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chanzep
02-24-2019, 06:35 PM
Sounds good!
Elektra Luxx
02-25-2019, 03:00 AM
I can't sleep. Too much in my head, too nervous. Took 0.5 Klonopin and feeling more relaxed. I'm hoping to get some answers today.
baer45
02-25-2019, 10:16 AM
I can't sleep. Too much in my head, too nervous. Took 0.5 Klonopin and feeling more relaxed. I'm hoping to get some answers today.
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indiegirl
02-25-2019, 03:51 PM
I'm a SUPER HEAVY bleeder on my period like Super plus tampons need to be changed in an hour. Had an appointment and during it the bed looked like a crime scene because I started my period DURING the appointment. I thought to myself...welll isn't this lovely for maids to see and freak out. lol customer was all cool about it but I was thinking "OH MY GOD This is a first!"
WendiStarr
02-25-2019, 03:59 PM
^ Aww, girl, I'm the same way and I've had that happen before. I thought for sure the client was going to murder me for it.
My confession is that I hope something(not going to say what) works because I'm so afraid that I'll jinx it if I say it out loud. I'll be disappointed if it doesn't work.
SnuffleUffleGrass
02-26-2019, 05:37 AM
I confess a trip down memory lane ( aka scrolling through my Facebook feed) made me realize that a lot of my mood issues in the past couple years had to do with my serious gynecological problems (fibroids, ovarian cysts.) I feel sad I put off fixing those issues for too long. I could have been happier and healthier. (Would have been easier to lose weight too if I had gyn. surgery sooner.)
SnuffleUffleGrass
02-26-2019, 05:39 AM
I'm a SUPER HEAVY bleeder on my period like Super plus tampons need to be changed in an hour. Had an appointment and during it the bed looked like a crime scene because I started my period DURING the appointment. I thought to myself...welll isn't this lovely for maids to see and freak out. lol customer was all cool about it but I was thinking "OH MY GOD This is a first!"
The old school trick for hiding a period for sex is washing really hard (like a bar of soap directly on the crotch + showerhead) and then wiping inside the vaginal canal with a white washcloth dipped in hot water. It buys about 15 minutes of time before the flow can resume.
(You might not want to do this on heavy flow days, as you might be entirely too uncomfortable for sexual activity.)
carmen_b
02-26-2019, 11:26 AM
^ My prepping for period sex is a dark towel and a prayer. lol
somechick99
02-26-2019, 01:02 PM
I’ve had sex with three different guys in the past couple days. Haven’t done something like that in years...but I admit it’s been more fun and less stressful than just seeing one guy and hoping it works out/he stays loyal.
carmen_b
02-26-2019, 09:43 PM
Ok .... the really tall pussy eating champ .... I'm going to see him again I think. In the morning.
I thought my Ginger was my " main " squeeze ( I've known him a month ) but it's all moving slow.
UPDATE : ^ He's a f*&ing asshole and we are done .....
So that's the rough explanation of why I invited Mr Tall over in the morning. I wouldn't have if Ginger would have reached me immediately after getting back to cell phone to see what our week looked like.
Mr. Tall sent a text yesterday that said " I really like you ". He also invited me on a more formal date 3 days ago. I am the one who instigated our first in person meet at my hotel. I'm catching some feelings for him too if I'm being honest.
WendiStarr
02-27-2019, 09:02 AM
I feel like a raging lunatic right now. Why is pms hitting me so bad suddenly today? I don't know whether I want to scream, cry hysterically, eat my weight in carbs, go to sleep, or all of the above.
carmen_b
02-27-2019, 09:54 AM
^ I prescribe Pamprin or midol , hot tea, lounging , and maybe weed if you have some some. That's my PMS plan . Oh, and ordering food .
indiegirl
02-27-2019, 10:57 PM
I'm applying for jobs on Friday. Discussed it with my therapist today. But I need money now so here we are. I'm at my hotel and fucking police were here for hours. Not there for me, but my guilty conscience is enough. Plus I'm on few years probation and shouldn't be driving or create another record anyways. They were JUST SITTING in their vehicles, then they brought in a white truck with cones and an RV style thing. It's like DAMN, I'm too old to be paranoid or deal with them just chilling outside making the appointment terrifying.. I've got me a family to make in my future lolllll. So much has happened with the damn PD with me lately. This one was not for me though. The last vehicle just finally left. I'm ready to move on.
JGB2009
02-28-2019, 03:04 PM
I have a hickey on my neck that I am covering with makeup and I am covering it with my hair as well. Luckily as far as I know you cant tell that it is there.
carmen_b
02-28-2019, 08:25 PM
I would have bailed on the work day so fast, omg. Cop cars terrify me.
I'm applying for jobs on Friday. Discussed it with my therapist today. But I need money now so here we are. I'm at my hotel and fucking police were here for hours. Not there for me, but my guilty conscience is enough. Plus I'm on few years probation and shouldn't be driving or create another record anyways. They were JUST SITTING in their vehicles, then they brought in a white truck with cones and an RV style thing. It's like DAMN, I'm too old to be paranoid or deal with them just chilling outside making the appointment terrifying.. I've got me a family to make in my future lolllll. So much has happened with the damn PD with me lately. This one was not for me though. The last vehicle just finally left. I'm ready to move on.
carmen_b
02-28-2019, 08:33 PM
Mr. Tall was back last night.
Wow. To think I almost didn't see him. That would have been a huge mistake. ;)
I was thinking how much I would pay for his " services " ( my mind is funny and just works that way ) if he wasn't offering them for free and I think it's into the multi - hundreds hahaha.
Goodness .............. he hit the shower right away and smelled so amazing. We had some face to face cuddles ( kind of nose to nose ) asap in bed and it felt a little emotional. I'll keep *some* details to myself haha but lets say it was a success. One thing I'll share is that he was wearing these soft basketball shorts and kind of just was " bumping " me a little harder than I normally like . Something about it worked. I absolutely soaked those things. I probably should have sexed him up but froze ( only our 2nd meeting ) and he was an awesome gentleman about the whole thing. He let me take care of him this time ( last time he refused and only wanted to focus on me ). We snuggled and took turns being the big spoon ( he's super tall but lean so even behind him it feels so good to smoosh up next to him ).
He cuddled me until I was 90% asleep and then slipped out around 3a.m. OMG perfection.
I really wish there was a strip club in his town. I know exactly where I'd be if there were haha.
indiegirl
03-01-2019, 03:56 AM
I CONSUMED horny goat weed and other natural substance with a customer. I thought he was crazy at first for offering such a thing but home girl got horny fast!!! I was in shock lolll.
Customer offered a deal and bought a room for me but *squinty eyes* my weird butt got the full money amount for the room due to being liked. I guess the weirdo personality I have is okay LOL.
He also talked about Post Malone music wise as his favorite and I had that creepy look at him of "how did you know?" Post Malone's music is my jam right now. So we played it. LOL
seashell
03-01-2019, 04:06 AM
I've been doing Tarot/psychic readings as a side gig, and the questions people have about their relationships are all the same. Why is he so distant, when will he come back, is he my soulmate, should I move on... it's 99% female customers, and everyone just wants to be heard, and know that they will find love.
My female clients drive themselves crazy worrying about love. And when I give guidance, I keep it kind of general, but we all seem to be dating the same emotionally distant, immature, fixer-upper man baby, who is interested in a future with us but just needs some more time.
carmen_b
03-01-2019, 05:42 AM
^ Not surprising ! More thoughts on this later.
The thoughts : I remember reading this article about a therapist who focused on war camp trauma. She said people didn't even come in to talk trauma, it was mostly the question " Does this person love me and how much ? " .
miss.a.p1600
03-01-2019, 07:16 AM
I've been doing Tarot/psychic readings as a side gig, and the questions people have about their relationships are all the same. Why is he so distant, when will he come back, is he my soulmate, should I move on... it's 99% female customers, and everyone just wants to be heard, and know that they will find love.
My female clients drive themselves crazy worrying about love. And when I give guidance, I keep it kind of general, but we all seem to be dating the same emotionally distant, immature, fixer-upper man baby, who is interested in a future with us but just needs some more time.
This would be me lol.
Like I am very impatient and I ain’t got hella time to wait for dude to figure it out cause .... this biological clock is ticking!
SnuffleUffleGrass
03-01-2019, 07:16 AM
I've been doing Tarot/psychic readings as a side gig, and the questions people have about their relationships are all the same. Why is he so distant, when will he come back, is he my soulmate, should I move on... it's 99% female customers, and everyone just wants to be heard, and know that they will find love.
My female clients drive themselves crazy worrying about love. And when I give guidance, I keep it kind of general, but we all seem to be dating the same emotionally distant, immature, fixer-upper man baby, who is interested in a future with us but just needs some more time.
This makes me realize my long time friendship with my Tarot card reader stems from my lack of concern over long term romance lol.
Glamourmilf
03-01-2019, 10:31 AM
I've been doing Tarot/psychic readings as a side gig, and the questions people have about their relationships are all the same. Why is he so distant, when will he come back, is he my soulmate, should I move on... it's 99% female customers, and everyone just wants to be heard, and know that they will find love.
My female clients drive themselves crazy worrying about love. And when I give guidance, I keep it kind of general, but we all seem to be dating the same emotionally distant, immature, fixer-upper man baby, who is interested in a future with us but just needs some more time.
This is the main reason I never got into tarot reading.
AND the same reason why I don't hang out with civie women.
They are ALL consumed with what you mentioned, and it's hella b-o-r-i-n-g.
I mean, once you get into your late 50's and 60's, give it up.:P
carmen_b
03-01-2019, 01:42 PM
^ Easy for us to say when we are not that age range ha. My friend ( I think in her 60's ) in Hawaii was constantly consumed about the next dick she was getting . It was interesting to observe. Kinda looking and going " just chill ...take yourself out to a nice dinner and wine ".
Advice I sometimes remind myself when I'm a horn ball.
SnuffleUffleGrass
03-01-2019, 01:57 PM
This is the main reason I never got into tarot reading.
AND the same reason why I don't hang out with civie women.
They are ALL consumed with what you mentioned, and it's hella b-o-r-i-n-g.
I mean, once you get into your late 50's and 60's, give it up.:P
Some people are love junkies (for the lack of a better term) and they are never exposed to the kinds of things that makes a person cautious or cynical about infatuation/lust.
My friend (a longtime Tarot card reader) said she only disliked the "confessional booth" aspect of the job- she saw more of human nature than she ever wanted to.....
carmen_b
03-01-2019, 02:13 PM
Side Note on Tarot : I'm getting better at reading and totally want to charge for it but my friend and I also have great fun reading each other ( just for fun ) and I kind of don't want to take the fun angle away.
carmen_b
03-01-2019, 02:15 PM
omg , these dudes I'm texting when I go back to strip in their area ....
" Stay at my place and save $ " hahahah
Yeah ... saving $52 on a motel is totally going to save me money staying up too late with entertaining you or being low key ( or completely ) molested. My go to thing to say is my friend already booked the motel. Haha.
indiegirl
03-01-2019, 10:18 PM
I've been doing Tarot/psychic readings as a side gig, and the questions people have about their relationships are all the same. Why is he so distant, when will he come back, is he my soulmate, should I move on... it's 99% female customers, and everyone just wants to be heard, and know that they will find love.
My female clients drive themselves crazy worrying about love. And when I give guidance, I keep it kind of general, but we all seem to be dating the same emotionally distant, immature, fixer-upper man baby, who is interested in a future with us but just needs some more time.
Bahaha when I was 19 I went to a psychic and was told I would meet my husband in 2 years...... *angry eyes* This bitch is single at 29yrs old still with no baby! I want my money back!! lol.
Also I was on the weird side of youtube and some teenager hiding her preggo ass birthed her baby in the toilet and used a barrette on the umbilical cord. Dunno what that does or if she googled a DIY on a budget birth but OH EM GEE.
I also rode dirty today loll.....in other words, had a customer over and the roomies weren't home. I/him were nervous the whole time. I saw him once when my mom had keys to the house and she walked in on us naked and she was shouting at me over family issues after I shut the door. She had no idea I was working at the time. Keys were returned after that lol.
indiegirl
03-03-2019, 09:17 AM
Tried to do an outcall this morning LOL some old man stopped me to question me about not looking like I am not from the area and blah blah. He was butthurt my car was parked in his neighborhood. You mean I don’t belong because I’m cute? I was doing makeup not robbing anyone geez. Maybe Cuz he was obese but I was nervous since I’m driving dirty “well u r 4 miles from the freeway” like is this your life patrolling your neighborhood? I have never. LOLLL
WendiStarr
03-03-2019, 09:33 AM
Tried to do an outcall this morning LOL some old man stopped me to question me about not looking like I am not from the area and blah blah. He was butthurt my car was parked in his neighborhood. You mean I don’t belong because I’m cute? I was doing makeup not robbing anyone geez. Maybe Cuz he was obese but I was nervous since I’m driving dirty “well u r 4 miles from the freeway” like is this your life patrolling your neighborhood? I have never. LOLLL
Were you parked in front of or near his house? Was it an older, white male? I've have that happen before. I was going somewhere and my gps messed up. I had to stop to check the directions so I parked in front of a house. I wasn't blocking any driveways or anything. Some old white guy came flying down the street in a pickup truck, stopped, and asked me why I was parked there. I told him that I was just trying to look up directions and he went berserk on me, yelling that he didn't recognize me as a resident there, and that I needed to leave asap. He backed up, pulled his truck up behind me so it was right on my ass, and proceeded to honk repeatedly until I moved. Retired old white guys with too much time on their hands seem to take it upon themselves to police their neighborhoods.
My confession is that I feel absolutely hideously disgusting today and I have a feeling that I'm going to be disappointed in a few days.
SnuffleUffleGrass
03-03-2019, 09:51 AM
Tried to do an outcall this morning LOL some old man stopped me to question me about not looking like I am not from the area and blah blah. He was butthurt my car was parked in his neighborhood. You mean I don’t belong because I’m cute? I was doing makeup not robbing anyone geez. Maybe Cuz he was obese but I was nervous since I’m driving dirty “well u r 4 miles from the freeway” like is this your life patrolling your neighborhood? I have never. LOLLL
He just wanted an excuse to talk to you. Ugh.
I had a guy pull that shit on me because I parked next to his fence. This was in the country btw. Crazy old fat dudes usually have too much time on their hands....
indiegirl
03-03-2019, 10:59 AM
Older white guy. Moved my car twice lol. I acted giggly and said I was doing makeup. I dunno. Like WTF did he think I'd be doing. Some white chick robbing the 'hood? LOL. Even if that was a consideration, he prolly had things I'd be like "well what do I take cuz this place is Corona!" UGH customer ended up being a no show. I will NEVER see him again. I drove an hour there and back but he partied too hard the night before after a text when I got home. Thought the man was on meth when he offered to run a jacuzzi and hang at 7am...I know better than this. I wanted my coin and that was what was important lol.
Sounds bad but I'm so tired of paying for hotels =(.
carmen_b
03-03-2019, 12:01 PM
^ I LOVE giving push back if anyone questions me. I remember being in this rich neighboorhood in Hawaii ( it's legal there to use walk ways between houses to get to the beach which is what I was doing ). This lady come up and was snotty with questions " are you from here ect. "
I just looked at her and said " THAT is NONE of your business ". Love it. I will not tolerate this kind of bullshit.
I'm 99% sure you could have parked on the street BUT of course if you are working you don't want to draw attention. If working outcalls I'm much lower key but I adored seeing that ladies face on my beach day. ;)
indiegirl
03-03-2019, 05:45 PM
^ I LOVE giving push back if anyone questions me. I remember being in this rich neighboorhood in Hawaii ( it's legal there to use walk ways between houses to get to the beach which is what I was doing ). This lady come up and was snotty with questions " are you from here ect. "
I just looked at her and said " THAT is NONE of your business ". Love it. I will not tolerate this kind of bullshit.
I'm 99% sure you could have parked on the street BUT of course if you are working you don't want to draw attention. If working outcalls I'm much lower key but I adored seeing that ladies face on my beach day. ;)
My neighbors just flat out sent or called the police on me and my customers at one point because they were done with all the foot traffic at my house every day. lolll had to give a nice tour once of the house to PD with my customer heading out the back once LOLL. "And was this your boyfriend".....This old man LOLLLLLLLL never but right now "Yes!" I'm not reckless like that anymore.
That's funny you said that to that woman lol!
charlie61
03-03-2019, 05:57 PM
Back on topic! ♡
trustfundkiller
03-03-2019, 06:06 PM
I'm eating a giant chocolate chip cookie that must be at least 500 cals and I feel no shame }:D I worked hard this weekend lol
queenelayliah
03-04-2019, 12:03 PM
With my anixety finally under control. My depression is rearing its ugly head again. I havent felt this low in a few years. I feel so sad, lost, lonely and scared. So, so very lonely. I feel like crying.
WendiStarr
03-04-2019, 02:31 PM
I'm a damn mess today. I woke up super nauseous and feeling like I was going to start my period. Luckily that feeling went away by the time I had to go to an appointment. But I ended up bursting into tears out of nowhere, in the middle of a session with a new client. The guy didn't say or do anything mean. I don't know why the heck I started crying other than probably just hormone related but I did. He just looked at me all confused. I feel super lame about that. I HATE crying in front of anyone, let alone a client. It makes me feel pathetic.
queenelayliah
03-04-2019, 03:56 PM
This might be tmi. But my pussy stinks, like really bad. No matter how much i wash it. Sigh. This is my worst nightmare. I hate being on my period.
miss.a.p1600
03-04-2019, 06:28 PM
Omg! Lol! Pm me if you want some ideas....
I confess....I am about at my wits end with regular dating and regular dudes I feel like they are time wasters like the men who are “furniture” in the strip clubs
xStacey
03-04-2019, 09:53 PM
I lost my father yesterday :'(
SnuffleUffleGrass
03-05-2019, 08:53 AM
I lost my father yesterday :'(
I'm sorry hon. ((((HUGS)))))
Jalena
03-05-2019, 09:10 AM
I am feeling really trapped right now.
I only learnt last spring when I tried to e-file my 2017 taxes that my e-filed returns from the previous two years were rejected. I never received any notice of this in my email inbox or spam folder, nor have I received any snail-mail notifications. I also moved several times over this period so maybe something got sent and then lost, because I had a helluva time trying to get my address updated -- for two of my moves, I had to go back to the post office four and five times to get it fixed because whenever I had them check, it was 'Oops! How did your info not get updated? Are you really sure you've contacted us 3+ times about this?'
Then I moved to my current location because my parents were both having medical issues. They both talked this place up like jobs were growing on trees. Of course my 2017 e-file was rejected but I figured I would be quickly employed once I moved here and be well on my way to getting this whole mess sorted. I have had zero luck with my job search and the current job I am waiting on is a 'no news is good news' dangler. It's been almost a month since I heard from them, despite several follow-up emails and calls.
I should have returned to dancing last fall when $$$ was still supposed to be decent, but I am living with my parents and don't have the energy or the inclination to lie about what I'm doing. My mother is a sanctimonious twit who thinks she knows everything about the industry and I put it off hoping to find something more 'acceptable' in order to keep the peace, especially given her cognitive troubles and increasing general nastiness. I am afraid that if I go back to dancing even part time, it will torpedo my chances with this current job I am trying to land.
I have been struggling more with my depression and being around my parents this month and next month in particular is going to be very, very difficult -- but that's a whole other mess.
More than anything, I am scared as shit about my taxes situation. I still have all of the paperwork for each year, but I am terrified to try and fill it out alone and risk mucking it up again. Going to make an H&R appt for this week but I have no idea how much I owe with penalties and everything else, and I know I don't have the money to cover it.
SnuffleUffleGrass
03-05-2019, 09:28 AM
More than anything, I am scared as shit about my taxes situation. I still have all of the paperwork for each year, but I am terrified to try and fill it out alone and risk mucking it up again. Going to make an H&R appt for this week but I have no idea how much I owe with penalties and everything else, and I know I don't have the money to cover it.
I wouldn't panic. The IRS often gives leeway for returns that are delayed due to tech glitches or paperwork errors. (I'm speaking from experience.)
They also are fairly reasonable with payments for monies owed, seeing as they can always find you. The average debtor ends up paying on installment plan...
seashell
03-05-2019, 11:20 AM
I'm so sorry xStacey! I hope you're doing OK. Big hugs!!
I came here to confess that I am finally hiring a personal assistant. It feels good, but it's also giving me anxiety, I've never done this or interviewed anyone before!
chanzep
03-05-2019, 10:09 PM
Sorry Stacey.
lynn2009
03-05-2019, 10:23 PM
Stacey, I'm very sorry for your loss.
DonaDiabla
03-05-2019, 10:34 PM
Sorry, XStacey for your loss.
Elektra Luxx
03-06-2019, 12:40 AM
I lost my father yesterday :'(
Oh xStacey, I'm so sorry for your loss. *hugs*
trustfundkiller
03-06-2019, 01:40 AM
I lost my father yesterday :'(
I'm so sorry. Wishing you lots of healing. <3
queenelayliah
03-06-2019, 11:25 AM
I lost my father yesterday :'(
Im sorry for your lost. If you need to talk you can pm me?