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queenelayliah
09-03-2018, 11:13 PM
Well here goes my random confession. I'm a 26 black female, ugly in the face but I have a kind heart and I'm super fat I'm 493lbs. There I said it. This is the first time I think I have ever told anyone besides my doctor my weight.
Lately, I have been feeling like a loser, unaccomplished, no career goals just a desire to make money but no way to do so. I feel like a loser because I'm living in poverty and I hate living paycheck to paycheck. My goal income is $60,000 or $5,000 a month. Because I feel like a deadbeat I have truthfully become depressed and having some self-harm thoughts and just a horrible outlook on life.
I try to tell myself this is temporary once I get my hormones and my anxiety & panic disorder under control ill loose the weight and be able to fully mentally function again And start working in an office again. I also try to tell myself I have no kids or a husband to take care of just me. I also try to tell myself I have only been an adult for literally 7 years (I'm counting from birth to 19 years old., my birthday is in the summer so when I started high school I was 18 and when finished high school in June 2011 I was 18 and then July 2011 I turned 19 yrs old). So from July 2011 to September 2018, it has been 7 years and 2 months as an adult. Four of those years was spent getting a bachelor's degree that has no help me get a good paying job at all. So I try to remind myself I have only been a bum for 3 years.
I just feel so discouraged with life. I'm able to barely afford my bills, I have not paid any of my student loans off yet. I don't know how to get out of this poverty cycle or where to begin to tackle my weight problem.
What sucks most of all is that I know deep down if I was white, latina or Asian,super beautiful, and curvy but toned I could be making bank and living & doing the things I want to do with my life like being an escort and basically a trophy wife. I know I should strive for more, don't judge me please but that's what I secretly want and crave to be. I would love to where all I have to do is please my mans cock, keep the home and look sexy. That's the dream for me, a dream I will never get though sigh.
Elektra Luxx
09-04-2018, 01:04 AM
^^^
I'm sorry you're feeling so sad. Don't compare yourself to other people. When I compare myself to other people, it makes me depressed real quick. There is no way to live up to the lives of other people. People always exaggerate about what great lives they are living and leave out the problems.
Weightwatchers is a good plan. It's slow and the goals are realistic, plus they have weekly support meetings and they teach you how and what to eat in the real world. Stay away from plans where you are buying food directly from the program.
PM me if you need to talk someone.
NitaBaby
09-04-2018, 05:33 AM
I'm vain as fuck. My aunt was just diagnosed with cancer and do you know what my first thought was? "I can't imagine that being me. What would I do without my hair?"
Granted, I used to have short, damaged, nappy ass hair when I was in midle and high school. A lot of women within my race know how to style hair but can't care for it for shit. Since growing it out it's become my identity and i am obsessively protective of it. I almost cried when I cut it this summer from butt crack to waist. But how trivial can one be?
WendiStarr
09-04-2018, 10:27 AM
It's funny how when I was a full-time sw, I desperately wanted to find a part-time vanilla job to feel "normal". I was even considering going vanilla full-time. Now that I have a part-time vanilla job I want to quit and go back to sw full-time so bad. The thing that I hate the most is the bi-monthly payment crap. I'm not a patient lady. I'm used to making x amount of money in cash payment that day, not waiting. Also, I'm getting so tired of cleaning up other peoples' messes every day. I got annoyed earlier when someone managed to somehow spill several gallons of water that spread down two aisles and I got interrupted to go clean it up. I was thinking, "The fuck I look like? A maid? Then I was like, "Oh. Right. I am. Ugh!".
carmen_b
09-04-2018, 03:40 PM
^ This is SUCH a hard adjustment ! I really really struggled not getting paid same day. So much so that as a freelancer ( Vanilla projects ) I would often negotiate same day pay !!
When I pay freelancers now, I often pay them the SAME day and I have the most loyal team.
Why don't more places do this ? Even weekly pay is better than waiting two weeks.
carmen_b
09-04-2018, 03:41 PM
Fuck it. I'm going to the concert with my ex. We have had these GREAT tickets for three months. It's a concert. It's loud. If he starts up with any negative rambling I'll just face the stage and zone out.
He can also see my new outfit / purse / new makeup . Ha.
SnuffleUffleGrass
09-06-2018, 07:44 AM
Normally I try not to relish other people's misfortune but in this case I'm so very close to this person's Karmic downfall I am going to share it with you all. (My confession here obviously is I still have a huge problem with Schaudenfraude.)
A particular girl close to my age I've known for years has finally reaped her "rewards" for being an evil person. Fiance dumped her, made to answer for irresponsibility with debt, etc.
(Keep in mind these things have happened to me too but I have never had an entitled attitude about what the world owes me, unlike this chick.)
I think she's finally growing up, which would be great for everyone else in her orbit.
I'm just glad I've always been wise to her shit, she does try to run fast ones on people who are charmed by her looks or people who are naïve/kind.
WendiStarr
09-06-2018, 10:02 AM
I hung out with movie buddy after work. We ended our platonic friendship today when he brought up the fictional pussy eating leprechaun that lives in my room. He said he'd like to taste my pussy. He seemed to enjoy it more than I did. I was trying to enjoy it but I felt guilty for some odd reason, like I was cheating on Mr. Flake, even though he's back to ignoring me. I couldn't cum. The only good thing that came of it is movie buddy obviously must have experience with sw'ers because he left something on my table. I've never told him of my non-vanilla job and certainly never asked him for any donation nor did I expect anything so that was a pleasant surprise. I feel mad at myself for allowing the platonic thing to end. I really liked having someone to go see movies and hang out with platonically. Now he's probably going to only want sexual stuff.
I just started caming more on mfc/ chaturbate again and just got signed up/approved on streamate I tried broadcasting on SM and it's a disaster, I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing, somehow I earned like a dollar, idk how at all lol, this is a process I guess.. like am I supposed to say anything, what if people r home n I dont want them to hear me is that acceptable on Sm? The other sites dont seem to care..
whirlerz
09-06-2018, 12:22 PM
Avaaaaa!
You'll be fine, hon!
Check out the MFC thread, in cam.connect. section
MFC really takes getting used to:)
karmabby
09-07-2018, 04:14 AM
I have the biggest crush on the floor guy at my club. He’s literally so annoying but sooo hot.
miss.a.p1600
09-07-2018, 03:05 PM
One of my closest coworkers gone ask me do I know if any of the other coworkers be fucking each other then acting like nothing happened. Bruh! If you think ima tell you about that 1 time I rode my hot coworkers face you are sadly mistaken. Secondly you gossip and are too judgmental. And thirdly what they supposed to do fuck each other and blast it on a billboard?
beverly_worldshaker
09-07-2018, 05:22 PM
I'm 29 and a half, which means I'm pretty much over the stripper hill, or so says my GUILT whenever I don't work. Does anyone else feel that wretched feeling like "oh my days are numbered, I have to work whenever humanly possible"?? What the crap.
trustfundkiller
09-07-2018, 05:39 PM
Rereading this gem. Oldie but goodie. No wonder I'm so burned out beyond repair: https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/showthread.php?205364-How-to-Burn-Out-from-Stripping-A-Guide
lynn2009
09-08-2018, 09:39 PM
Not that I'm looking to meet my husband, but I really miss having sex with a genuine connection and everything is fun and easy...
charlie61
09-09-2018, 06:53 PM
Rereading this gem. Oldie but goodie. No wonder I'm so burned out beyond repair: https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/showthread.php?205364-How-to-Burn-Out-from-Stripping-A-Guide
Oh, maaaaan! I love that thread!
SnuffleUffleGrass
09-10-2018, 03:53 PM
I confess something unexpected pushed me off the track today anddd….I've been emo drinking. Just light beer and wine, but ugh. Not what I am supposed to be doing....
Elektra Luxx
09-10-2018, 03:59 PM
My little sister has a date tonight. My gut is telling me it's too soon after her breakup. What do y'all think?
WendiStarr
09-10-2018, 04:32 PM
I hate that I turned the radio on and two songs in a row came on that remind me of Mr. Flake. I cried and turned the damn radio off. I need my stupid period to fuck off and leave already so I can get back to sw. At least when I'm in $ mode it distracts me from love and lovey feelings bs. I don't want to feel shit anymore.
DonaDiabla
09-10-2018, 07:59 PM
I confess that I am using hustle hut's threads about selling champagne rooms to sell more fanclub subscriptions. You see, I am trying to make as much money as possible in this industry and I am just not satisfied with my earnings. I want to earn more all the way around and having greater hustles. :)
carmen_b
09-10-2018, 08:20 PM
Too soon!
My little sister has a date tonight. My gut is telling me it's too soon after her breakup. What do y'all think?
SnuffleUffleGrass
09-11-2018, 06:09 AM
My little sister has a date tonight. My gut is telling me it's too soon after her breakup. What do y'all think?
It's better than staying at home moping over past heartbreak. Life is short, she needs to move on......
Ifyouseekamy
09-12-2018, 07:01 PM
I'm 29 and a half, which means I'm pretty much over the stripper hill, or so says my GUILT whenever I don't work. Does anyone else feel that wretched feeling like "oh my days are numbered, I have to work whenever humanly possible"?? What the crap.
I just talked to a friend about this. Yes, I do work a lot harder knowing it’s not forever.
What I came here to initially confess:
I’m seriously done internalizing other peoples projection. Most people are miserable and have no fucking clue why they think what they think and why they do what they do. Living life on life’s terms takes courage and I’ll never let anyone make me feel ashamed.
Elle:)
09-12-2018, 10:14 PM
I realized that I've been having a really hard time liking people, just in general, most of the time I think they are either idiots, evil or just too lame to bother.
miss.a.p1600
09-13-2018, 06:12 PM
So the former coworker whose face I rode and who I saw naked is now my current coworker again.
Just so happens I had to work late.
Also happened that he was there when I needed to ask for someone to walk me to my car.
He obliged but not before jokingly calling me mean for not talking to him and just staring at him. I’m like dude you are the one staring at me.
Well not trying to give the coworkers ANY clue of anything. Number one cause he is my coworker and number two turns out he’s married. So Not trying to look or be flirty so best thing to do is just shit barely talk to him and cold shoulder him.
WendiStarr
09-13-2018, 06:34 PM
Former movie buddy aka married guy who's obsessed with me came over with ice cream again. Yeah, pretty sure he likes me way more than he should because he said,"I love you". He's married and didn't even hide his ring this time. Normally I would put some distance when guys start using the L word with me but you know what? It might be selfish of me but I think I'll keep him around for a while because I'm starting school in 2 months and that's going to cost me nearly $7k tuition for the program. He can help pay my tuition.
trustfundkiller
09-13-2018, 11:24 PM
Having one of those moments where I reflect on all the crazy shenanigans I got myself into when I was younger and thinking, "Damn, I'm lucky to be alive." lol
miss.a.p1600
09-14-2018, 07:30 PM
I guess cheaters have excellent compartmentalization skills
And sometimes I hate working with dudes I’d like to fuck. It’s extremely sexually frustrating. I think I need a break from thinking about these dudes, they can do nothing for me anyways besides sex and maybe office favors but I need more than that! I want it all!
miss.a.p1600
09-16-2018, 07:29 AM
Sometimes I wonder if I made the right decision.
The old dude has his annoying quirks but he wanted me to move in with him (would have freed up another $950+ in rent, etc) fairly generous with what he had, and I could mostly be myself around him. I could tell his ass just about anything and he’d be cool about it. I even “joked” about wanting to smoke some weed and he was like “want me to get you some?”
I honestly was not sure that he was financially stable (to the level I am accustomed to) and did not know how to say like “dude we should wait until your career is stable”
Maybe I was wrong for not saying that and instead just letting it fizzle out.
Now I gotta get out and start dating again so that I can find a better man. Good thing is now I have a better idea of how I deserve to be treated and I’m not accepting anything less.
Grace108
09-20-2018, 02:30 PM
I am back. Had 2 months break from dancing and have a new pair of boobs.. Yay!! At club they were nice.. I feel lazy to book back my next shifts though lol!!
I am ready to Start again and keep on exploring new things :)
I am thinking to start again next week.. and hopefully see some SD to catch up with expenses
Aurora_Sunset
09-21-2018, 02:33 PM
My current bf that I live with is that married coworker that I started sleeping with back in July.
It was NEVER supposed to be anything other than a fling with an unavailable man, and now he's the first man I've ever lived with, we talk about getting married within the next couple of years, and I'm willingly walking into and putting up with everything having to do with his kinda contentious divorce and custody battle.
I'm not pleased, nor will I ever be, with how things started between us, but I do feel better after hearing from multiple mutual friends that he was already sleeping on the couch, looking for a place of his own, and getting his shit together to start the divorce process before I ever came along, so it's not like I'm just a whirlwind of a homewrecker who broke up an otherwise happy marriage. But everything has been so crazy the last month while we decided to go through with this and dealing with everything....
Right now, I'm supposed to be cleaning, taking stuff in my car to Goodwill, and going to Kickboxing class. But he's off seeing his kids for a few hours, and this is the most time I've had entirely to myself in a month to chill, be on SW (and rant a bit) without him reading over my shoulder, and just be alone. I love the man but we live together and work the same shift on the ambulance together. My tolerance for having him with me 24/7 is higher than I ever thought it would be for another human being, but god, it's good to have a little break to process and do my own shit for a few hours.
yaya_cash
09-23-2018, 07:58 PM
Lol! I'm crying laughing.
How is this funny?
WendiStarr
09-24-2018, 04:31 PM
I'm hoping Mr. movie buddy fucks me really good tomorrow. I feel sexually frustrated.
WendiStarr
09-25-2018, 12:18 PM
Vanilla job was trying to get me to stay OT. I lied and told my supervisor that I had another job to go to at 11:30am. In reality 11:30 was the start time of the movie I went and seen with movie buddy. Then we had hot, wild sex afterwards for almost 2 hours.
Elektra Luxx
09-25-2018, 04:17 PM
I'm not a very good cook. Bf is a better cook than me. He doesn't use recipes. He throws things together and it tastes great. I have to follow recipes. That's just me. My specialty in veggie spaghetti with meat sauce and maybe roasted chicken. Easy stuff. I over toasted Eggo waffles once. Bf choked them down and it made me cry. So bf is working late and asked him if he wanted to me make something for us and he said "No, no, no, don't. Just relax and I'll pick up some Chinese." Which is code for "You can't cook, stay out of the kitchen before you burn down the apartment." I'm sad.
carmen_b
09-25-2018, 10:57 PM
Being suddenly celibate is weird.
I just would NOT have ever expected this 5-6 weeks ago.
Glamourmilf
09-26-2018, 07:10 AM
Vanilla job was trying to get me to stay OT. I lied and told my supervisor that I had another job to go to at 11:30am. In reality 11:30 was the start time of the movie I went and seen with movie buddy. Then we had hot, wild sex afterwards for almost 2 hours.
Wow. He sounds like a keeper.
Good for you!
If he gives you money too, that would be so awesome!
carmen_b
09-26-2018, 07:28 AM
Wendi, it sounds like you have a gem.
charlott
09-26-2018, 07:37 AM
I'm not a very good cook. Bf is a better cook than me. He doesn't use recipes. He throws things together and it tastes great. I have to follow recipes. That's just me. My specialty in veggie spaghetti with meat sauce and maybe roasted chicken. Easy stuff. I over toasted Eggo waffles once. Bf choked them down and it made me cry. So bf is working late and asked him if he wanted to me make something for us and he said "No, no, no, don't. Just relax and I'll pick up some Chinese." Which is code for "You can't cook, stay out of the kitchen before you burn down the apartment." I'm sad.
xoxo don't worry
Aurora_Sunset
09-26-2018, 07:50 AM
I feel like such a lazy piece of crap. I'm always tired, and I get more tired when I'm stressed. I just barely do what I need to do to be productive when I have free time. My bf, on the other hand, is a machine, who can function and get tons done off of literally 2-4 hours of sleep. I feel like shit if I get less than 9... I've been trying to keep up with him, but I know that I do not function at high energy like that, except for maybe short bursts of time where I'm focusing on something I really want intensely.
He swears he understands, and knows that he is used to having to get up and take care of others and that I am used to only worrying about myself, so to take any "me" time or downtime I need to feel normal. But I know my laziness is not sustainable.
Honestly, I think I would be totally happy in a breadwinner role. I hate doing household tasks or errands. If I could wake up every day and only have to worry about going to work, maybe hitting the gym for an hour afterward, and then coming home to the laundry/dishes/groceries/cleaning/etc done and dinner made, and then go to bed? Have one day off a week where all the running-around is already done by my SO so we have a day to ourselves, our relationship, to have lots of sex and cuddling... and then go back to my little work/workout world the rest of the week? I could do that. I could work 80-hour weeks like that and just support the household financially. That would be FINE. I completely understand why men would want that end of the bargain and have stay-at-home wives/moms.
I know the only reason the scales are kinda tipped that way now though are because he literally can't work overtime right now, and I can. But eventually, he wants to work more, contribute more financially, and then me lying around on my days off isn't gonna be so cute anymore...
WendiStarr
09-26-2018, 09:44 AM
Wow. He sounds like a keeper.
Good for you!
If he gives you money too, that would be so awesome!
He does. I never ask him to. He just does it. I'd be disappointed if he didn't though. He's married. I can't keep him but I'll keep him as whatever this is.
carmen_b
09-26-2018, 11:27 AM
This is SO very me ! My ex partner and I have gone in rounds of fighting about this.
I work a lot sometimes when I go into these high work hour phases I rely on things for ease like pro house keeping and food pick ups v.s. prepping my own. I am not going to apologize for it ( there are certain pieces of my job I don't trust anyone to do yet and it's a reason sometimes I do 60 hour weeks ).
I don't know how to advise very well ! I just know I LOVE my lazy days around the house and I would try to not do it in front of my partner but I'd always leave some sort of clue and get caught every time it seemed like.
Hopefully yours works often enough you can get some lazy time in . ;/
I'm not sure what exactly it means because sometimes things like this can mean depression issues or hormonal things being off ( I'm always on the look out for both in myself ). Sometimes I think it just means that you LOVE to lounge and savor it and there really isn't more to it than that ( a reward for working hard ).
I feel like such a lazy piece of crap. I'm always tired, and I get more tired when I'm stressed. I just barely do what I need to do to be productive when I have free time. My bf, on the other hand, is a machine, who can function and get tons done off of literally 2-4 hours of sleep. I feel like shit if I get less than 9... I've been trying to keep up with him, but I know that I do not function at high energy like that, except for maybe short bursts of time where I'm focusing on something I really want intensely.
He swears he understands, and knows that he is used to having to get up and take care of others and that I am used to only worrying about myself, so to take any "me" time or downtime I need to feel normal. But I know my laziness is not sustainable.
Honestly, I think I would be totally happy in a breadwinner role. I hate doing household tasks or errands. If I could wake up every day and only have to worry about going to work, maybe hitting the gym for an hour afterward, and then coming home to the laundry/dishes/groceries/cleaning/etc done and dinner made, and then go to bed? Have one day off a week where all the running-around is already done by my SO so we have a day to ourselves, our relationship, to have lots of sex and cuddling... and then go back to my little work/workout world the rest of the week? I could do that. I could work 80-hour weeks like that and just support the household financially. That would be FINE. I completely understand why men would want that end of the bargain and have stay-at-home wives/moms.
I know the only reason the scales are kinda tipped that way now though are because he literally can't work overtime right now, and I can. But eventually, he wants to work more, contribute more financially, and then me lying around on my days off isn't gonna be so cute anymore...
carmen_b
09-26-2018, 11:36 AM
^ It sounds like you have a pretty good balance when you working more hours and he is taking care of a lot of house hold things.
If it ever gets to seem annoying to him, bring up the " house hold on auto pilot " thing and see what he says.
I'm almost at a point of just saying to anyone in the future : " This is how I run my household , I'm 100% firm that it runs on auto - pilot, you need to be ok with it. "
baer45
09-26-2018, 06:52 PM
He does. I never ask him to. He just does it. I'd be disappointed if he didn't though. He's married. I can't keep him but I'll keep him as whatever this is.
You can't emotionally invest in a married dude. It won't end well. Just have some fun, and if there is any extra income, take it.
Ifyouseekamy
09-27-2018, 03:06 AM
I can’t believe I’m still learning how to be an adult at my age...sigh.
miss.a.p1600
09-27-2018, 06:26 AM
I feel like such a lazy piece of crap. I'm always tired, and I get more tired when I'm stressed. I just barely do what I need to do to be productive when I have free time. My bf, on the other hand, is a machine, who can function and get tons done off of literally 2-4 hours of sleep. I feel like shit if I get less than 9... I've been trying to keep up with him, but I know that I do not function at high energy like that, except for maybe short bursts of time where I'm focusing on something I really want intensely.
He swears he understands, and knows that he is used to having to get up and take care of others and that I am used to only worrying about myself, so to take any "me" time or downtime I need to feel normal. But I know my laziness is not sustainable.
Honestly, I think I would be totally happy in a breadwinner role. I hate doing household tasks or errands. If I could wake up every day and only have to worry about going to work, maybe hitting the gym for an hour afterward, and then coming home to the laundry/dishes/groceries/cleaning/etc done and dinner made, and then go to bed? Have one day off a week where all the running-around is already done by my SO so we have a day to ourselves, our relationship, to have lots of sex and cuddling... and then go back to my little work/workout world the rest of the week? I could do that. I could work 80-hour weeks like that and just support the household financially. That would be FINE. I completely understand why men would want that end of the bargain and have stay-at-home wives/moms.
I know the only reason the scales are kinda tipped that way now though are because he literally can't work overtime right now, and I can. But eventually, he wants to work more, contribute more financially, and then me lying around on my days off isn't gonna be so cute anymore...
If I were a dude I’d take your offer to be the breadwinner lol!
cyberstripper
09-27-2018, 07:56 AM
I told all of u and myself in a post in another section that I wanted to actually date. You know, go out, not fuck the dude right away, be courted, romanced, and hold off on the sex till I am really ready. Well as much as I want that, and wanted to begin going on a date with a new guy once a week/every two weeks, this seems like a damn headache and I have been way too lazy to actually do this and been working way too much to do so.
SOOOOO in June I met a guy that a mutual friend wanted to introduce me to. We hit it off right away, and he hooked me up with some of the best molly I had in a hot minute. All in all knew him about 15 mins. I go to take care of him and my debit gets declined. SOOOO embarrassing. I avoid him for a month after that. He invites me out several times, I continue to avoid. I am not playing games, I was broke, owed him money, working a lot and I wouldn't feel comfy going out with him on dates when I owed him $. We text tho and he really is cool and understanding. He works a very labor intensive job and one night asks me to please give him a massage and I don't have to worry about the $. I MAKE IT VERY CLEAR THAT I WILL NOT GIVE HIM ANY KIND OF SENSUAL MASSAGE, then invite him over. He said he was not expecting me to live in such a beautiful place, being I came off as a crazy party girl who obv doesn't have her shit together with a debit that got declined. We talk for a bit, smoke n have some wine. He pulls me into his lap so naturally.
We go back to my room and I turn my salt lamp and meditation music on. I put on an outfit that I sent him a pic of me in earlier that week. I know how to treat a man lol. I start my massage and LOVE massaging the right people. His energy is just radiating off of him and is a pure positive energy. I LOSE IT. I haven't fucked in like 3 months. Within 15 mins of massage I start grinding on him from behind and kissing his back. My loins legit ached and I just had to have him. All the sudden he flips over and we just go fucking at it. Holy mudder of cot, the sex was sooo good. Best sex I ever had. We cum, and are both just like OMFG. We go at it again and the second time was even better. He ends up giving me a massage and it was so chill just laying around with him, talking and touching each others bodies. Yep. the bitch who wants to preserve her secret mating rituals gave it up to a complete stranger within about 30 mins of knowing him lmao.
I have been taking it day by day and keeping things casual. I am totally ad-DICK-ted tho. I can't go a week without this dudes cock. The sex keeps getting better and is dangerous, I do not want emotional attachment right now. I am admist a self improvement and discovery journey and have a few financial issues to take care of. If it was the time, Id totally consider serious dating, etc. I know he can be patient with me and give me all the time I want and need. His patience, understanding, and acceptance of me and my situation rules. I like the fact that we are both busy af right now and both aren't needy/desperate to get together at all times. It is really refreshingly different that there are no games being played.
But I am realizing that both of us staying detached can be bad if we do want to move forward progressively, because we are both a lil guarded and will be afraid to really open up. Its crazy that two complete strangers can have the sex we have, yet be afraid to talk about/pursue anything from here any time soon lol.
One of our more recent romps I discovered I am a squirter, I have never squirted this way so many times (maybe twice in my life total up to this) I also turned up with him and seduced one of his platonic girlfriends in his kitchen and initiated a 3 some for all of us. It is really cool to be able to rediscover this side of myself. I really haven't since the breakup of my very LTR came to an end a year ago.
But due to the mostly physical relationship we have had I must be realistic. I have kept expectations in check, don't stress, don't blow up his phone, etc. In my early 20s I loved having fwb's on rotation.... but lately I have looked at relationships differently, a rotation seems difficult juggle, and no pressure on him but obviously I don't want an extended FWB situationship in say a year from now.
I am gonna take it day by day not get too wrapped up in my own head or allow my emotions to dictate how I think/view him.
WendiStarr
09-27-2018, 01:54 PM
The supervisor that I like has been filling in for coworker at my workplace. I know I keep saying I'm going to quit but he made the work day more tolerable. I was flirting with him today and he was too. He was vacuuming with this vacuum backpack thing that reminded me of Ghostbusters. I told him he looked like he was a character in the movie Ghostbusters. He texted me while I was working about something funny. I texted him a ghost emoji. He smiled when we passed each other. He was being silly before he left. He said he had to leave to go to a different job. I told him ok and he walked away. I thought he had left but he came back and was standing there in the doorway, staring at me. He smiled at me and said he'd see me tomorrow and left for real that time. I don't mind workplace flirting with him. I know it's not going to lead anywhere but it made my day at vanilla job a whole lot less miserable.
Elektra Luxx
09-27-2018, 03:36 PM
I'm feeling so weepy and emotional today. I feel like I'm going to burst out crying any minute. Bf is working late again and I'm missing him. I've been very clingy lately with him. Like if he's sitting on the recliner, I'm laying next to him/on top of him with my head on his chest and that's it. He's watching TV or on he's on his phone and I'm just there. Or in bed, I have to be touching him. He's fine with it. He's used to my weirdness. In the recent past, I wanted to be by myself, I'm not sure what's going on with me.
charlie61
09-27-2018, 06:28 PM
I'm not a very good cook. Bf is a better cook than me. He doesn't use recipes. He throws things together and it tastes great. I have to follow recipes. That's just me. My specialty in veggie spaghetti with meat sauce and maybe roasted chicken. Easy stuff. I over toasted Eggo waffles once. Bf choked them down and it made me cry. So bf is working late and asked him if he wanted to me make something for us and he said "No, no, no, don't. Just relax and I'll pick up some Chinese." Which is code for "You can't cook, stay out of the kitchen before you burn down the apartment." I'm sad.
I'd pay to watch you cook poorly. :flirt: