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miss.a.p1600
07-19-2020, 10:50 AM
I can’t believe I’m about to pop some pussy like for real after all this damn time and thankfully it’s going to be a dude who respects women. A lot of guys I came across put on an Oscar worthy act but I’m getting better at telling when a dude is genuine.
Anyways it’s probably going down in about 2 or 3 days once my period is all the way over and I can wax this pussy up.
I hope he doesn’t try it tonight.
I went ahead and did IT! Lol. My 4+ years of celibacy is over.
lynn2009
07-19-2020, 01:45 PM
I'm super disappointed already and want to cry. I feel like the area around here has changed too much since I lived here before, I can't afford what I thought I could and the few people who know I want to move and could help don't care. I don't have any family or close friends in real life and it's so hard to deal with. No one cares about me. And I'm getting resentful of how difficult my dog is making this because I need to be careful with locations because I know his barking will piss off everyone, which is one thing when I'm renting but I can't have if I'm owning.
I feel much better today after having had started seeing houses in person.
miss.a.p1600
07-19-2020, 04:23 PM
^^^^fml i didn’t get a chance to wax/get waxed. Great. I guess no oral sex
moneybags
07-19-2020, 07:48 PM
I went ahead and did IT! Lol. My 4+ years of celibacy is over.
Congratulations! Sounds weird to say congratulations, but I know what a big deal it is. I wish I could find a good guy to end my celibacy. I like sex. I just don’t like giving my love away to fuckboys. Good for you!
Went to a support group for sex works via zoom. The group is about sex work and dealing with family members. If anyone is super interested you can probably join. Just go to pineapple support and sign up. They are doing a trauma group for sex workers in August too. I’m super happy to get low cost therapy. So excited.
miss.a.p1600
07-20-2020, 06:21 AM
Thanks moneybags!
And that’s awesome you’ve got a support group.
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-21-2020, 01:48 AM
Sad confession- I had to stop reading about the next big scandal at FOX News regarding sexual harassment and assault (yeah, they learned nothing from the Roger Ailes debacle) ......The info in the legal docs triggered my PTSD.
Be warned ladies it's disgusting. I only thought I disliked Tucker Carlson before, now I hate him. And the other guy...not gonna mention his name. Vile ..a vile guy.
miss.a.p1600
07-21-2020, 12:19 PM
^Tucker Carlson stay looking clueless n smug....Anytime I read about evil people n sexual assaults I get triggered so yeah I feel ya on that
But on a consensual note:
I'll never forget the first time I rode a face. He wasn't the best pussy eater but to just lead me up to his face....A+ for effort and creativity. Not a whole lot of dude will tell you to ride their face, I suppose you just have to do it or tell them you gone do it. I still miss the guy who ate pussy the best....Cotdamn! he turned out to be crazy but he sure knew how to work that tongue n mouth - he was so good he could have taught instructional courses and sold them to men (and bi/lesbian women) across the world
moneybags
07-21-2020, 02:32 PM
^^^ I have to take a break from social media and the news. I literally cried after hearing about the judge’s son getting murdered. I believe most people are good, but there’s a lot of sick people in the world. I don’t need to constantly be doom scrolling. Glad those women are standing up for themselves. I hope they get justice.
Of course a guy who is good at eating pussy is crazy. That was his hook to get women to look past the red flags. We’ve all over looked some red flags for good sex
carmen_b
07-21-2020, 02:55 PM
I didn’t either until over a year ago !!
Jan. 2019!
My lover kinkster J one time was like “ come up “ and it took a second to figure it out!!
Love this love it love it haha haha.
^Tucker Carlson stay looking clueless n smug....Anytime I read about evil people n sexual assaults I get triggered so yeah I feel ya on that
But on a consensual note:
I'll never forget the first time I rode a face. He wasn't the best pussy eater but to just lead me up to his face....A+ for effort and creativity. Not a whole lot of dude will tell you to ride their face, I suppose you just have to do it or tell them you gone do it. I still miss the guy who ate pussy the best....Cotdamn! he turned out to be crazy but he sure knew how to work that tongue n mouth - he was so good he could have taught instructional courses and sold them to men (and bi/lesbian women) across the world
miss.a.p1600
07-21-2020, 07:49 PM
^^^ I have to take a break from social media and the news. I literally cried after hearing about the judge’s son getting murdered. I believe most people are good, but there’s a lot of sick people in the world. I don’t need to constantly be doom scrolling. Glad those women are standing up for themselves. I hope they get justice.
Of course a guy who is good at eating pussy is crazy. That was his hook to get women to look past the red flags. We’ve all over looked some red flags for good sex
Yeah girl sadly I was only able to get the best head of my life from him once before the crazy came out.
miss.a.p1600
07-21-2020, 07:51 PM
L just dropped what he was doing so he could walk me to my apartment from my car since it's dark out....he's really racking up brownie points here
miss.a.p1600
07-22-2020, 12:52 AM
I usually loathe cuddling n spooning n shit
I only allow it cause L’s mom died and cause he’s been doing whatever he can to accommodate me n my needs. So I don’t mind it as much
^^i really don’t like it either except with like 1 person and then when he turned out not to be shit I was over that too. Lol. I don’t like not being able to move and it gets uncomfortable
WendiStarr
07-22-2020, 09:48 AM
I sent anonymous cow dung through poop senders website to someone I hate and I don't feel bad about it at all. If she would stop sending stuff in the mail here and would fuck off, that would be great.
miss.a.p1600
07-22-2020, 04:40 PM
Finally my friend / supplier called me and said he has some weed for me.
His bitch ass wasn't answering my calls for the past month.
^^thats wayyyy too long, I think u need another friend lol
miss.a.p1600
07-23-2020, 06:29 AM
^^thats wayyyy too long, I think u need another friend lol
Exactly!!!! Then his ass had the audacity to say he couldn’t reach me so he sold the weed he reserved for me ... LIES!!!!
I talked so much trash to him plus he was out in public so he couldn’t say anything back lol
miss.a.p1600
07-23-2020, 06:33 AM
How do I tell my new dude I like to partake in weed sometimes? Should I just do it by myself and not worry about telling him or should I just bit the bullet and bring it up? How the hell I bring it up though?
He’s like all church going n shit and for all I know he thinks I just drink alcohol every now and then.
carmen_b
07-23-2020, 07:27 AM
^ Blend up half an edible in a shake or something and then be like “ remember how everything was really fun and awesome last night ?”
Lol
^^lol! I just tell people, like to me it’s normal I guess it’s a thing to some people but to me it’s like who doesn’t like weed sometimes... it’s not like crack or anything weird..
miss.a.p1600
07-23-2020, 07:55 AM
^^^lol @ crack
I do like to smoke it out of a pipe because it cuts down on the smell of smoking it out of a blunt and I don’t waste as much weed when it’s smoked in a blunt
But good point Carmen b he did mention edibles how he tried an edible once. I might just try to make some edibles to make it less “crack like” lol and more like we’re just eating something that happens to contain some weed
I’m excited to get my hands on the goodies today.
miss.a.p1600
07-23-2020, 08:10 AM
I feel really dumb and confused but this morning I noticed liquid or something coming out of my vagina (sorry if this is TMI). We had sex last night with a condom but like can sperm get out? I’m terrified of getting pregnant before I’m ready
Carmen Elixer
07-23-2020, 01:04 PM
This might have been covered before in other threads, but have you ever cancelled on anyone at the extreme last minute? After a long planning of a date? reservations been made? but you just flaked at the last minute? right at the last several minutes before the time of the date? It just happened to me today. I feel like shit now. What happened was I had met this SD just last week. We hit it off, everything was fine, he was super fun, super nice, super charismatic super cool. TBH though I had an icky feeling afterwards. We talked a ton and was super intense. I felt like I had talked too much & got close to him too fast. Also I thought he'd never want to end the date. It was fun don't get me wrong but I finally broke away. He gave me $3K he was totally a gentleman, sweet, fun goodlooking for 53, asked a lot of questions about me & my life, etc. But all week long as we chatted & planned the next date I just felt this intensity like maybe he was using me as his life's distraction. Or like a huge energy vampire. I get it, I know guys come to us to fill some kind of void but.
There is a type of vampire who is so sickeningly sweet that it makes me feel bad for not wanting to hang out It puts pressure on you.And somehow, you don't even want to talk to them about cancelling, bc you know it'll be okay, he'll just ask a bunch of questions, make sure your alright, offer to help. and he will reschedule right away. But still you know it's going to be intense the next time too so you already feel that pressure coming on as well. It was like at the last minute, I couldn't do it. basically had a huge sloppy fuckit. and I texted him. I told him I had been in a car accident. Now I feel the pressure to make up a bunch of lies, it's wearing on me. Just want to fall in a hole and wake up after he's forgot all about me.
carmen_b
07-23-2020, 01:19 PM
^ Damn you’ve got balls haha .
Maybe he will find it “ challenging “ and get together again .
It’s hard to explain ... the stress of keeping that intensity rolling ....
Carmen Elixer
07-23-2020, 01:29 PM
just wanted to add I'm not looking for judgments. I already know how fked up it was to cancel I just feel bogged down psychologically. I can't care about it right now>
also I accidentally glanced at a text that came thru on my phone where he said "what can I do to help?" I just don't even want to do anything about it right now.
carmen_b
07-23-2020, 01:33 PM
I hope my message wasn’t confusing.
I meant that I get it.
That intensity can be hard to create / maintain so it can seem overwhelming even knowing the pay is good !!
carmen_b
07-23-2020, 01:35 PM
I would say the accident just spooked you more than anything and you aren’t up for a date for a couple days.
Maybe he will send you to a spa or massage place in the meantime to decompress and get more date ready. :)
Carmen Elixer
07-23-2020, 02:44 PM
I would say the accident just spooked you more than anything and you aren’t up for a date for a couple days.
Maybe he will send you to a spa or massage place in the meantime to decompress and get more date ready. :)
I could use it.
Carmen Elixer
07-23-2020, 03:04 PM
Also forgot to say I was driving to meet him in his town a couple hours away. Anyway, along w the pressure was feeling, there was construction everywhere, it was literally all over the actual freeway in all different directions. So my GPS keeps getting me lost. telling me "exit the freeway" "now get back on" "now go through this neighborhood" "drive in a maze",and I started feeling overwhelmed. Then I wondered if it could be a sign, if you're not feeling right, or the universe is giving you signs, don't go right. Then I just collapsed. I could no longer trust my GPS. and I was trying to find a way to get back on the freeway. Then I just collapsed. I drove up inside a cemetery. to get out of the way of heavy traffic. and that is when I texted him real quick and then I head home.
miss.a.p1600
07-24-2020, 09:29 AM
Ok I guess I'm going to quit being paranoid and just trust these mf condoms 95% rate is in my favor.
miss.a.p1600
07-24-2020, 10:28 AM
I saw a picture of L’s ex wife.
She looked like the epitome of an uber matronly Bertha type
She had some DSL’s .... like she could suck the skin off a dick while deep throating.
Then I saw their kids. Surprisingly the kids look cute. Honestly I was envisioning mini demon seeds.
Violethollywood
07-24-2020, 03:48 PM
I wanna get off bc but i can't cause my man wont use condoms. And me getting fixed isn't an option. Im so fucking annoyed. I hate taking bc. I keep hearing its bad to be on it forever. Ive been in this one for 4 years now.
^^they have a non hormonal iud if u know u don’t wanna get pregnant for at least a few years.. I have taken bc for so long off and on, as soon as I get off the pill the next month I’m pregnant, every time so I feel the struggle
^^they have a non hormonal iud if u know u don’t wanna get pregnant for at least a few years.. I have taken bc for so long off and on, as soon as I get off the pill the next month I’m pregnant, every time so I feel the struggle
miss.a.p1600
07-24-2020, 09:39 PM
Wtf are we talking our ideals For marriage and kids.
He said he was counting down the months till it would be acceptable to propose lol.
That he had baby names already picked out and would take care of our kid if we had one.
Hope he has his money ready by then.
miss.a.p1600
07-25-2020, 01:47 PM
Okay my paranoia is kicking in again and I swear I think I’m 67 hours pregnant
Maybe I should try to get this plan b pill before the deadline
Do I have to tell him this? I feel kind of embarrassed at my level of paranoia right now but I can’t shake the thought that I think sperm go in me even though we wore a condom.
carmen_b
07-25-2020, 02:16 PM
^ Maybe if you were right at ovulation time you should just take plan B in case !
It could have just been your own juices though. It's hard to tell . Ugh.
Okay my paranoia is kicking in again and I swear I think I’m 67 hours pregnant
Maybe I should try to get this plan b pill before the deadline
Do I have to tell him this? I feel kind of embarrassed at my level of paranoia right now but I can’t shake the thought that I think sperm go in me even though we wore a condom.
first of all, never ever tell him something like this unless you’re 100 percent positive your pregnant or it might make him weird about fucking u again and it’s normal to have wetness the next day or even after, doesn’t mean it’s sperm but it could be so i always get plan b when not on pill and having sex with a new guy cause I’m so firtle if any sperm gets in I’m gonna get pregnant while not on bc, that y I always take it when having sex.
miss.a.p1600
07-25-2020, 04:16 PM
^thanks y’all
I think I’m just being level 10 paranoid.
And you’re right. I definitely won’t tell him cause then he’ll think I’m batshit crazy. Some stuff it’s better to keep to oneself.
Thanks for listening to my neurotic rants
whirlerz
07-26-2020, 11:01 AM
Luv ya Ms P.
So, this idiot here throws out an ottoman, I know it's his, cause I took a pic of his bunny in his room, right in front of it. ::) It's right outside the damn door, for the mice/bugs to infest>:(
Now, I missed the guy upstairs, (he went out for the day) to help put it out front where it's supposed to be for tomorrow's garbage pick up.
I'll leave him a note & part of a pizza I made. I feel weird about it tho, we're kinda bickering, he did help me earlier in the week
miss.a.p1600
07-26-2020, 11:12 AM
Love ya too whirl
miss.a.p1600
07-26-2020, 11:59 AM
I decided to get the plan b but please tell me why the hell cant I find it in stock. Now I have to spend my afternoon store hopping to find this shit today before I end up pregnant
I’m probably going to stop having sex till I can get some kind of birth control beside just a condom which could fall off, break, etc.
Both times I was riding on top and when I got up after he came I guess my pussy gripped the condom off (or maybe he’s wearing condoms that are too big) and when I went to the bathroom today I noticed what looked like sperm on the outside of my vaginal opening.
I’m sorry if this is TMI
miss.a.p1600
07-26-2020, 12:09 PM
I don’t thin August 8 will get here soon enough.
I’ve never been so desperate to have a period than I have been right now.
miss.a.p1600
07-26-2020, 04:13 PM
Ok I found it!!!!
Well the generic brand.
The last box left.
Why tf do stores have 0 or 1 in stock? I guess they don’t want people having easy access n using it as regular birth control?
Pokahantas
07-26-2020, 07:19 PM
I decided to get the plan b but please tell me why the hell cant I find it in stock. Now I have to spend my afternoon store hopping to find this shit today before I end up pregnant
I’m probably going to stop having sex till I can get some kind of birth control beside just a condom which could fall off, break, etc.
Both times I was riding on top and when I got up after he came I guess my pussy gripped the condom off (or maybe he’s wearing condoms that are too big) and when I went to the bathroom today I noticed what looked like sperm on the outside of my vaginal opening.
I’m sorry if this is TMI
Lol that’s kind of funny but I can see how it’s frustrating too.
miss.a.p1600
07-27-2020, 11:23 AM
I’m glad L is restraining himself from vocalizing his cheapness tendencies. I guess he can see my disappointment when he start talking about money in a way that makes him seem like an extreme cheapskate and he autocorrects himself.
Thankfully he’s been offering to pay for dates, offering to cook, buying small gifts, and driving. I think I paid for one or two grocery items so far.
I know he’s not a uber wealthy guy (in fact I think I make more than he does which is a shocker that I even gave him the time of day since I prefer dealing with whales in my private life as well as at work but he is such a great guy to me that I relaxed some of my rules) but if he can earn more money in the near future that would bump him up to a 10.
moneybags
07-27-2020, 12:17 PM
I feel like men paying for things is like an informal form of reparations to women.
miss.a.p1600
07-27-2020, 07:14 PM
I wanna get off bc but i can't cause my man wont use condoms. And me getting fixed isn't an option. Im so fucking annoyed. I hate taking bc. I keep hearing its bad to be on it forever. Ive been in this one for 4 years now.
I feel ya.
The only thing I liked about hormonal bc was it made my boobs fuller and look bigger
I am considering trying the basal temperature method but I need to do some research on the effectiveness
lynn2009
07-27-2020, 08:17 PM
I wanna get off bc but i can't cause my man wont use condoms. And me getting fixed isn't an option. Im so fucking annoyed. I hate taking bc. I keep hearing its bad to be on it forever. Ive been in this one for 4 years now.
This is tangential to your post, but I once told a partner that his options were to use a condom or to rape me without one I was so fed up with his whining. He stopped after that.
miss.a.p1600
07-28-2020, 08:15 AM
L asking me for a pic to put on his phone as a screensaver.
We took our first “couples” pic at our last date
*also this damn Plan B got me feeling nauseous af ... I certainly hope this shit works because I saw its like a 75-87% effective rate. I guess I'll be back in a week after I take one of those early detection pregnancy tests. I suppose until then I'll try to just be normal and not freak out or act neurotic like I have been lately.