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indiegirl
12-03-2020, 03:47 AM
Unamused getting two messages from raziel about his return. It’s been two days!!!
Bahaha. His crazy ass.
Bespoke
12-03-2020, 04:43 AM
Fuck ‘em! Triple times...
My brother & sister are entitled assholes that NEVER helped me & my Mom out when we were struggling for $$ back when Mom was having health problems and I wasn’t able to work. Both have six-figure salaries, and we got by on food stamps and Moms SS, which just covered rent & utilities. I wrecked my old car right when Mom started a series of long hospitalizations. The abuse I suffered at the hands of these cruel, selfish bullies almost drove me to suicide. (I seriously had it all planned out. The most tragic Google search is the one where you try to find the most effective way to kill yourself...)
But, I made it through. By the grace of God and some very wonderful people that became my new family. I got a GREAT vanilla job, bought a beautiful new (to me) car and wrote those assholes out of my life. Mom loved them and tried to forge a relationship with them, which caused several arguments between us. (I don’t have kids, so the only unconditional love I understand is for pets.)
The final straw was a lie told by my brother’s cunt wife about me that was so absurd it was laughable! Mom finally stood up to my idiot brother (who is and has been pussy-whipped by his cunt wife) and she suffered a falling-out with my siblings, who are too stupid to recognize a lie for what it is. They delight in their combined hatred of me, which obviously clouds their judgment.
Anyway, when Mom was dying of COVID, I did the right thing and reached out to them. (They didn’t bother to visit or call Mom during her month-long hospitalization after a heart procedure.) My reward? They tried to cut me out of her medical care as my bitch sister had POA over Mom, which she only used to cut me out of legal/ financial or medical decisions. Joke was on them as I had Moms medical code as I was the one in attendance when Mom was rushed to the ER. I hired an attorney and was going into a lengthy, expensive guardianship fight, if needed.
It wasn’t. Mom died and that power that they once had over me went with her. My brother & cunt wife swindled $10k out of my Uncle, something he continually talks about. (He’s rich, so the monetary loss wasn’t the issue. It was the lying & the broken trust that is unforgivable.) I’m a writer and I’ve kept ALL of my old journals, which I dug out after Mom passed. I let these assholes paint me as a grifting LOSER when the reality is that I helped my parents out whenever I had money. Now I have the power of knowing how entirely wrong they are about me, and I have the resources to not only put them on blast for their cruelty with our extended family, but I’ve threatened them via my lawyer. (Still toying with the idea of a major tort suit against them...)
I apologize for hijacking your post, but the gist of it is that many, many people have found out how much their family members suck ass, especially given the current pandemic and political climate.
Find your tribe...and love them HARD!
And if you’re (anyone reading this) suicidal...PM ME! I’ve been there and I get it. I won’t preach to you (cause I detest that) but I will listen. Sometimes, all you need is someone to hear you.
WendiStarr
12-03-2020, 07:47 AM
I bought makeup for myself for Christmas. I doubt any of my relatives are buying me anything for Christmas, so might as well buy something for myself. So why do I feel guilty about buying something for myself? I've already bought presents for my kids and a select few other people.
LoveyDovey
12-03-2020, 08:04 AM
I bought makeup for myself for Christmas. I doubt any of my relatives are buying me anything for Christmas, so might as well buy something for myself. So why do I feel guilty about buying something for myself? I've already bought presents for my kids and a select few other people.
Don't feel guilty. You totally deserve it.
Kiddo is getting money from me this year. I'm going to buy myself a few goodies too.
Aurora_Sunset
12-03-2020, 03:09 PM
I've been reading and watching youtube videos with a lot of self-help lately and really trying to get myself into a better mindset. I'm realizing that a big problem I'm running into is the nostalgia for parts of my old life. It's not as though everything was bad, and there are definitely things I miss even if they are not "serving me" or my highest desires anymore. How to let go of parts of yourself and the accompanying limiting beliefs and desires that you know you need to in order to move on, when you can't just demonize them? I don't want to move backwards or remain stuck, but if I could experience a day of "old patterns," I probably would for old time's sake. But I know that that is not helping me move forward in life now.
If any of that isn't too vague and woo-woo-y to make sense...
Elektra Luxx
12-03-2020, 04:47 PM
My hips feel wobbly when I walk.
charlie61
12-03-2020, 10:12 PM
I've noticed lately that i get irritable when I'm ovulating. Is that even a thing??
moneybags
12-03-2020, 11:33 PM
I've been reading and watching youtube videos with a lot of self-help lately and really trying to get myself into a better mindset. I'm realizing that a big problem I'm running into is the nostalgia for parts of my old life. It's not as though everything was bad, and there are definitely things I miss even if they are not "serving me" or my highest desires anymore. How to let go of parts of yourself and the accompanying limiting beliefs and desires that you know you need to in order to move on, when you can't just demonize them? I don't want to move backwards or remain stuck, but if I could experience a day of "old patterns," I probably would for old time's sake. But I know that that is not helping me move forward in life now.
If any of that isn't too vague and woo-woo-y to make sense...
Totally speaking my language. In fact many spiritual gurus are calling 2020 a year of purging and letting go. For me it's nothing serious. I've been starting with little things like getting rid of clothes that don't fit and selling things I don't use anymore. I'd like to stop listening to the old club music and upgrade to listening to more uplifting and tasteful music. I want to reinvent myself, so when I come out of this cocoon I'll be a beautiful butterfly.
My confession: my best friend is fighting COVID and I’m worried she’ll be a long hauler, but I can’t show weakness cause I need to be strong for her. I’m like, “oh yeah girl you’ll get better soon.” Inside I’m scared shitless she won’t make a full recovery. Soon to be week 4 and she’s still tired AF. I hope she gets better soon. All I can do is pray for her to get well soon.
indiegirl
12-04-2020, 12:56 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g4CEtVZaXVg
These xmas tree lights are so cool!
miss.a.p1600
12-04-2020, 05:00 AM
I've noticed lately that i get irritable when I'm ovulating. Is that even a thing??
im sure it is.
i started tracking my ovulation recently (before I barely knew what ovulation was or when it happened)
i noticed that recently I get anxiety during the premenstrual phase
lurkingtitties
12-04-2020, 05:31 AM
Moneybags-I had covid at the beginning of the pandemic and probably would qualify as a long hauler. 8 months out I’m 90% back to normal. Tell her positive thoughts go a long way!
whirlerz
12-04-2020, 06:01 AM
I've been reading and watching youtube videos with a lot of self-help lately and really trying to get myself into a better mindset. I'm realizing that a big problem I'm running into is the nostalgia for parts of my old life. It's not as though everything was bad, and there are definitely things I miss even if they are not "serving me" or my highest desires anymore. How to let go of parts of yourself and the accompanying limiting beliefs and desires that you know you need to in order to move on, when you can't just demonize them? I don't want to move backwards or remain stuck, but if I could experience a day of "old patterns," I probably would for old time's sake. But I know that that is not helping me move forward in life now.
If any of that isn't too vague and woo-woo-y to make sense...
OMG, Are you kidding?? So spot on!
yaya_cash
12-04-2020, 12:41 PM
I'm not sure I work well with others. Some people are hostile. The only hostility I can take from other employees is while working to make over $100, 000. Not taking a pay cut and still working in a hostile environment - this doesn't make sense. Why not take the risk and be an expensive hoe, then?
indiegirl
12-04-2020, 05:38 PM
Lol when I wake up from a nap all I think about is "I could totally go for another nap right now."
indiegirl
12-05-2020, 03:08 PM
Felt like I was being tested if I was a greedy bitch today lol. The water fountain company accidentally sent me 2 fountains which would have been a nice profit for me for a resell since it was expensive. Instead I called Amazon and asked for it to be returned.
My new fountain looks amazing though! Don't need 2 lol.
chanzep
12-05-2020, 06:03 PM
I was craving pie so I did a while grocery order just so I could get it.
charlie61
12-05-2020, 07:03 PM
I'm such a damn perfectionist that it prevents me from putting myself out there. Like, i may never get started on OF and similar just because I'm not 100% happy with anything i create. It's really hard to not compare yourself to the women out there who are 20x more beautiful and photogenic.
indiegirl
12-05-2020, 10:51 PM
I'm such a damn perfectionist that it prevents me from putting myself out there. Like, i may never get started on OF and similar just because I'm not 100% happy with anything i create. It's really hard to not compare yourself to the women out there who are 20x more beautiful and photogenic.
Trisha Paytas, who is an openly former stripper turned youtuber makes like 20k a month on OF. She looks nothing like herself without makeup but has a lambo, 2 rolls royces, and just bought a house. I think you shouldn't worry because we all have people willing to spend that money on us.
indiegirl
12-06-2020, 10:40 AM
Lorddddd. I'm obsessed with listening to BlackPink's music again. How did I arrive here again lol?
indiegirl
12-06-2020, 11:46 AM
YESSSSSS BITCHHH lol. My Central AC/Heater installation starts tomorrow. This excited bitch is happy.
No more running to the fridge for food or so cold leaving the room because of roomies screwing with my heaters. Gotta go to the safe for a deposit (hate the bank) but I'm so happy for this moment. All the crazy changes in this house! Proud of it and all it's changes because I worked hard.
indiegirl
12-06-2020, 02:19 PM
Apparently my mom got creative and donated a christmas tree, made gingerbread cookies, and pumpkin spice frosting cookies for low income families at a child development center. She's turned her retirement fully around lol. Totally my mom.
charlie61
12-06-2020, 05:29 PM
Trisha Paytas, who is an openly former stripper turned youtuber makes like 20k a month on OF. She looks nothing like herself without makeup but has a lambo, 2 rolls royces, and just bought a house. I think you shouldn't worry because we all have people willing to spend that money on us.
I really appreciate this perspective! And the reality is that everyone has to start somewhere - if you never get started, you'll never get anywhere, and you'll certainly never improve. Even my favorite YouTubers have improved massively over time... their early videos are so amateur-looking compared to their current stuff. But amateur can be charming, and improvement comes with time and effort.
My background is in doing in-person stuff, like dancing. I remember camming once or twice. But nothing like this, creating content for something like OF. It's very different, so i feel like a total newb. And i don't have equipment that would make it easier for me to shoot quality content (yet) - i have a historical pattern of throwing money into new hobbies and then immediately ditching the hobby. So I'm waiting to buy better stuff until I've proven to myself that this is something i really want to commit to trying. It's also hard when you really try to do something well and it doesn't come easily at first - i want to give up right away. I should probably set some kind of goal, including a time period, like "I'll do my best for a year, and if i don't have any subscribers by then, i can quit."
whirlerz
12-06-2020, 05:42 PM
I was craving pie so I did a while grocery order just so I could get it.
What kind?
I buy those mini ones @ WM..I like the sweet potato. They have fruit pies but they're gummy. The pumpkin's ok
indiegirl
12-07-2020, 01:43 AM
My boobs hurt so bad right now. I'm on the verge of starting my period.
chanzep
12-07-2020, 01:57 PM
So the store had no lie I wanted so I got cheesecake instead.
I have things to do today so of course I'm Sat here watch murder shows. At least I forced myself to go on a walk I guess.
indiegirl
12-07-2020, 02:06 PM
I just read a review of the AC/Heating company I hired where someone said that the crew fell through his roof and the owner never addressed it. Currently they are in my attic above my head drilling on something and all I'm thinking of is if I'm going to be having grown men fall through my ceiling on top of me. LOL!
SnuffleUffleGrass
12-07-2020, 02:59 PM
Apparently my mom got creative and donated a christmas tree, made gingerbread cookies, and pumpkin spice frosting cookies for low income families at a child development center. She's turned her retirement fully around lol. Totally my mom.
That is so cool.
Confession- I've been stressing over work when I don't need to....Old habits die hard!
moneybags
12-07-2020, 03:03 PM
^^^Thats so cool. Indiegirl. I don’t think I’ll ever “retire”. I definitely would like to throw myself into volunteer work if I’m able bodied. I had friends in the 70’s going back to school. Maybe for some people retirement is their reward for a life well lived, but I hope I’m a wild woman till the very end.
I also am so tired of my class, Ive been putting off doing stuff for it now all last week now only one week left and i have 2 tests and a final to get done in that time. I literally wont have anything else to do but wont do class tho, im more stressed about not getting any government help to get through this time now that there really not helping, wondering if there just gonna wait for the vaccine then not do anything for us, ugh who knows but this is super crazy how they make people shut down businesses but offer no help, how does that work!?
miss.a.p1600
12-09-2020, 09:32 AM
Effective immediately
I will be going to bed everyday at 9:30 and waking up at 5am
I don't give a damn who tries to contact me, even my own partner, because after these hours, they WILL get the dial tone
Mfs better be ambitious and motivated and ready to contribute to society as I am because I'm avoiding anyone who aint rising to the occasion!
I'm rolling into 2021 with a bang...starting now
moneybags
12-09-2020, 12:53 PM
Effective immediately
I will be going to bed everyday at 9:30 and waking up at 5am
I don't give a damn who tries to contact me, even my own partner, because after these hours, they WILL get the dial tone
Mfs better be ambitious and motivated and ready to contribute to society as I am because I'm avoiding anyone who aint rising to the occasion!
I'm rolling into 2021 with a bang...starting now
I’m going to do the same in 2021.
I’ll be going back to the gym and I’m going EARLY before anyone can put their virus particles in the air. I’m not getting sick! I dunno if me helping men jack off is contributing to society? I suppose so...men couldn’t live without sex, so I guess I really am helping making the world a better place
miss.a.p1600
12-09-2020, 01:08 PM
I’m going to do the same in 2021.
I’ll be going back to the gym and I’m going EARLY before anyone can put their virus particles in the air. I’m not getting sick! I dunno if me helping men jack off is contributing to society? I suppose so...men couldn’t live without sex, so I guess I really am helping making the world a better place
This is exactly why they are weaker than women lol!!!
miss.a.p1600
12-09-2020, 07:03 PM
This thread is on page # 666 }:D
Anyone superstitious?
miss.a.p1600
12-09-2020, 09:08 PM
L is supposed to be having this surgery on his brain
I cannot take time off work
So he has to get help from his brother and his brothers wife.
Not going to like it’s probably going to freak me out seeing him all wounded n shit.
We haven’t had sex in like weeks cause I’ve been consumed with work. Knowing he wants to have sex before his surgery makes me want to do it less. Something about having a deadline to fuck makes it less desirable than being romanced and letting it happen naturally. Plus I just rather have money right now than sex.
LaurenAus
12-09-2020, 09:09 PM
I also am so tired of my class, Ive been putting off doing stuff for it now all last week now only one week left and i have 2 tests and a final to get done in that time. I literally wont have anything else to do but wont do class tho, im more stressed about not getting any government help to get through this time now that there really not helping, wondering if there just gonna wait for the vaccine then not do anything for us, ugh who knows but this is super crazy how they make people shut down businesses but offer no help, how does that work!?
Going through the exact same thing with one week of class left and a ton left to do. We've gotta hold on!! We've gotta do this!! Total survival mode status. Also wondering the same thing about the govt putting things off and hoping with the vaccine people will just happen to forget about unemployment. Good luck to us
moneybags
12-09-2020, 09:41 PM
^^^^^Amen to both. One more final and my teas exam. I feel like I'm gonna die. This isn't regular school; I basically had to TEACH myself everything...OMG. I'm so ready for a break. On the flip side, while I'm applying to nursing programs I won't have student loans to help. I stashed some cash, but I'm really stressed about money too. I don't want to go back to the club until there's a vaccine. I guess I'll just grind and pray.
My confession: I saw the hot married guy today. I did a good job of dialing it down the sexiness. I'm sure he's happily married. I'm honestly happy for him. The world needs more happily married couples. Last thing I need in my life is drama from a married guy, so I'll stick to being just friendly with him. We do have a crazy about of chemistry. As happy as I am we're keeping things professional, I can't help but wonder if he feels the same way-just out of curiosity. I guess I'll never know...probably better not knowing.
^^i have to take the teas too but not sure when to do it cause I’m super preggo and have to pee like all the time, we have to take ours online with a program watching to me to make sure I don’t cheat so I probably couldn’t go to the bathroom and also, are u studying? I got the study guide but haven’t really looked at it, seems like too much material to just study.. lol.
moneybags
12-09-2020, 10:41 PM
^^i have to take the teas too but not sure when to do it cause I’m super preggo and have to pee like all the time, we have to take ours online with a program watching to me to make sure I don’t cheat so I probably couldn’t go to the bathroom and also, are u studying? I got the study guide but haven’t really looked at it, seems like too much material to just study.. lol.
lI’m taking mine next week. Yes it is proctored online. I don’t think you get bathroom breaks. Kinda ridiculous. Maybe the school/doctor could get some type of special arrangement for you? I know someone in my study group said they got extra time (I think it was extra time, but it was some type of accommodation) on the test due to some type of learning disability. Not sure what you have to do to get accommodations, but surely there’s something. You don’t need to buy the expensive package ATI sells on their website. You just need a teas study guide and some practice tests are probably the best pplace to start.
I’ve already taken my prerequisites, so it’s just review. Omg, but I’m still nervous as hell!
Did you here about the lawyer who took her exam and then had her baby afterward?
https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.nbcchicago.com/news/local/woman-takes-bar-exam-while-in-labor-gives-birth-then-finishes-test/2351738/%3famp
Oh wow that’s crazy AF, I don’t see how anyone could even concentrate enough to get the answers right in that, like how? I took all my pre recs too but only chemistry n anp lately everything else was like 9 years ago... I mean they only need u to pass by like 60 percent tho so I’d hope I’d just do that anyways but who knows. That’s a goood idea tho I could maybe be accommodated somehow.
moneybags
12-10-2020, 01:22 AM
^^^Thanks you! I don’t expect a trophy, but thanks for acknowledging how hard it is to study with the pandemic and the politics. Omg!
My school only needs 60. The over achiever in me wants a 90, but as long as I get passing score that’s really all that matters. If I want to go to a “better” school I might have to retake it. I’m honestly not looking to go to a super impressive school-not because I can’t-but I’m older and I rather have a school that’s not as stressful and affordable.
indiegirl
12-10-2020, 08:02 AM
Remember my former pimp saying he was going to apply to go on Big Brother (typically hire fit/young people obviously), said he was on American Idol (his voice was so loud & bellowing bad driving me to appointments listening to the radio I had to tell him to stop and would yell at me like it was my fault he sucked), stored his food trash in his refrigerator, and him thinking he was a baller claiming he made 100,000 a year when he refused to turn the lights or air on in his house, nevertheless hire a maid. It all happened in a week and I realized why this man was 42 years old on escort sites for 11 years very quickly. Sometimes I think men get far too comfortable being lazy/crazy when they don't have a wife/gf for a long time to put them in place.
indiegirl
12-10-2020, 09:42 AM
Also in better news, RIP to the Raziel and Mellowmutt accounts. He'll be back under another account I'm sure lol
naomi_doll
12-10-2020, 09:45 AM
Wow what happened?
indiegirl
12-10-2020, 09:48 AM
Wow what happened?
I dunno! The Moderator said he was watching to see if the IP addresses matched. Maybe that's what happened lol.
miss.a.p1600
12-10-2020, 10:03 AM
Wow what happened?
Probably annoyed tf out of the moderator with their constant bickering with each other to prove they are not the same accounts
Also in better news, RIP to the Raziel and Mellowmutt accounts. He'll be back under another account I'm sure lol
LOL, Raziel account was super weird... I guess he did weird stuff to everyone.. RIP, YO!
indiegirl
12-10-2020, 02:17 PM
Please lord let the workers at my house finish the patching up and woodwork today. I'm ready to go work to make up for this huge expense.
kamiliam
12-10-2020, 02:21 PM
Also in better news, RIP to the Raziel and Mellowmutt accounts. He'll be back under another account I'm sure lol
his behavior was escalating and frankly it was gross and self defeating for himself and manipulative towards others. However I only messaged him back because he was a member of this board for a long time. Maybe he was always doing stuff like this but it seems recent. So that being said I hope he is ok or finds someway to get that way. I do have empathy for everyone when it comes to these sort of mental health crisis.
indiegirl
12-10-2020, 03:27 PM
his behavior was escalating and frankly it was gross and self defeating for himself and manipulative towards others. However I only messaged him back because he was a member of this board for a long time. Maybe he was always doing stuff like this but it seems recent. So that being said I hope he is ok or finds someway to get that way. I do have empathy for everyone when it comes to these sort of mental health crisis.
Yeah a guy who creates multiple accounts clearly has issues. He needs to fix his issues. Don't they have male forums/sites for guys like him? This is mostly a womans forum.
Anytime I've ever been nice to guys with issues they clung to me and I regretted it.
whirlerz
12-10-2020, 05:14 PM
Also in better news, RIP to the Raziel and Mellowmutt accounts. He'll be back under another account I'm sure lol
I complained about his ass..
He made a rude comment & I reported it.
Hope he stays away!
No one needs that shit.