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WendiStarr
02-17-2019, 02:48 PM
Disappointed that this stupid winter weather has delayed him from coming back. I'm feeling like I spent $ and put my body through hell for what? The window is small.
carmen_b
02-17-2019, 04:37 PM
Haha! Did you picture it being women ? Lol.
Naw, not into the asian guys usually other than those rare tall freaks or the ones who are just stacked from gym time.
Giant White dude parade here all the way.
Thanks. ;)
This is a much improved situation over my " no one has touched my pussy in months and I'm so fucking miserable tone of my posts 2-4 months ago haha.
I must need more coffee to wake up. Because I thought you said ' Oriental' lovers. Lol!:rotfl:
You go girl! Get it!:party2:
carmen_b
02-17-2019, 04:40 PM
Totally poached a massage customer just now off Tinder.
I don't want to get kicked off tinder but needed $ during the day before the club opens so I wasn't aggressive about it ... just changed my ( usual ) day job to " massage therapist " and liked about 50 dudes within 5 miles ). Haha. Worked like a charm ....... 8 minutes later dude is on way over . It did show my real first name which I don't usually give out but whatever. He was really sweet and massaged me for like 20 minutes. I think he got really turned on though. He quickly " disappeared " into the restroom lol.
But totally harmless and sweet. I'm so curious about other ladies secret luring tactics ( maybe this is a whole other thread idea ).
I'm debating him telling him about dancing ( may not with the whole first name thing on there ..... I'll have to see if I can hide it if I try this alternative hustle again ).
So $200 down from massage guys and then it'll let me relax a little at the club and not panic. I almost hoping to just do another massage before I go up. The other guy was a little gross honestly ( he smells good and everything but he's needy ).
I am thinking a lot of alternative hustles for rural areas ( things like leaving a massage card in the truckers driver side window or even getting a CB radio ). Lol.
I'm a creative person. I hate staying up late so this " mini " hustle lets me sometimes only need to pop into the club 5-6 hours and leave earlier than normal .
indiegirl
02-17-2019, 04:50 PM
Totally poached a massage customer just now off Tinder.
I don't want to get kicked off tinder but needed $ during the day before the club opens so I wasn't aggressive about it ... just changed my ( usual ) day job to " massage therapist " and liked about 50 dudes within 5 miles ). Haha. Worked like a charm ....... 8 minutes later dude is on way over . It did show my real first name which I don't usually give out but whatever. He was really sweet and massaged me for like 20 minutes. I think he got really turned on though. He quickly " disappeared " into the restroom lol.
But totally harmless and sweet.
I'm debating him about telling him about dancing ( may not with the whole first name thing on there ..... I'll have to see if I can hide it if I try this alternative hustle again ).
So $200 down from massage guys and then it'll let me relax a little at the club and not panic. I almost hoping to just do another massage before I go up. The other guy was a little gross honestly ( he smells good and everything but he's needy ).
I am thinking a lot of alternative hustles for rural areas ( things like leaving a massage card in the truckers driver side window or even getting a CB radio ). Lol.
I'm a creative person. I hate staying up late so this " mini " hustle lets me sometimes only need to pop into the club 5-6 hours and leave earlier than normal .
Hahaha I love that you used the word 'Poached' too funny!
carmen_b
02-17-2019, 04:51 PM
^ That's how I feel. As I was doing it I was thinking " yeah, this is totally sketch " but it worked so quickly that now I'm at the hotel just hoping for another one v.s. small talk with club dudes. I'm in a mood where the club seems fine ( fun even ) but it's so early that I don't have patience for the long winded hustle. I plan to go later.
indiegirl
02-18-2019, 07:52 AM
Confession: I used to hide in a corner I had to climb up to & curl my body in fetal position at a Deja Vu ALL the time to avoid going on stage and they would always send someone to find me. After a few months, they eventually did find me and I was told I would be fined 150 bucks for every time I pulled it again LOLLLLL.
I also almost peed myself laughing so hard looking at memes this morning.
JGB2009
02-18-2019, 09:18 AM
Confession: I used to hide in a corner I had to climb up to & curl my body in fetal position at a Deja Vu ALL the time to avoid going on stage and they would always send someone to find me. After a few months, they eventually did find me and I was told I would be fined 150 bucks for every time I pulled it again LOLLLLL.
I also almost peed myself laughing so hard looking at memes this morning.
That was funny.....
Glamourmilf
02-18-2019, 10:40 AM
Haha! Did you picture it being women ? Lol.
Naw, not into the asian guys usually other than those rare tall freaks or the ones who are just stacked from gym time.
Giant White dude parade here all the way.
Thanks. ;)
This is a much improved situation over my " no one has touched my pussy in months and I'm so fucking miserable tone of my posts 2-4 months ago haha.
No, I didn't picture a woman. {Shudders at the thought}.
I'm with ya on that one.
I'm not attracted to Asian ( Oriental) guys either.
I find their demeanor to be cold and distant.
One of my (Jewish) gay husband's is dating his first Asian guy.
All I keep hearing about is the fact that he isn't affectionate, and is very closed lipped, and secretive.
Screw that.
Give me a hot brotha or juicy Hispanic any day, and I'm good.
indiegirl
02-18-2019, 02:06 PM
BAHAHA one last confession for the day, a DJ used to tell me "oh we see everything that goes on in the dressing room" Girls spreading their cheeks after baby wiping their ass and it's gross." I later grew to hate his snarky comments, telling him NO to his sexual advances in his car or wherever (I went bold enough eventually to stop him saying to him he was not my type & too short), and became enemies & he'd retaliate.....so I would purposely do that very asswipe thing without any necessity or something weird as shit knowing he was watching. LOL.
I'm the club headache lol. Also I adore my Confessions thread on here so much =).
And I want to go back to a new urban club so bad to try my chances with my skinny pancake ass just to spice the club scene up.
JessaJade
02-18-2019, 02:47 PM
and i want to go back to a new urban club so bad to try my chances with my skinny pancake ass just to spice the club scene up.
LOL!!!
jadey23
02-18-2019, 03:02 PM
Ugh I just reviewed my student loan repayments and it’s pretty overwhelming. Why I never thought to plan this through earlier and ignored my accruing interest in school out of my own stupid fear is crazy. The only saving grace I have is that I don’t want or plan to have children so at least I don’t have that racking my brain. Fuck this country.
indiegirl
02-18-2019, 03:03 PM
LOL!!!
Shoulda seen the look on Sams Hofbrau's face in LA when I showed up even valet were confused/hesitant and everyone to hire me LOL. I got 2 hours and an out ya go. I'm rail thin at the upscale clubs...typically belong at the 4play type but fuck who cares I'm an open minded bitch. Celebrate my lack of ass and effort world lol.
jadey23
02-18-2019, 03:05 PM
Shoulda seen the look on Sams Hofbrau's face in LA when I showed up even valet were confused. I typically belong at the 4play type BAHAHA but fuck who cares I'm an open minded bitch. Celebrate my lack of ass and effort world lol.
SAME. I’m 5’1” 110 lbs and I only got hired at Sams cause my friend was the GM at the time. That club drained me quick, but there was money to be made in the day shift! I’m curious as to how they’re going to be handling the new Cali laws
indiegirl
02-18-2019, 03:13 PM
SAME. I’m 5’1” 110 lbs and I only got hired at Sams cause my friend was the GM at the time. That club drained me quick, but there was money to be made in the day shift! I’m curious as to how they’re going to be handling the new Cali laws
A female manager in charge right? I dunno another said u need connections who previously worked there at an upscale club with a big booty.. I was only getting dance request waits after drinking/ paid convo from white guys obviously. I dunno it was the most confusing club I worked at.
indiegirl
02-18-2019, 03:16 PM
A female manager in charge right? I dunno another said u need connections who previously worked there at an upscale club with a big booty.. I was only getting dance request waits after drinking/ paid convo from white guys obviously. I dunno it was the most confusing club I worked at.
Dude it all seemed fine and dandy there. Stage money and no reporting right? I dunno maybe I was auditioning and didn't even know it. Asian man and Hispanic Manager were there. Everyone was hesitant from the get go. I'm not ugly butttt body type is no bueno for a club like that. But WHO cares!!! Let me enjoy myself :P. They were mad I wasn't following the weird rules there repeatedly. Like so strict. and working everywhere else....u get so used to what is norm and forget. And on day 1. Damnnnn weird ass club. I came from one where I was waltzing around naked illegally. sooooo. lol.
jadey23
02-18-2019, 03:25 PM
^^The rules are weird but trust there’s plenty of girls around hustling by themselves just like you. They def have their star team favorites who make the most, but as long as you keep your head down there’s a lot of money to be made in the margins. Don’t speak unless spoken to, don’t stay on a hot table that’s already spoken for unless there’s a customer who clearly wants you there, and get on stage as quickly as you can cause the spots get filled up in seconds. The girls are edgy, they’re very close with management and if they don’t like you it could number your days.
carmen_b
02-18-2019, 04:17 PM
Yes, Indeed. If I am wondering if the guy likes me, I'm already turned off.
Screw that.
Give me a hot brotha or juicy Hispanic any day, and I'm good.
Glamourmilf
02-18-2019, 04:46 PM
Yes, Indeed. If I am wondering if the guy likes me, I'm already turned off.
Exactly.
indiegirl
02-19-2019, 08:56 AM
Some customer is mad at me and said for the appointment it needed to include a golden shower on my face and a bunch of kinky shit to seal the deal of him returning due to being 30 minutes late. I was dancing to music and lost track of time bcuz I'm a weirdo. Politely let me gag over the thought of peeing on someone's face lol. Like......why such a fetish would appeal to anyone YUCKY and I have a toilet at my hotel....and one of us would be using it..either him to pee or me to puke after being physically PEED on LOL. That is a no go for me.
I love the confessions thread. It is my therapy lollll.
WendiStarr
02-19-2019, 09:12 AM
^ Yuck, I despise toilet fetish custies. I once had one request a "brown shower". Gag! I don't even want to know how people develop disgusting fetishes for human waste products such as pee or worse.
My confession is that I have a yeast infection and I'm still working. I figure since they're wearing a condom, it doesn't matter. I'm not going to allow anyone to dine at the Y anyways. I'm on oral meds for it and the itchiness and irritation is already gone.
miss.a.p1600
02-19-2019, 09:21 AM
The male coworker I felt like led me on then said he wanted to be friends .... le sigh
I don’t keep male friends only male associates or husbands/bf/fiancé
I found myself agreeing to his terms as friends only just so I could keep in contact because I enjoyed his conversations and his sense of humor, etc and I don’t know if he only sees me as a friend or wanted to be friends because of timing?
Idk
Now I see why dudes stay friends with women hoping it will be more .... one day
I probably should just let go........why is it so hard for me to let this go????
I am back dating and trying to make sure I have some avenues to keep my mind off this
indiegirl
02-19-2019, 09:46 AM
^ Yuck, I despise toilet fetish custies. I once had one request a "brown shower". Gag! I don't even want to know how people develop disgusting fetishes for human waste products such as pee or worse.
My confession is that I have a yeast infection and I'm still working. I figure since they're wearing a condom, it doesn't matter. I'm not going to allow anyone to dine at the Y anyways. I'm on oral meds for it and the itchiness and irritation is already gone.
haha been there! Happened on a tour and I had 16k money lined up those days of custies and I was on both booze and antibiotics for a yeast infection...but I thought about all I invested in getting to my hotel and thought "WE will be fine condoms" lol.
indiegirl
02-19-2019, 10:18 AM
Remember the time I had a wacko customer. GAWDDDD. Call me 25 times and when I finally check my phone he said he is at the airport and needs to see me flying abroad to come to me in cali. Man had money but I could have killed him in his sleep seeing him. LOL. He was a loud snorer too. I started upping my price to deal with him saying I had others booking me at the same price but he had so much money to waste I realized the money wasn't a problem. I would make him wait hourrrrssss to see him and he would wait lol. It's not funny but DAMN I have never seen that level of crazy before. The last final straw was when he had hotel staff OPEN my hotel door while I was in lingerie saying "he wanted to do a safety check on you and he is your co-worker" I lost it. Or the time he booked a room RIGHT next to mine on purpose "I hear you're having too much fun over there" while I was laughing hysterically at texts between me and my crush customer.
carmen_b
02-19-2019, 03:14 PM
How much does he have ?
Haha
I’ll totally piss on his face. Lol. I always have to go.
Some customer is mad at me and said for the appointment it needed to include a golden shower on my face and a bunch of kinky shit to seal the deal of him returning due to being 30 minutes late. I was dancing to music and lost track of time bcuz I'm a weirdo. Politely let me gag over the thought of peeing on someone's face lol. Like......why such a fetish would appeal to anyone YUCKY and I have a toilet at my hotel....and one of us would be using it..either him to pee or me to puke after being physically PEED on LOL. That is a no go for me.
I love the confessions thread. It is my therapy lollll.
indiegirl
02-19-2019, 03:22 PM
How much does he have ?
Haha
I’ll totally piss on his face. Lol. I always have to go.
HAHAHA too funny!
no he wanted to pee on my face. I never responded because yuckkkk. Either me peeing or him I just think of the whole situation as nasty =P. I remember a time a customer asked me to choke him in a club like that was his fetish or whatever and I was having a bad day "too hard?" lolllllll
carmen_b
02-19-2019, 10:31 PM
^ Oh , noooooooo
indiegirl
02-20-2019, 06:42 PM
Welll I unloaded my situation on my brand new therapist today. 1st one that was non-judgmental out of all of the females I tried and knew it wouldn't work out because they were so judgey and made me feel bad about myself. He's a gay male and he was in for a shock with what I had to share lol. I could've kept talking but an hour was already up.
Thank god for Cal-Optima!!! lol
It also started raining here in my area again and I am excited =).
Jalena
02-20-2019, 11:34 PM
Editing/reposting in the proper spot ...
Where is the line between healthy 'Ya done fucked up too many times, this crap is and has always been unacceptable and I will no longer tolerate it no matter how uncomfortable that makes you' boundaries, and being a completely heartless, un-empathetic, relapse-button-pushing, toxic f'ing bitch?
I really worry that in my frustration and anger at my ex, I crossed the line into being emotionally abusive, after being lied to too many times, stolen from, cheated on, and lied to some more. A few times I let my anger get the better of me and said some really hurtful things that were probably justified, but justified doesn't always mean right. I feel horrible about this because while he hurt me immensely, that doesn't give me the right to hurt him in return, and once he spent the too many chances I gave him to straighten up and treat me better I just unloaded. I am so over the bullshit and the justifications and being the one to pay for his shitty upbringing and stunted emotional behaviour.
But I still love and want the decent human being I thought I had gotten to know, and I can't even be sure if that was ever the real him.
JGB2009
02-21-2019, 08:46 AM
Maybe men in real life have put me in a man hating mood but right now its hard to cam when you find men repulsive. Especially the ones who try to sound fuckin cute while on the phone. Like stop already you sound gross and oh I hate you. No wonder you gotta pay me cause no real woman would want you!!!! I know I am being mean right now but eventually someway somehow I will be in a better mood.
jadey23
02-21-2019, 12:28 PM
I haven’t had sex in almost a year. A FUCKING YEAR. Oh my god someone shoot me.
WendiStarr
02-21-2019, 12:37 PM
My fingers are crossed that this month it happens.
miss.a.p1600
02-21-2019, 06:37 PM
I haven’t had sex in almost a year. A FUCKING YEAR. Oh my god someone shoot me.
Girl try multiple years
I have to go to great lengths in self-pleasure so I don’t be looking thirsty af
jadey23
02-21-2019, 06:44 PM
Girl try multiple years
I have to go to great lengths in self-pleasure so I don’t be looking thirsty af
God bless you. Lol ughhhh I’ve been having really great workouts on the upside. What really stings tho is my cheating ex who would reject me for sex altogether for the last leg of our relationship, is out fucking someone else. It’s not fair.
Jalena
02-22-2019, 09:44 AM
God bless you. Lol ughhhh I’ve been having really great workouts on the upside. What really stings tho is my cheating ex who would reject me for sex altogether for the last leg of our relationship, is out fucking someone else. It’s not fair.
Been there, love. Goddamn it hurts, and infuriates!
Hopefully karma will hit him soon -- hard, fast and with zero lube -- in the form of something that makes his dick fall off and his innards fall out.
carmen_b
02-22-2019, 03:03 PM
This is my story too but it doesn't mean you should settle for anything subpar. Still keep going for exactly what you want ( whether it's a relationship or just incredibly amazing casual sex ect. ) ! Keep going.
God bless you. Lol ughhhh I’ve been having really great workouts on the upside. What really stings tho is my cheating ex who would reject me for sex altogether for the last leg of our relationship, is out fucking someone else. It’s not fair.
miss.a.p1600
02-22-2019, 08:45 PM
I told the guy I am dating that I left the toxic workplace I have no clue if this is a turn off but oh well I had to do what I had to do
miss.a.p1600
02-23-2019, 09:38 AM
I wanted to use drugs and alcohol to cope with the stress from the past few weeks. It’s been raining for several days and it’s triggering my depression
I decided to binge on kombucha and YouTube instead
I’m glad I didn’t do anything that would make me feel worse in the long run
miss.a.p1600
02-23-2019, 03:57 PM
I have been in bed all cotdamn day.
Wtf!
trustfundkiller
02-23-2019, 03:59 PM
I need a Xanax. I'm seriously having the weirdest weekend ever.
trustfundkiller
02-23-2019, 04:00 PM
I wanted to use drugs and alcohol to cope with the stress from the past few weeks. It’s been raining for several days and it’s triggering my depression
I decided to binge on kombucha and YouTube instead
I’m glad I didn’t do anything that would make me feel worse in the long run
I love Kombucha! Idk if it's just me, but I swear kombucha has given me a buzz before lol
miss.a.p1600
02-23-2019, 05:44 PM
Same. It’s a certain brand only at Whole Foods I buy and Once I felt almost high like really relaxed and mild euphoria
I realize it has like .5% alcohol so maybe if you haven’t drank liquor in a while or maybe something else?
indiegirl
02-23-2019, 06:47 PM
GURLLLLL. I have had SOOO many garlic cloves today 8 to be exact I almost puked and focus on not crying after how strong it was....I'm sorry world I love the garlic too much. LOLLL. You will be inhaling the breath from hell no matter how many times I brush my teeth. And I have 3-4 hard boiled eggs covered in avocado ranch dressing as my treat daily. I haven't popped the onions out the fridge yet for the day BUT Sorry to anyone. And green onions DO NOT get me started. I could just eat them by themselves lollll.
carmen_b
02-24-2019, 12:08 AM
I was naughty.
I have this ongoing texting flirtation with this man in this area I am always in for my day job ( 6 weeks or so ) .
Shot him a text letting him know I was heading this way. Yummmmmm
This dude can seriously eat pussy. Omg.
He's 10 years younger than me and 6'8" ( not a typo ).
( no quotes please .... if you've seen my recent info ..... I have feelings growing for another man ..... I'm hoping guilt doesn't kick my ass ..... no exclusivity talk yet )
I got lonely with my ginger gone.
On a scale of 1-10 not fucking him was a 9.8
queenelayliah
02-24-2019, 01:19 AM
I spend 98% of my day in or on my bed, 1% walking to the kitchen and 1% going to the bathroom. This has been happening for the last 1.4 years since i started working from home. Since i dont have living room furniture my bed is the only thing i can sit on besides the floor. So im on it majority of my time. I have no friends, being single for 4 years, not dating at all and there is nothing to do outside except spend money, which i dont want to do. The only time i leave the house is to buy groceries 1x a month or pick up a package when i order something. I can go for weeks without leaving the house or talking to someone in a non sexual manner. I kind of feel like im in retirement.
I was never a social animal, but atleast when i had a vanilla job i left the house for work and was forced to interact with people. Not now though.
charlie61
02-24-2019, 10:53 AM
I have super sensitive skin but it's been looking good lately so I confess I got WAY too confident/careless and tried a new skin care product pretty much all over then woke up with a painful face, I can't even remember last time it was this bad! And it has to be the new product because how else can one go from alright to this level of bad in just one night?! I was horrified when I saw it and felt it but tbh I really should have known by now I can never take risks like that. Just two days ago I was thinking to myself how calm and even my skin had gotten and now I'm back on not just square one but square -5 or something, I don't even want to go out or have anyone look at me. I just want my face to stop hurting and get back to normal.
Omg, yes. Don't know if you saw my recent confession about this. But, this is the story of my life lately, lol.
Now I'm repenting. Switching to insanely gentle products for sensitive skin. I've been using Fourth Ray Beauty's line. Calming face milk, facial spray, detox clay, detox oil. And they just came out with an ultra gentle and hydrating gel moisturizer that's on its way to my mailbox.
WendiStarr
02-24-2019, 12:21 PM
I'm a total lazy ass today. I didn't feel like cooking so I went out to Big Boy's for breakfast. Lunch is leftover pizza. I don't know why but I feel so drained. I'l probably take a nap before cooking something easy to throw together for dinner.
JGB2009
02-24-2019, 03:01 PM
I confess that I messaged my daughters dad today asking if he would snuggle with me. I was feeling emotional and just wanted to snuggle with someone. Not the best decision but he didn't respond anyways. Probably thinks I lost my mind.
charlie61
02-24-2019, 04:15 PM
I just submitted an application to adopt another kitty! I don't get baby fever, i get adoption fever. The one i have my eye on is a fluffy thing, just like i like them! He's an adult who loves other cats but struggles with humans - i always enjoy the trust-building process!
Fingers crossed!
miss.a.p1600
02-24-2019, 05:14 PM
I just ate 2 donuts and 3 truffles.
I probably blew 2/3 of my caloric intake on junk food and I’m nowhere near full.
miss.a.p1600
02-24-2019, 05:24 PM
I just ate 2 donuts and 3 truffles.
I probably blew 2/3 of my caloric intake on junk food and I’m nowhere near full.