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JenniferNorth
05-15-2021, 06:10 AM
I feel like the "Ladies Only" section is the only safe place to be these days if we don't want certain people all up in our business....
miss.a.p1600
05-15-2021, 06:23 AM
I find that if I take mine on empty stomach then I don’t feel as much of an effect as I do when I take it on full stomach.
My tolerance (and maybe my anxiety level too) is slightly higher
I found my personal sweet spot is I take 25mg 3 times a day. Each dose lasts about 4 hours.
The first time I took d8 (I did 25mg) I experienced a mild/moderate high for hours then it tapered off by the end of the night.
I’m probably going to take a break soon to get my tolerance back down and I’ll use just cbd or nothing at all.
I just ordered some d8 distillate so I can make my own edibles etc. cause this stuff is expensive. I’ve already went way over my budget spending $200-$300 last month buying from these high priced cbd dispensaries charging 4 times what I could do myself with even premium/better ingredients. I’m not trying to spend any more than $60 a month.
I’m making some premium d8 cupcakes with all organic ingredients.
I really wish I could set up a shop today and sell edibles. Those dispensaries can’t be the only ones making a killing.
miss.a.p1600
05-15-2021, 07:36 AM
I feel like the "Ladies Only" section is the only safe place to be these days if we don't want certain people all up in our business....
Male trolls be way more aggressive too.
I kind of think they probably hack their way into ladies section to lurk n be nosy.
You already know the male trolls are narcissistic and don’t like being told what to do n where they can’t go. They’ll just do what they want anyways especially if they know they’ll get away with it.
JenniferNorth
05-15-2021, 07:44 AM
^ I'm positive you're 100% right. Do you feel like the culture has changed? I joined here in 2013 (thou I think I knew about this board in 2012), and it was SO different back then.
miss.a.p1600
05-15-2021, 07:48 AM
^im not certain
I’ll admit it used to hop on the forum after shifts n be drunk af. Hence the many cyber arguments with male trolls (till I realized they are cheap time wasting idiots that don’t deserve one millisecond of attention)
So my recollection may not be that great.
I do think a lot more pissing matches used to go down back in the days.
The forum reminds me of how Jerry springer used to showcase fights then once they cut that out it was super tame, almost boring. They added the fights every now and then back into the show.
whirlerz
05-15-2021, 01:55 PM
Ms. P, you absolutely fucking kill me, that is hilarious, & trust me I need a laugh.^
trustfundkiller
05-15-2021, 01:56 PM
I have a 90-year-old distant relative who is currently in hospice due to Covid. She's been estranged from most of the family for years, and most of her own children don't even talk to her. From what I've heard, she's always been a mean-spirited person. I feel really bad for her, though. Covid seems like such an uncomfortable way to die, and dying all by yourself on top of that. That "distant" side of the family doesn't believe in masks, social distancing and they're all anti-vaxxers. This situation is not making them change their stance on things, either.
whirlerz
05-15-2021, 02:02 PM
Wow, I am so sorry to hear that, trust.
Im older, (not that old yet) l couldn't imagine getting so sick like that, at that age.
My roomie had it, I actually took care of him, (TG I was negative for it) I know he could barely get up to go to the bathroom.
He's in his 40's, great big guy.
He had very bad flu last year, (neg for Covid) I told him to get flu shot, he refused
chanzep
05-15-2021, 04:23 PM
The site has deff changed. Too many males and too many girls indulging them. They are not going anywhere because they are getting too much attention. Also a lot of actual dancers were banned. Also now lots of dancers out their business all over social media where as before they didn't they would come here.
miss.a.p1600
05-15-2021, 04:26 PM
I hate when people call me to talk......about the most boring mundane shit.
Mf call me back later when you have something of substance.
miss.a.p1600
05-15-2021, 04:39 PM
Omg
Went in for a smoothie
Ended up in a flirt session with the owner. After he made my drink he said “are you ready to taste this goodness?” ....... boyyyyyy.........
Gotdamn! This mf had a body of a Greek god - yes I can see through clothes.
I hope he’s working there when I come back
JenniferNorth
05-15-2021, 04:53 PM
The site has deff changed. Too many males and too many girls indulging them. They are not going anywhere because they are getting too much attention. Also a lot of actual dancers were banned. Also now lots of dancers out their business all over social media where as before they didn't they would come here.
I miss the exchange of ideas that would go on here. Esp. for work related stuff, future careers, and so on. Still love talking with you girls on Ladies only, thank God that hasn't changed!
LoveyDovey
05-15-2021, 05:58 PM
I miss the exchange of ideas that would go on here. Esp. for work related stuff, future careers, and so on. Still love talking with you girls on Ladies only, thank God that hasn't changed!
Same.
My boyfriend has this the weird way of sensing when I'm getting fussy from not hearing from him because then he'll text and call. Last time he called me he put the phone on speaker so he could talk to me while he was in the shower. I thought that was really sweet. I told him he could call me back later, but he said it was okay. I think he likes teasing me.
indiegirl
05-15-2021, 06:30 PM
I hate when people call me to talk......about the most boring mundane shit.
Mf call me back later when you have something of substance.
That type of convo is text worthy level to respond to when you're bored lol. I now jump when I get phone calls because I rarely answer them unless it is absolutely necessary.
The worst is in the past when people would call for advice and I spent an hour on the phone while they cried and they totally did the absolute opposite of my advice. "I took him back!" Me: HUH!?! Like why do what is wrong for you and you know it?!
JenniferNorth
05-15-2021, 06:57 PM
I might post this in the life advice section, I don't know yet.
The downstairs neighbors are out smoking again. Their smoke filters up and we smell it. They don't care. They are out SO much during the night, esp. during summer, like every 15 minutes.
Yesterday they were out playing cornhole/bean bags, and they set everything up on the MFing sidewalk that we ALL share. My husband nearly tripped over it carrying groceries in. When he did, he kicked it HARD. These fuckers are the most oblivious people and cannot understand why we don't like them. Last week when the Amazon guy came, they were complaining that he wasn't leaving our package for them. They were asking "That's not ours? Are you sure???" Like yeah, I think he knows how to do his fucking job.
Husband and I have decided to go out there after we get the girls down and play EDM/house music (not loud, just audible; if we played classic rock/80s, they would enjoy that too much). Then, if they bitch at us for daring to play music, we will bitch about the smoke.
carmen_b
05-16-2021, 07:09 AM
^ Bleh to people who overuse the shared spaces ! :(
Get a life !
Is it a townhouse type set up or an apartment ? I ask because there could be guidelines ( for a bld like they need to be at least 25 feet away to smoke ). That smell is so awful ! I hope you can get some help getting them to tone it down!
Aurora_Sunset
05-16-2021, 08:07 AM
^ I'm positive you're 100% right. Do you feel like the culture has changed? I joined here in 2013 (thou I think I knew about this board in 2012), and it was SO different back then.
I was just re-reading an old thread the other day and thinking about how different things are on here nowadays. Mostly, I was thinking about how drama-free it is without certain members who used to turn every other thread into an argument - not gonna call out names, because most of them were legit industry girls with valuable information but they made so much shit revolve around their egos. It was nonstop drama back then - Now, I feel like moderating (in the pink sections at least) is mostly just taking care of spam. I mean, thank god, I'm fine with that lol But god, it used to be different. Real trolls with attitudes only pop up once in awhile now, and they're usually new members who don't last after their first wrist-slapping.
I am sad that I mostly avoid the Lounge now though. I even used to read and write a lot in Customer Conversation. I used to go in there a lot, but can't deal with the blues much anymore. Even Life Support gets derailed by them a lot, which is why I post most of my problems in LO now.
indiegirl
05-16-2021, 09:28 AM
Someone is making popcorn in their hotel room next door at 9:27am in the morning. I'm down for that level of indulgence lollll.
indiegirl
05-16-2021, 09:33 AM
I was just re-reading an old thread the other day and thinking about how different things are on here nowadays. Mostly, I was thinking about how drama-free it is without certain members who used to turn every other thread into an argument - not gonna call out names, because most of them were legit industry girls with valuable information but they made so much shit revolve around their egos. It was nonstop drama back then - Now, I feel like moderating (in the pink sections at least) is mostly just taking care of spam. I mean, thank god, I'm fine with that lol But god, it used to be different. Real trolls with attitudes only pop up once in awhile now, and they're usually new members who don't last after their first wrist-slapping.
I am sad that I mostly avoid the Lounge now though. I even used to read and write a lot in Customer Conversation. I used to go in there a lot, but can't deal with the blues much anymore. Even Life Support gets derailed by them a lot, which is why I post most of my problems in LO now.
One lady who was an escort (Mckayla or something???? forgot her handle) that really grinded my gears was banned and opened a new account YEARS ago talking about opening up some clothing shop. She seemed super rude to ladies. Her posts helped me in the beginning but geez..
Some guy who I can tell would treat me like crap messaged me. All of his messages were 3-5 words. I don't care what is wrong with him, I just don't want that in my room. Superrrr weird. I think he could be possibly autistic or something if that's the case but I'm not comfy with a stranger being like that when he looks 22yrs old in my room after he tried haggling for 60 percent off and then agreeing to the full amount. I'm going home to nap instead.
chanzep
05-16-2021, 10:49 AM
There was drama on the site before but it was just like at the club normal stripper drama , I don't think it was that bad, now all the drama is with the blues I hear, idk because I don't read the sections they are in be because when I did I was disgusted . They seem to get away with alot. I saw actual dancers banned for less. The site was supposed to be about dancers it's not anymore. I would like if it was more dancers and less blue trolls. It seems like vanilla forums I visit now. Maybe things will get better after the pandemic. It's nice to have a place to talk about things from a dancers point of view. I feel like we look at things differently. I'm not interested in vanilla views I can go on Facebook for that. Anyway I am grateful for this site it's always been a great way to relax after a shift or day to day. Since I moved in surrounded by vanilla people only. All my dancer friends are far and we still talk . I've always had primarily dancer friends after being in the industry for so long . I feel fake sometimes with my vanilla friends I think they wouldn't talk to me if they really knew what I had been doing before they met me.
JenniferNorth
05-16-2021, 11:20 AM
I remember some of the people that posted here. Most were good, but I do recall a few dancers and camgirls that were pure drama. (One was specifically a dancer, and that was a whole mess)
I do agree some of the blues should be banned or something, or there needs to rules where they cannot come into Life Support or something. I really don't know, but that's why I hide over here, because they've taken over other areas. I've even seen girls asking for advice and help from other ladies here in different sections of the forum, like advice on how to handle customers or something work related, and a certain blue or two needs to chime in.
Maybe we should put them on ignore? I know there's an ignore button, but I've never used it. I dunno. I agree with Chanzep, I am really tired of these guys acting like they own the place. It was always for us ladies to begin with.
JenniferNorth
05-16-2021, 11:32 AM
^ Bleh to people who overuse the shared spaces ! :(
Get a life !
Is it a townhouse type set up or an apartment ? I ask because there could be guidelines ( for a bld like they need to be at least 25 feet away to smoke ). That smell is so awful ! I hope you can get some help getting them to tone it down!
These are apartments, but built condo style. So, we have our own private entry, but we have to share the sidewalk, and to get anywhere, we usually have to walk past their door, unless we want to walk on grass/no sidewalk. There are guidelines, but the place we rent from only cares about $$$ and not enforcing shit. And it's corp. owned.
I know I bitched about the smoke smell, but honestly there is something wrong, because the whole home smells bad. It smells like a hoarder house, a combo of dog pee, an air fryer in constant use, smoking, and I don't think they bathe or clean their clothing/home regularly. Like when they open the window, my husband and I can smell the stink from our porch. Their 13 year-old son won't bring people in the house, I am assuming because of the smell. And they don't bring people in either. It's really weird and gross. When they come to the community pool, my husband and I leave, because as he has said "Oh look, they are taking their bath for the year."
indiegirl
05-16-2021, 11:58 AM
There was drama on the site before but it was just like at the club normal stripper drama , I don't think it was that bad, now all the drama is with the blues I hear, idk because I don't read the sections they are in be because when I did I was disgusted . They seem to get away with alot. I saw actual dancers banned for less. The site was supposed to be about dancers it's not anymore. I would like if it was more dancers and less blue trolls. It seems like vanilla forums I visit now. Maybe things will get better after the pandemic. It's nice to have a place to talk about things from a dancers point of view. I feel like we look at things differently. I'm not interested in vanilla views I can go on Facebook for that. Anyway I am grateful for this site it's always been a great way to relax after a shift or day to day. Since I moved in surrounded by vanilla people only. All my dancer friends are far and we still talk . I've always had primarily dancer friends after being in the industry for so long . I feel fake sometimes with my vanilla friends I think they wouldn't talk to me if they really knew what I had been doing before they met me.
Lol "blue trolls" :)!!! Any time I hear the word troll it reminds me of this scene in this movie bahaha! We probably should be acting similarly hahaha. https://youtu.be/oynJcSnLSI4?t=12
miss.a.p1600
05-16-2021, 01:23 PM
^Lol! Should have a section of the forum called “Dusty Tricks, Blue Trolls, n Blue Balls”
About 97% of them qualify for that section.
JenniferNorth
05-16-2021, 03:34 PM
^Lol! Should have a section of the forum called “Dusty Tricks, Blue Trolls, n Blue Balls”
About 97% of them qualify for that section.
Let's change it to this and see what they say!!! Dying over here right now :rotfl:
chanzep
05-16-2021, 03:39 PM
These are apartments, but built condo style. So, we have our own private entry, but we have to share the sidewalk, and to get anywhere, we usually have to walk past their door, unless we want to walk on grass/no sidewalk. There are guidelines, but the place we rent from only cares about $$$ and not enforcing shit. And it's corp. owned.
I know I bitched about the smoke smell, but honestly there is something wrong, because the whole home smells bad. It smells like a hoarder house, a combo of dog pee, an air fryer in constant use, smoking, and I don't think they bathe or clean their clothing/home regularly. Like when they open the window, my husband and I can smell the stink from our porch. Their 13 year-old son won't bring people in the house, I am assuming because of the smell. And they don't bring people in either. It's really weird and gross. When they come to the community pool, my husband and I leave, because as he has said "Oh look, they are taking their bath for the year."
Nothing worse than stinky apartment neighbors.
indiegirl
05-16-2021, 04:23 PM
Let's change it to this and see what they say!!! Dying over here right now ����
I'm cackling over here knowing some of these guys would indeed click into it!!! hahahaha. Oh shit I needed this laugh!
indiegirl
05-16-2021, 05:12 PM
Not in the mood for scammers or whatever this is....but he's a virgin and asked if I went to a certain highschool and ok if he is a virgin....Nah bruh, I'm good. Will never forget when I was surprised with a guy who was a virgin. I was so mad. Bring that up!
Take your nightmare situation elsewhere sir. Some people have been shouting outside my hotel room across from me for 10 minutes. Go the fuck in!!!???
Also people with a military background who weren't grunts or had security clearance...I like to feel in control of the 2nd type of people because we both need that control in our lives and I'm not settling. You can tell sometimes by the emails. This was hard for him. LOL. I'm dealing with him now.
whirlerz
05-16-2021, 05:43 PM
Nothing worse than stinky apartment neighbors.
Worse, in the house w/you, like my sitch.
A nice can of Ozium, (it comes in a solid form too) goes a long way..Trader Joe's has a nice room spray for 2.00, it's small, but it lasts a while, you can stretch it by adding water, I put a drop of essential oils in it too.
indiegirl
05-18-2021, 04:04 AM
I washed the dog bed and blanket because I spilled on it. Now I get to cuddle with my big dog on it. He looks far too comfy. Mister needy dog is gonna hate this and try to join.
I also think I accidentally assumed it was a one hour date and he paid for more. I left with 1200 feeling guilty because I was rushing to be on time and didn't check the envelope upon arrival.
moneybags
05-19-2021, 01:49 PM
^^^Oops....oh well...just assume it was a nice tip...LOL. Unless he says anything I wouldn’t worry.
My confession. I can’t believe I was head over heels for that idiot. Love makes a dummy out of everybody I guess. That’s why I don’t date. I always love too hard, and get my heartbroken. When will I learn to not be a dummy...LOL.
indiegirl
05-19-2021, 03:27 PM
A moment of silence for my 2 dearly beloved essential oil diffusers. I laid them to rest in my trash can today. LOL. One became inoperable and the other one stopped turning on. My new son (diffuser) arrives via amazon prime tomorrow. I refuse to give up LOLLL!!!!
I also bought a new dress. I need to start consistently air drying my dresses because they're shrinking in the laundry on high heat and are getting too short to wear in public.
indiegirl
05-19-2021, 03:33 PM
^^^Oops....oh well...just assume it was a nice tip...LOL. Unless he says anything I wouldn’t worry.
My confession. I can’t believe I was head over heels for that idiot. Love makes a dummy out of everybody I guess. That’s why I don’t date. I always love too hard, and get my heartbroken. When will I learn to not be a dummy...LOL.
It's always in hindsight after getting over a man and find someone new/better you think to yourself, "What was I thinking!?!" LOL
charlie61
05-19-2021, 04:34 PM
Yes, there will never be some kind of man shortage, like we've run out of men. I know it can feel like that when you're single sometimes... you fixate on some guy, and that's the only guy. But i remind myself that men come in and out of our lives, whether they're in our lives for minutes or years, and we will always be able to find more men.
Aurora_Sunset
05-19-2021, 06:40 PM
I finally watched the pilot episode of a Youtube show that I had heard good things about - and omg, it's so good, I've watched it 4 times now. In 2 days. I watched the whole thing through 3x yesterday alone.
It got picked up to become an actual show, which is why there are no more online, but I can't stand waiting for more, I just keep going back to it.
charlie61
05-19-2021, 06:47 PM
I finally watched the pilot episode of a Youtube show that I had heard good things about - and omg, it's so good, I've watched it 4 times now. In 2 days. I watched the whole thing through 3x yesterday alone.
It got picked up to become an actual show, which is why there are no more online, but I can't stand waiting for more, I just keep going back to it.
What is it???
indiegirl
05-20-2021, 07:31 PM
Confession: I've been loving feeling like a queen lately despite the bad moments :)! We all deserve that in this biz. Happy for my success!
miss.a.p1600
05-22-2021, 07:24 AM
I played with myself and made myself have 2 solo orgasms before I had partnered sex
Much better to have appetizers before the main course.
Aurora_Sunset
05-22-2021, 12:31 PM
What is it???
It's called Hazbin Hotel. It's adult animation and does have a lot of crude humor/language. But I am insanely impressed at the production quality considering this first 30 minute episode was not done "professionally." The animation is super cool, the voice acting and songs are awesome, and the story is intriguing. And the more I'm learning from interviews with the creator, the amount of detail and attention that was put into designing characters is incredible, and we'll see more of it when the show actually hits.
miss.a.p1600
05-22-2021, 08:07 PM
I feel slightly guilty because I totally ditched L so I could have my alone time.
He asked me to hang out, I was distracted and I have a hard time saying no so I agreed
Not realizing that later in the day I just wanted to chill by myself.
I have explained before that I like to have time to just be alone and not have to be obligated to anyone.
He called me twice I didn’t answer
I finally answered the third time and pretended i fell a sleep
I’ll probably get a guilt trip in the morning
indiegirl
05-22-2021, 09:10 PM
I’ve wasted close to 30 minutes of my time being cancelled on by Ubers... I wanted to get in my sports car and floor it outta here again. I just did a silent cry of frustration because I was running around to get ready and paid the 40 dollar drive there.
I sound stupid being upset over a fucking driver but it's nonstop driver cancellations recently and having to explain myself to men who don't want to wait.. I live in a rando area not central LA or south OC. Such a gamble and being passed around by drivers last minute after me waiting and trying to be on time. Thank fuck I'm here at the hotel.
WendiStarr
05-23-2021, 10:00 AM
I miss being able to play with myself and have an orgasm. It seems that every time I try, the baby wakes up crying, the phone rings, or something annoying happens that I get interrupted. Grr!
moneybags
05-23-2021, 05:02 PM
I hate paying taxes on my sex work money. I guess I can look at it as like I’m contributing to roads, schools, etc. Out of every dollar I make on streammate, I get to keep how much after they take their cut, taxes, and expenses?
I’m doing a class right now to look at other platforms, so I can keep more of my money.
There’s also somethings called Spankpay...lol. Bitcoin for sex workers...ha ha
https://spankpay.com/
indiegirl
05-23-2021, 05:25 PM
My dad had to be reminded it was my birthday today and he sent me cash last minute like a sugar baby. You're not working on a court case on a Sunday. Brother didn't even bother texting me a simple Happy Birthday when I do that for him. I can't wait for my own family so I can just ghost my own. It hurts my feelings sometimes.
JenniferNorth
05-23-2021, 05:33 PM
My dad had to be reminded it was my birthday today and he sent me cash last minute like a sugar baby. You're not working on a court case on a Sunday. Brother didn't even bother texting me a simple Happy Birthday. I can't wait for my own family so I can just ghost my own. It hurts my feelings sometimes.
My husband's family has always been like this with him. If they are toxic, ditching them is not a bad idea.
indiegirl
05-23-2021, 06:03 PM
My husband's family has always been like this with him. If they are toxic, ditching them is not a bad idea.
I wish I could say this was the first time my dad forgot my birthday. I don’t need cash I just want recognition via text that they remembered.
WendiStarr
05-23-2021, 06:39 PM
I was pulling down the blinds because it's dark outside and I hate feeling like creeps could be lurking outside looking in. I heard loud, bongo drum music coming from the hermit lady's house next door so I was nosy and stole a glance into her window since it faces my window, before shutting the blinds. She was standing there with her back facing the window, butt naked. I yanked the blinds down as fast as I could but I don't know if she saw me. Now I feel like a creep. Oops!
JGB2009
05-23-2021, 06:55 PM
It sucks when no one remembers your birthday. Last year only one friend on Facebook told me Happy Birthday. None of my family who is on there said anything. I felt very sad. This year will probably be the same. ^^^ Anyways Happy Birthday, did u get to go to the water park?
JenniferNorth
05-23-2021, 06:55 PM
I wish I could say this was the first time my dad forgot my birthday. I don’t need cash I just want recognition via text that they remembered.
I totally understand. It's hard to deal with. I have my own dysfunctional family of origin, and I am not sure if that shit ever gets easier over time. EDIT: Oh yeah, did you visit the waterpark? That sounds like it would be so much fun! You deserve to enjoy yourself!
My confession is I feel stressed about the future. I wish things were more clear. I wish I could see farther ahead. I'm feeling so run down at the end of the day too, and that makes it hard to plan, work, or get much done.
indiegirl
05-23-2021, 07:13 PM
It sucks when no one remembers your birthday. Last year only one friend on Facebook told me Happy Birthday. None of my family who is on there said anything. I felt very sad. This year will probably be the same. ^^^ Anyways Happy Birthday, did u get to go to the water park?
Thank you :). I didn't go yet! LOL I was hesitant due to hotel prices the previous day but I'm going tomorrow :). I think it was the whole theme park opening thing that raised the prices. I shall document it hahaha :P