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indiegirl
05-01-2021, 01:27 AM
Yeah, i believe the bottom of the screen has a hand-raise button.
I hear you on the frustration. I tried to get into an MSW program - i was told that i needed a year of internship experience to be competitive, a great undergrad GPA, plus glowing letters of recommendation. So i took a year to work hard and prepare to apply, went through the tedious application process, and then found out that i didn't get in. It turns out that there were only 15 spots open, and the average experience level of co-applicants was something like seven years of social-work experience. Like, i was competing to pay $30k for an MSW program, but my fellow competitors had already been working as social workers for 7+ years. Just unreal how competitive it can be to get into school. So i lowkey wasted a year of my life trying to get into something that was pretty much never going to happen.
It's the worst feeling wasting time. Competing for a spot for a class is the most absurd concept. It really should be about if you have the funds, let them in. I've had customers talk about investing in certain stocks/ cryptocurrency and showing me how to do it which I'm really considering and also looking into amazon sales as well while I figure out what's going to happen with nursing.
Sometimes I get so discouraged with finding a job and them expecting me to be Jesus reincarnated in order to get the job. I'm an imperfect person and it feels like everyone else has their life together making it difficult for me to look like a great pick on paper in comparison.
Youtube motivational videos have been helpful to watch lately to pick me back up from reaching self defeat and being too upset lol https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OPtfVBi5aSE. ...I loved the quotes "you will fail your way to success" and "find a way to win"
moneybags
05-01-2021, 01:39 AM
@Charlie-I would love to be a sex worker therapist. But it’s ridiculous to go to school for. Yeah and for 30K starting salary no way!
@indie-PM me for details, but Cali is ridiculously hard to get into. My massage therapist was telling me he had a client come here to BFE for nursing school from Cali. Even though I can’t stand the conservative culture here, that’s why I’m staying because I’m on the waitlist. It’s only a matter of time. Look in Oregon community colleges. You will mostly likely need to move. Also, private schools. I got my AS at a community college and I could go to a 3 year BSN program. Community college should be free soon with Joe Biden’s new plan. I mean it’s just ridiculous. In some ways, living here is my personal hell, but in a way is a blessing. No one wants to move here I.E less competitive.
Most people in Cali are highly educated, so it’s more competitive do to that fact. I would suggest getting prerequisites and moving for nursing school. That’s what a lot of people do. I know people who have highe GPA teas and still had to move, so don’t take it as a personal failing. Cali is just super competitive.
Another school private school I've heard of is Chamberlin.
miss.a.p1600
05-01-2021, 07:14 AM
It's the worst feeling wasting time. Competing for a spot for a class is the most absurd concept. It really should be about if you have the funds, let them in. I've had customers talk about investing in certain stocks/ cryptocurrency and showing me how to do it which I'm really considering and also looking into amazon sales as well while I figure out what's going to happen with nursing.
Sometimes I get so discouraged with finding a job and them expecting me to be Jesus reincarnated in order to get the job. I'm an imperfect person and it feels like everyone else has their life together making it difficult for me to look like a great pick on paper in comparison.
Youtube motivational videos have been helpful to watch lately to pick me back up from reaching self defeat and being too upset lol https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OPtfVBi5aSE. ...I loved the quotes "you will fail your way to success" and "find a way to win"
that’s the thing I loathed about vanilla jobs.
ridiculously competitive, bossed around by some egotistical manager, and often times piddly entry level pay where you’d have to do Oscar worthy acting in order to get 2% annual raise or soul-crushing bootlicking to get promotions.
gag me!
lynn2009
05-01-2021, 05:05 PM
I miss being in a couple lately. Especially that fresh honeymoon phase where everything feels good, there's only potential and nothing shitty happened yet.
indiegirl
05-01-2021, 06:57 PM
I confess I poured a little extra bleach on my white towels so I can smell the scent of bleach stronger bahaha. The smell of freshness ah yess.
moneybags
05-02-2021, 12:52 AM
Lol...this young guy at my apartment complex accidentally got my Amazon package in his locker. Thank God it’s just panty hose (but it’s like stripper pantyhose with a naked girl on the front), but still at least it’s not like a huge dildo! I just ordered a huge bottle of white cum lube-thank God he didn’t get that package either. Close call!
WendiStarr
05-02-2021, 05:56 AM
I accepted free leggings and pj's from an Amazon seller in exchange for a positive review.
indiegirl
05-02-2021, 07:21 AM
I youtubed randonautica...and all these scary experience videos came up. I don't understand this whole app? It's about manifesting something you want and not typing it into the app? They'd just send me to In n out burger.
charlie61
05-02-2021, 02:16 PM
A friend made me a video of him jerking off basically and sent it to my mail (I mean I said yes so it wasn't harassment, not that I needed it that bad really but I thought why not) but looking back I should have not let him send it to my regular mail and not have opened it there. At first it didn't open up so I opened it in a different window and then it showed up in my drive as shared? Wtf?! When I saw this I panicked and removed it because obviously I can see it but I don't know whether other people can see it too which is why I freaked tf out. I use that mail with like classmates and family too omg. Oh my fucking god, why does stupid stuff like this always happen to me. It's like I'm trying to ruin my own life repeatedly with my stupidity, it's ridiculous. And the film was both a little kinky because of the added text and kind of funny because of the music he put on top that was a bit too cheerful. I really hope I was the only one who could see it but I've barely used that drive so I don't know how it works exactly. If other people saw it I don't know how I could ever... explain that.
ETA I'm going to ask a friend (the only one I made so far at school) first thing tomorrow if she saw anything or got any type of notification, but I'll be very vague because we're really not that close, oh lord I'm too depressed already to give myself these kind of worries
Usually they make it intentionally difficult to accidentally share. Did you use Google drive? If so, i highly doubt it was shared with others. I know what you mean about the panic, for sure, but individual files have individual permissions, and i don't think there's any way that your friend shared the video with anyone other than the user attached to your email.
charlie61
05-02-2021, 07:17 PM
My partner has a very active, outdoorsy, semi- dangerous hobby that takes a lot of his focus and attention sometimes, and it makes me feel a little jealous and neglected. I really don't have any hobbies aside from self-care, so I'm jealous that he has a hobby that he's so passionate about, and I'm jealous because it can take up so much of his time and attention.
I'm throwing myself a pity party. My partner was out having a blast all weekend, and i just rotted on my recliner with my phone the whole time. I thought i might try going for a hike alone today, but i had a little bit of a headache, and the idea of going for a solo hike just didn't sound great. I spent half the weekend watching America's Next Top Model on Netflix, which is total garbage, but i couldn't stop watching it. Omg you guys, lol, I'm such a loser. :D
Elektra Luxx
05-02-2021, 08:46 PM
^^^
You're not a loser.
lynn2009
05-02-2021, 09:06 PM
, and i just rotted on my recliner with my phone the whole time.
I have been feeling like an old man because I bought a recliner to close in my living room area (open floor plan downstairs) and I LOVE that thing. So comfy
carmen_b
05-02-2021, 09:52 PM
Id lie and say you did fitness / yoga stuff lol !
He will never know hahaha
I'm throwing myself a pity party. My partner was out having a blast all weekend, and i just rotted on my recliner with my phone the whole time. I thought i might try going for a hike alone today, but i had a little bit of a headache, and the idea of going for a solo hike just didn't sound great. I spent half the weekend watching America's Next Top Model on Netflix, which is total garbage, but i couldn't stop watching it. Omg you guys, lol, I'm such a loser. :D
carmen_b
05-02-2021, 09:55 PM
I’m hiding at one of the AirBnBs.
I’m so tired and drained !
Normally my partners daughter doesn’t annoy me and I could just feel it coming on .
Like “ why don’t you just find a neighbor friend and get out for a couple hours ?”.
^ He’s done zero to reassemble normalcy after covid. It’s kind of sad.
I found her the outdoor experience group ( Monday’s for 3 hours ) . I don’t think it would look great if I came up with a Sunday out of the house thing for her . He should !
Then he was trash talking the ex saying the daughter just “ runs around “ with neighbor kids and it’s like “ yeah that is what it’s supposed to look like “. You don’t need to be six feet from your high functioning 8 year old at all times . :/
I’m trying to influence him. There is a park across from my AirBnb and she wanted to go. I was like “ Yeah you can. You are big enough to go alone. We can keep the front door open and peek out at you “.
charlie61
05-02-2021, 09:56 PM
Id lie and say you did fitness / yoga stuff lol !
He will never know hahaha
For real, girl. It's a good strategy to avoid seeming pathetic! I left for a 4.5-mile neighborhood walk before he got back, because i really don't like it when I'm just laying around at home when he returns from these super fun little weekend trips. He's all pumped up, excited, and happily exhausted when he gets back, and I'm like in a coma. I'm hoping that in the future, I'll be able to go with him on some of these trips, not because I'm interested in his sport, but to keep this from happening again.
carmen_b
05-02-2021, 09:58 PM
Yup.
I’ve expertly hidden my laze haze in bookends of hikes / yoga myself haha.
You might find you like the trips ! Worth a try and something new. :)
indiegirl
05-03-2021, 02:48 AM
Id lie and say you did fitness / yoga stuff lol !
He will never know hahaha
Bahaha isn't that the greatest just making things up sometimes to certain people to avoid any problems/judgment.
With customers, I recently said I had a friend over and made a meal off of youtube and random hobbies I've never done. No I fucking didn't lol. (This pandemic is still here but I need to sound exciting as well). Sounding like a loser is not what I want to come across as for repeat business.
I confess I walked the dogs yesterday so I didn't feel guilty instead of hiring Wag Walk app to do so. I'm embarrassed to admit I've been doing a lot of hiring people to do basic things for me other than going to a bank, hotel, or clients house (minus the driver lol). Haven't touched my car in a month.
Elektra Luxx
05-03-2021, 04:57 AM
I have been feeling like an old man because I bought a recliner to close in my living room area (open floor plan downstairs) and I LOVE that thing. So comfy
I have a recliner loveseat and it's so super comfortable. I often sleep on the recliner than on the bed.
Elektra Luxx
05-03-2021, 06:55 AM
I'm throwing myself a pity party. My partner was out having a blast all weekend, and i just rotted on my recliner with my phone the whole time. I thought i might try going for a hike alone today, but i had a little bit of a headache, and the idea of going for a solo hike just didn't sound great. I spent half the weekend watching America's Next Top Model on Netflix, which is total garbage, but i couldn't stop watching it. Omg you guys, lol, I'm such a loser. :D
^^^
You're not a loser.
I'm very critical of myself and I have to remind myself to stay positive. What you tell yourself matters. Check out the video below.
https://www.tiktok.com/@lessonsfromaquitter/video/6957094438384471302?lang=en&is_copy_url=1&is_from_webapp=v1
indiegirl
05-03-2021, 12:20 PM
Sometimes I think of Raziel with the timewasters that have no intention to see me but send an emoji or just wanting to say hi without any form of compensation and connecting them with him so they can just talk and exhaust themselves out. It's a winning situation, both get free interaction.
Yet another stupid message I didn't respond to today lolllll. This isn't an art gallery, it's an advertisement site. Buy or go home. I don't need your window shopping complimentary emails. Sorry, still peeved over early this morning. Another asked for my rates after I copy and pasted them to ward off the ones who are timewasters lollll. He didn't read a thing I said.
carmen_b
05-03-2021, 12:42 PM
If it's any consolation my day job customer do it too ( send time wasting emails and such ) lol.
I think it is just amplified somewhat with sex work. I get your frustration. I would even get those " scared " guys doing massages ( we are talking price points of like $150 - $200 bikini - nude sliding scale ). Like ...... buy something or don't. It's unfair to be " difficult " and then NOT pay a premium. I think that is why girls do tricks like cut session time ect. ! They usually don't for a reasonable person !
WendiStarr
05-03-2021, 03:21 PM
The rainy weather has been demotivating today. I joined the baby for a nap and ordered Tropical Smoothie Cafe for dinner. I didn't feel like cooking.
Luci Fer
05-03-2021, 11:48 PM
For real, girl. It's a good strategy to avoid seeming pathetic! I left for a 4.5-mile neighborhood walk before he got back, because i really don't like it when I'm just laying around at home when he returns from these super fun little weekend trips. He's all pumped up, excited, and happily exhausted when he gets back, and I'm like in a coma. I'm hoping that in the future, I'll be able to go with him on some of these trips, not because I'm interested in his sport, but to keep this from happening again.
I was just about to ask why you can't join him, because who knows? You might like it as your hobby too:) I am on the opposite side, but in similar situation - I'm active and love outdoorsy fun, but my best friends love to hang out at home. Life is a strange thing ;D
indiegirl
05-04-2021, 04:50 AM
Haha I've been rewatching Freddie Mercury's funniest interviews online and I swear that man has a big personality.
charlie61
05-04-2021, 11:06 AM
I was just about to ask why you can't join him, because who knows? You might like it as your hobby too:) I am on the opposite side, but in similar situation - I'm active and love outdoorsy fun, but my best friends love to hang out at home. Life is a strange thing ;D
I loooove outdoorsy stuff, but his sport is motorcycle racing. I'm definitely not looking to get into that, lol! I find motorcycles obnoxious, and i don't think i could learn how to ride even if i wanted to. So when i go with him, I'll basically be hanging out on the sidelines for 8+ hours watching my partner ride around in circles at 100+ mph, all while enjoying the glorious sound of roaring engines all damn day. Ugh. I at least want to try to be supportive and get out of the house. We'll see how it goes.
carmen_b
05-04-2021, 11:45 AM
^ You can go with though and enjoy the local area / pop into the race just an hour at end .
Maybe ? I don’t know. I’m going with partner to the most random location soon haha . Give me 10 hours solo though in any new area and I’ll use it ( on this trip most likely to dance haha ). I know he is working long hours. I’m just going for the hell of it and kicks.
charlie61
05-04-2021, 12:37 PM
^ You can go with though and enjoy the local area / pop into the race just an hour at end .
Maybe ? I don’t know. I’m going with partner to the most random location soon haha . Give me 10 hours solo though in any new area and I’ll use it ( on this trip most likely to dance haha ). I know he is working long hours. I’m just going for the hell of it and kicks.
Yeah, i wouldn't be able to drive anywhere, and tracks are pretty isolated. It's like three hours away, so we'd take one vehicle, and he needs the vehicle on standby. I'm definitely going to give it a go, but hopefully this gives some more context as to why I've been reluctant to participate, lol! It's not a relaxing hike in the woods, it's like eight hours of noise with nothing else going on.
carmen_b
05-04-2021, 12:51 PM
^ yeah I figured it might be hard to find transportation around .
Turo is a car sharing app that might provide options too ( less $ usually than rental cars ).
Another is if he has a friend and one standby vehicle is enough for the two of them it might be another way.
For tagging along on my partners trip I don’t have wheels either so I demanded a hotel in a walkable area haha. Then found a strip club 2 miles from it on google maps . :)
It was less about the best club around and more about the closest.
charlie61
05-04-2021, 12:59 PM
Ha! I hear that. The point of me going would be to show support and get some quality time in (he rides for a bit, has some rest time, and rides for a bit, etc. - i would hang out with him between stints), so it'd kind of defeat the purpose if i went with him on the trip and then left, lol! I'll be okay, I'm sure. :(
indiegirl
05-04-2021, 09:27 PM
Kinda fucking shocked someone had the balls to send me this. I sometimes like posting the phone number so people get to know who this loser is. Do you see me responding to customers saying, "What went wrong in your life to be contacting me to see me at your old age, married, and have children?" Hypocrite. I don't owe anyone an apology.
https://ibb.co/1qNtHP4
We all have problems in life that we're dealing with and some ladies do this for 15 years. One's been around for 30-ish years. Once I leave this industry and have a decent flow of money I wouldn't even waste the time to fart your direction, sir.
Luci Fer
05-04-2021, 09:41 PM
I loooove outdoorsy stuff, but his sport is motorcycle racing. I'm definitely not looking to get into that, lol! I find motorcycles obnoxious, and i don't think i could learn how to ride even if i wanted to. So when i go with him, I'll basically be hanging out on the sidelines for 8+ hours watching my partner ride around in circles at 100+ mph, all while enjoying the glorious sound of roaring engines all damn day. Ugh. I at least want to try to be supportive and get out of the house. We'll see how it goes.
It's good idea to be supportive:) But I imagine it can be boring to watch it for 8 hours lol
Ugh damn. I love motorcycles. Wanna learn how to ride it and buy one for myself. With full equipment, all these leather clothes etc. I'm not fan of extreme sport, this one attracts me aesthetically. I don't know yet if I 'm ready to get bruises for pure aesthetics, that's why I plan to find it out lol
WendiStarr
05-05-2021, 07:47 PM
Kind of funny how stuff works out. Someone who gave me crap for being unmarried with 2 kids and ran her mouth about how I was such a slut and that her perfect daughters would never do that, can eat her words. She claimed the reason I had kids out of wedlock was because I had no morals. Now she's got a pregnant teen daughter, except she has no idea yet. Her daughter just told me today that she's 4 months pregnant.
moneybags
05-05-2021, 07:52 PM
Kinda fucking shocked someone had the balls to send me this. I sometimes like posting the phone number so people get to know who this loser is. Do you see me responding to customers saying, "What went wrong in your life to be contacting me to see me at your old age, married, and have children?" Hypocrite. I don't owe anyone an apology.
https://ibb.co/1qNtHP4
We all have problems in life that we're dealing with and some ladies do this for 15 years. One's been around for 30-ish years. Once I leave this industry and have a decent flow of money I wouldn't even waste the time to fart your direction, sir.
He’s the one with issues not you. Punching down on a sex worker is like kicking a puppy.
In a capitalist society, as long you’re making money that’s all that matters. Sex work is work. You’re paying bills and not mooching off the government or family.
I don’t often check men on their privilege, but that’s the epitome of abusing privilege.
You’re a feminist badass and don’t ever forget that missy!
I’m sorry you had to deal with that. I know it doesn’t seem like a big deal, but those everyday “micro aggressions”( I’d say that’s more psychological abuse.) can be traumatizing and they add up. Make sure you’re reciting positive affirmations. In fact, I might start a positive affirmations thread just for sex workers?
indiegirl
05-06-2021, 06:06 AM
I have to deposit 8900 *eyeroll*. I'm at the max in my possession where I feel comfortable anymore and have to do it. Roar. I hate going to the bank. Miss the days when atm's didn't shut off because of the holding amount inside the atm when depositing large amounts. Hoping to head back to make more money on the way to the bank.
Anyways, I'm on my monthly Harry Potter binge watch again haha =). I'm living for it!
carmen_b
05-06-2021, 10:07 AM
His goal I guess :
" Hi Stranger from the internet. I'm so glad you asked ! Come save me ! "
Lol
You know dude is probably writing from his moms basements covered in crumbs and cat hair hahahah.
Kinda fucking shocked someone had the balls to send me this. I sometimes like posting the phone number so people get to know who this loser is. Do you see me responding to customers saying, "What went wrong in your life to be contacting me to see me at your old age, married, and have children?" Hypocrite. I don't owe anyone an apology.
https://ibb.co/1qNtHP4
We all have problems in life that we're dealing with and some ladies do this for 15 years. One's been around for 30-ish years. Once I leave this industry and have a decent flow of money I wouldn't even waste the time to fart your direction, sir.
carmen_b
05-06-2021, 10:08 AM
Do it in a few batches. I've heard lately that trigger deposits are even lower ( like 4-5k ) when we all used to think it was 10k.
I have to deposit 8900 *eyeroll*. I'm at the max in my possession where I feel comfortable anymore and have to do it. Roar. I hate going to the bank. Miss the days when atm's didn't shut off because of the holding amount inside the atm when depositing large amounts. Hoping to head back to make more money on the way to the bank.
Anyways, I'm on my monthly Harry Potter binge watch again haha =). I'm living for it!
indiegirl
05-06-2021, 01:31 PM
Do it in a few batches. I've heard lately that trigger deposits are even lower ( like 4-5k ) when we all used to think it was 10k.
It feels sometimes it's all dependent on the bank. When I was with BOFA it felt lower? Now the max is 9k at my bank
I confess I passed on a lot of money this morning...I kinda looked at all the requests this morning and went back to sleep. I think of all that goes into just getting to a hotel room and get exhausted thinking about it. Everyone seems to love South OC which is a burden of a drive for me. I need coffee lol!!!
charlie61
05-06-2021, 02:26 PM
Batch deposits will not bypass that - banks are savvy to these strategies. I work in finance. :)
Really the only concern you should have is if you aren't planning on paying taxes on the money, in which case you shouldn't be making deposits like that regularly. Getting flagged for a large deposit isn't a big deal as long as you pay taxes on the money, and you aren't doing anything sketchy when depositing, like trying that batch method. I've deposited $10k+ before. They're trying to prevent money laundering and illegal activities... so I'm assuming you have a cover profession and are paying taxes on what you make, instead of saying "My uncle gave this to me as a gift" every other week.
indiegirl
05-06-2021, 02:31 PM
Batch deposits will not bypass that - banks are savvy to these strategies. I work in finance. :)
Really the only concern you should have is if you aren't planning on paying taxes on the money, in which case you shouldn't be making deposits like that regularly. Getting flagged for a large deposit isn't a big deal as long as you pay taxes on the money, and you aren't doing anything sketchy when depositing, like trying that batch method. I've deposited $10k+ before.
I heard that can trigger it as well.... where people do daily portioned deposits. I made sure I paid my taxes that year.
carmen_b
05-06-2021, 02:33 PM
^ Yeah I meant spacing it by 3-5 days .
I think most of here try our best anyway to be subtle haha.
moneybags
05-06-2021, 02:39 PM
^^^You can keep your cash in a safe deposit box at the bank. Knock on wood. When girls get caught it’s because they are being stupid. You should be fine. Also you can buy money orders if you need to travel with lots of cash and then cash them out when you need them. I had a friend that did this, so she wasn’t traveling with large sums of cash on dance trips.
carmen_b
05-06-2021, 03:42 PM
^ I had a largish amount at my former home too ( but in a safe bolted to a wall ).
I've never done the safety box haha . Like .... how can *I* check on it in the middle of the night if I want hahaha ?
charlie61
05-06-2021, 06:13 PM
Yeah, it's not like they call the police if you deposit a large amount of money, lol. Just pay taxes on it and don't say anything shady about where you got it to throw red flags. You're an independent contractor.
WendiStarr
05-06-2021, 07:44 PM
^ Ya'll are brave! I never deposited more than $2k at once. I used to have my own cleaning business and almost always wore my work jacket(just a Carhartt with my company name and my name in fancy writing embroidered on the side) to make it look realistic. I only deposited once a week. I was super paranoid because my bank is known for being anti-sex work.
My confession is that I think I'm spending too much time on this site. I napped earlier and had a dream about someone on here who I never even met, lol. We were at an air bnb beach house. Somehow we both ended up there. Dreams are weird.
miss.a.p1600
05-06-2021, 07:52 PM
I was thinking to money order thing too. Only downside is your money isnt accruing interest while it’s parked, you have a deadline to deposit it before it expires, and if you lose the money order you have to keep the receipt/identifying info of the money order then pay a fee to get another one.
indiegirl
05-07-2021, 06:54 AM
LMAO when a guy creates a thread and they're 23 posts in and nobody else joins in but they keep powering through with their posts. Nobody wants to see your Explicit Scenes in a Mainstream Movie Thread. Such a man thread hahaha no offense.
indiegirl
05-07-2021, 09:35 AM
This is gonna be a unique appointment. LOL! I’m down to ride this wave.
miss.a.p1600
05-07-2021, 09:49 AM
Made a post
Mistakenly referenced a troll
Had to delete my entire post
Not going to give him the joy of providing his narcissistic fuel.
indiegirl
05-07-2021, 12:09 PM
Swam in the jacuzzi and goofed around with this attorney. Haha fun ass appointment.
WendiStarr
05-08-2021, 11:07 AM
BD showed up for Mother's day, of course. The kids were eating animal crackers and he asked for some. I picked out the pig animal crackers and bit the heads off the others so he had just the asses and pigs. My oldest saw and we were laughing about it. I don't think BD noticed though, that he only had pigs and asses.