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chanzep
01-18-2021, 11:36 AM
Sorry Indie.
chanzep
01-18-2021, 11:39 AM
I hAve a new job and hate it already. If world was normal I would go back to club. I'm so fed up of bored at home all the time. I have been so depressed lately.
SnuffleUffleGrass
01-18-2021, 11:45 AM
Fuck...well grandpa just passed away. :( At least he's not suffering anymore.
Wasn't close to him like my grandma since he mostly lived in Oregon but I'm sure my mom is very upset right now. I can't imagine the pain of cancer and exhaustion of covid at the same time. Geeez.
He always had this odd relationship with me (compared to my siblings) that I did not want where he thought something was a kind inside joke and he would do this for YEARS. LOL! Then when one of my former cats died after 12 years he did this thing where he pretended the cat wasn't even dead when I'd ask how he was doing "Oh he's chasing mice in the field!" Lol that cat must've lived for 30 impressive years grandpa LOL.
Sorry about your grandpa. He's not in pain anymore, and he is in a better place.
moneybags
01-19-2021, 03:11 AM
Sorry about your loss indie
I feel bad for people who pay taxes. Just another reason why hookin’ and crookin’ is the only way to escape to hierarchal oppressive systems. Not saying it’s right, just that it makes sense.
WendiStarr
01-19-2021, 02:51 PM
An ex or other weirdo is being stalkerish. He went out of his way to create a fake fb account with no pics, info, friends, or anything and contacted me with his name as Another Chance. I was curious to know who it was but I figured it was best to just block and not respond. It still bugs me though.
indiegirl
01-19-2021, 03:06 PM
Waiting for an appointment. Still at 0 clients and it was a day use hotel one until 4 so this sucks. One cancelled and the other wanted one in 20 minutes. I need my time to be “fully” set. I need to amp myself up to music too. Not last minute. Fuckkk I had to pay for the ride here I may have to constant work the rest of the night and extend.
Remember throwing all the stuff and the phone off the hotel desk when I was brand new and it was fucking hot...now I am vanilla sex. Lol
indiegirl
01-19-2021, 06:36 PM
She has awoken from her nap in her chambers and is awaiting suitors to pay her LOL. Ugh I needed that nap.
Basically I’m feeling better and also too quirky.
One regular: can we do a quickie (since I’m not offering anal for him anymore)
Wtf is a quickie? Are we in a relationship? NO. Or the car date bullshit. Like...I know I have reached rock bottom when I’m in someone’s car like that. NOO!
carmen_b
01-19-2021, 06:43 PM
I’m 95% sure my former SD did a fake profile a few months ago.
He used photos of a very attractive man and my old town in Hawaii and I bit like an idiot lol.
Or maybe a hot man in my old town was just looking for me !! Lol
Prob not because he “ disappeared “ a month later.
An ex or other weirdo is being stalkerish. He went out of his way to create a fake fb account with no pics, info, friends, or anything and contacted me with his name as Another Chance. I was curious to know who it was but I figured it was best to just block and not respond. It still bugs me though.
indiegirl
01-19-2021, 09:04 PM
Cheap ass. Feels like I’m getting Interviewed from a cheap John who requested a video chat. Are we now interviewing ho’s on the cheap side? Should I acquire new business attire for your dumb ass with your cheap interview?
You aren’t paying shit. Don’t act like that dick is made of gold.
Honestly it feels like it’s getting worse with their behavior
Finding a new one.
Sorry for the language. I double paid for this hotel and annoyed
indiegirl
01-19-2021, 09:18 PM
Also I miss mister crazy needy dog lol right now. Even though his constant need for cuddling is annoying...there are times I like it.
lurkingtitties
01-20-2021, 03:16 PM
I feel bad for people who pay taxes. Just another reason why hookin’ and crookin’ is the only way to escape to hierarchal oppressive systems. Not saying it’s right, just that it makes sense.
Girl I completely agree. I would feel differently I think if I lived in a country where the government uses tax revenue to take care of its citizens. But here in America not so much.
I really want to start growing weed. I can’t get it off my mind! I went to a dispensary the other day to get my mom some gummies and it was packed on a Saturday morning. A voice inside me said I’m in the wrong business right now.
whirlerz
01-20-2021, 04:48 PM
I just applied for a job in a weed dispensary
carmen_b
01-20-2021, 04:51 PM
Weed queens.
I also want to learn to grow ( mostly hobby ).
My state isn’t legal but ones near me are. That’s what my room mates / friends were up to out of town. They were looking for grow ready land.
indiegirl
01-20-2021, 05:28 PM
I just applied for a job in a weed dispensary
That's cool :). I dunno I backed out of applying because I recall hearing some are/aren't legal or something? Remember meeting 2 weed shop owners as customers and one was delayed because of a raid and they had to bail the ladies working for them out. I don't get how it's legal and that happens?
My weed shop refuses you to use your phone, has a door you have to get buzzed into, blacked out window to submit your card, security guard, and the whole place has no sign. One near Irvine/Costa Mesa is fancy and it's like walking into an apple store LOL. How do you know where to work where you don't go through a raid?
LoveyDovey
01-20-2021, 10:32 PM
Working at a weed dispensary sounds like fun! I just got back from the weed store and the employees are all so nice and happy. This place is like an apple store, too. Hope you get the job! I think you can tell the legal vs. The illegal underground stores. Usually the apple store dispensaries are legit, while the super low-profile ones are the ones that get raided. Usually the energy in there feels different too. I think you can always call the store and make sure it is a legal place for you to work. The apple store dispensaries also charge a lot more because they add the tax on, whereas raided places have way better deals since they don't pay the tax. Sorry if I am rambling. I ate a gummy haha
LoveyDovey
01-20-2021, 10:34 PM
Weed queens.
I also want to learn to grow ( mostly hobby ).
My state isn’t legal but ones near me are. That’s what my room mates / friends were up to out of town. They were looking for grow ready land.
I would love to grow. It's legal where I live. But I would want my own place first, unless my roomie is a stoner too.
whirlerz
01-21-2021, 05:35 AM
Yea, the thing is, they said you have to work outside? & be on your feet all the time?
+ it's part time, & temporary, (it might get extended)..
It was thru an employment agency, so probably legit, but, I'll keep my work at home for now, start next week
whirlerz
01-21-2021, 05:43 AM
That's cool :). I dunno I backed out of applying because I recall hearing some are/aren't legal or something? Remember meeting 2 weed shop owners as customers and one was delayed because of a raid and they had to bail the ladies working for them out. I don't get how it's legal and that happens?
My weed shop refuses you to use your phone, has a door you have to get buzzed into, blacked out window to submit your card, security guard, and the whole place has no sign. One near Irvine/Costa Mesa is fancy and it's like walking into an apple store LOL. How do you know where to work where you don't go through a raid?
The thing w/the law is, it's very qurky..
Where I live for example, it's legal, but my town has an ordinance against it.. That wouldn't affect me working there, but who knows what kinda grey area shit could go down.. I'll pass I think
lurkingtitties
01-21-2021, 05:56 AM
Oooh I’m totally going to try and get part time work at a dispensary. Probably a good way to meet cool people. Thanks for the idea!
indiegirl
01-21-2021, 09:57 AM
Sometimes I'll watch a movie back to the back with my earbuds in and the volume is so loud in the second video it feels like "Am I at a rock concert?"
miss.a.p1600
01-21-2021, 11:23 AM
I cannot wait till L goes back to work.
It doesn’t register that I’m WORKING and I don’t want pressure to spend extra time with him just cause he’s off. I could make some concessions for him IF he were making himself more resourceful like helping me with my marketing or paying for my marketing, studying for his new career
Ladies never tell dudes you’re self employed. Lie and say you have a boss/manager/etc
SnuffleUffleGrass
01-21-2021, 01:30 PM
Funny confession- I'm facebook stalking one of my nuttiest exes for entertainment. Face Book is a giant waste of time these days but this guy's content is comedy gold! Always fun to spy on it.
indiegirl
01-21-2021, 01:42 PM
I'm thinking of buying thin gloves and putting coconut oil or lotion in them at night time. My fingers have been peeling from the dryness for a month. I have a bandaid on my thumb as an alternative for now.
carmen_b
01-22-2021, 09:08 AM
I am honest about being self employed but my work hours M - F are “ no touch “. Early in dating I set a vibe to not text or reach me much during these hours . I will text but only one or two texts around lunch / noon .
I cannot wait till L goes back to work.
Just say you are busy with clients ect.
It doesn’t register that I’m WORKING and I don’t want pressure to spend extra time with him just cause he’s off. I could make some concessions for him IF he were making himself more resourceful like helping me with my marketing or paying for my marketing, studying for his new career
Ladies never tell dudes you’re self employed. Lie and say you have a boss/manager/etc
kimbe
01-22-2021, 10:25 AM
I'm thinking of buying thin gloves and putting coconut oil or lotion in them at night time. My fingers have been peeling from the dryness for a month. I have a bandaid on my thumb as an alternative for now.
I'd recommend a urea based hand cream (10%). Urea works wonders on dry skin and you can definitely use it together with coconut oil!
PhatGirlDynomite!!!
01-23-2021, 07:56 AM
Six months ago I woke up with partial paralysis from the waist down. I could'nt get my legs to function properly and my gut was severely bloated. It was terrifying and I didnt know what was gonna happen to me. Even the doctors were confused at first. Finally I had to go to a specialist to find out that I had a kidney infection! It's wild because I had very few symptoms that come along with a kidney infection before everything blew up.
During the worst of it I had to use a walker to help rebuild the muscles in my legs. And then eventually I moved up to a cane that I still use sometimes. It was scary but not all bad because I realized how bad it could have been if I didn't have insurance or a strong support system.
Today my knees are stronger (not Meg Thee Stallion strong) and the bloating is all gone! It seriously felt like I was trying to walk around with a pair of 30lb jeans wadded up between my thighs. Not fun at all but I still can't say 2020 was my worst year ever. If anything I believe it gave me the motivation to get better. I told myself to keep moving bitch, cuz you aint going out before 2021!!! Today I woke up feeling amazing and even better than my old self. I love Saturdays too!
indiegirl
01-23-2021, 10:20 AM
I hate that I turn into my child self when I see a “little person” don’t know the correct term now (midget) in public. I don’t mean to stare to hurt feelings, I stare in fascination.
Couldn’t keep my eyes off this “one” after attending a play a bit ago. I felt so bad staring.
Genoveve
01-23-2021, 10:23 AM
^^^
^^^That is insane! What even causes kidney infections? I’m glad you’re doing great, it’s only a matter of time till you build the Megan knees LOL.
LoveyDovey
01-23-2021, 10:24 AM
I hate that I turn into my child self when I see a “little person” don’t know the correct term now (midget) in public. I don’t mean to stare to hurt feelings, I stare in fascination.
When I was in college, there was this one little person who always turned up at the best parties. I always used to sit and drink a beer with him. If he was there, you knew it was a good party lol
PhatGirlDynomite!!!
01-23-2021, 10:47 AM
^^^
^^^That is insane! What even causes kidney infections? I’m glad you’re doing great, it’s only a matter of time till you build the Megan knees LOL.
Usually its from bacterial getting into the urinary tract system. It can come from other parts of the body too. Idk how mine happened? I took too long before I did anything about it. But my body decided to speed things up. Im just happy to get through it.
Genoveve
01-23-2021, 10:56 AM
Idk how mine happened? I took too long before I did anything about it. But my body decided to speed things up. Im just happy to get through it.
It’s unfortunate that a lot of times the symptoms of serious issues are not all that unusual and worrisome. Like fever, aches, soreness...etc. That stuff can happen all the time. And it’s crazy how some things do seem to happen randomly; my friend out of nowhere has started developing reoccurring staph infections, we cannot figure out how or why but they fucking suck.
indiegirl
01-24-2021, 10:44 AM
Well I am at rock bottom....I moved the essential oil diffuser on my bed hahaha. The scent is really strong but I don't mind. Dogs are stinky too but I want to enjoy the scent for myself. LOL. I'm too carried away with it. Woopsies!
This all started with a candle and here we are! :P
whirlerz
01-24-2021, 11:13 AM
It's fine^!
I love scents as well, I had a Bergamot room spray that was so great.
I was making spaghetti in the kitchen, heard the girl upstairs moaning LOUD..
No wonder the guy who lives across from them, asked me about escorting lol.
indiegirl
01-24-2021, 11:19 AM
It's fine^!
I love scents as well, I had a Bergamot room spray that was so great.
I was making spaghetti in the kitchen, heard the girl upstairs moaning LOUD..
No wonder the guy who lives across from them, asked me about escorting lol.
Scents are so therapeutic! :)
Lol he must be hearing a lot outta her room if he's curious lol
whirlerz
01-24-2021, 01:05 PM
Yea, I think he sleeps all day today.
He's weird too, he gets up in the middle of the night, runs back & forth to his car doing shit.
carmen_b
01-24-2021, 01:17 PM
Whew.
J and I had our time Wed - Sat. morning.
My family was there Thursday eve to just now.
That's 5 straight days of company and I am just EXHAUSTED. :)
I have an empty house today and it'll be wonderful. Starting it with my online catching up haha , then will find a movie, bath in QUIET , then probably try to work an hour with quiet ! Ah........
indiegirl
01-24-2021, 01:55 PM
Lol I'm watching escaping polygamy and they do send people away to repent their sins....this time it's for not waking up at 5am and her son listening to country music LOLLLLL. Girlllll they'd send me to a deserted island if they heard what I had to say.
Feel bad they're so brainwashed. She hasn't seen her own daughter for 3 years.
SnuffleUffleGrass
01-24-2021, 02:08 PM
Lol I'm watching escaping polygamy and they do send people away to repent their sins....this time it's for not waking up at 5am and her son listening to country music LOLLLLL. Girlllll they'd send me to a deserted island if they heard what I had to say.
Feel bad they're so brainwashed. She hasn't seen her own daughter for 3 years.
Organized religion enables the absolute worst of abuses against human beings.
Confession- pissed people off at work, I don't currrr
carmen_b
01-24-2021, 02:10 PM
^ It does ! The whole thing is SO creepy. So much abuse. So much abusing services like welfare ect. ! Don't get me started ugh.
indiegirl
01-24-2021, 02:16 PM
Organized religion enables the absolute worst of abuses against human beings.
Confession- pissed people off at work, I don't currrr
In getting her kid back they told the mom "since we aren't the mother you would have to go get her." She responded."I don't know I'd have to think about it."
WHATTTT!?
That's your baby. So sad. Pack up your kids and your crap and run!
So awful.
indiegirl
01-24-2021, 03:37 PM
Lord have mercy, I was trying to use my vibrator for like an hour and had to keep turning it off when they'd leave their room because the roommate and her man is home. I use the heavy duty vibrator not one that is pink and cute LOL. Wish they had one with no noise. Back to watching comedy now.
Zoltan Kaszas is hilarious.
JGB2009
01-24-2021, 06:01 PM
Lord have mercy, I was trying to use my vibrator for like an hour and had to keep turning it off when they'd leave their room because the roommate and her man is home. I use the heavy duty vibrator not one that is pink and cute LOL. Wish they had one with no noise. Back to watching comedy now.
Zoltan Kaszas is hilarious.
No noise would be awesome.
miss.a.p1600
01-24-2021, 07:29 PM
Lord have mercy, I was trying to use my vibrator for like an hour and had to keep turning it off when they'd leave their room because the roommate and her man is home. I use the heavy duty vibrator not one that is pink and cute LOL. Wish they had one with no noise. Back to watching comedy now.
Zoltan Kaszas is hilarious.
Lol @ the pink n cute vs the heavy duty.
i made the mistake of getting those $25 pink n cute finger vibes and I could not feel a damn thing.
yeah.
so much for pink n cute.
and ya get what ya pay for
indiegirl
01-24-2021, 07:36 PM
Lol @ the pink n cute vs the heavy duty.
i made the mistake of getting those $25 pink n cute finger vibes and I could not feel a damn thing.
yeah.
so much for pink n cute.
and ya get what ya pay for
Some you buy at the sex shops you feel like "what is THIS?" It's terrible vibration lol....once you get used to a good heavy duty vibrator, the game is done lol. I have a purple dildo I've used a few times that was gifted for performance only.
My personal vibrator plug in I've used for so long I can't turn back.
indiegirl
01-24-2021, 07:49 PM
Some you buy at the sex shops you feel like "what is THIS?" It's terrible vibration lol....once you get used to a good heavy duty vibrator, the game is done lol. I have a purple dildo I've used a few times that was gifted for performance only.
My personal vibrator plug in I've used for so long I can't turn back.
They have these pussy suction pump/cups....have you heard of them? I'm not invested to walk around suctioning a vagina if it doesn't do anything.
Keep looking at it thinking "Couldn't I use a vacuum attachment? LOL. I'm cheap.
miss.a.p1600
01-24-2021, 09:05 PM
^I accidentally came across an xxx video of a woman sucking the life out her vagina lips with those pumps
Then this broad measured how far her labia was hanging down
My mind was completely boggled.
I am curious about suction to the clit , not necessarily the labia, if I can find a toy like that.
indiegirl
01-24-2021, 09:07 PM
^I accidentally came across an xxx video of a woman sucking the life out her vagina lips with those pumps
Then this broad measured how far her labor was hanging down
My mind was completely boggled.
I am curious about suction to the clit , not necessarily the labia, if I can find a toy like that.
Yeah I don't understand the arousal behind it.
charlie61
01-24-2021, 09:18 PM
Some you buy at the sex shops you feel like "what is THIS?" It's terrible vibration lol....once you get used to a good heavy duty vibrator, the game is done lol. I have a purple dildo I've used a few times that was gifted for performance only.
My personal vibrator plug in I've used for so long I can't turn back.
100%. Yesterday i swear i had 20 orgasms in a row with mine... like nonstop orgasms for 10+ minutes. Super fucking intense orgasms, not those wimpy ones you get when you overstimulate yourself for a half hour with a tiny pink vibe and your body finally throbs out an orgasm out of pure frustration, lol! It was crazy! And it's also a plug-in I've had for like ten years.
Elektra Luxx
01-25-2021, 12:41 AM
I'm going through a particularly bad period of depressed and self-loathing. Worse one in a couple of years. Bf picked up on it right away. I denied being depressed but he saw right through me and was trying to distract me and was trying to talk me off the ledge. I went to sleep early because I felt emotionally and physically exhausted. I don't know what to do.
indiegirl
01-25-2021, 01:16 AM
I'm going through a particularly bad period of depressed and self-loathing. Worse one in a couple of years. Bf picked up on it right away. I denied being depressed but he saw right through me and was trying to distract me and was trying to talk me off the ledge. I went to sleep early because I felt emotionally and physically exhausted. I don't know what to do.
Sometimes your doctor can put you on a temporary antidepressant for help. I went on effexor and it was a godsend making life more tolerable.
Some suggest some tea or weird holistic supplement/thing for depression but when you're feeling awful it's better to get something that's immediately helpful.
Out of all antidepressants Effexor was awesome for me. I kept thinking when I got the prescription "Another useless antidepressant medication" here we go. I was so depressed but it worked so fast.
Totally recommend getting something until you feel better :).