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yaya_cash
11-01-2020, 09:39 PM
I’m legit depressed. I’m the most happy go lucky person, but lately I have no energy.
Oppression will do that to you.

For real, it’s depression. I forget sometimes and just call myself lazy, but it’s literally not my fault. I have almost no motivation except to survive. I logged on today at like 6pm, but it was hella hard.

I just messaged you-

moneybags
11-01-2020, 10:45 PM
Do you wanna try this accountability coaching thing?

I appreciate it, but I have a therapist. We could open a life goals thread for support?

I actually am using this app right now. They have a Facebook support group too! https://successwizard.com/

miss.a.p1600
11-02-2020, 01:01 AM
There are some really fucking irritating men on this site. My gawd. I really think the only reason this site has a blue side is because if it didn't, all civvie men would pose as pinks, and this wouldn't even be a slightly safe space for female sex workers.


i know all too well.

Mansplaining, arguing with women, trolling, fake white knights .....they asses be annoying af

only like 4 or 5 decent dudes on here.

the rest are trash

moneybags
11-02-2020, 01:24 AM
Amen


I’m kinda jealous of her. Now I know I don’t what goes on in someone’s relationship, but if I had a handsome loyal man like him I’d suck his dick everyday. I’d suck his dick and say thank for you hooouuuuussseeeeee while sucking his dick. I’m not anti marriage or anti relationship, but most these guys are a waste of time. If I had a good man that took care of me $$$ Id suck his dick everyday. Most men just want to take from women, so I won’t be sucking anyone dick anytime soon.

I know I’m doing the right thing by not fucking with this dude, but that doesn’t mean I’m happy about it. Grrr

yaya_cash
11-03-2020, 10:44 AM
I need to find another dentist and doctor that I would feel comfortable with.

moneybags
11-03-2020, 10:56 AM
I swear if they take away the right for women to choose my first job out of nursing school will be giving illegal abortions. Let’s hope it doesn’t come down to that. I was born to get into good trouble.

indiegirl
11-04-2020, 11:05 AM
So excited for a new season of my favorite show coming out next month! Yay!!

chanzep
11-04-2020, 02:15 PM
Which show?

WendiStarr
11-04-2020, 04:48 PM
I'm really hoping the baby goes to sleep soon. I want to cam and make more money.

ravenskyy
11-04-2020, 10:41 PM
I want to take my son and run back home to CT, so damn bad.

I love my son so much. More than anything and anyone in this world. More than life itself. It kills me that his dad and his grandfather, are his favorite people. There's no way I'm going to be able to just take him with me, but there's no way that I'm leaving him here.

I don't think that I've loved another human being so much before. I just want to hold him right now, but he's asleep. It hurts so bad to know that I can't just take him and go. He's all I have out here.

I've trapped myself in this failing marriage. I wear a fake smile and pretend like everything is ok, but it's not. I keep trying to fix all of our problems, while he just causes me more stress and anxiety. I resent the person that I fell in love with. I reminisce about our first 2 years together. How we felt about each other. Even the bad times. That was nothing compared to the shit we're going through now.

I would give anything to feel that way again.....

I just want to take my baby, and go.

indiegirl
11-05-2020, 12:31 AM
All the items I ordered were sitting on the porch after I came home from working today. Felt like Christmas opening them LOL. Happy to have some new clothes

miss.a.p1600
11-05-2020, 07:15 AM
If l doesn’t apply for this higher paying career

I’m leaving.

His ass said he had his kids with him the day he was supposed to go take the test. Well idiot! Why tf did you agree to get them if you knew you had an important test.

indiegirl
11-05-2020, 08:40 AM
As of 7:39am I have finished the damn final exam. Wahoo!!! I got a 97%. Will be receiving a 95% in the class. Praise god it is over. Now its time to get ready to work. Have to pay a few grand for a specific attorney due to my background check so I can enroll into the next step of school. Very upsetting but I earned that DUI and have been denied entrance to schools. Never again will I be stupid like that.

moneybags
11-05-2020, 10:10 AM
As of 7:39am I have finished the damn final exam. Wahoo!!! I got a 97%. Will be receiving a 95% in the class. Praise god it is over. Now its time to get ready to work. Have to pay a few grand for a specific attorney due to my background check so I can enroll into the next step of school. Very upsetting but I earned that DUI and have been denied entrance to schools. Never again will I be stupid like that.

Med school or law school? That’s the only time I can think a DUI would matter. People make mistakes and deserve second chances. Good luck getting into your program.

I can’t wait for school to be over. I need a break. I can’t wait for 2021. Ready to put this crazy year behind me. Hopefully we will make America sane again.

indiegirl
11-05-2020, 10:57 AM
Med school or law school? That’s the only time I can think a DUI would matter. People make mistakes and deserve second chances. Good luck getting into your program.

I can’t wait for school to be over. I need a break. I can’t wait for 2021. Ready to put this crazy year behind me. Hopefully we will make America sane again.


Yes 2020 has been wild! It's for nursing school. I have 4 charges and was denied from each school even after doing an hour and a half orientation on zoom from the last school. (I believe it has to do with them not wanting someone to be around pills/drugs/etc.) with a charge like that. Mine was only alcohol so I'm trying to remain optimistic. It makes me so upset but I feel hopeful that things will change after hiring an attorney.

I talked to the nursing board as well as the school I am at to transfer and prospective schools. They all had different things to say. The attorney should sort this mess out hopefully. He was very nice.

whirlerz
11-05-2020, 11:45 AM
As of 7:39am I have finished the damn final exam. Wahoo!!! I got a 97%. Will be receiving a 95% in the class. Praise god it is over. Now its time to get ready to work. Have to pay a few grand for a specific attorney due to my background check so I can enroll into the next step of school. Very upsetting but I earned that DUI and have been denied entrance to schools. Never again will I be stupid like that.

well, i had a misdemeanor expunged.
I can't remember the site, something simple like expunge it .com (not the site name)
it cost me like 300.00 plus I had to pay extra (tracking number incl.) to have it delivered to local & state authorities.
had to go to court (pay there too::)), get a court date, have a brief hearing & boom, done
good luck

moneybags
11-05-2020, 11:57 AM
Yes 2020 has been wild! It's for nursing school. I have 4 charges and was denied from each school even after doing an hour and a half orientation on zoom from the last school. (I believe it has to do with them not wanting someone to be around pills/drugs/etc.) with a charge like that. Mine was only alcohol so I'm trying to remain optimistic. It makes me so upset but I feel hopeful that things will change after hiring an attorney.

I talked to the nursing board as well as the school I am at to transfer and prospective schools. They all had different things to say. The attorney should sort this mess out hopefully. He was very nice.

That seems a bit ridiculous for one charge years ago, but I can believe it. I have anxiety about camming and getting into nursing school. I’m assuming your applying at competitive schools. You might have to jump through some hoops, but I know a nurse from AA and she was able to get in to nursing school after she got sober. I think they just want to see it won’t be a problem in the future. If they are holding it over your head then they are assholes and apply to other places.

Good luck. Everything will work out!

miss.a.p1600
11-05-2020, 02:31 PM
I ran out of weed yesterday.

It's be stressful af today.

I told myself I would drive around too much until after my car is serviced but I may need to just go ahead and get a refill

indiegirl
11-05-2020, 03:27 PM
That seems a bit ridiculous for one charge years ago, but I can believe it. I have anxiety about camming and getting into nursing school. I’m assuming your applying at competitive schools. You might have to jump through some hoops, but I know a nurse from AA and she was able to get in to nursing school after she got sober. I think they just want to see it won’t be a problem in the future. If they are holding it over your head then they are assholes and apply to other places.

Good luck. Everything will work out!

My charges were from a year and a half ago. I got 2 dui's in one year, probation violation, and a driving on a suspended license charge (that was not my greatest year at all). I'm still on probation until 2024....I'm trying to see what an attorney can do since they are still fresh charges.

I heard that the nursing board or nursing school? will put someone on probation for a few years and drug test them randomly in order to do clinicals. I'm hoping for this option.

moneybags
11-05-2020, 06:14 PM
My charges were from a year and a half ago. I got 2 dui's in one year, probation violation, and a driving on a suspended license charge (that was not my greatest year at all). I'm still on probation until 2024....I'm trying to see what an attorney can do since they are still fresh charges.

I heard that the nursing board or nursing school? will put someone on probation for a few years and drug test them randomly in order to do clinicals. I'm hoping for this option.

I have no idea on that one. Don’t let it stop you. We’ve all made mistakes. They obviously are just trying to protect people with active alcoholism. If it’s no longer a problem, then I’m sure you’ll figure something out. It just might take some finessing. Unfortunately, someone was telling me they judge nurses harshly. So someone said it’s best to NOT disclose any personal issues. Obviously they do a background check, so not much you can do about that. They shouldn’t judge, but they do. Partly because they have higher standards because it’s a professional job. I’m sure there’s way to get around it. I figured if I get outed as a SW, then I’ll probably have to do the some finessing as well. I think it’s one of those things where you keep knocking until a door is answered. I know getting a job without any vanilla work history is gonna be a bitch, but where there’s a will there’s a way.

WendiStarr
11-06-2020, 06:33 AM
I feel like karma has caused my boyfriend's truck to break down in the middle of nowhere in the cold with no heat. That's for cheating on me with random men and women on craigslist, for leaving me without any way to get anywhere, for leaving me alone with a baby with no help, for not caring while I cried, for yelling at me when I was having a panic attack, for lying to me and telling me that he was divorced when he was in fact still married, for not allowing me to work, for threatening to leave us knowing damn well I couldn't afford the house on my own right now, for ruining my credit by breaking my lease at my apartment early, everything. Since he decided to buy that damn cabin in the middle of nowhere, several hours away from everyone, and not allow anyone but his gay butt buddy to go up there with him, no one knows where it is. I'm trying hard to block my Piscean nature from feeling pity or empathy right now.

indiegirl
11-06-2020, 10:24 AM
I feel like karma has caused my boyfriend's truck to break down in the middle of nowhere in the cold with no heat. That's for cheating on me with random men and women on craigslist, for leaving me without any way to get anywhere, for leaving me alone with a baby with no help, for not caring while I cried, for yelling at me when I was having a panic attack, for lying to me and telling me that he was divorced when he was in fact still married, for not allowing me to work, for threatening to leave us knowing damn well I couldn't afford the house on my own right now, for ruining my credit by breaking my lease at my apartment early, everything. Since he decided to buy that damn cabin in the middle of nowhere, several hours away from everyone, and not allow anyone but his gay butt buddy to go up there with him, no one knows where it is. I'm trying hard to block my Piscean nature from feeling pity or empathy right now.

He sounds like he needs to figure the car situation out for himself and respect/appreciate you more.

carmen_b
11-06-2020, 10:24 AM
^ Omg. That is an epic level of crazy that no one knows the location of his cabin.

I think you are in motion to get away from this guy.

Domestic violence resources are here for you AND I think you'll be able to hit him good with child support once you recover emotionally from all this toxic stress!

I send you ALL the healing vibes !! ^^^^

I want ask here ( and I hope you are not offended ) but have you reached out to domestic abuse services in your area ? You will often need to start a case BEFORE they will give you a room for example. It isn't " instant " always which can be frustrating. Some of them even have child care options giving you time to work !

trustfundkiller
11-06-2020, 04:40 PM
I feel like karma has caused my boyfriend's truck to break down in the middle of nowhere in the cold with no heat. That's for cheating on me with random men and women on craigslist, for leaving me without any way to get anywhere, for leaving me alone with a baby with no help, for not caring while I cried, for yelling at me when I was having a panic attack, for lying to me and telling me that he was divorced when he was in fact still married, for not allowing me to work, for threatening to leave us knowing damn well I couldn't afford the house on my own right now, for ruining my credit by breaking my lease at my apartment early, everything. Since he decided to buy that damn cabin in the middle of nowhere, several hours away from everyone, and not allow anyone but his gay butt buddy to go up there with him, no one knows where it is. I'm trying hard to block my Piscean nature from feeling pity or empathy right now.
I'm so sorry you've been all through this shit, Wendy. And I hope his karma is a lot worse than breaking down in the cold.

indiegirl
11-06-2020, 06:42 PM
I have this ability to just leave caps on bottles unscrewed because I'm lazy and while I was packing to leave my hotel I grabbed my to-go starbucks coffee and forgot it was unscrewed... the entire thing went up in the air and poured on the bed. I turned the comforter over. Of course the maids will see it. I just don't want to be charged for it! LOL. It was so slow yesterday that I only made my money back. I also couldn't get reception whatsoever once my customer arrived, even paid 15 bucks for hotel wifi and wound up sitting outside of the hotel hoping the customer would recognize me from my photos, which he did.

WendiStarr
11-07-2020, 09:56 AM
^ Omg. That is an epic level of crazy that no one knows the location of his cabin.

I think you are in motion to get away from this guy.

Domestic violence resources are here for you AND I think you'll be able to hit him good with child support once you recover emotionally from all this toxic stress!

I send you ALL the healing vibes !! ^^^^

I want ask here ( and I hope you are not offended ) but have you reached out to domestic abuse services in your area ? You will often need to start a case BEFORE they will give you a room for example. It isn't " instant " always which can be frustrating. Some of them even have child care options giving you time to work !

One of the last places that I want to be right now is in a homeless shelter. I live in a state with one of the highest covid cases right now. My uncle that died back at the start of the pandemic caught it while living in a homeless shelter. For now I'm at least able to cam here and there when the kids are sleeping since bf is stranded in the middle of nowhere.

whirlerz
11-07-2020, 11:16 AM
Praying for you & your kiddos, Wendi!

Yea when I was homeless a few years ago, I wouldn't go to a shelter then.

indiegirl
11-07-2020, 12:21 PM
One of the last places that I want to be right now is in a homeless shelter. I live in a state with one of the highest covid cases right now. My uncle that died back at the start of the pandemic caught it while living in a homeless shelter. For now I'm at least able to cam here and there when the kids are sleeping since bf is stranded in the middle of nowhere.

Have you thought of placing an ad for a roommate? Would be a good idea to offset the costs of bills and not be burdened by someone toxic. Totally get not wanting to leave and camming at home may be for the best for now?

miss.a.p1600
11-07-2020, 03:19 PM
I’m on quarantine

Again.

So it’s been frustrating to have movements limited but it is what it is.

I’m actually glad because now I get a break from relationship expectations

queenelayliah
11-07-2020, 11:49 PM
Two confessions:

Confession #1
1) I'm sad the camming suck thread is closed. It was my only way to see if anyone else was having a slow day or not. I don’t have any camming friends and if I ask in the general chat I get ignored, like I always do on this site. I’m going to miss that thread.

Confession #2
I wish I was a normal 20 something year old who partied, drinks, fight and fuck. And no I’m not trolling I’m serious. I wish I had friends, a social life filled with binge drinking and random one night stands.

I’m a 28 year that hates the taste of alcohol & I can’t handle more than a shot, every time I think of a one night stand I automatically think of 1) being killed, 2) HIV & every other damn STD, 3) my house being cased & robbed. Oh did I forget to mention STDS!!! oozing nasty sores and a lifetime disease for 5 minutes of pleasure and no orgasm. Yeah no thank you. Sigh. Oh and on top of all of that I suffer from a debilitating panic & anxiety disorder.

I just wish I could be a super beautiful, popular and normal young woman at least once in my life vs the ugly couch potato that I am.

miss.a.p1600
11-08-2020, 05:30 AM
^i feel ya.

I wished I could have had some one night stands.

I did have some short flings though.

Pretty much almost the same thing

Yeah the stds are scary. I remember the advice of an escort who said as she was putting on the condom she would look extra hard at the dick and surrounding area. Any bumps, lesions, sores, etc - and the sex was a no go. I looked in medical encyclopedia to see pics of std so I knew exactly what to look for.

But yeah you’re right the worst thing would be to have mediocre sex plus catch some stds. That would be fucked up.

whirlerz
11-08-2020, 09:00 AM
cams sucks thread closed?
nooo:(.

Anyway.
Well. Im a little:-[embarrassed :(

I put another note ( last week also) for my crush dude upstairs to bring the dumpsters for garbage p/u..
I started the note, Turtle Dove,:-[
I also put a piece of apple pie by his door.

I was in my room, I heard the unmistakable sound of the dumpster being dragged across the gravel...
Lol.

Seriously, the others won't, I already tried.>:(
sooo.embarassed!!

Edit: I gave him a bag of chips just now.

JenniferNorth
11-08-2020, 09:10 AM
Two confessions:

Confession #1
1) I'm sad the camming suck thread is closed. It was my only way to see if anyone else was having a slow day or not. I don’t have any camming friends and if I ask in the general chat I get ignored, like I always do on this site. I’m going to miss that thread.


Wait, why was it closed?! I don't intend to go back to that line of work but I am curious!

Aurora_Sunset
11-08-2020, 12:16 PM
Really depressed today.

My parents visited for my birthday this weekend, and I love when they visit, but always sit around super depressed after they leave. We spend this great time together, but it's always over too quickly, and then I get sad that I can't live closer to them for now. We do plan to move close to them once the kids are grown, but that's another 13 years away yet.

I'm also depressed, because this was my last big thing to look forward to. Hubby started a new job today that is going to put him on a schedule where he's basically always at work or school. I'll also have to work crazy overtime these next few months to help pay for health insurance out-of-pocket until his benefits kick-in in February. So we'll basically almost never see each other except for Sunday mornings until he leaves for work at 2. I know it's not forever, but it's gonna be a crazy, busy, broke-ass life for the next year and a half lol. I had Halloween and some Halloween activities, and then this weekend for my birthday visit from my parents, to look forward to... and now that's it. We don't even know if we'll be able to get up by family for Christmas this year. Life is really miserable when you have nothing to look forward to. I mean, I am looking forward to hubby being done with school and getting a good job - but that won't be until July 2022. :frown:

Aurora_Sunset
11-08-2020, 01:17 PM
I debated picking up overtime tomorrow, but I'm so glad I didn't. I probably should have, financially speaking, but I am really looking forward to the day off.

chanzep
11-08-2020, 06:54 PM
Belated wishes.

miss.a.p1600
11-09-2020, 06:45 AM
I think L be trying to slick mess with me since I’ve self quarantined (turns out the test is negative) and he usually gets thirsty for attention when we go more than 2-3 days without seeing each other.

He asked hella questions when I went to pick up food I guess trying to see why it took me an hour to get a pickup order.

Well mf what sense would it make to physically go out and cheat with another man when I’m on quarantine.

And besides if he was soooo worried about he should have offered to bring food in vs me having to go out to get it.

This is going to diminish my sexual attraction to him

Aurora_Sunset
11-09-2020, 10:53 AM
I might remove this later, but just don't know where else to rant right now:

I had a breakthrough epiphany a couple weeks ago, and have been dealing with it in waves ever since. Essentially, two of my very best friends from grade school – one of whom was my all-time best friend from kindergarten through senior year – ditched me after high school. The transition was starting to happen in the last half of senior year, and then solidified over the first half of freshman year of college. They suddenly started acting like making time for me was a hassle that they weren’t going to subject themselves to, and like talking to me was a burden. They especially made it clear in college that they thought I was lame and boring for not drinking/partying or being part of a sorority like they were. We completely stopped talking 13 years ago.

I’ve thought about it occasionally, but never really acknowledged it fully. This whole time, I’ve continued to be friends with them on Facebook and follow them on Instagram, liking a lot of the stuff they posted even if we didn’t have a conversation. It only finally clicked for me a little bit ago that they don’t follow me back and have literally NEVER reacted to anything I post on facebook. I’m facebook friends with plenty of people from grade school who I was never even that close to, and we never have full-on conversations, but we still periodically like/react to one another’s posts. I feel like they would have to very deliberately be choosing not to acknowledge anything I post for them to never pop up as someone who reacted to it. Not even my post about getting married.

I’ve also always been under the impression that we “all” sorta drifted apart, and thought they didn’t see each other anymore in addition to me. But then was slapped in the face on Halloween of an Instagram story of them hanging out together all night. It was really a moment of “oh, no, it was just ME that they didn’t want to be friends with anymore.” And for no other reason than that they just didn’t LIKE me anymore. Very ego-killing and hurtful.

In addition to this, I also realized, with a lot of pain, that their dismissal of me at the very beginning of adulthood when I was trying to figure out my place somewhere new, and their reasons for dismissal, was a huge trigger in me going down the path of partying/drinking and squishing my ambitious/optimistic nature for the sake of fitting in and dealing with the depression that literally only popped up when I was 18 and dealing with all of this in a new state where I had no new friends yet. I feel so shitty that I let these girls that clearly don’t even give a fuck about me define such a large portion of my life by triggering these shitty, life-altering behaviors. I don’t necessarily “blame” them, but am finding it hard to forgive myself for all the wasted years.

A few days ago, I finally decided to try to “end it” in my mind by removing them from all social media. Me finally acknowledging, no matter how painful it may be, that these people are not my friends anymore. They have zero interest in me. And never will again. That moment felt like a good release and acceptance. But today, I am struggling with it again.

I’ve so far spent literally DAYS at my physical labor job, where I have nothing better to do than think, where I have thought and meditated on this exhaustively. I’m usually really good at letting go of the past. Or finding ways to tell myself that even things that feel personal aren’t really about me, but about the other person. But this just feels REALLY personal and hurtful in a way I’ve never had to deal with before. Especially with the way that it blew up right when I was dealing with a huge transition into adulthood, and it came to define so many of my crappy views and decisions. I don’t know what to do to really let go of this and move on.

miss.a.p1600
11-09-2020, 10:59 AM
I watched one of that sheara 7 videos about hypergamy

And it's made me have even more feelings of cognitive dissonance. My inner turmoil is subconsciously causing a distance that L is picking up on.

Do I really want to be in love first with a guy who is content with a working class lifestyle and hope one day he sees the light, takes the higher paying opportunities he's been offered, and the finances *might* fall in order depending on his level of motivation/action-taking or do I want to financially savvy overachiever type man and hope the love grows?

Why can't a lady have both? cotdamn!!!

Genoveve
11-09-2020, 02:38 PM
^^I love Shera7!

trustfundkiller
11-10-2020, 09:28 AM
I watched one of that sheara 7 videos about hypergamy

And it's made me have even more feelings of cognitive dissonance. My inner turmoil is subconsciously causing a distance that L is picking up on.

Do I really want to be in love first with a guy who is content with a working class lifestyle and hope one day he sees the light, takes the higher paying opportunities he's been offered, and the finances *might* fall in order depending on his level of motivation/action-taking or do I want to financially savvy overachiever type man and hope the love grows?

Why can't a lady have both? cotdamn!!!
I love Shera! Everything that comes out of her mouth is the holy word as far as I'm concerned lol

trustfundkiller
11-10-2020, 09:30 AM
I'm at a point where I absolutely fucking loathe my sugar daddy. He's a hideous person, inside and out, and being around him makes my skin crawl. But you know what would make my skin crawl even more? Having to spend my own money on my bills/lifestyle. So, I guess I'm going to continue riding this train until the wheels fall off (or, better scenario, I find a wealthy man I can actually be in love with and happily have a life with).

miss.a.p1600
11-10-2020, 12:09 PM
I'm at a point where I absolutely fucking loathe my sugar daddy. He's a hideous person, inside and out, and being around him makes my skin crawl. But you know what would make my skin crawl even more? Having to spend my own money on my bills/lifestyle. So, I guess I'm going to continue riding this train until the wheels fall off (or, better scenario, I find a wealthy man I can actually be in love with and happily have a life with).

Ahahaha! LOL! Love it!

carmen_b
11-10-2020, 12:12 PM
^ Sugaring is not for the meek , omg. It is sometimes I swear the HARDEST hustle ever.

yaya_cash
11-10-2020, 01:23 PM
Ahahaha! LOL! Love it!

I hate my ex-"friend". He cost too much trouble than it was worth. His is a very ugly person. He's head got too big being with me. And it just seemed like he wanted to conquer a beautiful girl, and be disrespectful, with getting off on this.

Be careful.

yaya_cash
11-10-2020, 01:29 PM
I feel so undesirable. I want to quit, and find another job. The point was to attract men while I'm working. And there's this other young woman whose curvy who gets a lot more attention/ phone numbers than me. Everyone else just stares at me. This job isn't working for me-

carmen_b
11-10-2020, 01:34 PM
^ A vanilla job ?

yaya_cash
11-10-2020, 01:40 PM
^ A vanilla job ?

Yes-

And the guys don't seem to care that she's wearing a ghetto head scarf on her head, wears cheap clothes, smells or about her face; she's more friendly than me and curvy and she gets a lot of attention-- I want to find another job because I don't like how this makes me feel and it's not serving one of my other priorities when I can't get dates too-- I hate it.

I think I'm just not that approachable; no matter how polite or sweet I am.

I'm starting to be puzzled and ignore everybody else; and not put as much effort in to since it doesn't seem to matter of others but, myself.

I think I'll just ignore the guys, and talk to her less. Less work or effort for me, without me getting much of what I want.. And carry on and find another job that helps with more of my goals

indiegirl
11-10-2020, 05:48 PM
I'm turning into my grandmother when it comes to being clumsy. My neighbors were on their front grass and saw me trip twice in my large slip on sandals taking the garbage cans out. LOL. Had to go pick up one of the sandals. I felt so elegant lol. One of them started laughing when I left lol.

charlie61
11-10-2020, 06:56 PM
^^I love Shera7!

Glad you guys recommended her! I'm enjoying the first video of hers i clicked on. She gives a lot of great advice that can be applied to genuine, loving, non-transactional relationships, too. Like not criticizing your partner, how expectations can ruin relationships, taking care of stuff yourself instead of nagging, not shutting their ideas down, etc. And the other advice that's purely game / transactional / not healthy in a real relationship, is still entertaining!