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MistyRose
11-09-2010, 02:56 AM
DLT and Surprise, we can start a support group, lol... Mine lives in Cali, too!
DirtyLittleSecret
11-09-2010, 10:51 AM
Pack your stuff, I'm coming to get you, and we're going to California. That's where mine lives. :(
I am so damn tempted!
Long distance CA lovers unite! :grouphug:
deedee at the beach
11-09-2010, 12:54 PM
Confession:
I'm in love with a man who lives clear across the country in CA. We've been friends for 3yrs (online) and finally got to meet this past August. It was perfect. From our beautiful stroll through the woods, going shopping, eating dinner and the sexual chemistry was phenomenal. He's basically everything i want in a partner. We still talk literally all time on FB or yahoo. He's eventually coming back this way again (saving up) and i can't wait. I just want him to take me away. He doesn't mind the idea of my camming, he wants kids, is open sexually and is super hardworking and caring. Everything my SO is not. My SO thinks of me as an accessory in his life. A mere room mate. He talks down to me, makes me feel like he resents me, and doesnt like a single thing i do. I just feel a hole inside me when i'm here. If i were to die tomorrow i would feel such hatred and regret for my life. I want to live a happy life where i feel wanted, needed and loved. This isn't it....and i don't know what to do.
This sounded like me exactly a year ago, however I was married, it doesn't sound like you are? I was so fed up I divorced him. I too felt it was a roommate situation, who wants to be in a marriage like that...it got to be that we weren't even sleeping in the same bedroom anymore... It was the BEST thing that I did and have no regrets....if you want my advice, get out now whilst you're still young and attractive enough to be with someone who also WANTS to be with you! Don't waste your time and move on...
kitinboots
11-09-2010, 02:40 PM
I've just eaten 2 dinners and part of me wants to go barf, but I won't.
sananeko
11-09-2010, 03:18 PM
I'm sick today... can't even leave the bed.. And I wanted go to the mall....
carmen_b
11-10-2010, 02:27 AM
I dumped hot low libido man. I hope I didn't act too rashly. Someone tell me it's normal to want affection more like 3 times a week than 1-2.
He wasn't trying very hard with me.....
carmen_b
11-10-2010, 01:17 PM
^ PIC of outfit ! ;)
Tasha_xoxo
11-10-2010, 10:46 PM
Pack your stuff, I'm coming to get you, and we're going to California. That's where mine lives. :(
mine too,,
damn is it just me or do a lot of great guys live in CA?
Surprise
11-11-2010, 01:03 AM
mine too,,
damn is it just me or do a lot of great guys live in ca?
zomg sw road trip. <3 <3 <3
kaiarose
11-11-2010, 11:46 AM
I just want to run away. Run away from my husband and my child and start fresh. We are hurting so bad for money now it's not even funny. We have never ever been this broke. I checked my savings account online and turns out I have been overdrawn for the past week... I had no clue. So I have no money in there and owe $100 just to put it back to $0!! We still haven't paid our rent which is another $800... We have a $200 water bill, $200 electric bill, cable, groceries, ohmyfuckinggod!!!!!!!!!! Theres no other clubs to go to. They are worse off than our club. I have been applying for jobs but so is every tom dick and harry!!! I won't really run away but it would be nice to make some money and have it be all mine for once. This is so scary.
deedee at the beach
11-11-2010, 12:05 PM
I just want to run away. Run away from my husband and my child and start fresh. We are hurting so bad for money now it's not even funny. We have never ever been this broke. I checked my savings account online and turns out I have been overdrawn for the past week... I had no clue. So I have no money in there and owe $100 just to put it back to $0!! We still haven't paid our rent which is another $800... We have a $200 water bill, $200 electric bill, cable, groceries, ohmyfuckinggod!!!!!!!!!! Theres no other clubs to go to. They are worse off than our club. I have been applying for jobs but so is every tom dick and harry!!! I won't really run away but it would be nice to make some money and have it be all mine for once. This is so scary.
Unfortunately, you're not the only one (or family) in this type of bind. I'm absolutely hating life right now... and my future currently feels pretty damn bleak...>:( I'm almost ashamed to post this cuz I'm NOT the one to self-loathe but that's the mood I"m in
kaiarose
11-11-2010, 12:11 PM
Unfortunately, you're not the only one (or family) in this type of bind. I'm absolutely hating life right now... and my future currently feels pretty damn bleak...>:( I'm almost ashamed to post this cuz I'm NOT the one to self-loathe but that's the mood I"m in
I know I'm not the only one... It just sucks to be a broke stripper.. Most nights I'm not even making min wage!! It just isn't right..
pixierocksonthepole
11-11-2010, 02:48 PM
Kaia how far are you willing to travel for another club?
kaiarose
11-11-2010, 03:06 PM
Kaia how far are you willing to travel for another club?
Not far :( Hubby doesn't like the idea of me traveling too far.. It's a strange situation we have... We live 10mins from the club. We both work there. We both drink. He has 3 DUI's so I have to drive him on the weekends... He would rather me work 7 nights a week rather than go to a different club :/
xoAnnaBanana
11-11-2010, 03:28 PM
^Well if I were in your position, I would do whatever I have to do to at least SURVIVE financially. Your husband would rather you work 7 nights a week at the club that's close by even if it means not being able to come up with your rent and other bills??? There's no way you should have like $0 to your name when you're working as a stripper. I would check into other clubs. Girls at my club travel from like 6 hours away! Do whatever it takes (within reason of course).
You seem way too pretty and way too nice to be struggling, when you don't even HAVE to be...
kaiarose
11-11-2010, 03:43 PM
^Well if I were in your position, I would do whatever I have to do to at least SURVIVE financially. Your husband would rather you work 7 nights a week at the club that's close by even if it means not being able to come up with your rent and other bills??? There's no way you should have like $0 to your name when you're working as a stripper. I would check into other clubs. Girls at my club travel from like 6 hours away! Do whatever it takes (within reason of course).
You seem way too pretty and way too nice to be struggling, when you don't even HAVE to be...
I totally agree... And yes he would rather me work 7 nights here then at any other club.. It's horrible here in Wisco :(
_Avery_
11-11-2010, 04:36 PM
I totally agree... And yes he would rather me work 7 nights here then at any other club.. It's horrible here in Wisco :(
It is horrible. There's only 3 clubs around and 2 are known for drugs/prostitution.
You're definitely at the best club in the area...it just sucks that it's been so shitty.
Why won't she lower house fees or get some specials to get guys in the club??
That's what really irritates me, is that the owner just doesn't even seem to care.
Could you go back to cocktailing there? So you're at least getting a little paycheck??
I'm sorry you're going through this.
sananeko
11-11-2010, 05:28 PM
I'm ready to go home. I have much work to do and I need to be building..
@kaiarose I would travel if its that hard there, your love may hate it but sadly money does make the world go round..
Jessie_tinydancer
11-11-2010, 10:34 PM
I just want to run away. Run away from my husband and my child and start fresh. We are hurting so bad for money now it's not even funny. We have never ever been this broke. I checked my savings account online and turns out I have been overdrawn for the past week... I had no clue. So I have no money in there and owe $100 just to put it back to $0!! We still haven't paid our rent which is another $800... We have a $200 water bill, $200 electric bill, cable, groceries, ohmyfuckinggod!!!!!!!!!! Theres no other clubs to go to. They are worse off than our club. I have been applying for jobs but so is every tom dick and harry!!! I won't really run away but it would be nice to make some money and have it be all mine for once. This is so scary.
Awww *hugs*. Ive definitely been there before girlie. Its not a nice feeling. I know its hard but try not to stress about it. Money comes to those who think they are better than it. Once you are ahead maybe try to set aside a little money just for you each week. My friend was in a similar situation and even though it was only $100 her husband didnt know about each week into her secret account it made her feel better knowing she had more control over some money.
pixierocksonthepole
11-12-2010, 11:53 AM
Not far :( Hubby doesn't like the idea of me traveling too far.. It's a strange situation we have... We live 10mins from the club. We both work there. We both drink. He has 3 DUI's so I have to drive him on the weekends... He would rather me work 7 nights a week rather than go to a different club :/
Have you looked in IL? I knew a few girls that I worked with in IL that drove from Wisconsin every night they worked to be at the club I was at. It was a great club. Could test it out and see how it fits you if you wanted.
MistyRose
11-12-2010, 12:07 PM
I just want to run away. Run away from my husband and my child and start fresh. We are hurting so bad for money now it's not even funny. We have never ever been this broke. I checked my savings account online and turns out I have been overdrawn for the past week... I had no clue. So I have no money in there and owe $100 just to put it back to $0!! We still haven't paid our rent which is another $800... We have a $200 water bill, $200 electric bill, cable, groceries, ohmyfuckinggod!!!!!!!!!! Theres no other clubs to go to. They are worse off than our club. I have been applying for jobs but so is every tom dick and harry!!! I won't really run away but it would be nice to make some money and have it be all mine for once. This is so scary.
I'm sorry. I've been there financially and I know how much it sucks. Just remember it's temporary! No matter how bleak things look now, they can easily change to your advantage. :)
MistyRose
11-12-2010, 12:09 PM
I confess that even though I'm embarrassed my neighbors can hear me having kinky phone sex with the boyfriend...there's a little piece of me that feels so mischievously pleased by it...}:D
kaiarose
11-12-2010, 12:36 PM
It is horrible. There's only 3 clubs around and 2 are known for drugs/prostitution.
You're definitely at the best club in the area...it just sucks that it's been so shitty.
Why won't she lower house fees or get some specials to get guys in the club??
That's what really irritates me, is that the owner just doesn't even seem to care.
Could you go back to cocktailing there? So you're at least getting a little paycheck??
I'm sorry you're going through this.
Exactly, the 2 closest clubs are disgusting and doing worse than we are! She will never do specials or lower anything... if we don't make money or if the customers aren't there then it's the dancer's fault somehow. Bitch. Once you become a dancer she won't let you cocktail anymore. It's always been that way. She would rather be short on waitresses than dancers.
Thank you everyone for your support and encouragement :) I finally had a great night last night!! $500 baby! Trust me, that is phenomenal for me right now.. Hopefully the next 2 nights prove to be just as good... *fingers crossed*
_Avery_
11-12-2010, 02:53 PM
Exactly, the 2 closest clubs are disgusting and doing worse than we are! She will never do specials or lower anything... if we don't make money or if the customers aren't there then it's the dancer's fault somehow. Bitch. Once you become a dancer she won't let you cocktail anymore. It's always been that way. She would rather be short on waitresses than dancers.
Thank you everyone for your support and encouragement :) I finally had a great night last night!! $500 baby! Trust me, that is phenomenal for me right now.. Hopefully the next 2 nights prove to be just as good... *fingers crossed*
Hell yeah! $500 is fucking awesome!!
Hopefully tonight will be good. I told Jay that if he sends guys that way to come see you. :)
Keep it up, things always get better. :)
xoAnnaBanana
11-12-2010, 04:42 PM
Exactly, the 2 closest clubs are disgusting and doing worse than we are! She will never do specials or lower anything... if we don't make money or if the customers aren't there then it's the dancer's fault somehow. Bitch. Once you become a dancer she won't let you cocktail anymore. It's always been that way. She would rather be short on waitresses than dancers.
Thank you everyone for your support and encouragement :) I finally had a great night last night!! $500 baby! Trust me, that is phenomenal for me right now.. Hopefully the next 2 nights prove to be just as good... *fingers crossed*
Yay! I really hope things stay this good for you from now on! :)
I made a drunken ebay purchase last night of some hot stripper boots. I've been wanting some white lace-up knee high boots forever, but feel bad buying them because I've been slacking waaay too much lately.
They better fit and look as hot as I'm anticipating! I love drunk online shopping. :)
Jessie_tinydancer
11-15-2010, 04:22 AM
I confess I cannot stop eating. I have been gorging myself for a week now and I swear I can see the fat and cellulite growing by the minute and I still cant stop. Damn you stress! 3 more days and Im done exams and can stop stuffing my emotions with subway cookies.
Glamgirl
11-15-2010, 05:09 AM
I really need to get back on track with my home writing course! Since i got a bf i have kinda abondoned it and i feel so guilty! My tutor is fantastic and writes some amazing stuff and he rated my work really highly!
I am gonna make a start on it tonight :)
kitinboots
11-15-2010, 08:39 AM
I'm not working at the moment and my bf is 1000 miles away so i haven't washed my hair since Friday :S
charlie61
11-15-2010, 08:41 AM
I'm not working at the moment and my bf is 1000 miles away so i haven't washed my hair since Friday :S
Sounds refreshingly frumpy. :D
Surprise
11-15-2010, 09:10 AM
I'm not working at the moment and my bf is 1000 miles away so i haven't washed my hair since Friday :S
i do this. i also won't shave if he's not around. and once, last winter, i got really lazy and didn't shave my legs for like 3 weeks. i just wore thick thigh-high socks to work. guys loved it. :D
DirtyLittleSecret
11-15-2010, 04:48 PM
Confession:
I feel i have failed at camming. I'm sad and greatly disappointed in myself. Now i'm back to having nothing for myself.....:paperbag:
charlie61
11-15-2010, 04:56 PM
^Why do you feel you've failed?
DirtyLittleSecret
11-15-2010, 05:08 PM
^Why do you feel you've failed?
I'm just not finding my "nitch" in it. I'm a horrible perfectionist and if i can't do something 1000% right then i get discouraged quickly. I see all these girls making $$ and getting groups and privates and here i am with barely 5 guys in my room (all who are "friends"). I keep trying new things and racking my brain with ideas so its not like i'm not trying! In a month of doing this i barely made $100. How sad! I just had my hopes up i guess. Its seemed like i would have this in the bag....but no. So thus fail.:guilty:
charlie61
11-15-2010, 05:14 PM
^Wasn't your original goal just to have fun with it, not to make lots of money?
DirtyLittleSecret
11-15-2010, 05:29 PM
^Wasn't your original goal just to have fun with it, not to make lots of money?
At first, but then i got a taste of it and well, money is a powerful thing. A double-edged sword really. I enjoy the "regulars" i do have but i feel as if i'm not doing a hell of any purpose being on there without making something! You know?
Charlie61, you should have your own little couch area, with tissues and you sitting in a nice leather chair w/ a notebook..... at least that's what i picture.
(All in a good way of course!)
charlie61
11-15-2010, 05:31 PM
At first, but then i got a taste of it and well, money is a powerful thing. A double-edged sword really. I enjoy the "regulars" i do have but i feel as if i'm not doing a hell of any purpose being on there without making something! You know?
Charlie61, you should have your own little couch area, with tissues and you sitting in a nice leather chair w/ a notebook..... at least that's what i picture.
(All in a good way of course!)
Incidentally, I am sitting in a leather chair at my desk with a notebook... You stalkin' me? ;)
DirtyLittleSecret
11-15-2010, 05:34 PM
Incidentally, I am sitting in a leather chair at my desk with a notebook... You stalkin' me? ;)
I wish!!!!!!!!:flower:
charlie61
11-15-2010, 05:46 PM
I wish!!!!!!!!:flower:
Be my guest... :flirt:
sananeko
11-15-2010, 06:17 PM
Oh my head... I want to be home... I want to kill these people..
_Avery_
11-15-2010, 08:17 PM
Delete.
JenniKat
11-15-2010, 09:36 PM
I've been thinking of all the guys I've dated and it seems like the loser parade. The nice guys were all fat and ugly and the hot ones were all assholes. I know it makes me a total bitch for saying this, but I think I wouldn't admit to fucking 60% of the guys I've been with. What can I say? I have low standards when I'm drunk
_Avery_
11-15-2010, 09:53 PM
Delete.
charlie61
11-15-2010, 09:58 PM
^ I hate to say it, but seriously...no one should drink and drive, BAC aside. Thank goodness she didn't hurt anyone.
I hear what you're saying though--that they should treat everyone the same.
Kellydancer
11-16-2010, 12:10 AM
I've been thinking of all the guys I've dated and it seems like the loser parade. The nice guys were all fat and ugly and the hot ones were all assholes. I know it makes me a total bitch for saying this, but I think I wouldn't admit to fucking 60% of the guys I've been with. What can I say? I have low standards when I'm drunk
That sounds like me, only I can't claim being drunk (though I try). Oh and I dated fat and ugly assholes too so I really wish I was drunk.
Tasha_xoxo
11-16-2010, 01:20 AM
zomg sw road trip. <3 <3 <3
lol love it!
sananeko
11-17-2010, 06:23 PM
I'm home!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate my parents...
JenniKat
11-17-2010, 10:59 PM
That sounds like me, only I can't claim being drunk (though I try). Oh and I dated fat and ugly assholes too so I really wish I was drunk.
I cringe when I think about all the losers I've created who are out there bragging about dating or having banged a stripper. A friend of mine was talking about this custy of hers who was doing that and this other friend said "oh, it was probably just Jenny." All I could think was "yeah, it probably was." At least I can laugh at it.
Why am I such a loser magnet?
Kellydancer
11-18-2010, 12:34 AM
I cringe when I think about all the losers I've created who are out there bragging about dating or having banged a stripper. A friend of mine was talking about this custy of hers who was doing that and this other friend said "oh, it was probably just Jenny." All I could think was "yeah, it probably was." At least I can laugh at it.
Why am I such a loser magnet?
That's what I do now, just laugh about it. It makes for great conversation now and sometimes the terror becomes laughter years later. The funny thing is I don't have photos of most of the guys I dated.
Jessie_tinydancer
11-18-2010, 10:08 AM
This is the first time Ive had time to reflect at all on my emotions... why do I feel so lost? Maybe summer is not such a good thing... Idol hands make devils work??