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KariSwitch
09-30-2019, 12:19 PM
That's kind of heartbreaking. I feel like being betrayed by women can hurt worse than being betrayed by men. :(
Yeah, it's just not as expected from women. It wasn't like I was really looking for anything serious (just got out of a relationship 2 months ago). She knew that. So no clue why she'd hide it. Almost makes it worse to me she knew that too.
carmen_b
09-30-2019, 12:22 PM
SO wrong to not be up front about it !
Ugh !! I would be furious about being lied to .
Totally pissed today... Been seeing/hooking up with a girl I met at the gym for about 3 weeks now. Ran into her yesterday randomly at a sports bar at the beach where she's with a dude who she's married to... She said she doesn't date guys only girls - guess there was a caveat; she's married to a guy but only dates girls on the side.
I thought about keying her car at the gym today, but decided I'd rather not go to jail...
lynn2009
09-30-2019, 01:57 PM
I have a F2F interview tomorrow morning. I could probably make a lot more, but I don't want to start all over at a company just to still have to live in Maryland and stay in the same, boring and siloed branch of my field. I really want to blow it off and relax at home in the morning, like take my dog on a nice long walk and drink my coffee slowly. What a luxury.
Edit: this may be deciding itself, on account of I own two suits and I cannot find either and it's 1am. I have no idea where else they could possibly be.
charlie61
09-30-2019, 02:22 PM
I feel like I'm working in the wrong industry. I work in finance, and i've been with the same company for three years now. I'd really like to get back into medical/ health- it's always been my interest, and i find it very intuitive, whereas i've always found finance to be a bit boring and unintuitive. But i don't want to be a provider...i don't have the credentials or empathy for a role like that. I think i might be able to leverage my current role into a medical role. The idea makes me feel excited but very nervous... job changes are scary, and we're coming up on another economic downturn. I have so much social capital built up at my current job, great benefits in place, etc. But I'm feeling like it's a dead-end job for me, personally. There are plenty of opportunities for role changes and advancement there, but none of them interest me. They all look so boring.
Aurora_Sunset
10-02-2019, 09:12 AM
I feel truly terrible for thinking this, but I have to confess that I absolutely HATE the way my husband sneezes and coughs. It's always so loud and jarring. It must just hit this perfect pitch for my ears that pierces my eardrums. It's like I go deaf for a split second lol
Of course there's nothing he can do about the pitch at which he sneezes or coughs, so I would never say anything, but every time, my internal monologue is "OH MY GOD, SHUT UP" as though he has control over his bodily functions. XD I now cringe every time I hear him gearing up to sneeze.
carmen_b
10-02-2019, 10:27 AM
I want a great sugar daddy to fall out of the damn sky ( and the ethical issue of having one while having a bf just to not be there ).
Lol.
WendiStarr
10-02-2019, 01:26 PM
I wish bf would contribute to the baby stuff stockpile. I have clothes, blankets, a swing, and a big pack of diapers so far and a baby carrier on the way.
carmen_b
10-02-2019, 07:39 PM
OF course the musician recommended to me to book for a day job client ends up being hot as hell.
I am in HEAT . Honestly Universe ..........
Usually I take a percentage. I'm just gonna give it all to him lol. Probably.
miss.a.p1600
10-03-2019, 06:16 AM
Totally pissed today... Been seeing/hooking up with a girl I met at the gym for about 3 weeks now. Ran into her yesterday randomly at a sports bar at the beach where she's with a dude who she's married to... She said she doesn't date guys only girls - guess there was a caveat; she's married to a guy but only dates girls on the side.
I thought about keying her car at the gym today, but decided I'd rather not go to jail...
I remember when I was in college and an ex friend wanted me to help her key her bfs car but didn’t want to get in trouble so she put shaving cream on his car instead lol
miss.a.p1600
10-03-2019, 06:18 AM
I should be working but for some reason I sleep like a BBC - hard and long!
Self get up and be productive!!!
Glamourmilf
10-03-2019, 09:16 AM
I should be working but for some reason I sleep like a BBC - hard and long!
Self get up and be productive!!!
Ha ha! That's a funny BBC reference. Would you mind if I use it on cam? *I specialize in White boys wanting the BBC. And BBC wanting me.:D
I confess that I'm tempted to bait my ex friends live in boyfriend.
Just as I predicted, the cheater started inboxing me the MOMENT he found out about my inheritance.
He's only with my ex friend for HER inheritance, and even cheated on his second wife to do it.
He's barking up the wrong tree.
I really want to tell her. But, at the same time, I don't. The reason we're not close anymore is because she did horrible things to me.
I don't like drama, and believe in karma. So, I probably won't do anything.
I'll just ignore, ignore, ignore.
MissTay
10-04-2019, 05:33 PM
Ha ha! That's a funny BBC reference. Would you mind if I use it on cam? *I specialize in White boys wanting the BBC. And BBC wanting me.:D
I confess that I'm tempted to bait my ex friends live in boyfriend.
Just as I predicted, the cheater started inboxing me the MOMENT he found out about my inheritance.
He's only with my ex friend for HER inheritance, and even cheated on his second wife to do it.
He's barking up the wrong tree.
I really want to tell her. But, at the same time, I don't. The reason we're not close anymore is because she did horrible things to me.
I don't like drama, and believe in karma. So, I probably won't do anything.
I'll just ignore, ignore, ignore.
Is this a growing fetish among white guys? I'm on POF and I get a lot of messages that start off with "do you like white guys". I won't turn down a white guy but most of the guys I date are black. I just vibe better with them. My X is actually white & he is probably a reason I grew a distaste with some white guys. But I sometimes wonder are they asking me that because they want to see some fetish going on or just know I won't be interested in them so they wanna know to stop trying?
carmen_b
10-04-2019, 07:11 PM
( context, have not met his family yet )
Dude texts me " My family has already accepted you " .
As if I give a damn currently ! I have had dick in me ONCE in the last 7 days . Hopefully I can manage to not trip and fall on one during this business trip out of town.
He could make it easy by sending me off NOT horny AF but no.
Randi Starr
10-04-2019, 07:56 PM
Is this a growing fetish among white guys? I'm on POF and I get a lot of messages that start off with "do you like white guys". I won't turn down a white guy but most of the guys I date are black. I just vibe better with them. My X is actually white & he is probably a reason I grew a distaste with some white guys. But I sometimes wonder are they asking me that because they want to see some fetish going on or just know I won't be interested in them so they wanna know to stop trying?
Been popular for awhile. White guys either hate seeing us with a black guy, secretly love it as a fetish or don't care. I think most fall into the first two scenarios at least from what I've seen. Not sure what your POF has on it. Your profile pic you look gorgeous and thick which black men love.
I've seen a lot of girls married to white men get divorced and end up with black men so what youre going through is common. I think for somebody who was with a guy for so long you change and really find out what your really interested in eventually.
WendiStarr
10-04-2019, 08:25 PM
I like to read at night before bed. I feel like it helps me to escape my worries and troubles and go into a different world for a little while.
Glamourmilf
10-05-2019, 09:34 AM
Is this a growing fetish among white guys? I'm on POF and I get a lot of messages that start off with "do you like white guys". I won't turn down a white guy but most of the guys I date are black. I just vibe better with them. My X is actually white & he is probably a reason I grew a distaste with some white guys. But I sometimes wonder are they asking me that because they want to see some fetish going on or just know I won't be interested in them so they wanna know to stop trying?
Yes I do believe it is a fetish.
On cam, and in phone sex, I get mostly white guys who fantasize being with a black man. Dick size is usually why.
Plus, interracial porn is huge.
When I was on dating sites, I was asked that question constantly too.
I'm thick, so I've been told that only black men can handle my body.
Ha ha! So not true.
I do prefer black men as lovers though.
Too bad there aren't any where I now live.
I tried dating white dudes.
But, when they touch me, it gives me the yucks. :yuck::yuck::tapedshut
MissTay
10-05-2019, 09:48 AM
Yes I do believe it is a fetish.
On cam, and in phone sex, I get mostly white guys who fantasize being with a black man. Dick size is usually why.
Plus, interracial porn is huge.
When I was on dating sites, I was asked that question constantly too.
I'm thick, so I've been told that only black men can handle my body.
Ha ha! So not true.
I do prefer black men as lovers though.
Too bad there aren't any where I now live.
I tried dating white dudes.
But, when they touch me, it gives me the yucks. :yuck::yuck::tapedshut
I feel like I can relate. Maybe because I hold white men responsible for my X husbands actions. I just don't vibe with them and I seem to vibe better with black men. I get some hate too from family and friends because they know I've dated black men since I left my X. I don't really care anymore because I think it's their problem not mine. It does make me laugh when a white man messages me on like POF and first thing they ask "you do like black men". I just shake my head and delete every time. One guy I did respond to & asked him why he thought that and he goes on to say "my choice of music is hip hop/rap I'm thick and I wear hoop earings and just look like that girl" I'm like WTF? LOL
NitaBaby
10-05-2019, 10:01 AM
One guy I did respond to & asked him why he thought that and he goes on to say "my choice of music is hip hop/rap I'm thick and I wear hoop earings and just look like that girl" I'm like WTF? LOL
Rude asf lol. Ask the next one if he's ever worn khakis and sandals at the same time cuz the moussed hair makes him look like 'that guy'.
MissTay
10-05-2019, 10:11 AM
Rude asf lol. Ask the next one if he's ever worn khakis and sandals at the same time cuz the moussed hair makes him look like 'that guy'.
good idea hahahahhaha
miss.a.p1600
10-05-2019, 10:19 AM
I tried dating white dudes.
But, when they touch me, it gives me the yucks. :yuck::yuck::tapedshut
Omg I damn near choked on my food.
I did notice the old dude I was dating last had zero seduction skills and when he touched me I could tell he did not know how to properly touch a woman in a sensual way. Smdh
Maybe the Greek or Italian men?
miss.a.p1600
10-05-2019, 10:23 AM
Rude asf lol. Ask the next one if he's ever worn khakis and sandals at the same time cuz the moussed hair makes him look like 'that guy'.
Ahahaha! Khakis n “mandals”
Aurora_Sunset
10-05-2019, 03:03 PM
Ya'll ever feel like other people and social obligations are the biggest thing getting in the way of your motivation and productivity? Like, if I didn't have to carve out time or mental energy to have other people in my life, I could get so much done during the day just following my own little hermit path. Sometimes, all I want are some cats and an occasional family vacation with my parents.
carmen_b
10-05-2019, 03:17 PM
^ I have weeks where I give family 1 day and friends 1 day in the week ( but no more ) to stay on track with things.
As long as you are not minimizing the time ALL the time ...... the relationships will survive that kind of scheduling.
miss.a.p1600
10-05-2019, 04:42 PM
^yes.
This is why the 18-25 year old range is the best time of ones life. Most people in this age range have no kids and no spouse they are obligated to.
18-25 year olds! Enjoy your obligation-free time while you can!
WendiStarr
10-05-2019, 04:57 PM
I'm going to have that annoying moaning glitter bomb card sent to my unborn baby's daddy's office. I hope it gets glitter all over him and his fucking office space.
Glamourmilf
10-06-2019, 05:38 AM
I confess that I secretly hope that the guy who left me homeless doesn't have anyone interested in buying his house.
He's the one who had the GAUL to ask me if he could stay at my place until he retires from the prison and moves into his new house in Arizona.
Then, when I said no, he sent me the photo of homeless Barbie, with a lol. Remember that?
He was so cocky that because it's such a great house that it'll sell right away.
It's been through 2 open houses, and been on the market for 2 weeks. Nobody wants it.
I wish that I could buy it. Then ghost him, like he did to me, when I needed a place.
That I could kick his ass to the curb.
But, karma will take care of that.
miss.a.p1600
10-06-2019, 05:57 AM
Maybe I should just end my celibacy?
Idk if it will be worth it though but on the other hand I do want to get the hang of have better sex with men or at least getting better at choosing guys who are more skilled lovers
This one guy keeps popping up but I keep getting fuckboi vibes from him. I could be wrong but my intuition could be right. If he doesn’t ask me on a proper date soon I’m going to assume he’s a “text all day for free attention cause I’m too cheap fuckboi”
I’ve gotta find me some high caliber men
miss.a.p1600
10-06-2019, 08:35 AM
^i went through a phase where I had a lot of action and dick options for days but some of those guys had issues and I didn’t want to deal with their drama on top of stuff I was already dealing with.
As far as casual sex. I feel ya.
My thoughts atm are if it is “casual” then it needs to be worth my while (IF you know what Im sayin) number one, has to be orgasmic, and number three no penetration - I’ll let dude please me with his hands or tongue
Oh and number 4 no fuckbois allowed only creme of the crop type men
trustfundkiller
10-06-2019, 11:03 AM
I rekindled things with my ex-sugar daddy from a few years ago. I'm so excited to start making that kind of money so easily again. He's very eccentric and kind of annoying, but I feel like I'm in a better place to deal with it now than I was back then.
carmen_b
10-06-2019, 11:14 AM
Can not WAIT to get back on the road stripping.
Not counting the days at all ( it's 8 ) . Haha.
I wasn't ready for full time vanilla life obviously but I don't regret the experiment.
carmen_b
10-06-2019, 11:20 AM
Yes ..........
Lots of thoughts. Will come back.
Casual sex is such a bad deal for women. Basically ..... free escorting. Not the best idea.
I totally feel you. I’m too sensitive to have casual sex. I’m not giving my sex away for free to guys who don’t even have the balls to ask me out on a proper date. Nope!
Ifyouseekamy
10-07-2019, 02:55 AM
So I’m not a full service sex worker. I’ve thought about it a million times, but it really wouldn’t be good for me. Anyways, I told one of the girls at work I’m an ethical sex worker jokingly. I am very proud of the services I offer which aren’t prostitution, but I identify partly as a sex worker because of the erotic labor and the stigma. I love SEX WORKERS. The girls thought I was serious and and gave me the, oh you’re a whore look. Like I said I’ve only danced, and I hate extras in the club the same as every other dancer, but I sure as hell don’t look down on full service sex workers like they are scum of the earth like some dancers I know. In my opinion, they are truly liberated women. I salute all the women that flip the script and get money.
NitaBaby
10-07-2019, 03:03 AM
^^definitely not trying to piss you off but calling yourself an 'ethical' sex worker does imply feeling better about your way of making money over others. Whoever you spoke to probably picked up on that too.
Edit: Ah okay. You edited it so this version negates my original thought. I'm gonna fly away now.
NitaBaby
10-07-2019, 04:56 AM
I’m sorry you feel that way. I just meant because most people assume we drug guys and take their money. I suppose it was a bad joke.
Nope, you already corrected it to reflect what you meant so my thought on it changed, too. Maybe she didn't know you were joking? In which case her reaction isn't your fault. People have to get to know me in order to tell when I'm joking so I get it.
charlie61
10-07-2019, 01:00 PM
My partner just got another nice raise, and I'm super happy for him. It also is a little triggering for me- i start thinking about how much I'd be making if i could combine my (very respectable) vanilla paycheck with a few shifts of dancing here and there. Dancing had some major upsides and downsides, so in general, i think it's healthiest for me to not dance. But man, i miss that cash. I start obsessing over it whenever i learn that he's going to be making even more money... like, i want to give myself a raise. $_$
WendiStarr
10-07-2019, 05:36 PM
I needed sex so I crawled into bed naked with confusing off and on bf/unborn baby's daddy while he was sleeping. I knew that
once he woke up and seen me naked he wouldn't be able to resist. It worked. Muahaha! Now at least I can go on about my day with my sexual frustration relieved. My vibrator just wasn't cutting it. I'm not normal, I know. I swear I must have the sex drive of a guy because sex feels like a basic necessity to me, just like food and sleep.
carmen_b
10-07-2019, 06:02 PM
^ It is to me too. I get angry and agitated without sex a couple times a week. I prefer more ( especially in a new relationship ) but I try to keep it in check.
Oddly .... what pisses me off the most is infrequent sex from someone. I can either be sexless ( more time to be totally absorbed in sex work usually ) OR I can get sex a couple times a week or more .
carmen_b
10-07-2019, 06:23 PM
I'm feeling super depressed and wanted a family member to check in with. My dad is on the phone suggesting these activities and things ( all really helpful ) . I'm 90% sure I feel down because I don't get frequent sex . That is something I can't share with my family. We have never been pro - sex / comfy with that kind of talk as a household growing up. I told him M didn't see me last Thursday before my trip and not yesterday the day I got back. I am sure he is smart enough to piece together what I'm saying but we just don't have that kind of open talk in our family, never have.
Some day at dinner I am going to be totally open with sex talk and just see what happens hahahah.
miss.a.p1600
10-07-2019, 08:29 PM
^
My family acts super conservative
I’ve wanted to just be open about working in adult industry but I know their scary asses will have a heart attack
So today my mom starts going on and on about the expenses of the new car.
I was like “well time to go sell some ass now”
She laughed. A fake awkward like “are you joking or serious laugh?”
In my mind I’m like bruh I’m dead ass serious.
But of course most people can’t handle truth so I started talking about some other topics
Glamourmilf
10-08-2019, 07:29 AM
I saw this man standing outside of the dollar store, on his phone, who I couldn't help but stare at.
He was totally my type, which seldom happens.
He was talking to someone about flights he needed to take, which led me to believe he's not from around here.
He stopped talking to look at me dead in the eye.
I forgot that I had my lighter tinted sunglasses on, so he probably wondered why I was staring.
Oops.
When I looked back, I noticed that he was helping an elderly lady into his car.
Probably his mom? Uber? Aw.
I like him even MORE now.
I definitely would have given up my celibacy to him.
Nice fodder for my "alone" time, if you get my drift.
carmen_b
10-08-2019, 10:03 AM
^ I do hope you find him around town again .
Good time to be out in the same area doing errands. Haha.
miss.a.p1600
10-08-2019, 08:14 PM
You all talking about sex
Reminds me of how I’m the opposite rn (if I have a good lover my thoughts may change) and when I recently mentioned to my mom how the old dude tried to give me an ultimatum (basically claimed he’d never dated someone so long without “intimacy” and to let him know if I wanted to just be friends) her bitch ass took his side and had the audacity to say
“Well you should have known you were going to have to give up the booty”
Wtf!?!
No he was acting like a Splenda daddy who did not know his role
And plus - What does this look like a male prison initiation?
queenelayliah
10-09-2019, 03:16 AM
( context, have not met his family yet )
Dude texts me " My family has already accepted you " .
As if I give a damn currently ! I have had dick in me ONCE in the last 7 days . Hopefully I can manage to not trip and fall on one during this business trip out of town.
He could make it easy by sending me off NOT horny AF but no.
You know reading your posts be making me jealous as fuck. I wish my libido was as high as yours, i dont want dick at all. I dont even get horny enough to masturbate. I masturbate maybe once a month or every 2 months. Lately i been craving emotional intimacy.
Glamourmilf
10-09-2019, 08:35 AM
^ I do hope you find him around town again .
Good time to be out in the same area doing errands. Haha.
I do too.:pray:
carmen_b
10-09-2019, 09:02 AM
Nah. It’s a huge curse sometimes honestly .
He is on ignore due to the 8 day sex gap.
I pretty much hate him and probably can’t recover.
It’s his b-day today and I probably won’t make any time.
I have a solid excuse ..... my job is a nightmare right now ( peak time ).
We had an in person chat Monday about seeing each other once a week and I've hated him even more since the conversation.
( I'm very busy so can only offer twice a week with some careful organizing which he said was fine 4 weeks ago ....... )
I know it's picky but it's coming from being really playful and horny last Thurs. and not getting that energy returned . Then trying again Sunday evening . He is letting family dramatics suck all his time I think. I think that's where it's going but I don't know.
Oh .... and it's not just sex that I want. I want solid boyfriend behavior ( planning dates / companionship out on the town ect ).
It's not the easiest to find.
He said he would " make it up to me " for last week. I was available Mon. and Tues. evening ...... and nothing.
We were on track but he just kind of cut me off last week sooooooo maybe I will make time for him in 2-3 weeks ....... maybe ( not ! ) I am busy with a lot of things you know.
You know reading your posts be making me jealous as fuck. I wish my libido was as high as yours, i dont want dick at all. I dont even get horny enough to masturbate. I masturbate maybe once a month or every 2 months. Lately i been craving emotional intimacy.
lurkingtitties
10-09-2019, 09:28 AM
We had an in person chat Monday about seeing each other once a week and I've hated him even more since the conversation.
Yooo when you first posted about that I was like “girl no!”
Glad you came to your senses about that being a terrible way to treat yourself.
carmen_b
10-09-2019, 09:35 AM
Yuuupppp. ^
I'd rather dine alone / hit the town alone ( and will ! ).
I treated him really well. Took him to a nice property for multiple weekends...... took him to a cool film screening ( he met the actors ) ..... really offered a lot of fun things .
I feel for the shit show his family seems to be . I guess his sister abandons her kids on a regular basis ( like last Monday she was out drinking and he felt like he had to stay and babysit at her place later than scheduled in case she didn't return until the next morning ! ).
WTF ? Enabling ?
I told him to send me a photo of her and her favorite haunts and I'd go get her and throw her stupid ass in an Uber back to her OWN kids.
Obviously I regret having sex with him but live and learn I suppose.
I was stepping too much into a life coaching role too ( like .... he would have weeks of only getting 20 hours at work and I'd offer all these suggestions to fill in the income ........ door dash .... bouncer ..... bartender....... and he'd do nothing even though everywhere is hiring ).
lurkingtitties
10-09-2019, 09:45 AM
Confession: I feel jaded about the field I’m going into. There’s a cultural expectation within the profession that we are all passionate goody two-shoes who are doing it out of the goodness of our hearts/married to our careers. It’s also a very extroverted profession. I do enjoy having a social job but I’m an introvert at heart and need time to recharge. 3 days/week of an extroverted job is perfect for me (one of the reasons I was a career stripper for a long time). Unfortunately there isn’t a lot of sympathy for that in my current career.
Fuck a 40 hour work week in general honestly. I’m a homebody and I don’t think it’s unreasonable to want a 3 day work week with a comfortable salary. Or at least if I’m going to spend that much time working I’d rather it be for myself than some company. Most people just work their lives away and get brainwashed into thinking that’s just the way it is. That’s why people call sex workers lazy-they’ve been brainwashed by capitalism. I’m grateful I spent my formative years living outside the social norm.
As of now, I see my current career as a means to an end. When I graduate next summer I plan to take travel contracts instead of a permanent job. The pay is better, it fulfills my need for adventure, and you can take time off between contracts(this is very important to me if I’m working 40 hours/week as a medical professional). After a couple years of getting experience I will begin the process of transferring my license to Canada. Once I’ve been there long enough to apply for citizenship... I’m retiring from this career and finding something else I actually enjoy!
carmen_b
10-09-2019, 09:52 AM
^ Doing some of your work on the road sounds amazing !
Mine ( day job ) is that way. About 50% is on the road.
I have had long conversations with many people about the expectation of a 40 hour work week .
My theory is :
IF we are so advanced ( which everyone claims ) , then WHY the 40 hours work week ? It's a industrial era dinosaur . The biggest asset is our time.
It's a convo that could last a bit ! There is a trend of people reclaiming their time ( such as RV dwellers / tiny house people ) . As a society we should *consider* shifting to working 32-35 hours a week as a norm. THAT is progress. Having time is happiness. Much longer and more complex conversations could be had about this ! I am actually seeing this shift though in many cases. My sister for example . Most people at her company work a 40 hours week. SHE works 28-30 ( two small kids ). The company worked with her and offered her this ( she didn't have to fight tooth and nail for it ) .
lurkingtitties
10-09-2019, 10:00 AM
EXACTLY YO.
One of my brothers is an engineer at a company where the expectation is to take on an absurd amount of overtime. Poor guy sometimes has to do 60 hour weeks, it’s so wrong. He’s a full-on leftist so we talk often about how he’d rather have his time back then the extra money. Luckily he’s sitting for a certification next spring that will allow him to move on to a company that treats him better.
My other brother immigrated to a Scandinavian country by marriage. He tells us he works so little over there, and is paid so well, he almost feels guilty about it coming from the US! It’s definitely possible to reorganize our concept of the work-week as a societ; how many people with desk jobs are just dicking around on their computer for most of their day? I think the elite like having us overworked so we don’t have time to think about how a better society is possible.