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miss.a.p1600
06-03-2019, 07:23 AM
Boric acid?! Is that safe for the vagina? Mmmm I’ll look into it though.
Thanks for the suggestion ill look into the probotics, i wish i could just stick some yogurt up there.
Thanks. I hope you figure out what your masturbation aid guy means for you. :)
Boric acid that is pre-made specifically as vaginal suppository.
That and some oral probiotics made for vaginal health
The combo of both should get ya back on track.
SnuffleUffleGrass
06-03-2019, 08:25 AM
Horrible confession- I'm GLAD my half-brother is getting to suffer from the consequences of his bad actions and exploitation of people in his lifetime. It's almost biblical the amount of misfortune that has come his way...However due to brain damage from drugs he probably doesn't really look at his life that way. Probably for the best, since he'd "try to take it out on someone" if he had a burning anger at having to suffer for being an a-hole.
WendiStarr
06-03-2019, 09:47 AM
I'm waiting for my period to start so I can start Clomid again.
charlie61
06-03-2019, 10:14 AM
Boric acid?! Is that safe for the vagina? Mmmm I’ll look into it though.
Thanks for the suggestion ill look into the probotics, i wish i could just stick some yogurt up there.
Thanks. I hope you figure out what your masturbation aid guy means for you. :)
Lol, i was always so freaked out when the ladies of SW recommended boric acid (like, it sounds crazy!)! But then i researched it, and it's totally safe and healthy. It's a staple in my self-care regimen now. Just helps keep everything balanced when your pH is off.
queenelayliah
06-04-2019, 06:28 AM
So I have a really big confession and I don't know what to do.
Okay, so I think I mentioned before how I started to mess around with my ex-boyfriend. So the background story with him is that we were together when I first moved out here to my new state back in 2013 we were together for a year he cheated on me and then because I was still emotionally involved with him I stayed in limbo with him for another year to where he was fucking me and the other girl and I knew about it and I allowed it. Then on my birthday in 2014, he just cut contact altogether.
I developed horrible anxiety and depression that still affects me to this day. I lost a lot of opportunities, jobs and etc because of my mental health issues. I also gained 130lbs. Anyway, in 2015 on my birthday he contacted me out the blue, my stupid ass let him come over. He LITERALLY enters my apartment took his clothes off, started to fuck me, he cummed (within 5 minutes) laid there for 5 minutes got up and left. I felt soooo used and I cried myself to sleep on my birthday vowing to never fuck again.
So over the years from 2015 to 2019 he would contact block me, fuck me and leave me. I can say officially in 2018 my feelings for the dude left. Then he hit me up in 2019 and I decided u know what I'm lonely as fuck I want some companionship and shit. So I started to mess around with him again. This was just STRICTLY SUPPOSED to be cuddling, talking and fucking NO EMOTIONS. Well, all was going good until yesterday. He was supposed to spend the night but something happened anyway. He started telling me how he's going to move to Dallas, tx!? So I was like so you weren't even going to tell me and he was like “well I just did”. Then he said,” it's not like you love me”.
My hearted dropped the first thing that came to mind is wow he's going to leave me. My first thought was to say okay ill move too, but I didn't because I realized if he wanted me he would have offered or suggested it. Then I had to take an internal step back and think about why I'm feeling so hurt about this. Then I realized how I love this piece of shit and how I'm going to feel really sad if he leaves. I have no one here in my state except my parents. He’s LITERALLY my only friend. I even told him “but ill miss you.” He just shrugged his shoulders and say “hey that's life”.
After he left I was SOOOOOOO MAD. Mad at him but mostly mad at myself. I don't know what to do. So I even say hey if you move ill move with you, or do that look pathetic and clingy?
Elektra Luxx
06-04-2019, 07:09 AM
^^^
Be strong. I've been there too.
*hugs*
carmen_b
06-04-2019, 11:24 AM
Ok .... so on one hand ignoring B didn't quite work.
On the other he happened to text just as I was going to bed .
He said a couple sexy things and got me riled up and he " led me " on a journey via text. Lol
I'll try to not be too pervy here with details but it " worked out " for me .... uh .... three times. Slept very well.
miss.a.p1600
06-04-2019, 03:01 PM
^Lol! Several months ago, I had a phone convo with a hot dilf and next thing I know this mf got my mind going and my pussy tingling with excitement......he could have totally been a phone sex operator.....mmmmm
carmen_b
06-04-2019, 03:24 PM
Same ! He was so awesome and I slept like crazy.
carmen_b
06-04-2019, 03:25 PM
Ok ....... so I managed to waste the day omg.
WendiStarr
06-08-2019, 05:47 AM
The one thing that scares me about pregnancy is the cramping that comes and goes. Bf and I had sex last night and after orgasm, I had such awful cramps. I kept checking my panties to make sure I wasn't bleeding. I'm not. Also, I was watching tv and a commercial with a cute beagle puppy came on. I cried over how cute the puppy was. Darn pregnancy hormones lol
Aurora_Sunset
06-10-2019, 05:21 PM
Confession: The more time goes on, the more I realize I don't like my stepkids.
I know that half of their behaviors are typical little-kid nonsense, but the other half just seems like being spoiled brats, coming from the wealthiest part of town and a spoiled mother and grandparents. The 7-year-old whines, demands, and throws tantrums on level with the 3-year old. It's only gotten worse as they got more comfortable around me. My husband thinks it's "cute" because that means they're comfortable with me, but I'm just always annoyed. I don't even want to take them out in public anymore because their behavior is embarrassing, and I’m sick of spending our super limited disposable income on them only to have them act like ungrateful snobs if they don’t get every last thing they want. I dread them coming over, and usually make up an excuse to leave during weekday visitations. I make an effort to be around on our weekends, but I'm emotionally exhausted every minute of it.
Now that it's summer, he sometimes agrees to have them overnight during the weekday visit: he did tonight without warning me, and he's all excited, but I was just annoyed. I sleep like crap when they're here, because they always act up when it's bedtime, and then wake me up all night, crawling into bed with us, crying about wanting to go home, and demanding we wake up at 5am with them. For instance, they ASKED to stay here tonight, but have screamed about wanting to "go home" and "wanting mommy" and how they "didn't ask to stay here" and "never ever want to come back here again" for over a fucking hour now.... I'm over the manipulative whining and crap.
I thank god that my husband is a good and patient father who is proactive in handling them himself when they're misbehaving, because my only method of reacting would be to get sarcastic, yell at them to knock it off, and send them to their room until they stop. Even though I know that's not the best way to handle kids. I have never been a kid person, and I am not adapting well. He talks about how he would have a kid with me if I wanted to, and initially I toyed with the idea if we could get more financially stable in the next few years, but now that I dread every minute with these kids, I can't imagine being a fulltime mom.
After some googling, I feel a little better as it's apparently not uncommon for a stepmother to have trouble liking her stepkids - especially if they were never a "kid person" to begin with, and don't even have that biological bond and chemicals to help the process. And a LOT of people admit to picking up extra work and making excuses to be out of the house when they're over. However, I also read that eventually the kids will realize and feel that I don't want to spend time with them... and I already knew that. That's why I googled it. I want to do better. I'm just really struggling right now. And I have no IRL people to go to... The only moms I know are biological moms who chose to have kids, or stepmoms who seem to LOVE being stepmoms. My feelings made me feel like an unnurturing monster until I turned to the internet.
I feel terrible, cuz I can't tell my husband this. He talks all the time about how much he misses them and gets so excited to have them over. He loves how much they talk about me and seem to like me. But I know that eventually I won't be able to hide how unpleasant I feel around them and it will crush him. I want to find a therapist who specializes in blended families.
xStacey
06-10-2019, 06:12 PM
I have a crush on this lawyer I am working for. He is brilliant, super smart and is totally rich. I love his sense of humour and he's very attractive for a main in his 50s and does not look like it, even the men juniors at our firm talk about how good he looks. I would totally sleep with him if we were not in the same field LOL. We are working together on a really big complex trial and we're travelling by car 3 hours away to another city and instead of waking up early the same day to go he told me book any hotel you want with two rooms available, find the best. His favorite was the second most expensive and unavailable so I suggested the most expensive one he said I hate it. Some people were like how could he hate this place and another guy was like didn't you see his house? (We had a firm party at his house a while ago, it's huge with a security guard, downtown and with tons of arts lol)
WendiStarr
06-11-2019, 02:37 PM
I went for a walk at a park. Of course I had to pee and the nearest bathroom in sight was a dang porta potty. I have this weird and ridiculous fear about certain toilets. Porta potty toilets happen to be one of them. They just freak me the heck out. I mean, they're huge pits of everyone's disgustingness that is left to sit and rot for an unknown amount of time. I have this fear with those creepy toilets that some creature is going to rise up out of the nasty pit of doom or that I'm going to accidentally fall butt first into one of those. Who knows what could be lurking in there. *shudder* I found an area where there were some trees and bushes and peed outside. Like five seconds later some middle age man and his dog came wandering over. I don't know if he saw me or not but I left the park asap, just in case.
JenniferNorth
06-11-2019, 02:45 PM
I've been so depressed since my miscarriage in April. My stupid period showed today and I informed my husband we are buying a fertility monitor with my next paycheck. UGH. I really want more children but this is so frustrating.
Elektra Luxx
06-11-2019, 05:43 PM
^^^
I'm sorry to hear about you're miscarriage. *hugs*
miss.a.p1600
06-11-2019, 06:58 PM
The doctor is totally hot!
Why he gotta be married though
*le sigh*
carmen_b
06-11-2019, 08:36 PM
This is probably just exhaustion talking but I feel so lost in life.
I spent a couple days with my family / an old friend in a cabin situation in the woods.
I feel very " off " . My friend had good weed from Colorado so we of course smoked up after the family left.
Then we had cheeseburgers. It all sounds so good but now I'm home and feel lost.
I feel like I don't have " anything " except for earnings goals even though I know logically it isn't true.
I can't really go to the club this weekend because I need to start a day job trip on Sunday 6 hours in the other direction.
My schedule is jacking me up this week.
amberlly
06-12-2019, 03:59 AM
I have loads of pretty things and do my makeup beautifully...to sit around my house..
WendiStarr
06-12-2019, 07:09 AM
I don't feel like working today but I need to make money because I'm nowhere near my weekly goal.
ravenskyy
06-12-2019, 07:45 AM
I'm not in a good place right now. Whenever I feel like things will be ok, they never are. I don't even know why I try anymore. I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to. I dropped my son off at daycare and he didn't want to let me go. I didn't want to leave him there today, I just wanted to go back home with him and watch baby tv all day, but I couldn't. I wanna call my husband and beg him to come home, but I can't. I really regret moving out here. I didn't think I'd feel so alone and empty all the time. This was supposed to be a fresh start for us, but I think we just made things worse.
I don't know what to do anymore.
miss.a.p1600
06-12-2019, 09:49 AM
I don't feel like working today but I need to make money because I'm nowhere near my weekly goal.
Same .... unfortunately
I’m going to make myself work from 4-8 tonight
And hire someone to kick my ass if I don’t do what I said I was going to do
chanzep
06-12-2019, 12:40 PM
I finally make myself up for Overtime and now they are like oh it's been quiet we are not sure! Smh. They have been begging us.
whirlerz
06-12-2019, 01:21 PM
That's messed up^!
cyberstripper
06-12-2019, 08:06 PM
I squirted bucket loads with my bf the night before last. I have done it on occasion previous to this, maybe about 3 times in my entire life. I have tried since my first squirt to develop some kind of skill with it, but I haven't been able to regularly alone or with a partner. For me there is really no rhyme or reason to it. But, I do know when it is about to happen.
It was fucking epic! Like 10 years of build up just gushing out. After I nearly cried due to it finally happening and at epic proportions. I have squirted in the past but nothing like this.
I would like to hone this skill and all I know is that I was completely out of my head, uninhibited and able to just completely let go for once. I often get in my head when having sex and can have a difficult time cumming due to this. I was also pushing down and he was hitting it just right!
carmen_b
06-12-2019, 11:05 PM
^ SOOOO hot .
Fellow squirter here , haha. The dudes dig it. Watch .... he will talk about it for days. Haha. ;)
carmen_b
06-12-2019, 11:07 PM
Ok.
So .... lets say you see someone about 8 weeks ..... now they are out of the country for 5 weeks.
You don't have plans to meet up.
Is that enough to break it off ? Just the lack of initiative ( on his part ..... I've shown it ) and lack of a plan ? I'm not the asshole here right ? I'm just tired of being angry and horny.
I am so agitated about this. I'm going to need sleep meds tonight.
miss.a.p1600
06-13-2019, 12:58 AM
Yes that’s enough to break it off
You can find better
SnuffleUffleGrass
06-13-2019, 08:23 AM
I confess I kind - of splurged on myself by buying a leather cuff bracelet at Goodwill. I've been wanting one forever & it was like one of those "heavenly choir" sound effect moments when I spotted it on the rack there. (I've been spending a lot of $ lately so I tried to keep it low in the area of "personal effects and clothing.")
I also confess to dragging my behind today, I have plenty to do & am here goofing off on the Internet.
carmen_b
06-13-2019, 09:15 AM
Thanks Miss P :
I assumed by keeping in touch a plan would be in place to meet back up and I wouldn't mind going to Australia either.
It makes me so sad ( the whole thing ..... me doing the leg work to research the Australian East Coast ...... me seeming to be the heavier initiator ).
It's time.
I'm so angry that I feel justified in a complete ignore plan .
It seems like a potato may be a better choice of a partner ( and better travel planner ) than B.
UPDATE:
IT'S OVER. IT'S DONE. As I mentioned in the dating thread .... he couldn't even get to wi-fi ( I asked him to 12 hours ago ) to take a phone call so I did it by text AGAIN. I did this same thing 9-10 days ago and he convinced me I was rushing and to be more patient. Like an idiot, I agreed to try and give him more time.
All I really asked for was transparency ( I told him 9-10 days ago to just be straight with me if he didn't intend more time with me ).
It's DONE. :(
I just have to be smart here, I offered a here ( USA ), mid-point ( Hawaii ), and THERE ( Oz ) plan. I just suggested another month together to see how we did. He isn't a partner. He a non-proactive and non-responsive turd who was extremely lucky to get some sex and attention from me by being good looking and having a hot accent ( I need to learn a lesson here obviously ).
lynn2009
06-13-2019, 07:42 PM
.....
miss.a.p1600
06-13-2019, 08:23 PM
I don’t know why I seem to attract narcissistic men and I am secretly wondering if the new dude is a narcissist or has narcissistic tendencies.
Is he’s excitement real or is he “love bombing” me?
Either way I’m sticking to my guns and not letting my desire for male affection/attention impact my decision making
miss.a.p1600
06-14-2019, 03:22 PM
I gave myself a much needed orgasm but I fantasized about this guy who I wished could have done that for me.
whirlerz
06-15-2019, 06:07 AM
Yea.
I was thinkin' bout my insurance guy..
miss.a.p1600
06-15-2019, 09:00 AM
Lol! He’s got that magic “policy” for ya! Lol
My service consultant is fine as fuck! If that trick wasn’t married with hella kids n a ball n chain - I’d totally ride his face
One day I had a strip club customer that looked just like him (was it him n I was too tipsy to tell? Idk but this dude looked a lot like him I could not tell the difference). The vip was so hot and he pretty much sold himself on spending more time with me. That was definitely one of those 1% of times that I really enjoyed the job
whirlerz
06-15-2019, 09:17 AM
Lol! He’s got that magic “policy” for ya! Lol
My service consultant is fine as fuck! If that trick wasn’t married with hella kids n a ball n chain - I’d totally ride his face
One day I had a strip club customer that looked just like him (was it him n I was too tipsy to tell? Idk but this dude looked a lot like him I could not tell the difference). The vip was so hot and he pretty much sold himself on spending more time with me. That was definitely one of those 1% of times that I really enjoyed the job
LMAO!^
Neither of us have been w/that co (me as a custy) but yea sooo.hawt!
miss.a.p1600
06-15-2019, 09:24 AM
I have a date Tonight
Idk but I’m not excited. For some reason I’d rather get dressed up for money than dresses up for a regular dude. A young dude who probably has nothing but dick to offer.
I’m not popping pussy unless I’m getting something (a lot of something) in return.
He wanted to pick me up which was a kind offer but I need to see what kind of car he got first. Because your majesty can only ride with men who have certain type of cars.
I’ll go on this one date but I am going to have to figure a way to end it cause I don’t want him getting his hopes up.
Elektra Luxx
06-15-2019, 01:31 PM
As I get older I feel the need to behave more responsible than I have behaved in the past. I have commitments that require me to behave like an adult and that's not really my nature. I can do it, it's not a problem. There's a socially acceptable persona that I present most of the time, but inside I'm a free spirit, a wild child. I imagine that's how most people feel. My grandma is conservative, very responsible and a person who you can count on to do what she says she's going to do. That said, when she was in her late teens she worked in a club as a cage dancer (occasionally topless). So maybe it's common thought for everyone.
Sometimes, I kinda wish I could break loose like I once did.
carmen_b
06-15-2019, 01:41 PM
^ I think a lot of us can relate here.
( ahem, my case ..... total double life .... responsible lady in one city ..... naughty stripper in the next )
;)
seashell
06-15-2019, 03:05 PM
^Totally, I am also trying to be more responsible. I realized within the past few months that I have been really babied by men for the past several years, with them doing housework and taking care of my taxes, things like that. Literally only in the past month have I started sweeping my own floor and making my bed every day. Better late than never I guess? Hehe.
I've always been a hard worker in other ways, but I feel so much more mature and grounded these days.
My confession is, my ex just texted me. I don't know what to do. We broke up over a year ago, and I can't even talk about it without crying. I need distance but his friendship has been positive in many ways, so it's hard to imagine cutting him out of my life completely.
cyberstripper
06-15-2019, 05:44 PM
^ SOOOO hot .
Fellow squirter here , haha. The dudes dig it. Watch .... he will talk about it for days. Haha. ;)
Woo hoo!! Last night I did it again! and yes my bf said it will "up his ego" He has never made a woman squirt but it is not him. Hell I'm 36 and just now learning about the finicky bitch that is my spot lol after many years of practice.
I noticed on both occasions that I experienced a slight feeling like period cramps right after. I'm sure it is different for everyone and could be because I'm just not used to this angle I must be fucked in to make it happen. Does this happen to anyone else?
It is really sad to me that there is not much scientific research done on this topic. I've been researching up on this and everything is conflicting and different, as to be expected when reading about female parts. And yes I realize we are all different but yeesh!
xStacey
06-15-2019, 09:19 PM
I have a crush on this lawyer I am working for. He is brilliant, super smart and is totally rich. I love his sense of humour and he's very attractive for a main in his 50s and does not look like it, even the men juniors at our firm talk about how good he looks. I would totally sleep with him if we were not in the same field LOL. We are working together on a really big complex trial and we're travelling by car 3 hours away to another city and instead of waking up early the same day to go he told me book any hotel you want with two rooms available, find the best. His favorite was the second most expensive and unavailable so I suggested the most expensive one he said I hate it. Some people were like how could he hate this place and another guy was like didn't you see his house? (We had a firm party at his house a while ago, it's huge with a security guard, downtown and with tons of arts lol)
I totally have a huge crush. He gives me the best files ever and extremely interesting work. He wants me to organize the next summer litigation party at his new place it’s huge house located downtown and with a garden lol. We are planning tons of future collaboration including writing academic legal articles. He’s really professional and we are always talking about work most of the time but sometimes share personal stories. I wanted him to be my mentor since I started at the firm last summer and was told by some young lawyer he would never be my mentor because he’s the busiest lawyer and biggest rainmaker in the department and doesn’t have time, that I should take somebody less busy with less hotshot clients. He just told me when I told him the downside at the firm is lack of training and mentorship and he told me if you need help or explanation I always have time during lunch as long as it is planned in advance. I absolutely love working with him but I have to get rid of that huge crush haha (although he’s divorced).
miss.a.p1600
06-15-2019, 11:57 PM
Omg
Omg
This mf got some good ass tongue kissing skills.
My pussy is wet just just thinking about this
I wish y’all could test this out so y’all could know what I’m talking about. Like I might have to say yes to this.
miss.a.p1600
06-16-2019, 08:20 AM
As I get older I feel the need to behave more responsible than I have behaved in the past. I have commitments that require me to behave like an adult and that's not really my nature. I can do it, it's not a problem. There's a socially acceptable persona that I present most of the time, but inside I'm a free spirit, a wild child. I imagine that's how most people feel. My grandma is conservative, very responsible and a person who you can count on to do what she says she's going to do. That said, when she was in her late teens she worked in a club as a cage dancer (occasionally topless). So maybe it's common thought for everyone.
Sometimes, I kinda wish I could break loose like I once did.
Girl me too.
I know this is one of the reasons why I prefer single relationship status. I don’t like the required responsibilities that come along with it.
I struggle sometimes with commitments
I also feel more free-spirited than most of my conservative friends n family. And I do have to put on this professional image around them.
SnuffleUffleGrass
06-16-2019, 06:27 PM
My confession is, my ex just texted me. I don't know what to do. We broke up over a year ago, and I can't even talk about it without crying. I need distance but his friendship has been positive in many ways, so it's hard to imagine cutting him out of my life completely.
What did he text about? IMO if he might help you in the future I'd send a short text back.
A HumbleBrag confession- I was at a garage sale near my place today and overheard the people running it raving about a restaurant I worked at years ago. I was quietly proud they liked it so much (I'm sure they didn't recognize me). Back when I was working there it was super stressful and the management was super strict. But I have a few nice memories. Overall my hard work helped make that place a popular one around here.
carmen_b
06-16-2019, 07:16 PM
I want my former Aussie lover to CALL me and tell me he has a place for us set up on the coast in July and that he missed me and please get here soon. Lol. Embarrassing !!
There is 99.9% chance of that not happening so hopefully the thought is a passing phase.
( still in no communication mode and putting effort towards seeing others )
WendiStarr
06-17-2019, 11:29 AM
I'm exhausted easily these days and I have two loads of laundry to do. I just don't feel like sitting at a laundromat for 2-3 hours. My daughter and I have enough clean clothes still but were both running out of clean undies. I confess that I went to the store and bought new panties for us. Target is only 10 ft from my home. My next home definitely needs to have a washer and dryer in it or at least washer and dryer hookups in it so that I can buy a washer and dryer. I would seriously pay someone to do my laundry.
charlie61
06-17-2019, 01:06 PM
This is a touchy topic on SW, i know...
I confess that i've considered dancing behind my partner's back. Not because i need money, but because i want more money (to buy fun, totally unnecessary stuff instead of using my vanilla-job money for it). There are some really silly things I'd love to be able to buy without it affecting my savings - a crazy-nice espresso machine for my partner, all kinds of random stuff for myself...
Dancing came with many upsides and downsides for me, and i haven't done it in three years. I'm not going to pretend like dancing was all innocent, easy money - it was such hard work, involving regular, casual sexual assault, huge physical and emotional demands, etc. I always question if i even could do it again. My partner doesn't understand the industry at all - i know guys, I'm working on him... these things take time. I'd rather be with someone who is wary of sex work over someone who fetishizes it - and is not in any way cool with me dabbling in dancing as a side hustle. And honestly, i can understand. I'm not a jealous person, but even i think I'd really struggle if my partner's job were to seduce hundreds of women on a regular basis...
I'm conflicted because it's not like i need a bunch of money, but extra money is always nice to have... but breaking my partner's trust would be an unforgivable move. For me, it'd just be a lucrative side hustle, but for him it'd be a betrayal of trust, like as if I'd gone out and slept with someone else.
He has a four-night motorcycle trip coming up, and i sometimes think of that time as an opportunity.... He also works on Mondays, and i don't (that could be a regular work opportunity if i were to dance)...
JGB2009
06-17-2019, 05:32 PM
I always go MIA on purpose cause I know eventually you will come and find me. LOL I like it when you chase me around. Haha guilty pleasure of mine.
carmen_b
06-17-2019, 05:39 PM
Oh Charlie : That such a hard decision. I assumed you've chatted with him and just to be clean he is in the " it's ok in the past box but not current ?"
( that's how my long term ex was and why I didn't work for so long )