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moneybags
08-30-2020, 12:03 AM
I’m glad L is in isolation
I have 2 weeks to myself.
And I did tell him again to sit his ass down somewhere. Luckily for him, He agreed.
Omg...is he sick? I hope he’s okay.
miss.a.p1600
08-30-2020, 08:04 AM
^Aww...I guess I should show more compassion on here like you do.
He said Monday he left work because he wasn’t feeling good (nausea, hot flashes) then the next day he was very fatigued and so I my mind I’m thinking what if it’s coronavirus.
He was like nah I don’t think that’s what it is. But I convinced him to take a test.
He text me 3 days later - it was positive
He said he was mad at himself for being sick because he couldn’t be next to me. My introverted self was happy to have some “alone” moments. But then he noticed I wasn’t calling him as much and asked me if we were okay.
I said I figured he was sleeping and resting so I didn’t want to bother him (and I wanted some time to myself) but he said even though he was sick he still wanted to hear from me because it made him feel better and I could call him anytime.
carmen_b
08-30-2020, 08:19 AM
^ He will be fine ! It's just isolation . ;/
How many evenings were you spending together a week before he got sick ? I just ask because it seemed like it was a touch too much for you and it seemed like a little less time ( but higher quality of ) might be a better fit.
miss.a.p1600
08-30-2020, 08:22 AM
^It was too much. I didn’t realize it because he was so kind to me and put in a lot of effort into seeing me that I inadvertently loosened my boundary of the initial 1 x per week
But now that summer is somewhat over it’s about 2-3 times a week
^^i love the alone time so much, I hardly get any anymore. I hadn’t heard of nausea as a COVID symptom, I hope u didn’t get exposed! I think I had it back in March, I was still going to work at the club but at this time they told us it was in China not here so I thought it was just a cold, I lost my voice one night at the club and still sold rooms, how TF I did that idk
whirlerz
08-30-2020, 09:05 AM
I'm over coronavirus. I miss the club. I miss people. I miss being able to take dirty dollars with my mouth. I hope this is all over soon. GOD I MISS BEING ABLE TO MAKE A SHIT TON OF CASH EFFORTLESSLY! I know by this time next year this will all be over.
Amen to that!
miss.a.p1600
08-30-2020, 11:10 AM
^^i love the alone time so much, I hardly get any anymore. I hadn’t heard of nausea as a COVID symptom, I hope u didn’t get exposed! I think I had it back in March, I was still going to work at the club but at this time they told us it was in China not here so I thought it was just a cold, I lost my voice one night at the club and still sold rooms, how TF I did that idk
That’s great you recovered and healthy now.
yeah I think my family members had it back in March as well.
im very thankful I didn’t get it. I mean I kissed him in the mouth n everything just 2 days before he felt symptoms.
WendiStarr
08-30-2020, 11:33 AM
As much as I hate periods, I wish it would just start because it's making me go nuts. The only times I've ever had cramps for an extended time while not on my period are the times I was pregnant. I've taken 3 pregnancy tests already and got 1 negative, a positive that disappeared after 2 minutes, and the third was an invalid result with a pink streak instead of + or -. I wish I'd just start my period already so I can stop freaking myself out over nothing. More than likely my hormones are all jacked up from breastfeeding.
whirlerz
08-30-2020, 11:42 AM
Must.stop.buying.shiney baubles.online!
As much as I hate periods, I wish it would just start because it's making me go nuts. The only times I've ever had cramps for an extended time while not on my period are the times I was pregnant. I've taken 3 pregnancy tests already and got 1 negative, a positive that disappeared after 2 minutes, and the third was an invalid result with a pink streak instead of + or -. I wish I'd just start my period already so I can stop freaking myself out over nothing. More than likely my hormones are all jacked up from breastfeeding.
What brand r u using? They sound generic, get first response, I never had a false anything with them
miss.a.p1600
08-30-2020, 12:09 PM
I confessed to L that I messed around with my married coworker. The one that gave me the best head
miss.a.p1600
08-30-2020, 06:19 PM
I’m really horny right now
whirlerz
08-30-2020, 06:53 PM
I’m really horny right now
I heard that!
Had a mad crush on roomie upstairs, tilI come to find out, he's helping this IDIOT new guy (who, btw suppose to be moving out)
Doing drywall or w/ev, fucking DUST every where, (all windows & front door had to be open) my allergies are really bad the past 2 days, don't really need this rn. BTW, the room he's working on, was already remodeled b4 he got here! >:(
miss.a.p1600
08-31-2020, 03:44 PM
Yasss!!!! Finally got some weed
Zofia
09-02-2020, 05:02 PM
L telling me he is putting his heart and soul into our relationship
I don’t know what to think of this
You lucky girl!
XOXO
Z
carmen_b
09-02-2020, 07:38 PM
I'm just saying ...
If the Hawaiian goddess Pele ( fire / volcano ) needed to throw a fire ball ..... I think I could come up an exact GPS pin point for my former partner .
How far can a ball of fire fly ? Lol
Jokes aside..... I'm glad I'm doing better overall.
2 years post bullshit of him " randomly " ending our relationship ( NOT random .... idiot didn't even know that I KNEW he was in touch with his ex ). At least I have balls. I would have never done that shit.
I do have regrets sometimes. Sometimes I feel if I never would have disclosed sex work we would have had half the amount of problems and may have made it.
WendiStarr
09-04-2020, 08:05 AM
I'm so irritated by my boyfriend since yesterday evening, starting with when I was cooking dinner. I was in the middle of cooking raw chicken on the stove top when he started screaming for help. I turned off the stove and went running to him, expecting the worst, and saw that the baby had pooped. He could've just changed the damn diaper and threw it in the diaper pail but no, he had to make a dramatic scene and insist that we wash the baby off in the shower now and he threw the damn dirty diaper in the shower. That did nothing but make a mess and then he bitched at me about the chicken when it was his fault because he interrupted me when he could've changed the diaper himself and let me finish cooking. I was going to take the trash out to the curb but he offered to do it instead. The nasty neighbor conveniently came outside once she saw him out there alone. After the whole nasty neighbor crotch and ass display incident last week with my 10 year old witnessing it, I had a talk with him to not interact with that nasty neighbor at all. He promised he wouldn't. She was hanging out by her garbage can and I saw him wave and smile at her last night. This started a fight between us because I clearly told him that I wasn't happy about the whole thing and asked him not to encourage her. I said that the best plan of action would be to ignore her unless she engages in public indecency again, which in that case I'll call the cops. Obviously she's attention seeking and thrives on any attention and you can't "say a friendly hello to her". Now today I was in the middle of listening to a lecture for class and the baby started crying. He started a stupid fight with me about it. I'm ready to tell him to go and be with the nasty neighbor or whoever. See if the nasty ass or anyone will remind him to take all his heart meds, cook him heart-healthy meals from scratch, give him foot and back rubs, do CPR on him if he has another heart attack, and put up with his shit, day in and day out.
^^girl I have a nasty neighbor too, I noticed my husband waving and saying hi to on the regular, she wears short ass shorts outside, has no ass However... but I feel the disgust, did yours actually show herself?? Wtf,y r hoes so thirsty...
lynn2009
09-04-2020, 10:27 AM
This may be over sharing but I think I am starting to get arm fat. I used to be super toned from yoga and weight lifting but I don't do much exercise other than walk the dog anymore. I can't wait to get him a yard so I can exercise more balanced again.
miss.a.p1600
09-04-2020, 06:08 PM
L bought me a dress
Firstly I’m thankful he was thoughtful to do that and it is a brand I like but he left the price tag on it.
And now I secretly wish he had spent more.
carmen_b
09-05-2020, 10:29 AM
^ Haha. I like that my former SD would just take me and I could pick exactly what I wanted. Lol.
J doesn't buy me any clothes ( though I haven't hinted ). I would like him to buy me something sexy on occasion because buying all this sexy lingerie ( we both love it haha ) adds up. Next time he is going to the store or something I'll tell him to get me something sexy. I'd like some outfits too that are just for us v.s. things I've worn in the club ( like 80% of all my sexy stuff ).
carmen_b
09-05-2020, 10:30 AM
You guys and the stories of the neighboors !
Don't these idiots realize they can CHARGE men ? Lol. They all need a talking to about throwing things off offering attention for free.
moneybags
09-06-2020, 10:39 PM
Omg...of course I’m attracted to a guy who is mutual friends with my stripper friends. Omg... he’s friends with my OLD stripper friends from back in the day. I’m always attracted to sex pirates. At least I know he doesn’t have a problem with my work...LOL. He seems like a nice guy. Maybe he’s just a normal horny guy and not a sex pirate
carmen_b
09-07-2020, 11:28 AM
^ I resent “ sex pirate “ .
I prefer “ sex enthusiast “ lol.
Aurora_Sunset
09-07-2020, 03:19 PM
A childhood friend visited me over the weekend and brought her new fiance for me to meet. I don't know what to say except that the guy is a loser. I had honestly thought so just from her stories of him so far, but this weekend confirmed it. They were supposed to get in Friday evening, and didn't make it until 1am on Sunday morning, because he "forgot" that they had plans (to go out of town!) and took a job, swore he would get off early, and then got home 5 hours late without so much as a phone call. When we met up last night to hang out, he brought beer and pounded them like a frat boy, got wasted, kept trying to convince my husband to drink at his pace, completely bailed on the game we were supposed to be playing, and then stumbled out of here.
He also has 2 kids that he says he has 50/50 legal custody of, yet never sees them, because his ex-wife just won't let him, and he claims he doesn't make enough money to hire a lawyer to fight her on it. And then pays her ridiculous amounts of money that she demands, when he legally doesn't have to, just because "it's easier than getting taken to court." He works for peanuts for his dad, doing maintenance work on the dad's many apartment complexes, and he probably averages less than minimum wage, but puts up with it because his dad covers his "child support."
He reminds me of the guy I dated when I was 22, except this guy is 40.
I honestly think they only exist as a couple because he can mooch off her success, and she doesn't care what a deadbeat he is as long as she's in control of the household and can yell at him, knowing he'll take it. They are a literal "sitcom" couple. I've never seen her have a healthy relationship, tbh, and I think she's just settling now because she's in her 30s.
miss.a.p1600
09-09-2020, 10:17 PM
Just came back from gynecologist
I admit his offices used to be a lot more plush. Then he took a call during my exam which I was not too thrilled about. He’s usually a good doctor but I really wish he’d spruce up the place. So I wouldn’t be on the fence with trying a new gynecologist.
miss.a.p1600
09-10-2020, 07:03 PM
I haven’t had sex in about 2 or 3 weeks because L was in iSolation.
I’m horny and ..... L has been making subtle offerings
I might just take an offer.
He said I could call him anytime for anything
baer45
09-10-2020, 08:13 PM
First time in 8 years that I felt like to go vote. I might just do early voting.
miss.a.p1600
09-11-2020, 07:22 AM
I confess
I guess I halfway like L.......I was sooo turned on last night
But I didn't have sex
Sometimes I get turned off when he talks about money in a negative way
He seems to be into personal development, seems mostly patient when I'm in my moods, and mostly consistent/loyal/communicates well.
carmen_b
09-11-2020, 09:26 AM
^ It just seems like he needs a bit of a boost. Some encouragement to aim higher and go for the promotions.
Getting more money is as simple as moving up / creating plans to improve and get those higher end jobs.
It takes a lot of work and some people hold themselves back by having these limited beliefs thinking things like " I can't handle this much responsibility " . BUT ..... if you had it .... guess what ? You'd probably handle it just fine. You'd learn to handle it. You'd learn to delegate.
Keep telling L things like that. :)
My former partner would do some similar things . He wanted to move into a " bigger " job / market for what he does but he wouldn't do ONE application to these more premium markets. He wasn't doing bad ( like 50-60 K ) but I wish he would have had the guts to at least GO for the 75-100K gigs because it was something he would complain about. There were times too when I was thinking about just putting in the requests and applications for him. I probably should have.
If you don't ask the answer is no.
If you don't try the answer is no.
:)
miss.a.p1600
09-11-2020, 10:18 AM
^ It just seems like he needs a bit of a boost. Some encouragement to aim higher and go for the promotions.
Getting more money is as simple as moving up / creating plans to improve and get those higher end jobs.
Except it isn't so simple right ? It takes a lot of work and some people hold themselves back by having these limited beliefs thinking things like " I can't handle this much responsibility " . BUT ..... if you had it .... guess what ? You'd probably handle it just fine. You'd learn to handle it. You'd learn to delegate.
Keep telling L things like that.
My former partner would do some similar things . He wanted to move into a " bigger " job / market for what he does but he wouldn't do ONE application to these more premium markets. He wasn't doing bad ( like 50-60 K ) but I wish he would have had the guts to at least GO for the 75-100K gigs because it was something he would complain about. There were times too when I was thinking about just putting in the requests and applications for him. I probably should have.
If you don't ask the answer is no.
If you don't try the answer is no.
Thanks carmen b - youre right
miss.a.p1600
09-12-2020, 07:47 AM
I think I’m treading on thin ice.
Haven’t had sex in weeks
Mainly cause of coronavirus precautions. He’s off of isolation and ready to do it but my dumb ass went to a party and got peer pressured into staying longer than I planned thus meaning I need to either self quarantine or take a test.
I don’t know if they’re capping the number of tests but I don’t want to push that either by taking more than two tests a month.
A whole week went by where we could have had sex but I’m now on my 7th day since foolishly staying at that party n praying I’m good.
Thankfully L is fairly patient but I know his ass is reaching the limit.
JGB2009
09-12-2020, 07:32 PM
I had one drink...i'd love another but if I did I would not make it on cam!!!!!
miss.a.p1600
09-12-2020, 08:28 PM
Somehow we got on the topic of marriage again.
He said he could see me as his wife and if I couldn’t see him as my husband to let him know.
I did say I wanted a marriage minded guy but I guess I’m not used to guys display the behavior I said I wanted.
For years I dated narcissistic jerks or misogynistic men and thought this ish was normal....
whirlerz
09-13-2020, 08:38 PM
So, I channeled my anger about my shit living situation into getting a few things done..
One of the things was this storage unit, I have 2, I'm trying to whittle it to 1.
I go in there, start working, & I'd chugged a diet soda for some caffeine. Well, now I have to use the bathroom, but. There's a sign on the door, b.r.'s closed, bc of Covid19??
FUCK.OUTTA.HERE. How about this: you're too damn lazy [/U]to clean it? I wrote them a nasty note & left it in their mail slot. Pigs
My other storage has bathrooms open, after office hours..&, they have 2 bathrooms, not 1, like the other place.
moneybags
09-13-2020, 11:55 PM
I really like this guy, but if there's one thing I've learned. NEVER FUCKING CHASE A GUY! So I hope he asks me out, but if he doesn't I'll be moving on. I'm way too grown for games. He's really hot and rich, but I don't have time for lames. I can't tell you how many guys I pursued and I was so disappointed because the minute you pursue a guy it's game over-at least that's my experience.
miss.a.p1600
09-15-2020, 11:21 AM
I think L was a little bit in his feelings that I fell asleep with out calling him last night.....”our 2 month anniversary” lol
WendiStarr
09-15-2020, 12:25 PM
I miss the fbsm days, but only money-wise. I don't miss screening and weeding through the annoying timewasters, or dealing with bullshit from boundary-pushers.
SnuffleUffleGrass
09-15-2020, 12:33 PM
Shocking confession- I feel bad for someone who got their karmic comeuppance. Here's why-
* I posted on here about how my old co-worker C. died from an apparent overdose, might have been Fentanyl. Out of curiosity I Googled his former girlfriend.....to find out she got busted for drugs months ago (like barely weeks before he passed) & she looks horrifying in her mug shot. Like barely recognizable, very sick looking and her expression on her face is priceless in a bad way. I never liked her (the feeling was mutual) but in less than a decade she went from cute kid to sick junkie with bad tats. It's hard to look at. I'm guessing whatever demons drove her to be nasty to almost everyone had a part in her destruction.
I hope I'm not offending anyone struggling with addiction (I probably am, sorry) but I'm still so sad C. is dead. It's obvious his girlfriend was part of his issues, and they had the absolute worst outcome (one dead, one locked up.) & I think she gave info as part of a plea bargain so I wouldn't want to be her right now. Lucky for her she has family to go back to...I hope she'll change for the better but I'm not naive. I see her staying messed up until she passes. It's very telling that she got cut out of her local social circle a while back. Yuck.
moneybags
09-15-2020, 01:22 PM
Well I knew it was only a matter of time. So a while ago I had some girls internet stalking me and I changed my name on here.
Anyway, I’m pretty sure the apartment manager maybe knows about this forum or maybe heard I use to be a dancer as it’s on my application-had to prove my income. You know how people treat you when they KNOW.
I’ve thought about moving, but I don’t think it’s a good idea to drop out of school. Unless I get an awesome transfer opportunity with a scholarship. Toxic people are everywhere. They will always find something about me to judge or criticize.
If I was out and really opinionated about sex work, then I wouldn’t be as upset. It’s just a little crazy to have people be so obsessed about my private business and follow my anonymous post on the internet.
I’ll just focus on what I can control and let go of what I can’t.
SnuffleUffleGrass
09-15-2020, 02:57 PM
Well I knew it was only a matter of time. So a while ago I had some girls internet stalking me and I changed my name on here.
Anyway, I’m pretty sure the apartment manager maybe knows about this forum or maybe heard I use to be a dancer as it’s on my application-had to prove my income. You know how people treat you when they KNOW.
I’ve thought about moving, but I don’t think it’s a good idea to drop out of school. Unless I get an awesome transfer opportunity with a scholarship. Toxic people are everywhere. They will always find something about me to judge or criticize.
If I was out and really opinionated about sex work, then I wouldn’t be as upset. It’s just a little crazy to have people be so obsessed about my private business and follow my anonymous post on the internet.
I’ll just focus on what I can control and let go of what I can’t.
He might have been using something to see what WiFi traffic is going on in the building (I made the mistake of using the clubhouse wifi at my old apartment & I'm sure that's how they found out about my stripping.) Or he just saw the application. Ugh. Sorry that happened.
Can you make some guy friends who can come over if apartment manager is creeping?
moneybags
09-15-2020, 06:04 PM
He might have been using something to see what WiFi traffic is going on in the building (I made the mistake of using the clubhouse wifi at my old apartment & I'm sure that's how they found out about my stripping.) Or he just saw the application. Ugh. Sorry that happened.
Can you make some guy friends who can come over if apartment manager is creeping?
They are women. So it's the petty gossiping and passive aggressiveness. I'm just gonna ignore them. They don't have any power over me. They can gossip and judge me all they want. I'm gonna just do me.
Honestly, I just don't have the energy to care about other people's pettiness. I don't know if it's because I'm older, but I just don't care like I use to.
whirlerz
09-15-2020, 08:58 PM
Money:
If it's any consolation, I was once outed at a company I worked at..
First thing, some women who worked in a different area decided I was dressed 'not appropriately', not only reported me, but said I was flashing people outside below the waist??
My mgr called me into the office
Uh, no.:O
Then, every day for a week some b*tch kept pestering me about, 'that special type of night club I worked at::)'
I finally had to say, literally, f*CK off, in the worst way & she backed off.
miss.a.p1600
09-16-2020, 06:05 AM
L asked me last night about marrying after the end of the year.
A part of me is turned on that he sees me how I see myself (as someone valuable to claim before any other man does)
A part of me is indecisive/freaked out like “Is this really the guy to commit myself to long term? H
He does everything right except I want him to be wealthier.
WendiStarr
09-16-2020, 08:13 AM
Well I knew it was only a matter of time. So a while ago I had some girls internet stalking me and I changed my name on here.
Anyway, I’m pretty sure the apartment manager maybe knows about this forum or maybe heard I use to be a dancer as it’s on my application-had to prove my income. You know how people treat you when they KNOW.
I’ve thought about moving, but I don’t think it’s a good idea to drop out of school. Unless I get an awesome transfer opportunity with a scholarship. Toxic people are everywhere. They will always find something about me to judge or criticize.
If I was out and really opinionated about sex work, then I wouldn’t be as upset. It’s just a little crazy to have people be so obsessed about my private business and follow my anonymous post on the internet.
I’ll just focus on what I can control and let go of what I can’t.
Your apartment manager is a female? If so, I've been there. The bitch found out that I had been a stripper somehow and didn't leave me alone about it. She started questioning me about any male who came over and often questioning the male himself, even though like 98% of the time they were male relatives. It got to the point where I couldn't even have males over at all without her accusing me of having club customers to my home and calling the police on me any time any male came over. One time she called the police it was just my brother. My brother and I don't really look alike since we have different dads. He had to show them i.d. to prove that we are related and have the same last name. She called again when a long time family friend came over to drop off stuff that hadn't sold at a garage sale. I ended up getting fed up and moving out. Be careful. Civilian/vanilla women can be super jealous and petty.
whirlerz
09-16-2020, 10:14 AM
Your apartment manager Be careful. Civilian/vanilla women can be super jealous and petty.
yep^
She's not a mgr (just acts like it::)) this B that lives directly behind me in a little house.
More like a female Hitler/BSDM combo, in the worst possible way
SnuffleUffleGrass
09-16-2020, 02:32 PM
Your apartment manager is a female? If so, I've been there. The bitch found out that I had been a stripper somehow and didn't leave me alone about it. She started questioning me about any male who came over and often questioning the male himself, even though like 98% of the time they were male relatives. It got to the point where I couldn't even have males over at all without her accusing me of having club customers to my home and calling the police on me any time any male came over. One time she called the police it was just my brother. My brother and I don't really look alike since we have different dads. He had to show them i.d. to prove that we are related and have the same last name. She called again when a long time family friend came over to drop off stuff that hadn't sold at a garage sale. I ended up getting fed up and moving out. Be careful. Civilian/vanilla women can be super jealous and petty.
On a refreshing note to this topic, I experienced the opposite- my boyfriend and I befriended a guy who was a big time regular ay Mons Venus in Tampa FL- I finally just fessed up about being an ex-dancer because this guy wondered why I knew so much about Florida (the strip club industry, obviously.) I didn't judge the guy and he was probably relieved I wasn't scandalized by his Mons Venus tales.
moneybags
09-16-2020, 11:40 PM
^^^I’m glad to hear some people know how to live and let live.
@wendistar thanks for your concern. I’m not too worried. I worry about it effecting school and getting a job. Unless a fellow student or someone at the hospital outs me I don’t care. Even then as long as I get my diploma they can laugh and bully me all they want. As soon as I get my degree, I’m getting the fuck out of here.
I seem to be one of those people either people love or hate me. I’m unique-for better or worse it can attract attention. I can understand why I’m not everyone’s cup of tea, but people seems to have a strong reaction to me-positive and negative? I can’t let people’s negative projections ruffle my feathers too much.
miss.a.p1600
09-17-2020, 03:22 AM
I told L I would go to his place for sex last night but my dumb ass fell asleep.
He’s going to low key be pissed
I guess my need for sleep overrode my need for sex. Am I weird?
WendiStarr
09-17-2020, 06:15 AM
I think boyfriend threw all my sex toys away because I can't find any of them. The fact that he's not home to give me the real thing makes me frustrated too. I seriously suspect that he may have something going on with his guy friend.