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carmen_b
11-16-2020, 11:33 AM
It’s funny so many of us here are in this unhappy phase.
Me included !!
I feel like I am just forcing myself to put one foot in front of the other .
I just refuse to give up. I’m not happy but I hope to be.
Actions will lead to change you know? Ugh !!
lynn2009
11-16-2020, 05:08 PM
Errybody be house poor right now, especially if you're a first-time home buyer under 40 and don't live in middle America. You have to get into the market somehow. And it might be an option for you to get a roommate short-term for some rental income to help. No need to pay taxes on the rental income since that money will be going towards interest and taxes. Mortgage plus utilities can be a lot. I didn't realize how many damn utilities there are, and they can really add up depending on your city (internet, gas, electric, water, sewer, garbage).
My boss lives in Iowa and her house cost $125k. I almost choked when she told me. I live on the west coast, and we just bought our first house for $510k.
Yes, you may be house poor for a awhile, but you do a great job for your employer and they kinda appreciate you. You're going to be fine.
Oh gosh I felt the same when I bought mine. They wanted 105,000 dollar deposit a few years ago. I was left with 30 bucks in my bank account terrified when I bought it because they changed their mind last minute on the downpayment amount. At the very least if you think you can't afford it at any point you can rent it out and move in with family (if you can) and make a profit...My house was a good investment after all. The house is now at 637,000 value compared to 501,000 when I bought it. Totally get how terrifying it is though! I'm sure it will work out in the end over a few years staying there :).
Thanks everyone. I'm not gonna lie, I wish I had better vibes about it but I feel a little bit better...I think. If nothing else, I did the best I could with the information I had at the time. I honestly never thought I would actually get my house because I barely offered above asking, but they really needed closing flexibility and I rent month to month right now. And I would never have bid on such an expensive house if it weren't 1. a perfect location for the industry I work in and 2. updated in exactly my style. Except the main floor needs to be repainted because it is this horrendous bright blue, but I mean it's a 1950s house and the kitchen and bathroom are gorgeous. I'd hate to end up with a roommate again, but it's definitely an option until I rebuild my savings. If things do fall apart in underwriting though (which is very rare), I think I'd disappointed but also relieved.
indiegirl
11-16-2020, 08:00 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n18JjKMluVY
Man the strength behind her skills on the pole makes me miss accomplishing new moves on the pole. Plus it's a good workout. I totally don't have the room to set my pole back up in the house now though.
charlie61
11-16-2020, 09:25 PM
Thanks everyone. I'm not gonna lie, I wish I had better vibes about it but I feel a little bit better...I think. If nothing else, I did the best I could with the information I had at the time. I honestly never thought I would actually get my house because I barely offered above asking, but they really needed closing flexibility and I rent month to month right now. And I would never have bid on such an expensive house if it weren't 1. a perfect location for the industry I work in and 2. updated in exactly my style. Except the main floor needs to be repainted because it is this horrendous bright blue, but I mean it's a 1950s house and the kitchen and bathroom are gorgeous. I'd hate to end up with a roommate again, but it's definitely an option until I rebuild my savings. If things do fall apart in underwriting though (which is very rare), I think I'd disappointed but also relieved.
It's just nice to know that the roommate thing is an option to fall back on - maybe you don't need to do it right now. :)
But i gotta say, it is nice for us to have a roommate downstairs (separate living space). Mortgage plus all of those damn utilities adds up quickly. As a renter, i didn't realize how much utilities for a house would be.
indiegirl
11-17-2020, 02:22 AM
Have this customer I met from Beverly Hills. He's super cute. It's always the randomly nice men that are so refreshing with the shit I deal with. Being filmed, posted, etc. online was hard without my consent. I forgot how it can be to have a nice experience and paid. I felt special and treated nice:). Hopefully seeing him in a few days :)
katydiamond123
11-18-2020, 11:39 AM
I rarely comment but I read this and just had to. I’m sorry too. You deserve so much more than that. And respect for being a mother. I hope things get better for you!
indiegirl
11-18-2020, 02:26 PM
It was WILD having my first return (final time I have to go yay!) to court since Coronavirus. I'm used to hearing nonstop dui cases but all I was hearing were domestic violence cases, aggravated assault, protective order, and gun possession charges. People have been losing it out there staying at home. Geeeez!
Elektra Luxx
11-18-2020, 03:30 PM
Bf snapped a pic of my vag about a few days ago and today I ask him if he deleted it and he says "Oh shit I forgot to delete the pic"!
Me: **shocked face**
moneybags
11-19-2020, 08:52 PM
I always coming up with these scandalous plans, but I never follow through. At the very last moment, I’m like “I can’t this feels wrong.” Darn super ego gets in the way of my plans for world domination everytime.
lynn2009
11-20-2020, 07:53 AM
Bf snapped a pic of my vag about a few days ago and today I ask him if he deleted it and he says "Oh shit I forgot to delete the pic"!
Me: **shocked face**
Sweetie your inbox is full.
miss.a.p1600
11-20-2020, 08:28 AM
L claims his ex wife still wants him and hoped he’d come back to her.
I kind of wish he’d go back to her. Like she could work her “voodoo” powers and attract him back. Seems like she accepted him as he was/is (when he was very overweight and made even less money). It would make my job a lot easier. I hate being the bad guy and breaking up with people. I like the fizzle out method. But he will not let me fizzle out ffs.
Maybe she’s better for him.
He claims she was “so mean”
Well if mfs ain’t producing nor making continuous efforts to be in the role of a man, provider, etc ..... sadly might see the mean in me too
miss.a.p1600
11-20-2020, 08:35 AM
He told his family and friends that “things are great” between us.
Um no it’s not great.
You’re in debt and I’m losing sexual attraction unless it turns around.
He’s planning to get this house and me move with him and his kids. While I’d love to eliminate my rent bill I also don’t want to get sucked in to shacking up with a guy unmarried, being a live in blow up doll, moving into a house ive never seen on the inside (like what if my OCD kicks in and it’s all dilapidated n shit), accepting mediocrity for the next 5 years, and just ......
Idk wtf I’m going to do.
Actually I know what I’m going to do. I’m going to hustle my ass off so I can have options.
charlie61
11-20-2020, 06:52 PM
^lol... live in blow up doll... hahaha!
I 1000% cannot imagine you moving into a house with this underwhelming dude and his kids. Omg.
Elle:)
11-20-2020, 10:15 PM
^^ Run!
Elle:)
11-20-2020, 10:16 PM
I am sick of my lack of luck with everything.
miss.a.p1600
11-20-2020, 11:32 PM
Am I being too negative and ungrateful?
miss.a.p1600
11-21-2020, 07:59 AM
I should be working.
But I stayed up late last night talking to L
He re- confessed his love for me
And I think he’s slick pissed we haven’t had sex in 3 weeks and asked me how would I feel if he pulled back - seeming like he was actually going to pull back n not talk to me as much or care as much - then said he loves me, wants this to work, and not going anywhere (allegedly)
I have no clue if he’s been with his ex mistress or whomever because he has a higher need for sex than I do and he doesn’t believe in masturbating
I told him people hoarding tp and I couldn’t find any when I went to store yesterday. He got out of bed to bring me some and I think he was slightly aroused. Now if only he was capable to have this same “I’m going to save the say and help a damsel in distress” when it comes to money.
Anyways I’m going back to my no phone calls after 9 rule so I can wake up early and get this schmoney
miss.a.p1600
11-21-2020, 08:01 AM
I have to get back to trying to gain weight ugh I'm sick of looking so skinny and I want to reach my goal weight before the end of the year. Really have to start putting in the work for that to happen!
i lost some weight too.
but it’s really showing in my face which is not a good look for me unless I’m a 5’11 runway model going for the 90’s “waif” look
At the least I’d like my boobs and face to be fuller rather than slimmer
miss.a.p1600
11-21-2020, 08:27 AM
I think I should have just agreed to a friends with benefits vs actual boyfriend
I wish I could have 2 boyfriends
Add a wealthy doctor who has no time but lots of money and excitement
whirlerz
11-21-2020, 08:43 AM
I think I should have just agreed to a friends with benefits vs actual boyfriend
I wish I could have 2 boyfriends
Add a wealthy doctor who has no time but lots of money and excitement
Why not, go for it! You deserve it.
Might be dicey in this covid environment
There's a restaurant I wanted to freestyle @ (been there w/dates tho)..they have an outdoor (fully covered) tent..
Nice idea, but basically the same as indoors, the way to do it is to have open sided tent, outdoor heater :)
whirlerz
11-21-2020, 08:48 AM
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I have no clue if he’s been with his ex mistress or whomever because he has a higher need for sex than I do and he doesn’t believe in masturbating
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Sounds like a bs excuse to F around to me..
A guy who doesn't believe in masturbating, yeah right::)
miss.a.p1600
11-21-2020, 09:23 AM
Lol!!! I know right.
He has some complex about it being something teen boys do when they can’t get women. In his mind if he has access to women he doesn’t need to do it.
There’s a small percentage of people out there that are weird about it n think it’s a last resort for people who can’t get sex from another person, super religious, it will make you go blind etc type people.
Me personally I masturbate because I want to have an orgasm but I don’t want to deal with the headaches of men and them not doing it how I like. For me it’s not about not getting action from a man cause I could get any man but it’s just easier and more efficient to do it myself.
I suppose people have their own beliefs about masturbation .... however “weird” it may be
And yes I think he’s being weird about it. He should have just jacked off during these 3 weeks (take the pressure off me needing to please him sexually when I am not in the mood for it) but he won’t. Because I’m his mind if I’m here, he has a gf, then he has no need to jo
miss.a.p1600
11-21-2020, 10:05 AM
Why not, go for it! You deserve it.
Might be dicey in this covid environment
There's a restaurant I wanted to freestyle @ (been there w/dates tho)..they have an outdoor (fully covered) tent..
Nice idea, but basically the same as indoors, the way to do it is to have open sided tent, outdoor heater :)
yeah I’ve been considering telling my upper class lady friend that “mingling” is on the table because she knows some single rich guys.
only thing is that guy she was going to hook me up with, before L said he wanted to take me off the market, seems like from her perspective he is an “alpha male” player type guy .... but he got some money m ready to spend. Not sure I can deal with those types.
Outdoor seating at an upscale place seems like a good idea. Especially since the weather is super nice right now.
whirlerz
11-21-2020, 10:22 AM
only thing is that guy she was going to hook me up with, before L said he wanted to take me off the market, seems like from her perspective he is an “alpha male” player type guy .... but he got some money m ready to spend. Not sure I can deal with those types.
Those are the ones w/_$$
carmen_b
11-21-2020, 10:44 AM
^ I highly doubt L is not jacking off. ^
I think it's a ploy to get some attention ( that isn't working ) . Hahahha.
miss.a.p1600
11-21-2020, 12:07 PM
haha....so they claim to be against it, aversion to it, 'no *I'd* never do that' but really be doing it?
lololol!!!!
So like if they do it, have some macho mentality about it, ....they don't admit to it sort of thing
Those are the ones w/_$$
I know...I suppose I really want the best of both worlds or else....I'm might end up being a slick cheater or something.
I don't think I can cheat sexually but I might cheat emotionally.
I also find myself preferring to lead and find myself falling into a submissive role when dating super successful men.
Im conflicted about my roomie crush..we were talking early this morning, I know he likes me, but getting involved (even superficially, which, let's not kid myself cause I'll fall hard)) will bring drama/probs :(
Damn/:O Opinions?:(
I guess, just see what happens
Well maybe keep it light n carefree then once one of y'all moves then explore it more?
Being around someone ALL the cotdamn time can be stressful if you don't know you'll match well on those other levels
charlie61
11-21-2020, 02:46 PM
I feel like yall wouldn't be stuck in these relationships if not for the pandemic.
indiegirl
11-21-2020, 05:34 PM
When I tell someone please no gifts I'm trying to be polite/save them time and money (because I know what they're getting me and I don't want it). I still have a bag of clothes from them to resell at an upcharge on ebay. No moreeeee lolll. I legit have no more room in my closet and every year when christmas rolls around I get clothes I would never wear. Part of me wants to take the clothes and drop them off at goodwill to be rid of them. I haven't worn the clothes even once.
I just got the text: What is your pant size again?
Me in my head: noooooooo!
I appreciate the thoughtful gesture though, I'm completely content not having gifts. Christmas is just another day for me in my mind. Customer on the other hand, I love gifts. They always seem to get me what I want. Thongs, perfume, jewelry, spa gift certificates, shoes, flowers, lingerie, dog toys/treats, and sex toys.
charlie61
11-21-2020, 09:00 PM
Do you ever catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror, or take a selfie, and you have no makeup on, hair in a greasy bun, a little bloated pre-period/post-meal... and you just laugh that men have paid good money to look at you? smh...
PrincessQ
11-21-2020, 09:19 PM
Do you ever catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror, or take a selfie, and you have no makeup on, hair in a greasy bun, a little bloated pre-period/post-meal... and you just laugh that men have paid good money to look at you? smh...
I imagine that all the time. For me it makes me think how men pay me (escorting) to do the things they want yet have no idea how much I have to prepare myself and if they only know what it all looks like in the morning ha.
miss.a.p1600
11-21-2020, 10:03 PM
I feel like yall wouldn't be stuck in these relationships if not for the pandemic.
Quite possible. Mfs can’t just walk out n mingle anymore.
indiegirl
11-22-2020, 12:09 AM
I imagine that all the time. For me it makes me think how men pay me (escorting) to do the things they want yet have no idea how much I have to prepare myself and if they only know what it all looks like in the morning ha.
Takes me an hour and a half to prepare with being all ready for customers. They’re paying for a fantasy with the time it takes and vibe. There is no now or “just right down the street” or “5 minutes away. I’m not EMS lolll
indiegirl
11-22-2020, 12:28 AM
Downloaded the new version of the iPhone? Finally! And have the Google language translate app now on my phone. So psyched! I’m now able to translate in different languages. So awesome.
indiegirl
11-22-2020, 04:24 AM
English is not my first language and every now and then I actually learn new English words here on stripperweb hahah :D
what is your first language, if you don’t mind me asking? You seem to be great with English.
miss.a.p1600
11-22-2020, 08:01 AM
^ I highly doubt L is not jacking off. ^
I think it's a ploy to get some attention ( that isn't working ) . Hahahha.
could be possible. But I think he may have the exact mentality as the author of that article I post in the lounge
he jokingly said he was going to jack off in a way like he wanted me to stop him like I’d be offended. When in actuality i would have been relieved that he would please himself so it would take the pressure off me.
miss.a.p1600
11-22-2020, 08:02 AM
Thank you so much! My first language is Swedish so a decent level is to be expected of me really since we learn it from a young age in school. But I feel like my English is only getting worse with time so it's good to hear I've not completely lost it! The latest new word I learned on here was probably persnickety, just earlier today, thanks to whirlerz in a thread about an airbnb contract.
that’s cool.
why the fuck it’s taking me forever to learn a second language.
sadly I’m still studying and I think I’m still at basic level
indiegirl
11-22-2020, 10:53 AM
Will never forget reading a review about me. All of them are good and one guy who thought I wouldn’t see the review said “if you like someone who looks like Barbie and is a breathing sex doll, go see her. Lacking in service.” Makes me wish I could go back in time and screw the appointment up. I legit did all that was provided on the menu and he still wasn’t happy! Some people really want you to kiss their ass.
I have a customer wanting to spend 120 bucks to only worship my feet for 10 minutes this morning. My only problem to committing to it is that I think I will bust out laughing. I rarely allow things like this.
PrincessQ
11-22-2020, 11:02 AM
Will never forget reading a review about me. All of them are good and one guy who thought I wouldn’t see the review said “if you like someone who looks like Barbie and is a breathing sex doll, go see her. Lacking in service.” Makes me wish I could go back in time and screw the appointment up. I legit did all that was provided on the menu and he still wasn’t happy! Some people really want you to kiss their ass.
I've had similar happen. Client asked if I was into something prior to meeting. I told him no & I'm always hesitant to move forward if I feel that is a big deal to them to just avoid issues. He came out & made it seem like it was not a big deal. Then he brings it up again during our time only to tell him no again. He acts like its' not a big deal but later I find out he held it against me.
miss.a.p1600
11-22-2020, 11:18 AM
What language are you studying? (I started studying English at school at 10 years old so I've had a good while to work on it, learning new languages from scratch as an adult is much harder I think.) And a basic level is a lot better than no level. Basic level can get you pretty far in most places, I feel like most people get excited if you speak even just a few words in their language and body language gets you far too. I sometimes wish I had been taught more languages as a child though, one of my parents speaks a third language so I could've learned that and a whole other alphabet too but no.
Confession: I sometimes get jealous in a very immature way of those international kids who speak like 5 languages by the time they're 8. They've got their whole life ahead of them to perfect and put those skills to use and I know I'll never get to their level even if I dedicate the rest of my life to language learning. I will still try though! Well no not 5 maybe, but another one or two would be nice.
good point!
When I worked in adult industry we had a significant portion of customers who were Spanish Speaking and only 2 women who were Latina.
so me not wanting to leave money on the table, I picked up some words and phrases that would help me communicate and sell in Spanish.
now my best situations were with men who couldn’t speak not one bit of English. Ironic. But I didn’t communicate well with bilinguals because they spoke too damn fast and would get frustrated and start talking in English.
to my surprise I could understand them and they could understand me. I actually found myself selling better in another language because I wasn’t so caught up in all the filler time wasting stuff, I was straight to the point cause that’s all I knew.
I only had one miscommunication but overall it worked out to the point I kept learning a couple days a week. Sadly I don’t have anyone to talk to in Spanish right now. But I’m still learning in case I need to use what I learn to communicate with a Spanish speaking person.
charlie61
11-22-2020, 11:19 AM
could be possible. But I think he may have the exact mentality as the author of that article I post in the lounge
he jokingly said he was going to jack off in a way like he wanted me to stop him like I’d be offended. When in actuality i would have been relieved that he would please himself so it would take the pressure off me.
Lol... he threatened to self-pleasure. That's so funny to me!
miss.a.p1600
11-22-2020, 11:27 AM
^exactly. Like I was supposed to beg for sex so he wouldn’t jack off. If he’s like that religious author then he probably thought I’d get pissed he was focusing on himself and not me. Well unbeknownst to him I had 3 solo orgasms already so I didn’t care and would have preferred he jack off.
Probably something his ex wife was offended by.
Bertha probably hated porn, masturbation, sex toys, oral sex, anything where sex isn’t in the bed in missionary position at 6:15 after work on Tuesday’s and more ..... so he assumes I hate all the “immoral” things too.
Boring af!!!!!
I’m to the point where I think sex is for procreation and outside of that I only want to do it on birthdays and holidays. Either that or I need to have a secret affair with those stone cold freaky men from my past.
lynn2009
11-22-2020, 12:53 PM
I don't want to do anything but lay in bed, cry and pretend real life doesn't exist anymore.
Will never forget reading a review about me. All of them are good and one guy who thought I wouldn’t see the review said “if you like someone who looks like Barbie and is a breathing sex doll, go see her. Lacking in service.” Makes me wish I could go back in time and screw the appointment up. I legit did all that was provided on the menu and he still wasn’t happy! Some people really want you to kiss their ass.
I have a customer wanting to spend 120 bucks to only worship my feet for 10 minutes this morning. My only problem to committing to it is that I think I will bust out laughing. I rarely allow things like this.
I used to have a customer like this im a stripper so it was in the club,the guy would take me back to the dance rooms, let me sit there while he played w my feet, id always get a good 2-300 and it was a nice break he would even rub them, oh how i miss making $$, eff this pandemic!!!
charlie61
11-22-2020, 03:17 PM
Seriously considering getting back into porn (like, solo photos and clips) as a side hustle. This is something my partner would not be comfortable with. And i don't think it'd be very lucrative for a while. I've cammed before, but learning how to produce high-quality photos/videos is different than camming, IME. I think it would take me a while to build my skillset and content. I just don't have any interest in other side hustles, as i value my free time too much to get a side vanilla job (i already have a FT vanilla job), and something like etsy would require a ton of time and effort and likely wouldn't be lucrative (I'd have to learn how to make some kind of product, purchase materials, etc.). I miss having a creative adult outlet, and would love to have even a little bit of extra play money to augment my vanilla salary. Just feeling that tinge of self-doubt (you know that feeling... when you are just thinking about getting started, and you feel so amateurish), plus some guilt, as it would be a secret I'd keep from my partner.
charlie61
11-22-2020, 04:02 PM
^exactly. Like I was supposed to beg for sex so he wouldn’t jack off. If he’s like that religious author then he probably thought I’d get pissed he was focusing on himself and not me. Well unbeknownst to him I had 3 solo orgasms already so I didn’t care and would have preferred he jack off.
Probably something his ex wife was offended by.
Bertha probably hated porn, masturbation, sex toys, oral sex, anything where sex isn’t in the bed in missionary position at 6:15 after work on Tuesday’s and more ..... so he assumes I hate all the “immoral” things too.
Boring af!!!!!
I’m to the point where I think sex is for procreation and outside of that I only want to do it on birthdays and holidays. Either that or I need to have a secret affair with those stone cold freaky men from my past.
I hear that. As an asexual, it's honestly easier for me to have sex that doesn't require emotional intimacy (like, sex with someone i don't care about very much or even someone I'm upset with) than sex with a partner I'm deeply in love with, as the latter requires sex with emotional intimacy, which is not something that i understand at all (sex, to me, does not make any sense in my brain as an act of love or emotional closeness). I'd much rather give oral, as it removes the illusion that we're both supposed to be getting something physically pleasureable from it. Oral is just focused on giving him pleasure, with me in control, which feels much healthier for me. I haven't had sex in weeks - i just dive for the crotch, lol. My partner is so beautiful and intelligent...i love giving him pleasure, even if it's not a type of pleasure that i understand. He definitely isn't complaining! :D
But if i were in your position, i wouldn't even be giving oral... this guy legit seems below you.
miss.a.p1600
11-22-2020, 06:44 PM
Seriously considering getting back into porn (like, solo photos and clips) as a side hustle. This is something my partner would not be comfortable with. And i don't think it'd be very lucrative for a while. I've cammed before, but learning how to produce high-quality photos/videos is different than camming, IME. I think it would take me a while to build my skillset and content. I just don't have any interest in other side hustles, as i value my free time too much to get a side vanilla job (i already have a FT vanilla job), and something like etsy would require a ton of time and effort and likely wouldn't be lucrative (I'd have to learn how to make some kind of product, purchase materials, etc.). I miss having a creative adult outlet, and would love to have even a little bit of extra play money to augment my vanilla salary. Just feeling that tinge of self-doubt (you know that feeling... when you are just thinking about getting started, and you feel so amateurish), plus some guilt, as it would be a secret I'd keep from my partner.
I’ve been dying to make an only fans account as I envision myself attracting tons of followers to my page, racking in the dough, all while my religious minded partner who would be totally against it has no clue
indiegirl
11-22-2020, 08:44 PM
I used to have a customer like this im a stripper so it was in the club,the guy would take me back to the dance rooms, let me sit there while he played w my feet, id always get a good 2-300 and it was a nice break he would even rub them, oh how i miss making $$, eff this pandemic!!!
I've never understood the foot thing! LOL it's too funny. Remember a customer asking me to choke him at the strip club yearrrrs ago and I went full out happily. "Too hard!" lol I was having a bad day.
^^lol I love those customers!! I’ve had those too a few times
indiegirl
11-23-2020, 02:12 AM
Oh lord. I'm watching hunger games again. Me and this series plus harry potter got me shook. LOL
indiegirl
11-23-2020, 03:50 PM
Kinda wanted to throw up and leave my appointment last night. He scheduled two hours and just released from prison....I thought this guy was a photographer and was super excited, turned out all of his equipment was for illegal sources of income he does on the dark web. I wanted to go home but I sat there with him in his condo he purchased from his sources of income and sucked it up. Not one of my better days/clients. Nice guy but yikessss. I checked my bank account after I left LOL.