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NitaBaby
02-20-2020, 06:30 AM
I forget things instantly. I'll stand up to go do something (and will be walking in the direction of whatever it is that I was going to do) but will stop mid-stride like "....wait, wha?". I'll open a tab on my computer and as soon as I see the "Google" logo forget what I was about to search for. I could be holding soap and a bucket of water in my hands and completely forget what I was about to do with it. I will be in the middle of a sentence and have no clue what my point was going to be; so many times have I asked people "what was I just saying?" because I will literally forget wtf I just said - and only if I hear the words will I gather an idea of where I was going with it.
You know how your brain will have the smallest, most vague hint of an idea and so you hold on to that as your means for remembering something? Yeah, the second I concentrate on it my mind goes completely awash and I forget for good.
Only reason I'm saying all this is because I saw the "Confession" thread and thought, God, do I have a confession for you. And as soon as I clicked on it I forgot what the confession was.
I have three kids and with each pregnancy my memory as gotten worse and worse. My brain will never be the same again.
carmen_b
02-20-2020, 02:23 PM
^ It may time for some meditation tricks and brain retraining.
When you feel frazzled ..... say to yourself " breathe "...... then count slowly to 5-10 during a deep breath.
Learn to look at your phone less to eliminate that frazzled feeling.
Keep a small notebook with you for notes / to do list or text it to yourself .
On particularly busy days go completely social media free.
Allow yourself to answer texts in " blocks " of time v.s. text by text.
Some of my hacks for my super busy days......
seashell
02-20-2020, 03:03 PM
^That is really good advice :)
lynn2009
02-20-2020, 03:23 PM
I forget things instantly. I'll stand up to go do something (and will be walking in the direction of whatever it is that I was going to do) but will stop mid-stride like "....wait, wha?". I'll open a tab on my computer and as soon as I see the "Google" logo forget what I was about to search for. I could be holding soap and a bucket of water in my hands and completely forget what I was about to do with it. I will be in the middle of a sentence and have no clue what my point was going to be; so many times have I asked people "what was I just saying?" because I will literally forget wtf I just said - and only if I hear the words will I gather an idea of where I was going with it.
You know how your brain will have the smallest, most vague hint of an idea and so you hold on to that as your means for remembering something? Yeah, the second I concentrate on it my mind goes completely awash and I forget for good.
Only reason I'm saying all this is because I saw the "Confession" thread and thought, God, do I have a confession for you. And as soon as I clicked on it I forgot what the confession was.
I have three kids and with each pregnancy my memory as gotten worse and worse. My brain will never be the same again.
I'm like this and I've never even been pregnant.
Winged Dinghy
02-20-2020, 04:05 PM
The guy from my pole dancing class tied me up and dripped hot wax on my mons pubis and now I have all these tiny red round burns that look like a weird skin disease.
Which would be fine but I have a nude private party booked on Friday. #hoeproblems
indiegirl
02-20-2020, 05:50 PM
Kinda laughing really hard at today. I forgot a customer asked me to wear lingerie instead of my mismatched Victoria secret bra and thong I was wearing and I pulled in a white knight moment telling him I didn't have any...so he decided to spend $200-ish on a set of high end lingerie and we picked the outfit out together. In reality, I had lingerie in my bag but I was too lazy to change lol. The delivery arrived today and I was like "who is at the door?! I'm not expecting a package!?" All terrified. It was the lingerie delivery. lollll.
lynn2009
02-21-2020, 12:30 PM
I am the worst dog mom ever. I fell asleep on the couch again last night and woke up at 5:30 and took the dog out. Then I fell asleep again until I absolutely didn't have time to take him out again before leaving & I thought he'd be ok still since we did the 5:30am potty but my dog walker said he was extra jumpy today & needed a hug too :( :( :(
I'm also still exhausted and can't get anything done today.
WendiStarr
02-21-2020, 01:26 PM
BD has been super nice and helpful lately. He cuddled me to sleep and stayed up with the baby for a while. We ended up having sex. I'm 3 weeks postpartum. I'm also breastfeeding and we used the pull out method but I know we're kind of crazy for even doing this so soon. I don't regret it though because he got me all hot and bothered by cooking, cleaning, cuddling me, and helping out with the baby.
whirlerz
02-21-2020, 02:18 PM
I cleaned the house, as best i could..washed the rugs in the entrance hall, vacuumed, swept, etc.
I also put notes, 1 on the dryer, to take out your lint, & 1 on fridge, it smells like a toilet in there:yuck: How frigging clueless to you have to be to not smell that, seriously? TF.
I cleaned the stove (not real well), the microwave, & I left the doors to both open, & took up the hardware that goes around the burners, & left it like that.
They can put it the fuck back, IF they so choose::)
I gave the one guy upstairs a sandwich this morn, I saw him, & he said he was so hungry, poor guy! The other fuck that uses him for rides & $ couldn't give AF. So i made him another sandwich, & included fruit, a green tea, & some water. He doesn't use the kitchen at all, & just works all the time, & goes to see his kid.:(
miss.a.p1600
02-21-2020, 06:53 PM
I’m bored and I’m considering telling the stage 5 clinger to meet me and pay for my dinner.....why this mf have to be so damn clingy though.
I can’t let him get close cause I don’t know if his ass is crazy or not.
miss.a.p1600
02-21-2020, 06:56 PM
^thanks goodness his bitch ass has to work at his other job so I didn’t have to talk to him too long.
miss.a.p1600
02-21-2020, 06:57 PM
I need to find a prospect I can financially dominate in real life
carmen_b
02-21-2020, 08:09 PM
^ Tell the clinger a fave restaurant suggestion and see what he does. :)
If he is useful ..... he will make himself useful.
seashell
02-22-2020, 05:22 AM
I confess that I am talking to two dudes I probably shouldn't, on Instagram. Need to get over them and focus on non-fuckboys.
Well, they're somewhere in between friends and fuckboys. The most lethal combination.
miss.a.p1600
02-22-2020, 09:33 AM
^ Tell the clinger a fave restaurant suggestion and see what he does. :)
If he is useful ..... he will make himself useful.
Hahaha.....yes girl he has been offering to take me to dinner and he has offer twice to give me oral pleasure
I just gotta make sure he ain’t crazy though. How do I figure out his full name so I can run a background check?
I can’t see myself being with him long term and will have to break it off with him at some point in near future and hopefully at some point he’ll forget about this entire interaction
I also don’t think he is on my level and I may be way out of his league - so ideally I need to tell him to meet me in public somewhere in another part of town
miss.a.p1600
02-22-2020, 09:43 AM
I confess that I am talking to two dudes I probably shouldn't, on Instagram. Need to get over them and focus on non-fuckboys.
Well, they're somewhere in between friends and fuckboys. The most lethal combination.
Add more dudes to your harem }:D and if they aren’t annoying then use the fuckbois for free attention
Do their asses how they be trying to do us
whirlerz
02-22-2020, 10:13 AM
So yay, the one roomy removed the nasty smelling food yfrom fridge.. my little notes do work.
I heard him talking to Ray, the guy upstairs I give sandwiches to, & it sounds like Ray's in trouble again w/rent :(.
Really like the guy^, he's so sweet
seashell
02-22-2020, 10:56 AM
Add more dudes to your harem }:D and if they aren’t annoying then use the fuckbois for free attention
Do their asses how they be trying to do us
hahahaha... yeah, to be honest, it's pretty great. My guilty pleasure is having a harem of dudes at all times. They've been helpful with random tasks... I'm trying to figure out how to approach a couple of them about helping me move furniture/build a new bed frame XD
carmen_b
02-22-2020, 01:31 PM
Google his #. You can almost always get a full name that way and then go from there searching FB / Linked In ect.
Hahaha.....yes girl he has been offering to take me to dinner and he has offer twice to give me oral pleasure
I just gotta make sure he ain’t crazy though. How do I figure out his full name so I can run a background check?
I can’t see myself being with him long term and will have to break it off with him at some point in near future and hopefully at some point he’ll forget about this entire interaction
I also don’t think he is on my level and I may be way out of his league - so ideally I need to tell him to meet me in public somewhere in another part of town
carmen_b
02-22-2020, 01:33 PM
Well .... if you have determined this and you only want to " date up " financially maybe another candidate is best.
I also don’t think he is on my level and I may be way out of his league - so ideally I need to tell him to meet me in public somewhere in another part of town
miss.a.p1600
02-22-2020, 07:48 PM
Yeah you’re right.
I shouldn’t waste my time or his.
I guess what is missing for me (that i like about what he does) is the guy who sends me good morning/have a good day texts, checks in with me throughout the day, and if I’m driving a make it home safely/call me when you get home text.
The “billiards guy” doesn’t do these caring type things (not sure if he doesn’t do them at all or he just does this for women he’s in a relationship and since we’re not in a relationship.....) and the clingy guy does.
Granted I think the clingy guy is doing whatever he can to get some action promptly so hes on his best behavior.
If I can get out of this pattern of hustle, fulfill obligations, sleep, eat - I definitely need to squeeze time in to meet more guys so I don’t settle or get hung up on one guy like I did a couple months ago
miss.a.p1600
02-22-2020, 07:57 PM
I tried that. But search results just returned random ass similar numbers and other irrelevant results. Are you paying for a phone lookup subscription of sorts?
Google his #. You can almost always get a full name that way and then go from there searching FB / Linked In ect.
carmen_b
02-23-2020, 12:05 AM
^ Beware of that. It could mean a google voice # used specifically for dating if there is no result ( even something as simple as placing an online classified will result is something usually google wise ). Not 100% of course but it should pull *something* if it's a real phone number.
whirlerz
02-23-2020, 12:20 AM
OMG, Jon actually took out the garbage!!!
I was going to do it..
He got a new bed, so it must've helped already..
He has the old one sitting in the kitchen for a while, which it stunk:yikes:. Then he moved it to the hall.. fuck NO, as I put my plants there, to get sun & I sweep up. I dragged it outside the door.
Tomorrow, I'm making Ray help me drag it to the curb, so it'll be p/u w/Mon's trash. ::)
Jee,z
carmen_b
02-23-2020, 12:25 AM
^ Where are the updates that you sat on the cute ones face ? Lol .
carmen_b
02-23-2020, 12:26 AM
The job is a wrap with my clients. It doesn't feel like it but it's been 6 days here on the island. I feel like I don't have anything to stay here for but it's warm so I cancelled my ticket home for now. Haha.
Is this a new thing with expedia that you can change your mind on the ticket within 24 hours ? I don't remember seeing anything like that before but since I bought it Friday evening I had until Sat. evening to cancel it.
I'm still leaning towards making my way home in 3-5 days. I don't have anything here now . I don't have anything at home really ( other than my dog ). I am a lost coconut bouncing in the waves.
Ifyouseekamy
02-23-2020, 06:18 AM
Can't motivate myself to do much beyond the "have-tos" this week. I've skipped going to the office or doing any meaningful work in favor of sleeping in for 2 days now. I've been fighting being sick again, but I don't know if that's what's doing it. I seem to have fallen back into a hopeless depression.
One good thing about my part-time job is that I typically have about 3 hours at the end of the night where I can just put in my headphones and do mindless labor while I think. This is great if I'm in a good place and want to listen to upbeat music or motivational podcasts. It's not so great when I'm depressed and just spend the whole time with nothing to do but think depressive thoughts, such as: I have no passion; I don't want to do any sort of meaningful work; even the meaningful work I've done in the past was probably just for selfish gains underneath it all; I'm just a lazy, selfish piece of shit; I'll never be happy; does it really get better? Isn't that a saying for angst-y teens, not women in their 30s?; if it's not "better" by now, it probably won't ever be; maybe the smart thing to do is to end it all if I know I'm a piece of shit instead of continuing to inflict my POS-ness on the world; what's the point if I'm never gonna amount to anything and probably die painfully and slowly in a shitty nursing home in a few decades anyway?
Side-note: I'm not actually actively suicidal or in a place to worry about me in that way. I just feel really disconnected from any meaning to my days/life right now.
That’s not true. That’s just your depression talking. i would talk to a counselor. You sound like you’re in a lot of pain. You are enough. Anything other that is a lie.
On a separate note. I’m just done.
whirlerz
02-23-2020, 08:12 AM
OMG, Jon actually took out the garbage!!!
I was going to do it..
He got a new bed, so it must've helped already..
He has the old one sitting in the kitchen for a while, which it stunk:yikes:. Then he moved it to the hall.. fuck NO, as I put my plants there, to get sun & I sweep up. I dragged it outside the door.
Tomorrow, I'm making Ray help me drag it to the curb, so it'll be p/u w/Mon's trash. ::)
Jee,z
Fuck, if that #&@!* matresss didn't end up next to my fucking CAR? >:(
I'd put it just outside the door, intending to put by garbage p/u this morning ?? Ray must've put it there!?
SO PISSED!!!
A stank ass mattress does NOT belong next to my new(er) car!! Where the mice/animals would nest in it!
He put it there, so it's out of the way of the door, but it's OK to stow it next to my car??? If he'd put that by the lady's truck (in the little house behind ours) you'd hear her in the next county!
TF's wrong w/men???
^ Where are the updates that you sat on the cute ones face ? Lol .
Yea. Pissed @him. WTF. See above.
Better to avoid anyway, too much (potential) drama. Ugh. Bullet dodged.
carmen_b
02-23-2020, 12:55 PM
^ Haha. Yeah, maybe an " avoid " on the Ray guy since you said he was short on cash or something and you overheard.
BUT I was looking forward to those " I finally fucked R " updates hahahaha. I was sure they were coming .
NitaBaby
02-23-2020, 01:56 PM
^ It may time for some meditation tricks and brain retraining.
When you feel frazzled ..... say to yourself " breathe "...... then count slowly to 5-10 during a deep breath.
Learn to look at your phone less to eliminate that frazzled feeling.
Keep a small notebook with you for notes / to do list or text it to yourself .
On particularly busy days go completely social media free.
Allow yourself to answer texts in " blocks " of time v.s. text by text.
Some of my hacks for my super busy days......
I'm going to have to try SOMETHING because it is absolutely ridiculous now. Thanks for the suggestions.
carmen_b
02-23-2020, 02:16 PM
^ You are very welcome. :)
You'll be amazed at how much energy can " free up " by just staying offline even in chunks like 2-5 hours internet free or off your phone 30-60 min.
It will piss people off if they are used to you answering fast but it's worth it.
They will adjust. Answer in batches are your convenience. :)
miss.a.p1600
02-23-2020, 06:55 PM
Why is it so hard to have this difficult conversation?
I guess I’m realizing now that I have a serious problem telling guys my honest thoughts
I feel like if I’m too open it runs them off, then if I’m not open enough it runs them off
Or when I actually want to run them off I just let it fizzle out instead of tell them the truth.
I need to get it together with my communication skills.
I have got to tell the clingy guy that there won’t be anything more than platonic.
seashell
02-24-2020, 09:07 AM
I confess that I'm really close to being in a good place with a new home and a new relationship, but I'm afraid things won't actually feel as good if/when they finally come to fruition.
WendiStarr
02-24-2020, 10:05 AM
I had an interview for a vanilla work from home job today. They didn't say it would require being on webcam. I thought it was going to be like a live chat type of thing. I faked that I was having technical difficulties with my webcam because I didn't want them to see that I was sitting there with a tit out, breastfeeding.
xStacey
02-24-2020, 05:08 PM
Omg this is really gross but since I started my new job, the last time I worked in the sex industry was 2 weeks ago and I had my period at the time. I cut off the string of my tampon since I was working, but I don’t know how, two weeks later today the tampon came off while I was in the bathroom...!!! Omg I couldn’t believe it was inside for 2 fricking weeks!!!!!!! I was wondering why it smelled weird there despite the fact that I showered every day and sometimes twice. Ugh so gross that I just forgot it inside!!!!!!
miss.a.p1600
02-24-2020, 05:25 PM
^I forgot a tampon once. I had it in all damn day and would have completely forgotten had I not been on heavy flow and the damn thing was so heavy it fell out when I went to bathroom.
xStacey
02-24-2020, 06:00 PM
Ugh at least there was no blood it was my last day but since I was stripping that night I had it in case LOL it would have probably fell out quicker if I were actually on my periods!! So gross grrrr. And I haven’t had sex in months so it was really tight I had to force it out lmao (ok too much detail) grrr can’t believe I didn’t feel anything. But since I took it out it’s been itchy grr, imagine if it were there for 1 month until my next cycle. So gross grr
lurkingtitties
02-24-2020, 06:17 PM
Omg this is really gross but since I started my new job, the last time I worked in the sex industry was 2 weeks ago and I had my period at the time. I cut off the string of my tampon since I was working, but I don’t know how, two weeks later today the tampon came off while I was in the bathroom...!!! Omg I couldn’t believe it was inside for 2 fricking weeks!!!!!!! I was wondering why it smelled weird there despite the fact that I showered every day and sometimes twice. Ugh so gross that I just forgot it inside!!!!!!
That's amazing, I fucking love savage period stories LOL
Ifyouseekamy
02-24-2020, 09:37 PM
I’m sorry but if you meet a stripper at the club and expect she’s gonna date you that’s silly. I told him I don’t date in real life. He still came back the club and got an hour in VIP. Which he asked to come home with me that night- he sounds like boyfriend material. I kinda feel bad for guys, but let’s be real the guys that come to these places have a bunch of other hoes. I’m just smart enough to take the bait (money) without getting hooked. These guys break their own hearts.
miss.a.p1600
02-25-2020, 07:35 AM
^most of them are players trying to game then fuck strippers but I think some of them really are green af, minimal experience with women, come to club and get intoxicated by the attention of a pretty woman/dancer, get caught up in the fantasy
miss.a.p1600
02-25-2020, 07:37 AM
I’m having a hard time with what I want in a relationship
Every single time, my mind defaults to - I want 2 guys ( a husband type guy) and a side lover with amazing sex skills. For some reason I don’t believe both exist in the same man.
miss.a.p1600
02-25-2020, 07:39 AM
I really want to have sex with a guy right now
But I don’t want to give up my celibacy/ my pussy for a guy who is not worthwhile all because I’m horny
indiegirl
02-25-2020, 11:30 AM
I had some tears roll down my face watching shaq and michael jordan speak at kobe's funeral numerous times. Funeral and wedding speeches ( even if I don't know them) turn me into a baby.
indiegirl
02-25-2020, 10:53 PM
Almost in "what is going on" mode but money has been very good lately. So I'm just riding that train. LOL I'm so annoying when I have nothing.
Aurora_Sunset
02-26-2020, 11:25 AM
I feel like I need to talk about this but don’t want to bring it up to anyone in my life just yet... Hubby just informed me last night that his big regret in life was never joining the military and he wants to see if he can before he’s too old. I initially was totally ok with it because military is something I’ve also considered in my life so it’s not like I’m opposed. And he’s been searching for a new job and either getting screwed over or disillusioned with new training so far. He already contacted a recruiter and has an appointment tomorrow, and this is the most excited I’ve seen him in awhile, so I’m glad for that and he seems serious about it.
But the more I think about it, the more iffy I get. He asked if I would be ok with moving around and I was like dude, if you had asked me that 8 months ago, it would have been totally fine. Now I have a new career that requires a local license and really requires building up a network over time. Going into this field was basically my way of accepting the idea that we weren’t leaving for another 15 years because of the kids... now I may have to scrap it because of the military lifestyle? He said he could do National Guard and stay local, but he seemed so excited about the idea of being able to go active despite his age.
Idk just a lot to think about.
Ifyouseekamy
02-26-2020, 05:19 PM
I didn’t know where to post this. So I’ll just post here as it’s something I can’t tell most people. I just went and saw my trainer. He has me doing a lot of cardio. I was like my job is cardio. I think he mentally blocked out my work. I’m torn between being like yes I did 30 minutes of cardio-meaning I went work today because it’s essentially the same thing. It’s like several flights of stairs. I might as well be on a stair master. I’m pretty sure he blocked out the fact I work at a strip club because it make him uncomfortable. It’s not my problem though.
miss.a.p1600
02-26-2020, 06:37 PM
Anytime you want to get a dude (the average dude) out of expecting wifely duties (when he aint made no efforts to be a husband) - especially cooking - then tell him you cooking, but when he asks what you make, tell him steaks, burgers, ..... anything delicious - and when he asks what kind of meat, tell him vegan! LOL .... }:D
Elle:)
02-27-2020, 11:32 PM
I miss being a teenager.
Metal Vanity
02-28-2020, 02:20 AM
I think my customer was pre jizzing all over himself the whole time I was dancing with him 🤮🤢🤮 also he had horrible breath, kept farting with some insane assfault smelling gas and liked me choking him, digging my nails in and kneeing Jim in the balls. Wtf...
Metal Vanity
02-28-2020, 02:23 AM
He was wearing basketball shorts and now o feel like I need a morning after pill