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WendiStarr
07-02-2019, 12:44 PM
I have mostly hung out in my bedroom on my bed today because it's the only cool room in my apartment. The a/c unit and my fan are in there. It's so hot and humid today and I have no energy anyways.
Elektra Luxx
07-03-2019, 04:47 AM
I hadn't seen McDonald's Guy in a couple of weeks and I was thinking that he's on vacation or quit. But today he was there and I was so happy to see him. I ask him why he hasn't been at work and he tells me that someone tried to carjack his younger brother's car and his brother was shot. He's still in the hospital, but is out of ICU.
I just wanted to give McDonald's Guy a hug.
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-03-2019, 06:26 AM
I hadn't seen McDonald's Guy in a couple of weeks and I was thinking that he's on vacation or quit. But today he was there and I was so happy to see him. I ask him why he hasn't been at work and he tells me that someone tried to carjack his younger brother's car and his brother was shot. He's still in the hospital, but is out of ICU.
I just wanted to give McDonald's Guy a hug.
Yikes!
That was my most unfavorite part of living in a shitty poor area with a lot of losers and other poor people, random horrible things can happen and set you back, ruin everything or leave you with permanent hardships from causes not of your own doing...... & It's all unfair but for people living outside of that, they just tell you to "work harder" to get out of that. Ugh.
miss.a.p1600
07-03-2019, 06:34 AM
^ i inadvertently dated a racist dude once and this trick was like “oh I’d hate to be a (insert race) man in this field cause they have it so much harder” then in the next breath he was like “well if (insert race) men want to get ahead in this field they need to work hard!”
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-03-2019, 06:52 AM
^ i inadvertently dated a racist dude once and this trick was like “oh I’d hate to be a (insert race) man in this field cause they have it so much harder” then in the next breath he was like “well if (insert race) men want to get ahead in this field they need to work hard!”
Yeah I have heard things like that.
OK a funny confession from me- I Googled my sister and found out she had professional headshots done for her job (good for her.) The funny part is she still has her "crazy eyes" look in pro photos (her occupation requires kind of a softer side to dealing with people so I wasn't expecting what she looked like.) Of course I know how she is so it's better people get that visual hint before they meet her lol....
baer45
07-03-2019, 07:45 AM
I just wanted to give McDonald's Guy a hug.
Don't get out of the car...
carmen_b
07-03-2019, 09:21 AM
I hope Travel J / dog dad will F^*k me tonight. ;)
I have sent over some text hints about being horny every day the last few.....
I will never will awards for being subtle I'm afraid. I have a feeling it's on.
I need to clean the damn house.
Aurora_Sunset
07-04-2019, 09:08 AM
I don't feel like myself lately, and I don't know what to do about it. I've always loved learning. I used to constantly look into schools, degrees, certifications, online classes, and anything that would teach me something new. Nowadays, I have no desire to start anything that takes brain power. I've never been that way, and it's depressing. I've hit a point where I would like to focus on a career path but I still have no idea what I ultimately want to do. I know I need more money than I'm currently making, but no idea how to get it without killing my soul, because I know I cannot survive in a company or job I hate.
I'm in a place of a lot of responsibilities with no idea how to manage them in a way that still allows me a life I enjoy, and no idea what I even want to do in life.
I feel like I need a binge-week in Vegas or something to turn my mind off and then back on again to reset it. I know that usually allowing myself to go through a blatant "rock bottom burn out" period will eventually cause me to bounce back up again. But I can't do that with all the responsibilities over my head and the need to just keep coasting... I feel like a typical 30-something cliche, stuck in a cycle of trudging through life "doing what I have to do" even though each day feels more uninspiring than the last.
carmen_b
07-04-2019, 10:34 AM
I wonder if he is lacking in that sexual generosity I'm looking for ?
I wonder if I have just been spoiled.
He treats me well and is cuddly.
I think maybe I am just being really picky ( I have these memories of B settling in on my clit like it was the most fascinating thing on the planet ). ;(
This guy seems to be more of a " one for you / one for me " type ...... but my body likes marathon sessions.
I had to ask again for fingering . What do you guys think ?
Break it off or another try ? He's still here talking to a buddy on the phone in the other room .
I do feel comfy with him in a lot of other ways.
Am I being immature? He smells SO good. He treats me well and works hard. If I'm a couple O's short .... maybe I'll just get into toys after he leaves ? I don't think I will break it off . I will follow his lead and see how it goes. We are still learning each other bodies . Would you guys break it off with someone just for not getting you off a FEW times ?
miss.a.p1600
07-04-2019, 10:52 AM
Depends on your threshold for training?
whirlerz
07-04-2019, 10:58 AM
Aw. I hope it gets better for you, Raven!
I cancelled last night, the room..
That place's divey, I'm already in a dive, lol.
This lady behind me, threw out by the garbage a large aluminium table, I put it over by the wooded area, cause she kinda bitches about the stuff she throws out & then I squirrel away under my porch.
carmen_b
07-05-2019, 10:19 AM
Damn. Woke up horny AF . I'm trying to play it cool with the new dude. We said twice a week felt right to us a few days ago. I really don't want to be the one throwing more "needy" requests in two weeks after meeting.
Still trying to decide if his " one for you / one for me " attitude with orgasms is something I can deal with. Lol. I hope he changes his mind on it . ;/
Aurora_Sunset
07-05-2019, 10:40 AM
I really should work today but I have no energy to do so. I'm trying to justify it by saying that I'll work extra long tomorrow. I know I should work both days, but realistically, I know myself. Whenever I work all day Friday, I can't find the motivation to do anything Saturday. So I've decided better to just lounge today when I'm feeling kinda crummy from eating out and drinking last night, and work extra hard tomorrow when I've recovered rather than force myself to work when I feel like crap and take tomorrow off from burning out. That's what I'm telling myself anyway...
carmen_b
07-05-2019, 10:42 AM
^ I'm so tired too ! Caught in the great debate of should I try to work ect. !
Am I really worried the club will be terrible the day after a holiday. On the other hand, I am making $0 puttering around here .
Nyla19
07-05-2019, 11:35 AM
I really should work today but I have no energy to do so. I'm trying to justify it by saying that I'll work extra long tomorrow. I know I should work both days, but realistically, I know myself. Whenever I work all day Friday, I can't find the motivation to do anything Saturday. So I've decided better to just lounge today when I'm feeling kinda crummy from eating out and drinking last night, and work extra hard tomorrow when I've recovered rather than force myself to work when I feel like crap and take tomorrow off from burning out. That's what I'm telling myself anyway...
Maybe you just need a break, self love and care. Get some sleep, drink a lot of water and try to pamper your body and mind. Feel better!
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-05-2019, 11:36 AM
Funny-morbid confession- I had a vivid dream about my boyfriend's friend G & I think it's about his mortality BUT my poor boyfriend is enjoying his holiday weekend off so much I'm not going to burden him with hearing about it.
Also it wouldn't take a clairvoyant person to say "G might die soon" because he has had serious heart issues for years. TBH I don't know how he has lasted this long actually.
I'll just act really surprised when we hear about him passing away...
carmen_b
07-05-2019, 11:37 AM
^ Aw. Yeah .... don't mention it for sure. ;)
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-05-2019, 12:00 PM
^ Aw. Yeah .... don't mention it for sure. ;)
I really like G as a person so I was sad to have these thoughts. However heart problems are the leading cause of death in modern society. In this case it's pointless to overstate the obvious. It was an interesting dream though....
carmen_b
07-05-2019, 10:08 PM
^ Can they pay to play ?
Sorry don't listen to me, I am having a hard time behaving overall in life right now. Lol.
Glamourmilf
07-06-2019, 09:11 AM
When married men hit on me it makes me so happy I'm single and not a woman in a relationship.
^ Can they pay to play ?
Sorry don't listen to me, I am having a hard time behaving overall in life right now. Lol.
I always get hit on by married men. I think that too.
I WAS the faithful wife at home, during 2 marriages in which both husbands cheated.
Now, I thank God every day that I'm too wise to be in that situation.
I can't wait until I can be a full time Hooker! ( I really like that word. It's old school, and it gets the point across.)
WendiStarr
07-06-2019, 10:42 AM
I am obsessed with french fries lately.
carmen_b
07-06-2019, 04:11 PM
^ My faves. Lol.
Fresh cut non frozen fries and pretty young dudes. Lol.
JGB2009
07-06-2019, 08:48 PM
I have been talking to this one guy a lot lately. I have known him for a long time. I like how he pays attention to me and he is a breath of fresh air. My confession is I wish we were more than what we are. Maybe one day or maybe not, but I can wish right.
miss.a.p1600
07-06-2019, 08:53 PM
I always get hit on by married men. I think that too.
I WAS the faithful wife at home, during 2 marriages in which both husbands cheated.
Now, I thank God every day that I'm too wise to be in that situation.
I can't wait until I can be a full time Hooker! ( I really like that word. It's old school, and it gets the point across.)
Same here! I seem to subconsciously attract married men like bees to honey.
And I be trying to escape their asses cause I don’t have time to be dealing with no Bertha bitch breathing down my neck about home wrecking her already wrecked home and having to end up in jail for kicking berthas ass
miss.a.p1600
07-06-2019, 08:56 PM
I guess I’m glad I went out with old dude and had a good time. Helped me take my mind off the fuckery if giving the young dude a chance then having that turn into mild disaster
Glamourmilf
07-07-2019, 09:27 AM
Same here! I seem to subconsciously attract married men like bees to honey.
And I be trying to escape their asses cause I don’t have time to be dealing with no Bertha bitch breathing down my neck about home wrecking her already wrecked home and having to end up in jail for kicking berthas ass
She would probably be handing you the keys.
If the women where you live are anything like the ones here are.
They all hate their husbands, and haven't fucked em in years.
MissTay
07-07-2019, 10:45 AM
Just realized I had access to this part! Nice because feels more private and no random men messaging me!
I was with my X for most of my life. He was the only guy I had been with. I left him about 6 months ago and been enjoying life more in all areas. Haven't really told anybody this but I def have been meeting a lot of guys since then and having much deserved fun. Been guilty of hooking up a lot and not giving a damn. I feel like this is the only place I can be open about that. Def would not be telling friends! lol
carmen_b
07-07-2019, 01:59 PM
^ Your story is like mine . Long time partner left 11 months ago.
Since then I've been very er .... " active " on the dating scene. Haha.
Enjoyed a great trio of lovers ( not consecutively the whole time but phasing one in after one ) and their talents the last 3-4 months were wonderful. I have lately started looking at things more seriously.
seashell
07-07-2019, 03:06 PM
I just cried because someone liked my Instagram post.
I miss him. We were supposed to hang out this weekend. I've had a really shitty week, emotions are haywire.
lynn2009
07-07-2019, 06:03 PM
Elizabeth Warren is one of my favorites of the crowded Democratic field, but I'm still kind of upset about her staff member I talked to for a couple weeks last year and then went he went AWOL. Even starting on my mid-20s, people never even tried to be interesting or engaging in online dating and I'm still sad I was so desperate and blew it.
carmen_b
07-07-2019, 08:08 PM
Ugh, I just turned down an extra $300 ( would have taken 15 min. haha ) to stay within my boundaries. What are my boundaries ?!?!
Fuck.
( anyway , don't quote as I'll be deleting )
I did make $200 for 54 minutes so there is that at a time when other money options were not really there.
carmen_b
07-07-2019, 08:12 PM
My dude was just here for date #4 ( we are busy .... I think I've only seen him that many times since we met a couple weeks ago ).
We eat ( I learned how to use door dash for the first time ! ) , walk the dogs, and watch some YouTube with snuggles. He warned me ha had to leave a little early tonight. I just didn't expect him to actually DO it. So promptly at 8:45 p.m. he made his way out. My light attempts to get him into bed didn't work.
Whether they were even light attempts is open to your interpretation ( I was in the bed reporting I was there waiting for " cuddles " ).
Still kinda wrapping my head around that one as I'm DTF right now.
At this moment I feel like he misled me with a " high libido " comment he dropped a week ago. I am not really sure this dude can take care of me sexually ( with monogamy ). I can probably wait 1-2 days to see if he surfaces with some sexual attention to offer but if this type of volume ( only fooling around once a week ) is his standard of " high libido " ......we have very different versions of what that phrase means. I'm also just embarrassed in general because our sex stuff hasn't been totally smooth. I am wondering if he is just avoiding it / needs a break which makes me nervous. We had sex 4 days ago and he only lives 60 minutes away. You'd think he would have been here even sooner or DEFINITELY made it happen again tonight.
I am trying not to be a creeper but I'm tempted to call in a back up player to play this last half of the night .
He's a good guy. If I end up breaking it off it will be the first time I've ever done it due to the person just being too busy / not being able to give time. I travel so frequently I'm used to being the one that makes the person wait and I would like to keep my trend up.
charlie61
07-07-2019, 09:51 PM
^I hate to suggest it, but this dude sounds married.
carmen_b
07-07-2019, 10:02 PM
You know what ..... that is actually very much something I was thinking myself.
I'll go over both sides .....
Here is the " yeah, he could married side "......
1. Basically ..... his 63 hour work week ( he claims 5 12 hours days M-F and a few on Saturday ) *could* be a cover.
2. I haven't been to his place. He turned down an offer for a spontaneous visit Friday ( 2 days ago ) when I told him I could be there in an hour at about 8p.m.
3. He's " dark " on social media - hard to find . FB / LinkedIn dark
Evidence that he's *hopefully* not .......
1. I google stalked and it appears he's divorced 2.5 years ago which matches his story . I may just have my dad run a more professional background check.
2. One of our dates was 24 hours . Seems significant plus a location without cell signal ( but not 100% a guarantee ). Kind of hard to " go dark " digitally with a partner but still is possible.
3. I did my usual light online stalk and it does show a larger home sold 2.5 years ago and him living in a smaller apartment now ( more suitable to a single ).
4. I google stalked to confirm the management position at work. As a manager he is in that at risk territory for the workaholic thing ( I know as I'm recovered mostly but still slip back into unhealthy workaholic stuff here and there ).
carmen_b
07-07-2019, 10:30 PM
I actually think it might even be an overt ( or subconcious ) way to punish me for trying to " wait " with him on dates 1-2. We had sex on date #3 which felt good to me. The reason I waited was due to him being from a conservative town in a conservative state. I was worried he would have " hold over " views on sex somewhat and women that are " too easy " not being worth it or something.
Or just luck. I didn't want to have sex right away for luck reasons ..... just wanted to try to wait and solidify things.
charlie61
07-07-2019, 10:38 PM
You know what ..... that is actually very much something I was thinking myself.
I'll go over both sides .....
Here is the " yeah, he could married side "......
1. Basically ..... his 63 hour work week ( he claims 5 12 hours days M-F and a few on Saturday ) *could* be a cover.
2. I haven't been to his place. He turned down an offer for a spontaneous visit Friday ( 2 days ago ) when I told him I could be there in an hour at about 8p.m.
Evidence that he's *hopefully* not .......
1. I google stalked and it appears he's divorced 2.5 years ago which matches his story . He's " dark " on social media - hard to find . I hate to look up his ex wife but maybe I will now ( I don't want to compare physically to myself and get into that mental stuff ) just to make sure there are not photos? I think. I really didn't want to know anything about her . I may just have my dad run a more professional background check.
2. One of our dates was 24 hours . Seems significant plus a location without cell signal ( but not 100% a guarantee ). Kind of hard to " go dark " digitally with a partner but still is possible.
3. I did my usual light online stalk and it does show a larger home sold 2.5 years ago and him living in a smaller apartment now ( more suitable to a single ).
4. I google stalked to confirm the management position at work. As a manager he is in that at risk territory for the workaholic thing ( I know as I'm recovered mostly but still slip back into unhealthy workaholic stuff here and there ).
Yeah, it was just a vibe i got from your post. Does he control where you hang out? Like, is he open to dates close to where he lives? Or do you always stay in / order in / go to places far from where he lives, etc.? Is he the one who always picks out where you go? Is he weird about never leaving his phone lying around, even when you're just hanging out at your place?
Married men can usually negotiate 24-hr visits away from their partners by claiming they're on business trips.
I'm not trying to inspire paranoia. It really is just a vibe i got from your post. Sorry for the threadjack! Might be best to take this into the dating thread...
carmen_b
07-07-2019, 10:52 PM
( moving to dating thread ) ^^
WendiStarr
07-08-2019, 09:09 AM
I'm feeling frustrated, lonely, and horny as heck. My boyfriend has been doing a shitty job of making me feel loved and cared for lately. He cancelled plans on me twice within the past week because he was hungover. He promised that he'll have more time for me this week. I haven't seen him in 6 days. It seems his drinking has gotten out of control. I don't remember him drinking like that before. I know that I have a high sex drive and can be hard to keep up with but he used to match me. It's not even the sex, he could choose to be around if he wanted to and I feel like he's either choosing alcohol over me or he must've found another woman and is using being hungover as an excuse.
carmen_b
07-08-2019, 09:18 AM
^ Aw. I feel for you lady !
I'm in the exact same position. I don't like to be the one going " I need more time and more sex " but it's 100% the truth of the matter for me currently.
I do hope it's the holiday and some ( temporary ) hard partying for your bf. :)
I wouldn't assume just yet he had found another playmate. My ex from a long time ago would do that kind of stuff ( go on little party binges ) but he was never unfaithful ( we knew way too many people together , I would have heard for sure ).
My current partner claims he is working 7-7 today. In my fantasy land he will leave at 5 p.m. to be at my place by 6:30 ( or invite me to his ) and give me that sex binge I'm looking for. In reality he will probably actually work until 7p.m. and text me about 8 saying he is exhausted. I admire his work ethic but as someone who has fought HARD for work / life balance ..... I'm not sure I can deal with it. I'm trying to decide.
miss.a.p1600
07-08-2019, 07:35 PM
^I hate to suggest it, but this dude sounds married.
or simply just a player type dude who is playing the field and/or likes to make women chase
charlie61
07-08-2019, 10:12 PM
I confess that i've been re-watching Gossip Girl on Netflix lately. Embarrassing! :P
carmen_b
07-09-2019, 11:15 AM
So emotionally hung over from thinking I had a boyfriend a week ago then realizing I don’t ( by my definition ).
Lol
Male avoidance time. Other than the club.
Next week I will start to have an eye out for a man who can properly serve.
jadey23
07-09-2019, 01:19 PM
I thought I would have cut ties with my controlling/narcissistic ex by now since we broke up exactly a year ago but I’m still here... still totally financially dependent on him and on top he’s got a ton of my money tied up for the time being thAT I would need to actually cut ties go no contact.. still haven’t dated or hooked up with anyone and he’s still seeing the girl that he cheated on me with.. I can’t break the lease on our place till January so I’m just a sitting duck.. he’s bicoastal and comes to stay with me every 2 months or so and stays for ~2 weeks at a time, we still go out on dates, kiss/cuddle, sleep in the same bed, say I love you call each other Babe but we don’t have sex it’s such a weird situation it has my head spinning.. he comes and goes as he pleases... his moods are entirely unpredictable he’ll go from loving/sweet/confesses how much he loves me and wants me to have his baby but then the next minute seems to resent me for still being around and wishes that I would just move on. He’s beat up his girlfriend twice already and the cops have already been involved I really don’t know what their situation is but he’s def lying to both of us all the time. I just have no recourse right now until January I’m so sad and drained whenever he’s in town but also sad when he’s away. 5 years it’s hard to walk away from him even though he continually disrespects me. I’m just looking forward to the end of this year so I can at least move out of this god damn house.
baer45
07-09-2019, 01:29 PM
( only fooling around once a week ) is his standard of " high libido " ......we have very different versions of what that phrase means.
That sounds like someone in his 50s with a long term relationship.
carmen_b
07-09-2019, 01:39 PM
He just turned 40. Lol
I’d date in 50’s for sugar and be cool with once a week.
I’m seriously still here going wtf ?
He said he wanted exclusive. Said he was high libido.
Thought I got what I wanted. I did not. Honestly, for the last week I thought a had a boyfriend / a new partner.
We have so much in common that it’s just really sad.
Who makes someone wait 6 days for a second round of sex?
That would be if he showed up tonight or invited me there tonight.
I would give him another chance maybe but he will have to put some serious effort in and I don’t know if he will. He claimed he worked 12 hours then helped his mom for 3 hours yesterday. So my lonely pussy paid a price but his mom ( supposedly ) has a nice yard ?!? I sort of hate him and might torture him later or may just ignore .
carmen_b
07-09-2019, 01:42 PM
Jadey !
Aw. Just cut ties now. Pay whatever it takes to be rid of him ( if you give notice I doubt your property manager would go after you ). Maybe a lost deposit at worst.
I thought I would have cut ties with my controlling/narcissistic ex by now since we broke up exactly a year ago but I’m still here... still totally financially dependent on him and on top he’s got a ton of my money tied up for the time being thAT I would need to actually cut ties go no contact.. still haven’t dated or hooked up with anyone and he’s still seeing the girl that he cheated on me with.. I can’t break the lease on our place till January so I’m just a sitting duck.. he’s bicoastal and comes to stay with me every 2 months or so and stays for ~2 weeks at a time, we still go out on dates, kiss/cuddle, sleep in the same bed, say I love you call each other Babe but we don’t have sex it’s such a weird situation it has my head spinning.. he comes and goes as he pleases... his moods are entirely unpredictable he’ll go from loving/sweet/confesses how much he loves me and wants me to have his baby but then the next minute seems to resent me for still being around and wishes that I would just move on. He’s beat up his girlfriend twice already and the cops have already been involved I really don’t know what their situation is but he’s def lying to both of us all the time. I just have no recourse right now until January I’m so sad and drained whenever he’s in town but also sad when he’s away. 5 years it’s hard to walk away from him even though he continually disrespects me. I’m just looking forward to the end of this year so I can at least move out of this god damn house.
jadey23
07-09-2019, 01:51 PM
^^ ufffff I wish I literally don’t even have enough saved to do anything, have no where to bring my dogs, and we have another roommate here who would be completely fucked if I left suddenly. Just trying to stay optimistic & remind myself that it’s only a few more months <3
carmen_b
07-09-2019, 01:52 PM
Oh ..... and in case this dude is wondering how to answer a womans " I'm horny, please help me .... " texts , this is how you answer :
Me yesterday ( to another gent ): "Horny AF, Help. This is an official s.o.s. message."
Gent : " I'm free tomorrow. What do you have in mind ? "
carmen_b
07-09-2019, 01:59 PM
I don't mean to press this, but I just have this really strong feeling that even renting out your room or doing whatever action is takes to get away would be best.
He has violence issues you said right ? You can use that to get out of your lease and that other roommate I'm sure could crash with a friend or find a room ( give a couple weeks notice to them that you are bringing the violence thing up with the lease company ).
I mean .... you know best .... but if you insist on staying in the lease, I would at least ignore him when he is there unless you are 100% on board with the non-monogamy he is offering ( I know you said you don't have sex but you easily find a better partner BY January ...... it will be harder if he is lingering about ).
^^ ufffff I wish I literally don’t even have enough saved to do anything, have no where to bring my dogs, and we have another roommate here who would be completely fucked if I left suddenly. Just trying to stay optimistic & remind myself that it’s only a few more months <3
jadey23
07-09-2019, 02:25 PM
Staying on the lease is my best bet for now, he’s never been violent with me which is odd because he was violent w his ex before me and now the girl after me. I think it’s just my dad was abusive and I can read cues from violent men when things are about to go down, I completely eject myself from the situation very early on before they’re even aware of how angry they actually are. This situation would be sooooo much easier to stomach if I was dating but that’s a completely different shitshow especially in LA ! I thought I’d have a steady hookup by now for sure but an entire year came and went and the dry spell continues -_-