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indiegirl
11-28-2020, 11:40 PM
I really miss the strip club. I'm hoping by this time next year the pandemic will be mostly over. I think Covid is here to stay, but I know it won't always be this big of an issue.

I wanna go to a club to lose this stay at home weight and make money at the same time. Apparently we are entering another lockdown in LA. My aunt and her husband have covid now. So 3 people in the family. Luckily I don't surround myself with family. *Eyeroll* my roommate asked me if "everything is going well as she paid rent early"....of course it is and I appreciate the concern but the fact I am home on T-day and I've never seen this woman with a mask inviting people over to the house using my things.....LOL. I feel like why am I bothering.

lurkingtitties
11-29-2020, 12:44 PM
I miss my dog.

My parents say he’s happy though, and one of my besties has been walking him. I know I did the right thing bringing him home. Hope I can get out of this crappy situation sooner than later.

miss.a.p1600
11-30-2020, 06:19 AM
I noticed that I’m the more secretive person because L gave me the key to his place, his phone password, said he cut off all his side women, keeps his phone display visible.....

And I have done the exact opposite

I’m such a megacunt rn. I’ve been communicating with two dudes right now. Granted it’s cordial and they haven’t offered more yet. But still I can’t help feeling a little scandalous considering he claims he’s not doing it, I’m splitting my time, and my mind is wondering “what if....what if the grass is greener?”

This married lady gave me tip to delete all dudes numbers from my phone but write their number down somewhere to keep for later just in case.

indiegirl
11-30-2020, 07:33 AM
I noticed that I’m the more secretive person because L gave me the key to his place, his phone password, said he cut off all his side women, keeps his phone display visible.....

And I have done the exact opposite

I’m such a megacunt rn. I’ve been communicating with two dudes right now. Granted it’s cordial and they haven’t offered more yet. But still I can’t help feeling a little scandalous considering he claims he’s not doing it, I’m splitting my time, and my mind is wondering “what if....what if the grass is greener?”

This married lady gave me tip to delete all dudes numbers from my phone but write their number down somewhere to keep for later just in case.

LOL women always have their backup guy in their phone. Some label them as female names. "He's just a friend!!!" In reality, If I need a rebound, I know who to call. LOL.

miss.a.p1600
11-30-2020, 09:22 AM
^haha!!! Good tip....

going through and naming all my dudes 'Sara, Betty, Jane, etc....lol!!!

And trying to keep these chats cordial af. If its not recorded, it didn't happen......cant have no dude screenshot convos for later fuckery

miss.a.p1600
11-30-2020, 09:26 AM
L said he was up till midnight on the phone.

I was like midnight???

I was asleep at 9:30-10p so who tf would he be talking to that late at night?

He said it was allegedly one of his female friends.

Should I grill tf out of him about it? Should I say something about it?

I mean I don't talk to any of my male friends after 8pm

carmen_b
11-30-2020, 09:32 AM
^ You honestly seem like you dislike him.

I’d hate to say “ do this “ or whatever but ..... it just seems that way.

Aurora_Sunset
11-30-2020, 09:48 AM
I've been drinking way too much and eating way too much crap the last week, dealing with Covid and the fire. The last couple days, I've been very aware that I feel like shit. But mentally, I keep going back to it, because sitting here thinking about trying to sort out anymore messes just seems like too much. I told myself I would start a yoga program on Youtube today, since it's all I can do without equipment, and I'm sure it will make me feel better.

lurkingtitties
11-30-2020, 10:11 AM
I've been drinking way too much and eating way too much crap the last week, dealing with Covid and the fire. The last couple days, I've been very aware that I feel like shit. But mentally, I keep going back to it, because sitting here thinking about trying to sort out anymore messes just seems like too much. I told myself I would start a yoga program on Youtube today, since it's all I can do without equipment, and I'm sure it will make me feel better.

Sometimes giving up on your diet for while is the best thing you can do for self care while you're dealing with a crisis! Take it easy on yourself and get back on the path of righteousness when you feel ready. I'm sure yoga will help.

charlie61
11-30-2020, 10:58 AM
^ You honestly seem like you dislike him.

I’d hate to say “ do this “ or whatever but ..... it just seems that way.

Agreed. And someone liking you / caring about you is not a reason to date them... it has to be mutual. I wouldn't grill him about this, i would pay more attention to how you feel about the relationship overall, and act accordingly. Him talking to a friend seems like the least of your problems with him, miss.a.p...

carmen_b
11-30-2020, 12:24 PM
I snuck off for tea and a lunch out.
My partner is ultra covid cautious and it’s delicate but I kind of need rare outings for mental health even if they are solo.
I masked up of course. I need my occasional treats . I can’t lie so I just hope J doesn’t ask for details of today haha.

miss.a.p1600
11-30-2020, 04:04 PM
^ You honestly seem like you dislike him.

I’d hate to say “ do this “ or whatever but ..... it just seems that way.

i suppose I dislike some of the things he does/doesn’t do. Like talking the higher paying job or figuring a way to earn more money. And being more open minded when it comes to sex.

but then again he does do some things right like I can be comfortable being myself and he communicates better than I do so I’m learning from that because it is a good quality to have in a relationship.

ive never had a “real” relationship and he kind of offers the things that he does do right that I haven’t experienced before when I used to date

I’m open to feedback and I do take into consideration what ideas ladies may have cause o can’t always see clearly when I’m in the situation.

I guess I want to say I’ve at least done my best to bring best self, hopefully he does this as well, and at least offer opportunity for improving for the better before fading out/ending it. My timeframe is 2-3 months to see improvement in those areas

chanzep
11-30-2020, 04:32 PM
You seem like You are trying to do convince yourself to be with him. If he was the right guy you would not feel like this. I think you should look elsewhere. Don't feel guilty because a man wouldn't.

SnuffleUffleGrass
11-30-2020, 06:36 PM
I confess a lot of my recent emotional thoughts are probably from a personal awakening.

carmen_b
11-30-2020, 07:40 PM
I'm still fighting the desire to have a side boyfriend.
I'm NOT going to . It would be a novel to explain hahaha because I really do enjoy my partner and he made a choice to increase my happiness quite a bit which has ensured my monogamy. I miss my sub kinkster J ugh.
I think I met him on Nov. 30 2018 and maybe the date is triggering my weirdness today?

I feel like this craving ( THIS kink ) is hard to ask for in a way. Shouldn't the dude just KNOW to call you Goddess and shower you with compliments before showering you with a tounge lashing ? Let me answer that . Yes they should know.

** DONT QUOTE THIS IS A TEMPORARY CONFESSION MEANT FOR DELETING. **

miss.a.p1600
12-01-2020, 07:07 AM
You seem like You are trying to do convince yourself to be with him. If he was the right guy you would not feel like this. I think you should look elsewhere. Don't feel guilty because a man wouldn't.

I guess I didn’t realize I was coming off that way.

I am trying to decipher if I was in a perpetual rant about his quirks (which we all have) or if this is real. Like am I a megacunt for thinking I’m “out of his league” when the truth is I can use some improvements myself.

He brought up the other day that I haven’t introduced him to my family (which I didn’t plan on until he applied for that higher paying job like he said he was going to do months ago but keeps procrastinating). I guess subconsciously I don’t feel confident that he could provide for a family with me when he’s struggling (he won’t admit it he things he’s getting by just fine) with the two he has now.

My family is judgemental and they’ve seen me pull some high status wealthy men so I can only bring home top notch not just for them cause it’s my life but for myself to know I’m not downgrading my lifestyle

He did tell me if I didn’t want to continue towards a marriage in the near future to let him know now. And that’s where I’m stuck. I do want a marriage and it could be with him IF he improved in these 2 areas (sex and money) which is easy if he took steps to do it but I see him procrastinate and let his excuses take over and convince himself that he’s “fine as he is now” which makes me doubt the whole thing.

Just a couple weeks ago he tried to convince himself and me that he didn’t need to take a higher paying job cause “I don’t owe any debt” ....we’ll come to find out he does owe debt from a 7k credit card he ignored and was sued as a result etc.

It’s like it’s not registering that LOVE is not enough to sustain a relationship and marriage. He is sentimental and in touch with his feminine side and I like that about him but he’s not operating from rational side of it. Unless someone is about to die n needs life insurance then marrying when you have bad debt (with no action plan to pay it off quickly) is not a good idea to me.

I guess I want to see him solve financial obstacles swiftly and I want to see him commit to being a better lover instead of acting like him fucking Bertha for 11+ years and his other 5 sex partners makes his the expert on sex and women’s orgasms

charlie61
12-01-2020, 08:23 AM
^I can tell you from experience that people are usually their BEST selves in the first year of a relationship, and they're doing their BEST to impress their new partners. This is usually the "honeymoon phase" where everything is great, rose-colored glasses, etc. So the odds are extremely low that he will improve as his relationship with you gets more tenured and secure. Especially once you're locked in and married. Sex and money are huge obstacles, as you know, and it sounds like you two would have an unhappy dynamic in marriage (you're critical of two very core insecurities, sex and money, and he would always be pushing back). The reality is that he IS fine with himself, and i don't think it's healthy for you to get closer to someone who has these core incompatibilities with you and your preferred lifestyle. Again, even if he gets a better job, kids and child support slash that income.

I think you can take positive things away from this relationship; like you said, learning to communicate better and whatnot. But... that doesn't mean he's right for you. And it'll get harder and harder to leave, the more time you put in. I say all of this from a good place! Not trying to make you feel worse. Just some tough love. ♡

indiegirl
12-01-2020, 08:43 AM
I guess I didn’t realize I was coming off that way.

I am trying to decipher if I was in a perpetual rant about his quirks (which we all have) or if this is real. Like am I a megacunt for thinking I’m “out of his league” when the truth is I can use some improvements myself.

He brought up the other day that I haven’t introduced him to my family (which I didn’t plan on until he applied for that higher paying job like he said he was going to do months ago but keeps procrastinating). I guess subconsciously I don’t feel confident that he could provide for a family with me when he’s struggling (he won’t admit it he things he’s getting by just fine) with the two he has now.

My family is judgemental and they’ve seen me pull some high status wealthy men so I can only bring home top notch not just for them cause it’s my life but for myself to know I’m not downgrading my lifestyle

He did tell me if I didn’t want to continue towards a marriage in the near future to let him know now. And that’s where I’m stuck. I do want a marriage and it could be with him IF he improved in these 2 areas (sex and money) which is easy if he took steps to do it but I see him procrastinate and let his excuses take over and convince himself that he’s “fine as he is now” which makes me doubt the whole thing.

Just a couple weeks ago he tried to convince himself and me that he didn’t need to take a higher paying job cause “I don’t owe any debt” ....we’ll come to find out he does owe debt from a 7k credit card he ignored and was sued as a result etc.

It’s like it’s not registering that LOVE is not enough to sustain a relationship and marriage. He is sentimental and in touch with his feminine side and I like that about him but he’s not operating from rational side of it. Unless someone is about to die n needs life insurance then marrying when you have bad debt (with no action plan to pay it off quickly) is not a good idea to me.

I guess I want to see him solve financial obstacles swiftly and I want to see him commit to being a better lover instead of acting like him fucking Bertha for 11+ years and his other 5 sex partners makes his the expert on sex and women’s orgasms


7k debt. Maybe you should ask him to lay what he's hiding/not saying all out on the table before you make a mistake. Totally get love but if you're about to be involved in someone's nightmare, you should know.

Family can be so judgmental too. Mine do the same when I liked someone. "And what does he do?" lol.

I think the goal for you is someone who you can feel long term stability/happy with. I'm the queen of "but I invested my time in this!..and don't want to find someone better. Sometimes it can be better to save us the pain in our future and find someone who fits us better.

Just trying to be helpful. I obviously don't know your dynamics in your relationship.

ava$
12-01-2020, 11:08 AM
^^right, I can speak from experience, I made a mistake in who I’m with, he’s an idiot, I don’t really know much about life yet he seems to know less, like I got this vacant house we were fixing up but Covid took all the $$ and income needed to do so, now the taxes haven’t been paid and like I’d like to just let the city take it cause I don’t want the place anymore but I won’t if it will leave a bad mark on my name, like can I buy a livable house after that? Things I have no idea about, come around a lot and this idiot I’m with will most definitely not know, ugh. I’ve lost all inter but really if anyone knows please tell me lbs.

chanzep
12-01-2020, 11:30 AM
I agree with Charlie. I think you can do much better. You can find someone to match your ambition. Also saying he doesn't need a better paying job sounds crazy. You can't marry this guy he would probably ruin your credit. Don't waste your best years with him. He's just a nice guy. Not doing it right sexually or financial wise is not boyfriend or husband material. Don't marry the wrong person trust me it's the worst.

carmen_b
12-01-2020, 11:42 AM
Ava :
Having a foreclosure ( if that is how it would read ) will affect your ability to buy in the future .
Call a mortgage person in your own state though since laws vary by state.

There may be an option to willingly give it up and have it affect credit less / not that much.
Did you buy this place ? Have it gifted ? Or is it through a city / county fix up type of program for example?

carmen_b
12-01-2020, 01:10 PM
Since I'm feeling pervy / kinky this week I will bring it up to J.
I'd like to incorporate more tie up scenarios for one ( among other things ).
:)

I am looking for a good book on kink intro ( for couples ) if anyone can recommend one.
We are pretty vanilla for a former sex worker and tattood musician lol .
You would look at us and you'd assume we could write the book on kinky shit or teach the classes.

Any S and M or Kink intro type books would be awesome. I'm in a shopping mood. :)

carmen_b
12-01-2020, 01:20 PM
I probably need to lay off my pervy podcasts on trips because now I am back and full of all kinds of ideas.

ava$
12-01-2020, 02:14 PM
Ava :
Having a foreclosure ( if that is how it would read ) will affect your ability to buy in the future .
Call a mortgage person in your own state though since laws vary by state.

There may be an option to willingly give it up and have it affect credit less / not that much.
Did you buy this place ? Have it gifted ? Or is it through a city / county fix up type of program for example?
I paid cash to the city, its 100 percent paid for but in the contract they have a right to re entry clause in it and they gave me 18 months to fix it up, well its been 18 months... Apparently its still mine cause its in my name but IDK if that means the title isnt clear? I dont get it.. so it would just be sold in a tax auction for not paying taxes which could easily be paid but Id like rid of this responsibility of a house, so...

carmen_b
12-01-2020, 02:22 PM
^ They might work a payment plan out too with your taxes on it.

If you have just had it with the project I think it's better to discuss options with them v.s. risking credit dings.

Definitely ask about options. Don't claim you didn't " fix it up " either. I assume you probably cleaned and at least threw some paint somewhere ? So you have at least in part done something with it. :)

I find projects like this really interesting . There might also be some sort of program or resources they can point you to.

Did they set up an appt. to come in and view ? I think most city offices are so behind right now it might buy you months until they follow up ( possibly might get lucky there ).

Pokahantas
12-01-2020, 02:28 PM
So I got new meds to try to prevent my aniexty/ panic attacks. Wish me luck I really hope this work out so I can get a normal vanilla job and be able to move out of this apartment.


I been living in my apartment for 4 years now I use to rate it 10 stars but now I rate it a 3. Ever since May 2019 I been seeing roaches! :eek::banghead: I never had this problem before sigh. For the last few months I been seeing baby ones and seeing them at-least once per week. Sigh.


I need my mental shit together to get a job and get some cash to buy a house and move the fuck out! Asap.


Also I started exercising!!

omg! Girl get out of there unless the property owner is willing to fumigate thoroughly. Those things give me the creeps. I can relate to wanting to buy a house. I’ve been in my apartment for 7 years and I don’t want to move until I’m in a house this time. Good luck! :)

Pokahantas
12-01-2020, 02:49 PM
My confession:

I’m tired of my boyfriend’s morning breath, small penis, and now he’s crippled because he fractured his fibula. He keeps giving me UTI because he won’t wash again after a long day and I’m sick of his dirty peen. He takes one shower and sweats all day then tries to have sex. Please don’t think I’m mean. I’ve been waiting on this man hand and foot while he’s been injured. I woke up every 4 hours to give him pain pills after his surgery. I cleaned his apartment, washed his stinky sheets so after surgery he’d be okay. I even bought him a week of food to help out. I cooked everything from scratch for thanksgiving while he sat on my sofa and ordered me around like some kind of slave. I’ve noticed that after spending a few days with him I’m exhausted beyond repair because I spend the entire time catering to his every need. Then I’m too tired to cam and take selfies and videos for my onlyfans. Oh I forgot to also mention that I was washing his dirty clothes also while cooking for thanksgiving because he keeps leaving so many clothes at my house. I’ve been low key ghosting him since thanksgiving with short text reply’s and not answering his calls because after reflection away from him I realize that he’s taking advantage of my niceness and ordering me around to do things that I know he could do if I wasn’t there. I’m so irritated by his misogyny attitude I and frankly he just doesn’t turn me on anymore. I’ve been thinking about going back to dating girls. Before I met him I was only with girls so when we first had sex I really didn’t realize that his peen was so small as I hadn’t had penetration in years. So can you imagine 2 years in and his peen is so small I never orgasm only if I smoke weed and he goes down. And he pounces down on me like crazy I hate it!

I have a best friend who’s gay and we’ve been friends for years and she always tells me to get rid of him and let her take care of me but I don’t know why I just can’t do it. I really love her but at this point maybe I should just be alone. We had a short relationship back in the day.

Any advice what to do? FYI I don’t have any family so I think that’s why I’ve been so attached to him but I don’t know .

charlie61
12-01-2020, 03:54 PM
^I think ditch the dude and enjoy being solo for a bit to focus on your work and rejuvenating your energy after taking care of your ex-bf. Get back to self care, self love, and furthering your business! ♡♡

Pokahantas
12-01-2020, 04:20 PM
^I think ditch the dude and enjoy being solo for a bit to focus on your work and rejuvenating your energy after taking care of your ex-bf. Get back to self care, self love, and furthering your business! ♡♡

thanks so much for this advice!

Pokahantas
12-01-2020, 04:26 PM
^^^ Every time while getting ready to strip or see fbsm clients, I'd blast,"Boys Wanna Be Her" by Peaches. That song would get me all pumped up about going in to work, make me feel like a badass, ready to slay and make money.

Don't get me wrong. I love my kids and being Betty Crocker/teacher/maid/chef, etc but I miss the days of being the sexy dancer or masseuse. These days I don't bother straightening my hair and rarely wear makeup anymore. Then when I look in the mirror I think who's that plain, pasty, ugly lady with the wild wavy hair staring at me.

It must be something in the air because I’ve been feeling the same. I used to put on Mac Miller, smoke weed and glam up for work. Now I can barely find the energy. Some people suck the life out of you I think.

charlie61
12-01-2020, 04:43 PM
thanks so much for this advice!

You're welcome! And i hope i don't sound like someone who is always telling others to break up with their boyfriends/girlfriends, lol. Just seemed like a very clear answer based on the info you gave us!

indiegirl
12-01-2020, 05:54 PM
Bought a second reed diffuser today. Lol I couldn't help it! They smell so good!

indiegirl
12-01-2020, 09:59 PM
Update....I was really naughty today. I also bought a new indoor wall water fountain (mine just broke down) as well as a bubble wall mount to replace my tv. I'm officially done shopping for the month. It had to be done LOL.

Bubble wall mount
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v-woaV0pTU0

Fountain
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ce4fSbylNXA

Obviously I'm showing my need for a calm atmoshphere with all that I purchased today haha.

whirlerz
12-01-2020, 10:20 PM
I f'n love fountains, Im getting a small one.

indiegirl
12-01-2020, 10:32 PM
I f'n love fountains, Im getting a small one.


They're so calming! Even the tabletop ones. They have some nice wall ones too.

whirlerz
12-01-2020, 10:49 PM
I want a table top one. I had one years ago.

indiegirl
12-02-2020, 09:16 AM
Me: Convincing myself the trash will take my broken down old water fountain and sending the picture to my mom
Mom: No! You need to hire large trash pick up!

LOLL. It's 6 feet tall.

https://imagizer.imageshack.com/v2/xq90/922/H5FQ7e.jpg (https://imageshack.com/i/pmH5FQ7ej)

Genoveve
12-02-2020, 04:15 PM
I love water displays, my neighbor has an artificial running river and I hear its rushing water all the time(the first time they turned it on I was VERY confused).

I was seriously considering buying this at one point in time, but my landlady is who pays the electric and I felt bad about constantly running a big fish tank and jacking her bill up. Plus I would not want to deal with trying to clean and maintain it:

https://www.amazon.com/Long-Octagon-Coffee-Table-Aquarium/dp/B001777TGI/?_encoding=UTF8&pd_rd_w=ArRil&pf_rd_p=07442e57-5bbc-4b36-bdb2-92a549250cee&pf_rd_r=AVHZPRCFT643S2VHVNDV&pd_rd_r=131d79cb-2f38-4b77-8bef-4a720382d819&pd_rd_wg=HUdxg&ref_=pd_gw_ci_mcx_mr_hp_d

moneybags
12-02-2020, 05:22 PM
^^^I love the sound of water. You’re a good person. Some people wouldn’t care.

Anyways, so the married guy I had a crush on. His receptionist gave me the cold shoulder. I’m thinking, “Did I do something”? My guess is she’s heard him talking to me and is jelly. I’ve just been friendly. I’m thinking, “Bitch if I wanted to fuck him I would have already, so quit hating.” Fucking bitches. Seriously, I’m just nice and chit chat. I don’t want to be a home wrecker. I mean I do want to bang him, but I’m not gonna cross that line.

LoveyDovey
12-02-2020, 05:38 PM
I am realizing that with this new year, I am ready to make a fresh start with my life! I am thinking of moving to L.A as soon as this covid crap is under control. I am going up there in a week because I was hired to work as a talent assistant on a TV show set.I'll basically be taking care of dancers and actresses. I worked for the director before and he was cool and professional and hopefully after this gig next week he will ask me to work for him on a more full-time basis after the new year. The TV show we worked on a year ago is being picked up so if there is more work, then I'd be willing to make the move. My son was supportive and cool about me going, as he is 19 and, covid permitting, he will be moving to college in the fall. He's my only family so his blessing is important to me. Plus I want to ditch the boyfriend and moving would make it easier for both of us. If I stay with him I see drama down the road and um yeah, no. So with kiddo's blessing, I am ready to go up to L.A. and achieve some long term goals. I feel excited about this!! Anyone need a roommate? Lol

moneybags
12-02-2020, 06:12 PM
Domesticated women

I saw Mr. J and his receptionist gave me the cold shoulder. As an intuitive I know that she’s thinking, “fuck this bitch.” (And it’s not in my head I’m almost always right about these things.) I realized he’s married, so I just talk to him friendly-I don’t even flirt with him. This isn’t even her man an she’s jealous? I guess it’s his work wife, but still. It’s really irrelevant as our working relationship is coming to and end. I can’t help but to think she has a crush on him too. But grow up it’s just a crush! It’s not like we even talk outside of our working relationship. She’s not even his wife-just his receptionist. Two adults can have chemistry and be grown ups about it. I’m not gonna sleep with a married man just cause I want to-and I do want to. There’s plenty of unmarried fish in the see though. I dunno what I’m bitching about...bitches I guess. I get it, but like unless my man was being super disrespectful. I wouldn’t be mad if he talked with other girls as long as it didn’t go any further. It normal to get turned on by other people and as long as you’re a adult about it and don’t cross any lines-it’s not a big deal. It’d be crazy to think if I had a hot guy he wouldn’t get turned by other women. As long as he doesn’t act on it is all that matters.

charlie61
12-02-2020, 06:22 PM
^^^I love the sound of water. You’re a good person. Some people wouldn’t care.

Anyways, so the married guy I had a crush on. His receptionist gave me the cold shoulder. I’m thinking, “Did I do something”? My guess is she’s heard him talking to me and is jelly. I’ve just been friendly. I’m thinking, “Bitch if I wanted to fuck him I would have already, so quit hating.” Fucking bitches. Seriously, I’m just nice and chit chat. I don’t want to be a home wrecker. I mean I do want to bang him, but I’m not gonna cross that line.

Maybe she knows his wife or something?

charlie61
12-02-2020, 06:31 PM
I confess that I'm starting to do meaningful work on how judgmental i can be. I'm starting to realize that my judgments could eventually turn me into a bitter old person who has a lot of regrets in life. Judgments only hurt me, and i think my judgments of others reflect my own self-judgments. I know that sounds trite, but sometimes it takes time to fully realize the most obvious life lessons.

moneybags
12-02-2020, 06:34 PM
Maybe she knows his wife or something?

Probably. I haven’t done anything inappropriate AT ALL though??? Oh yeah, I’m a hot blonde with big tits...that’s why she hates me. Duh. I forget. I just get tired of being hated on by other women when I haven’t done anything wrong. I wanted to tell her, “if I wanted to fuck him. I would have already.” LOL.

charlie61
12-02-2020, 06:48 PM
Probably. I haven’t done anything inappropriate AT ALL though??? Oh yeah, I’m a hot blonde with big tits...that’s why she hates me. Duh. I forget. I just get tired of being hated on by other women when I haven’t done anything wrong. I wanted to tell her, “if I wanted to fuck him. I would have already.” LOL.

I hear you. I feel more sympathy for insecure women as i get older, and now that I'm in a monogamous relationship. Idk, i think it could be kind of scary to have a superhot husband who's around beautiful women regularly at work. When you see someone every day, i think it's harder for people to resist infidelity, because you develop relationships with people you might not ordinarily even be interested in... and there are so many opportunities to develop feelings and act on impulses as the daily flirtation and attraction builds. If i were always going to be young and hot, maybe i wouldn't have my own momentary insecurities. Women are afraid of other women for a reason... there are a lot of women out there who really go after married men - i used to be one of those assholes. And women don't have a way of knowing which women are and aren't that way. Of course, at the end of the day, the cheater is the one who's responsible. But still, i guess i can just understand the insecurity better now that I'm in my 30s. When i was younger, i 100% shared the perspective you described though.

Anyway, i know you were just coming here to have a healthy rant, lol, just wanted to give my perspective. ♡

moneybags
12-02-2020, 08:25 PM
^^^I totally agree. I get the same shitty attitude from unmarried women too, but yeah I totally see your point.

I definitely have had some naughty thoughts about him, but I don’t want to be the reason his kids get two Christmases...lol.

Im no angel. I didn’t pursue him because I know that married dick isn’t worth the bad karma. Not judging. I just have never seen screwing a married man turn out well for anyone. It’s just not a rational decision.

charlie61
12-02-2020, 08:41 PM
^^^I totally agree. I get the same shitty attitude from unmarried women too, but yeah I totally see your point.

I definitely have had some naughty thoughts about him, but I don’t want to be the reason his kids get two Christmases...lol.

Im no angel. I didn’t pursue him because I know that married dick isn’t worth the bad karma. Not judging. I just have never seen screwing a married man turn out well for anyone. It’s just not a rational decision.

For sure! I'm not married to my man, but he's a sexy, charismatic guy, and this is the first time in my life that i feel i can understand the human insecurities and little momentary fears that i used to ridicule in my younger years!

I try to extend as much kindness as possible towards beautiful women, though, because i know they are used to getting jealous vibes from other women. And I'm definitely not looking to create enemies!

indiegirl
12-02-2020, 09:12 PM
I love water displays, my neighbor has an artificial running river and I hear its rushing water all the time(the first time they turned it on I was VERY confused).

I was seriously considering buying this at one point in time, but my landlady is who pays the electric and I felt bad about constantly running a big fish tank and jacking her bill up. Plus I would not want to deal with trying to clean and maintain it:

https://www.amazon.com/Long-Octagon-Coffee-Table-Aquarium/dp/B001777TGI/?_encoding=UTF8&pd_rd_w=ArRil&pf_rd_p=07442e57-5bbc-4b36-bdb2-92a549250cee&pf_rd_r=AVHZPRCFT643S2VHVNDV&pd_rd_r=131d79cb-2f38-4b77-8bef-4a720382d819&pd_rd_wg=HUdxg&ref_=pd_gw_ci_mcx_mr_hp_d

You probably saved a ton of money in the long run too. Water damage is so tough to deal with if you live in a place with wood flooring. I got the damage out as much as I could but it's still there. Some people will take that out of the security deposit and then charge you even more when you leave if it needs to be replaced.

indiegirl
12-02-2020, 10:27 PM
I love talking out loud to myself (not in a crazy way lol) but to run things I'm thinking decision-wise out loud with my day/plans and now one of my roomies is having her son over for a few days because her ex husband is out of town.. My first thought is "now I'm gonna sound nuts to someone in the house." I've also never seen the size of her child. I don't like my pit bull around children because I'm not interested in being sued if it's a small kid and something goes down when I'm not home. Hopefully he's a teen.

indiegirl
12-03-2020, 12:52 AM
Some think pimps are a bad thing. One just paid for my Central AC/heating. I needed the connections and recommendations. Lolll. He made me a lot of money.

In a fallout with him now because he wanted more of a relationship. So I’m hoping to find another.

Little do newbies know, if you are getting arrested your computer and car are part of the crime and charges. Don’t get it back. Hence drivers