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SnuffleUffleGrass
07-20-2018, 06:15 AM
I have so much survivors guilt when I have to shed relationships that don’t serve me anymore.
I dealt with my survivor's guilt by accepting that I don't always have the exact right answer for every situation. & I can't control what other people choose to do.....
WendiStarr
07-20-2018, 06:04 PM
I ended my celibacy. I wasn't planning on having sex but he gave me really good oral. I'm so sore, like I lost my virginity again. I'm regretting having sex now because I'm having cryosurgery on my cervix next week.
JGB2009
07-20-2018, 11:33 PM
This guy I used to see, when I see him come online I give him the middle finger and point it at his profile pic!!!!
miss.a.p1600
07-21-2018, 07:04 AM
I wish I could at least receive oral sex with like 2 of my co-workers and have them enjoy giving like 1/4 of their paycheck to me for allowing them the pleasure
miss.a.p1600
07-21-2018, 08:58 PM
He told me he loved me.......and I said it back
Truthfully I like love him as a person, a child of God or something but not IN love
I have accepted it - I am the Mega Cunt of the century
miss.a.p1600
07-21-2018, 09:01 PM
He offered for me to use his car.....I appreciate the kind gesture and all but Bruh! I don't use cars - I OWN cars. If I'm behind the wheel of a car for more than say a weekend then it needs to me in my name.
Try again Boo
Metal Vanity
07-21-2018, 09:52 PM
I found a frog in my pool, so I had my yorkie chase after it, then felt bad and put it back in the pool.:-X
Metal Vanity
07-21-2018, 09:56 PM
I wish I could at least receive oral sex with like 2 of my co-workers and have them enjoy giving like 1/4 of their paycheck to me for allowing them the pleasure
:laughing:
I often have dreams of fucking random men, and when my boyfriend asks me in the morning what I dreamed about, I'm like, oh nothing, I can't remember... I know he does the same thing...
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-22-2018, 05:15 AM
He offered for me to use his car.....I appreciate the kind gesture and all but Bruh! I don't use cars - I OWN cars. If I'm behind the wheel of a car for more than say a weekend then it needs to me in my name.
Try again Boo
This is the right answer. A LOT of Splenda daddies will lend cars and then take it back when they don't get sex or God knows what they want from you.
lynn2009
07-23-2018, 01:34 PM
I really miss my old animal shelter and I've been trying to find something else to do here but none of the places I've looked into actually need help, and especially not on weekends. Like yeah, they have volunteers but all the shifts most people are available for (week nights or weekends) are full. You can sign up in advance, but then it's like...it really doesn't matter that you're there. It's not like they will be understaffed, someone else will take your spot. I've looked into tutoring too and it's the same thing. It seems like a disheartening way to volunteer to me.
Aurora_Sunset
07-24-2018, 12:16 AM
Everyone: "How's work?"
Me: "Oh, management sucks and I work all the damn time, but it's ok. I mean, I like my job. It's good."
Honest Me, Internally: "Well, I spend about 40% of my time pretending that I'm not totally fucking my married coworker on a weekly basis, and sexting him while we're at work on a daily basis. Another 49% of the the time pretending that I'm not super legit crushing on a different coworker, who has a girlfriend, and would totally never be interested in me anyway. (The grand majority of that effort is me trying to hide the fact that I ogle him all day behind my sunglasses). About 10% of the time hating every other living soul on night shift and cussing out management. And the remaining 1% of the time desperately trying to remind myself that I really do love the industry, and this place is just the shitty stepping stone I have to put up with right now in order to get to where I really want to be someday (hopefully soon)."
ravenskyy
07-24-2018, 12:37 AM
It's after 3am and I'm still up. Not because I'm working and banking, like I should be, but because my 4 month old woke up at 1am......in the middle of my shift.......again...for the 3rd time in a week!!!
I love him but omg, sometimes I wish that I didn't have him. My first 2 kids never prevented me from getting sleep after they were 2 months old and they never kept me from working. I haven't slept through the night in a year, due to an awful pregnancy and his refusal to stick to a damn schedule. And now, I can barely work because this baby is so needy and demanding. And to make matters worse, he requires a special expensive formula, that isn't covered by insurance and he sucks it down like it's water!!! How am I supposed to take care of this child if I can't fucking work!?!?
:banghead:
anouk.oui
07-24-2018, 04:15 AM
I kinda want to learn to drink less but after reading AA’s religious manifesto fuck that considering what a dumpster fire my life is my drinking ain’t so bad
Peaches 94
07-24-2018, 02:02 PM
I have taken money out of a custies wallet more than once.
Elle:)
07-24-2018, 03:37 PM
I plan on travelling to Vegas in a few days and auditioning, but I have the strong feeling that I may get cold feet at the last moment. I can't stop browsing their instagrams and thinking I don't look good enough. I can't shake the feeling that I will go and get rejected everywhere. Clubs in LA are much more laid back but I want more money. I just don't feel sexy. I need a confidence boost or smth. I also have way too many things weighing on my mind, which probably contributes to me feeling like shit. I often feel like I cant catch a break ever.
miss.a.p1600
07-24-2018, 06:50 PM
I can't stop thinking about my co-worker giving me mind blowing oral sex and then fucking me.
He ate me out before and that shit was gooooood. He was a Bonafide freak! And if the opportunity presents itself - Ima test that mouth (and that dick) again, and again, and again.....
miss.a.p1600
07-24-2018, 08:12 PM
The old dude is thinking about fucking me while Im thinking about fucking my co-worker......
BadBitch
07-24-2018, 09:10 PM
I'm in lust with a customer.
Ifyouseekamy
07-25-2018, 12:13 AM
I flirted with a bad boy. Gosh I just can’t help myself. I know this guy isn’t healthy, but because of my childhood programming I think he’s a fucking dream. Nothing turns me on like a self absorbed asshole.
Maybe I should go on a date with the basic ass guy at the gym. He maybe basic but I bet he’s stable and secure. I could use that in my life.
WendiStarr
07-25-2018, 05:14 PM
I'm masturbating the hell outta myself tonight because I'm probably not going to be able to for the next couple weeks. Cryosurgery tomorrow.
miss.a.p1600
07-25-2018, 08:24 PM
I've never cheated on any of my past partners (and no those bitches didn't deserve my loyalty). Now I think I'm like in a relationship or something (with a dude who is mostly a gentleman) which is supposed to be monogamous but I can't help lusting after several of my coworkers (nope not just one but at least 4 or 5 of them) who themselves are in relationships but have also lusted after me. The look in their eye, they way they go out of their way to help me with an easy task, and how I bet if I offered a dive in these magnificent oceans that they would gleefully accept.
I'm going to have a HARD (pun intended) time trying to resist these mf's at the office.
miss.a.p1600
07-25-2018, 09:53 PM
Best advice from a former adult career client = "damn! you lookin' gooooood.......you better walk around like you own this mf"
ScarletKitten
07-26-2018, 10:11 AM
I'm so fucking sad today. I called into work. I'm on my period and feel like dying. I don't wanna do this anymore. This is rough, but everything is about to change. On every level. Complete life transformation incoming.
miss.a.p1600
07-26-2018, 07:37 PM
I want to have sex with my co-worker. Well I want him to please me sexually. I feel slightly jealous , just a tad cause this young decent looking woman is a new worker there and I wonder is he physically attracted to her. In the grand scheme of things it really shouldn't matter because technically I think everyone is in some sort of relationship.
I saw him today and I admit I was somewhat excited. Every time I see him I want him to embrace me, kiss me deeply and passionately, and ask me about my day. I want to feel his skin against mine. In real life I doubt I'd be attracted to him like this but something about working with him, being intimate with him before, and how he looks (is he looking at me regular or with a look of thirst? It's hard to tell)
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-27-2018, 07:52 AM
Everyone: "How's work?"
Me: "Oh, management sucks and I work all the damn time, but it's ok. I mean, I like my job. It's good."
Honest Me, Internally: "Well, I spend about 40% of my time pretending that I'm not totally fucking my married coworker on a weekly basis, and sexting him while we're at work on a daily basis. Another 49% of the the time pretending that I'm not super legit crushing on a different coworker, who has a girlfriend, and would totally never be interested in me anyway. (The grand majority of that effort is me trying to hide the fact that I ogle him all day behind my sunglasses). About 10% of the time hating every other living soul on night shift and cussing out management. And the remaining 1% of the time desperately trying to remind myself that I really do love the industry, and this place is just the shitty stepping stone I have to put up with right now in order to get to where I really want to be someday (hopefully soon)."
This sounds like me at my first "real serious" job lol....
kendallkushxo
07-27-2018, 12:03 PM
Found a good source for a particular drug and contemplating on gettinv some since my tolerance is down now but I just got a pt job where the main part of the job is helping people with their drug probelms and I’m feeling like a major hypocrite rn for it even crossing my mind
WendiStarr
07-28-2018, 05:27 AM
My guard was down last night and I got screwed over. One of my former regs contacted me asking if he could see me. I can't have sex right now because of the surgery and I told him that. He said that was ok, that we could do other things. We messed around. He had his donation sitting there on the dresser before. He took it back. He threatened to call LE on me and say that I was a prostitute if I didn't leave his house. He went in my purse, seen my id, and said that now he knows my real name and address. So now do I have to worry about him showing up at my home? Am I going to have to live more anxious and paranoid than I already am? I regret ever seeing him. I've never had any problems with him in the past. I went home and had a terrible anxiety attack. I barely slept last night because I kept freaking out. How do previously good regs turn rogue like that?
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-28-2018, 05:30 AM
My guard was down last night and I got screwed over. One of my former regs contacted me asking if he could see me. I can't have sex right now because of the surgery and I told him that. He said that was ok, that we could do other things. We messed around. He had his donation sitting there on the dresser before. He took it back. He threatened to call LE on me and say that I was a prostitute if I didn't leave his house. He went in my purse, seen my id, and said that now he knows my real name and address. I regret ever seeing him. I've never had any problems with him in the past. I went home and cried. How do previously good regs turn rogue like that?
I'm sorry that happened.
Honestly most LE would not take him seriously. They'd assume he was a disgruntled ex-boyfriend.
He might have been high. I've had co-workers on meth turn on me in a snap over stupid things, or get ugly/aggressive over nothing.
Post his info on Verify Him dot com so he doesn't make a habit out of what he did...
BadBitch
07-28-2018, 11:55 AM
Ovulating and SUPER fucking sensitive.
The new thing that I'm beating myself up over and obsessing about.
Girls in the industry post random stuff on Twitter. It could be a pic of their ear and it get 1,000+ likes.
I post a sexy pic of myself and get 0 likes. 0 retweets. 0 responses.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
ScarletKitten
07-28-2018, 12:11 PM
My guard was down last night and I got screwed over. One of my former regs contacted me asking if he could see me. I can't have sex right now because of the surgery and I told him that. He said that was ok, that we could do other things. We messed around. He had his donation sitting there on the dresser before. He took it back. He threatened to call LE on me and say that I was a prostitute if I didn't leave his house. He went in my purse, seen my id, and said that now he knows my real name and address. So now do I have to worry about him showing up at my home? Am I going to have to live more anxious and paranoid than I already am? I regret ever seeing him. I've never had any problems with him in the past. I went home and had a terrible anxiety attack. I barely slept last night because I kept freaking out. How do previously good regs turn rogue like that?
I don't understand. Why did he take the money back and threaten you? Was he mad because he couldn't have sex with you? Even though you told him beforehand on the phone? I'm confused why he just suddenly flipped out like that.
Elle:)
07-28-2018, 02:12 PM
My marriage is making me depressed.
miss.a.p1600
07-28-2018, 02:25 PM
My guard was down last night and I got screwed over. One of my former regs contacted me asking if he could see me. I can't have sex right now because of the surgery and I told him that. He said that was ok, that we could do other things. We messed around. He had his donation sitting there on the dresser before. He took it back. He threatened to call LE on me and say that I was a prostitute if I didn't leave his house. He went in my purse, seen my id, and said that now he knows my real name and address. So now do I have to worry about him showing up at my home? Am I going to have to live more anxious and paranoid than I already am? I regret ever seeing him. I've never had any problems with him in the past. I went home and had a terrible anxiety attack. I barely slept last night because I kept freaking out. How do previously good regs turn rogue like that?
That sucks- sorry you had to waste your time and experience a douche like that.
He probably was on some hard drugs or something.
I mean him threatening to calling LE would be dumb cause
1. No money was exchanged for sexual services
2. If money was exchanged like he took it back then planted it on you then he would incriminate himself
Also,
you have His address so him doing something dumb would not make sense as you could retaliate and send goons to his house.
What a loser!
Metal Vanity
07-28-2018, 02:26 PM
Last night I was giving a guys a lap dance and he got tired of my lap dancing and asked me to just grind on him halfway through his last song >=( I don't like grinding plus it was uncomfortable to grind with the height of the chair and I basically just sat there and moved a little. Changing direction and trying to make it difficult for him to control me. then at the end of the song he says he's done and I get up with a big wet spot on my leg, he fucking jizzed on me ::barfing:: then he gives me $100 in funny money and asks for 20 of it back and says I'll tip you next time.
No fucking thank you, there won't be a next time you just leg raped me.
Then an Indian guy tried to slobber on my nipple, further deterring me from lap dancing for Indians. So desperate and gross. My nipple chafed after that, thanks..
And to top it off I had to argue with a guy who begged me for my phone number and real name asking to take me out at the end of the night when he only wanted to give me $100 for 10 dances.
Wow fuck this place. I need to profile better because the guys at this club are poorly missing the mark. Ugh.
beverly_worldshaker
07-28-2018, 02:45 PM
oh YUCK. I'm sorry you had to experience so much gross in one shift. One time this guy jizzed in a condom after one dance, like he was wearing the condom IN HIS PANTS and trashed the condom in the parking lot and my managers were like, did you fuck that dude? Because they saw him leave the room with me. Young white frat guys put their entire mouths on my nipples more than any other demographic, and I just have to stop and say "REALLY?? ...REALLY?". I work at a small club in an area where people have little clue. It's gotten to a point where I have to warn almost every customer to not put their gd mouth on me or else I'll stop the dance no refund. And people say stripping is easy...
BadBitch
07-28-2018, 04:34 PM
Last night I was giving a guys a lap dance and he got tired of my lap dancing and asked me to just grind on him halfway through his last song >=( I don't like grinding plus it was uncomfortable to grind with the height of the chair and I basically just sat there and moved a little. Changing direction and trying to make it difficult for him to control me. then at the end of the song he says he's done and I get up with a big wet spot on my leg, he fucking jizzed on me ::barfing:: then he gives me $100 in funny money and asks for 20 of it back and says I'll tip you next time.
No fucking thank you, there won't be a next time you just leg raped me.
Then an Indian guy tried to slobber on my nipple, further deterring me from lap dancing for Indians. So desperate and gross. My nipple chafed after that, thanks..
And to top it off I had to argue with a guy who begged me for my phone number and real name asking to take me out at the end of the night when he only wanted to give me $100 for 10 dances.
Wow fuck this place. I need to profile better because the guys at this club are poorly missing the mark. Ugh.
That is just horrible. I'm so sorry.
Metal Vanity
07-28-2018, 05:23 PM
I hate it when automatic toilets spit on me. I always try to cover the sensor up so I can crap in peace, but at the airport today it fell off without me knowing and I got surprised by 3 juicy butt rinses. Yaaaaay I've always wanted a personal butt cleaner.
beverly_worldshaker
07-28-2018, 06:00 PM
Its enough water to wash a load of laundry. One time I put tape on the sensor at my college because I just wanted to shit in peace.
WendiStarr
07-28-2018, 08:26 PM
I'm sorry that happened.
Honestly most LE would not take him seriously. They'd assume he was a disgruntled ex-boyfriend.
He might have been high. I've had co-workers on meth turn on me in a snap over stupid things, or get ugly/aggressive over nothing.
Post his info on Verify Him dot com so he doesn't make a habit out of what he did...
Yes, maybe he was on something. That's the only logical reason that I can think of too because he's never behaved like this before. It had me paranoid all day that he was going to show up at my place or something so I left and spent the day with my brother. I did post him on verifyhim and on the dirty phone book so that if anyone searches his phone number they will see it.
miss.a.p1600
07-28-2018, 09:07 PM
The old dude gave me some money again.
Thank goodness cause I was just thinking about how I'd like some new dresses
He keeps campaigning for me to live with him but although I would like to eliminate one of my major expenses rn (rent) I just don't know if I can live with another mf full-time like that. Like I don't see how married people do that shit. No privacy, no alone time, just wherever you turn.....there that person is
Aurora_Sunset
07-29-2018, 02:55 AM
My self esteem is so wrecked right now that I can't handle compliments. Like they make me physically uncomfortable. Tonight, I was talking about said self esteem with a friend, and when he said "You're amazing," my chest literally tightened and I just said thanks and left the conversation.
Glamourmilf
07-29-2018, 08:56 AM
My guard was down last night and I got screwed over. One of my former regs contacted me asking if he could see me. I can't have sex right now because of the surgery and I told him that. He said that was ok, that we could do other things. We messed around. He had his donation sitting there on the dresser before. He took it back. He threatened to call LE on me and say that I was a prostitute if I didn't leave his house. He went in my purse, seen my id, and said that now he knows my real name and address. So now do I have to worry about him showing up at my home? Am I going to have to live more anxious and paranoid than I already am? I regret ever seeing him. I've never had any problems with him in the past. I went home and had a terrible anxiety attack. I barely slept last night because I kept freaking out. How do previously good regs turn rogue like that?
Disgusting trick!!
In my experience, tricks always go bad.
Always.
It's like they get too comfortable or something.
Even on cam it happens.
The guy will be my best customer for years.
And then one day....Bam!
He becomes an asshole, and I have to ban him.
I'm sorry this happened.
But, just know that he's a bully, and won't do shit to you.
Just block and move on.
miss.a.p1600
07-29-2018, 04:19 PM
I really need help and want to discuss drink selection with my associate but I don't want to get sucked in to him possibly seducing me and me giving in.
I feel really thirsty rn like I would drop *everything* for a certified pussy eater who is highly skilled with that tongue action.
I think I want to stay celibate until I am married but that may be a difficult task.
Note to self - must resist, must resist, must resist..........
miss.a.p1600
07-29-2018, 04:24 PM
I keep running into my co-worker (the one I'd like to fuck - well I would rather ride his face first) at work and I wonder does he think about me the way I think about him?
chanzep
07-29-2018, 07:41 PM
I am at work bored. Thinking about pros and cons of this job v the club. If I ever went back to club it would have to be a secret. I realized as I’m sat here watching tv, what it means to be watching tv at club, no money . Hmm. I want to consult a physic.
miss.a.p1600
07-29-2018, 08:28 PM
The old dude said his ass went to the strip clubs this weekend lol!
Then he call himself asking if I would go with him. All I know is, if I do - one I’m gone have to play like I’m kind of green to the adult scene and two that mf better not be tight walleted cause I want to have a good time and three hope I don’t run into anyone I know and four he’s probably going to be acting all nerdy and clingy
Second thought going to strip club with him may not be fun idk plus he should be spending that money on me
xStacey
07-29-2018, 08:32 PM
Wow I'm so indifferent to sex work now that I no longer feel excited or sexy working in hot lingerie, heels and makeup. It feels like a regular day at the office. I'm excited to retire completely in one to maximum two years.
Vyanka
07-29-2018, 09:24 PM
New hot guy where my parents live. Long dark hair and tattoos. But has a damn average nerdy GF with pink hair and a square spongebob body.
Caught him "accidently" staring at my tits. Just dump that block, please. Lol. I'm mean.
I'd break him in half.
Elektra Luxx
07-30-2018, 05:39 PM
So yesterday I went to birthday party and I spent some time with my bf's older cousin. He's going through something with his wife so he was on a self-destructive binge which is something I know about. He was all fucked up so I found spare bedroom and made him lay down and rest for awhile. We talked one on one for about an hour. I always had a thing for him. He's so sexy, good looking, kind and we talk so easy together. I reset the major crush I had on him and I can't get him out of my head.
charlie61
07-30-2018, 09:25 PM
I have been such a shitty mod lately, omg...
Metal Vanity
07-30-2018, 10:22 PM
I keep running into my co-worker (the one I'd like to fuck - well I would rather ride his face first) at work and I wonder does he think about me the way I think about him?
That's the guy you need to bang STAT! That hot feeling doesn't last forever and those guys are not always forever material anyway. But if they get you hot and bothered just at the thought, get yours while you can!