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moneybags
10-24-2020, 11:25 PM
Totally got it bad for this married guy, but I definitely won’t do anything with him....except some harmless flirting.

WendiStarr
10-26-2020, 02:29 PM
^ Married men are awful and not worth it. Trust me.

Fear of homelessness has kept me with my boyfriend, but now I am actively looking for a cheap place for the kids and I to live. I need to keep focusing on all of the negative things that he has done to me, cheating on me with both men and women, yelling at me when I had anxiety attacks, trying to convince me to get an abortion to save his failed 2nd marriage, leaving me alone with no way to get anywhere, etc. I

lurkingtitties
10-26-2020, 04:21 PM
^ Married men are awful and not worth it. Trust me.

Fear of homelessness has kept me with my boyfriend, but now I am actively looking for a cheap place for the kids and I to live. I need to keep focusing on all of the negative things that he has done to me, cheating on me with both men and women, yelling at me when I had anxiety attacks, trying to convince me to get an abortion to save his failed 2nd marriage, leaving me alone with no way to get anywhere, etc. I

Proud of you girl

miss.a.p1600
10-26-2020, 07:14 PM
Im supposed to be meeting L's relatives and his kids ...... all in the same day.

Joy!!!!

*Insert sarcasm here*

carmen_b
10-26-2020, 07:50 PM
Wendi !!
Amazing !!
Please reach out to your local womens shelter / domestic violence services.
It doesn’t take hitting to be abuse and they may help you a ton.

miss.a.p1600
10-27-2020, 06:19 AM
Totally got it bad for this married guy, but I definitely won’t do anything with him....except some harmless flirting.

you better than me.

that one married dude I had a physical dalliance with

and that other one I had an emotional entanglement with

i have no regrets cause I didn’t actively attempt to “wreck a home” but more so saw it as just a Temporary moment to share a dude who las looking to share himself with me.

that’s it.

i don’t like married men unless they coming with some money AND some divorce papers

carmen_b
10-27-2020, 07:38 AM
^ I think they can be good sugar daddies if you have the sliding scale ethics type bones for that.

The reality is that physical connection so often fades. Sadness ensues. The wives often just don't care much for sex anymore ( maybe for good reason due to things the men did but who really knows ).

If I didn't enjoy being with a life partner sexually anymore I'd give him the go ahead to have his needs met elsewhere but that is just one persons perspective.

I know another woman or two on a personal level who found it refreshing to not have to deal with their dudes anymore ( or very often ). It's not something I aspire too or anything but I do know alternative arrangements often really do work more than just misery for one or both parties.

miss.a.p1600
10-28-2020, 08:32 AM
L said he preferred we were together if vibrator play was going down.

I seriously can’t believe some men are jealous of damn vibrators. Actually I guess I can. I keep seeing slick jealous feelings if vibrator pleases better than a dick. Which is the main reason I never brought the vibrator in during recent sexual encounters. Because I knew he was barely tolerating it and it took me an unusually long time to orgasm with him watching me use my vibrator

Well after being unfulfilled sexually the past 3 months I engaged in solo play with my vibrator twice no three times the past week.

Is this “cheating”? Or just me going back in my word?

carmen_b
10-28-2020, 08:35 AM
^ I find it weird when men suggest this.

I don't know. I don't *love* the idea of my partner looking at porn for example for various reasons but I have never policed anyone about it either.
I don't really ask about their " solo " stuff because I am not there.

miss.a.p1600
10-28-2020, 10:06 AM
Thank you!!!!

That’s my perspective as well. Like dude whatever sexual stuff you do solo that’s on you (as long as it ain’t deviant or addictive)

He’s OLD school where people don’t masturbate, no sex toys cause dick is enough, women come from penetration only, and oral sex? (only dudes in love do it), sex 3+ times a week, etc.

carmen_b
10-28-2020, 01:41 PM
What ?

He can’t find the clit and is hesitant to go down ?

No no no no no

I would just stop speaking to him but that’s me.
Then if he asks why you can say “ I tried to tell you what I need to get off ect. but you didn’t listen. You didn’t take care of me. I’m tired of being upset “.

( your variation )

chanzep
10-28-2020, 02:47 PM
Yes sex is a deal breaker for me. A guy would have to be so rich and generous for me not to care. I have dumped guys for bad sex before.

carmen_b
10-28-2020, 03:18 PM
^ Yeah.
Unless it’s non-monogamous and there are other perks it’s a firm deal breaker.

miss.a.p1600
10-28-2020, 07:31 PM
*Le sigh*

Maybe I’m not being honest with myself

I’m going to tell the truth ....... tonight

There needs to be something more for me to stay.

Aurora_Sunset
10-29-2020, 07:53 AM
I used up all my personal time by taking yesterday and today off of work. I only took Wednesday off to spend some extra time with my husband, because his schedule is about to change radically, so we only have a few full days left together before beginning of November. But last night, I just couldn't mentally handle the thought of waking up today and going to work, so I banged out today too. I just feel like my life on my days off, when I'm working on stuff I actually care about and want to move into in life, is just an entirely different world than walking into work and staring down 10 hours of some bullshit warehouse job.

I hate feeling like a snob, but every time I talk to someone at work who proudly announces that they've been there 5, 7, or 10 years... I have to hide the horror and disgust on my face that would be my natural reaction. I literally cannot imagine being in that job for more than a year or so just to make ends meet. I know for some people, they love it and are comfortable and happy, and good for them. But my brain has never worked that way.

If I had more PT, I would take the whole week off.

carmen_b
10-29-2020, 08:29 AM
^ I'm struggling with work stuff too. I'm self employed so it's naturally a struggle right now. I told J though that my goal is to work like 6 hours a day 5 days a week and just see how long I can get away with it. To keep things alive I also tend to need an hour of computer time on Sat. or Sun .
I just want more LIFE right now . I feel like I can afford this for like 2-3 months but we will see. I do have my side project ( real estate license ) taking like 8-10 hours a week so I guess I'm still working full time technically.

He's fully supportive and has off loaded pieces of his own job to freelancers and is always doing these same life hacking tricks.

10 hour days is REALLY challenging.
It seems like they must be required where you are . Ugh.

I also do freelance work in TV / Film and when I'm on set the days run 12-13 hours ( not a typo ) which is why I only very *rarely* take the work . The project has to be awesome. I have had mental problems hit for example if a project has ever run into overtime ( I get double pay but an emotional burn out so severe it isn't ever worth it ).

moneybags
10-29-2020, 11:22 AM
^ I think they can be good sugar daddies if you have the sliding scale ethics type bones for that.

The reality is that physical connection so often fades. Sadness ensues. The wives often just don't care much for sex anymore ( maybe for good reason due to things the men did but who really knows ).

If I didn't enjoy being with a life partner sexually anymore I'd give him the go ahead to have his needs met elsewhere but that is just one persons perspective.

I know another woman or two on a personal level who found it refreshing to not have to deal with their dudes anymore ( or very often ). It's not something I aspire too or anything but I do know alternative arrangements often really do work more than just misery for one or both parties.

Yeah. I think he would make a good sugar daddy. How do you even broach that? Gee let’s go on a date at the mall? I definitely don’t want to wreck his marriage. I don’t want a boyfriend or husband. I never thought I could see cheating as any thing other than black and white, but I can see why a decent guy could step out of the marriage for sex of his wife isn’t giving him any. I’m not saying it’s right-just that I understand.

WendiStarr
10-29-2020, 11:37 AM
^ Oh lord! You sound like me. My most recent baby's daddy started off as just movie buddies, turned to an SD type of arrangement once I found out that he was married. He gave the same excuse of wife not giving him any sex so I felt bad for him. Once we became boyfriend and girlfriend and he left his wife, it became obvious that any sex is never enough sex for him. I've caught him cheating on me too, both with men and women, and saw through texts that he used the "no sex" excuse which was 100% a lie because I have the sex drive of a man. He's the one who was turning down sex with me. Anyways, if you want the married guy to become an SD, hint around about needing help with bills, rent, etc. Just don't make my same stupid mistake and fall in love with the guy, have a baby, and end up with someone who is a chronic cheater. Set a limit or find a way to detach yourself emotionally.

charlie61
10-29-2020, 12:01 PM
^ Oh lord! You sound like me. My most recent baby's daddy started off as just movie buddies, turned to an SD type of arrangement once I found out that he was married. He gave the same excuse of wife not giving him any sex so I felt bad for him. Once we became boyfriend and girlfriend and he left his wife, it became obvious that any sex is never enough sex for him. I've caught him cheating on me too, both with men and women, and saw through texts that he used the "no sex" excuse which was 100% a lie because I have the sex drive of a man. He's the one who was turning down sex with me. Anyways, if you want the married guy to become an SD, hint around about needing help with bills, rent, etc. Just don't make my same stupid mistake and fall in love with the guy, have a baby, and end up with someone who is a chronic cheater. Set a limit or find a way to detach yourself emotionally.

I'm so glad you shared this. I think so many people tend to believe men's stories when it involves stereotypes about women. Guys can say they aren't getting sex in the relationship, and so many of us rush to believe that. Even if it's true sometimes, what if the truth is that he isn't getting sex because his wife just had a baby, or is going through cancer treatment, or something? What if he isn't getting sex because he's being an asshole to her and not helping with the chores / their three kids, so she's exhausted and resentful, rightfully so? As i get older and older, i believe less and less of men's bullshit, lol. And i say this as an ex-home-wrecker piece of shit. I was so young and so egotistical. I loved the chase and the knowledge that i could get someone to sacrifice their relationship for me. I didn't do it a lot, but still, my gawd, I'm ashamed i used to be that immature and desperate for an ego boost. There are plenty of unmarried dudes out there. No excuses, IMO.

And remember, something can be understandable but still be ethically wrong.

miss.a.p1600
10-29-2020, 12:06 PM
I feel the topic rn

I never realized how much relationships revolve around sex.

charlie61
10-29-2020, 12:13 PM
I feel the topic rn

I never realized how much relationships revolve around sex.

Yeah, i hear that. Women need to stand behind women more, IMO. There are two sides to every story. We need to support each other! Sleeping with a faceless woman's husband is too easy. I try to imagine it from her perspective, rather than accepting his perspective at face value.

carmen_b
10-29-2020, 01:06 PM
^ Good reminder.

I never said to do it without nerves of steel ( and if they guy has serious coin to spend and willingness to easily spend it ).

So OFTEN I think it is a story ! I'm glad you said that too Wendi.

So often when a woman " gets less sexually responsive " it's in relation to something the man is doing !

carmen_b
10-29-2020, 01:09 PM
Money : how did you even meet this married dude ?

If he seems *particularly * enamored you can bring this up like others suggested being short on your bills ect. and see what he does.

Caution advised a million times over. Have you ever sugared ? I'd honestly probably practice on a non-married dude.

You can also joke with him about how your " friend " has this " unique arrangement " to bring up the topic.

moneybags
10-29-2020, 02:58 PM
Yeah, i hear that. Women need to stand behind women more, IMO. There are two sides to every story. We need to support each other! Sleeping with a faceless woman's husband is too easy. I try to imagine it from her perspective, rather than accepting his perspective at face value.

I remember when I was younger I use to judged older women for things I said I would never do. Life is complicated and the older I get the less judgemental I am.

I do think most of the time men cheating is just them being immature selfish pricks, but like I said the older I get the more I realize it’s not all black and white.

Carmen, I met him through a working relationship. Thanks for the non judgemental advice.

carmen_b
10-29-2020, 03:05 PM
^ Aw.

Plus it sounds like *you* want more. Like .... you don't really just want sugaring. That could be tricky. Caution.

I don't think anyone here is too judgy. I know when I was I was a baby sex worker I was like " I'd never do xyz " and have now done like half of it. Lol. The other half I haven't done just because no one had the right amount of $$$ at the exact moment to make the transaction smooth and easy .

^ I joke but literally I would have done so much more than I have IF the money was ready RIGHT THEN v.s. these dudes and these " oh I could get you more stories ". You could ? Well NOW is the time ! Hahahaha.

moneybags
10-29-2020, 03:28 PM
^ Aw.

Plus it sounds like *you* want more. Like .... you don't really just want sugaring. That could be tricky. Caution.

I don't think anyone here is too judgy. I know when I was I was a baby sex worker I was like " I'd never do xyz " and have now done like half of it. Lol. The other half I haven't done just because no one had the right amount of $$$ at the exact moment to make the transaction smooth and easy .

^ I joke but literally I would have done so much more than I have IF the money was ready RIGHT THEN v.s. these dudes and these " oh I could get you more stories ". You could ? Well NOW is the time ! Hahahaha.

i do want more. Yeah, I don’t think this is in alignment sigh my higher self.

like you said...I remember being a baby stripper and saying I’d NEVER do that!!!! Now I’m like, well maybe I should have escorted!!! I think it comes down to risk vs reward. Most guys never offered me enough money. Even for the the right price it was never worth the possibility of not get paid for services, being beat up, or it being sting and having prostitution on my permanent record. Yeah there’s a lot of things I said I’d never do, but looking back I realize it was mostly bullshit societal “good girl” programming.
Good girls don’t get paid.

Aurora_Sunset
10-29-2020, 05:09 PM
Bio-mom's new husband left her last night. It's shitty to say, but I am laughing evilly on the inside. I don't think she ever gave a shit about him - just clung to him as quickly as she could once she knew my husband had moved on, just so she could force this Facebook-perfect life on the world and act like she had moved on and had this super happy family now. And the guy was a dickbag anyway. However, a dickbag that couldn't even put up with her level of crazy for more than almost 2 years.

The thing that really makes me not feel bad is that she was on the phone with my husband, threatening to kill herself, and asked him to promise if she killed herself, that he would give the kids to her parents. When he said no, they would come live with us, she was like, "Well, I don't want that." Bitch... you clearly aren't that concerned with killing yourself if your main reason for continuing to live is that you think we are SO fucking incompetent that you can't bear the thought of your kids being raised by their FATHER and stepmother, who have literally done nothing but bust ass to take care of them for the last 2 years. Go fuck yourself. I'm glad her shitty, smoke-and-mirrors second marriage fell apart.

SnuffleUffleGrass
10-30-2020, 03:19 PM
Bio-mom's new husband left her last night. It's shitty to say, but I am laughing evilly on the inside. I don't think she ever gave a shit about him - just clung to him as quickly as she could once she knew my husband had moved on, just so she could force this Facebook-perfect life on the world and act like she had moved on and had this super happy family now. And the guy was a dickbag anyway. However, a dickbag that couldn't even put up with her level of crazy for more than almost 2 years.

The thing that really makes me not feel bad is that she was on the phone with my husband, threatening to kill herself, and asked him to promise if she killed herself, that he would give the kids to her parents. When he said no, they would come live with us, she was like, "Well, I don't want that." Bitch... you clearly aren't that concerned with killing yourself if your main reason for continuing to live is that you think we are SO fucking incompetent that you can't bear the thought of your kids being raised by their FATHER and stepmother, who have literally done nothing but bust ass to take care of them for the last 2 years. Go fuck yourself. I'm glad her shitty, smoke-and-mirrors second marriage fell apart.

I've wondered where people like that find the energy to be that way. I'm old enough to just be glad I am not like them at all.

Confession- I'm gorging on Jolly Ranchers,....

miss.a.p1600
10-30-2020, 04:51 PM
I feel the topic rn

I never realized how much relationships revolve around sex.

haven’t had sex with L in 2 weeks

I am in no rush either but he is.

How long do guys go without sex before they try to have sex outside the relationship?

moneybags
10-30-2020, 05:05 PM
haven’t had sex with L in 2 weeks

I am in no rush either but he is.

How long do guys go without sex before they try to have sex outside the relationship?

I don’t think a good guys first instinct is to go outside of a relationship when he’s not getting any. It’s not just not getting any either. It’s a cumulative effect of the marriage/relationship breaking down of years. Most decent guys will usually jump through hoops to get their partner to have sex with dinner/dates/gifts. Most decent people will try to repair their relationship before crossing that line.

If you haven’t put out for a few weeks cause you’re not in the mood then the guy is trying to hook up with other girls he’s just that way. Getting some or not from his main partner isn’t going to change anything. He’s just a cheater and it’s part of his personality.

I don’t think you can compare it to being middle aged and married with kids. It’s usually not even about the sex. It’s a lot deeper than that. Marriages take a lot of WORK. Anyone who gets married and falls asleep at the wheel is going to end getting in a wreck.

charlie61
10-30-2020, 07:48 PM
I don’t think a good guys first instinct is to go outside of a relationship when he’s not getting any. It’s not just not getting any either. It’s a cumulative effect of the marriage/relationship breaking down of years. Most decent guys will usually jump through hoops to get their partner to have sex with dinner/dates/gifts. Most decent people will try to repair their relationship before crossing that line.

If you haven’t put out for a few weeks cause you’re not in the mood then the guy is trying to hook up with other girls he’s just that way. Getting some or not from his main partner isn’t going to change anything. He’s just a cheater and it’s part of his personality.

I don’t think you can compare it to being middle aged and married with kids. It’s usually not even about the sex. It’s a lot deeper than that. Marriages take a lot of WORK. Anyone who gets married and falls asleep at the wheel is going to end getting in a wreck.

This is SUCH a great post, and i couldn't agree more... It's the cumulative effect of not just going without sex, but also having a partner who is critical of them, bad attitude, bad energy, depressing home environment, high stress in the relationship and/or finances/job, etc. And agreed that even in bad circumstances, most good partners would stay committed for a while, or just leave rather than cheating. I do think marriage and kids complicate things for so many reasons, including that they make it much harder to end unhealthy relationships quickly and painlessly. But still, cheating is not something that happens overnight or after a few weeks of no sex unless the dude is the cheating type.

charlie61
10-30-2020, 07:50 PM
haven’t had sex with L in 2 weeks

I am in no rush either but he is.

How long do guys go without sex before they try to have sex outside the relationship?

Girl, i wouldn't be having sex either if i were in your position. Didn't you say you're getting no orgasms, and he isn't into oral or vibrators?? There are plenty of other reasons to have sex, of course (I'm asexual, so i totally get it...i don't get anything out of sex aside from the satisfaction of pleasing my partner... like, i don't want any of the focus to be on me during sex... but that's a complicated orientation situation). But i know you're someone who enjoys getting off with a partner. So, what is this dude doing for you sexually that should inspire you to want to give him orgasms? I'm salty on your behalf, lol.

moneybags
10-30-2020, 09:28 PM
That’s funny-not funny ha ha, but I use to be asexual to. Not anymore-dirty thirties I guess. I’ve contemplated doing things I NEVER thought I’d do. Most the time I could care less about sex, but when I like a guy (a formentioned) my sex drive is uncontrollable-annoyingly so. I’m like is this what it feels like to be a teenage boy. Jesus. I hate being horny all the time. You might grow out of it. Not that there’s anything wrong with being asexual-saved me a lot of heartbreak and STD scares...lol.

I learned my lesson. I didn’t actually do anything wrong, but I’m never going to entertain a married guy again in my personal life.

Honestly, the reason why I’m a sex worker/cam model is because it allows me to be independent. The last thing I want is a relationship or a situationship.

I don’t catch feelings for a guy easily, so when I do it’s really intense. Sucks but it is what it is. I’ve always said if I’m fucking a guy I want the house, car, and ring. I want it all or nothing.

charlie61
10-30-2020, 10:28 PM
^I have a high sex drive, but I'm not into sex with other people (just with myself), lol. Unfortunately, I'm panromantic (it'd be way easier living as an aromantic asexual), so I've had to find ways to navigate that successfully in relationships with non-ace people. Asexuality as an orientation is different than having a low sex drive or being celibate or being prude. I couldn't tell by your post if you were conflating terms, so i thought I'd do some educating here, hah. Anyway, sorry for the threadjack!

miss.a.p1600
10-30-2020, 11:06 PM
Girl, i wouldn't be having sex either if i were in your position. Didn't you say you're getting no orgasms, and he isn't into oral or vibrators?? There are plenty of other reasons to have sex, of course (I'm asexual, so i totally get it...i don't get anything out of sex aside from the satisfaction of pleasing my partner... like, i don't want any of the focus to be on me during sex... but that's a complicated orientation situation). But i know you're someone who enjoys getting off with a partner. So, what is this dude doing for you sexually that should inspire you to want to give him orgasms? I'm salty on your behalf, lol.

well no.

ive never gotten off all the way with a partner although I have had orgasmic moments (2 from oral and one from penetration)

That’s basically what I feel like. Like I’m doing it out of obligation to please him. Like I’m doing a wifely duty and I ain’t married so why tf would I do that?

This had me questioning am I gay, asexual, or what? Or am I just sexually repressed?

idk. But I think I pissed him off again promising to go over his place tonight, feeling like a cat being dragged into the water, and him getting mad cause I took too long n he’s about to fall asleep. Then him guilting me cause he told his kids no so he could spend time with me.

ive lived my whole adult life engaging in mediocre sex cause I thought that’s what it is but you know what I don’t want to do that anymore. If it’s not as good as what I can do myself I don’t want to keep doing it.

he’s getting waaaay more out this relationship than I am right now and now that I’m not constantly up under him I can get more clarity.

miss.a.p1600
10-30-2020, 11:25 PM
I confess: I’m up at red eye hours; reading stripper webs cause I can’t sleep

moneybags
10-30-2020, 11:32 PM
^I have a high sex drive, but I'm not into sex with other people (just with myself), lol. Unfortunately, I'm panromantic (it'd be way easier living as an aromantic asexual), so I've had to find ways to navigate that successfully in relationships with non-ace people. Asexuality as an orientation is different than having a low sex drive or being celibate or being prude. I couldn't tell by your post if you were conflating terms, so i thought I'd do some educating here, hah. Anyway, sorry for the threadjack!

I really haven’t explored it too much. I’ve celibate for 5 years! Id love to give it a way to a deserving mate, but most guys are trash. I’d rather pleasure myself than deal with trashy men who take my love forgranted. I like having sex with myself and I only get turned in my over the top romantic gestures. In the age of tinder, most guys don’t turn me on. I’ll have to research more on that. A guy literally has 10 seconds to impress me before I lose interest.

Ive has a few crushes over the years but they were too passive. I’m at a point I could retire from SW for the right guy, but they all haven’t been able to do more for me than I’m able to do for myself!?!?! So I’m just making money doing what I love until a guy can give me everything I want. I don’t want to be single for the rest of my life, but I’d rather be single the settle for some basic guy who doesn’t appreciate me.

miss.a.p1600
10-31-2020, 02:48 PM
So the event where I’m supposed to hang out with L’s kids n family is today.

The joys of relationship obligations.....joy! (Insert sarcasm here)

Now my introvert self has to expend all this energy putting on a wholesome family image in front of a group of people o don’t know and some possible bey bey kids

If this don’t work out I’m going back to my original plan to just keep an older sugar daddy so at least I’m getting paid for said obligations

whirlerz
10-31-2020, 03:02 PM
[QUOTE=miss.a.p1600;3193232

If this don’t work out I’m going back to my original plan to just keep an older sugar daddy so at least I’m getting paid for said obligations[/QUOTE]

This's where I see you^

miss.a.p1600
10-31-2020, 06:28 PM
Nice n hospitable people

Thankful for these people

But *sigh* I’m more thankful to be home with my wine and zoom. I booked my calendar so I wouldn’t have to stay all night there with his family.

indiegirl
11-01-2020, 10:41 AM
I’ve been so gassy on that level where I would be an asshole to take another appointment. I’m so upset but I always laugh at gas so I guess I can be unhappy over this while laughing.

miss.a.p1600
11-01-2020, 10:42 AM
Nice n hospitable people

Thankful for these people

But *sigh* I’m more thankful to be home with my wine and zoom. I booked my calendar so I wouldn’t have to stay all night there with his family.

well cotdamn!

somehow as we were talking about the zoom call (I inadvertently told him it was for a meetup with my girlfriends aka not for work, that I sipped wine during the call, and i booked it the day before) he was like “oh! Did you purposely schedule that so you wouldn’t have to hang out with me and my family the rest of the night?” :O

Probably should have been more closed lipped about that.

But now I know “holidays with family” means all cotdamn night

Bruh no! That’s precisely why I went to sleep on him last night when he called me at midnight to come over. After all that hanging out I was tired af and did not feel like sexually entertaining anyone but myself. Not even myself I was so tired.

miss.a.p1600
11-01-2020, 10:55 AM
I’m just realizing- I’ve never met any guy I’ve dated kids before

Because I didn’t want to get attached to their kids in case I needed to up n leave them if they acted negatively too many times or we didn’t mesh well.

I’m not sure I have it in me to be a stepmom. I never envisioned myself as a step mom. I always envisioned my future husband having grown kids

ava$
11-01-2020, 11:49 AM
Child support sucks unless he makes good $$ not under the table... I’ve seen guys who make decent money have to pay like 1k per month per kid then those who make $$ under table have to pay 200 per month which your really effed on that, but I guess u could also get TA (temporary assistance)that also doesn’t seem to be much but they go after the dad for it... lol. Some men just suck!!

charlie61
11-01-2020, 01:38 PM
There are some really fucking irritating men on this site. My gawd. I really think the only reason this site has a blue side is because if it didn't, all civvie men would pose as pinks, and this wouldn't even be a slightly safe space for female sex workers.

queenelayliah
11-01-2020, 02:27 PM
So I got new meds to try to prevent my aniexty/ panic attacks. Wish me luck I really hope this work out so I can get a normal vanilla job and be able to move out of this apartment.


I been living in my apartment for 4 years now I use to rate it 10 stars but now I rate it a 3. Ever since May 2019 I been seeing roaches! :eek::banghead: I never had this problem before sigh. For the last few months I been seeing baby ones and seeing them at-least once per week. Sigh.


I need my mental shit together to get a job and get some cash to buy a house and move the fuck out! Asap.


Also I started exercising!!

yaya_cash
11-01-2020, 07:52 PM
Working a part time job with benefits and socializing, flirting with men and being financially taken care of by a few men makes more sense to me than working a full time job. I'm a little lazy anyway. And I don't want to commit to a full time job, the demand of labor and I don't like burn out. I'm not certain I want to be a career woman, anymore. I mean if you're receiving benefits from a part time job and making more than enough with your suitors why bother working even harder?

yaya_cash
11-01-2020, 08:55 PM
I feel so lazy, lately. I haven't been that motivated. I don't know if it's because I'm getting older... I was supposed to be exercising and making my body better. My motivation just isn't there.

I need to remind myself that I need to be the best version of myself and attract the best of the best.

Probably, just need a personal trainer or an accountability coach at this point.

moneybags
11-01-2020, 09:12 PM
I feel so lazy, lately. I haven't been that motivated. I don't know if it's because I'm getting older... I was supposed to be exercising and making my body better. My motivation just isn't there.

I need to remind myself that I need to be the best version of myself and attract the best of the best.

Probably, just need a personal trainer or an accountability coach at this point.

I’m legit depressed. I’m the most happy go lucky person, but lately I have no energy.
Oppression will do that to you.

For real, it’s depression. I forget sometimes and just call myself lazy, but it’s literally not my fault. I have almost no motivation except to survive. I logged on today at like 6pm, but it was hella hard.

yaya_cash
11-01-2020, 09:33 PM
I’m legit depressed. I’m the most happy go lucky person, but lately I have no energy.
Oppression will do that to you.

For real, it’s depression. I forget sometimes and just call myself lazy, but it’s literally not my fault. I have almost no motivation except to survive. I logged on today at like 6pm, but it was hella hard.

Do you wanna try this accountability coaching thing?