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chanzep
07-03-2018, 07:41 PM
So I guess the Stripper charm never goes away lol. lately my bar has been super quiet so I have been laying it on to make almost the same money as normal. Also 1 bored night I thought it would be fun to see if I could charm a guy with money who likes someone else there(who is not interested in him). well its working! ha ha think im going to read the art of seduction!. hopefully it will get busy again soon because how tiring it can be charming people lol. its fun to do in the vanilla world tho because people don't expect it.
miss.a.p1600
07-03-2018, 08:12 PM
Old dude finally gives me some money. He buys me some makeup and then takes me to dinner. It's not a lot but hey its a start.
baer45
07-03-2018, 09:42 PM
I told my regular where I work right now and he stopped by today. That caused a little office gossip. Apparently, the big boss of the company is his cousin. I'd appreciate he gives a heads-up if he does a thing like this next time.
ScarletKitten
07-04-2018, 09:54 AM
I don't care about this holiday. It's raining right now and going to thunderstorm later, and I'm totally ok with it. That means no fireworks today! Yay :) Since I don't like fireworks, I am feeling very content right now.
LunaMae
07-04-2018, 12:46 PM
Before I started dancing I was pretty low key about removing body hair/rarely did it. I miss my hairy armpits today, lol.
Aurora_Sunset
07-04-2018, 09:49 PM
Against multiple coworkers' shit-talking warnings, I started messaging a coworker that I think is really attractive, knowing that giving him an opening to talk to me would probably result in him trying to hit on me. Everyone claims he hits on all the attractive women at station, thinks everyone wants to fuck him, and "has no game" I also JUST had a conversation with another coworker about how I don't mess around with people I work with..
He did almost immediately start hitting on me. He really doesn't have much game in terms of being subtly flirty and leading up to things instead of being so aggressive. But, things have recently gone south with the guy I was seeing, so I honestly don't care as much about my " dignity" as I "should" right now. I shouldn't be making it so easy, especially in a situation where my reputation among coworkers is risked. But it's so nice to know that I could snap my fingers any night I wanted and get laid, I'm enjoying myself.
Glamourmilf
07-05-2018, 07:35 AM
I don't care about this holiday. It's raining right now and going to thunderstorm later, and I'm totally ok with it. That means no fireworks today! Yay :) Since I don't like fireworks, I am feeling very content right now.
I hate it too. Holidays in general equate with not making money.
You're lucky that the fireworks were called off because of rain.
The fireworks were literally over my head, because they were set at the park a block away.
Plus, the lowlife lawbreakers one street over in the other direction were setting off their own illegal fireworks.
It was rattling my entire house, and everything in it.
Really set off my PTSD.
So glad it's over.
trustfundkiller
07-05-2018, 12:36 PM
I hate fireworks too! They trigger my anxiety. I don't care what anyone says, fireworks don't seem safe to me. I spent the 4th with this guy I went on a few dates with and the only fireworks we saw were in between the sheets. I'm still glowing I got fucked so good. The sex was AMAZING and went on for hours which took me by surprise because in the past he lasted 10 mins tops.
miss.a.p1600
07-05-2018, 03:37 PM
I work with A LOT of thirsty ass men (who happen to look like male strippers) as I was walking down the stairs I noticed one male co-worker looking with a look of lust, another one went out of his way to say hello to me, etc
I fantasized about one in particular while I was in the depths of solo pleasure. I secretly can't wait to see him during meetings next week. Now I gotta make sure I look good every day in case I run into him. Maybe IM the thirsty one???
baer45
07-05-2018, 05:56 PM
I confess I normally just read only a few threads in SW and sometimes I post in the wrong thread.
Glamourmilf
07-06-2018, 08:11 AM
I hate fireworks too! They trigger my anxiety. I don't care what anyone says, fireworks don't seem safe to me. I spent the 4th with this guy I went on a few dates with and the only fireworks we saw were in between the sheets. I'm still glowing I got fucked so good. The sex was AMAZING and went on for hours which took me by surprise because in the past he lasted 10 mins tops.
Lucky. You go girl! Now THAT'S the best way to spend the 4th!
lilylilylily
07-06-2018, 12:36 PM
I went to the cat groomer today to get my new cat cleaned up (he's from a smokers home and his fur reeked of cigarettes) payed the $50 but realized when I got home I should have tipped the groomer. Shoot, I guess it's like going to the hair salon ur supposed to tip. I feel bad cuz she did a good job.
JGB2009
07-06-2018, 01:41 PM
I have my daughters dads name programmed in my phone as Asshole Lucifer...………...
Glamourmilf
07-07-2018, 07:40 AM
I went to the cat groomer today to get my new cat cleaned up (he's from a smokers home and his fur reeked of cigarettes) payed the $50 but realized when I got home I should have tipped the groomer. Shoot, I guess it's like going to the hair salon ur supposed to tip. I feel bad cuz she did a good job.
You can always go back and tip the groomer.
miss.a.p1600
07-07-2018, 08:30 PM
Can't wait to go to the vanilla office Monday and hopefully see some sexy mf's up in there - definitely makes the commute, the 40 hours, the forced w-2 status, etc more bearable.
*also I have been fantasizing about ending my celibacy and starting to experience orgasmic pleasure with a partner. I just hope I select the right person. Last time I ended my celibacy the dude turned out to be a textbook narcissist and I regretted allowing him to enjoy being with someone of my caliber, almost quit dating a certain race of men, and then went right back to being celibate again. This time though, it will be as good as I imagine.
Elektra Luxx
07-09-2018, 10:27 PM
Vacation...over did it...too much sun...too much drinking.
seashell
07-10-2018, 08:06 AM
I'm considering going to school for a year in St. Petersburg, Russia. It's a prep year with a major university, where you study the language and take some basic university courses. I've been waiting months for them to send a contract, and they finally did last night. I sort of forgot about it, and now I'm excited again, but it feels so soon! I'd have to sign the paperwork, send a partial tuition payment, and then the semester would start in October.
I want to ask my friends and family for advice, but so far the few people I've told have thought it was a bad idea. Still, some of the best places I've traveled to have been against others' advice.
It would give me some long-term stability, something to look forward to, and a community. Those things are sooo very appealing right now, after the chaos of this year. I've hauled my two suitcases + backpack (the contents of my entire life) through 8 countries. It's been amazing, but I need to slow down.
Grace108
07-10-2018, 11:50 AM
I need an open minded boyfriend with whom have fun and connect emotionally, and possibly wealthy and loving
Aurora_Sunset
07-10-2018, 12:38 PM
Ever feel yourself just making a really terrible decision that you know you'll regret, but you just don't feel like stopping yourself? Thought I was older and wiser than that at this point, but my life has taken a very "fuck it" turn in the last few months. Nothing means anything, everything is pointless, who cares...
ScarletKitten
07-10-2018, 02:18 PM
Vacation...over did it...too much sun...too much drinking.
oh girl.....drink lots and lots of water + aloe vera gel on your skin.
ScarletKitten
07-10-2018, 02:20 PM
Ever feel yourself just making a really terrible decision that you know you'll regret, but you just don't feel like stopping yourself? Thought I was older and wiser than that at this point, but my life has taken a very "fuck it" turn in the last few months. Nothing means anything, everything is pointless, who cares...
Yes! I can relate 1000%! Nothing even matters.....everything is so temporary anyway....and our place within the cosmos is so small, we exist within a blink of an eye and then we're gone....
WendiStarr
07-11-2018, 07:09 PM
Someone on my mind who shouldn't be.
JGB2009
07-11-2018, 07:57 PM
Its been 10 months since I have had sex. See what happens when people make me mad!!!
Aurora_Sunset
07-11-2018, 11:48 PM
I did a bad thing and fucked my married coworker. In my defense, I had no clue he was married when I first started flirting and sexting. Even when I found out, and confronted him about it, he straight up admitted it was true and as far as the text conversation went, I was under the impression that he was "technically" married but it wasn't an "intact" marriage anymore. Like, I've had conversations with him where he's said stuff like "I had my daughter this weekend," implying that he just gets custody occasionally. But apparently I just don't know what the eff is going on, because tonight he came over after work, I offered to let him crash if it got too late, and he made a comment about it not going over well at home. Oh... ok....
Still proceeded to go through with it and bid him goodbye.
Honestly, I'm not even that sorry, because it was just as good as I fantasized.
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-12-2018, 07:17 AM
I did a bad thing and fucked my married coworker. In my defense, I had no clue he was married when I first started flirting and sexting. Even when I found out, and confronted him about it, he straight up admitted it was true and as far as the text conversation went, I was under the impression that he was "technically" married but it wasn't an "intact" marriage anymore. Like, I've had conversations with him where he's said stuff like "I had my daughter this weekend," implying that he just gets custody occasionally. But apparently I just don't know what the eff is going on, because tonight he came over after work, I offered to let him crash if it got too late, and he made a comment about it not going over well at home. Oh... ok....
Still proceeded to go through with it and bid him goodbye.
Honestly, I'm not even that sorry, because it was just as good as I fantasized.
Honestly I bet he's just keeping house with her- a lot of couples do the "split the house into 2 apartments/with kids on weekend" thing until they can afford the divorce.
Oh well, his responsibilities are NOT yours. No reason to feel bad.
lynn2009
07-12-2018, 09:02 AM
Dating is really starting to feel so hopeless.
WendiStarr
07-12-2018, 06:20 PM
Mr. Flaky reentered the picture, only to repeat his same annoying flaky behavior. He said he was coming over. Of course he came up with lame ass last minute excuses about how he was "too tired" and maybe we could get together tomorrow instead. I know damn well his maybes mean that's he's not going to show. Maybe means no in flaky language. I was like, "Really? This is the 4th time that you've done this. I don't understand it. Why?" and he responded back that he didn't want to argue about this and stopped texting. Maybe he'll back off for good this time because usually he'll keep going on and on about how he gets up early for work, works so hard and is so exhausted from work, blah blah blah until I change the subject. This time nothing. I don't know why the fuck I expected anything different from him. I'm mad at myself for continually allowing this selfish, careless jerk to take up real estate in my mind and heart. It's funny how I can tell other ladies to move on from jerks like this but I can't even do so myself. I'm a fucking idiot.
lilylilylily
07-12-2018, 07:38 PM
Omg I had an almost identical situation with a dude that kept bailing on me... his excuse was always he fell asleep cuz he was exhausted from getting up so early for work. The last time he did it, the next day he texted, "sorry, fell asleep" Such a lame apology, so I texted him back, "I'm actually happy u flaked, cuz I went out and met an amazing guy with a huge dick! Take care!" He texted back, "do u want me to delete your number then?" I never responded. What a time waster ughh
lynn2009
07-12-2018, 08:20 PM
I have another one tonight which is that I've hit a man before (not the confession part). It was Derek, obviously, and the confession part is that I don't feel guilty about it when I think about it. I had been screaming at him for at least twenty minutes to get the fuck out of my apartment, I fucking hated him, he ruined my life and he wouldn't leave and the whole time I locked myself in my bedroom to try to calm down and I was throwing anything I could find breaking a ton of my own stuff. And once I started with it I didn't stop myself either, I don't know how long it went on for before he grabbed my wrists to get me to stop.
Also another time I was so pissed I told him to overdose and die, I don't feel bad about that one either.
I am in such a messed up situation, im married now with a baby, my marriage is falling apart and i have no idea what to do. Im devistated and heart broken. I have nobody to talk to, i feel like nobody gives a shit and im boring them with my problems or they look at me like im stupid for being in this situation and maybe i am, I just assumed that u get married, have kids and the man takes care of you financially and emotionally.. Ive been on and off w him for 10 years so its not like we dont know each other, hes like a sociopath, he can turn on and off feelings like NP. He pulls away and it kills my heart, he was the only person who ever made me feel like he got me and loved me, like my best friend. But then he has this other side and its ugly. I now depend on him financially so im f***ed there of course and im not in the same shape i was before the baby to start dancing again. Im trying to get a vanilla site up and its more of a process than i knew but its comming slowly but forsurely, vanilla business always takes so long to see your money tho, and u have to work harder n shit. Ugh, Im wondering if caming couuld be good money, ive done it on chatterbate and mfc but never showed my face and didnt stay on longer than an hour, never made much. Banked stripping tho. Oh and im in a town w one strip club cause we moved here so he could make better money... ugh, what did i ever do to deserve this!?
Glamourmilf
07-13-2018, 09:11 AM
Mr. Flaky reentered the picture, only to repeat his same annoying flaky behavior. He said he was coming over. Of course he came up with lame ass last minute excuses about how he was "too tired" and maybe we could get together tomorrow instead. I know damn well his maybes mean that's he's not going to show. Maybe means no in flaky language. I was like, "Really? This is the 4th time that you've done this. I don't understand it. Why?" and he responded back that he didn't want to argue about this and stopped texting. Maybe he'll back off for good this time because usually he'll keep going on and on about how he gets up early for work, works so hard and is so exhausted from work, blah blah blah until I change the subject. This time nothing. I don't know why the fuck I expected anything different from him. I'm mad at myself for continually allowing this selfish, careless jerk to take up real estate in my mind and heart. It's funny how I can tell other ladies to move on from jerks like this but I can't even do so myself. I'm a fucking idiot.
I feel for you. Lust is a bitch. A hardcore bitch.
miss.a.p1600
07-14-2018, 07:20 PM
I feel extra thirsty at the vanilla office sometimes. Like yesterday one of my male co-workers came to my desk to check in with me and see how the first few weeks are going.
I wish I could just cut the pleasantries and ask him if he would be willing to pay me and give me oral pleasures but before I do that I want to see him with his shirt off because I bet he has smooth skin, firm arms that could protect me/lift me up for standing sex, and muscular upper body. He also has nice lips that could be used to kiss all over my body.......mmmmmmmm
I hope I did not have a look of lust in my eyes.
I also peeped the boss. Why he gotta be a man though? Why are men always the bosses? Anyways he looked - well, he had a face worth riding.
And I have been masturbating everyday before work but that is not enough.
miss.a.p1600
07-14-2018, 07:33 PM
I did a bad thing and fucked my married coworker.
Shiiit....I almost did the same.
I feel extra thirsty at the vanilla office sometimes. Like yesterday one of my male co-workers came to my desk to check in with me and see how the first few weeks are going.
I wish I could just cut the pleasantries and ask him if he would be willing to pay me and give me oral pleasures but before I do that I want to see him with his shirt off because I bet he has smooth skin, firm arms that could protect me/lift me up for standing sex, and muscular upper body. He also has nice lips that could be used to kiss all over my body.......mmmmmmmm
I hope I did not have a look of lust in my eyes.
I also peeped the boss. Why he gotta be a man though? Why are men always the bosses? Anyways he looked - well, he had a face worth riding.
And I have been masturbating everyday before work but that is not enough.
😂😂😂☠☠
A face worth riding!!
I feel u when I dont have sex for a while I think all this shit too, only when I'm getting it on the regular that it doesnt evem cross my mind, I also wonder if it shows on my face!
whirlerz
07-14-2018, 07:52 PM
Lol, Ms P.
BadBitch
07-16-2018, 08:57 PM
I want to do something meaningful with my life.
I want to help people.
I'm just scared to death of making a change.
Glamourmilf
07-17-2018, 08:14 AM
I want to do something meaningful with my life.
I want to help people.
I'm just scared to death of making a change.
I know exactly how you feel.
chanzep
07-17-2018, 02:52 PM
I am sat here eating Mcdonalds which I got via Uber eats because im lazy and its hot. It started with a fraape craving so I was going to do Starbucks then I craved other junk so got all this.
whirlerz
07-17-2018, 03:00 PM
Lol^. I just ordered a steak sandwich, & a tiramisu.
I did, however, eat a salad first before it got here.
chanzep
07-17-2018, 03:28 PM
^lol I tried to order a salad too after, your order sounds delicious, have not had tiramisu for ages enjoy!.
miss.a.p1600
07-17-2018, 07:55 PM
The dude finally gave me some cash. I am so glad and appreciative. I wish he would have handed all the contents of his wallet over to me. But what he gave me is a start. I am learning how exchanging money in vanilla relationships works since pretty much majority of my past bf's were cheap af and my adult entertainment relationships well I just told mf's what's up "what you trying to spend?".
I miss my findom client. My schedule is to where I can't chat in the am anymore and I haven't seen him try to call during my lunch hour.
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-18-2018, 05:25 AM
I confess I'm dealing with the suicide of an old friend and the situation has really shined a light on how much my life has changed since high school and college.
Time flies. & Life ends up taking people to unpredictable places. That's all I'm going to say right now.
anouk.oui
07-18-2018, 07:28 AM
Seriously I don’t mind 5 yrs law school study but srsly???
$18 per hr
Fuck that
Nyla19
07-18-2018, 09:05 AM
The dude finally gave me some cash. I am so glad and appreciative. I wish he would have handed all the contents of his wallet over to me. But what he gave me is a start. I am learning how exchanging money in vanilla relationships works since pretty much majority of my past bf's were cheap af and my adult entertainment relationships well I just told mf's what's up "what you trying to spend?".
I miss my findom client. My schedule is to where I can't chat in the am anymore and I haven't seen him try to call during my lunch hour.
Girl! You kill me! You're sooooo funny! I wish he would have handed all the contents of his wallet over to me!!!! I love it!!!!!
ScarletKitten
07-18-2018, 01:49 PM
I'm filled with rage. It's time for another major life change, because I can't do this shit anymore.
lynn2009
07-19-2018, 07:53 AM
I'm so bored at work lately I printed out a book to read in pdf format.
WendiStarr
07-19-2018, 01:45 PM
I'm sporting some landing strip pussy hair. I like it. I think my pussy looks ugly totally bald. I find it amusing how the hair there grows in light red while the hair on my head is more of a brownish red.
JGB2009
07-19-2018, 02:02 PM
I'm sporting some landing strip pussy hair. I like it. I think my pussy looks ugly totally bald. I find it amusing how the hair there grows in light red while the hair on my head is more of a brownish red.
LOL I know someone who has black hair on their head and blonde hair mixed down below.
Ifyouseekamy
07-20-2018, 05:52 AM
Just needing to vent. I’m getting older and there’s a lot of fear about not having a “perfect” exit strategy. I mean have done education so it’s nit the end of the world, but I wish I could have done more. I played my hands the best I knew how. I invested my stripper money into my physical and mental health so there’s that and because of that I swear I could easily stay in this industry for another decade if I had to. I look really good for my age, but it doesn’t stop people from putting me down.
I’m just trying to figure out what’s best for my recovery. Money makes the world go round, but moneys nit everything.
The only thing I can control is now. So I’m gonna load up on self care before I head back to work Saturday. Focus on getting my bills paid for July. Then after my bills are paid. I’m celebrating by binge watching personal development videos.
I have so much survivors guilt when I have to shed relationships that don’t serve me anymore.