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Elektra Luxx
01-25-2021, 11:46 AM
Thank you indie. I'm on efflexor and have been on it for a few years. It really does help. I go through periods of depression and self-loathing. I'm also bi-polar. If it continues bf will call my doctor for me or I'll call.

carmen_b
01-25-2021, 11:48 AM
^ BEST wishes !!! Ugh !

Also get on the calendar something to LOOK FORWARD to !

I got on a low dose of Wellbutrin this winter to combat seasonal depression and I am glad I did.
I'm a lot more highly functional than the last couple winters.

Another thing I can recommend is a regular Yoga practice. My weekly one is heavy with positive affirmations and meditations.
It can seem hokey sometimes to outside eyes but I swear just hearing these repetitions of positive statements from my instructor is helpful too.

indiegirl
01-25-2021, 12:44 PM
^ BEST wishes !!! Ugh !

Also get on the calendar something to LOOK FORWARD to !

I got on a low dose of Wellbutrin this winter to combat seasonal depression and I am glad I did.
I'm a lot more highly functional than the last couple winters.

Another thing I can recommend is a regular Yoga practice. My weekly one is heavy with positive affirmations and meditations.
It can seem hokey sometimes to outside eyes but I swear just hearing these repetitions of positive statements from my instructor is helpful too.

Yeah meditation on top of meds helps. That damn essential oil diffuser in my house has done wonders. Plus healing crystals. I know it sounds like too much but it's helpful to start your day off.

They can always adjust meds. I hope it works out for you :)!

carmen_b
01-25-2021, 12:45 PM
^ A good routine DOES help. I do it all. Meditation, Yoga, Massage on the reg. !
My body is hard to maintain ( and expensive haha ) BUT if I don't do it shit really hits the fan. ;/

carmen_b
01-25-2021, 12:54 PM
^ I think it was you and another poster talking about the the " trippy " diffuser ? I want it . That reminds me to order it for J by Valentines.

indiegirl
01-25-2021, 01:19 PM
^ I think it was you and another poster talking about the the " trippy " diffuser ? I want it . That reminds me to order it for J by Valentines.


Think it was Genoveve who got one too. I'd like to hear the update on maintaining her diffuser. Her diffuser was super cute. I'm now starting a weekly cleaning of mine.

I stick to patchouli and lavender. Some scents are toxic to pets if you buy those bulk packs and some stink.

carmen_b
01-25-2021, 01:21 PM
^ I just ordered it !!
I got a silk black robe to go along with it haha.

indiegirl
01-25-2021, 01:24 PM
^ I just ordered it !!
I got a silk black robe to go along with it haha.

Yass!:) ...You'll love it.

Genoveve
01-25-2021, 02:57 PM
Think it was Genoveve who got one too. I'd like to hear the update on maintaining her diffuser. Her diffuser was super cute. I'm now starting a weekly cleaning of mine.

I stick to patchouli and lavender. Some scents are toxic to pets if you buy those bulk packs and some stink.

Mine's great----but I have only used it a couple times so I haven't had the issues you have LOL(I saw you saying you pretty much run yours constantly). I don't use it more often because its instructions say to empty the water out and dry the tank after each use and I'm lazy. I'm gonna go fire it up now though that I'm thinking about it because I actually have to leave my house tomorrow and I wouldn't mind the scent hitting the clothes that I laid out.

This is said trippy diffuser: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B07PZTP7Q5/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_asin_title_o06_s00?ie=UTF8&psc=1

Genoveve
01-25-2021, 05:15 PM
^^^I just jinxed myself, I set it up to run for an hour and like 20 minutes later I realized that it turned off prematurely, I went over to check it and there was water all over the place.........I forgot to put the lid on the damn water tank before I started it. Oh well I guess it just means that my carpet in that area is going to be smelling really good lol.

indiegirl
01-25-2021, 05:49 PM
^^^I just jinxed myself, I set it up to run for an hour and like 20 minutes later I realized that it turned off prematurely, I went over to check it and there was water all over the place.........I forgot to put the lid on the damn water tank before I started it. Oh well I guess it just means that my carpet in that area is going to be smelling really good lol.


I tested it out before thinking"HMM what if I just didn't use the diffuser lid!" And it was great until I checked on it later. There was water and essential oil all on the floor. Hahaha apparently the lid is needed :P.

indiegirl
01-25-2021, 07:54 PM
Gahhhh. I think my roommate was sleeping and she kept her door open. I didn't want one of my goobs (aka my dogs) to waltz in and bug her so I closed it to a point. She managed to close the door later.

It's door closed only or else you're gonna have a dog napping in your room. They are far too comfortable with people. HAHA

carmen_b
01-25-2021, 08:20 PM
Honestly .... ugh .... HOW did I forget my fave Lelo Vibe and my blueberry bagels / cream cheese at the other house ? :(
I feel like both the evening and morning are ruined now but I'm not going out tonight.

carmen_b
01-25-2021, 08:31 PM
" hey nutso ( blogger I hired )
If you can not change a damn key phrase on the PRICING page of my website please go fuck off and get no more work from me ever again. This an easy change I could do myself if you were not IN my damn website right now . "

C

^ I'm working now on a better way to put it !

indiegirl
01-25-2021, 10:30 PM
One of the dogs did this loud moan/shout in my ear ( mister needy) wasn't sure what the hell was happening in the middle of my 2nd nap. (Obviously I get plenty of nap time when nobody wants to hire me) lol.

He has dramatic naps just like me in his sleep. It's so funny when he makes noises like that.

Elektra Luxx
01-26-2021, 03:56 PM
Thank you indie. I'm on efflexor and have been on it for a few years. It really does help. I go through periods of depression and self-loathing. I'm also bi-polar. If it continues bf will call my doctor for me or I'll call.

Psychiatrists and psychiatric hospitals mess a person up more than help. I believe therapy has some benefit, but I don't think I need to see a therapist. I think my regular doctor prescribed meds are working ok.

indiegirl
01-26-2021, 04:29 PM
Psychiatrists and psychiatric hospitals mess a person up more than help. I believe therapy has some benefit, but I don't think I need to see a therapist. I think my regular doctor prescribed meds are working ok.

I dunno if you've been to a psychiatric hospital. Don't they overmedicate too which can make things worse?

indiegirl
01-26-2021, 05:40 PM
Obviously not in a place to buy another house at all. I'm turning into my mom looking up open houses to tour to window shop, get excited, and go home. I would claim my bedroom before my siblings got the good one growing up when she'd do this. LOL.

Elektra Luxx
01-26-2021, 06:09 PM
I dunno if you've been to a psychiatric hospital. Don't they overmedicate too which can make things worse?

They don't over-medicate. They get you started on meds and put you in group therapy several times a day. They encourage you to talk about whatever is bothering you. After 5 days, if you don't show any self-destructive behavior, they release you to a family member. Your stay is just to get you to a stable frame of mind. They expect you to seek help on you own after that. There is no serious follow-up.

indiegirl
01-26-2021, 06:19 PM
They don't over-medicate. They get you started on meds and put you in group therapy several times a day. They encourage you to talk about whatever is bothering you. After 5 days, if you don't show any self-destructive behavior, they release you to a family member. Your stay is just to get you to a stable frame of mind. They expect you to seek help on you own after that. There is no serious follow-up.

Interesting. I got that from a movie that they overmedicate.

miss.a.p1600
01-26-2021, 06:58 PM
Overmedicating is what they used to do back in the 70s and before

Back when people with mental illness and disabilities had no rights.

They would overmedicate to keep from having to work with the patients who were violent, suicidal, etc.

Nowadays the good doctors will prescribe what’s necessary only. Because those medications can have side effects n adverse reactions like weight gain, muscle tremors, suicidal thoughts etc. and also because now that patients have rights doctors and hospitals can be sued for causing harm using medications

charlie61
01-26-2021, 07:01 PM
I confess that i feel like my aversion to alcohol is actually getting worse as i get older. I can hardly even sip on red wine anymore, and even white wine is a stretch. It all just tastes like poison to me. But i like the effect, so i still have a glass or two on the weekends. My face looks like this when i drink it... :s

Genoveve
01-26-2021, 07:31 PM
^^^I have never been able to stand the taste of any alcohol. I've tried all different things and the only categories I've discovered are 'disgusting' and 'less disgusting.' (I can still get it down if I'm trying to get super turnt though)

Champagne goes down the easiest, especially the cheap kinds you can find at the drugstore that are fruit flavored. Cheap pinot grigio has hardly any taste to me so I will mix that with soda. I can't tell the difference between high-end booze and the cheap stuff so I always get the cheap stuff. I was just thinking the other day about how I actually can't tell the difference between vodka and tequila. It all tastes like lighter fluid to me. :spit:

LoveyDovey
01-26-2021, 07:35 PM
I don't like alcohol, except for maybe the occasional glad of red wine with dinner. Alcoholism runs in my family and I hate hangovers. Which is why I stick with weed.

charlie61
01-26-2021, 07:42 PM
^^^I have never been able to stand the taste of any alcohol. I've tried all different things and the only categories I've discovered are 'disgusting' and 'less disgusting.' (I can still get it down if I'm trying to get super turnt though)

Champagne goes down the easiest, especially the cheap kinds you can find at the drugstore that are fruit flavored. Cheap pinot grigio has hardly any taste to me so I will mix that with soda. I can't tell the difference between high-end booze and the cheap stuff so I always get the cheap stuff. I was just thinking the other day about how I actually can't tell the difference between vodka and tequila. It all tastes like lighter fluid to me. :spit:

Yes!! It all tastes like lighter fluid or straight ethanol to me. Even moscatos just taste like poisoned grape juice. I don't know what's wrong with me! Even beer is absolutely disgusting to me. The only stuff i can tolerate somewhat is packed with sugar and not something I'd have aside from special occasions, like a mojito when i visit my father once a year.

Genoveve
01-26-2021, 07:59 PM
^^I refuse to drink beer. It doesn't even get me drunk it just makes me have to urinate non-stop.

indiegirl
01-26-2021, 08:35 PM
Good god, I thought having some store-made salsa and chips would be a nice snack. Come to find out, the salsa is absolutely expired. Nowhere on the package does it share an expiration date BAHAHA. Well that was both a spicy and rotten surprise taste at the same time LOL.

miss.a.p1600
01-26-2021, 10:20 PM
I don't like alcohol, except for maybe the occasional glad of red wine with dinner. Alcoholism runs in my family and I hate hangovers. Which is why I stick with weed.

same.

i don’t think my body processes alcohol well (i get hangovers, headaches, dehydration, blood pressure rising, face flushed, etc from even small amounts) so I prefer weed also. I wish it were legal here

JessaJade
01-27-2021, 04:13 AM
It's funny, I have almost zero desire/cravings for alcohol anymore but I'm kind of the opposite - I love the taste but hate how it makes me feel. My tolerance has got lower and lower over the years and now even 2-3 drinks will make me feel ill and give a mini hangover.
I love a strong cocktail or good wine but can't really drink them!

miss.a.p1600
01-27-2021, 09:04 AM
I watched this one porn couple that was so good

I wish I could film sex and upload it to a good ppv site

carmen_b
01-27-2021, 10:24 AM
^ Yeah ... you need to share that link lol. Or hint where to find it.

JGB2009
01-27-2021, 10:33 AM
You make me feel so high sometimes. I wish I could feel like this forever!!!!!!

miss.a.p1600
01-27-2021, 10:44 AM
My nipples are hard. Because it’s cold.

But I’m going to go out with no bra so I can secretly stimulate my boobs by letting my nipples get aroused as my boobs bounce n rub against the fabric while I’m walking.

I may put a lil Extra pep in my step

moneybags
01-27-2021, 11:24 AM
Done talking to Mr. Dilf. He acted like he didn’t even care. Oh well nothing new. Even though I’m bad at love, I’m still a bad a bitch. Time to do what I always do when I get my heart broken...level the fuck up! Seriously gives me the motivation to level up. Wish me luck.

Vent: just venting. Still sad. The way he treated me after I told him I’m a model. I know rejection is Gods protection, but I’m still heartbroken. Thankfully I don’t have to see him again. 1)whoever said married men are the worst YOU ARE RIGHT!!! 2)this is why you have to treat men like walking wallets because they use women to stoke their ego and discard us once they don’t need us 3) we don’t choose who we fall for, so I’ll just forgive myself and move on.

Who the fuck does he think he is? He hates his life. I’d rather be a happy slut, then be like him

miss.a.p1600
01-27-2021, 12:46 PM
^me too. You got it! Gone get this level up in 2021!

miss.a.p1600
01-27-2021, 03:28 PM
^married men.....yep pretty much have to treat them like tricks and day trades ....... get sex n money; get in then get out (quickly before Bertha broad finds out)

Cause best believe their real slick asses going to be using the mistress for sex n whatever else. They don’t gaf about the woman cause when it goes to hell n a hand basket, they got old faithful Bertha to fall back on

SnuffleUffleGrass
01-27-2021, 03:34 PM
Confession- I regret looking up an old co worker on FB. (We worked together back in the day at a pizza parlor and at a gov. job.) She died three years ago. Guess I got my belated answer as to why she wasn't approving my friend request on there.

///F*ck addiction, f*ck shit parenting, f*ck nihilsm. Jackie you were so wonderful.

indiegirl
01-27-2021, 03:36 PM
https://www.tmz.com/2021/01/27/pamela-anderson-marries-bodyguard-married-wedding-ties-knot/
Geesh Pamela Anderson looks great for her age in this photo. Had no idea she was married 5 times. Sometimes it's trial and error.

moneybags
01-27-2021, 04:50 PM
^married men.....yep pretty much have to treat them like tricks and day trades ....... get sex n money; get in then get out (quickly before Bertha broad finds out)

Cause best believe their real slick asses going to be using the mistress for sex n whatever else. They don’t gaf about the woman cause when it goes to hell n a hand basket, they got old faithful Bertha to fall back on


Thanks. Yeah. I wasn’t trying to start anything. One day he was super vulnerable and I thought....I know it’s stupid now. Saw him today and it’s just the cold shoulder. Like I said I had some legit unfinished business to take care of but now that it is finished I won’t be posting on here because i won’t be talking to him anymore (I don’t like to complain about the same thing and I have been.) I know you calling her Bertha is just you trying to cheer me up. I don’t think you we’re being mean just cheeky. I will talk to my therapist about it because I don’t think it’s all in my head that he has feelings for me especially when he told me low key he did. I’ve never been attracted, had feelings, or had a crush on a married guy ever...I wonder why now? I’m going to focus on work. Appreciate all the non judgmental feedback. I’m sure anyone who has actually fallen for a married guy knows how painful it is to move on. FYI-I didn’t ACT on it! Mutual Feelings just happened. I didn’t do anything wrong. Logically I know this is GREAT that he’s rejecting me, so I can move on and not be involved in drama. But there’s still a part of me that wished he would have asked me out beyond our business relationship. He probably has a lot of flaws only his wife has to deal with. I probably wouldn’t have even liked him if I dated him.

I’m just tired of being the fantasy girl...ya know.

charlie61
01-27-2021, 06:45 PM
^I hear you, girl. Have definitely been there. :hug:

carmen_b
01-27-2021, 06:51 PM
Money :
You told him you do sex work ?

He is probably just mad you are too smart to deal with him for free !!!! :)
It solidifies it you know ?
Now he can’t have his little fantasy “ oh something could happen woo-hoo “ entertainment.

You have been rock solid and smart about this !!

I get it too . You are attracted so you post in that frustration of it !! :(

carmen_b
01-27-2021, 06:53 PM
If he is miserable and sex starved he can PAY you !
He should offer something I mean to make life easier !

Or he can come around fully divorced / papers signed ( view them first !).

miss.a.p1600
01-27-2021, 07:09 PM
Thanks. Yeah. I wasn’t trying to start anything. One day he was super vulnerable and I thought....I know it’s stupid now. Saw him today and it’s just the cold shoulder. Like I said I had some legit unfinished business to take care of but now that it is finished I won’t be posting on here because i won’t be talking to him anymore (I don’t like to complain about the same thing and I have been.) I know you calling her Bertha is just you trying to cheer me up. I don’t think you we’re being mean just cheeky. I will talk to my therapist about it because I don’t think it’s all in my head that he has feelings for me especially when he told me low key he did. I’ve never been attracted, had feelings, or had a crush on a married guy ever...I wonder why now? I’m going to focus on work. Appreciate all the non judgmental feedback. I’m sure anyone who has actually fallen for a married guy knows how painful it is to move on. FYI-I didn’t ACT on it! Mutual Feelings just happened. I didn’t do anything wrong. Logically I know this is GREAT that he’s rejecting me, so I can move on and not be involved in drama. But there’s still a part of me that wished he would have asked me out beyond our business relationship. He probably has a lot of flaws only his wife has to deal with. I probably wouldn’t have even liked him if I dated him.

I’m just tired of being the fantasy girl...ya know.

My bad. I didn't mean to comment if it's something you just wanted to vent about sans feedback.

My feedback is only based on my limited experiences, a bit of humor, and that is all......I can delete if you prefer and be more mindful if you just want to speak your mind without outside commentary

charlie61
01-27-2021, 07:37 PM
Miss P - I deleted my post since it offended you. The job of a moderator is not to be objective - I'm human and can voice my perspective on here just like the rest of you can. That said, i never want to cause harm.

We all good. Moving on. :)

SnuffleUffleGrass
01-27-2021, 07:43 PM
Confession- gonna sleep naked for a change. Bring on the fleece blankets!

charlie61
01-27-2021, 07:47 PM
Confession- gonna sleep naked for a change. Bring on the fleece blankets!

Yes, girl! I always sleep naked, which was weird at first, but now it's second nature. My partner has always slept naked, so i converted!

LoveyDovey
01-27-2021, 08:15 PM
I'm still thinking about the guy I just broke up with. To give you guys a brief Refresher, we were supposed to make plans to meet up around New Year's and he flaked. He got a new phone, didn't know my number and never bothered to track me down so he left me hanging. I had to reach out to his friend, who then tracked him down and told him that I was asking about him. So then he texted me and said he was sorry and going through a hard time and then I blew up at him telling him that I deserve the utmost respect and that I'm tired of the drama and disappointment. Then I blocked him. Now I'm wondering why he was going through a hard time. I feel like I should have heard him out before flipping my shit. I unblocked him but I don't want to reach out to him. I still feel like he should have gone out of his way, gone to his friends house, and get a hold of me. I want the kind of man who will go out of his way for me. Sucks though. We had good times. We're so alike in so many ways but so different at the same time. I'm not going to reach out to him. But I do want to leave the lines of communication open to see if he gets in touch with me. I do miss him. The one thing I have noticed about him is that even though he screws up, he learns from his mistakes. Maybe I will give him another chance ...I don't know we'll see

indiegirl
01-27-2021, 08:21 PM
Think I'm going on a "substance" binge tonight. Well I'm just in the process as of now. It's been an awful month. I like to do as much as I can to avoid it (meditation and all those things)...but this isn't the night. I need money (bank account keeps lowering) and hate that I'm caving to do so.

Embarrassed to admit this but oh well. I come here to admit the bad days too.

I'm getting exhausted from working.

carmen_b
01-27-2021, 08:34 PM
Lovey : how long together ?

carmen_b
01-27-2021, 08:36 PM
Indie : take care of yourself .
Maybe lightly “ substance “ for a refresh .
Aim to feel GOOD. :)