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Elektra Luxx
08-19-2018, 12:07 PM
I used to never put my clean clothes away. I'd have clean hampers and dirty hampers. When I want wear something clean, I put in things in the dryer to take the wrinkles out and wear it. Bf didn't like my system so he made room for my stuff in his closet and drawers. I say things to tease him and I said "I don't plan to be here that long." Bf got pissed and said "just put your shit away!" Sheeesh! Someone is a bit touchy. I put things away. Later, I'm looking for my things and remember "Oh, I put my shit away." Lol!

ravenskyy
08-19-2018, 01:06 PM
I wish that I wasn't married and had never had kids. I just want to travel the country with my besties, dance, escort, drink, have one night stands and create awesome memories. My 26th bday is in 10 days and I feel like I've wasted my entire life. I fantasize about leaving my husband and kids but I can't do it. The guilt would destroy me.

Elle:)
08-19-2018, 05:53 PM
I went to Vegas and got hired at both Hustler and Spearmint rhino. I feel good about myself.

miss.a.p1600
08-20-2018, 05:57 PM
I still want my co-worker in a sexual way.


He is probably lame as fuck. And I am most likely out of his league.......but for now my mind has fantasies of him pushing me back over the desk, pulling up my skirt, diving in this pussy face first then him excitedly saying "mmm you taste so good!" while I try not to scream in pleasure.

Cutie101
08-20-2018, 07:49 PM
My celebrity crush responded me on Twitter.
Holy fuck.
Now I don't know how to get him to DM me or something, without looking like a total desperate creep.
I guess I'll just stay silent and interact on his twitter here and there, without looking like a crazy idiot, hoping for the next step lol.

PS: Not looking to date him or leave my bf for him, lmao. But would be actually fun to chat here and there, friendly shit.
PS 2: I hope he doesn't peek into my camshows. That would be akward AF. But I don't mind him going to private just to chat. For hour$$$$$!

Cutie101
08-20-2018, 07:52 PM
I wish that I wasn't married and had never had kids. I just want to travel the country with my besties, dance, escort, drink, have one night stands and create awesome memories. My 26th bday is in 10 days and I feel like I've wasted my entire life. I fantasize about leaving my husband and kids but I can't do it. The guilt would destroy me.

I'm 26 soon, as well. Except I am not married, nor having kids, but I have been in a 9 years relationship. I feel exactly the same. Apparently I got into the "married" life, way too early, because I feel like I am already bored of it. Many women dream to be married and have kids and I dream to be single and live my life and then get settled down at 35 or something :)))).
I basically lost exactly those years where you flirt, date and experience the most.

WendiStarr
08-21-2018, 02:03 PM
I wasn't really feeling like going anywhere after work but my movie buddy wanted to meet up today at the movie theatre. We've never done anything beyond meeting up at the movie theatre and he never seemed interested in anything else. Today towards the end of the movie he put his hand over mine, commented on my hand being cold, and put my hand between both his hands to warm it up. When the movie ended and the credits were rolling, he still had one of his hands over mine. He asked me if I wanted to get some food with him. I was hungry since I hadn't had lunch today so I said so. We got food together. We've never done that before. Usually after the movie is over we go our separate ways. I am able to have sex again so I'm feeling thirsty lately. I was tempted to ask him if he wanted to come home with me for some bedroom fun, yet at the same time I like having a movie buddy. I have a feeling that he'd be good at licking the kitty and in bed sexually. At the same time I feel like if I took things to the sexual level with him, he'd only want to have sex from then on and not want to do anything else other than sex. Ugh, life is frustrating.

Elektra Luxx
08-21-2018, 02:32 PM
I worked late yesterday because me and this other girl were assisting some consultants helping us with some computer equipment. They were gentlemen and professional and afterward they invited out us out to eat. I politely turned them down. I didn't tell Bf, but he would have been okay with it because he's not jealous or insecure. If the table was turned, I don't want bf to think it's okay to go out to eat a girl he works with. There is a cute little thing who he works with who I feel gives him a lot of attention.

**Big Correction**

Sorry, I think faster than I type. I left out the one word that changes everything.

Charlie61, Baer45, I think you know what I meant.

miss.a.p1600
08-21-2018, 04:40 PM
I think one of my co-workers has the hots for me. He is cool and seems like a good dude. Sadly it is not the one I have been lusting over but I notice him staring at me - especially when no one is around and it is hard to read him.

charlie61
08-21-2018, 08:46 PM
I worked late yesterday because me and this other girl were assisting some consultants helping us with some computer equipment. They were gentlemen and professional and afterward they invited out us out to eat. I politely turned them down. I didn't tell Bf, but he would have been okay with it because he's jealous or insecure. If the table was turned, I don't want bf to think it's okay to go out to eat a girl he works with. There is a cute little thing who he works with who I feel gives him a lot of attention.

Yeah, the biggest threats to monogamous relationships are the people we see every day - at work, etc. It's easy to resist a one-time exposure to someone who catches your eye. But the people we see consistently have plenty of time to work their way into our minds! Even someone who isn't very attractive (beauty or personality-wise) can become attractive once you get to know them over time..

baer45
08-21-2018, 09:05 PM
I might be a bit of old fashion about the sex-gender thing. I am helping a friend to rent out her spare room. And she only wants a female roommate. So this person contacted me without telling me the gender.

I replied to the email: "What sex are you?"
Answer:"I was born a woman."

Okay, you are a woman... wait....what...what happened after you were born? Because you could have just said, I am a woman.
Are you still the same gender as the gender you born with?

trustfundkiller
08-22-2018, 12:19 PM
In my heart I feel called to travel the world and give up/sell everything to be a traveling nomad for the next few years. It would be less expensive than my current lifestyle and with camming it is completely doable. Then I ask, "What's holding me back?" and the answer is fear. I wish I could tell fear to fuck off. Fear, and I would miss my cat too much. I know my mom would take care of him while I'm gone, but I would go crazy missing him. Maybe it is something to look into. Just because I'm not mentally ready today doesn't mean I won't eventually reach that point.

baer45
08-22-2018, 04:19 PM
I didn't tell Bf, but he would have been okay with it because he's not jealous or insecure.

**Big Correction**

Charlie61, Baer45, I think you know what I meant.

awww. Before the correction, I said let's keep him for now. Now I see no need for that, let's push him off a cliff or something.

Yes sweaty, we know. We are happy for you, that you have a healthy relationship.

carmen_b
08-22-2018, 05:58 PM
OMG. I am dying for a pepsi on ice so bad. I'm at a mid-point in my diet ( 8 pounds down and 8 to go ! ) so I'm going to try everything else low-cal before I give in ( hot tea / maybe even a diet drink ). After I quit dancing I because so frustrated with my body ( without all the exercise, things just very slowly declined until I had to do something ). I'm am REALLY happy with the progress I've made though. I know it's accurate because I was weighed at the Dr. about 6 months ago and then I just did it the other day with one of the scales that has the weights at a spa.
EDIT: I did NOT give in ! I did a hot tea lemon / peach blend with a little honey.

carmen_b
08-22-2018, 06:01 PM
DO ITTTTT. My travel adventures in the last few years are some of the happiest times in my life. It doesn't have to be all or nothing. Consider renting your place out ( I always do for month or more trips ). You could even start by getting where you are living perfectly clean and decluttered ( rental ready ) just so that *in case* you decide to go, it will be easy. I feel like the idea is so much scarier when giving up your place is a factor. If you know you have a furnished turn key place to come back to it may ease some of the fears.
In my heart I feel called to travel the world and give up/sell everything to be a traveling nomad for the next few years. It would be less expensive than my current lifestyle and with camming it is completely doable. Then I ask, "What's holding me back?" and the answer is fear. I wish I could tell fear to fuck off. Fear, and I would miss my cat too much. I know my mom would take care of him while I'm gone, but I would go crazy missing him. Maybe it is something to look into. Just because I'm not mentally ready today doesn't mean I won't eventually reach that point.

carmen_b
08-22-2018, 06:12 PM
^ Before every trip, I clean and photograph my place and put ads up to experiment with how much I can rent it for. Last time, I rented it like 6 days before leaving the country. I slacked but was still able to cover the full rent and utilities so I wasn't paying for accommodations at home and overseas.
It obviously takes some risk tolerance but handling it right with a sublease agreement / xerox of subletters ID / references can ease your mind.
It can even be a a *discrete* pet sitting agreement ( give a break on the rent ) if needed and your building isn't fully on board.
I just told my manager I had a house sitter that he might see once in awhile and he was just grateful that it meant less work for him ( nothing to check on ).
This last girl was a little weird ( she is sensitive to smell ) so I came back to all soaps / lotions ect. wrapped in plastics and tin foil , haha.
She hid my basil plant in the closet which killed it ( I purposely left her a full one to use in cooking ) but she left it super clean and left $5 out for the plant she killed.

SnuffleUffleGrass
08-22-2018, 06:13 PM
OMG. I am dying for a pepsi on ice so bad. I'm at a mid-point in my diet ( 8 pounds down and 8 to go ! ) so I'm going to try everything else low-cal before I give in ( hot tea / maybe even a diet drink ). After I quit dancing I because so frustrated with my body ( without all the exercise, things just very slowly declined until I had to do something ). I'm am REALLY happy with the progress I've made though. I know it's accurate because I was weighed at the Dr. about 6 months ago and then I just did it the other day with one of the scales that has the weights at a spa.

Congrats! I am having dieting setbacks due to down time from surgery. This is inspirational

carmen_b
08-22-2018, 06:19 PM
^ Yes, it's about making those good choices DAY by DAY . I'm pretty good overall choosing good food but admittedly get lax on working out so I know I'll need to increase to get the rest of the goal.

Elektra Luxx
08-22-2018, 11:12 PM
awww. Before the correction, I said let's keep him for now. Now I see no need for that, let's push him off a cliff or something.

Yes, let's push him off a cliff and I'll move in with you. I'm extremely high maintenance. I hope you have a sundeck with a privacy fence so I can stay tan line free and...I don't do dishes.

baer45
08-23-2018, 11:40 AM
Yes, let's push him off a cliff and I'll move in with you. I'm extremely high maintenance. I hope you have a sundeck with a privacy fence so I can stay tan line free and...I don't do dishes.

haha, oaky, you won. Let's keep the babe daddy.

Aurora_Sunset
08-24-2018, 12:59 AM
I知 in love.

Like, actually. In a crazy, holy shit, never felt this way before-never thought it was POSSIBLE kind of way.

When I知 completely sober and everything!!

I can稚 stop it, and hate it at the same time.

I値l hate myself fully in another few months. I知 already preparing for it. Maybe the preparation of the day I値l be bitterly drinking wine for breakfast will make it suck slightly less when it all comes crashing down and inevitably destroys me.

Seriously though, wtf?

miss.a.p1600
08-24-2018, 06:10 AM
The coworker I am sexually attracted to talked to me at work. I was trying not to look thirsty. I masturbated this morning while thinking about him eating my pussy. I want to feel how good he can please me in real life.

ScarletKitten
08-24-2018, 02:06 PM
I’m in love.

Like, actually. In a crazy, holy shit, never felt this way before-never thought it was POSSIBLE kind of way.

When I’m completely sober and everything!!

I can’t stop it, and hate it at the same time.

I’ll hate myself fully in another few months. I’m already preparing for it. Maybe the preparation of the day I’ll be bitterly drinking wine for breakfast will make it suck slightly less when it all comes crashing down and inevitably destroys me.

Seriously though, wtf?

I hope it works out for you girl! <3

Elle:)
08-25-2018, 02:33 PM
I want to loose some weight. I want to be size 0 instead of size 2 again.

WendiStarr
08-26-2018, 04:57 AM
I had a sex dream about Mr. Flaky(ugh) that I tied him up and had my way with him. I woke up and came so hard. I'm effed up, I know.

Peaches 94
08-26-2018, 08:23 AM
I've been making killer cash .......I've also been doing the cameltoe slide.

miss.a.p1600
08-27-2018, 04:50 PM
The coworker id like to face-ride went out of his way to talk to me at work after most people left of course lol.

My vagina gets tingly when I’m around him, I keep thinking about him, and I look forward to going to the vanilla office just to see him.

I’m too thirsty right now but at least I’m aware of it.

trustfundkiller
08-27-2018, 10:01 PM
I overate today and I feel horrible about myself. I feel like a fat, disgusting, bloated cow. My period is coming on so I'm going to blame it on that and do better tomorrow.

Ifyouseekamy
08-27-2018, 10:44 PM
I feel so lost. I just needed a safe place to vent. I’m not young, but I’m not old. I’m not living in a van down by the river, but I’m not established like my peers. I survived inconceivable abuse and its not fair to compare myself to others. I played my cards the best I knew how without any help.

It’s hard because the vanilla world is not helpful at all! If anything it’s been retraumatizing. The girls at work are nice-that’s all I can really ask for, but they don’t really understand what I’m going through. I don’t want to be blamed and I don’t want pity.

I’m finally debt FREE- debt incurred during the abusive relationships. I’m over 8 months no contact. I’m going to do something really nice for myself. I’m debt free and I look hot for my age. I’m gonna make the best of it!

I’m grateful to have my loyal best friend and my mom is in better health. My dog is healthy too.

I’m taking some time off in August-I earned it. Time to save 3-6 months expenses and study for my exam.

I trust my higher power to lead me somewhere better and to help me overcome the stigma of the adult industry as I transition out.

miss.a.p1600
08-28-2018, 06:44 PM
I think 2 of my coworkers have a thing for me

Ima use that to my advantage

carmen_b
08-28-2018, 09:09 PM
I am so attracted to cowboys lately. I think one of my main travel regrets is that I never picked up a real cowboy in a small town like I always thought I would.

Elektra Luxx
08-28-2018, 09:17 PM
I've been talking with my sisters and my mom. My younger sister is going through serious relationship problems with her bf/fiance. He's done some terrible things to her again. I just feel so sad for her and I'm so angry with him
I want to fix things. I want to make things better. I want to make her pain go away. It hurts me when she's hurting. I want to cry.

carmen_b
08-28-2018, 09:41 PM
^ If there is abuse and she isn't leaving, it would be heart breaking ! Maybe you can help her find a counselor ?

Elektra Luxx
08-29-2018, 03:33 AM
^ If there is abuse and she isn't leaving, it would be heart breaking ! Maybe you can help her find a counselor ?

She will not see a counselor. I've tried, my mom, other family members, but she will not. I she will not say why she doesn't. Neither of them will see a counselor.

They work together and he has been approaching coworkers and friends of my sister outright asking to hookup. Four of her friends came forward yesterday to tell her. What possesses a person to outright ask your gf/fiance friends for sex? It's too crazy to imagine. Then he took her last $300 from her bank account and went out partying. The guy is acting like there is something wrong with his brain. It's scary.

carmen_b
08-29-2018, 10:56 AM
^ He's abusive. Have you had this conversation with her ? Print out ( or send in digital format if there is a risk of him finding the print out and being weird ) what abuse articles you can and phone number to lines that can help her.

I really feel for you.

She may be feeling stuck. You could also see if she wants to come stay with you a few days if you have space.

baer45
08-29-2018, 02:13 PM
She will not see a counselor. I've tried, my mom, other family members, but she will not. I she will not say why she doesn't. Neither of them will see a counselor.

They work together and he has been approaching coworkers and friends of my sister outright asking to hookup. Four of her friends came forward yesterday to tell her. What possesses a person to outright ask your gf/fiance friends for sex? It's too crazy to imagine. Then he took her last $300 from her bank account and went out partying. The guy is acting like there is something wrong with his brain. It's scary.


And she's not leaving him? smh.

lynn2009
08-29-2018, 03:48 PM
She will not see a counselor. I've tried, my mom, other family members, but she will not. I she will not say why she doesn't. Neither of them will see a counselor.

They work together and he has been approaching coworkers and friends of my sister outright asking to hookup. Four of her friends came forward yesterday to tell her. What possesses a person to outright ask your gf/fiance friends for sex? It's too crazy to imagine. Then he took her last $300 from her bank account and went out partying. The guy is acting like there is something wrong with his brain. It's scary.

My sister's situation was not that bad, but she married a loser and I'll tell you what someone else told me then. Be supportive as best you can now, and be supportive and not 'I told you do' she finally does leave. My sister's marriage was over in less than ten months and she had to sleep in her car the night he kicked her out (house was in both their names too).

Elektra Luxx
08-29-2018, 09:02 PM
^ He's abusive. Have you had this conversation with her ? Print out ( or send in digital format if there is a risk of him finding the print out and being weird ) what abuse articles you can and phone number to lines that can help her.

I really feel for you.

She may be feeling stuck. You could also see if she wants to come stay with you a few days if you have space.


And she's not leaving him? smh.


My sister's situation was not that bad, but she married a loser and I'll tell you what someone else told me then. Be supportive as best you can now, and be supportive and not 'I told you do' she finally does leave. My sister's marriage was over in less than ten months and she had to sleep in her car the night he kicked her out (house was in both their names too).

So much to say, but here's the bullet version.

They both lived with me, but she need her own space. She worse that I am about that.

She kicked him out yesterday and today he's come to his senses somewhat and realizes he has no where to go or stay and has no transportation to get to work. So he's apologetic today. His words "he fucked up." She is not taking him back for the moment and is in the process of separating their joint accounts.

He is a good person mostly and good looking, but is unmotivated. She loves him in spite of this.

She is very much like me, bi-polar. She has high highs and low lows in short spans of time and has self esteem issues.

He has been physically abusive in the past, but I don't think he has hit her this time.

My family and I are being very supportive. No "I told you so". She did say she had a better day today.

I was so worried yesterday I couldn't sleep. I made all kinds of dumb mistakes at work. Exercising is out of the question and I'm binge eating and I don't care. Nothing else matters until things are more settled with my sister.

carmen_b
08-29-2018, 09:06 PM
^ I just feel for her ( and you !! ).
I AM THRILLED to see that she has kicked him out!

Now she needs to STICK to it.

DonaDiabla
08-29-2018, 09:59 PM
This is my confession about romantic relationships now:

Over this past summer, I had a few dates and I was just over it now. Why should I fuck/date for free at this point in my life? I love getting dollled up and wearing an persona in order to get more money. I love playing with age, national origin, language, and education. I just want sugar daddies until I get married. Good sugar daddies and not a bunch of crybaby weirdos. Maybe entertain certain women as well. Seriously, I never care about having an boyfriend/Girlfriend thing and wasting my fucking time with useless relationships. I did that in my teens and 20s...it meant nothing. Literally,those relationships meant nothing overall. Most were fun but it was not real connections.This is not about being jaded...this about becoming more truer to myself. In addition, I just want get paid all the way around for all of my goodies now...just like my ancestors did :) I am happy to get that off my chest.

carmen_b
08-29-2018, 10:32 PM
^ Sometimes if it " feels right " you know ? If paid dates only feel the best, I would continue.

^ Ohhhh
Seeing your post made me realize I should get in touch with a former SD. I gave up a great one to be in the relationship I was in but now it's on the rocks.
He did say if I EVER needed anything to reach out.

Elektra Luxx
08-31-2018, 05:49 AM
They work together and he has been approaching coworkers and friends of my sister outright asking to hookup. Four of her friends came forward yesterday to tell her.

Both my sister and her ex had great schedules, 8am to 4pm, M to F and no weekends because of her. They like her and she does good work. Now they switched his schedule to the night shift. 1pm to 10pm, Tues to Sat

LaurenAus
08-31-2018, 10:59 AM
Me and the guy I was seeing broke it off. He couldn’t handle my “needs” and all the arguments anymore. I’m distraught. My feelings are hurt and I was only with this person for two months. I must’ve fucked my sisters husband in a past life to have such a shitty love life

Edit: just found him on tinder the day after it ended. The pain is real. This is after I told him (in a very vulnerable and effed up state of mind) that I would still consider a sexual relationship with him in the future with boundaries in place which he ignored. Why can guys move on this quickly.

carmen_b
08-31-2018, 04:22 PM
^ Aw. ;(
Think about this way, if you didn't REALLY WANT to stuff you were asking for you wouldn't have brought it up right ?
So .... he wasn't really a good fit for YOU either.

carmen_b
08-31-2018, 04:23 PM
Wow, a week of being alone will really help you see the flaws in your relationship.

I'm seeing some co-dependency issues in mine that I DIDN'T even register days ago.
My friend is the one who pointed out the flaw. We often had only 1 evening a week to have separate lives AND we live in a TINY place.
The only break we had was when I was on work trips .
Most people ( including her ) could see the red flags a mile away but we didn't.
She is right. We should each have our own lives at least 2 days out of the week.

WendiStarr
08-31-2018, 10:28 PM
Long, crazy story short I broke my celibacy tonight..with Mr. Flaky of all people. Yes I've probably officially lost my fucking mind. The sex was so good.

miss.a.p1600
09-01-2018, 07:32 AM
I had a dream about th old dude.

I haven’t talked to him by phone or in person in like 3 weeks since he text me talking about he has needs n shit.

In my mind I’m like well dude we all have needs but cotdamn it not all of our needs will be met and not right now. I can only do what I can do. What I can’t to is be all up under someone 24/7. I don’t care if I’m married with 10 kids I will need a break from everyone

He wants me to meet up with him this weekend. If he acts needy and clingy then I may have to just dial things down to a friendship only.

miss.a.p1600
09-01-2018, 07:35 AM
Both of my coworkers text me last night after work.

Would have been kind of humorous if they happened to be sitting next to each other

carmen_b
09-01-2018, 12:54 PM
His lurking paid off !! Sounds like it went well for both of you!
Long, crazy story short I broke my celibacy tonight..with Mr. Flaky of all people. Yes I've probably officially lost my fucking mind. The sex was so good.

miss.a.p1600
09-02-2018, 06:44 AM
Back at my old vanilla career I had a harem of like 4 dudes who lusted after me.

Now I have 3 coworkers who I think are into me. I need to discreetly finagle this so I can keep those office favors (and more) comin’!