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charlie61
04-15-2021, 02:04 PM
I do think some folks are in denial and / or may be trying to fit into the straight paradigm. I know that's what I'm doing. I genuinely love my partner, but I'm also asexual, and he's straight. So I'm not able to truly give him the normal, straight experience, though i can do my best to simulate it. He's aware of my orientation, of course, which makes things a bit different, but part of me wishes he didn't know. It's a very complicated topic, and every situation is different, for sure. ♡
miss.a.p1600
04-15-2021, 07:47 PM
Well we live in a narcissistic society. Not all narcissism is bad. Healthy narcissism allows you to block out negativity and to love yourself in spite of all your flaws
I’m full of motivational qoutes, “the key to success is to go From failure to failure without losing enthusiasm. You have to keep putting your stuff out there. It’s one of those things you make a side hustle. But when you do sex work, it’s like nah nevermind I’ll just do SW full time. I’m a PT but it’s not worth my time to train people.
yes we do.
im convinced it takes a small level of narcissism or shall I say narcissistic traits to make the climb to the top of the social/success ladder
Genoveve
04-16-2021, 01:20 PM
I hate when you get a notification that your package has shipped, but then when you click on it, the package just sits at a status of "ready for UPS / USPS" for multiple business days, like... it hasn't actually shipped! Argh! :)
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indiegirl
04-16-2021, 01:29 PM
This fucking hotel has used the lack of heat excuse for WEEKS. Sounds like me with getting my roots dyed. SO fucking cold just walking on the floor. I had to open the hotel balcony for normal air. It's freezing. I may relocate. They did the same with hot water. It's so fucking cold and may be fucking in a sweater. May be asking for a refund.
charlie61
04-16-2021, 01:41 PM
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For real!! It definitely just got printed, not shipped. Package started moving like five business days after they said it shipped.
indiegirl
04-16-2021, 04:46 PM
This fucking hotel has used the lack of heat excuse for WEEKS. Sounds like me with getting my roots dyed. SO fucking cold just walking on the floor. I had to open the hotel balcony for normal air. It's freezing. I may relocate. They did the same with hot water. It's so fucking cold and may be fucking in a sweater. May be asking for a refund.
Hotel sent me their broken ass portable heater and it's warmer outside than in the room. The front desk lady: Ohh! It is cold in here.
Girl I used to live on the east coast for a while. This is a joke. I booked a new hotel and I'm leaving.
indiegirl
04-17-2021, 06:31 PM
https://youtu.be/onXNnlCYJ4Y?t=9
Omg this poor kid! I have no idea what happened with this peloton treadmill. Seems like it's different than a standard treadmill.
moneybags
04-17-2021, 07:41 PM
https://youtu.be/onXNnlCYJ4Y?t=9
Omg this poor kid! I have no idea what happened with this peloton treadmill. Seems like it's different than a standard treadmill.
They are. Yeah I’m never buying from peloton. They refuse to voluntarily recall their product. They brand themselves as progressive. Fuck you Peloton. When push comes to shove these corporations are all the same.
indiegirl
04-17-2021, 08:12 PM
So irritated. I’m spending 57 dollars on a god damn Uber for a 15 minute ride. They have limited drivers. Part of me wanted to take my car but I’m not risking another $10,000 dui for it ever again. I’m just irritated. It’s usually a 16 dollar ride to this hotel.
Aurora_Sunset
04-18-2021, 10:06 AM
I feel like a an old fuddy-duddy saying this, but I'm starting to hate the impact social media is having on my stepkids' generation. They spend all day watching youtube videos with kids their age living extravagant lifestyles, and they just don't get that not everyone lives that way. They wonder why THAT little girl has a new Barbie dreamhouse to "unbox" every week and we don't have that. Or why do those kids get to go through the store with their dad and point out hundreds/thousands of dollars worth of stuff to buy and we don't?
We as adults already live with the impact of seeing people's "perfect lives" on social media and feeling the envy even when we're old enough to "know better," but they literally don't "know better" as to why what they see all day on social media isn't the "norm." They live incredibly privileged lives as it is, but they can't even see it that way because of the opulence of the 1% on social media.
miss.a.p1600
04-18-2021, 10:40 AM
^not just this generation. I was like that as a kid.
Sometimes though I think it creates a drive to go out and do your best to get what you want.
It wasn’t until recently I realized how important gratitude is (especially for the current blessings).
I can’t remember how old you said the step kids are but there is this Children’s book, the Berenstein Bears and there’s one book I think it’s called The Gimme’s - where the little bear is sitting there watching Home Shopping Network lol and keeps asking his parents for everything he sees on TV and they have to explain to him it’s just stuff he’s probably not going to play with anyways, he has plenty of toys already, etc. But it’s a good little lesson for kids that age.
A detox from social media every so often wouldn’t hurt.
indiegirl
04-18-2021, 11:09 AM
I feel like a an old fuddy-duddy saying this, but I'm starting to hate the impact social media is having on my stepkids' generation. They spend all day watching youtube videos with kids their age living extravagant lifestyles, and they just don't get that not everyone lives that way. They wonder why THAT little girl has a new Barbie dreamhouse to "unbox" every week and we don't have that. Or why do those kids get to go through the store with their dad and point out hundreds/thousands of dollars worth of stuff to buy and we don't?
We as adults already live with the impact of seeing people's "perfect lives" on social media and feeling the envy even when we're old enough to "know better," but they literally don't "know better" as to why what they see all day on social media isn't the "norm." They live incredibly privileged lives as it is, but they can't even see it that way because of the opulence of the 1% on social media.
Totally relate to that feeling. It was thrown in my face everyday growing up being the poor family at the private school compared to others there. I was embarrassed to be picked up in my moms green van at the time while kids were boarding their parents escalades and mercedes. I'd be invited to halloween or random parties and it was shocking entering such a nice house. One person had a football field in their yard or something of the sort.
indiegirl
04-18-2021, 12:52 PM
OH MY FUCKING GOD. My face legit turned red when reading this message. Someone said he'd like to see me but I'm staying at the hotel he works at. I think he's the front desk guy. Fuck. I hate being recognizable.
chanzep
04-18-2021, 01:00 PM
'll men are annoying me lately, friends, family even co workers ! What is wrong with them.
Aurora_Sunset
04-18-2021, 01:08 PM
^not just this generation. I was like that as a kid.
Sometimes though I think it creates a drive to go out and do your best to get what you want.
It wasn’t until recently I realized how important gratitude is (especially for the current blessings).
I can’t remember how old you said the step kids are but there is this Children’s book, the Berenstein Bears and there’s one book I think it’s called The Gimme’s - where the little bear is sitting there watching Home Shopping Network lol and keeps asking his parents for everything he sees on TV and they have to explain to him it’s just stuff he’s probably not going to play with anyways, he has plenty of toys already, etc. But it’s a good little lesson for kids that age.
A detox from social media every so often wouldn’t hurt.
I literally think of that Berenstein Bears book every time they get like that! LOL! I keep thinking I need to track it down and read it to them for a life lesson.
I think the main difference between our gen and theirs is that yeah, all kids want the things they see advertised, but this new age of social media isn't just "here's an ad to buy this awesome thing," it's "look at me, I'm a kid your age doing this amazing thing with my life and I have all this stuff." Of course, it's their parents who mostly hustle their asses off, but the kids just see other "normal" kids living these extravagant lives. Social media has really upped the ante where we don't just see things we want - we see other people having the things we want.
I agree that it can have a "hustle harder" effect on some people - I try to follow people like that who inspire me to work for a life of abundance like theirs. It's just frustrating not being able to explain to little kids that all the "stuff" comes from years of working your butt off - it doesn't just materialize one day because you say you want it. They're seeing us in the "hustle" phase of life right now, and aren't connecting that it can pay off "some day," but today is not the day that we can just turn around and buy them everything under the sun. I would feel more confident that they would grow up to realize the value of hard work and prioritizing the things you want if we weren't competing against their mom and grandparents who perpetuate the spoiling because they already live very comfortable lifestyles. I just don't want them to grow up to be snobby brats into adulthood. We all know people like that - the ones who refuse to get a job until well into their 20s when they're forced to, still going running to their parents for everything, and look down on everyone who doesn't carry "designer" shit and stuff like that. Ugh, I ain't helping raise a bunch of Karens lol
indiegirl
04-18-2021, 01:57 PM
'll men are annoying me lately, friends, family even co workers ! What is wrong with them.
Yep. I think for me it is standing in awe I wouldn't treat them the same way. There's nice guys out there but man....they're taken.
Aurora_Sunset
04-18-2021, 05:02 PM
When I was younger, I pre-judged Legally Blonde so hard that I never paid close enough attention to see what it was really about. As I get older, I love it more and more.
moneybags
04-18-2021, 07:58 PM
^^^damn I may have to rewatch that.
I miss the club. I’m scared to go back even after getting vaccinated. Maybe this fall I’ll go back. I just miss dancing!
indiegirl
04-18-2021, 08:05 PM
I've been wanting to go to a waterpark lately. I miss that level of fun.
xxxGothBarbie
04-18-2021, 08:16 PM
I've been skipping work so much lately even texting sites bc I'm too damn lazy thanks to pms & bleeding ugh. I wish I had the drive to actually work like I did in my 20s :( All I've wanted to do is lay around this hotel & watch movies which are comforting & eat food. I mean I'm not a lazy person usually. I dunno wtf is wrong with me.
WendiStarr
04-18-2021, 09:07 PM
I hate when my house makes creepy noises at night when I'm the only one awake. I seriously have both the bedroom light and bathroom light on because I'm scared of the dark tonight.
indiegirl
04-18-2021, 09:57 PM
I hate when my house makes creepy noises at night when I'm the only one awake. I seriously have both the bedroom light and bathroom light on because I'm scared of the dark tonight.
I sleep with my bedroom door locked lol. I've watched too many 911 burglary videos on youtube and feel at ease knowing I have saved myself some time to jump out my window to my car with the dogs if some crazy walks in. I remember when I was hearing creaking wooden floor steps the first time I moved into my house. I was thinking "this is it. I'm about to die." It was my dog after he was done basking in the moonlight outside for 2 hours LOL.
moneybags
04-19-2021, 06:57 AM
^^^ I was followed home from the club and my place got broken into. Lucky for my gut intuition one of the girls let me stay at her place that night. I still sleep with the lights on sometimes.
JGB2009
04-19-2021, 08:59 AM
I hate when my house makes creepy noises at night when I'm the only one awake. I seriously have both the bedroom light and bathroom light on because I'm scared of the dark tonight.
I always sleep with my lights on and I feel safer when my cat is with me.
indiegirl
04-19-2021, 09:18 AM
Man sometimes the more I hear about demi lovato and her issues, the more I get sick of it online. I totally get she has food issues but she has a platform and to call a business out trying to create controversy because she's triggered over their no sugar desserts is ridiculous. She runs the "all about me" show on a whole new level. I liked the fact she shut up after they said they have these snacks for those who are diabetics, celiac disease, etc. Like girl, I have had food problems I manage and I'm not upset that the world doesn't cater to me like I'm the only one existing. She even said she has depression on a level nobody would understand in her documentary. Many people have something that is depressing in our lives... don't act like you're the only one! Sorry for the rant, it's been bugging me every time I see her face online lately lol. This woman said it perfectly how I feel about Demi lol: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ePOv6ZBvxY0
moneybags
04-19-2021, 07:19 PM
^^^ people’s victim mentality really irks me. I grew up with with alcoholic, mentally ill parents, I’ve experienced poverty, gang violence, and I’m a sex worker. Like I understand what it’s like to be victim, but I don’t have victim mentality. At some point, you grow up and learn how to live life on life’s terms.
ravenskyy
04-19-2021, 10:41 PM
I'm considering leaving my husband. He doesn't take me seriously when I say that I'm done with this miserable relationship. I finally spoke to someone and got some antidepressants. I'm looking into therapy as well. He won't do it. I've practically begged him to and nothing. I'm so tired. I'm so tired of being tired. I'm so done with it all.
I'm going to leave for a week with my baby. Stay in a hotel somewhere nice and just exist for a while, just the two of us. Maybe a week without me will fix his attitude. I hate how much I love him. I hate that someone who has watched me give birth twice, can't be bothered to fight for me and our relationship. I would give that man everything if I could and all I ask is that he talk to me, listen to me and love me enough to treat me the same way that I treat him.
Apparently, I'm asking for too much...
indiegirl
04-19-2021, 11:36 PM
I'm considering leaving my husband. He doesn't take me seriously when I say that I'm done with this miserable relationship. I finally spoke to someone and got some antidepressants. I'm looking into therapy as well. He won't do it. I've practically begged him to and nothing. I'm so tired. I'm so tired of being tired. I'm so done with it all.
I'm going to leave for a week with my baby. Stay in a hotel somewhere nice and just exist for a while, just the two of us. Maybe a week without me will fix his attitude. I hate how much I love him. I hate that someone who has watched me give birth twice, can't be bothered to fight for me and our relationship. I would give that man everything if I could and all I ask is that he talk to me, listen to me and love me enough to treat me the same way that I treat him.
Apparently, I'm asking for too much...
That's the biggest sign....when the man doesn't want to put in the effort nor bother about fixing it. *Hugs* My mom ended up attending couples therapy alone when my dad stopped showing up for therapy for their broken relationship.
Good for you to take action....make him earn your companionship and family back. I don't think a week is it. He needs to do his side of the work and prove he deserves you back.
carmen_b
04-20-2021, 08:25 AM
Raven :
I do know women who experienced changes when they were away from partner a bit.
I’m doing the same ( 4th day may turn to 5-6 ).
I’m not sure why men don’t take asking for help seriously until the woman is in motion to leave.
My brother has done that too to former partner . It seems like every woman I know has a similar story at some point.
I need focused therapy with my partner too ( he resisted it last week and I've been mad since ).
indiegirl
04-20-2021, 08:36 AM
Ugh I post too much on here! I need to calm it down.
lol I laughed inside reading a review from a newbie customer on the girl I gave a quick reference thumbs up to. He said he was having such a hard time getting ladies to respond back and they didn't want his money. He clearly didn't get that our safety comes first and he was refusing giving any of his information to all these women. But I did a background check on him without his knowledge and thankfully found enough info to clear him. Now he's able to have appointments. lol. He has no idea she checked with me.
Elektra Luxx
04-20-2021, 02:22 PM
I may have accidentally used bf's toothbrush and he made it clear it bothers him. We have a really good sonic toothbrush with separate toothbrush heads. He uses gray and I use red. In the morning before I've had my coffee, sometimes I forget which one is mine. To me it doesn't matter because his germs are his germs and I love everything about him even his germs. Do I complain when I kiss him knowing that he insisted in having his tongue in my ass until I almost came the night before? No I do not. I believe there's a bit of a double standard here.
lynn2009
04-21-2021, 12:16 PM
It's supposed to have been thunderstorming all day and it hasn't yet. I feel bad but I kind of like it when it storms because my dog gets scared and cuddles up to me sooo tight because mommy is his safe space.
indiegirl
04-22-2021, 03:53 AM
I confess that I'm taking a break from watching the news. I can't do it anymore for now so if there is a zombie apocalypse at any point feel free to post about it on here so I get a heads up. lol
JGB2009
04-22-2021, 07:12 AM
^^^ I never really watch the news because it plays with my anxiety.
WendiStarr
04-22-2021, 10:01 AM
I keep seeing advertisements for Mother's day stuff and it's annoying. My mom is toxic. I alternate between wanting to send her a gift basket in the mail to be nice or just saying,"Fuck it!" and not sending anything at all. She'd probably complain about it either way.
baer45
04-22-2021, 12:50 PM
I shall visit this site more often.
SnuffleUffleGrass
04-22-2021, 01:35 PM
I shall visit this site more often.
Yes, definitely do.
I confess I bought donuts today and I don't regret it, even though I am supposed to be losing weight.
carmen_b
04-22-2021, 03:22 PM
^ I ate chips in the car and threw the bag away before J could see it hahahaha.
Then I brought my healthy groceries in like nothing had happened.
miss.a.p1600
04-22-2021, 03:38 PM
When you spend hours prepping for a dick appointment
.....only there is no dick to be obtained that day
Genoveve
04-22-2021, 05:23 PM
I keep seeing advertisements for Mother's day stuff and it's annoying. My mom is toxic. I alternate between wanting to send her a gift basket in the mail to be nice or just saying,"Fuck it!" and not sending anything at all. She'd probably complain about it either way.
I wouldn't send her anything. If you being her daughter doesn't inspire her to treat you properly then you don't owe it back just because you're her daughter.
I confess I bought donuts today and I don't regret it, even though I am supposed to be losing weight.
I keep making donuts at home, I should have known that learning how to make my favorite food would be dangerous. But they are too good:
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What's funny is that I've lost weight, so maybe I should actually be recommending the donut diet.
indiegirl
04-22-2021, 08:27 PM
I'm going to try to start working less starting next week and try to see more people on those days.. I miss having fun, getting things done, and going to the dog park. Being in a hotel isn't much fun 7 days a week and coming home to nap. It's been slowing down money-wise for me these past 3 days too so I guess I'll see what works best.
Some man asked me if I was okay since he hasn't seen my ad in LA for a while. Those lyft and uber prices are hell for that area right now. I've been sticking to OC.
Kinda laughing that I screwed up my 2nd essential oil diffuser. I can't even open the lid because the essential oil I poured in is so sticky that the top won't come off. I actually might cave and get the incense machine thing.
chanzep
04-22-2021, 08:41 PM
I have another new job and I already hate it. After dancing so long I'm used to jumping ship if I don't like something.
indiegirl
04-22-2021, 08:48 PM
I have another new job and I already hate it. After dancing so long I'm used to jumping ship if I don't like something.
It's a bad feeling for sure! How I felt working at my dads for 2 months and counting down the clock until I could leave or refusing to look at the clock so more time would pass LOL.
JGB2009
04-23-2021, 04:50 AM
I ate junk food for breakfast.
moneybags
04-23-2021, 12:44 PM
Now i want a donut!
Ugh. My old married crush found me on SM. I told him (big mistake thinking he’s a doctor he’d be professional). I was really head for heels over him. I don’t appreciate him ripping the scab off. I know he’s harmless and he’s not going to out me (he’d be outing himself). I know he just bored and he’s lonely. I’ll treat him like a customer. If he wants my time and attention he’s gonna have to pay like everyone else. I’m not gonna let my feelings for him get in the way of business.
If he wanted to date me, then he could have sent flowers to me or texted me (he has my info.) Instead he came to my room. Probably easier and less scary than asking me out, but once you come into my room I see you as a walking wallet. it’s too little too late. I’ll drain his wallet, but that’s it. I’m not letting him jerk my feelings around again.
whirlerz
04-23-2021, 01:13 PM
I have another new job and I already hate it. After dancing so long I'm used to jumping ship if I don't like something.
U should look into that wah Wendi posted, (WAH support thread here)
I haven't started it yet (next Thursday) but it pays well, has benefits after 30 days.
miss.a.p1600
04-23-2021, 02:29 PM
Trying to be responsible n pay all my bills first before indulging in pleasurable items
moneybags
04-23-2021, 02:38 PM
Trying to be responsible n pay all my bills first before indulging in pleasurable items
I know!!!! It’s so hard!
indiegirl
04-23-2021, 04:47 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fUa3pwpNZ6I
I remember Dominique Moceanu as a kid. Geez she was so good. Then I remember going to gymnastic class for dance team gymnastic moves and seeing these girls do all these flips and feeling like a terrified giraffe. Like Shaq would break a leg if he messed up compared to how short these girls are.
This probably belongs in the random thread haha.
moneybags
04-23-2021, 05:50 PM
https://youtu.be/TNYGLMQxZ64
Dancing to this song is my bedroom. I dunno why but all of a sudden I’ve been listening to some old school music....lol. I was listening to Lil Bow Wow and Pretty Ricky too.
Can’t wait to be able to go back to the club to work. I NEED to dance!