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carmen_b
05-01-2019, 04:35 PM
^ Anywhere you can pop over to dance just here and there ?
That's what I currently do. It's been hit and miss. I emotionally go up and down with it. I'll come back with my goal and be like " why did I ever stop ?!? " and then the next time I'll come in under and come back going " I'm so glad I have a day job " . Ha. It's been about 50% successful trips and 50% dissapointing or neutral ones. I can only spare 2-3 day blocks currently but have plans for some more far reaching week long or so ones too.
Just some honesty of the emotions of going back after forever ( 5 year gap for me ) and being out of practice too.
The immediate cash is always a thrill here too. There just isn't anything like it. I think it's the modern equivalent to " hunting and gathering " of the old days. You either knew right away whether is was a success or whether you were fucked.
Glamourmilf
05-01-2019, 06:57 PM
^ Anywhere you can pop over to dance just here and there ?
That's what I currently do. It's been hit and miss. I emotionally go up and down with it. I'll come back with my goal and be like " why did I ever stop ?!? " and then the next time I'll come in under and come back like " I'm so glad I have a day job " . Ha. It's literally been about 50% successful trips and 50% dissapointing ones.
Just some honesty of the emotions of going back after forever ( 5 year gap for me ) and being out of practice too.
The immediate cash is always a thrill here too. There just isn't anything like it. I think it's the modern equivalent to " hunting and gathering " of the old days. You either knew right away whether is was a success or whether you were fucked.
Exactly.
Sadly, there are no clubs where I live.
I will figure something out.
Because the isolation from cash in hand and male connection is depressing me, big time.
miss.a.p1600
05-02-2019, 09:16 AM
In this networking group and happened to look over at this one guy who is totally hot! OMG .... I would ride his face all night long
Elle:)
05-02-2019, 04:51 PM
I ordered the cutest 2 pairs of slides. Let's hope they look as beautiful in person.
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chanzep
05-02-2019, 06:39 PM
I just ate 6 cookies.
JGB2009
05-02-2019, 06:58 PM
I can always tell when I am ovulating cause all I wanna do is have sex...………….OMG enough all ready!!!!
miss.a.p1600
05-03-2019, 04:02 PM
I just ate 6 cookies.
Dont worry I’ve maxed out at a dozen Krispy Kreme’s before. Probably a good 5k calories lol
Them shits so good though i couldn’t resist
miss.a.p1600
05-03-2019, 10:05 PM
I keep thinking about guys I’m not supposed to think about. Like them pleasing me during my masturbation fantasies.
If I don’t find a worthy partner in t minus 2 months no make that by end of May then I’m just going to start using my sexuality for profit
lynn2009
05-04-2019, 07:33 AM
I walked my dog over an hour this morning with my leggings inside out.
Glamourmilf
05-04-2019, 09:00 AM
I keep thinking about guys I’m not supposed to think about. Like them pleasing me during my masturbation fantasies.
If I don’t find a worthy partner in t minus 2 months no make that by end of May then I’m just going to start using my sexuality for profit
This is me right now. April marked 2 years since I've had sex.
It's "Fuck You", Pay Me time.
Or rather, "Fuck ME, AND also kindly Pay Me" time. :D
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miss.a.p1600
05-04-2019, 09:55 AM
^exactly!!!!
SnuffleUffleGrass
05-05-2019, 06:45 AM
I just ate 6 cookies.
I'm jealous.
Confession- I'm going for a long walk and not bringing my dog, who will be very upset that he was excluded from a walk today.
Elektra Luxx
05-06-2019, 02:02 PM
Bf and I had a really bad fight before I left on my all girl 3 day weekend. He accused me of cheating him or planning cheating. Then I accused him of cheating on me and that he was feeling guilty that's why he was accusing me. He was feeling insecure (he's hardly ever insecure or jealous) and I didn't make him feel any better about things and I'm sorry for that and we need to talk it out.
carmen_b
05-06-2019, 02:27 PM
^ Aw! :(
cyberstripper
05-06-2019, 09:55 PM
My bf came back on the first and came to my house immediately. He hugged me so hard, I jumped into his arms and I could hear his heart beating so loud from excitement. It was quite romantic...even tho he sprouted an insta boner as I so deviously planned lol. I wanted him right then and there but he was so homesick.
We headed to his place and he fucks me so good and hard within minutes of walking in. Then we made love. We had sex all night. Night two that urge came over me to be fucked like a dirty little slut. I begged for him to use me and this side of me doesn't come out often. Then more romantic sex and fucking every way to Sunday. I was so sore but I still couldn't get enough last night. I just sat with his beautiful dick inside me for like 20 mins moving just enough to stay aroused.
Today I am tore up from the floor up. My whole body is sore and my pussy is so sore and swollen lol. I really needed this but damn.
I don't open up to men in the bedroom easily and I am so glad I did. He is very attentive in the bedroom and I told him exactly how I like it and guided him to meet all of my spots. I feel a bit vulnerable now due to this but I feel safe to do so at the same time.
carmen_b
05-07-2019, 10:23 AM
^ awesome !!!
What a home coming .
queenelayliah
05-07-2019, 08:27 PM
My anixety levels have been really bad for the last week but the last 2-3 days extremely horrible! Like absolutely horrific!.
Im soooo lonely fuck,
Elle:)
05-07-2019, 08:53 PM
I ate more cake than I should have.
miss.a.p1600
05-07-2019, 10:24 PM
I want to break free from everybody.
Like create a new identity and forget everyone from the past.
I should fake amnesia
charlie61
05-08-2019, 07:53 AM
Bf and I had a really bad fight before I left on my all girl 3 day weekend. He accused me of cheating him or planning cheating. Then I accused him of cheating on me and that he was feeling guilty that's why he was accusing me. He was feeling insecure (he's hardly ever insecure or jealous) and I didn't make him feel any better about things and I'm sorry for that and we need to talk it out.
Omg, it's the absolute worst when a fight / miscommunication / misunderstanding comes up right before a trip where you'll be apart for a few days. I've had that happen. I just spend the whole trip worrying about it instead of enjoying myself. Ugh! :( :hug:
SnuffleUffleGrass
05-08-2019, 08:32 AM
I ate more cake than I should have.
I confess to missing cake soo much. Have not had a proper slice in months.
My confession- in a bad mood right now but going to power through.
whirlerz
05-08-2019, 08:41 AM
My anixety levels have been really bad for the last week but the last 2-3 days extremely horrible! Like absolutely horrific!.
Im soooo lonely fuck,
I can SO relate!
I just reschedule my surgery (last Dr. was a quack btw:O)
whirlerz
05-08-2019, 08:42 AM
i want to break free from everybody.
Like create a new identity and forget everyone from the past.
I should fake amnesia
& this,^
charlie61
05-08-2019, 04:22 PM
I'm overseas and low-key desperate for lube. Just grabbed a tiny dot of sunflower oil from the kitchen. Ordinarily wouldn't consider it. Saliva grosses me out and dries up so quickly. Surely I'm not the only one who has grabbed such a shameful lube alternative. >_<
carmen_b
05-08-2019, 04:30 PM
^ Olive oil
ha
Elektra Luxx
05-09-2019, 01:04 PM
Bf sent me a selfie to show me how he accidentally shaved off part of his beard. He has a sly smile in the pic. The same smile he has when he looks at me and it makes him look so good looking and sexy. It's pure manipulation and I know it and he knows it.
Elle:)
05-09-2019, 03:34 PM
I really need to get better at controlling my anger.
WendiStarr
05-09-2019, 06:05 PM
I took a nap with bf's shirt. I had it on my pillow and my face, like a lunatic. It smells like him and that comforts me.
lynn2009
05-09-2019, 06:23 PM
Part of me wishes I hadn't gotten such a high level promotion or raise. The new responsibilities are too much. Like I am constantly even falling asleep thinking about work and how behind I am on everything and all the new pressures and expectations.
miss.a.p1600
05-09-2019, 07:37 PM
Or coconut oil
It’s also has natural antibacterial properties
charlie61
05-10-2019, 03:23 AM
Part of me wishes I hadn't gotten such a high level promotion or raise. The new responsibilities are too much. Like I am constantly even falling asleep thinking about work and how behind I am on everything and all the new pressures and expectations.
Yeah... I'm a naturally ambitious person, but i've decided that that lifestyle isn't sustainable, healthy, or enjoyable for me. Just because you *can* do a job doesn't mean you *have to* do that job. Your job doesn't have to be your identity. It's perfectly fine to find something that only takes 40 hours a week, comfortably pays your bills... and you're able to leave work feeling relaxed enough to enjoy your free time without worrying about work assignments / projects. ♡
WendiStarr
05-10-2019, 02:45 PM
I totally made a custie be my errand guy today. I'm not going to lie. I enjoyed having someone cater to me and the gifts but I have no intention of having sex with him or anyone other than bf. I will use these guys for whatever material things I can get without having to put out and not feel bad for it at all. I'm in a jaded bitch mood.
charlie61
05-10-2019, 06:18 PM
Or coconut oil
It’s also has natural antibacterial properties
That would've been my first choice if it were available!
JGB2009
05-11-2019, 11:18 AM
The other night I fell asleep with my friends arms wrapped all around me and during the process I woke myself up having a panic attack. Funny I never knew I fell asleep until I woke up. Mind you that wasn't the way I wanted to wake up.
carmen_b
05-12-2019, 09:03 AM
I would have stolen a shirt from B for this purpose but he never had extra items of clothing when he was here.
I took a nap with bf's shirt. I had it on my pillow and my face, like a lunatic. It smells like him and that comforts me.
carmen_b
05-15-2019, 10:50 AM
WHAT was I thinking ? I logged on to POF ( I hadn't in forever ). I wanted to hide my profile from view.
I just HAD to go " see " what Mr. Talls ( my desert area lover Feb . / mid-March ) looked like .
It has his new location ( town in new jersey ) and some updated text that he is looking for a honey bunny to come home to.
I end up in tears ( stupid ! ) . What was I thinking ?
It hurts me more because of my work being very mobile ( there isn't even the excuse there of " oh I had to stay for my work and he had to go " ).
My work travels WITH me ( other than once a month and I can easily fly for 3-5 days ) . I can be anywhere , even Jersey , but I wasn't invited.
Embarrassing !!! Since it's pof, he will know I spied too .
lynn2009
05-15-2019, 05:50 PM
Derek's dad randomly texted me today asking me for my mailing address. I'm very suspicious about what this is about. I gave him my office address cause I don't want them to know where I live.
JGB2009
05-15-2019, 05:59 PM
I need to stay off FB for a while. I need to seriously pull myself together.
Ladycaxe
05-15-2019, 06:20 PM
Wowowow. Im so sad. I must confess. That my sleeping schedule is completely fucked. So bad that I missed my eyelash extension and facial appointment today :(
I'm literally crushed ahaha. I was so excited. I set an alarm so I thought. and woke up panicked rlzing I missed it. SIGH GUYS. its obvious I need to make some lifestyle changes .
:(
Jalena
05-15-2019, 09:45 PM
My damn horoscope today ... I just read them for entertainment, but the gist was basically telling me I should let go of my anger and I am just. not. ready. To be perfectly honest, I still want to lash out.
WendiStarr
05-16-2019, 01:37 AM
I had a nightmare and so I have my nightlight on now, like a child. I had to turn on my bedroom light first, just to make sure no one was in here.
Elle:)
05-16-2019, 10:11 AM
Sometimes I find myself regretting every bigger decision I've made.
lynn2009
05-16-2019, 05:45 PM
It's crazy how our settings affect us. I was really nervous at a client meeting today and I am nervous for another one tomorrow. But like if a man in a suit walked into a strip club telling me he is a CEO and so important I'd just roll my eyes and be like yeah, I know you all are. But today I was like stutter stutter stutter.
queenelayliah
05-16-2019, 06:20 PM
I had a nightmare and so I have my nightlight on now, like a child. I had to turn on my bedroom light first, just to make sure no one was in here.
Dont feel bad i sleep with a nitelight all the time, if i dont my room is PITCH black and i wont be able to see anything.
Also i applied to some vanilla jobs with the state. Lets hope i get them and me being a pso wont affect them.
cyberstripper
05-16-2019, 08:53 PM
I'm pmsing and not getting into Cray dark places butknow it can happen. I have slacked on my wellness and fitness routine so I'm surprised im not an anxious depressed hot mess. I legit woke up had 2 cups of coffee and aimlessly sat in bed all day. I'm glad I can but currently trying to motivate myself to do something today and I can't. I'm accepting that I just need a day like this, it's been a bit.Then I'm gonna get mad at myself for being a lazy bloated fat ass.
Blah. In other news shits going good for me, almost too good.
WendiStarr
05-17-2019, 10:55 AM
I feel like I'm going to end up a lifelong career sex worker to some degree. It seems like I can't find a vanilla job that fits me and whenever I do find something, it ends up being too structured. I can't deal with too many restrictions and rules. It'll be something happens like they change the schedule drastically to the point where it's totally unreasonable for a single mom like putting on me on some bullshit shift, mandatory weekends, or something absurd. I'm too jaded and burnt out from stripping to want to go back to stripping in any club anymore because all the ones near me are seriously brothels that hire anyone. I don't have the patience for camming. I guess I'll stick to fbsm but I still like to have a vanilla job too. I don't know what the hell to do, vanilla job wise, until I pass my exams and get my certification.
miss.a.p1600
05-17-2019, 11:40 AM
I feel ya on the structured thing.
I damn near lost my mind dealing with those people at the last vanilla workplace.
I had to ask “the boss” - and yes I put it in quotes cause she was more like an insecure b*tch who enjoyed abusing then power she had in that role - just to do simple things and it was like being treated like a child or something. I like having freedom to make decisions and if I need to consult then I’ll do that but I’m not taking orders from the likes of evil power hungry attention seeking managers.
JessaJade
05-17-2019, 01:08 PM
Dont feel bad i sleep with a nitelight all the time, if i dont my room is PITCH black and i wont be able to see anything.
I can't sleep unless it's pitch black.
carmen_b
05-18-2019, 10:13 PM
I don't want to be here.
I am thinking of doing a longer stripper trip ( maybe 5-6 days ) instead of my little mini 2-3 day ones. It's mostly out of boredom. The extra cash NEVER hurts ! I have my dog longer than normal ( I am trying not to spy online or think about what the ex is doing in order to give me the 10 days instead of normal 7 day time frame ).
WendiStarr
05-19-2019, 02:47 PM
She changed her mind and decided that she doesn't want to sign the divorce papers yet. She still wants to stay legally married even though they're no longer living together. He moved out and has been dating me for the past year now. She knows that he has been having an affair. Apparently it's not the first affair that he has had. He has had four other affairs before me and each time she made him promise to never do it again, go to some church crap and counselling which obviously was not successful, judging by how many times he repeated his unfaithfulness. I have infidelity issues myself(I've struggled a lot in the past with staying faithful) so mutually open relationships are my thing. I think that's part of the reason he and I understand each other and meshed together so well. For the first time in a long time, he has been the one person who has been able to keep me satisfied sexually for so long that I don't feel the need to search for a side guy or side guys. I guess I don't understand why this woman would waste her time sticking around, knowing that history is going to continually repeat itself if they got back together. I wish she would just sign the divorce papers and move on.