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SnuffleUffleGrass
08-08-2019, 05:56 AM
Bf left his phone sitting there and I saw something that I wish I hadn't. It was a text from last month, him thanking someone named Christine for referring him to a moving service. This Christine sent him a text saying,"No problem. Can't wait to see your new place" followed by a kissy face with a heart emoji. I don't see any further texts between them but it makes me wonder. Why would he save it. I don't know.

Ugh.

Oh well.. Now you know.....

Glamourmilf
08-08-2019, 07:57 AM
I confess that I'm afraid to go out.
All of these shootings ( another attack last night in socal), ( only with a machete and knife), have shaken me to my core.
I mentioned it in my grief group yesterday. Not surprising everyone there is also afraid.
The counselor explained that after a death occurs in our lives,we tend to feel more vulnerable.
The Walmart, and other stores, have​ been completely empty.
"This too shall pass."

Jalena
08-08-2019, 01:41 PM
Just checked my email to find a message regarding an interview I had scheduled today -- I scheduled it yesterday afternoon and completely forgot about it. FML.

carmen_b
08-08-2019, 07:03 PM
I don’t want to be tempted by Mr Disappointment.
I hit the apps this week.

Mr 6’8” from Alaska is meeting me in 5-10 minutes. :)

carmen_b
08-09-2019, 01:49 AM
^ Went out. Good connection.
He just left. I think what lured me is he was extremely complimentary.
He is a little heavier ( more so than the pictures ) which makes me hesitant to be serious. Am I terrible ? His eyes are gorgeous and he's an amazing cuddler. I did have to ask for more gentle kissing. He's 8 years younger than me and seems very eager to please which I like.

I was totally up front about everything with him ( my long term relationship ending last Aug., then B leaving the country without me in May, then Mr. Disappointment holding me at once a week in June ). He said something about feeling like he could give me what I need and then some.

Glamourmilf
08-09-2019, 08:02 AM
I confess that I'm afraid to go out.
All of these shootings ( another attack last night in socal), ( only with a machete and knife), have shaken me to my core.
I mentioned it in my grief group yesterday. Not surprising everyone there is also afraid.
The counselor explained that after a death occurs in our lives,we tend to feel more vulnerable.
The Walmart, and other stores, have​ been completely empty.
"This too shall pass."

There was a shooting a few miles from my house yesterday.:'(
Add to that, the dude who walked into Walmart wearing a rifle, 100 rounds of ammo, and a bullet proof vest in Missouri.:O
There's a warning for Chicago too, which I saw posted on the heaux app.
Some wack jobs are planning an event at Walmart on Sunday.
I'm going to step away from the web for a while.
Too much is triggering my PTSD.

carmen_b
08-10-2019, 01:27 PM
I'll confess my error in judgement.
I saw J ( Mr. Disappointment ) last week and we had this nice experience . It gave me hope.
Then ....last night ...... ugh. We head in to snuggle. He is falling asleep so I go into the living room to jerk off and try to fall asleep.
I come back ( he's napped for 20 minutes ) and we start fooling around. Then he starts his usual shit .... trying to climb on me without being covered . I ask if we can shift back a notch and will he touch me ( he hasn't yet knowing fingering is my " thing " ). I realize he is a little nuts in that exact moment. He is being mean and witholding what I’m craving. I am super easy to get off ( touch my clit for 2-5 minutes ).
So I break it off there ( in bed ). I'm crying and he leaves.

I'm not really sure what he was trying to accomplish with his no fingering strategy ........I assume getting kicked out was not it. I was 5 minutes away from having sex with him. I even told him I wanted sex ( in case he needed assurance he would not be left " hanging " ).

If he can't play nice ( ladies come first and perfect condom use ) he can't play at all. He was removed from the boyfriend consideration list long ago for not making more time for me and now he is off the casual lover list. He's handsome ( think a rugged stocky cowboy type ..... dark hair .... dark eyes ... dark beard ) . His looks got him leeway but it's run out.

SnuffleUffleGrass
08-11-2019, 08:37 AM
Gross confession- a strip club customer I had from wayyyyy back got in touch with me yesterday. Ughh. This guy was hard to deal with due to his mental illness (he is a medicated schizophrenic) and for some reason he just thought of me out of the blue and contacted me. Ugh ugh ugh. I played it cool but that was an unwanted reminder of past weirdness lol.....

Elle:)
08-11-2019, 10:39 AM
Sometimes I feel annoyed at my parents for having to financially support them. They weren't great parents and weren't even doing their best. We aren't that close either. I just have feeling of pity towards them.

WendiStarr
08-12-2019, 07:52 AM
He still has a key to my place. I woke up with him in my bed, cuddled up naked against me. He was hard. I turned around to look at him. He smiled at me and said, "Good morning. I was waiting for you to get up so I can eat your pussy". I confess that even though I'm mad at him I couldn't resist letting him do it.

Elektra Luxx
08-12-2019, 01:29 PM
^^^
That's HOT!!!

carmen_b
08-12-2019, 01:43 PM
^ Agreed. Hot AF.

Aurora_Sunset
08-12-2019, 03:57 PM
The last week has been strange. I've been pretty good about working out every day, eating healthier, and not drinking for the most part. I also have significantly cut down on checking my phone, social media scrolling, and TV. These things were easier than I thought they would be, but I haven't felt tons better or more productive like I thought I would. I've been kinda blah and tired pretty often. Yesterday, I did tell hubby that we could break our no-drinking rule to have a glass of Barenjager in honor of our friend in prison. It was his birthday yesterday. I don't feel terrible after drinking like I used to, but I am still not hugely motivated today. I thought sticking to a stricter schedule and cutting out distractions and bad habits would pump me up more, but life still feels.... slow-going?

I am grateful that not drinking hasn't felt like a chore though. I remember the last time I decided not to drink for 30 days, I was so cranky and bored. And eventually started smoking every night instead. This time, I don't even really feel a desire. I sit down with a book instead or go sit on the balcony and listen to music and that's that.

miss.a.p1600
08-12-2019, 11:06 PM
I confess that I am THAT weirdo that likes my male gynecologist

He’s the only male doctor that can make breast exams, inserting a speculum and gloved fingers like it’s nothing.

So far, he’s The only old ass dude, well only dude in general, I trust with my tits n pussy

lurkingtitties
08-13-2019, 07:22 AM
I had a male gyn oncologist recently who was excellent. I was skeptical before my first appointment but it was one of the better pelvic exams I've had. He even had a whole collection of speculums of all different shapes and sizes so he was able to pick one that was more comfortable for the shape of my anatomy.

lynn2009
08-13-2019, 09:38 AM
I had a male gyn oncologist recently who was excellent. I was skeptical before my first appointment but it was one of the better pelvic exams I've had. He even had a whole collection of speculums of all different shapes and sizes so he was able to pick one that was more comfortable for the shape of my anatomy.

I never noticed a pattern, but I've heard that before, that male gynocologists are gentler than female ones.

Glamourmilf
08-14-2019, 08:02 AM
I confess that hanging out with only gay guys has messed with my hustle mojo.
I went over to the hospital because they were having a sale on jewelry at their gift shop.
*That's the only thing that would get me into a hospital, because they freak me out so much.
This really attractive black guy followed me in there.
Turn out, he was an IT guy contracted to work there.
I noticed he was wearing a really cool beaded bracelet, which he said that he made.
In my head, I just thought I was talking with a gay dude.
He made a comment how my body brought him in there.
Stupid me, didn't get the hint.
Damn it!!!!
He lives here. There aren't any black men, which is my preference, that do.
I immediately made up some business cards when I got home.
I'm so out of practice, it's not even funny.:'(

baer45
08-14-2019, 08:46 AM
People say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, how about what doesn't kill you will bruise you for life?

carmen_b
08-14-2019, 04:44 PM
^ This is more accurate in some cases. People carry pain around.

carmen_b
08-14-2019, 07:20 PM
On the road and horny AF.

Fascinated by this dude B in my home city ( all he did was talk to me on our first date , no grabbing / kissing ).
Smooth AF. Not gonna do any traveling flings. No interest.

WendiStarr
08-15-2019, 10:41 AM
I am suffering from a serious case of oneitis.

lynn2009
08-15-2019, 07:29 PM
I had dinner tonight with two women nearing retirement today and I was by far the most boring out of the three of us.

miss.a.p1600
08-15-2019, 08:06 PM
I realized in my early twenties while I was having sex in a hotel that happened to have a strategically placed mirror, that I have a fetish ....... katoptronophilia

Elektra Luxx
08-16-2019, 07:37 AM
I had dinner tonight with two women nearing retirement today and I was by far the most boring out of the three of us.

You're so funny!

Glamourmilf
08-16-2019, 07:44 AM
I realized in my early twenties while I was having sex in a hotel that happened to have a strategically placed mirror, that I have a fetish ....... katoptronophilia
Thanks for the info.
I have that fetish too.
Nice to know I'm not the only one.

carmen_b
08-17-2019, 04:40 PM
I know this is the subject of many of my latest posts here but I feel like I'm in heat again and miserable.
I will absolutely take an offer if one comes my way ..... ugh. I'm not doing anything but my phone is on / near. ;/

If you would have asked me yesterday, I would have said I was holding out to get to know Aviation B on a friendship level ( something he talked about in his profile ) and I was prepared to wait. I will hopefully revert back to that attitude soon.

lynn2009
08-17-2019, 06:16 PM
I never thought I would be one of these people, but I think i am going to hire a cleaning service.

carmen_b
08-17-2019, 06:57 PM
^ It's amazing. I go in phases with it.

You'll have to hide it of course out of fear of judgement . Haha

WendiStarr
08-18-2019, 08:36 PM
An ex from 12 years ago wants to go out for coffee sometime this upcoming week. He was the first man to ever go down on me and was one of those rare kind of guys who hated blowjobs. I got horny remembering that. I'm trying to figure out what his motive is. We never had sex so I don't think it's that. Also he's 50 now so I doubt he'll pull the sex card now. Many men start having ED by age 50. He knows that I'm pregnant. I don't really get why he'd want to meet up after all this time but I might because I'm kind of curious.

Elektra Luxx
08-18-2019, 08:57 PM
I never thought I would be one of these people, but I think i am going to hire a cleaning service.

Oh absolutely!! That's a great idea!

carmen_b
08-18-2019, 09:50 PM
I wonder if Aviation B is scared of my online profile. His just talks about wanting a friend. I found the desire to put that out there so compelling.

Mine did mention I was relationship minded but also " high affection needs / high libido " . I can't really update it without it looking weird ( it is Tinder and the matches see your updates ) . It was just that I couldn't believe what J did to me ( only offering affection every 8-10 days IF that ). I hope I can explain that to B. I'm not really a freak or anything like that - just hoping to find the right fit.

This state is cursed ( I've only lived here twice in 2010 and now 2019 ). BOTH times I have ended up with dudes with barely " scratched the itch " as it were.

indiegirl
08-19-2019, 11:05 PM
I have been watching TOO MANY MADEA movies and relating to them as a white girl. I have never cried from laughter so hard. Never watched the movies before. I have a new therapist after the PO-PO got called out of concern because my previous therapist was a moron to check on me. I was so angry he didn't know what to do. I now pay 100 bucks a visit for a smart man with a PHD as a therapist compared to free from that man who considered 51-50-ing me and going weird and saying I was out his scope of practice for the very reason I went to him. Medi-cal insurance in CALI good luck to all! Crazy how price range, you meet better people but welcome to life.

indiegirl
08-20-2019, 12:10 AM
I have been watching TOO MANY MADEA movies and relating to them as a white girl. I have never cried from laughter so hard. Never watched the movies before. I have a new therapist after the PO-PO got called out of concern because my previous therapist was a moron to check on me. I was so angry he didn't know what to do. I now pay 100 bucks a visit for a smart man with a PHD as a therapist compared to free from that man who considered 51-50-ing me and going weird and saying I was out his scope of practice for the very reason I went to him. Medi-cal insurance in CALI good luck to all! Crazy how price range, you meet better people but welcome to life.

On a positive note, Tyler Perry movies have made my week!! I have never watched them and they all are amazing :P!

queenelayliah
08-20-2019, 05:49 AM
I confess that i wrote a post on this site recently and in the post you could tell i was all up in my feelings lol. I expected to get maybe one or two posts of encouragement telling me not to quit n etc., nope,nothing. I feel so hurt and sad., but also confused on why im hurt n sad that people i dont even know didn’t encourage me lol.

Glamourmilf
08-20-2019, 06:18 AM
I have been watching TOO MANY MADEA movies and relating to them as a white girl. I have never cried from laughter so hard. Never watched the movies before. I have a new therapist after the PO-PO got called out of concern because my previous therapist was a moron to check on me. I was so angry he didn't know what to do. I now pay 100 bucks a visit for a smart man with a PHD as a therapist compared to free from that man who considered 51-50-ing me and going weird and saying I was out his scope of practice for the very reason I went to him. Medi-cal insurance in CALI good luck to all! Crazy how price range, you meet better people but welcome to life.
I absolutely love Madea movies!
A drag queen showed up at church on Sunday, dressed as Madea.
Did the entire 'running from the ' po po' routine skit.
The minister is gay, and was in on the joke.
But, none of the old white people got it.
They didn't even know who Madea was.
The look on all of their faces, when he came strutting down the aisle, shaking his huge titties. :O Priceless.:rotfl:

Glamourmilf
08-20-2019, 06:48 AM
I confess that something one of my gay husbands said on Tuesday is still bothering me.
*I would love feedback please.
I was mentioning that I met an 80 year old woman who's in hospice ( she's dying) at my grief group.
How I thought she was so brave to get dressed and attend the group ( her husband of 65 years, just died 2 months ago).
His reply was, " Why was she even there? Why doesn't she just stay home and die already?"
:O:O
I looked at him, to see if he was kidding ( which still would have been awful if he was).
He wasn't kidding. He said he was serious.
He knows that I lost both parents, etc.
What a horrible thing to say.
I get it.
He's HIV positive at 50 years old, has no life anymore. He has been a prison guard for 25 years. Very anti social, OCD,etc.
He's pissed at the world.
*He's also the friend who,..... When I told him I was going to be homeless, and asked if I could pay him to rent a room in his 2 story six bedroom house, never returned my call.
It took me 2 years to reconnect with him and forgive him for that.
Only to find out that the reason he didn't want me to move in, was because he was having random guys from the internet come over and fuck him.
As a result, he has HIV.
Karma is no joke.
When he said that the other day, it became apparent that he has never, nor will he ever be there for me.
He also said something, when discussing the reasons why he is a republican.
He looked me dead in the eye, and said, " Because I like people who follow the law."
I'm questioning why he's in my life.
He's never going to be there for me if I get sick ( proven already. When I have been sick, he always just turns it back to how sick he is.)
I'm sure if he knew that I escort, even cammed, that he'd have no problem turning me in.
On the other hand, he's a great reference to have for new jobs, landlord issues, just in case. Maybe. Now I'm not even sure about that.
What do you think?

Sooo, this guy.
He took a trip to Arizona, and has decided to move there when he retires from the prison next year.
He invited me over today to see all of the photos of the house he's buying.
Once again, no room for Glam if she goes to Arizona for a visit.:-\
I'm tempted to ask him if I can bring over my laundry and do it at his house. After all, it's 115 degrees outside, and there's no ac in my laundry room.:'(
I know that will completely set off his cleaning OCD.
And I'm here for it.

Glamourmilf
08-21-2019, 09:22 AM
[QUOTE=Glamourmilf;3132342]Sooo, this guy.
He took a trip to Arizona, and has decided to move there when he retires from the prison next year.
He invited me over today to see all of the photos of the house he's buying.
Once again, no room for Glam if she goes to Arizona for a visit.:-\
I'm tempted to ask him if I can bring over my laundry and do it at his house. After all, it's 115 degrees outside, and there's no ac in my laundry room.:'(
I know that will completely set off his cleaning OCD.
And I'm here for it.[/QUOTE


Well, well, well.

*Rant ahead.
Check THIS out.
He lured me over to his house, to ask me if he could stay with me until he moves out to Arizona.
He's putting his house on the market immediately.
He said that he won't have a place to stay until he retires Nov 2020, at which time he's going to move out of state.
Isn't THIS an interesting turn of events?
Dude. Don't you remember turning me away, and ghosting me when I was going to be homeless? Leaving me to live on the street?
All because you wanted to have random strangers from the internet come over to your 6 bedroom house and fuck you raw in secret? Now you have HIV from that behavior?
No. No. And HELL no!!
Karmic retribution baby!
*Add to this. I went to hug him hello, and he told me after that he had a shingles breakout!
On his face and neck!!
He kept picking at it.
I've read where shingles can't be transferred.
Really?
Then explain why I had them for the very first time a week after he and I were hanging out. I got them on my right side. Same side that we were cozied up, taking selfies.
GTFO!

baer45
08-21-2019, 10:28 AM
I am driving my sister in law's Porsche like a maniac. I hate her a little less now.

WendiStarr
08-21-2019, 12:21 PM
I want to recreate that scene from The Sweetest Thing where Cameron Diaz is getting eaten out while she eats ice cream.

miss.a.p1600
08-21-2019, 04:43 PM
That movie was fn hilarious!

I don’t remember that scene but I’ll have to check out that movie again cause that sounds like something hot to recreate irl

Oh & I’m at the park and this dude comes out of nowhere on a bike all smooth n shit talking about how I look good (I look plain af) and can he get my number lol!!! Well played dude! Well played.

He looked decent and trying to stay fit and so I said ok.

Plus I haven’t heard from scary ass old dude so....might as well see what this mf talking about. I’ll report back either here or the pissy annoyance thread

queenelayliah
08-22-2019, 09:02 PM
Am i ghost? Does no one see me? I exist, damn it!

Elektra Luxx
08-23-2019, 01:53 PM
My cousin is moving to Dallas with her bf to live with her other bf and she has a gf too. I can't stop thinking about it. It's none of my business, but I'm not sure how I feel about it.

I know! I feel like a complete hypocrite considering my past.

lurkingtitties
08-23-2019, 02:08 PM
That’s a lot of people! I respect the poly lifestyle but it seems like a lot of drama.

I’m dying for some sex, omg. I demand the universe send me a fun sexy lover!

WendiStarr
08-23-2019, 03:10 PM
I ended up giving in yesterday and feeding the baby a cheeseburger, no pickles(his/her favorite food, it seems) even though he or she didn't cooperate and show it's girl or boy parts during the ultrasound yesterday. Cheeseburgers are so unhealthy but that seems to be a chronic craving ever since they began occupying my womb.

Elektra Luxx
08-23-2019, 03:25 PM
That’s a lot of people! I respect the poly lifestyle but it seems like a lot of drama.

She's tells me that every one is okay with the arrangement. One night she's with one bf, the next the other bf and sometimes all three are together. Occasionally she'll bring home a girl or another couple.

She's has some pretty hot stories!

NitaBaby
08-23-2019, 03:44 PM
That’s a lot of people! I respect the poly lifestyle but it seems like a lot of drama.


My sentiments exactly. I can be happy for the people who are happy living like that while simultaneously thanking the heavens I don't require or desire it for myself.

Elektra Luxx
08-24-2019, 01:17 PM
I've been watching craft making, home project and home organization videos on YouTube lately. I haven't tried any crafts yet, but I have done some home organization. I like the simple videos, where the Youtuber doesn't stage her videos to show off her perfectly decorated, perfectly organized home. Or doesn't do her videos wearing expensive heels, clothes and jewelry.

whirlerz
08-24-2019, 06:34 PM
Well.
Today this guy comes out to cut the grass.
The maintenance guy has been ill, he usually does that.
Anyway, this guy lives in one of the landlord's other blg & I'd been eyeing him from a distance..
Today I got a closer look, &, he is cuuuute!
He asked me to unplug the weed trimmer from inside, I went to do that, but then the other roomie beat me to it.
Mmmm.

Aurora_Sunset
08-25-2019, 05:35 AM
I honestly wish I had started driving for Uber/Lyft when I was single. I never realized the number of times non-creepy people would ask me to just turn off the app and come party with them. Men and women. I've been invited on boats, to outdoor concerts, out to group get-togethers at bars, to smoke weed. Individual guys who do it have also been super cute as well. Not too long ago, I had this middle-aged, rich, drunk golfer guy offer me a bunch of money to caddy for him the rest of the weekend, and then offer me $200 to turn the app off at the strip club I was taking him to and just come party with him and throw money at the dancers for an hour, because none of his friends wanted to go out with him that night. You know I could've played him at least the rest of the night, if not all weekend, like any other strip club or escort client, when he had no idea who/what he was talking to... ::)

If I was single, had no responsibilities.... I'd be snatching these opportunities up. I used to sit at home wanting ways to organically meet random people/guys, and find crazy adventures to live out my youth, but without going to an overcrowded bar alone and with no plan... If I'd known that half the time, I could hop in my car on a Friday or Saturday, make good money, and then end the night with an invitation to go do something fun and have a memory/story, possibly hot hookup without trolling Tinder.... Maaaan, I woulda been all over this.

I wish I had pulled the trigger when I broke up with my last bf, instead of constantly saying I wanted to do it, but dragging my feet and just picking up endless, shitty OT at the vanilla job until I had no choice and absolutely needed the money this year. I was scared... but now Uber-ing is no big deal. I meet way more cool people that I would totally go party with than I do creepy dudes (even if they do still exist).

Glamourmilf
08-25-2019, 09:32 AM
I've been watching craft making, home project and home organization videos on YouTube lately. I haven't tried any crafts yet, but I have done some home organization. I like the simple videos, where the Youtuber doesn't stage her videos to show off her perfectly decorated, perfectly organized home. Or doesn't do her videos wearing expensive heels, clothes and jewelry.

There's also a few Twitter accounts that are 'Simple hacks' or something to that effect.
It's mesmorizng to watch.
I love that kind of stuff.
If you have the Roku device, there are lots of diy channels.