Log in

View Full Version : Confessions Thread!



Pages : 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59 60 61 62 63 64 65 66 67 68 69 70 71 72 73 74 75 76 77 78 79 80 81 82 83 84 85 86 87 88 89 90 91 92 93 94 95 96 97 98 99 100 101 102 103 104 105 106 107 108 109 110 111 112 113 114 115 116 117 118 119 120 121 122 123 124 125 126 127 128 129 130 131 132 133 134 135 136 137 138 139 140 141 142 143 144 145 146 147 148 149 150 151 152 153 154 155 156 157 158 159 160 161 162 163 164 165 166 167 168 169 170 171 172 173 174 175 176 177 178 179 180 181 182 183 184 185 186 187 188 189 190 191 192 193 194 195 196 197 198 199 200 201 202 203 204 205 206 207 208 209 210 211 212 213 214 215 216 217 218 219 220 221 222 223 224 225 226 227 228 229 230 231 232 233 234 235 236 237 238 239 240 241 242 243 244 245 246 247 248 249 250 251 252 253 254 255 256 257 258 259 260 261 262 263 264 265 266 267 268 269 270 271 272 273 274 275 276 277 278 279 280 281 282 283 284 285 286 287 288 289 290 291 [292] 293 294 295 296 297 298 299 300 301 302 303 304 305 306 307 308 309 310 311 312 313 314 315 316 317 318 319 320 321 322 323 324 325 326 327 328 329 330 331 332 333 334 335 336 337 338 339 340 341 342 343 344 345 346 347 348 349 350 351 352 353 354 355 356 357 358 359 360 361 362 363 364 365 366 367 368 369 370 371 372 373 374 375 376 377 378 379 380 381 382 383 384 385 386 387 388 389 390 391 392 393 394 395 396 397 398 399 400 401 402 403 404 405 406 407 408 409 410 411 412 413 414 415 416 417 418 419 420 421 422 423 424 425 426

Elle:)
05-19-2019, 08:56 PM
I sold my stockings for a hundred, they were worth only 5.

amberlly
05-20-2019, 05:12 AM
Got told I'm just too sensitive.

No, some behaviour is never ok.

I'm so over smiling and pretending

Aurora_Sunset
05-20-2019, 08:56 AM
I decided to just not go in to work today. Sent hubby to work with my badge to turn in and tell them I'm done. I was dreading working my last 2 weeks anyway, and after the crappy communication, and then a company-wide Facebook fight, this weekend, I'm just done with it all. I have no desire to sign my "attendance points" disciplinary bullshit that was a direct result of their poor leadership, and then be treated like garbage for 2 weeks when they find out I'm leaving. I know it wasn't professional, and after I did basically the same thing at my last vanilla job, I swore I never would again..... Oh, surprise, surprise - the two companies were run by the same people! Considering I've always given adequate notice before, I'm gonna go ahead and assume the common denominator isn't me, but them... -_-

A part of me honestly does feel worse this time around, because I didn't hate the people there personally or anything. I actually liked a lot of my coworkers, and I'm not exactly happy to leave some of them blowing in the wind or to probably rarely see them again, if ever. But management, despite being ok human beings, are just horrible leaders who do not care about their employees. They can smile all they want - it's a toxic-ass work environment full of "yes-men" that stab everyone in the back. And I decided staying part-time at a toxic workplace is like trying to stay friends with a toxic ex. It sounds nice, but why do that to yourself?

I don't like going out like this, but I have been objectively happier all weekend thinking of my freedom from that place, so I just have to keep remembering why I did it.

Aurora_Sunset
05-20-2019, 08:59 AM
Secondary confession: I'll miss hubby by the end of the night, but I am legit excited to get some time to myself! I'll have the house all to myself for 12 hours, 5 days this week. I'll have to Uber some of them, but today is gonna be all about cleaning and organizing all the things, and just doing what I want to do. Maybe I'll take myself to lunch.

And I plan to cook dinners/lunches/breakfasts every day for at least the next 2 weeks to get back on track with healthy eating now that I have nothing but free time for a month. I bought all the ingredients yesterday. It's going to be so nice to just self-care for awhile to recover from the depression-cloud that job put over me.

miss.a.p1600
05-20-2019, 11:21 AM
I decided to just not go in to work today. Sent hubby to work with my badge to turn in and tell them I'm done. I was dreading working my last 2 weeks anyway, and after the crappy communication, and then a company-wide Facebook fight, this weekend, I'm just done with it all. I have no desire to sign my "attendance points" disciplinary bullshit that was a direct result of their poor leadership, and then be treated like garbage for 2 weeks when they find out I'm leaving. I know it wasn't professional, and after I did basically the same thing at my last vanilla job, I swore I never would again..... Oh, surprise, surprise - the two companies were run by the same people! Considering I've always given adequate notice before, I'm gonna go ahead and assume the common denominator isn't me, but them... -_-

A part of me honestly does feel worse this time around, because I didn't hate the people there personally or anything. I actually liked a lot of my coworkers, and I'm not exactly happy to leave some of them blowing in the wind or to probably rarely see them again, if ever. But management, despite being ok human beings, are just horrible leaders who do not care about their employees. They can smile all they want - it's a toxic-ass work environment full of "yes-men" that stab everyone in the back. And I decided staying part-time at a toxic workplace is like trying to stay friends with a toxic ex. It sounds nice, but why do that to yourself?

I don't like going out like this, but I have been objectively happier all weekend thinking of my freedom from that place, so I just have to keep remembering why I did it.

Girl I did the same thing.

Sounds a lot like the shit show I quit that was filled with evil managers, brown nosing coworkers, extreme office politics. And I was not about to work 45+ hrs with corporate abusers.

F*ck them!

Sometimes you gotta do what’s best for You cause best believe they’ll get rid of you just as quick if it means something that would benefit them. If they act like dicks when you give a two week notice that means they can’t handle notices and or they try to get you quit sooner so they can write in your hr report that you’re not eligible for rehire. Places like those are just not worth going back to anyways.

miss.a.p1600
05-20-2019, 11:32 AM
This lady in this group I’m in has a really big butt

Not a cute big butt but just a big big butt

When she walks it looks like 2 basketballs bouncing up and down. I caught this married dude looking .... lol!

Elle:)
05-20-2019, 08:04 PM
I ate half a jar of nutella, a pack of Lindt chocolate bunnies, 3 Kinder eggs and I had ice cream for breakfast. I feel embarrassed.

cyberstripper
05-20-2019, 08:05 PM
I have been getting anxiety about this new relationship I am in. It is all in my head. I do not pour my emotions or feelings out to him or anything like that, but we do share what is going on inside of us and even that is difficult for me.

I wondered if he told his family about me, but didn't want to ask. I am glad I didn't. The other day with me around, he got a phone call from his mom. She sounded like a cool hippie like my mom, except way less bi polar and medded out. I was minding my own business, getting ready to go run errands with him. Then I sat on the couch when I heard a majority of the "family convo" coming to an end. His mom asked about me. He said "you want to meet my gf? We will see..."

It kinda freaked me out but was so heartwarming at the same time. I know it is very serious if he told his mom about me. When he was out of the country, he introduced me via video chat to his dad but that is not the same.

I am not going to pressure him to meet his family, though I actually would like to. I am actually very family oriented, but he doesn't know the extent of it as I do not have any family locally. I miss having a psuedo mother in law, etc. My man has no idea how much his mother will love me, and I bet he is afraid of that. Every family I have ever met, once they do, begin pressuring their poor son to marry me and knock me up. This is not really a MUST for me. But seeing this side of him makes me wanna practice making babies lol. Damnit I am in love.

Jalena
05-20-2019, 10:20 PM
I decided to just not go in to work today. Sent hubby to work with my badge to turn in and tell them I'm done. I was dreading working my last 2 weeks anyway, and after the crappy communication, and then a company-wide Facebook fight, this weekend, I'm just done with it all. I have no desire to sign my "attendance points" disciplinary bullshit that was a direct result of their poor leadership, and then be treated like garbage for 2 weeks when they find out I'm leaving. I know it wasn't professional, and after I did basically the same thing at my last vanilla job, I swore I never would again..... Oh, surprise, surprise - the two companies were run by the same people! Considering I've always given adequate notice before, I'm gonna go ahead and assume the common denominator isn't me, but them... -_-

A part of me honestly does feel worse this time around, because I didn't hate the people there personally or anything. I actually liked a lot of my coworkers, and I'm not exactly happy to leave some of them blowing in the wind or to probably rarely see them again, if ever. But management, despite being ok human beings, are just horrible leaders who do not care about their employees. They can smile all they want - it's a toxic-ass work environment full of "yes-men" that stab everyone in the back. And I decided staying part-time at a toxic workplace is like trying to stay friends with a toxic ex. It sounds nice, but why do that to yourself?

I don't like going out like this, but I have been objectively happier all weekend thinking of my freedom from that place, so I just have to keep remembering why I did it.


The only time I up and quit w/o notice, was a retail job I had a few years ago. A guy who worked across the street became fixated on me. I went to the higher ups, tried to get a transfer, and was refused for bullshit reasons. At the core of it, they felt that since my stalker didn't work for their company, his behaviour wasn't their problem. My store manager claimed there was nothing she could do but she really just didn't want to be stuck in the middle. I adored my coworkers and we were already spread pretty thin, but I just couldn't. I didn't want to deal with his antics at my job, the possibility of him turning on my coworkers, and lazy upper management who genuinely didn't care about my safety. I quit on the spot, and as horrid as I felt about it ... my coworkers all understood. They knew I was getting shafted and were actually happy to see me get out of that shit hole. If your coworkers are any kind of decent, they won't fault you for this.

SnuffleUffleGrass
05-21-2019, 04:47 PM
I decided to just not go in to work today. Sent hubby to work with my badge to turn in and tell them I'm done. I was dreading working my last 2 weeks anyway, and after the crappy communication, and then a company-wide Facebook fight, this weekend, I'm just done with it all. I have no desire to sign my "attendance points" disciplinary bullshit that was a direct result of their poor leadership, and then be treated like garbage for 2 weeks when they find out I'm leaving. I know it wasn't professional, and after I did basically the same thing at my last vanilla job, I swore I never would again..... Oh, surprise, surprise - the two companies were run by the same people! Considering I've always given adequate notice before, I'm gonna go ahead and assume the common denominator isn't me, but them... -_-

A part of me honestly does feel worse this time around, because I didn't hate the people there personally or anything. I actually liked a lot of my coworkers, and I'm not exactly happy to leave some of them blowing in the wind or to probably rarely see them again, if ever. But management, despite being ok human beings, are just horrible leaders who do not care about their employees. They can smile all they want - it's a toxic-ass work environment full of "yes-men" that stab everyone in the back. And I decided staying part-time at a toxic workplace is like trying to stay friends with a toxic ex. It sounds nice, but why do that to yourself?

I don't like going out like this, but I have been objectively happier all weekend thinking of my freedom from that place, so I just have to keep remembering why I did it.

Especially now people are not faulted for jumping ship to take better work opportunities. They won't dwell on it in a bad way, plus with social media you can track them down if you want to stay in touch.

My confession-

I feel bad for this but I have been having very "princess" thoughts since our small business has taken over our lives. Life was way easier when my boyfriend got paid a lot working for someone else. Ugh. I'm not going to turn into a monster but …..I can see how rich people get very isolated and spoiled. You lose your freedoms to grow wealth, or to prevent it from slipping away. Also not everyone needs a lot of money to be happy, but it sure helps!


Just some thoughts.

lynn2009
05-22-2019, 07:03 PM
I stopped talking to Derek's friend I dated over the summer a long time ago because he is extremely needy and it is fucking annoying. But I had to ask him for Derek's parents phone number on death day anniversary and he started chatting. Fine. A week or so ago his brother is hospitalized and he starts whining to me about being worried about hospital drama and honestly, I legitimately don't care. Then we gchatted a little earlier tonight and he calls me. Fine. He's all upset because his 300 pound brother is now diagnosed with diabetes, he has to go to some rehab clinic and the rehab clinic rep yelled at their mother last night and so on. Idc if it does make me heartless I don't care about any of this!

Elle:)
05-22-2019, 07:05 PM
I videotaped myself twerking and I looked awesome.

WendiStarr
05-23-2019, 06:04 PM
I took my anger out on a broken laptop after I put the pictures and documents from it on to a thumb drive. I rearranged its keyboard to "Oh fuck" and took the laptop apart so that it looks like some kind of mad tech/computer art. It would've cost more to fix it than just buying a new laptop anyways.

cyberstripper
05-23-2019, 10:56 PM
Im so frikkin anxious today again, seems this feeling of dread has been ongoing for a week+. I just can't shake it off even with my healthy outlets. This blows. I can't pinpoint an exact reason, but the below certainly is not helping lol.

I am meeting my bf's family this weekend. And, he confessed he told his mom what I do for a living. I was kind of taken aback by this....but not mad. I don't really know how to feel about it but ofc am afraid of being asked 50 questions about my job, them not getting to know the "real me" and of course being judged. My job does not define me as a person, but I feel I am in a one-down position since they know and have already probably formed judgments about me in their head. I would have much preferred to let them know myself or with him.

On another hand, it is nice I do not have to put up a front, or keep my job a secret. In my last relationship I kept my job a secret for the entire duration. At times I wished I could just be honest. So my nerves about this are turning more into feelings of relief.

I will not put the focus on what I do for a living in either case, many people do not want to discuss their work in their spare time, however it seems in the adult industry, out of curiosity at best, people have a tendency of asking far too many work related questions. This takes the focus off of getting to know me as an actual person. I take pride in what I do and that most often shuts people up, because I come from a place of empowerment. So if the fam takes it upon themselves to focus on what I do for a living, I will be open and honest to an extent but put an end to it by stating I do not really want to talk about work in my free time, who does?

Has anyone else dealt with this? Meeting family who already knows? At least he is that honest with his family, but my dark inner critic is telling me other stories.

Elektra Luxx
05-24-2019, 05:11 AM
Im so frikkin anxious today again, seems this feeling of dread has been ongoing for a week+. I just can't shake it off even with my healthy outlets. This blows. I can't pinpoint an exact reason, but the below certainly is not helping lol.

I am meeting my bf's family this weekend. And, he confessed he told his mom what I do for a living. I was kind of taken aback by this....but not mad. I don't really know how to feel about it but ofc am afraid of being asked 50 questions about my job, them not getting to know the "real me" and of course being judged. My job does not define me as a person, but I feel I am in a one-down position since they know and have already probably formed judgments about me in their head. I would have much preferred to let them know myself or with him.

On another hand, it is nice I do not have to put up a front, or keep my job a secret. In my last relationship I kept my job a secret for the entire duration. At times I wished I could just be honest. So my nerves about this are turning more into feelings of relief.

I will not put the focus on what I do for a living in either case, many people do not want to discuss their work in their spare time, however it seems in the adult industry, out of curiosity at best, people have a tendency of asking far too many work related questions. This takes the focus off of getting to know me as an actual person. I take pride in what I do and that most often shuts people up, because I come from a place of empowerment. So if the fam takes it upon themselves to focus on what I do for a living, I will be open and honest to an extent but put an end to it by stating I do not really want to talk about work in my free time, who does?

Has anyone else dealt with this? Meeting family who already knows? At least he is that honest with his family, but my dark inner critic is telling me other stories.

I truly wish you the best. It's a sign that your bf loves you and wants his family to accept you for you. That said if my bf did that to me I would be livid! I don't feel like people need to know everything detail about me. My bf's family are liberal but sex work is a stretch for them. Please let us know how it goes.

baer45
05-24-2019, 07:43 AM
I borrowed my brother's Mercedes for a trip, then I went to fill up the tank. Before I backed up the car to the gas pump, I forgot to switch the "sport +" back to the "comfort" mode. The car backed up so fast, I hit the pole on the side of the pump. Needlessly to say, I looked like a complete idiot in front of everyone who's at the gas station. I checked the damage, the bumper is still in one piece and no cracks or holes on it. But its paint fell off a bit, and some scratches.

Confession:
I decided not to do the right thing. Didn't tell my brother about it. When he finds out, It's on him. :)
In my defense... ya...I don't have one.

51395

WendiStarr
05-24-2019, 11:19 AM
Bf came over to talk about our relationship and what his plans are and we ended up having sex. I rode the holy hell out of him and got some aggression out and sexual relief.

Aurora_Sunset
05-24-2019, 02:46 PM
I’ve been drinking a LOT lately. To the point where, logically, I know I should cut back. And I know it isn’t doing my health, weight, or energy levels any favors. I haven’t been sloppy or dangerous drunk, I just consume a fair amount over the day, every day. But every time I think “maybe I won’t drink today or this weekend,” I immediately dismiss it. It hasn’t been like other times where I have no desire to drink or know I absolutely NEED to cut back. I just kinda am at a point where I’m like “it would be healthier for me to quit drinking... but I just don’t WANT to...” I really don’t. So as long as I’m not hurting anything, I’m just gonna ride it out and enjoy my wine.

Aurora_Sunset
05-24-2019, 02:47 PM
Also, I ordered Chipotle for delivery because I don’t feel like making anything, and I can still justify my modified burrito bowl as keto.

lynn2009
05-24-2019, 03:47 PM
I haven't really been enjoying my dog. He's sweet but it really is like being a single mom of a toddler and he is not well behaved in many aspects. If he even sees another dog on the other side of the street while we're walking he barks, lunges, goes nuts. He barks at other people. If he sees a squirrel or rabbit and obviously I can't let him chase after it he barks and goes nuts and sometimes even starts whining and crying like I am the meanest and worst new dog mom ever. He likes to look out my big kitchen window which is cute but if he sees a squirrel while he's inside it's the same thing he barks like crazy and obviously there are squirrels and rabbits all over the place so he basically is constantly barking. I'm going to pay for doggy day care a few days in June and I hope they can work on his socialization cause I always imagined nice evening walks with my theoretical dog and they're pretty unpleasant events as it stands and a ton of work for me every day.

miss.a.p1600
05-26-2019, 08:14 AM
I would like to get some male affection but until then I’ll just please myself while thinking about guys I shouldn’t be thinking about. They are bad (like tempting me to sin n shit) but sometimes thinking bad thoughts feel so good.

carmen_b
05-26-2019, 10:45 AM
Lynn : The doggie day care might work. He can run around with the other dogs and then the next couple days will be more mellow.

WendiStarr
05-28-2019, 11:15 AM
Sometimes I wish I could be a ruthless bitch. A custie tipped me and an extra $50 fell out and landed on the floor. I could've just waited until he walked away and hurried up and pocketed it. Instead I said,"Hey, you dropped something". Afterwards I was thinking,"Damnit, I could've used that extra $50" but my conscience wouldn't let me.

carmen_b
05-28-2019, 11:20 AM
^ Aw. It'll probably come back to you in his trust / willingness to book in the future.

lynn2009
05-28-2019, 11:49 AM
This is probably in my head but whenever my dog is laying down or sleeping, I always think he looks sad.

SnuffleUffleGrass
05-28-2019, 01:18 PM
Sometimes I wish I could be a ruthless bitch. A custie tipped me and an extra $50 fell out and landed on the floor. I could've just waited until he walked away and hurried up and pocketed it. Instead I said,"Hey, you dropped something". Afterwards I was thinking,"Damnit, I could've used that extra $50" but my conscience wouldn't let me.

You did the right thing. From my experience with clients they always assume the girl pocketed any money they might have dropped, and they hold a grudge over it.

Confession- ate too much ice cream. Bad me.

cyberstripper
05-28-2019, 07:26 PM
I truly wish you the best. It's a sign that your bf loves you and wants his family to accept you for you. That said if my bf did that to me I would be livid! I don't feel like people need to know everything detail about me. My bf's family are liberal but sex work is a stretch for them. Please let us know how it goes.

I didn't know how to feel about it and got in my head. My ex's family was so judgmental, I kept my job a secret for far too long and it began wearing on me. At times I know keeping things to yourself is necessary, but I am sure my former relationship would not last as long as it did if the family knew. Their judgments would wear on both of us and he would try to change me. I'm sure this is why I felt anxious about meeting a family who did know.

So I am actually quite thankful my bf did this. To clear my head the night before I expressed gratitude. I wish it was done differently sure, but this set me free in so many ways.

That morning, we both had a great time getting ready with each other. My bf expressed his concerns about introducing a new woman to the family, it is something he does so rarely due to bad past experiences. So we both had our apprehensions, stemming from past issues. But, it is amazing we could put our pasts aside and spend the day with his family.

His mom and step dad are awesome. I had the best time I have had with them in a while. I could not stop laughing. We get there and they were all (the neighbors came to the bbq as well) a few drinks deep reminiscing on their party days in the 60s. And we all know how entertaining that is. My job didn't come up once, but if it did I have a feeling I could just be honest and open about it and they would accept me just the same. The fact that they know no longer bothers me. I am so glad I don't have to deal with a family who places importance on such things. At the end of the day what we all do for a living doesn't matter in the grand scheme. I was able to just live in the moment and enjoy the time with them. I will so look forward to a family gathering like this again in the near future.

When we got home you could tell my man was so relieved as well. It is very important to both of us that we mesh well with our families. I couldn't imagine having a bf who's family I cannot relate to or they dislike me for whatever reason. This leads to the break up of so many good relationships.

But for me thank goodness we live in Vegas and my fam is in Wisconsin. My family definitely has their issues lol.

Elektra Luxx
05-29-2019, 05:58 AM
I'm so happy it went well for you. It gives me hope.

SnuffleUffleGrass
05-29-2019, 06:21 AM
I didn't know how to feel about it and got in my head. My ex's family was so judgmental, I kept my job a secret for far too long and it began wearing on me. At times I know keeping things to yourself is necessary, but I am sure my former relationship would not last as long as it did if the family knew. Their judgments would wear on both of us and he would try to change me. I'm sure this is why I felt anxious about meeting a family who did know.

So I am actually quite thankful my bf did this. To clear my head the night before I expressed gratitude. I wish it was done differently sure, but this set me free in so many ways.

That morning, we both had a great time getting ready with each other. My bf expressed his concerns about introducing a new woman to the family, it is something he does so rarely due to bad past experiences. So we both had our apprehensions, stemming from past issues. But, it is amazing we could put our pasts aside and spend the day with his family.

His mom and step dad are awesome. I had the best time I have had with them in a while. I could not stop laughing. We get there and they were all (the neighbors came to the bbq as well) a few drinks deep reminiscing on their party days in the 60s. And we all know how entertaining that is. My job didn't come up once, but if it did I have a feeling I could just be honest and open about it and they would accept me just the same. The fact that they know no longer bothers me. I am so glad I don't have to deal with a family who places importance on such things. At the end of the day what we all do for a living doesn't matter in the grand scheme. I was able to just live in the moment and enjoy the time with them. I will so look forward to a family gathering like this again in the near future.

When we got home you could tell my man was so relieved as well. It is very important to both of us that we mesh well with our families. I couldn't imagine having a bf who's family I cannot relate to or they dislike me for whatever reason. This leads to the break up of so many good relationships.

But for me thank goodness we live in Vegas and my fam is in Wisconsin. My family definitely has their issues lol.

I'm so glad for you. I have relatives who act like I got into stripping to deliberately kill them with the associated "shame". LOL. Just one reason I don't have them in my life anymore.

cyberstripper
05-29-2019, 06:11 PM
My dad died today over 24 years ago. I was 12 at the time. It is hard but at the same time he would not want me to wallow in grief. I woke up today and talked to him, telling him I loved and missed him and know he is watching over me in ways he never could when he was alive. I am still getting my ass to work and have been dealing with this day much better over the past few years, but especially this year.

That being said I admit I'm totally self medicating. I had Kratom and OJ for breakfast and will smoke a fat one in my dad's honor while listening to his favorite bands tonight.

miss.a.p1600
05-29-2019, 07:44 PM
Sometimes I wish I could be a ruthless bitch. A custie tipped me and an extra $50 fell out and landed on the floor. I could've just waited until he walked away and hurried up and pocketed it. Instead I said,"Hey, you dropped something". Afterwards I was thinking,"Damnit, I could've used that extra $50" but my conscience wouldn't let me.

Similar!

Once a customer accidentally gave extra $100. I gave him the extra money back and he was so shocked he ended up giving me $40 of it anyways.

Another time, someone left $100 bill on the stage. Well I said if i don’t hear anyone bitching and moaning about losing it then I’ll keep it. Ended up with an extra 100 that I definitely needed on a slow night.

Elektra Luxx
05-29-2019, 08:08 PM
My dad died today over 24 years ago. I was 12 at the time. It is hard but at the same time he would not want me to wallow in grief. I woke up today and talked to him, telling him I loved and missed him and know he is watching over me in ways he never could when he was alive. I am still getting my ass to work and have been dealing with this day much better over the past few years, but especially this year.

That being said I admit I'm totally self medicating. I had Kratom and OJ for breakfast and will smoke a fat one in my dad's honor while listening to his favorite bands tonight.


*hugs*

miss.a.p1600
05-29-2019, 10:34 PM
I'm so glad for you. I have relatives who act like I got into stripping to deliberately kill them with the associated "shame". LOL. Just one reason I don't have them in my life anymore.

Reminds me of that time my dad was like “don’t do anything to embarrass the family”

I’m like bruh! I cant control y’all emotions.

Then he was like well don’t do anything where we have to see your mugshot on the front paper.

Luckily I haven’t had a mugshot - Knock on wood - but like damn near majority of people done had a mugshot to the point where it’s not that big of a deal. Now if someone has a new mugshot every quarter then that might be a problem

Aurora_Sunset
05-30-2019, 07:17 PM
I am so stoked for Good Omens on Amazon Prime that I just want to sit home and binge-watch it tomorrow.... but I know I really need to go out and work.... dammit.

JGB2009
05-30-2019, 07:36 PM
Yea I just told you I missed you just to see what you will do. I am so ready for change. Doing what I am doing just isn't cutting it for me anymore!!!

Elektra Luxx
05-30-2019, 07:50 PM
I am so stoked for Good Omens on Amazon Prime that I just want to sit home and binge-watch it tomorrow.... but I know I really need to go out and work.... dammit.

Me too!!! Good Omens by Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett is one of my very favorite books ever! So funny! If the show is half as funny as the book, it'll be great!

chanzep
05-30-2019, 08:03 PM
I never heard of this show but now I will watch too.

miss.a.p1600
05-31-2019, 06:06 AM
I have a 9 am appointment to meet with a potential client

I secretly expect her to buy so I can make this sale because otherwise I could be sleeping or working in my pjs rn

cyberstripper
05-31-2019, 08:50 PM
So I didn't make my goal this week at work, and the end of the pay period is here on my site! I did not do this to imply I needed help with money, but vented to my bf. He told me to go into his wallet and take what I needed. I could not bring myself to do it.

I have until the 4th as well to make a few hundred. I know this is possible so I told him if I couldn't make it by then that I would accept. I have been doing so well lately but then out of nowhere things die down! Anyways, I have had men help me financially in the past that I was intimate with and it seemed to change the relationship dynamic. It was held over my head in the long run as well. I know I should not let my past dictate the present, but it is very important to me to continue to overcome my financial mishaps over the last year by myself, even if I am in a relationship with a man who is financially secure. To prove it to myself, and show my man (who knows of my struggles over the past year) that I am doing all I can to overcome them and will not give up!

But, it is nice to know I have his support at the same time, which is something I never had in a previous serious relationship. WTF is up with me though?!? I will accept $ from any man business wise, but won't from my bf. SMDH.

And an evil confession: I want to say, why don't you just move me in rent free instead? We have discussed this but nothing comes to fruition? Obviously my financial situation will change if I do not have to spend over a grand on rent and bills a month! DUH! You say you cannot imagine a day without me. We stay at your place 90% of the time and I feel like a fucking moron paying rent for an apartment that I basically use as a laundry mat, cam studio, and shower stall. End rant!

It is realistically too soon for me to move in with him. I still enjoy having my alone time and need my own time and space to work on my self development. I want to move in with him eventually but not just yet.

Elektra Luxx
06-01-2019, 05:06 AM
I am so stoked for Good Omens on Amazon Prime that I just want to sit home and binge-watch it tomorrow.... but I know I really need to go out and work.... dammit.


Me too!!! Good Omens by Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett is one of my very favorite books ever! So funny! If the show is half as funny as the book, it'll be great!


I never heard of this show but now I will watch too.

I saw the first episode and I really liked it. It's 98% true to the book so far.

queenelayliah
06-02-2019, 10:14 AM
So i have pcos which can cause irregular periods, had my iud removed for some testing my pcos went into OVERDRIVE i was bleeding for months continuously and heavily. So i go to my gyno and i swear i washed my pussy but i stanked the WHOLE room up. If i could blush i would be dying of embarrassment. She tested for a possible infection but it came back negative, so basically the ph of my vagina is out of wack from bleeding so long and thats whats causing the smell.


But yeah that my embarrassing confession i have a funky pussy from it being a pussy lol. How does one even correct ones ph balance? I thought about dipping a tampon in yogurt & sticking it up there but mmm im scared.

This is the second time in a year my pussy been funky because it wants to go act stupid. Sigh i really do wish i had a dick sometimes.

lynn2009
06-02-2019, 12:40 PM
I am feeling so anxious about going back to work tomorrow. I checked my emails already and there's nothing major that happened but there's so much shit to do including one major task due next week in particular I am worried about plus I am traveling Tuesday and Wednesday so those two days are already a wash.

charlie61
06-02-2019, 01:52 PM
So i have pcos which can cause irregular periods, had my iud removed for some testing my pcos went into OVERDRIVE i was bleeding for months continuously and heavily. So i go to my gyno and i swear i washed my pussy but i stanked the WHOLE room up. If i could blush i would be dying of embarrassment. She tested for a possible infection but it came back negative, so basically the ph of my vagina is out of wack from bleeding so long and thats whats causing the smell.


But yeah that my embarrassing confession i have a funky pussy from it being a pussy lol. How does one even correct ones ph balance? I thought about dipping a tampon in yogurt & sticking it up there but mmm im scared.

This is the second time in a year my pussy been funky because it wants to go act stupid. Sigh i really do wish i had a dick sometimes.

Oh, man! Have you looked into boric acid suppositories?

miss.a.p1600
06-02-2019, 02:05 PM
Well that good sign there is no infection queen elayiah

I’m sure you’ll get to the root cause and solution soon.

I confess! I thought about this guy I shouldn’t think about .... again ..... during my solo masturbation fantasies. I used him for solo sex fantasy material. I don’t know what this means. Does this mean I should have rode his face and let him please me again in real life or does this mean that it should have stayed fantasy so just enjoy that?

Like every single time my mind defaults to him pleasing me and I get myself off quickly.

Le sigh

Maybe I need to find some other sexy dudes to stimulate my mind

whirlerz
06-02-2019, 02:50 PM
Well tomorrow I go car shopping..
I just want something decent!
Hopefully, my loud muffler won't attract too much attention.
Cleaning it out rn. So much junk in there! :(

Queen, have U looked into probotics?
Or eat some plain yogurt.

charlie61
06-02-2019, 03:14 PM
Note that direct application of yogurt isn't super effective since those bacterial strains are specific to cows. If you're going to mess with probiotics, I'd buy something formulated for humans.

charlie61
06-02-2019, 05:00 PM
I've been eating almost exclusively vegetarian, but i suspect I'd feel healthier with a bit more meat in my diet. I really don't want to add anything back in other than seafood. I think I'll add in sardines, jarred herring, and oysters. I'll see what costco has. I might buy some crackers or something for the sardines, since those can be a bit of a struggle for me to eat...

Pinksugardoll
06-02-2019, 06:28 PM
Hey to everyone—

There are probiotics made especially for vaginal health and ph. Look up Ultimate Flora vaginal on amazon. Message me for more detailed info.

queenelayliah
06-03-2019, 04:50 AM
Oh, man! Have you looked into boric acid suppositories?

Boric acid?! Is that safe for the vagina? Mmmm I’ll look into it though.




Queen, have U looked into probotics?
Or eat some plain yogurt.

Thanks for the suggestion ill look into the probotics, i wish i could just stick some yogurt up there.


Well that good sign there is no infection queen elayiah

I’m sure you’ll get to the root cause and solution soon

Thanks. I hope you figure out what your masturbation aid guy means for you. :)

JGB2009
06-03-2019, 06:29 AM
I love it when someone I really like calls me on the phone. Text are overrated!!!