken the initiative and is goingfor it! :D

_Avery_
10-08-2010, 01:47 PM
thanks ladies. <3

Just needed to get that off my chest for the moment.

Gonna go blog and REALLY pour my heart out.

thanks again for the kind words. <3
xoxo

charlie61
10-08-2010, 02:28 PM
I also confess:
I don't want to dance anymore. My heart isn't in it.
I've lost my hustle and all motivation.
I get myself pumped before work, but once I'm there, I want to leave.
Tattoos and stripping don't mix. At least not out here.
I feel hideous when I'm at work. No guys like them. As much as I love them, it doesn't pay the bills. I'm lucky I have a husband who works.
Me going to work anymore is a waste of time.
I admit, I don't try as hard as I should. I give up too easy. I don't care.
I've been looking for a "normal" job, but it's hard to find in a small town.

Thank goodness I don't have to go back until Tuesday. Going on a mini vacation this weekend. Maybe I'll feel better about myself and have a better attitude when I get back.
I just don't know...because my heart really isn't in dancing anymore.

I hear you on the tattoos thing. I mean, I don't have any, but you sure aren't making things up when you say that people don't like them here. The midwest is not friendly to girls with tattoos. I hear guys complain when girls even have little tattoos in the club. I mean sure, every now and then you'll find the guy who thinks they're totally badass, but those guys tend to be relatively rare here.

Burnout is a bitch. My heart hasn't been in dancing for awhile. I feel ya girl. :( :hug:

ETA: Btw, I don't think you have an ugly nose. I think it fits your face. And you're beautiful. :)

kaiarose
10-08-2010, 02:39 PM
Avery you are beautiful!! You know I wouldn't have invited you to come work where I do if I didn't think you were hot ;)

charlie61
10-10-2010, 12:39 PM
^ It's amazing how the money incentive can cause us to do things we wouldn't otherwise do. I haven't had that exact thing happen to me, but I've definitely done some things 'in the moment' that I NEVER would've done if I weren't in a SC with money flying all over the place.

As the famous prostitute once said, "Next time, better."

Just put it behind you and re-establish your boundaries. You're all good sweetie. :)

charlie61
10-10-2010, 12:42 PM
^ Aww, that's so cute. So do you feel like you crossed a boundary by acting on your actual attraction to her in a customer's presence?

Athenathefabulous
10-10-2010, 02:56 PM
I confess that my stupid hormonal disorder and linked health problems are starting to scare me. usually i can keep everything significant under control and i am laid back enough to adapt to whatever external factors are beyond my control, but i dont like an external factor being my health. I only have to deal with this 2 more months before by some miracle of the law i am being put back on my parents health insurance till 26. but in the mean time yes, i am worried. my kidneys sometimes hurt and my energy fluctuates a lot unless i eat perfectly and im not perfect. speaking of which, i also i confess i ate some cookies that the housemom left out last night even though i know that things that spike my blood sugar make me feel like crap.

:(

charlie61
10-10-2010, 03:26 PM
I confess that my stupid hormonal disorder and linked health problems are starting to scare me. usually i can keep everything significant under control and i am laid back enough to adapt to whatever external factors are beyond my control, but i dont like an external factor being my health. I only have to deal with this 2 more months before by some miracle of the law i am being put back on my parents health insurance till 26. but in the mean time yes, i am worried. my kidneys sometimes hurt and my energy fluctuates a lot unless i eat perfectly and im not perfect. speaking of which, i also i confess i ate some cookies that the housemom left out last night even though i know that things that spike my blood sugar make me feel like crap.

:(

I'm sorry. :(

I hear you on the insurance until you're 26 thing though. I believe that came from Obama (he mentioned it in his speech recently). That's actually the only reason why I'm a full-time student for my last semester--because I want quality insurance for the next 4 years.

tempest666
10-10-2010, 03:27 PM
I went through his phone and deleted any "objectionable" pictures ::) Just to clarify they were of his exes. He hadn't looked at them in awhile so he didn't know they were there and he probably won't know I deleted them.

carmen_b
10-10-2010, 07:20 PM
^ haha.

That reminds me ..... I lost my I-Phone a few days ago and it ended up in a pawn shop ( I sent non stop texts to it begging / offering bribes to get it back ). When I went there , pawn shop man gave it back for free. The guy seemed very excited to meet me. He chatted me up and gave me one of his rap CD's and a T-shirt ( his night job is rapping, day job pawn guy ). When I looked through it, the photos where all jacked up. It was clear they all went through it ( they even changed the screensaver ) . I think my stripper photos got me my I-Phone back. Sweet ! I know it's a little risky since they poked around in my phone, but no texts went out with my photos attached and no one has called me, so it seems all good.

shasta
10-10-2010, 07:58 PM
:banghead:

Are you f'n serious??????

I am a stay at home MOM. I chose the park because i have A KID who is with me 24/7 and most of the people i know also have kids. Its going to be a beautiful fall day and i wanted to spend it there WITH MY KID, so i figured why not extend it into other people to join me. If they don't oh well, i'm still going to be enjoying the time with my kid.
Apparently being a mother isn't "cool" anymore i guess..... maybe i should pawn her off to someone and go get "blitzed" like all the cool kids.::)

I thought the whole idea was that your husband wanted to spend time alone with your daughter?

Winged Dinghy
10-10-2010, 09:04 PM
Winged : So does he just sort of get the thrill out of maybe getting caught ? Or is it that he's scoping out other people while doing this ?

He's definitely scoping people out. This happened in a clothing-optional, gay-friendly,co-ed sauna, so blatant sexual activity isn't THAT terribly uncommon or uncouth. It was obvious to everyone in the sauna that he was masturbating.

What is more uncommon is the way he was just sitting there, creepily staring and masturbating (using water from the bucket that gets ladled on the hot rocks for lube), not saying a word. I feel like, if you're going to masturbate to me in my presence, at least have the courtesy to introduce yourself or ask permission. But maybe I'm old-fashioned.

Kylea2
10-10-2010, 09:50 PM
I think sometimes I care about other people too much. You'd think one of these days I'd learn to care less. I think I'm nurturing by nature... people take my caring the wrong way too much though. Sometimes I just need to let people fail at things & learn on their own. It just irks me though when they want people to care & help, but when you give a damn about them it comes back to bite you in the butt.

I really think my issue is that there were so many times that I asked for advice, help or someone to care & didn't get any... so I have this complex about making sure no one else ever feels that way.

It's a vicious cycle.

Jessie_tinydancer
10-10-2010, 10:29 PM
I went through his phone and deleted any "objectionable" pictures ::)
I really need to do that one of these days... otherwise the person who steals my phone is going to end up with quite the photo album. }:D

Jessie_tinydancer
10-12-2010, 02:44 AM
I just got my first tattoo! Yay! I can add tattoos to my stripper stereotype list now haha.

kaiarose
10-12-2010, 12:33 PM
Fuck! So there was this one guy at this hot tub party that I went to and he was gorgeous!! He was sitting across from me and we hadn't even really talked and he just grabbed my feet and started rubbing them...It felt soo amazing because I had just got off of work and my hubby refuses to touch them. Turns out he is actually the brother of my husbands good friend. Yikes! So I found him on facebook and friended him and now I'm being a bit flirty.. like almost crossing the line flirty. He lives a ways away so I'm not worried about that. I guess it's just me. I'm that girl. The one you pay a little bit of attention to and then I have a crush on you. Gah, I'm a bad person :(

tempest666
10-12-2010, 01:33 PM
LOL what is up with my boyfriends history of sticking his dick in ugly bitches? If I could post some pics I would but the last time I did that I got reprimanded by the powers that be.

pixierocksonthepole
10-12-2010, 01:40 PM
You liked the reprimanding though didn't you temptest? lol

tempest666
10-12-2010, 01:54 PM
You liked the reprimanding though didn't you temptest? lol

Yeah too bad charlie can't come over here and spank me ::)

carmen_b
10-12-2010, 02:01 PM
Oh , I do that. I get a little attention and always think the guy wants something ( relationship wise ). I'm finally smart enough to see that they often want something just that day ( it only took me 14 years to learn ! ). A foot rub in a hot tup after work sounds pretty ideal. ;)


Fuck! So there was this one guy at this hot tub party that I went to and he was gorgeous!! He was sitting across from me and we hadn't even really talked and he just grabbed my feet and started rubbing them...It felt soo amazing because I had just got off of work and my hubby refuses to touch them. Turns out he is actually the brother of my husbands good friend. Yikes! So I found him on facebook and friended him and now I'm being a bit flirty.. like almost crossing the line flirty. He lives a ways away so I'm not worried about that. I guess it's just me. I'm that girl. The one you pay a little bit of attention to and then I have a crush on you. Gah, I'm a bad person :(

kaiarose
10-12-2010, 02:09 PM
Oh , I do that. I get a little attention and always think the guy wants something ( relationship wise ). I'm finally smart enough to see that they often want something just that day ( it only took me 14 years to learn ! ). A foot rub in a hot tup after work sounds pretty ideal. ;)



Glad I'm not the only one :) Yep, chalk it up to my damn insecurities :( I have a husband for chrissakes.. I guess I just love attention from people other than customers..

charlie61
10-12-2010, 03:02 PM
Yeah too bad charlie can't come over here and spank me ::)

Only if you ask me to. }:D

firemaiden04
10-13-2010, 10:13 AM
I got engaged yesterday :)

shasta
10-13-2010, 10:44 AM
I got engaged yesterday :)

Congratulations Firemaiden!!

KaylaM
10-13-2010, 11:00 AM
I got engaged yesterday :)

Congrats!!

pixierocksonthepole
10-13-2010, 11:09 AM
I got engaged yesterday :)

Congrats ;D!!!!!!

Tasha_xoxo
10-13-2010, 12:26 PM
I got engaged yesterday :)

Congratulation,,how exciting.

xGigi
10-14-2010, 09:50 AM
I have two boyfriends. neither one knows about the other.


it doesn't bother me NEARLY as much as it should