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ScarletKitten
06-16-2018, 11:37 AM
Hair and makeup are done and I'm all ready to go to work, but I'm just not feeling it today. Think I'm going to get high, eat snacks and watch season 2 of Queer Eye instead.
Sounds like a plan!!! <3
The World Cup is going on right now so work would probably be a waste of time anyway.
Winged Dinghy
06-16-2018, 12:26 PM
^^^good point! That makes me feel less guilty about my slothful ways.
ScarletKitten
06-16-2018, 12:29 PM
^^^good point! That makes me feel less guilty about my slothful ways.
Yeah girl, I'm getting high too! Fuck working today.
Where is that excuses thread?
Glamourmilf
06-16-2018, 06:46 PM
Are all men as crazy as the ones who visit us on cam or call us on phone sex lines? I have been married for the past 8 years, been together with my partner since 2002. So I have been out of the single life loop for quite some time.
I don't remember men being this crazy. Like, they have so many issues and they are so weird. I had a guy call me on Niteflirt last night and try to hypnotize me. He kept saying in a monotone voice, "Circles.....circles.....make circles around your clit....circles.....circles..." I had the cam close on my twat and his voice was kind of starting to make me fall asleep. LOL!
What drives these men to be absolutely out of their minds????
I've thought this for a long time now.
God, I miss the 70's, 80's, 90's.:'(
Dating was soooo fun back then! Maybe, because guys weren't as seduced by outlandish porn back then.
*I think that's the reason. Not even really sure what went wrong, but it's all gone awry.
BadBitch
06-16-2018, 08:49 PM
I've thought this for a long time now.
God, I miss the 70's, 80's, 90's.:'(
Dating was soooo fun back then! Maybe, because guys weren't as seduced by outlandish porn back then.
*I think that's the reason. Not even really sure what went wrong, but it's all gone awry.
Fuck, right? I mean, did porn fucking ruin it? I feel like in some ways it has. Almost every guy who comes to my room assumes that I can squirt.
Nyla19
06-16-2018, 09:14 PM
Fuck, right? I mean, did porn fucking ruin it? I feel like in some ways it has. Almost every guy who comes to my room assumes that I can squirt.
Lol! LMAO!
JessaJade
06-17-2018, 05:38 AM
I felt so, like my feminine essence was awakened and other dudes could tell. That same day I had 2 dinner dates offers from different men and the old guy was confessing his desire for me.
Yeah I believe this happens.
Glamourmilf
06-17-2018, 08:35 AM
Fuck, right? I mean, did porn fucking ruin it? I feel like in some ways it has. Almost every guy who comes to my room assumes that I can squirt.
Same here.
Whitney Cummings did a hilarious bit about this in her HBO special recently.
Lots of guys asked me if I can squirt when I was on all the dating sites.
So glad that I've had enough ( good) sex in my life, to tide me over until the next lifetime.
Turns out being slutty in my youth paid off!:D
ScarletKitten
06-17-2018, 09:44 AM
I regret responding to my ex of 9 years. I was emotional that day, now I wish I never sent that message to him. He keeps sending all these emails to me, and it's annoying. I guess I'm going to have to block him.
God, can I not trust my own emotions at all?! UGH.
Aurora_Sunset
06-17-2018, 01:15 PM
As more time passes, the more I realize just how much my ex fucked me up in a lot of important ways. It almost feels pathetic that he had that much of an impact on my views, self-esteem, and ability to relate to people anymore. It's not as though I dated him when I was freshly 18 and naive and underdeveloped. I was a fully functional adult with a pretty good grasp on things before he came along... and now all of a sudden, it's like he made me forget what normal was, and I have to relearn it... And no one takes me seriously when I try to talk about how much it's been affecting me lately, because most people know me from before when I wasn't a super messed up person with no ability to socialize or process things normally.
It's almost as though because I was getting along fine before him that I'm having such a hard time getting back to it. He made me doubt everything about myself and the way I do things, as well as my ability to judge and trust people because I never thought he'd get that way toward me. Now I'm left picking up the pieces of trying to figure out what, if anything, that he accused me of had any validity, and trying to be normal again with the anxiety and paranoia he's placed over every action I take or belief I have.
miss.a.p1600
06-17-2018, 02:37 PM
I broke down and text that married dude to tell him happy fathers day. When I should have just forgot he existed because I realize he tried to seduce me to get a free one night stand.
Deep down I wonder how good of a father he really is? He is staying with his wife perhaps a part of that is because the kid. But at the same time he seems to spend time away from the wife - time that could be spent with the kid or as a family as a whole.
It was nice being seduced (but not his intent for a free one nighter) and giving into my primitive desires but one thing the adult industry has taught me is 1) once these dudes come they are worthless 2) a woman's time, etc. has value in which men will pay handsomely to get 3) a lot of these married men are just trying to use women to get quick, easy, free/cheap thrills. 4) if a man wants a woman sexually he HAS to make it worth her while.
After this I will go back to thinking about other dudes more worthy of my time.
miss.a.p1600
06-17-2018, 02:48 PM
My sole FD client called today. Gotta get more.
Noticed he's been calling me for almost a year. He is the only guy right now I don't mind taking conversations into a more adult realm because he knows he has to pay for my attention. More guys should be like him.
ScarletKitten
06-17-2018, 07:51 PM
I confess I'm eating cereal right out of the box with my hands and periodically taking a swig of soy milk straight from the carton while the cereal is still in my mouth because I am too lazy to wash my bowl and spoon. lmao. I'm bumming it right now and dgaf. This cereal hack could come in handy when you find yourself wanting cereal but have no bowl or spoon.
WendiStarr
06-18-2018, 04:10 PM
I broke down and text that married dude to tell him happy fathers day. When I should have just forgot he existed because I realize he tried to seduce me to get a free one night stand.
Deep down I wonder how good of a father he really is? He is staying with his wife perhaps a part of that is because the kid. But at the same time he seems to spend time away from the wife - time that could be spent with the kid or as a family as a whole.
It was nice being seduced (but not his intent for a free one nighter) and giving into my primitive desires but one thing the adult industry has taught me is 1) once these dudes come they are worthless 2) a woman's time, etc. has value in which men will pay handsomely to get 3) a lot of these married men are just trying to use women to get quick, easy, free/cheap thrills. 4) if a man wants a woman sexually he HAS to make it worth her while.
After this I will go back to thinking about other dudes more worthy of my time.
Absolutely. The way I see it as far as married men go, they don't deserve free sex from anyone other than their wives. They should have to pay not only for your time but for your discretion as well. "Hush money" I've heard it called. That's how so many of them screw up and end up embarrassing themselves. They start getting too comfortable, thinking they're entitled to free pussy, more of her time than what he's compensated for or thinks that he no longer has to pay for her time and expects her to be available to him 24/7, and then the hired provider that he was seeing gets pissed at being ripped off and exposes his infidelity to the world.
WendiStarr
06-18-2018, 04:29 PM
I have had 8 different men in my apartment today and not one has been for sex. It was all different maintenance men. I don't know why so many of them came because it only took 2 of them to carry my defective oven out of here. There was only one attractive one. As soon as I seen him I was thinking,"Wow! Mama wants some of that!". It was almost as if he could read my mind because he looked at me, smiled, told me he'd have his boys get me a new oven(he's the supervisor) and left. It's been at least 2 or 3 months, maybe longer since I've had sex and I'm pathetically fantasizing about any and every attractive guy that I come across now. I'm ridiculous.
LaurenAus
06-18-2018, 04:43 PM
Reading about all the unfaithful men on this forum makes me depressed
lynn2009
06-19-2018, 07:18 PM
I want to have sex again so bad
miss.a.p1600
06-19-2018, 09:03 PM
shittt me too girl!
And the old dude just confessed he thought he was falling in love with me. I am now confused and I did not know what to say.
I honestly don't know if I am feeling love, do I even know what it's like to love a dude anymore?, or am I just in love with the idea of a committed relationship?, Do I really want a committed relationship? What if I get in, can't get out easily, and turn into one of those cheaters like the dude I met up with last week/the dudes on here?
I don't know if I want to do a whole bunch of obligatory wifely duties. I mean I guess I would if it were worth my while. Ijs. But, I really just want to be a dominatrix, get paid, then do what tf I want to do.
Glamourmilf
06-20-2018, 10:25 AM
I want to have sex again so bad
Me too.
I'm so horny lately.
Must be from all these hunky gay guys I've been hanging out with.
All that testosterone. Yummy!
And the fact that I get to look at hot guys on cam everyday, who are hung like horses!
I saw a (white) guy on Monday, that was 13 inches! How is that even possible?
And why don't I ever see any hot straight guys where I live?
SnuffleUffleGrass
06-20-2018, 10:27 AM
I confess I need to lose an additional 5 lbs + the 10 I was aiming for anyways. Gahh I am too chunked out.
Glamourmilf
06-21-2018, 07:22 AM
My ex husband's wife died while giving birth to their baby.:'(
The baby girl survived, but only weighs 4 pounds, and is in the intensive care unit.
They have a 3 year old boy, and she has a 20 year old son from a previous marriage.
My heart is broken into a million pieces for them.
All my ex wanted was a wife, and a family.
We ended up breaking up, because I couldn't have children, and he didn't want to adopt. ( Ironically, I had just had a tubal ligation, because my first husband didn't want more children).
I spoke with him yesterday, and naturally he is beside himself with grief.
I offered to go to LA and help in any way.
I'm now without a mother, so I know how that's going to be for the children.
I confess that I would give up my solitary life, to be their surrogate mother.
God works in mysterious ways.
SnuffleUffleGrass
06-21-2018, 07:28 AM
My ex husband's wife died while giving birth to their baby.:'(
The baby girl survived, but only weighs 4 pounds, and is in the intensive care unit.
They have a 3 year old boy, and she has a 20 year old son from a previous marriage.
My heart is broken into a million pieces for them.
All my ex wanted was a wife, and a family.
We ended up breaking up, because I couldn't have children, and he didn't want to adopt. ( Ironically, I had just had a tubal ligation, because my first husband didn't want more children).
I spoke with him yesterday, and naturally he is beside himself with grief.
I offered to go to LA and help in any way.
I'm now without a mother, so I know how that's going to be for the children.
I confess that I would give up my solitary life, to be their surrogate mother.
God works in mysterious ways.
You have a big heart and a great soul.
Glamourmilf
06-21-2018, 08:04 AM
You have a big heart and a great soul.
Thank You.:heartbeat
When I saw the photo of the baby in the ICU, I said out loud, " Yep, that's my baby."
chanzep
06-21-2018, 03:01 PM
I have been really lazy this week due to feeling sick, Im ok now but with my period coming I still feel lazy, I do not want to work this weekend, just stay on the couch all weekend would suit me fine.
WendiStarr
06-21-2018, 04:39 PM
My ex husband's wife died while giving birth to their baby.:'(
The baby girl survived, but only weighs 4 pounds, and is in the intensive care unit.
They have a 3 year old boy, and she has a 20 year old son from a previous marriage.
My heart is broken into a million pieces for them.
All my ex wanted was a wife, and a family.
We ended up breaking up, because I couldn't have children, and he didn't want to adopt. ( Ironically, I had just had a tubal ligation, because my first husband didn't want more children).
I spoke with him yesterday, and naturally he is beside himself with grief.
I offered to go to LA and help in any way.
I'm now without a mother, so I know how that's going to be for the children.
I confess that I would give up my solitary life, to be their surrogate mother.
God works in mysterious ways.
Aww, that's sad that the kids lost their mom and he his wife. The fact that you're willing to help out and be their surrogate mom if necessarily speaks volumes about you. I don't think many people would do that. You are a good person, Glam.
Aurora_Sunset
06-24-2018, 03:28 PM
I'm moved now and honestly feel kinda empty like I don't know what to focus my energy on anymore. Moving was all that was on my mind for the last few weeks, and significantly even before that. I dropped out of school from the stress of trying to find a new place to live and get in here with little time or planning. Now that the hard part is over (and unpacking will only take a day or 2 the next couple days I have off of work), I don't know what to do with my time or mental energy. I'm bored as fuck tonight because there's still internet connection at the old place but no router, and the router is at the new place but internet isn't transferred over until tomorrow. So no computer or Netflix. And I have no idea where the boxes containing DVDs or video games are. And I'm tired from packing and moving, I don't want to do any unpacking for a few days.
And I'm already finding random little things wrong with the new place. Like my front door doesn't seal well in one corner and the outlet by the couch doesn't grip anything well so it's pretty useless. I also paid more attention once I moved that the entire place, including the utility room, is wallpapered. So I can't drill holes to hang any of my decorative shelves, pictures, or my wine rack. I can maybe get some tiny nails in or use that tape stuff for small, light things like my diploma. But now anything I planned to make it nice and homey and personal is ruined. I knew this place isn't top notch and I opted for the nonupdated unit to save money. It just kinda sucks. I told my parents that, barring some major issue or life change, I'm not moving again until it's to a better, more permanent place. So maybe knowing this is it for at least another 2 years, probably longer, isn't helping things.
lynn2009
06-24-2018, 08:41 PM
I really want to go completely off the grid lately. My phones been on the fritz for months and I don't want to replace it but more than that I want to completely start over more and more...like just don't show up for work once and be disappeared. Show up in a new city with a fake ID and rebuild an entire identity.
SnuffleUffleGrass
06-25-2018, 08:54 AM
I'm moved now and honestly feel kinda empty like I don't know what to focus my energy on anymore. Moving was all that was on my mind for the last few weeks, and significantly even before that. I dropped out of school from the stress of trying to find a new place to live and get in here with little time or planning. Now that the hard part is over (and unpacking will only take a day or 2 the next couple days I have off of work), I don't know what to do with my time or mental energy. I'm bored as fuck tonight because there's still internet connection at the old place but no router, and the router is at the new place but internet isn't transferred over until tomorrow. So no computer or Netflix. And I have no idea where the boxes containing DVDs or video games are. And I'm tired from packing and moving, I don't want to do any unpacking for a few days.
And I'm already finding random little things wrong with the new place. Like my front door doesn't seal well in one corner and the outlet by the couch doesn't grip anything well so it's pretty useless. I also paid more attention once I moved that the entire place, including the utility room, is wallpapered. So I can't drill holes to hang any of my decorative shelves, pictures, or my wine rack. I can maybe get some tiny nails in or use that tape stuff for small, light things like my diploma. But now anything I planned to make it nice and homey and personal is ruined. I knew this place isn't top notch and I opted for the nonupdated unit to save money. It just kinda sucks. I told my parents that, barring some major issue or life change, I'm not moving again until it's to a better, more permanent place. So maybe knowing this is it for at least another 2 years, probably longer, isn't helping things.
My advice, get a gym membership and work full time. Stack cash.
miss.a.p1600
06-25-2018, 08:49 PM
Ill always remember that time I was at a trendy club and spotted two guys (one hotter than the other), both of them noticed me, looked at each other, and then one of them RAN to come talk to me first before his friend did. LOL!
These men be thirsty af!
Aurora_Sunset
06-25-2018, 09:05 PM
My advice, get a gym membership and work full time. Stack cash.
Pretty much my plan! Just joined a kickboxing gym and signed up for a bunch of overtime in July.
lynn2009
06-26-2018, 06:55 PM
I made so much fucking money dancing. Sometimes I still think it was the worst thing I could have ever done to myself. It's such a short term gratification, and so hard to get over the heyday or have the patience for normal work when you've been handed 100s just for sitting and chatting and looking pretty. I went to my vanilla jobs exhausted and moody all the time, let co-workers take advantage of me because I was too tired to argue, and burned through 5 jobs so far in four different states in the eight years I've been working. I could have gotten even better grades in graduate school or had a proper boyfriend. I hate myself so much these days. All I've ever been confident about for years is my appearance and I don't think I have anything else to offer anyone. In-between calling me a slut all the time Derek would sometimes admit I deserve a lot of credit for handling my debt so well, but God it was so hard and even if I'm financially ok now I feel worse off than ever and bitter as shit and I don't even want to get over it. I know plenty of people who are drowning in debt but still happy because they have good social support system and just choose to live life as best they can
seashell
06-27-2018, 07:02 AM
The guy I came to the US with turned out to be a dick, so I bought a plane ticket to my hometown, and I'm leaving today.
It's a bit expensive, and I might have to go back to dancing for a while. But I needed this.
Grace108
06-27-2018, 07:50 PM
Back since a while. The customers in this club I am working to since February are the most idiots, cheep .. is either very good or this shits.. I used to be in upper class clubs where the customers were very educated, interesting jobs and fun to talk with, but I had no life, they forced me to do the days they wanted etc.. here I have freedom, but no interest to talk about nothing with uneducated simple dudes...
lol luckily I am brothenino my business... I like seduction and attract man with skilful dances, no just seat on this silly cheeps cocks.. uhh is quiet sad! Hope tomorrow to find more interesting people out there
Grace108
06-27-2018, 07:54 PM
I also bit bored of being a dancer, and sex industry, although sex industry gives an amazing income :-(
Ifyouseekamy
06-28-2018, 03:38 AM
I came out of major depression. Amazing how many “friends” disappeared when I couldn’t be happy, go lucky. Human nature I suppose. Greatful for a 12 step friend that talked me out of it. I look forward to paying it forward. I’m so sorry to anyone on here or in RL that I annoyed. I was so depressed. I can’t believe I was that sick.
Glamourmilf
06-28-2018, 06:27 AM
I came out of major depression. Amazing how many “friends” disappeared when I couldn’t be happy, go lucky. Human nature I suppose. Greatful for a 12 step friend that talked me out of it. I look forward to paying it forward. I’m so sorry to anyone on here or in RL that I annoyed. I was so depressed. I can’t believe I was that sick.
It's so true about friends disappearing when times are tough.
I spoke to my grief counselor about this.
She said that since most of my friends were used to seeing me happy, and carefree, that they can't handle when I'm down.
That it's because they couldn't handle the deaths I've been dealing with. Perhaps.
However, I wanted to ask. Why did so many abandon me when I was going through a rough patch and became homeless? When they had apartments they owned, and tons of money and time they could've lent.
Forget it. I already know the answer.
I must admit that I'm having fun watching all of their lives fall apart, one by one.
Karma is a bitch, baby.
miss.a.p1600
06-28-2018, 09:36 PM
Saw this dude giving demonstrations at work.....All I can see is firm bulging muscles.......mmmmmmm!!!
WendiStarr
06-29-2018, 06:50 PM
I'm jealous of Barbie because she doesn't have nipples. If I could be nippleless that would be great. Nipples used to not bother me until I got implants. Ever since they've become hypersensitive, are hard almost all the damn time regardless of sexual arousal or temperature, and every little thing irritates them. This is magnified during PMS which I just looked at my calendar and realized I am in PMS phase. I don't want nipples anymore! I actually would've been happy if I had lost nipple sensation as I've heard some women do after getting implants. I was hoping that I would but nope.
ScarletKitten
06-29-2018, 07:18 PM
I came out of major depression. Amazing how many “friends” disappeared when I couldn’t be happy, go lucky. Human nature I suppose. Greatful for a 12 step friend that talked me out of it. I look forward to paying it forward. I’m so sorry to anyone on here or in RL that I annoyed. I was so depressed. I can’t believe I was that sick.
I don't think you ever annoyed anyone on here, love. I'm happy you are doing better! Gives hope to others that it's possible to recover from depression. You seem like a wonderful person. <3
LunaMae
06-30-2018, 04:34 AM
I got seriously properly laid for the first time since I had my heart broken last year in October. I was nervous but it was awesome and I felt amazing the entire next day. I told the guy like a month ago that I didn’t want to have a serious relationship with anyone right now, but that I liked him a lot and was just open to having a good time and enjoying each other’s company. He told me this last time I saw him that he really appreciated my honesty about it and it kind of put him at ease. We have really good physical chemistry! But the timing has been bad the last couple times we hung out. So. That was fun. I’ve never really casually dated before because I’ve been in a bunch of serious long term relationships and so far so good.
miss.a.p1600
06-30-2018, 02:32 PM
Trainers at the vanilla office kept saying "this group, go to 'the pole'" and all I can think about is the stripper pole.
miss.a.p1600
06-30-2018, 02:34 PM
Why do the male trainers look like male strippers? Cotdamn! I am going to have to rub one out before work like everyday so I don't look thirsty.
Vyanka
06-30-2018, 06:16 PM
Why do the male trainers look like male strippers? Cotdamn! I am going to have to rub one out before work like everyday so I don't look thirsty.
A lot of them either are, or use to be. :)
ScarletKitten
07-01-2018, 09:38 AM
Ariana Grande's voice makes me want to cry, it's so beautiful. She has one of the greatest voices I've ever heard.
xStacey
07-01-2018, 10:20 AM
I thought I wouldn't get tired or want to leave the sex industry, but I'm officially fed up with it, with stupid clients and annoying management. I could move on now, since I secured a great job, but at the moment, being a Summer Student and not yet a lawyer, the money in the sex industry during the weekend is still very good to supplement my income. I really want to pursue one more year of studies in Toronto, which is gonna cost a lot, so I'm giving it one more year max, and will be retiring by the end of August latest next year. After almost seven years, I no longer find this industry as appealing or exciting as it once was. Luckily, I studied very hard while stripping and doing body rubs, which will allow me to retire with a starting salary that is more competitive than it currently is in the sex industry when I come back next Fall to do the bar school, complete articling and be hired as a lawyer.
Elektra Luxx
07-01-2018, 01:01 PM
Ariana Grande's voice makes me want to cry, it's so beautiful. She has one of the greatest voices I've ever heard.
I watched her on "Victorious" and when she sang she always blew everyone away.
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-01-2018, 06:39 PM
I thought I wouldn't get tired or want to leave the sex industry, but I'm officially fed up with it, with stupid clients and annoying management. I could move on now, since I secured a great job, but at the moment, being a Summer Student and not yet a lawyer, the money in the sex industry during the weekend is still very good to supplement my income. I really want to pursue one more year of studies in Toronto, which is gonna cost a lot, so I'm giving it one more year max, and will be retiring by the end of August latest next year. After almost seven years, I no longer find this industry as appealing or exciting as it once was. Luckily, I studied very hard while stripping and doing body rubs, which will allow me to retire with a starting salary that is more competitive than it currently is in the sex industry when I come back next Fall to do the bar school, complete articling and be hired as a lawyer.
I'm proud of you.
miss.a.p1600
07-01-2018, 07:28 PM
Damn I wish I could hustle my male co-workers. Tell them to meet me at the atm on lunch break lol!
.....and the females too. This one decent looking broad opened the door for me. It's rare women do that for other women. I got total lesbian vibes from her. If fantasy were reality, I'd hustle her ass too for office favors n shit cause she ain't strike me as the 'I got money to blow' type.
WendiStarr
07-02-2018, 08:56 AM
I've been binge eating like crazy for the past 2 days and I feel like I can't control it. I know my appetite will be gone once I start bleeding but damn this monster PMS appetite. I already feel like a fat cow.
BadBitch
07-03-2018, 06:52 PM
I work so fucking hard and I get zero recognition.
I see girls who RARELY work (some who don't even work in the adult industry) get fucking awards and such.
I just want to be thanked, or appreciated, or fucking something.
I bust my ass each and every fucking day. My Twitter followers haven't grown. Yet, girls who rarely work have 20 or 30k followers.
I just don't get it.
Is it because I don't kiss ass???