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indiegirl
02-04-2019, 06:41 AM
I will be so glad when the Superbowl is over. I keep getting texts from male friends, male relatives, and clients about it. Mr. Dilf basically ignored me all week but sent me a text a few minutes ago of himself decked out in a football jersey with a go ______ team! I couldn't care less about football.

Haha I did a slight temporary return to the ho world due to financial needs but guys were asking for superbowl sunday "specials" all I could think was.....HUH!?! I dunno, I'll get those emails for holidays not for a football game. Lol I replied in person "I didn't know football was in season right now still until yesterday."

queenelayliah
02-04-2019, 04:40 PM
That's a pretty liberal field. I know everyone's experience isn't the same, but I managed to pass a background check and get a fingerprint clearance card, to work as a teacher, after being a stripper and camgirl. You'll want to delete all traces of your cam career, of course.


And how does one delete all traces?

I mean i know the delete profiles, pics and videos and close accounts. But is there anything i should try doing?

queenelayliah
02-04-2019, 04:59 PM
Actually,Queenelayliah, there's a few things that you could do that will lessen your educational debt. 1. Have you tried looking to getting scholarships in your field? There's over 48 scholarships in the psychologist field such as the NATIONAL INSTITUTE OF HEALTH UNDERGRADUATE SCHOLARSHIP PROGRAM. How great were your gr

ades in your Bachelor's program? If you did 3.3 and higher, than you have an better chance of getting scholarships. Make sure your have essays, cover letters, and transcripts in order. 2. Look into low cost master degree's programs in Counseling and have them send you some applications. 3. Getting denied licenses varies from state to state. I believe this is an case by case issue since you are not working with children. I believe that you will be okay since you will be working with adult patients. 4. If you want this type of vanilla career, I would scrubbed most of my camming career if I was you. Scrub all social media accounts and present an professional image. I hope this helps. :)


Thank you. Im definitely going to look into scholarships. Im just concerned because I was a transfer student and my gpa was basically reset to zero starting my junior year at the university I graduated from. So that transcript shows a 2.45 gpa but if you combine all 4 years I have 3.0+ gpa. And they always ask for the transcript from the graduating college.

Thats why i was denied for a teach for America position originally.

queenelayliah
02-04-2019, 05:31 PM
So today after coming from the grocery store. I was driving and coming out of the gas station. I pulled in front of them considering they was far behind and not like i cut in front of thrm. Anyway instead of staying behind me they pull up to the side of me and actively being aggressive then speed ahead. Then im confused not knowing where they going turn into the exit lane to leave the parking lot but they start to turn as well. Then this large white guy gets out the car and so does the woman with him and they both yelling from their car at me saying whats your problem and etc. And she actually came to my window talking about roll down your window. All i could think was “Naw bitch im not going to prision for your white ass”. So i backed up and went to another exit.


I Was super pissed but truthfullyi was also scared. What if they broke my window or tried to fight me. Lol despite my size i dont know how to fight never been in a fight in my entire life, and i dont have a weapon or a permit to carry a weapon. I want to start keeping a knife in my car but i think its illegal to keep a knife in the car. I want to get a gun and learn how to shoot.

But im scared what if i had pulled my gun on them and they shot me? Or i shoot them then i go to prision. But at the same time im not trying to get beat. Sigh. Or what if i get pulled over they see my gun and shoot me?! Sigh. Why are people so aggressive!! It wasnt even a bad neighborhood.

SnuffleUffleGrass
02-04-2019, 07:07 PM
So today after coming from the grocery store. I was driving and coming out of the gas station. I pulled in front of them considering they was far behind and not like i cut in front of thrm. Anyway instead of staying behind me they pull up to the side of me and actively being aggressive then speed ahead. Then im confused not knowing where they going turn into the exit lane to leave the parking lot but they start to turn as well. Then this large white guy gets out the car and so does the woman with him and they both yelling from their car at me saying whats your problem and etc. And she actually came to my window talking about roll down your window. All i could think was “Naw bitch im not going to prision for your white ass”. So i backed up and went to another exit.


I Was super pissed but truthfullyi was also scared. What if they broke my window or tried to fight me. Lol despite my size i dont know how to fight never been in a fight in my entire life, and i dont have a weapon or a permit to carry a weapon. I want to start keeping a knife in my car but i think its illegal to keep a knife in the car. I want to get a gun and learn how to shoot.

But im scared what if i had pulled my gun on them and they shot me? Or i shoot them then i go to prision. But at the same time im not trying to get beat. Sigh. Or what if i get pulled over they see my gun and shoot me?! Sigh. Why are people so aggressive!! It wasnt even a bad neighborhood.

Glad you didn't get into a confrontation. Could have been an attempted carjacking or robbery?

queenelayliah
02-04-2019, 09:23 PM
Glad you didn't get into a confrontation. Could have been an attempted carjacking or robbery?


Maybe. But im still a little rattled and still thinking about it. Its making me not want to go out for a while. Im glad i dont have anything to do for the next few weeks and i can stay in the house doing that time. :)

Jalena
02-05-2019, 01:15 PM
Maybe. But im still a little rattled and still thinking about it. Its making me not want to go out for a while. Im glad i dont have anything to do for the next few weeks and i can stay in the house doing that time. :)


Start looking into CCW classes in your area, and read up on other weapons laws in your state. Knife laws, for example, vary greatly depending on the state and the county.

While for the most part, training is not required in order to buy a gun simply for home defence, it is required to get your concealed-carry permit. If there is a gun range in your area, you can try out different weapons until you find one you like, and train to your heart's content. My local range also carries a good selection of reading material, including copies of the Florida firearms and CCW statutes so people can start getting acquainted with them even if they aren't planning to do the CCW course right away.

AChildOfBoredom
02-05-2019, 02:57 PM
Glad that didn’t get as bad as it could’ve. What the fuck is wrong with people?

JGB2009
02-07-2019, 10:11 AM
Its been 2 weeks since I have had sex....I feel as if I'm gonna die!!!!

Glamourmilf
02-08-2019, 03:41 AM
Its been 2 weeks since I have had sex....I feel as if I'm gonna die!!!!
I know how you feel. In April, it will be 2 years for me.:'(

cyberstripper
02-08-2019, 06:07 AM
I went on a date for the first time since october other than seeing a dude I have been in a casual sex fueled fling with since June. Our first date was really nice, he was the typical nice guy and I sexually dismissed him due to this, but as I took off my mask so did he. I appreciated the nice guy tendencies but I am turned on by a man who has an edge. This guy has the best of both worlds. Date two was a house date, at his place (don't judge pls lol) and then we made plans to go out later in the evening. I pull up to his place and I am taken back, I knew this guy was successful but I didn't know how successful. His home was beautiful. I was treated like a princess, he made me a meal fit for a queen and entertained me like royalty. We connected with each other in many ways and I stayed in the moment. It was so carefree and natural, things just flowed. I have dealt with guys playing nice, and am realistic "nothing is nicer than a man trying to get laid for the first time" but this was absolutely genuine. I dropped my panties within a few hours, and I am glad I did. I initiated it. This dude has a BFD (big fucking dick) on him and our sexual chemistry was amazing. I really enjoyed this, but I notice as I gain more self awareness that I am not getting in my head about it as I usually would. I will definitely see him again but keep my expectations in check and look at it as a way to explore myself and enhance my self development journey. Dating was iffy for me right now because I am focusing on myself and my journey a lot, but I am glad I did this. It will be a true test to put what I have learned thus far into practice.

The guy I have been dating since June is great to me, but he and I both have been cautious because we fear getting hurt. I do not want this anymore, I want to let go of my fears and get out of my comfort zone. Whether a relationship develops is not on my agenda, what is is learning to live in the moment and stop "future forecasting" Living in the moment will help me let go of the fears, expectations and negative emotions associated with living in the past and in the imaginary future. I took a few steps back with him, but we have reconnected and he invited me to the mountains this weekend.

I have simply been focusing on myself and it is so nice not to cling to the belief that a relationship is necessary to be fulfilled. The only relationship I need to worry about and work on is the one I have with myself. Due to this, men just seem to love fulfilling their masculine role in my life and I am loving it too.

I am totally down for what another poster mentioned, a series of long term lovers. I do crave a deeper connection with men, but I do not need to have a relationship for this to be possible. It is really nice to have several men in your life, who all step up and fulfill certain desires and needs. But tell me this, am I a complete slut if I fuck one of them during the day and one at night? LOL.

jadey23
02-08-2019, 01:58 PM
I am so sick of my friends and their kids and having to buy so many gifts and baby showers and birthdays and all the effort and energy of making time to spend with them or else be guilted into being a bad aunt/friend. I don’t really care for babies. You hand me a baby and I’ll pass it off within 2 min.

carmen_b
02-08-2019, 02:56 PM
^ you can be “ busy “.

indiegirl
02-08-2019, 10:11 PM
I'm legit all supposed to be working but I ordered Chipotle doordash.com and am watching Harry Potter1 ....AGAIN. I am so sorry to the man I peaced out on with my shit excuse. I need a moment to me and I look like a bitch for my excuse :(.

carmen_b
02-08-2019, 11:13 PM
^ Food and Lounging heals the soul. Enjoy.

whirlerz
02-10-2019, 12:55 PM
I just came from Arby's.. treat size Jamocha shake, sm. curly fries, turkey slider..

Where I live, it's a long narrow parking lot.. someone's guest came & parked almost directly behind me, it was snowing my back window was not clear & I accidentally tapped their car. :-[
Everything's ok, as far as I can tell but eeesh.!

WendiStarr
02-10-2019, 01:41 PM
I keep putting off homework because the chapter is not interesting to me right now. I'd rather take a nap.

seashell
02-10-2019, 01:54 PM
I have basically no social life in my new city, but I've been diving deep into my old hobbies. Creative writing, music, tarot reading, art... I used to be able to "see" the art that I wanted to draw in my mind, and "hear" the music I wanted to make in my head. I'm starting to feel that again. Weird and hard to articulate, but it's nice when the world around you is calm enough to let you focus on what you really love.

Still, should probably get some human contact. XD

carmen_b
02-10-2019, 07:15 PM
I think I'm finally going to get some sex. ;)

Seems to be on for Tuesday . I can tell in the tone of conversations lately. Hopefully I'm not out of my mind but I feel very drawn to this person.
He has been on the road for 10 days now and gets here tomorrow but will need to recover and everything. I did GREAT for about 10 days, ha! Today I took this impatient turn. I've been agitated all day.

I think I'm just really excited for a talking / snuggle marathon ( assuming we will get this ) and possibly some lovin.
He seems 100% down for it. I normally wouldn't consider sexy stuff this fast but I have some key reasons and he passed my extensive online screening too.

WendiStarr
02-11-2019, 07:19 AM
Mr. Dilf and I traded body rubs and had sex. When he was getting ready to leave I was so tempted to ask him if he'd like to just stay forever. Seriously.

charlie61
02-11-2019, 12:26 PM
Every time my skin starts to look ridiculously good, i have this habit of introducing a new skincare product or supplement to my routine "to get to the next level" of beautiful skin, and it always ends up breaking me out. I need to chill out on that pattern. If my skin looks bomb, then i should obviously just keep doing whatever I'm already doing.

lynn2009
02-11-2019, 04:47 PM
I don't know what it is, but I feel more extra depressed than ever lately. Maybe it is partly the weather, cause now that I have a balcony I loved sitting outside and relaxing and reading weekend mornings over the summer and I haven't been able to look forward to that on weekends in a long time now. So far in 2019 on weekends I've been staying in bed until noon or later. But life really feels so pointless and I hate to say that cause I sound like an emo teen, but I'm 30 now and it's obvious nothing is ever going to significantly change for me. Like I can't even get a decent guy to go in a coffee date with me, I'm not important at work, even my parents barely care about talking to me. And I know everyone's like just give it time, yeah, no, fuck off & thanks.

indiegirl
02-12-2019, 03:18 PM
This sounds fucking nuts but I SOOO want to waste my day working at a strip club dancing to the song Nsync- makes me ill. I memorized every word of that song as a kid lol and I'm feeling nostalgic. On a side note a man told me to go "fuck myself from the bottom of his heart" when I had to last minute cancel an appointment. My sister just birthed her 1st kid and I had to drive an hour to feed dogs at the home last minute because they left the little dog outside in the cold due to the chaos....SO ANNOYING because I hate the 1 dog especially because they babied it to the point it has little dog syndrome and barks and has bit everyone but me.

carmen_b
02-12-2019, 07:41 PM
Whatever, I'm jerking off. I was going to wait for Ginger Boy but it's 7:38 p.m. with no confirmation he's coming over .... my invite was 8:45 p.m. " Edibles, Movie, Cuddles ".

I'm honestly kind of mad at him currently. I have been waiting a long time and that is sweet offer.
I guess I just don't understand what the damn hold up is.
I have cleaned my house so well ( took 2-3 days ) and shaved my entire body. Bleh.

JGB2009
02-13-2019, 04:54 AM
Last night I told you numerous times I loved you.....I just didn't say it out loud.

Elektra Luxx
02-13-2019, 05:58 AM
Last night I told you numerous times I loved you.....I just didn't say it out loud.

I absolutely love your post!!!! It's just such a beautiful sentiment. May I use it as my signature? I will give you all the credit of course.

whirlerz
02-13-2019, 09:02 AM
I have 2 brooms outside to sweep the snow, one came up missing & I automatically assumed it was my neighbor that took it.
However, later when I swept my little porch, I saw it laying on there.

On another note: the last comment before mine, in cust convo, how to treat a dancer..
Really. Wow, just wow. I think I got a little sick reading that:O

JGB2009
02-13-2019, 03:17 PM
I absolutely love your post!!!! It's just such a beautiful sentiment. May I use it as my signature? I will give you all the credit of course.

Yes u may :)

DonaDiabla
02-13-2019, 04:17 PM
I am pretty happy to spend Valentine's Day with my mother and then work afterwards. You see, we celebrate Valentine's Day as more of family style holiday where you take your parents to dinner and stuff like that. Since there's no real need for the romantic parts of Valentine's Day, we just turn into something like mother's day or father's day :) Plus, I can't wait to work that day because many customers always come for me that day :) YAY Valentine's Day !

lynn2009
02-13-2019, 07:23 PM
The f'ed up state of the government entertains me and I was kind of looking forward to another government shutdown.

Glamourmilf
02-13-2019, 07:45 PM
I am pretty happy to spend Valentine's Day with my mother and then work afterwards. You see, we celebrate Valentine's Day as more of family style holiday where you take your parents to dinner and stuff like that. Since there's no real need for the romantic parts of Valentine's Day, we just turn into something like mother's day or father's day :) Plus, I can't wait to work that day because many customers always come for me that day :) YAY Valentine's Day !
I absolutely LOVE this!:great::10::heartbeat
My parents and I did this too when I was growing up.
Now that they're both gone, and men are a waste of time, I really miss it.:brokenhea

whirlerz
02-13-2019, 07:48 PM
The f'ed up state of the government entertains me and I was kind of looking forward to another government shutdown.

https://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2019/01/08/us/politics/government-shutdown-calendar.html

What? people aren't getting paid, & risk losing everything.
National parks are trashed, literally.

SnuffleUffleGrass
02-13-2019, 08:53 PM
I look haggard so I'm having cookies and milk before bed.

whirlerz
02-13-2019, 08:56 PM
That sound great!

Trader Joe's has these oatmeal w/cranberry cookies that I love, wish I had some now

SnuffleUffleGrass
02-14-2019, 09:10 AM
Trader Joe's has these oatmeal w/cranberry cookies that I love, wish I had some now


Yes I used oatmeal in this recipe (I grind the oats down to a fine powder and only use one fourth cup of flour to help bind the cookies) it's an easy way to get oats into the diet.



Confession today- being lazy. Bad bad me.

indiegirl
02-14-2019, 11:31 AM
I'm totally loving the rain we've been having in Los Angeles/OC!!


I've also been isolating myself and feeling super lonely lately. BOO.

miss.a.p1600
02-14-2019, 01:04 PM
Part of me felt guilty for leaving some of my favorite coworkers abruptly knowing they’d be picking up my workload. I apologized to one of them (after tell her why I left) and offered to help her outside of work.

She said to know that I was doing well after quitting the workplace would be how I could help her.

I had to hold back from crying

I’ve never had someone so understanding and caring and sad I won’t be working with her anymore

carmen_b
02-14-2019, 04:26 PM
My mom gave me a $500 loan a few weeks ago ( my day job was a little lean ) and I almost grabbed it in 20's from the stripper cash drawer. I had to stop myself .... like ...... great .... hand someone crumpled $20's and explain ........ ;/

indiegirl
02-14-2019, 05:13 PM
My mom gave me a $500 loan a few weeks ago ( my day job was a little lean ) and I almost grabbed it in 20's from the stripper cash drawer. I had to stop myself .... like ...... great .... hand someone crumpled $20's and explain ........ ;/

Baha I always would see girls unfolding their money at work in a cute wallet. I would work around with a fast food bag and wait to unfold them until it was time to pay the bills. I'm like "Dammit it took me four hours to unfold ones for the week and it HAD to go this way lol."

miss.a.p1600
02-14-2019, 06:03 PM
Im glad Starbucks hasn't banned logging on to stripper web site.

Gotta hide this avatar though.....or get a privacy screen for nosey looky loos

carmen_b
02-14-2019, 08:32 PM
^ Yup. Perusing this in coffee shops is SO sneaky.

I actually had this day the other day where I realized that I am not normal and probably just a perv ! I wanted to read some sex worker stuff online and this site of course while getting my hair colored and there was NOTHING that I felt comfy having on a screen as the stylist was above with potential to look over my shoulder !

indiegirl
02-14-2019, 09:58 PM
^ Yup. Perusing this in coffee shops is SO sneaky.

I actually had this day the other day where I realized that I am not normal and probably just a perv ! I wanted to read some sex worker stuff online and this site of course while getting my hair colored and there was NOTHING that I felt comfy having on a screen as the stylist was above with potential to look over my shoulder !

LOL use a proxy :). Or ip change :).

indiegirl
02-15-2019, 05:32 PM
Im glad Starbucks hasn't banned logging on to stripper web site.

Gotta hide this avatar though.....or get a privacy screen for nosey looky loos


Back in the TER days I would buy a laptop from a walmart MACADRESS and ip check TOO on that website BUY 6 at once for my "Company" and go to multiple starbucks, etc. (couldnt use the same or you have to return to explain yourself) for business damage write numerous reviews that were great for other women as well to look legit ....and return laptops with receipt "slow computer concerns on all as my return excuse of return" and make thousands more off my reviews and HAVE guys quote crap I wrote positive MYSELF about me during appointments I copied from others reviews ....just on the random slow days lol but when my drinking was up is when I went full in because you know addicts!! Can't waste a second to protect their money LOL. And bottles are discounts to buy but I hardcore was addicted to money at the time.

Huge Majority of reviews were legit though then.

JGB2009
02-16-2019, 02:24 PM
Cant stand people who act shady and think I am stupid!!!!

indiegirl
02-16-2019, 04:32 PM
I dunno about ya'll but I have been to 1-5 star purchase bookings for hotels....and who cares about that after the candlewood hotel branch. It is the SHIT. I'm all here....there's a fucking dishwasher, plates, fridge, work desk..... I dunno if they allow pets but I would so move in here to Ho out since I have roomies now and police arrival is not an option again. ALSO...I ate too much top ramen yesterday....*sigh* and numerous chip bags and listened to Queen and napped didn't work at all even though I pissed people off not working and sending them to my location. Felt like a POS doing that to people...I was having "a moment" upset over my brother just totally ignoring me. Like we used to be super close but dancing and everything ruined it. Therapy day #1 is next week thank jesus...TMI...Customers ask me if I workout because of my body......it's a miracle I'm not obese from my lifestyle choices when I go on booze...but I like to continue the money train so I will list my amazing past attributes LAWLLLLLL. My body is naturally slim soooooo I have that sad shit white girl ass. lol..
But if they knew my current truth on everything....Holy shitballs. LOL. TMI.

Big TMI...
I could list stories about using Starbucks wifi for my ho reviews LOL. It was freezing cold at night sometimes and my car was stored in Cali so I had to walk everywhere and I'm a cheap bitch to keep as much money as possible. I dunno. One time in DC people kept using the bathroom at a Starbucks or I would be outside a place and I would go to LENGTHS to ensure my 800 an hour was secured on slow days without having ppl notice. It sounds so BAD loll. Only like 1 fed ex office would let me use the site and LIBRARY cards would sometimes give me the thumbs up access. Not all of them do. I used to be pissed getting a card and having some place totally not allow me in. Proxy and that stuff can only do so much.

indiegirl
02-16-2019, 05:57 PM
If a man ain’t for you...he’s against you (team jackson). I can’t belive I fell in love with a fuckboy. I’m doing some major crying last night. I played breakdown by Mariah Carey and just broke down. Feels good though. Changed my number and blocked him social media. He’s gonna regret letting a real one go.

You'll find the one for you eventually and look back on him and laugh =). Ben and Jerry's ice cream until then :). lol

WendiStarr
02-16-2019, 06:06 PM
I miss him.

indiegirl
02-16-2019, 06:35 PM
I'm bittter. GRRRR. Cheap type Customers are always like "I'm ready now or never? or just left the bar ready now or not at all?" *GRRRR I am not EMS. I may have been napping or god knows what a normal human does.... don't treat me like a HO paramedic. OH and on V-day some man made me look like shit because I purely did not respond fast enough to him. Everyone no longer wants me because he got pissed and made me look bad. I dunno, I'd prefer to not be in jail AGAIN so I'm trying to see the right people and 0 credentials from him and he still has no credentials/references from anyone. Nobody wants to be booking me now because of this twerp. Upsetting.

carmen_b
02-17-2019, 12:22 PM
Damn ...... I'm a lucky girl.
Two fantastic " love to serve " oriented lovers . Omg. I think my finely tuned sex worker men reading skills helped me find them. :)

Glamourmilf
02-17-2019, 12:49 PM
Damn ...... I'm a lucky girl.
Two fantastic " love to serve " oriented lovers . Omg. I think my finely tuned sex worker reading men skills helped me find them. :)

I must need more coffee to wake up. Because I thought you said ' Oriental' lovers. Lol!:rotfl:
You go girl! Get it!:party2: