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indiegirl
03-13-2021, 11:49 PM
I wanna go to Nobu's one time in my life or at least order pickup. I'm looking at their menu online and want to feel pampered one of these days :P!
https://postmates.com/merchant/nobu-los-angeles-west-hollywood
xxxGothBarbie
03-14-2021, 01:43 AM
^ girl I sooooo wanna treat myself to Bossa Nova before leaving town but ugh it's so expensive :( Like $20 for a dam tasty lasagna LOL or $50 for a salad & pasta that is to die for. I might though lol
indiegirl
03-14-2021, 11:09 AM
^ girl I sooooo wanna treat myself to Bossa Nova before leaving town but ugh it's so expensive :( Like $20 for a dam tasty lasagna LOL or $50 for a salad & pasta that is to die for. I might though lol
Sometimes it's worth it to splurge to treat ourselves! When I came home from working hard after living in DC I ordered myself a 50 dollar lobster at some random restaurant. It was worth every penny. Lately I've been window shopping online for food or watching food porn videos on youtube.
This looks amazing! https://youtu.be/pJbC7W2fMvQ?t=215
miss.a.p1600
03-14-2021, 12:56 PM
I’m having a hard time expressing myself, being my true self, and feeling just totally “me” ....... at this current moment
And it’s causing me cognitive dissonance
baer45
03-14-2021, 05:14 PM
I absolutely adore Adele. I am not a fangirl but I like her personality and her infectious laugh. She's a great musician. Love each song that she wrote and sang. She lost some serious weight recently, though I prefer her "old image"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nck6BZga7TQ
Ariana Grande is also a great singer, I listen to her music in the car all the time.
LoveyDovey
03-14-2021, 06:02 PM
I should be out grocery gigging, but my ass is dragging 3 feet behind me today due to my cycle starting and I just don't have the energy.
WendiStarr
03-14-2021, 07:11 PM
^ It seems several of us are all on our periods together lol. The chocolate cake is gone for good today. I ate the last piece. I need to go on a sugar fast after my stupid period leaves. I swear, I have been alternating between nausea and strong cravings for chocolate.
LoveyDovey
03-14-2021, 08:29 PM
^^I freaking love chocolate. And it seems that we are all in synch lol. Wonder if it's because it's the new moon?
I polished off my cornbread today too, so I ate a huge salad for dinner so I won't wake up looking like a bloated baby beluga. I have an acting gig on Thursday and don't wanna look huge on camera.
xxxGothBarbie
03-14-2021, 10:56 PM
I am so close to bailing on this trip until next month sometime & staying put. I can literally just take care of my stuff then. Between crazy bouts of severe weather thru certain states I'd be driving thru & tornado season I just wanna procrastinate longer.
indiegirl
03-14-2021, 11:09 PM
https://youtu.be/igT8XYYhkmo?t=228
This was sooooo me growing up playing hide and seek bahaha
Also at the hotel with the cute hotel worker (I'm clarifying not the hotel I refuse to go back to) I think me and hotel worker have reached a rough patch lol!! He wasn't as happy to see me like in the past when customers were waiting behind me while I was checking in. I had to go downstairs to get funyuns later to get my attention I required. Maybe we've gotta go to therapy together LOL...He was busy with the line of people the 1st time haha. Just joking around with my stupid crush I have on him. haha
moneybags
03-15-2021, 12:55 AM
^^^i always seem to have a crush...lol. It’s usually harmless, but I do get in my feels when my feelings aren’t reciprocated.
Watching a political talk show and I’m just so disgusted with politicians-almost all of them. I just want to post for fucks sake I’m an actual whore and I have more integrity than these politicians! Call me a whore like it’s a bad thing. I’ll tell you who the actual whores are in this country.
I need to go delete that tweet now. Agh!
SnuffleUffleGrass
03-15-2021, 05:37 AM
Gonna be super lazy on my day off. w00t
Aurora_Sunset
03-15-2021, 08:10 AM
I keep waffling back and forth on whether or not I'm going to take a short trip to see my family in the few days right after Easter. My extended family is meeting in one place for Easter and I could join them for the tail-end of it. I haven't seen most of them, including my sister, in almost 2 years since my wedding. Some, I haven't seen in 2 1/2 years, since my sister's wedding. And my grandma is getting into her mid-90s, so I should really go.
Initially, I thought no, because I would rather use my stimulus money to pay my parents back what I owe them than to take the trip and keep trying to scrimp and save to pay them back. Then, I thought yes, because I could pay them back half from the stimulus, half from my tax return. Now, my tax return is much smaller than I expected, so I was back to thinking no yesterday. But after thinking some more and crunching more numbers, I could definitely do it...
It shouldn't be this hard to decide between extra financial safety and seeing your family... I used to visit my parents like 6 times a year.
I wish my stimulus and tax return would just hit my bank account so I could SEE and HAVE the money, and just book the damn ticket so I can't overthink it anymore.
indiegirl
03-15-2021, 09:56 AM
Gonna be super lazy on my day off. w00t
Love being lazy when taking a break! Some people ask "so what did you do?" as if I was up and going on skiing adventures or something interesting... I say, "absolutely nothing!"
whirlerz
03-15-2021, 10:19 AM
^^^i always seem to have a crush...lol. It’s usually harmless, but I do get in my feels when my feelings aren’t reciprocated.
Watching a political talk show and I’m just so disgusted with politicians-almost all of them. I just want to post for fucks sake I’m an actual whore and I have more integrity than these politicians! Call me a whore like it’s a bad thing. I’ll tell you who the actual whores are in this country.
I need to go delete that tweet now. Agh!
Quote from the great movie Chinatown, "politicians, old buildings, & whores all get respectable if they're around long enough"!
whirlerz
03-15-2021, 10:23 AM
I interviewed for a Telemarketing job...I know, but its close, pays enough (mostly) & 24 hrs week?
It wouldn't start for a week, I need something NOW besides cam. :(
indiegirl
03-15-2021, 10:34 AM
I napped the crap out after my last appointment and missed 4 morning requests. 1 is seeing if he can move his work meeting around before I go home to feed the dogs real quick & return
My hotel crush greeted me this morning and I had no makeup on while I extended my stay. It's meant to be, guys. I should go on the show married at first sight. We need a (pre-nup edition of that show) lolll
Elektra Luxx
03-15-2021, 02:11 PM
Bf snapped at me this morning. I don't know what his problem was and TBH I don't care. He hurt my feelings and pissed me off. I immediately shutdown, gave him the silent treatment and went to the bedroom. In less than 15 minutes, he caved and apologized. I say "fine" and I'm still continuing the silent treatment.
When ever we get into fight, I immediately want to break up with him and I start thinking how I'm going to hurt him by fucking someone he knows. I use sex as a weapon...that weird. Is that weird?
carmen_b
03-15-2021, 02:34 PM
^ I'd say acting on it is weird but the thought is just a quick instinct.
I think it's just human to have those thoughts occur. Maybe I'm just justifying my own dark thoughts!
indiegirl
03-15-2021, 07:02 PM
Bf snapped at me this morning. I don't know what his problem was and TBH I don't care. He hurt my feelings and pissed me off. I immediately shutdown, gave him the silent treatment and went to the bedroom. In less than 15 minutes, he caved and apologized. I say "fine" and I'm still continuing the silent treatment.
When ever we get into fight, I immediately want to break up with him and I start thinking how I'm going to hurt him by fucking someone he knows. I use sex as a weapon...that weird. Is that weird?
Anytime a man hears a woman say "it's fine" .....they should know it means it's not fine.
indiegirl
03-15-2021, 07:10 PM
I am heading back to make more money lol. I'm in money mode for an appointment at 9pm. I confess I accidentally got really high on edibles this morning and tried to drink coffee to stop it which only made it worse for some reason. It was awful trying to have a conversation like that. I just tried to pretend I was calm and didn't speak much to that client or else I would've looked like a psycho giggling for no reason haha.
miss.a.p1600
03-16-2021, 06:23 AM
I am this close to creating an onlyfans. Idk if I’ve missed the wave of profitability though.......
I feel like I need a change in side hustles cause my current one while I’m grateful for the opportunity I really want to do all my work from home and do something where I feel more feminine n in control
WendiStarr
03-16-2021, 07:46 AM
BD's nephew has been staying here in the basement for 5 days now, just until he leaves to the other side of the country for training. I haven't had sex in a while and I'm lonely for adult companionship and attention lately so I think that's making me feel ridiculous. I fantasized about going downstairs to the basement in a skirt, no panties and bending over. I've got my period and not into guys under age 45 or the drama and issues being slutty like that in real life would start anyways. I just feel old and undesirable lately.
indiegirl
03-16-2021, 08:57 AM
Bahaha when I took my shower this morning in the hotel they had my previous favorite tea tree shampoo which tingles when you wash your hair. I was so excited to use it and then it accidentally dropped into my eye when I poured it and the tingle was not so fun. I kept thinking "shit I'm gonna go blind over this."
I've told 6 people I'm all booked this morning because I'm tired AF and want to go home. I'm not working until the 18th. I'm tired. Not sure how I'm gonna pull this appointment off right now. I know it's time for a break when I'm napping all the time. I even tried cancelling this appointment but it's always the older guys who show up and don't even check their phone until they're parked. I asked to cancel an hour ago and look what's happened. I'm late on this cancellation... I'm tired.
Genoveve
03-16-2021, 11:50 AM
^^^I accidentally got pure tea tree oil in my eye once. Was definitely not pleasant.
lurkingtitties
03-16-2021, 12:54 PM
Cum in the eyes is also really unpleasant!!! Happened to me by accident once.
kimbe
03-16-2021, 01:12 PM
^^ Once - then I'd say you've been lucky..
lurkingtitties
03-16-2021, 03:26 PM
^^LOL!
Another time me and an old bf went out for pho...afterwards we started fooling around and I guess he still had residue from the jalapenos on his hands because my coochie stated to burn! I've hurt my eyes a bunch of times too by taking out contacts not realizing I still had jalapeno essence on my fingers. It really lingers even when you've washed up with soap!
charlie61
03-16-2021, 03:45 PM
^^LOL!
Another time me and an old bf went out for pho...afterwards we started fooling around and I guess he still had residue from the jalapenos on his hands because my coochie stated to burn! I've hurt my eyes a bunch of times too by taking out contacts not realizing I still had jalapeno essence on my fingers. It really lingers even when you've washed up with soap!
Yes, same. I have super high spice tolerance when I'm eating (i grind ghost chilis onto everything), but jalapeño oil in the eyes is no joke. It doesn't even come off when i double cleanse my hands with oil / soap after handling them.
charlie61
03-16-2021, 03:51 PM
I am this close to creating an onlyfans. Idk if I’ve missed the wave of profitability though.......
I feel like I need a change in side hustles cause my current one while I’m grateful for the opportunity I really want to do all my work from home and do something where I feel more feminine n in control
I started on OF with a monthly rate of $20, no previous followers to carry over from other platforms (like camming or Twitter), only have five posts, and haven't gotten a single subscriber. I also don't have any nudity in my banner or profile pic. I stopped creating posts and haven't uploaded in a while because i got discouraged by the lack of instant success, lol! So I'd say that if you do things differently on any of those variables, you could get somewhere with it. I think you do need to be involved with it to make money - you can't ask a lot of money, post very little, not promote at all, and not have any carryover subscribers from other platforms, and just hope that someone will find your profile. I'm so lazy, haha.
miss.a.p1600
03-16-2021, 05:54 PM
^interesting. I wonder if it would be worth it to pay someone to promote it if one doesn’t have a followers to carryover or perhaps just start with another platform n wait to gain some followers/traction first.
xxxGothBarbie
03-16-2021, 07:53 PM
^ Seems like alot of work for peanuts IMO sadly.
charlie61
03-16-2021, 08:45 PM
^interesting. I wonder if it would be worth it to pay someone to promote it if one doesn’t have a followers to carryover or perhaps just start with another platform n wait to gain some followers/traction first.
Yeah, i think if you're committed to building your content over time, then that seed would probably flower - some ladies do very well with OF on here, while others mostly use it as a side hustle and funnel their camming customers, reddit users, etc. to their page. But I'd say that if you're building up from nothing, don't cam, don't have any content ready to go, aren't posting nudes openly and / or building a free page that funnels into your paid page, and are looking for a lazy side hustle that immediately pays something, OF hasn't been that for me. Like i said, though, i was hoping for instant gratification with little effort, haha. I think stripping ruined my work ethic when it comes to sex work, tbh. Stripping was physically and emotionally exhausting, but it paid immediately and in large, un-taxed sums.
charlie61
03-16-2021, 08:57 PM
I'd say that if you're already doing a good amount of camming or photo work, then you may as well shove a bunch of screen captures and content onto OF to start growing that platform, since it wouldn't require much extra work on your part. And some people use OF very casually, like just taking hot amateur phone pics and posting those. But starting from scratch on both content and customers won't be instantly gratifying in 2021.
Anyway, sorry for the threadjack!
WendiStarr
03-17-2021, 09:14 AM
Ugh, I had a cringe moment at 3am. I got up at that time to pee. I didn't have my glasses on because I figured I wouldn't need them just to walk across the hall. I had just finished peeing when the bathroom door opened. I hurried up and stood up and there was BD's nephew. He got a full frontal view from the waist down. He didn't bother to knock which could've avoided this awkwardness. At the same time I usually keep the bathroom door closed at all times because baby likes to play in the toilet. He has been avoiding me all day since and when I had to be around him, he can't even look at me. Embarrassing.
indiegirl
03-17-2021, 10:10 AM
I hate when random situations remind me of stupid things I've done in the past. Something reminded today of the time when I was a kid at a piano recital for children and they had this lottery to win a stuffed animal. Instead of letting luck make me win the prize, I entered my name so many times lol. When they called my name I was so embarrassed I didn't want to get up and receive that stuffed animal anymore feeling guilty. LOL.
indiegirl
03-17-2021, 07:59 PM
I honestly forgot how nice LA hotels are compared to OC. I have 600 and a 400 lined up...hoping for a few more before leaving in the morning for court. I can't show up looking like hell to court... I'd like to make 2500 while I'm here from this night until 6am...Honestly I feel like an idiot for thinking I wore out the LA area. It's very busy....Man. I'm mad at me for just squatting in the past and whining still. I have a few other potential customers ready and one other 600 but I want to see how the night goes in terms of waking up in time for court.
indiegirl
03-18-2021, 09:55 AM
Just reading some mens nonstop texts watching them talk at me w/out a response from me shows me how unstable they are. Oh and he was asking me AGAIN if I was LE and letting me know he wasn't.....Hunny, your choice to do hard "party favors" is not my problem. It's 10am...are you taking a break from skid row to see me with that crap on you? YUCK. I tried to cancel and he got desperate with his texts again. I don't want your stupid substances in MY hotel room. Trying to find a new guy before checkout lol.
I also don't have to go to court anymore! I'm a free bird after my final time today!
Secretly l love it when I get complimented by men drivers. Just got it this morning again "I'm so sorry, I don't mean to be rude but you are very pretty." Tell me more compliments sir lol!
Update: I found a new appointment.. Woot I'm loving how busy I can be now!!
carmen_b
03-18-2021, 03:08 PM
At the ski lodge last night J and I got hit on by a man as a couple lol.
lynn2009
03-18-2021, 04:04 PM
I've been snacking on plain dumpling wrappers because they are doughy and delicious but now I feel bloated as f ughh.
Aurora_Sunset
03-18-2021, 05:05 PM
I have been crashing in front of the TV right after work and eating tons of fat food and snacks the past couple days.
indiegirl
03-19-2021, 04:44 AM
https://youtu.be/U07VKXydCUw?t=869
I have a veryyyy soft spot for guys like Travis Barker. He's still hot.
SnuffleUffleGrass
03-19-2021, 02:23 PM
At the ski lodge last night J and I got hit on by a man as a couple lol.
Can you elaborate?
& Right now I'm embarrassed to admit to this, but I might butter up to my hated sister just to get some family photos and random items left at my mom's house in California. (There's no way of knowing what is left there, my mom is a hoarder among other issues so a trunkful of things belonging to me and my brother might be obliterated now.)
All my life I've been good about avoiding people I hate, but there's no other way to get these items. & They're one of kind. I don't have any of my own baby photos. I'd LOVE a photo of my uncle & aunt's wedding but I'd have to get them copied myself.
Young people now don't understand this kind of issue (age of social media and digital images) but yeah. I have to bend over backwards for such a small thing...getting copies of photos.
indiegirl
03-20-2021, 02:45 AM
My grandma died yesterday and mom texted me about it...I could tell this was a relief for my mom. I hated being left with that grandma (dads grandma was my favorite). But nobody in the family even cared she died because she was such an angry/ bitter bitch even to her kids.
I officially have no grandparents alive. Such a weird feeling :/....it feels like "could you imagine everyone disliked you, even your kids, grandchildren, and your death was a relief on them?"
xxxGothBarbie
03-20-2021, 04:38 AM
This morning I dreamnt a realistic dream about an ex from 10 years ago that I was super into. We were about to have sex & were cuddling in victorias secret after hours LOL
I haven't talked to him in a long time. He was one of the ones that drove me nuts sadly bc I was so into him. He was a jerk though *sigh*
SnuffleUffleGrass
03-20-2021, 06:10 AM
I officially have no grandparents alive. Such a weird feeling :/....it feels like "could you imagine everyone disliked you, even your kids, grandchildren, and your death was a relief on them?"
I've discovered that hateful people end up surrounded by hangers-on at the end of their lives. Beloved people are surrounded by friends, unloveable ones are often lonely and only able to get the basics afforded to them as they decline. Another reason to live with love and purpose.
I don't think it's weird to point out a grandparent was unlikeable. Polite society is squeamish about being hard on senior citizens, but hell, the family always knows the truth!
lurkingtitties
03-20-2021, 07:08 AM
I've discovered that hateful people end up surrounded by hangers-on at the end of their lives. Beloved people are surrounded by friends, unloveable ones are often lonely and only able to get the basics afforded to them as they decline. Another reason to live with love and purpose.
I don't think it's weird to point out a grandparent was unlikeable. Polite society is squeamish about being hard on senior citizens, but hell, the family always knows the truth!
I'll be relieved for sure when my parents are gone, especially my dad. I don't talk about it much but I have told my brothers I want us to have an epic party when it happens.
Genoveve
03-20-2021, 10:19 AM
I don't think it's weird to point out a grandparent was unlikeable.
Me either, my last grandparent--my grandma--died like 15 years ago and I honestly didn't really care. I liked her when I was a kid, but once I started getting older I just didn't really feel anything for her, and she was never anything other than nice to me and I even lived with her at one point. I think because my dad was adopted and she wasn't blood something was just missing. Something I hear people who were adopted that didn't find out until later in life say a lot is that they always felt like something with their (adopted)family was missing or off, and I think that's their tactful way of saying that a bond just wasn't there.
My mom's 'dad' died when she was very little, she has only like 2 memories of him and says she's never felt any sort of attachment or sentimentality in regards to him. She found out like 50 years later that that wasn't actually her real father.
LoveyDovey
03-20-2021, 12:31 PM
I was relieved when my parents died, especially my father. I blew off the funeral. He disowned me for calling him out on his crap, so yeah I didn't see any reason to go, and I am sure there was a lot of gossip about it. Who cares. Even my kid didn't give a shit, BC he had no connection with his grandfather due to the fact that I wouldn't allow for it. (My father was a child rapist.)
charlie61
03-20-2021, 01:34 PM
Going through a bumpy period in my meditation practice. I just feel unbelievably distracted.