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indiegirl
07-05-2021, 02:02 PM
Agreed that she knew it was a rule and she broke the rule.
I suppose I’d like to see where weed isn’t banned similar to how alcohol isn’t banned. Since neither one enhances performance.
I think once more states legalize marijuana then the athletes getting punished for it will be a thing of the past.
Lol weed is the last thing anyone would choose at an olympic trial to take beforehand too :P! If she really wanted to cheat the game she'd be doing a line of coke before the race LOLL.
She's naturally talented. She may be out of the possibility of 4x100 after all. I listened to something saying she was doing some other event of some sort next month?
miss.a.p1600
07-05-2021, 03:18 PM
^^^^exactly!!!!
No one punishes the athletes using coke n liquor
The problem is weed stays in your system super long time after you’ve used it, unlike coke n liquor you can flush out your system in a day or two.
I guarantee if they started doing drug tests using hair then half the athletes would be banned
indiegirl
07-05-2021, 03:38 PM
^^^^exactly!!!!
No one punishes the athletes using coke n liquor
The problem is weed stays in your system super long time after you’ve used it, unlike coke n liquor you can flush out your system in a day or two.
I guarantee if they started doing drug tests using hair then half the athletes would be banned
Cocaine is definitely banned but I believe alcohol is not on the list. Hahaha I honestly can't picture anyone at an advantage drunk as hell running in a straight line down their lane in an event hahahaha. You can get disqualified for running in another persons lane in the shorter distances. I'd love to see it. I'd be like "damn that's a trooper!" I couldn't do it LOL.
I agree, MJ seriously should be reconsidered in a race. It's not going to pump an athlete up at all to win. Biden spoke about it and said "rules are rules" ....how stupid. Rules need to be revisited for further research and reversed.
LoveyD
07-05-2021, 03:38 PM
So I sent and angry breakup text and I feel better now. I have released myself from that jerk and my life is a lot more simple already. Now it's time to focus on me, my career, my kid, and rebuilding a happy life.
If he isn't going to put anything into the relationship, I'm not putting much energy into the breakup. So a break-up text it is.
WendiStarr
07-05-2021, 05:42 PM
I find myself fantasizing about a kid-free weekend vacation. Then I feel guilty, knowing that my kids are both the result of the Clomid fertility drug. I'm just exhausted. I wish I could get BD out of my life because aside from putting a roof over our heads, he's so unkind.
miss.a.p1600
07-05-2021, 06:16 PM
Cocaine is definitely banned but I believe alcohol is not on the list. Hahaha I honestly can't picture anyone at an advantage drunk as hell running in a straight line down their lane in an event hahahaha. You can get disqualified for running in another persons lane in the shorter distances. I'd love to see it. I'd be like "damn that's a trooper!" I couldn't do it LOL.
I agree, MJ seriously should be reconsidered in a race. It's not going to pump an athlete up at all to win. Biden spoke about it and said "rules are rules" ....how stupid. Rules need to be revisited for further research and reversed.
That would be a sight to see: The World Crack Olympics or LiquorLympics
indiegirl
07-05-2021, 07:23 PM
That would be a sight to see: The World Crack Olympics or LiquorLympics
The world crack olympics?!?! Hahaha oh my god, I found this hilarious ;D. I think more people would tune in just to see what happens haha. We need this show in our lives!
carmen_b
07-05-2021, 07:52 PM
Do you have family who could take them a couple days to give you a break. I think a break would be completely fine ! You don't need to feel guilty.
I find myself fantasizing about a kid-free weekend vacation. Then I feel guilty, knowing that my kids are both the result of the Clomid fertility drug. I'm just exhausted. I wish I could get BD out of my life because aside from putting a roof over our heads, he's so unkind.
moneybags
07-05-2021, 10:07 PM
I only paid for 2 avocados and I got 3. It was on accident, but I’m not going back to the store. Avocados are expensive! $1.99 for each! Damn! Makes me think twice about rubbing my tits in guys face for a dollar. I need at least $2, I can buy an avocado!
I totally agree we need high Olympics. Not like crack or meth, but definitely weed and alcohol. I think shrooms would be fun too! LOL! I can imagine the gymnast on a balance beam tripping thinking the floor is actually lava.
indiegirl
07-06-2021, 10:05 AM
Mehh I have one customer left. I feel old. I've been attracting the younger guys lately which is weird to me. I remember how odd it was having a 26 yr old come see me and refer me to his friend at school. Now I keep bringing these younger guys in and it is awkward.
JGB2009
07-06-2021, 10:37 AM
^^^^^
When I was younger I used to always get the old guys as cam customers and that was ok with me. Now that I am older I get younger guys and I don't really like that. It just feels odd to me.
Marina Starr
07-06-2021, 10:40 AM
A lot of young dudes have the hot for milfs, cougars and grandmas lol!
I prefer old dick!
^^^^^
When I was younger I used to always get the old guys as cam customers and that was ok with me. Now that I am older I get younger guys and I don't really like that. It just feels odd to me.
LoveyD
07-06-2021, 10:47 AM
When I was dancing it my early 40s this guy came in fir his 21st b-day and asked me to dance for him. Yeah that was weird!!!!
carmen_b
07-06-2021, 12:50 PM
^ I like younger guys.
I’ll take em lol.
carmen_b
07-06-2021, 12:51 PM
Just as suspected .
Day job has brought in $0 July 1-6.
I’m glad men near me are happy to pay to see da titties.
I wish I lived less than an hour from a club but oh well. :/
I’ve got a club action plan July 8-12 haha.
LoveyD
07-06-2021, 02:11 PM
I think I am going to order a box of shit to send to my ex-landlord.
carmen_b
07-06-2021, 02:13 PM
^ Maybe your ex too lol ?
Do they have BOGO on boxes of shit by mail ?
carmen_b
07-06-2021, 02:30 PM
Omg what do I do ?
J said his edibles were getting too expensive ( it was as he was averaging three or so 5 times a week ) lol so he wanted me to take a container out / away .
Now he says he didn't sleep.
I will probably just give him one that I hid.
We are not trying to create a straight edge life here haha just not have his edibles be too expensive lol.
LoveyD
07-06-2021, 03:52 PM
^ Maybe your ex too lol ?
Do they have BOGO on boxes of shit by mail ?
I can send one to my twin sister and one to the woman who paid people to murder me lol
LoveyD
07-06-2021, 03:54 PM
Omg what do I do ?
J said his edibles were getting too expensive ( it was as he was averaging three or so 5 times a week ) lol so he wanted me to take a container out / away .
Now he says he didn't sleep.
I will probably just give him one that I hid.
We are not trying to create a straight edge life here haha just not have his edibles be too expensive lol.
Edibles do get expensive! The only thing I can think of is switching brands or seeing if the dispensary has any specials. That's what I do. I found a deal 100 mgs for $13.
carmen_b
07-06-2021, 03:56 PM
^ We can get that price roughly if we go to Vegas.
Near us though is more like $22-$25 for those doseage!
Omg
I do like 10mg twice a week.
I do t have “ tolerance “ like J .
LoveyD
07-06-2021, 04:12 PM
Omg I must do 200 mg a week Lol
An old regular is texting me rn to say hi. This dude gave me $800 last year for car repairs just BC he is nice and has money to blow. He is texting me now to see if I'm ever coming back to the clubs. (No. Retired.) He is asking me about my car repairs rn and I am hoping he will flow me some sympathy cash. Please please God I have been praying for money...
Edit: he is going to take care of his bills then see if he can help. Not holding my breath. He is known for being a flake. We shall see.
moneybags
07-06-2021, 04:29 PM
^ I like younger guys.
I’ll take em lol.
I definitely get younger guys and it’s a little weird, but I don’t mind. Age is just mind over matter if you don’t mind it doesn’t matter.
carmen_b
07-06-2021, 04:38 PM
Well he didn’t outright ask so maybe I’ll just keep them away ( he did tell me to ). :/
miss.a.p1600
07-06-2021, 05:09 PM
Omg what do I do ?
J said his edibles were getting too expensive ( it was as he was averaging three or so 5 times a week ) lol so he wanted me to take a container out / away .
Now he says he didn't sleep.
I will probably just give him one that I hid.
We are not trying to create a straight edge life here haha just not have his edibles be too expensive lol.
i feel him.
i spent probably close to 200 last month and realized my wallet was being taken advantage of once I saw online prices better.
i even tried making my own edibles which is the most affordable way to go. Only downside is it’s time consuming and then I started wishing I could sell my surplus.
LoveyD
07-06-2021, 06:08 PM
Yeah. Weed is expensive. But it's worth it. I try to stick with the $13 100mg gummies
miss.a.p1600
07-06-2021, 06:11 PM
^damn that’s a good price
I think I paid $30 (including tax n shipping) for my d8 capsules they are 10mg a piece n I take about 2-3 a day
LoveyD
07-06-2021, 06:17 PM
^^ that's about how much I take too.
After taxes it's more like $17 but that is still good.
indiegirl
07-07-2021, 06:36 PM
Yeah. Weed is expensive. But it's worth it. I try to stick with the $13 100mg gummies
They have 5000mg edibles out there. That's a level I don't understand. 500mg is already enough.
miss.a.p1600
07-07-2021, 07:15 PM
I worked such a long day.
It made me rethink my relationship.
It’s probably gonna be about 2+ weeks till I’m in the mood for anything sexual related
I should have a good chunk of my bills paid by that time.
Would be nice if he was serious about earning more money and going to actually DO something about it.
Until then I’ll have to “disappear”
miss.a.p1600
07-07-2021, 07:20 PM
I feel kind of embarrassed that I have certain needs that haven’t been met (and I have a man).
The good thing is he is paying most of the moving expenses but I want him to pay ALL of them
If living together doesn’t help me advance financially then I’m out! I refuse to struggle with a dude (who is going to be expecting sex n more) when I can just be by myself because at least I won’t be obligated to family gatherings, on demand sex, home cooked meals, looking like a model 24/7 etc.
carmen_b
07-07-2021, 07:21 PM
Well .... are you eliminating rent ? It sounds like you are which may save like 1k or more a month ?
carmen_b
07-07-2021, 07:25 PM
^ Being in a relationship ..... I get what you mean because the time can REALLY add up.
I think balance can be key.
He is not cutting into your 40 hour work week right ?
Think about what the plan is .
Will you still have a couple days a week to just veg and be " yourself " after working like 7-10p.m. ?
^ If you don't have that ( like if he doesn't have a hobby that gets him out of the house ) create a plan for yourself to get out and get your " you " time . I'm a big believer in having each person with the house to themselves an evening a week. It can REALLY help give each person space .
You can go see a movie , go to yoga / then tea , or various other ways to kill 2-3 hours to get yourself some time. :)
I have like a million other ways to go hide in public quiet spaces if you need tips or hacks hahaha .
In my case ...... J never takes his daughter out in the evenings. There is 99% chance they will be here in the evenings which is totally fine ( even if not something I completely agree with ) so it's really on ME to create this spacing for myself if it's a kid day. IF it isn't a kid day he will just give me whatever I ask for basically.
carmen_b
07-07-2021, 07:30 PM
^ In my case , living with J does save like 1k or more a month ( more realistically with these crazy rent rates ) so I am able to drop my earnings expectations by 1 k a month .
To live in my own property up north it is about $1100 with everything ( utilities , wifi , mortgage payment ). I have renters paying that + a little extra profit.
BUT ...... * and this is key with factoring the money stuff * ..... it is ONLY by 1 k per month that I have dropped my expectations.
I give him some time during business hours ( 60-90 min. a few times a week during M- F 9-5 ranges ) which still protects my work hours but is also a huge help to him . I give that extra time for fairness and create a team player type of energy because it IS a cost savings to me . Today for example, I spent 50 min. 3:30 - 4:20 picking his daughter up from somewhere which allowed him a solo work out .
It's a system that is working for us . I could *probably* work even less but I want my income " levels " the same as when I was single. I have a big thing where I think it's really important for both people to be solid earners in a relationship. It doesn't feel SAFE to me otherwise ( with a one income household one person could get injured for example and things could slide downwards so quickly ).
carmen_b
07-07-2021, 07:41 PM
^ When are you guys supposed to be joining households ? I guess I am just really curious because if you are leaving him don't you need your current home ?
LoveyD
07-07-2021, 07:57 PM
I realized I'm an INFJ.
LoveyD
07-07-2021, 07:59 PM
They have 5000mg edibles out there. That's a level I don't understand. 500mg is already enough.
I would die if I ate that much!
miss.a.p1600
07-08-2021, 04:16 AM
Very good points Carmen
Maybe the truth is I’m mad at myself for not hitting my income goal last month and now I’m working like a “slave” in gig work (not even my main line of work) to make it up this month in addition to worrying about if I have what I need for a move.
I will save in rent so maybe things will get better once I don’t have rent but you’re right I still have to keep earning the same amount.
The move should be final early august
I guess I just wish I had a man who was okay with me working but he didn’t need my income. The old guy was like that. He told me if I lived with him I didn’t have to work unless I wanted to. Something about working for fun not out of necessity is more my desire.
L needs my income and that’s what frustrates me. He’s a great guy and could be a provider but he sits around at this cushy mediocre paying job and doesn’t want to hustle to achieve more because he’s scared to leave an easy job for the unknown. Then he complains about his Bertha ex wife who left town with their kids asking him for money. Well no shit the broad is gonna hit you up for money because you have no formal child support arrangement you don’t have split custody anymore.
You’d think now that the crumbsnatchers are gone that would free up his time to hustle n make more money cause that was his number one excuse “I can’t study n take the test with these kids here” well mf you can’t use them as an excuse now.
Ughhh!!!!!!
miss.a.p1600
07-08-2021, 04:22 AM
^ Being in a relationship ..... I get what you mean because the time can REALLY add up.
I think balance can be key.
He is not cutting into your 40 hour work week right ?
Think about what the plan is .
Will you still have a couple days a week to just veg and be " yourself " after working like 7-10p.m. ?
^ If you don't have that ( like if he doesn't have a hobby that gets him out of the house ) create a plan for yourself to get out and get your " you " time . I'm a big believer in having each person with the house to themselves an evening a week. It can REALLY help give each person space .
You can go see a movie , go to yoga / then tea , or various other ways to kill 2-3 hours to get yourself some time. :)
I have like a million other ways to go hide in public quiet spaces if you need tips or hacks hahaha .
In my case ...... J never takes his daughter out in the evenings. There is 99% chance they will be here in the evenings which is totally fine ( even if not something I completely agree with ) so it's really on ME to create this spacing for myself if it's a kid day. IF it isn't a kid day he will just give me whatever I ask for basically.
As far as time
he likes to do couples shit
cool but I’m not used to doing it all the time and I feel like the last thing I want to do is be boo’d up when there are financial obligations that need to be met.
he questioned me when k didn’t tell him k got the vaccine n went by myself to do it - I guess he wanted to drive me there or whatever
He also told his kids he’d drive n come see them this weekend but now since I can’t go (I have to stay here and work like a madwoman) he won’t go without me n I keep telling him to just go by himself cause he promised them.
I feel like I don’t have time for him / a relationship when I’m obligated to too many financial responsibilities
miss.a.p1600
07-08-2021, 04:30 AM
They have 5000mg edibles out there. That's a level I don't understand. 500mg is already enough.
The industrial strength is most likely for people in severe pain like terminally ill cancer patients
JenniferNorth
07-08-2021, 05:28 AM
Miss P, with L's kids, he could have told them to watch TV/play on their tablet for an hour while he studied or whatever. They sound older than mine at 5 years and 10 months. If my pops told me to entertain myself, you best be sure I listened to him!
I agree, I too would rather work for fun. It should be doable once my husband completes a short stint at tech college, but it is still a pain in the ass in the meantime. I agree that it is all stressful and just too much.
These men and their cushy jobs are funny, cause I honestly don't recall having any jobs where I didn't work my ass off all day long.
carmen_b
07-08-2021, 07:09 AM
Well you could always spell it out AGAIN haha like " if you don't make moves to increase your annual by 18-20k a year by Sept. I will be really upset since we already talked about it " . An amount like that could get you working only half time or something .
It honestly sounds like you just want him out of the house a little more and a little more money which should be possible but you might REALLY need to hit the point home.
I would probably come up with your own " plans " this weekend. IF he is really not giving you a couple evenings a week to yourself that is just way too much time in each others face to be sustainable.
I would just outright tell him something like " I would love to have 4 evenings a week that we spend together but in the next two months I'd like to try something where we each do our self improvement 3 evenings a week and get more goal focused ". Then he knows he is getting his couple time but you are EXPECTING him to take time to get things finished and working on your own stuff too.
^ It's a touch on the aggressive side so obviously approach with caution .
I really believe that good time management can do SO MUCH for people. You always can look at people ( once you get to know them ) and see who has it dialed in as a life skill.
Very good points Carmen
Maybe the truth is I’m mad at myself for not hitting my income goal last month and now I’m working like a “slave” in gig work (not even my main line of work) to make it up this month in addition to worrying about if I have what I need for a move.
I will save in rent so maybe things will get better once I don’t have rent but you’re right I still have to keep earning the same amount.
The move should be final early august
I guess I just wish I had a man who was okay with me working but he didn’t need my income. The old guy was like that. He told me if I lived with him I didn’t have to work unless I wanted to. Something about working for fun not out of necessity is more my desire.
L needs my income and that’s what frustrates me. He’s a great guy and could be a provider but he sits around at this cushy mediocre paying job and doesn’t want to hustle to achieve more because he’s scared to leave an easy job for the unknown. Then he complains about his Bertha ex wife who left town with their kids asking him for money. Well no shit the broad is gonna hit you up for money because you have no formal child support arrangement you don’t have split custody anymore.
You’d think now that the crumbsnatchers are gone that would free up his time to hustle n make more money cause that was his number one excuse “I can’t study n take the test with these kids here” well mf you can’t use them as an excuse now.
Ughhh!!!!!!
carmen_b
07-08-2021, 07:22 AM
He should definitely go see his kids as well because he TOLD them he would. Otherwise he is setting an example to them that it's ok to say one thing and do another.
^ Just one persons opinion of course !
miss.a.p1600
07-08-2021, 07:43 AM
Well you could always spell it out AGAIN haha like " if you don't make moves to increase your annual by 18-20k a year by Sept. I will be really upset since we already talked about it " . An amount like that could get you working only half time or something .
It honestly sounds like you just want him out of the house a little more and a little more money which should be possible but you might REALLY need to hit the point home.
I would probably come up with your own " plans " this weekend. IF he is really not giving you a couple evenings a week to yourself that is just way too much time in each others face to be sustainable.
I would just outright tell him something like " I would love to have 4 evenings a week that we spend together but in the next two months I'd like to try something where we each do our self improvement 3 evenings a week and get more goal focused ". Then he knows he is getting his couple time but you are EXPECTING him to take time to get things finished and working on your own stuff too.
^ It's a touch on the aggressive side so obviously approach with caution .
I really believe that good time management can do SO MUCH for people. You always can look at people ( once you get to know them ) and see who has it dialed in as a life skill.
yes this is perfect.
He agreed that ideally he’d get a significant income boost by working in another industry so I could work part time. Sad thing is he has people ready to give him the job on a silver platter but he won’t take action get the license. I looked over the sample questions n that shit is easy as hell plus the test is cheap af like $10. So literally he is the only barrier at this point. His common excuses “oh I’m busy with kids or my current job is so easy I get paid to do nothing”
oh trust! I WILL be riding him (not in a good way) about making more money cause he had no qualms about me having sex multiple times a week and I have a short window as my bio clock is ticking.
Also my family is rejecting him. They are classist (unfortunately) and are in no rush to meet him/ hang out with him since he’s not in any rush to improve his income.
I’m giving him slight leeway during this move but after that there are no excuses.
I confess that my motto is = “What one man won’t do…….another man will! He better get his financial game up or I will level up n leave!”
carmen_b
07-08-2021, 07:49 AM
^ Yep really just spell it out that it’s not ok with you.
Either he will do it or he won’t but you’ll be “ unstuck “.
Obviously have your alternative plan in place for where to live / go if he doesn't make the changes.
charlie61
07-08-2021, 02:39 PM
Miss P, i think he doesn't want to leave you alone for any length of time because he's worried about cheating, tbh. You're out of his league, and he knows you aren't happy with a lot of things.
miss.a.p1600
07-08-2021, 02:56 PM
^Agreed!
It’s partly my fault too. Maybe I’m not all the way happy with myself and it’s like a mirror or something
Anywho I confess. I think I’m gonna start back doing more online work. Maybe start a patreon or vanilla onlyfans (if that sort of thing is profitable). Because I don’t want to be driving so much with this gig work
miss.a.p1600
07-08-2021, 03:04 PM
I’m in this hole in the wall yet popular Italian restaurant
Already spot some sugar daddy potentials. Too bad I’m not here for leisure lol.
Marina Starr
07-08-2021, 03:14 PM
So glad the 'fully vaccinated' thread is closed.
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miss.a.p1600
07-08-2021, 03:49 PM
^some of those dudes be acting like straight mega cunts