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Vyanka
12-19-2018, 12:09 PM
I can't believe I'm admitting this: I was walking the dog and had gas. Didn't see anyone, so I let it go. Just then, I hear a womans' voice say, "Michael, excuse yourself!" From three houses away. Some poor guys' wife up the fucking street blamed it on him. It was that bad.
LOL.. Awesome
seashell
12-19-2018, 12:10 PM
I just got lip fillers for the first time! Omg! I wish I had done this forever ago...
I only did .5 ml, but it looks really natural, exactly what I wanted :)
Aurora_Sunset
12-19-2018, 02:19 PM
Scheduler at work keeps trying to cut my overtime shift I picked up for tomorrow. I ignored his last phone call so he couldn't try to talk me out of it again. Sorry - not my fault that we lost half our business during the holidays when everyone's been picking up shifts with no work for them to do....
sammy1989
12-19-2018, 08:08 PM
Speaking of jobs. Has anyone tried working for Uber Bites?
I'm thinking of trying it, just to get out of the house more, now that the weather is finally nice.
what is uber bites?
sammy1989
12-19-2018, 08:09 PM
LOL.. Awesome
well, we're all human, it happens! lol at least she didn't yell out the window for you to excuse yourself!
Glamourmilf
12-20-2018, 04:14 AM
what is uber bites?
It's actually Uber Eats.
It's a food delivery service.
I wanted to apply to be a driver, but it turns out that they won't accept my car, because it's too old.
Just as well, because people drive crazy out here.
Lots of drunks on the road, even during the day.
SnuffleUffleGrass
12-20-2018, 08:06 AM
It's actually Uber Eats.
It's a food delivery service.
I wanted to apply to be a driver, but it turns out that they won't accept my car, because it's too old.
Just as well, because people drive crazy out here.
Lots of drunks on the road, even during the day.
Have you consider dog walking/grooming as a way to make fast cash? I used to leave my dog at kennels for a week at a time when I went on the road with him. I had to do it to save my sanity. The $$$ I paid for a break from him was worth it. (He was huge.)
WendiStarr
12-20-2018, 02:50 PM
I finally saw Mr. Dilf again. He wanted to know about how work was today and got so turned on when I was telling him about the small penis humiliation guy and how I told that guy that he was too small to ever fuck me. He(Mr. Dilf) turned into a wild animal, held me down, and told me that he was cumming a 6 day load into me. Then he proceeds to tell me that he's going out to dinner with her for their anniversary in 20 minutes. I know it's selfish of me but I can't help but think that he should stop pretending to be reformed and faithful and let her move on and find someone monogamous. He and I are both kinky, fucked up individuals.
lilylilylily
12-20-2018, 08:31 PM
Have you consider dog walking/grooming as a way to make fast cash? I used to leave my dog at kennels for a week at a time when I went on the road with him. I had to do it to save my sanity. The $$$ I paid for a break from him was worth it. (He was huge.)
I'm thinking of getting a job like that but how do you get it?
AChildOfBoredom
12-20-2018, 09:28 PM
It's actually Uber Eats.
It's a food delivery service.
I wanted to apply to be a driver, but it turns out that they won't accept my car, because it's too old.
Just as well, because people drive crazy out here.
Lots of drunks on the road, even during the day.
It’s just as well. I do Uber and Lyft both, but only as a matter of convenience… I just happen to be going somewhere. I don’t take my own time to do it as a stand-alone thing. I can see it for someone who needs to do it full-time or in addition to a job which just isn’t doing it… otherwise, it’s a lot of wear and tear on your car. If I wasn’t able to work on mine myself, I don’t think I’d do it.
yaya_cash
12-21-2018, 12:30 AM
New year's resolutions?
Tie in my appearance with teeth whitening , attend classes,elimate any debt and starting gifting love, again.
SnuffleUffleGrass
12-21-2018, 08:22 AM
I'm thinking of getting a job like that but how do you get it?
Where I live people advertise by Facebook.
There must be more organized ways to do this in major cities. My boyfriend's nephew dog-walks (he's a giant 250 lbs guy so he can walk multiple dogs at once and work all day.)
Seriously thought I'd pay someone to watch my dog. People pay for childcare, pet care is the same concept.
Glamourmilf
12-21-2018, 10:26 AM
Have you consider dog walking/grooming as a way to make fast cash? I used to leave my dog at kennels for a week at a time when I went on the road with him. I had to do it to save my sanity. The $$$ I paid for a break from him was worth it. (He was huge.)
I did pet sitting full time when I first started camming. And Senior Care too, which I hated, because I despise old people, (but that's for another discussion).
It was great, and I made an awesome living from it.
I just put up flyers where I lived, because over 1500 wealthy professionals lived there, who all had pets, so it was a nobrainer.
I then worked off their referrals too. All their rich friends in the neighborhood hired me as well.
I had 2 small dogs of my own, who were very, VERY needy, and it just became too much.
Once my camming income increased, I stopped pet sitting.
I just couldn't look at any more poop, vomit, or litter boxes ever again.:eek:
The worst part, was that other pet owners NEVER put leashes on their dogs. They would always try to attack the dogs who were in my care.
So, the liability got to be too much.
I thought about pet sitting where I now live, but it's just too damn hot most of the year.( 110-120 degrees).
Jalena
12-21-2018, 11:05 AM
So I had my interview at the bridal shop yesterday, and I think it went well ...
Only, first, I lied my arse off as to why I had requested certain evenings off (it was asked on the application); and while I have no qualms about concealing dancing, this was a lie that I feel really really bad about.
I am thinking about contacting them to say I found something else, because even though it's part time, the required hours won't really mesh well with the nights I want to work at the club, especially since the club is an hour away.
Also, I was feeling so lazy today -- after 7mo of not *having* to go anywhere because I had no job, it's feeling like such a sharp pain in the arse to get up and drive the hour each way for work, or like today, I need to drive up there to get the permit and two more outfits. I don't wannnaaaaaaaaaaa lol
WendiStarr
12-21-2018, 01:37 PM
I've spent most of the day(since 5am) with Mr. Dilf. I felt an overwhelming sadness when he hugged and kissed me goodbye. I cried after he left. How pathetic I have become.
carmen_b
12-21-2018, 04:29 PM
If I really want to travel in Jan or mid-Jan to mid-Feb., I need to find a month long renter for my place.
It's such a disaster right now.
AChildOfBoredom
12-22-2018, 06:01 AM
So I had my interview at the bridal shop yesterday, and I think it went well ...
Only, first, I lied my arse off as to why I had requested certain evenings off (it was asked on the application); and while I have no qualms about concealing dancing, this was a lie that I feel really really bad about.
I am thinking about contacting them to say I found something else, because even though it's part time, the required hours won't really mesh well with the nights I want to work at the club, especially since the club is an hour away.
Also, I was feeling so lazy today -- after 7mo of not *having* to go anywhere because I had no job, it's feeling like such a sharp pain in the arse to get up and drive the hour each way for work, or like today, I need to drive up there to get the permit and two more outfits. I don't wannnaaaaaaaaaaa lol
You just need to find someone like me to live with. My first two roommates were pretty vicious (to each other... they tended to handle me more with the kid gloves, though I sometimes got caught in the crossfire, such as when he loaded her hair dryer with baby powder, not realizing I was going to shower before her.... they'd never tell me, but I'm convinced those two had to have bumped pelvises at some point). So, when one of the girls in this house has plans, and they get a case of the lazy ass like what you describe, enter our hero (that's me), stage left. It might be water pistols, it might be a string of firecrackers in a metal tub in your room while you're asleep, it might be getting your ass spanked until it's red and sore.... I will find a way to get them up and get them motivated to get on their way. It takes a certain type to live here. I am extremely self disciplined and I tend to impart that on everyone else here.
We live in a fucking madhouse here. Then again, as fucked up as we all are, how else could it possibly have panned out?
One of my friends was looking through her Tinder on Thursday while over at my house, and she happened across my husband's profile. Which, I know he's a bit of a player, and whatever... I'm okay with it, because our marriage is a complete sham... which is one of the reasons that, in spite of six years of being married, he's never touched me. But I don't really feel like I'm okay with the idea of him fucking somebody that I know.
Glamourmilf
12-22-2018, 10:24 AM
My gay husband just announced that he sold his car, and he bought a one way ticket to Italy.:'(
He's going to LA today to hang out with friends, ( I'm pissed, because he didn't ask me to join him). I could have used a vacation, especially now.
Then, he's going to London to spend Christmas, and New Year's Eve, even though he doesn't know anyone. He said he's hoping to get laid.::)
Anyway, I don't let people get close to me, because they always leave, die, or turn on me. I told him this when I met him.
But, I let him get close, because he's just so lovable and fun. Now I'm regretting it.
He's leaving Feb 1st.
I'm torn between wanting to spend as much time with him in January as possible. And wanting to push him away.
His house hasn't even sold yet!
His husband has only been dead 8 months!
I feel that he's running and hasn't stopped to deal with his grief.
I know, because I did that when my Dad died, and I regret it.50800
carmen_b
12-23-2018, 01:24 AM
^ It ( international travel ) could have been a pain point in their relationship.
He may just be claiming it for himself / doing it now instead of waiting .
Ifyouseekamy
12-23-2018, 08:52 AM
My gay husband just announced that he sold his car, and he bought a one way ticket to Italy.:'(
He's going to LA today to hang out with friends, ( I'm pissed, because he didn't ask me to join him). I could have used a vacation, especially now.
Then, he's going to London to spend Christmas, and New Year's Eve, even though he doesn't know anyone. He said he's hoping to get laid.::)
Anyway, I don't let people get close to me, because they always leave, die, or turn on me. I told him this when I met him.
But, I let him get close, because he's just so lovable and fun. Now I'm regretting it.
He's leaving Feb 1st.
I'm torn between wanting to spend as much time with him in January as possible. And wanting to push him away.
His house hasn't even sold yet!
His husband has only been dead 8 months!
I feel that he's running and hasn't stopped to deal with his grief.
I know, because I did that when my Dad died, and I regret it.50800
Sorry. I understand not letting people get close.
Glamourmilf
12-23-2018, 10:00 AM
Sorry. I understand not letting people get close.
Thank You.
So you get how painful this is.
Sidebar:
I'm letting go of 6 people that I've been "friends" with for over 30 years, as part of my New Year's resolution.
Starting now, actually.
This full moon in Cancer is the perfect time to let go of anything, or anyone who doesn't add something good to one's life.
They're my LA 'friends', made back in the day when I really didn't need any emotional support, and was pretty much a happy go lucky kind of person. It's what attracted them to me.
In a nutshell, they ALL turned their backs on me when I was homeless, and needed help.
I only let them back in, because I wanted to watch Karma do it's thing. And it did. They all have miserable lives.
I'm in an entirely different head space now, so I really have nothing in common with their needy and selfish asses anymore.
I've made friends with some amazing people where I now live.
Caring, generous, sweet.
But..... I'm still not letting anyone get too close.
JGB2009
12-23-2018, 04:39 PM
Today I am feeling broken inside. Must practice to not let people get to me.
Vyanka
12-23-2018, 05:39 PM
Today I am feeling broken inside. Must practice to not let people get to me.
I'm sorry:(
*hugs*
Jalena
12-24-2018, 10:43 PM
I finished wrapping most of my presents for people the other day, but I still have the items I had gotten for my ex (of the dream of rubies and broken pearls in the Weird Dream thread). Feeling sad over it, they were just a couple simple things but would have had big meaning for him. They are not really donate-able and we have not had any contact in months. I wish things had happened differently and we were still together because I was really looking forward to giving them to him.
lilylilylily
12-24-2018, 11:29 PM
2 family members really got to me today. I'm glad we did Christmas on Christmas eve this year and don't have to see them for a while
seashell
12-25-2018, 02:20 PM
I confess that I'm becoming a vain bitch, and I love every minute of it. I've been living out of a suitcase like a hippie for the past two years, but I am finally starting to invest more money into my appearance and my belongings. It felt really good to go shopping recently and buy a nice pair of tall boots. I want to go get my nails done, get some eyelash extensions, and maybe do some laser hair removal. :D
carmen_b
12-25-2018, 08:10 PM
^ Isn't it so nice to be settled and be able to do this stuff ? I'm at this point too. ;)
I totally enjoyed my scrappy lifestyle ( and look ! ha ) and it never affected my sex work money but it's nice to look more polished in regular life .
JGB2009
12-25-2018, 08:29 PM
In real life I am not the lying type of person, but today my friend I lied to you. At first I felt guilty, but you have lied to me more than I have fingers and toes. So whatever!!! The purpose of my lie is to see what you may say. Lets see how you may get tangled in my web.
As I thought....u did get caught in my web smh!!!!!
Elektra Luxx
12-26-2018, 12:49 AM
In real life I am not the lying type of person, but today my friend I lied to you. At first I felt guilty, but you have lied to me more than I have fingers and toes. So whatever!!! The purpose of my lie is to see what you may say. Lets see how you may get tangled in my web.
As I thought....u did get caught in my web smh!!!!!
I'm dying to know what happened. No pressure, if you feel comfortable or not, that's okay too.
WendiStarr
12-27-2018, 07:34 AM
For some reason I was gifted a lot of cookies for Christmas, plus I have leftover Christmas cookies that I made. I'm having a very hard time coping right now and I've been using them as my source of comfort. Honestly aside from two bowls of taco soup I think that my diet yesterday consisted of cookies. This isn't good but I don't know how else to cope right now because I don't drink, smoke, or use any drugs. Weed would just make me worse with cookie eating. I have too much time on my hands today to think and I don't like it.
carmen_b
12-27-2018, 10:31 AM
I contacted the old sugar daddy in Hawaii yesterday .......
carmen_b
12-28-2018, 04:40 PM
^ He wrote back right away. ;)
No girlfriend / Not Married .
Still over there.
baer45
12-28-2018, 08:08 PM
I probably did something stupid today. A kid misdialed on my phone and I ended up with $300 international calling fee. I called ATT and tried to dispute the extra $300 charge since my monthly payment was already automatically deducted from my bank account. After 45 minutes intense negotiation, the supervisor from ATT told me that he would apply his personal voucher to my account and credit me back $600 as the face value of that voucher. But I need to paypal him the difference, $300 to his personal payapl account. And I agreed. I did see $600 credit on my ATT account. and I sent him $300. I understand he might have made up the "voucher" thing and likely to pocket $300. or even worse, he takes my $300 and remove the credit. Probably shouldn't have done it off the book.
Add:
Att charged me $600 then credited me $600 back by him. So att lost $600 revenue.
I take $300 and he takes $300. My $300 is for the unexpected international call. And his $300 is for...sacrificing his own $600 employees voucher???? This sounds very sketchy.
chanzep
12-28-2018, 11:41 PM
Omg that's crazy!
Glamourmilf
12-29-2018, 09:14 AM
There's this guy who lives here that I've met at his job.
We follow each other ( on my vanilla social media).
He's butt ugly, but posts pictures of his mug, every hour of the day. He's single, living with his niece, and works a minimum wage job.
I'm wondering where he got that self confidence.:thinking:
I'm thinking it might be because he has a huge dick. Hear me out.
He's from Wisconsin. I have a regular on cam who lives in Wisconsin. Fugly af, but has the biggest dick I've ever seen on a white dude.
God does give everyone special gifts.:)
Glam is going to find out, and get back to you all.....If you're interested in knowing as much as I am.
carmen_b
12-29-2018, 10:19 AM
^ he probably does, haha
WendiStarr
12-29-2018, 12:25 PM
^ I agree. Ugly guys have to have something going for them and since it sounds like it's not good looks or money, it probably is a big dick. Whatever floats the boat, lol.
My confession is that I have a huge basket of laundry to do and I don't feel like doing it. I've been procrastinating it all day. Laundry is no fun when you have to hope that the one washer and dryer in the community basement is a.)in working condition and b.)not already occupied and you have to pay $5.00 to wash and dry clothes. Then there's the alternative option of going to the laundromat where old creepy looking men hang out and career welfare type single moms with 5-10 kids who are too busy playing on their phones or outside chain smoking to pay attention to their basketball team of devil spawn, screaming, running around, throwing other people's clothing around, and wrecking havoc in the place. I would seriously pay someone to do my laundry for me.
Jalena
12-29-2018, 08:09 PM
As people who sell for a living, we all understand (on some level anyway) that people want something based on emotion and then justify the acquisition with logic.
I had a real insight into this the other night, as I realise I am currently selling myself on something that I am quite sure is a bad idea ... but by God I still want it ... and my goodness am I finding logical reasons to go for it.
charlie61
12-29-2018, 08:11 PM
There's this guy who lives here that I've met at his job.
We follow each other ( on my vanilla social media).
He's butt ugly, but posts pictures of his mug, every hour of the day. He's single, living with his niece, and works a minimum wage job.
I'm wondering where he got that self confidence.:thinking:
I'm thinking it might be because he has a huge dick. Hear me out.
He's from Wisconsin. I have a regular on cam who lives in Wisconsin. Fugly af, but has the biggest dick I've ever seen on a white dude.
God does give everyone special gifts.:)
Glam is going to find out, and get back to you all.....If you're interested in knowing as much as I am.
https://www.etsy.com/listing/614130254/carry-yourself-with-the-confidence-of-a?ga_order=most_relevant&ga_search_type=all&ga_view_type=gallery&ga_search_query=mediocre+white+man&ref=sr_gallery-1-4&frs=1
carmen_b
12-29-2018, 09:44 PM
I feel like I'm in desperate need of a good pounding.
I think I'm just going to have to pick someone.
Glamourmilf
12-30-2018, 08:00 AM
https://www.etsy.com/listing/614130254/carry-yourself-with-the-confidence-of-a?ga_order=most_relevant&ga_search_type=all&ga_view_type=gallery&ga_search_query=mediocre+white+man&ref=sr_gallery-1-4&frs=1
Yep. That's exactly it.
My curiosity is getting the best of me. ( Plus, I haven't had sex in almost 2 years), so I'm starting to get the urge.
I'm going over to where he works on Wednesday.
miss.a.p1600
12-30-2018, 01:45 PM
I have spent a good portion of the day drinking liquor and getting tipsy and listening to music
seashell
12-31-2018, 10:29 AM
I live right next to a big town square where there is live music and fireworks for NYE. But I really don't want to go. Bleh. I think I'm going to drag myself out there because I feel obligated to have fun. I don't wanna have fun!
WendiStarr
12-31-2018, 12:00 PM
I feel like running away, just disappearing to somewhere warm and sunny for a while. I hate how low I always feel the week before my period. It doesn't help that out of the 7 different people who were trying to make plans for today, none are responding. To be fair it's still only 2pm. Maybe some people are still at work or still sleeping from working last night. My mini is still up north with my ex's parents. My phone has been silent all day. Days like these I feel like I'm a character in one of those movies where the person is dead but doesn't realize it.
carmen_b
12-31-2018, 12:07 PM
I am probably out of my mind but I offered my long term partner ( 6 great years , 6 months " meh " , and 6 months not the best ) a reconnection.
It's just an offer at this point. We had so much built that I still view him as a life partner even though things fell apart at the end.
Stuff like this is strange. It isn't like there is a class people normally take such as " how to move forward with your relationship gets stale " so people just attempt to work through it ( badly ).
I do still view him as a potential life partner and I feel like we could move past his mid life crisis.
In the letter I sent over, I told him my family would accept him again.
To be honest, I had my own " mini " crisis too. I was obsessed with moving to cheaper country in part because I hated my work ( I can do it on phone / internet so I could work less in a cheaper area ). I came out of the crisis realizing I could also transition to something I wasn't completely bored with.
carmen_b
01-01-2019, 01:49 PM
I'm quite embarrassed I reached out but I just had a hard time believing that this relationship he had going was real at all ( typical mid life crises stuff ..... reconnected with someone via a FB message she initiated in July ).
He dated her about 12 years ago ..... they only dated 10-11 months.
She broke it off back then for pretty stupid reasons.
He had the " I want to move out " convo with me Aug. 22 and moved Sept. 6th. We haven't lived together or had much contact in 3.5 months.
I did all the right things according to all the experts ( no contact and then very limited contact ).
I'm trying not to stress myself out over the details.
Probably will pick up therapy again.
I'm so sick about it all over again ( stressing myself out because I knew they were in touch and I didn't attack it in early Aug). I obsess that if I would have confronted him back them *what if* I could have saved us ? BUT .... I need to remind myself he made a CHOICE to leave me ..... he could have also dug his heels in and fought for us.
carmen_b
01-01-2019, 08:57 PM
^ Nevermind. He sucks.
My dad talked some sense into me. His words were literally " I hate to see you taking two steps forward and 20 steps back ".
He also said will accept anything I choose but that he could never trust my former partner again.
lilylilylily
01-01-2019, 10:22 PM
I wore a wig last night and didnt secure it properly and it came off while I was having wild drunken sex with the guy last night.thankfully he didnt see phased by it but I was so embarrassed. My friend told me youre supposed to cornrow your hair first and then secure it with pins...after she laughed and laughed at me lol but I'm too lazy to do that. I'm gonna have to though cuz I loved how the wig looked on me, and dont wanna risk it next time lol
Aurora_Sunset
01-02-2019, 04:06 PM
My friend who had an accidental pregnancy, then miscarriage, a year and a half ago, is now pregnant on purpose. I honestly think she's a fucking idiot. After the miscarriage, she and her fiance were stressing because they literally couldn't afford a studio apartment on his income, and had to beg his dad to put down the down-payment on a 1-bedroom apartment. They have NO fucking money. NO resources to raise a child. She had a job for a little over 2 months and then lost it, just like she's lost every job she's ever had.
When she informed me she got a positive pregnancy test (about 2 weeks after telling me they were "trying" on purpose now), it was right before the cut-off to sign up for 2019 health insurance. I asked if she was gonna make a doctor's appointment, and her response was "Maybe. I don't know. I think I need tto get some type of health coverage or something."
Fsdfs%&^&ds*%$lk!
Are you fucking kidding me? Getting health insurance wasn't step number ONE in choosing to get pregnant? Between doctor's appointments, the hospitalization to have the baby, and then GOD FORBID you so much as have the hiccups when you're pregnant, does she fucking realize how much is costs just to HAVE the kid? Let alone all the expenses that then come with a newborn? She said she "needs to figure out her blood type." I told her she doesn't fucking need to know her blood type to just GET the insurance, and made a not-so-subtle point of posting about health insurance sign-up deadlines on my Facebook for the next few days.
How much you wanna bet she still has no health insurance?
Her decisions baffle me. It's one thing to get pregnant accidentally. But I know this time was deliberate when they were not ready for it. She JUST turned 30. Not like there's not time. If the miscarriage made her realize she wants children, why not use it as motivation to get their life together to have a child, not just go get pregnant asap? Seriously? Then she keeps texting me rants about her narcissistic mother and "emotionally unpacking" all the shit that's happened to her to have a better life for her child, and giving me weird half-lectures regarding everything going on with my bf's kids/my future step-children and telling me about how "protective mothers are," and "mothers aren't supposed to do this/that".... omg shut up.... She's gonna be the know-it-all friend in a year or so who continues to defend my bf's batshit-crazy ex while lecturing me on how I could "never possibly understand a mother's mindset unless I squeeze one out my vagina." -_-
Of course, if I were tell her what a monumentally bad idea I think this is, and how she actually knows literally nothing more about having a child than she ever has before now, I would never be spoken to again.
miss.a.p1600
01-02-2019, 06:23 PM
^ if we made humans jump through the same hoops before they’re allowed to parent as we do qualifying them for houses, cars, jobs and other material things ....