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miss.a.p1600
11-23-2019, 02:49 PM
Thinking I may go to the upscale bar just so I can get my mind off this guy
Carmen Elixer
11-23-2019, 03:52 PM
^ ^ I agree, it's best not to talk about such things anywhere where vanilla civilians could overhear.
I have a personal theory that the one of the primary motives for assaulting sexworkers are robbery. They just rape her b/c they're already there, so the rape is more like a bonus, in some cases. It's why sex-workers are attacked more than just the average woman, (who isn't expected to be carrying cash as that special bonus).
It's just not talked about in the news that way. The news focuses on the rape - b/c they always want to make men feel/look more powerful than women. (Or at leastNot so powerless that they need to steal money off a woman). Also, they want it always to look like ho's get punished a lot.
Also, in lotta cases, the cops don't know the woman was a ho. They just know this woman was raped/assaulted/killed, whatever - the hooker doesnt always come forward w/ the big news
In any case, everybody knows strippers and ho's earn cash. So in my personal case, that is actually the best reason to keep my work a secret. I've got all kinds of shady brothers cousins sisters & relatives even. My own brother would break in to my place tonight if he thought I had cash. Or like one of those people could tell the wrong person, someone that you don't know, that you are a stripper, and that person could target you or wahtever
carmen_b
11-23-2019, 05:28 PM
^ Exactly. There is NO safety better than the safety of no one knowing you hold cash.
Keep your mouth closed.
miss.a.p1600
11-23-2019, 09:14 PM
I text that guy that I was enjoying dessert and watching the game at this nice restaurant
I was hoping he’d think I’m out with friends maybe some guys
Then my ass text some line out of a book “you should totally be here” as a tease not to take it literally
I think he took it literally or thought I meant my house or something lol
miss.a.p1600
11-24-2019, 04:47 AM
I just don’t know if I’m interested anymore
It just seems like a lot of work, risk too high
Ever since he told me about his last relationship just ending I can’t help but think of some Bertha bitch lurking around and I’m turned off
I text him like I’m interested but I think I’m just going through the motions
Idk anymore
Maybe I should end this
carmen_b
11-24-2019, 08:41 AM
^ Maybe see what his fingers and tounge can do before you end it hahaha.
I don’t think you should end it. I was fully ready to date / open to new possibilities just a couple months after my long term thing ended. Just one persons opinion to add.
Midwest-Mistress
11-24-2019, 09:48 AM
I spent all summer trying to train my ass to get up early. I had finally been convinced this is the best way to operate. I used to be a night owl but noticed I let the productivity time slip away into the night lol. I only worked like that because I was working out of family’s house, then I finally moved out. So now that summer my favorite season is over :( I have appreciated the fact that I wake up early and go to bed early. Because the sun is limited more than ever this time of year, I want to take that time to go out and see clients for the first time. I want to manifest clients people say don’t exist for my benefit. I want to be able to connect with clients in the physical more, I know that’s what people crave. (My pisces Moon speaking). I have a little tribe, know about screening and been around so I’ll be in good hands, my spirit team is with me . ~
miss.a.p1600
11-24-2019, 11:50 AM
^ Maybe see what his fingers and tounge can do before you end it hahaha.
I don’t think you should end it. I was fully ready to date / open to new possibilities just a couple months after my long term thing ended. Just one persons opinion to add.
Bwahaha - fingers n tongue ..... you may be on to something here.
Thanks so much Carmen. I totally appreciate your opinion
Oh gawd he just text me.
carmen_b
11-24-2019, 02:17 PM
I just can’t deal with having to wear anything but underwear at work anymore. I need to get back to the club ASAP.
I’m at Starbucks and they are playing rap with deep bass. I am considering it a sign.
miss.a.p1600
11-24-2019, 02:34 PM
^^^ahahaha.
Once I walked into Starbucks and they were blasting Tupac (and this was an upper class area lol)
lynn2009
11-24-2019, 05:21 PM
I registered for a professional certification exam in August, and I've barely studied and not at all in weeks. The exam is on Wednesday and I'm so tempted to no show...no one is going to care and I'm definitely not going to pass it.
Adrienne7
11-24-2019, 06:54 PM
^^^ you obviously know what’s best for you, but why not take it for practice? Practice makes perfect. If you’re not doing anything, then I would really consider taking it for practice. You’ll see what questions are on it and then next time you’ll more confident for the real exam.
My study habits are horrible. I’m going to use the law of attraction-“I study with ease.”
Gotta do food prep and clean my place today because for the rest of the week I’ll stop studying and get distracted with chores and errands. I need to set a timer to study and NOT GET UP until the timer goes off.
Omg the timer idea is brilliant. I need to set a study timer before I am allowed to dink around on social media :P
miss.a.p1600
11-24-2019, 07:03 PM
I realized that I’m so used to being single (and celibate) that I’m going to have to stop many of my habits
I should let men open doors for me more often.
I also noticed the guy I went on a date with kind of move his arm to guide me to the other side of the road when a car was coming. I’m reading this book and certain things that men do to make you feel safe one of which is walking on the outer side of the road
miss.a.p1600
11-25-2019, 05:01 AM
Sometimes I feel uncomfortable around men.
Even the ones that are interested in me.
Like if I like them I do things I wouldn’t normally do. And the only way for me to counteract that is to ignore them. Which probably isn’t the best communication strategy.
I think that sometimes, I have a challenging time applying my boundaries with guys I’m attracted to.
I find this especially when I’m around guys who are more dominant. I don’t want to be around guys who are too dominant and don’t know when to turn it off so the woman can lead.
miss.a.p1600
11-25-2019, 07:12 AM
This whole weekend I let him initiate contact.
Now it’s monday and I’m wondering if I should text him.
lurkingtitties
11-25-2019, 07:36 AM
I realized that I’m so used to being single (and celibate) that I’m going to have to stop many of my habits
I should let men open doors for me more often.
I also noticed the guy I went on a date with kind of move his arm to guide me to the other side of the road when a car was coming. I’m reading this book and certain things that men do to make you feel safe one of which is walking on the outer side of the road
What book? And I think it's fine to text him
miss.a.p1600
11-25-2019, 07:56 AM
Some guy named Bruce Bryans
He has a long list of ebooks on Amazon that are for women on how to create irresistible texts, how to have men chasing you, etc.
yaya_cash
11-25-2019, 03:51 PM
Okay, one of them doesn't want to hang out again, since I told them I felt uncomfortable about the indiscretion. Is that/this weird? As she says it was just a girl's night out, while they talked loudly about selling sex and [client's-] f***ing them.
I agree. It makes me feel exposed. And with people being so judgement, effecting how you function in society, makes it harder to deal with others. I just rather not have to deal with more stress or drama.
I need to be more sure the company can be discreet in a nice restaurant since I don't like unwanted attention, affecting my everyday life outside the industry. I should have known-- I remember a customer from the club took me out to drink/eat and was talking so loud about me being a stripper. Doesn't it not occur to people that someone doesn't want to be known for that in the public? Do people not consider that they do not want the stigma with their otherwise image/reputation outside the industry? I thought these people were going to be appropriate, considering the environment and working in the corporate world and, a graduate student. But now. I have notice people are dumb considering what they talk about proudly or brag about in public draws bad attention and has real consequences.
trustfundkiller
11-25-2019, 05:19 PM
I'm going on vacation with my sugar daddy in two weeks and I'm dreading it. I get a pit in my stomach just thinking about it. I don't know how I'm going to be able to tolerate him for 5 days without losing my mind. Lots of alcohol, I guess. I'm going to tell him I'm on my period so sex will be off the menu, thank god. I really regret agreeing to go.
MissTay
11-25-2019, 05:35 PM
I matched a guy on bumble. I messaged him "hi". Then after he responded I realized I've already matched him and even hooked up with him. But totally forgot what he looked like :o He was really bad in bed too and now it's like wtf do i do?? I can unmatch but almost feel like I should just forget about him.
miss.a.p1600
11-25-2019, 05:46 PM
You a fine mf won’t you back that azz up!
This is the music that’s playing in background where I should be doing my calls
Carmen Elixer
11-25-2019, 08:54 PM
Four hours on crime trial youtube
an still going strong
SnuffleUffleGrass
11-26-2019, 10:19 AM
I'll confess I was a little jealous seeing this man ( acquaintance ) I know return to his wife after pulling the same mid life crisis B.S. my partner did last Aug.
I assume things were different and varied ( she probably was willing to speak to him and they have children making things different ). Eh.
I have a feeling lately about being grossed out by men a lot . I felt jealousy because I saw this a week ago and kind of was hit by the thought " oh .... some of them come back .... mine just didn't ".
My opinion on the topic- there are so few heterosexual male "keepers" that they often get fought over. I went through some drama with my relationship last year b/c a bar hag tried to steal my boyfriend.
My confession- I am being lazy today even though I have loads of things to do.
NitaBaby
11-26-2019, 10:49 AM
i don't feel like doing any of this shit!
i just want to roll around in hot pockets and quit my job.
miss.a.p1600
11-26-2019, 11:34 AM
My opinion on the topic- there are so few heterosexual male "keepers" that they often get fought over. I went through some drama with my relationship last year b/c a bar hag tried to steal my boyfriend.
My confession- I am being lazy today even though I have loads of things to do.
Was she toothless like the hag goth barbie had to deal with lol?
lynn2009
11-26-2019, 01:11 PM
My eyes keep going cross-eyed unless I think about keeping them focused properly for a few weeks now. I'm getting worried about going cross-eyed permanently.
miss.a.p1600
11-26-2019, 09:48 PM
One time this very attractive charismatic guy I went to college came up to me in a coffee shop and gave me his card.
Curious, I called him up. Turns out his ass was married but getting action outside.
Well for the moment I rolled with it.
He called me one night and seduced tf out of me .... by phone
At the end I was so wet I don’t think I’ve ever been that turned on by anyone’s phone conversation
I never took him up on more of his dick offerings because too risky with minimal ROI
Ifyouseekamy
11-26-2019, 10:09 PM
So apparently my coworkers know who I am on here. I knew one day someone would connect the dots. At first I felt scared at the thought of people judging, criticizing, and gossiping about my personal struggles. I wanted to share my experience, strength, and hope with SW, so girls could learn from my mistakes and not feel as alone-there’s like zero support for us- I would have found it by now if there was. I think the worst thing about this industry isn’t the work-it’s the stigma. If you have a lot other issues you’re dealing with on top of the stigma-holy fuck! This whole experience is helping me learn I’m not responsible for other people’s feelings, thoughts, and actions. At least today, I don’t care what people think about me because of the inner work I’ve done. Years ago, I would have been like lions, tigers, and bears...oh my.
charlie61
11-27-2019, 10:25 PM
I'm in a bit of an asshole mood. I think I'm PMSing, which is weird for me. I must be low on omega 3s or something because i never get PMS symptoms. Sore breasts, bad mood... I normally don't even really experience moods... I'm depressingly stable.
But anyway, the reason I'm in this thread is because tonight when my sweet, lovely, intelligent, well-rounded partner was talking about motorcycles and where he wants to take the Ducati next, i was just thinking, like, who the fuck cares? Like, cooooool, bro, tell me more about the good roads you wanna go ride around on. Roads are sooo fucking interesting, wow. Ugh.
I tried to keep all of my negative, mean thoughts to myself. Going to bed early to make sure i don't say anything hurtful.
miss.a.p1600
11-28-2019, 10:41 PM
Ever since I got older I believed in dating more than one guy.
However I see that as a LOT of work to maintain and remember details about the guys.
I feel like dating just one guy means getting really really good at the dating/relationship process. And it is riskier because it will take longer to find the right person.
I’m doing my best to refrain from going out and growing a rotation of men to date. I may just throw some hints out there so he wonders if I’m out with guys who want to date me as well. Not really do it but hint around to the idea. Gotta keep him on his toes
Carmen Elixer
11-28-2019, 11:15 PM
^Ah. okay, now I see why you were only dating this one guy.
This whole time I been wondered why you weren't dating around, since
things aren't all the way in the bag with this one yet.
But what you say makes sense to me now . it's a lot of hassle to juggle.
and could end up just being a neverending cycle of the same unstable types
of r'ships.
so youre thinking that if you get this one chasing some, then it might turn
into something. I can appreciate that. I feel like guys don't want anything
to do with something that comes too easy. That's the reason that even tho
they can get FREE sex, and nudes, for free now, they still want to pay for it
The caveat- as long as you know when to quit! Gotta
Finesse it and not get too attached in case he doesn’t show
signs of wanting to be something
miss.a.p1600
11-29-2019, 07:32 AM
Thanks so much Carmen
You’re right!
Pretty much the reason I turned him down for sex last weekend cause I thought I might get too attached to the outcome. And I barely knew him to know what the outcome might be
I’m trying to reel in my feelings and play it cool.
What are signs guys don’t want anything serious?
Like unless they flat out say “I’m not looking for relationship” or unless you flat out ask them “like hey bob you looking for relationships or you just trying to smash?” - which they’ll probably just tell you what you want to hear so you can let your guard down/ let them smash or they might get the wrong idea you’re desperate for a relationship if you ask them this question too bluntly?
Idk.
Carmen Elixer
11-29-2019, 11:50 AM
Keep in mind that wanting a relationship doesn't make you "desperate".
It makes you smart. And means you have shit to offer. It's smart successful
people in relationships. Not on tinder dating 100 different trash humans.
And anyway, your selective. You ain't giving just "anybody" the chance
to be w/ you - That would be desperate.
Part of me believes in coming right and saying what I want. And only
giving tiny amounts of what he wants at a time, until I get the committed
exclusive r'ship I want. Why shouldn't I be selfish? This is My time I'm
wasting I have goals. and I don't owe anyone I meet, shit.
If you notice, bood up men are always with boss women. it just what
it is.
But anyway the best way to fig out a guy's signals for if he is into you
more than smash & trash:
His effort to be available to you - and Not only on his terms.
Not just when he contacts you.
And do you get a gut feeling he wants a relationship --- WITH YOU?
Again youre going to have to finesse this.
please don't take my dating advice.
miss.a.p1600
11-29-2019, 12:00 PM
^thats actually good advice.
I feel like one of the things women have to our advantage is our youth and fertility IF we want biological kids so I don’t want to waste a bunch of time like I would have in the past.
But yes so far he text me throughout the day (every day the past few weeks) and we’ve met up twice the past two weekends. And we talk almost every night after work and whatever
He seems like the type that can maintain long term relationships but yeah not sure if it’s something he’s ready for or thinking about with me ... yet.
Gotta finesse lol and play it smooth
Sorry hope I didn’t derail the thread I probably will make a separate one shortly
Aurora_Sunset
11-29-2019, 12:50 PM
I really don't like this city.
I've given it about 3 years, and I can't get down with it. It's hard to get around, has a weird culture, and just isn't that exciting. At this point, I would rather go back to my hometown, because I feel like at least there's some charm in that little town. One thing this area really lacks is a way to be a part of any sort of community - something I felt like I had a lot of in my hometown and college town. And any surrounding areas in any direction that might be better are hella more expensive to live in. The price discrepancy in the neighboring cities is honestly ridiculous.
Idk... told husband how unhappy I was here last night, but what are we gonna do about it. Kids are here, and I guess it makes more sense to be settling somewhere long-term if I'm gonna make a go at a successful real estate career.
NitaBaby
11-29-2019, 01:36 PM
I'm ready to quit this customer service shit. How ungrateful. But I'm over it.
Adrienne7
11-30-2019, 12:44 AM
I texted out "sick" for tomorrow's shift because I am so burned out I can't even picture putting on mascara let alone feigning interest in customers. And if I have to get up on stage for a room full of cheap entitled bastards with their backs to the stage except for when they are stealing free glances, I swear I am gonna burn the place down.
Manager is probably just gonna stop scheduling me at this point. So over it.
NitaBaby
11-30-2019, 06:43 AM
I thought I could do 3 jobs but this call center one is taking up all of my day. The other two (including camming) can be done when I feel like it. So I think tomorrow was my last day for that. I’m gonna keep the search engine job for a good while. That’s easy money and It just works better with what I have going on. Guess I just feel guilty for quitting something that would greatly benefit someone else.
WendiStarr
11-30-2019, 05:51 PM
I've spent over $200 this week. I need to not spend more than I earned for the week. I have to get my ass in gear for earning next week.
miss.a.p1600
11-30-2019, 08:47 PM
I asked that guy what size was his Christmas tree (I was really only thinking about actual Christmas trees) small medium or large.
And you know what his ass said
Medium
Lol!
If we’re talking about dicks then yeah his really is medium
seashell
12-01-2019, 07:31 AM
^hahaha
I confess that I really like being single, and having that sexual tension or flirtation with multiple guys. I'm stringing a few along right now, and I fucking love it. I have people to go out with, meals paid for, fun little adventures, people checking in on me every day.
Just don't sleep with them. Keep the wheels spinning.
Highly recommended.
I would probably love sugaring, but I'm not ready to ditch the cuties for the old baldies yet.
miss.a.p1600
12-01-2019, 12:45 PM
Well I guess the “honeymoon” phase is over.
Thanks a lot dude
carmen_b
12-01-2019, 01:59 PM
Seashell
Sounds fun.
I’m so bad at dating without intimacy / keeping a non sexual get to know you rotation.
It’s probably a great way to actually get to know people !!
I should prob do that when I am finally ready haha.
miss.a.p1600
12-01-2019, 02:07 PM
I have not started my day - wtf!!!
carmen_b
12-01-2019, 02:11 PM
I’m having an off weekend.
My stripper bag is still frozen ( literally ) in a storage unit.
I’m craving privacy NOW and want a hotel tonight ( crashed last three days with family ) and my credit card is in their car not mine.
I’m now 35 miles from that car .
WTF.
Go me. Lol.
On the other hand , finances look “ ok “ ( not great ) and enough to travel.
Leaning towards Mexico !!
I feel like I overlooked the most obvious affordable - ish warm spot to be in December !
NitaBaby
12-01-2019, 02:12 PM
I've been lagging ass all day. I need to get on cam NOW but I don't like being rushed even if I'm the one doing the rushing.
WendiStarr
12-01-2019, 09:25 PM
I started having braxton hicks contractions again while on mfc tonight. I sent bitchy responses before blocking every freeloading motherfucker that was sending me private messages. I probably shouldn't be camming when this hits but it's not like I can control or plan bh contractions. I don't feel the least bit bad about being a bitch either. I have no desire to be nice to freeloading asshats who continually come to my chatroom to beg for freebies or just to chat when I can see that they have zero tokens and probably are going to claim that they are "broke" right now and can't get more tokens. Eff you, worthless cheap bastards!
miss.a.p1600
12-01-2019, 09:56 PM
I feel a little resentful towards this new dude that he fucked up the momentum (with his so called alpha male posturing and attempted booty calls which I ignored) to the point where I’m just completely out of lust rn and unmotivated to do what I was doing before
I feel my attraction to him decreasing and my pussy going dry
I wanted him, he ruined it with his impatience, and now I’m over it
JGB2009
12-01-2019, 10:34 PM
Sounds awful but I would love to murder who ever invented free chat!!!!!
somechick99
12-01-2019, 10:43 PM
I have a few...
1. I haven’t worked in a long ass time and I’m not sorry about it. It’s been about 3 months. I’m pretty pleased with myself that I’ve been able to take this much time off and be ok with the money I have saved, but now my $$ is running low and I really am not looking forward to returning to work.
2. My friend just got engaged to a guy who has repeatedly proven to be a total asshole loser and I’m lowkey judging her for it. She knows I think it’s the wrong decision but I’m not going to tell her what to do.
3. I get the vibe a friend of mine who has a girlfriend is into me and since its the only male attention I’ve gotten lately, it’s really been turning me on. I haven’t met the girlfriend and I’m not going to act on it but I’ve been having a lot of sexual fantasies about him.
Feels good to get these off my chest lol