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Marina Starr
07-08-2021, 04:04 PM
They teach you how NOT to be :)
^some of those dudes be acting like straight mega cunts
indiegirl
07-08-2021, 04:47 PM
I'm locked out of my car again from draining the battery due to not driving it for 4 months. I don't care enough to get the battery changed in order to get the car trunk open so I ordered more distilled water w/ grocery delivery service until I need to physically drive my car. BAHAHA.
miss.a.p1600
07-09-2021, 06:38 AM
Miss P, i think he doesn't want to leave you alone for any length of time because he's worried about cheating, tbh. You're out of his league, and he knows you aren't happy with a lot of things.
He’s seriously losing it! His irrational fear of me cheating is preventing him from keeping his promise to his kids. Granted his ex wife brought them here last weekend but still he told them he’d travel this weekend and one of his kids was crying cause he sounded like he was backing out. He should have revised the plan but now he’s committed n he is procrastinating because he cant focus on driving and figure out what I’m doing at the same time.
Not only that but I’m having some side effects from the vaccine (I’m in moderate pain) and he’s not being supportive n slick gaslighting me and telling me to go places with him.
Um no sir! If I get out and risk making my pain worse it will be for monetary compensation only not to ease his irrational fears.
I want him to hurry up n leave.
carmen_b
07-09-2021, 07:19 AM
^ Ohhhhh
Can’t believe I didn’t see that lol.
I thought he was just needy and would calm down when promised 4 evenings a week or whatever ( in exchange for three evenings of hustle !).
miss.a.p1600
07-09-2021, 07:39 AM
^i guess I should hold my end of the bargain I’ve been seeing him once or twice a week …. When things are good.
I am feeling a bit out of order because of the pain from this cotdamn vaccine so it makes me retreat to my usual (I don’t want to be around anyone cause I look n feel ugly not to mention my place is a disaster n I don’t feel like cleaning)
I’ll do what you said and do my best to offer to squeeze in another extra 2 days. That might alleviate some of his pissy behavior
JenniferNorth
07-09-2021, 08:09 AM
If you are feeling like shit after the vax, please rest. Are you having the sweats at all? I did, wasn't fun. Rest and lots of fluids. Don't try to be superwoman!
He needs to just go see his kids and appease them.
Does he think you would be up to stuff when you are feeling so miserable anyway? (I mean like his irrational cheating fear-who's gonna be trolling for D when they are sick and miserable!)
carmen_b
07-09-2021, 09:50 AM
^ Right ?
Keep your damn word to the kids and leave her alone a couple days ! Lol
It seems like it’s best next few days type of plan!
carmen_b
07-09-2021, 10:03 AM
I made $3086 in June.
Not horrible but not where I want to be monthly either.
I’m really trying to get ahead of the curve in July.
I posted deals for the vanilla business and threw money at advertising to get people to claim said deals.
That's all I can do ( get the phone to ring ). I've still got my 5 days scheduled for the club.
My partners attitude is like " Oh don't worry if you are not making enough covid isn't totally over " .
BUT ...... eventually we have to admit it's well on it's way to over ....... including setting normal expectations and such.
miss.a.p1600
07-09-2021, 12:00 PM
If you are feeling like shit after the vax, please rest. Are you having the sweats at all? I did, wasn't fun. Rest and lots of fluids. Don't try to be superwoman!
He needs to just go see his kids and appease them.
Does he think you would be up to stuff when you are feeling so miserable anyway? (I mean like his irrational cheating fear-who's gonna be trolling for D when they are sick and miserable!)
you’re right- I’m taking ibuprofen for the pain and just walking around my place (it’s raining outside) for light exercise and taking vitamins
i naively thought I’d just have the common mild side effects. I just had to be that mf to have the rare side effects.
i do think if I take it easy today I can get back to a medium hustle tomorrow.
And men assume we’d do the fucked up cheating that they do. They’d troll for pussy from a hospital bed fresh out of surgery (L said once he came to - from anesthesia - his dick got hard thinking about me seducing him in the hospital).
Plus they have tendencies to gaslight women’s pain. Which is ironic considering their bitch asses running to get narcotic pain reliever for simple headaches.
So I think he slick thinks I’m faking my pain so I don’t have to see him and I can hang out with my imaginary sugar daddy as soon as he leaves town
^ Right ?
Keep your damn word to the kids and leave her alone a couple days ! Lol
It seems like it’s best next few days type of plan!
agreed! He’s going to see them tomorrow like he said he would.
LoveyD
07-09-2021, 01:02 PM
Miss ap that would frustrate me too.
I just found out that 2 old club regulars passed away this week. One was a barfly, and one got a lot of dances with me but I got mad at him for grabbing my boobs during a dance. It's ok I forgive him. I know he is sorry now.
carmen_b
07-09-2021, 01:12 PM
This club I got hired at in Vegas lied to me lol.
They TOLD me they would start opening at 5 by now and it's still 7.
:(
It might sound so picky but I like to just GET IN there and at least have a *chance* of $ coming in a little on the early side even if it's a risk of waiting. Sometimes I DO start making money early. It happens enough that I tend to like to start at 5:30 ish anyway.
miss.a.p1600
07-10-2021, 08:17 AM
The balding eagle has left the nest!
Yassss!!!!
LoveyD
07-10-2021, 08:20 PM
Ok well boyfriend texted me to see if I was okay. He apologized and we had a good talk. Then he took me to the dispensary, bought me much-needed edibles and took a look at my car. We then kissed and made up in my car. I'm glad we're good now. I hate it when we're mad at each other.It just doesn't feel right.
In other news, I always use my bra as a pocket. I keep my phone, tissues, masks, keys, all kinds of stuff in my bra. Sometimes I don't have pockets and it's the only solution.
moneybags
07-10-2021, 09:34 PM
^^^bra purse…love it! Pretty smart. Don’t have to worry about purse snatching.
I was looking at my coach’s Instagram and my coach’s son (obviously adult ages) looks like a guy a gave a lap dance to last night. Oppsie. #donthatemeforbeingamilf
miss.a.p1600
07-10-2021, 09:59 PM
Im not excited about moving in with L the more he tries to press me to spend time with him.
I am worried that he will get on my nerves. That I will be annoyed and I won’t be able to hide it.
I told him I didn’t want to end my lease the same time as him so I could give myself time to adjust. He convinced me it would be easier to hire movers if we moved the same time. Well guess what he’s trying to get out of doing - paying for movers.
I contemplated breaking up with him so he’d be forced to hustle his ass off to meet financial goals
Say some prayers for ya girl.
My optimism is wearing off.
Staci
07-10-2021, 10:56 PM
In other news, I always use my bra as a pocket. I keep my phone, tissues, masks, keys, all kinds of stuff in my bra. Sometimes I don't have pockets and it's the only solution.
Bet it's awkward when your boyfriend tries feeling you up and the car alarm on the key chain goes off! LOL
chanzep
07-11-2021, 09:17 AM
Im not excited about moving in with L the more he tries to press me to spend time with him.
I am worried that he will get on my nerves. That I will be annoyed and I won’t be able to hide it.
I told him I didn’t want to end my lease the same time as him so I could give myself time to adjust. He convinced me it would be easier to hire movers if we moved the same time. Well guess what he’s trying to get out of doing - paying for movers.
I contemplated breaking up with him so he’d be forced to hustle his ass off to meet financial goals
Say some prayers for ya girl.
My optimism is wearing off.
Maybe he needs the kick up the butt. Men get too comfortable when you live with them .
It doesn't sound like your ready to give up your space.
Also he should be paying for the movers .
Aurora_Sunset
07-11-2021, 11:38 AM
I feel like I was extremely naive when I was young. I know everyone is to an extent, but I feel like my teens and early 20s were packed with more naivety and belief in human goodness than most people. As a result, the older I get and more I learn, the more it makes me feel stupid for how long I believed in certain things. I honestly can't tell if I was just that stupid most of my life so far or if the world really has gotten worse over time.
Or maybe it's that people have always been this shitty, but the technological age has made it so that their shittiness can reach new lengths in affecting people so the collateral damage is worse than in the past.
miss.a.p1600
07-11-2021, 11:45 AM
Maybe he needs the kick up the butt. Men get too comfortable when you live with them .
It doesn't sound like your ready to give up your space.
Also he should be paying for the movers .
Agreed. I told him I ain’t moving shit lol.
I had a moment yesterday where I got frustrated about him asking me to come over (things you’d normally be glad your bf ask you but I’m just needing more introvert time because I’ve been working a lot and it’s draining and I don’t have much time for self care outside of rest n shower n eating quality food), felt guilty for turning him down, but really just realizing I’m not going to have the luxury to really be alone that often whenever I want to so I wanted to capitalize on my remaining free time.
Trust n believe I will 'disappear' when the "im so comfortable n she aint leaving" starts setting in
Aurora_Sunset
07-12-2021, 04:48 PM
Ok, my TikTok-ing has VERY quickly become a pathology.
In a matter of days, I've gone from the one video I posted back in June to 12 videos posted and 6 more completed and sitting in my drafts.
Like, I get very little else done on my days off.
It's the only thing that's making me shift out of the deepest parts of depression for a few days. Talking to my phone screen and putting it on the internet is the most socializing my lonely ass has had in months. And even without a lot of interaction, it's something creative, which I haven't been able to muster out of me for ages.
It probably is good for me in a sense, but I need to slow down a bit lol If I'm going to store up videos on my days off, I'm going to be diligent about not making anymore in the evenings after work on my days off.
Elektra Luxx
07-13-2021, 06:08 AM
Ok, my TikTok-ing has VERY quickly become a pathology.
In a matter of days, I've gone from the one video I posted back in June to 12 videos posted and 6 more completed and sitting in my drafts.
Like, I get very little else done on my days off.
It's the only thing that's making me shift out of the deepest parts of depression for a few days. Talking to my phone screen and putting it on the internet is the most socializing my lonely ass has had in months. And even without a lot of interaction, it's something creative, which I haven't been able to muster out of me for ages.
It probably is good for me in a sense, but I need to slow down a bit lol If I'm going to store up videos on my days off, I'm going to be diligent about not making anymore in the evenings after work on my days off.
I hope you can find a balance between your TikTok-ing and other things in your life. I feel the passion, happiness and satisfaction coming through in this post. For me it's photography and learning Photoshop. I feel really good after being creative. Having a creative outlet is very therapeutic.
LoveyD
07-14-2021, 12:17 PM
I am speaking about my near death experience today on a podcast and I must admit, I can't help but feel a little nervous. It's going to be posted on Youtube.
indiegirl
07-15-2021, 10:47 AM
I'm forcing myself to do something fun today. Part of me mostly agreed to it because I need new material for appointments to talk about with returning customers. All I do is work, watch movies/netflix, try new foods, and go on the internet for various things including looking for school. But hey, it's a step in the right direction.
moneybags
07-15-2021, 01:07 PM
Please don’t send me a dick pic!
indiegirl
07-15-2021, 01:47 PM
Fuck me up, I saw a hot ass firefighter this morning. LORD. I can't wait to see him again. I couldn't help but compliment him a few times and then later finding out his job was even hotter. Protect me! LOL :P
WendiStarr
07-15-2021, 04:34 PM
A longtime friend told me about her bf who is married and it sounded all too familiar. He was unhappily married, they have the best sex, he seems like her dream man, and she's hopeful that he's going to leave his wife for her. I wanted to scream,"They rarely leave their wives! Run away now while you can!" You never really know the whole picture with married men. Most are sex addicts and are never satisfied with any amount of sex and will cheat on anyone because they have no true loyalty to anyone but themselves. Yes, BD was once my dream man who gave me the best sex I ever had. He lied and told me that he was divorced and even started a family with me, all while married and as I recently found out, he's still legally married, despite 3 years of us living together. Run as fast as you can or be careful what you wish for. What use to be Prince Charming/Mr. Perfect has showed his true colors as a cheating liar who is a total verbally abusive asshole when not high on pot. Sometimes lately I feel like this is what I deserve for being with a married man. I should've asked for proof of his divorce.
carmen_b
07-15-2021, 04:40 PM
^ Aw, I do hope she ditches him.
If he was going to leave he’d already be divorced ugh.
It’s honestly a good idea to check divorce status.
I did. I specifically asked J if his divorce was final on date 2 so I wouldn’t be caught in back and forth ( then double checked the status with public record search and it was super easy ).
carmen_b
07-15-2021, 04:42 PM
^ I think in some cases people are really already divorced emotionally ( both moved on but too lazy to file ).
But be careful or risk wasting your time!
carmen_b
07-15-2021, 04:45 PM
( insert hose jokes here about Indies post haha )
LoveyD
07-15-2021, 05:16 PM
For my shipt gig I had to run an order from BevMo out to this little whiny bastard who lived in one of the more upscale neighborhoods. He whined at me that his cans of alcoholic Seltzer were not cold. He specifically asked for them to be chilled before delivery and he was upset that his hands were still warm.. he couldn't even call customer service of self, I had to do it. I spoke with customer service and I told me that he would have to call BevMo directly for a refund. I texted him this information and drove off. I would have made the effort to drive it back and pick up cold ones for him, but he was such a dick about the whole thing I just texted him, blocked him, and drove off. Moral of the story is be nice to people and they may want to help you out after all.
LoveyD
07-15-2021, 05:25 PM
For my shipt gig I had to run an order from BevMo out to this little whiny bastard who lived in one of the more upscale neighborhoods. He whined at me that his cans of alcoholic Seltzer were not cold. He specifically asked for them to be chilled before delivery and he was upset that it were still warm.. he couldn't even call customer service himself, I had to do it. I spoke with customer service and they told me that he would have to call BevMo directly for a refund. I texted him this information and drove off. I would have made the effort to drive it back and pick up cold ones for him, but he was such a dick about the whole thing I just texted him, blocked him, and drove off. Moral of the story is be nice to people and they may want to help you out after all. And stick them in the fridge and wait an hour. What a little bitch.
moneybags
07-15-2021, 06:55 PM
A longtime friend told me about her bf who is married and it sounded all too familiar. He was unhappily married, they have the bet sex…Sometimes lately I feel like this is what I deserve for being with a married man. I should've asked for proof of his divorce.
Nothing is ever black and white. Married men cheat for a variety of reasons, and women get WAY more of the blame and shame than is appropriate. Don’t ever let anyone shame you.
It’s that devil dick! My favorite tarot card reader was warming divine feminines to watch out for devil dick! For real! Watch out! The devil dick can make a sane woman do crazy things.
carmen_b
07-15-2021, 07:09 PM
^ Yeah when a guy gets you off do good you lose reason lol.
Been there !
miss.a.p1600
07-15-2021, 07:22 PM
A longtime friend told me about her bf who is married and it sounded all too familiar. He was unhappily married, they have the best sex, he seems like her dream man, and she's hopeful that he's going to leave his wife for her. I wanted to scream,"They rarely leave their wives! Run away now while you can!" You never really know the whole picture with married men. Most are sex addicts and are never satisfied with any amount of sex and will cheat on anyone because they have no true loyalty to anyone but themselves. Yes, BD was once my dream man who gave me the best sex I ever had. He lied and told me that he was divorced and even started a family with me, all while married and as I recently found out, he's still legally married, despite 3 years together. Run as fast as you can or be careful what you wish for. What use to be Prince Charming/Mr. Perfect has showed his true colors as a cheating liar who is a total verbally abusive asshole when not high on pot. Sometimes lately I feel like this is what I deserve for being with a married man. I should've asked for proof of his divorce.
I know a formerly married philanderer who impregnated his mistress.
in the end guess which one he chose…….
Neither! He had even another woman he was messing around with in addition to the ex mistress n the ex wife. After divorcing his now ex wife (after HE cheated) he immediately fell into the vagina of another unsuspecting woman.
i believe this dude is a narcissist with a sex addiction.
carmen_b
07-15-2021, 07:58 PM
^ I think many have Narc tendancies when they are not transparent with the longer term partners. How ELSE can someone justify that stuff ? It is SO creepy.
In dating these days you really have to do some solid re-con on men.
carmen_b
07-15-2021, 08:01 PM
Ok ..... I hate to admit this but maybe it wasn't a good idea to travel north . Haha.
I just got this idea in my mind that I should spend AS MUCH time as possibly in the mountains ( it is SO hot right now where I live ) .
I had a GREAT time in the forest area and checked on some things up there then I got this wild hair up my butt to go visit this strip club I used to dance at forever ago and it was SO meh yesterday ! I won't crack into it , I'll leave it at that . :/
I honestly am hoping my partner doesn't ask for details of the " middle " of my trip because I am ashamed to admit I drove so far for it and didn't make very much.
I woke up and just decided to create a " 15 day wellness " plan. I was pushing and pushing and pushing for cash and there wasn't anymore I could do. I am choosing to just back off . Every day I will be drinking hot teas, eating healthy ( including back to prepping meals ) , doing movement which is probably gym + yoga , AND gratitude work. I'm not going to ignore clients but I'm putting health FIRST.
buttonpop
07-15-2021, 08:30 PM
I need a new motivational quote/mantra. "Do your future self a favor and work hard now" was the mantra that got me through my undergrad. Now a few years after graduating I'm getting my master's degree in the fall at the best school for my specific program in the world. My hard work and high GPA paid off!! I got into my dream school and now my GPA doesn't matter anymore (beyond keeping my fellowship, but that's easy enough).
So now I need a new mantra. My undergrad was 100% pure grind, pedal to the floor, hard work, full time dancing and full time school. Now with my master's degree, I'll be dancing 1-2 weekends a month but nothing like before, mostly just focusing on school which is a dream. Of course the program is hard, but I'll be doing something I LOVE that doesn't feel like work to me. I don't have to grind anymore, but I will be creating things 24/7. It will be more about using my creativity and meeting people in my field.
I need a new mantra to get me back into the headspace of school, but less grind-focused. Does anyone have any suggestions?
trustfundkiller
07-15-2021, 10:37 PM
Nothing is ever black and white. Married men cheat for a variety of reasons, and women get WAY more of the blame and shame than is appropriate. Don’t ever let anyone shame you.
It’s that devil dick! My favorite tarot card reader was warming divine feminines to watch out for devil dick! For real! Watch out! The devil dick can make a sane woman do crazy things.
There's a reason why they call it "dick-notized" lol. Most men can't fuck for shit but when you come across devil dick ...it's a very potent drug.
trustfundkiller
07-15-2021, 10:44 PM
All of these stories are like deja vu since I'm seeing a married man now. It really is the same story 99.9% of the time. They want to have their cake and eat it too. I believe this one is a sex addict also. He says he jerks it 3-4x a day and his wife still sleeps with him a few times a month (which I reckon is good for a couple in their 40s) and yet he still has a side piece who is half his age. But at least I can see the writing on the wall. In the meantime, I enjoy the sex and I like him so I'll take it until someone more suitable comes along.
LoveyD
07-15-2021, 11:08 PM
My ex was married and didn't tell me. He lied and told me he was divorced. His then-wife (he divorced her but it was because she had an affair years prior) found out he was seeing me and she put a hit out on me. My son and I were nearly murdered.
miss.a.p1600
07-16-2021, 06:31 AM
There's a reason why they call it "dick-notized" lol. Most men can't fuck for shit but when you come across devil dick ...it's a very potent drug.
I stay coming across the dudes with mediocre sex.
ugh! I want to be dickmatized
I came close on 2 occasions and it’s with the guys who are no good.
lurkingtitties
07-16-2021, 06:37 AM
I stay coming across the dudes with mediocre sex.
ugh! I want to be dickmatized
I came close on 2 occasions and it’s with the guys who are no good.
It’s always with guys who are no good!
carmen_b
07-16-2021, 07:12 AM
Yes he didn’t ask for many details so maybe I can just let that mediocre shift just not come up in convo .
Ha
The club was SO slow. I did what I could .
I’m in good spirits since I know stripping might as well be walking into a casino .
Like ... if I’m there and playing I’ll eventually hit ha.
I’ll probably try another place next week.
carmen_b
07-16-2021, 07:15 AM
^ These guys disgust me ( those who lie and hide shit ).
You can be non-monogamous in a fair and ethical way.
I know because I have done it myself.
It’s as if hurting people is what needs to happen to get a stiffy which is GROSS.
I hope all their dicks fall off.
carmen_b
07-16-2021, 07:17 AM
^ I will say they make good customers though since they are so obsessed they will pay to play.
xxxGothBarbie
07-16-2021, 01:42 PM
^ Exactly! I always make them pay for my everything. Drinks, club fees, food etc LOL
If they can't afford to play with me then move it along :P
carmen_b
07-16-2021, 01:43 PM
^ They can make good sugar daddies so they are not a *total* waste of space lol.
moneybags
07-16-2021, 03:32 PM
Yep. Not doing regulars. They cost more than they are worth!
indiegirl
07-17-2021, 04:00 AM
I felt like it was karma I complained I didn’t want to do anything too fun because I possibly broke my toe and he said I always make excuses...then when he got out of the beach waves he hurt his leg.
I told him we’re going hiking tomorrow and he had nothing to say after complaining I was making excuses about my toe.
miss.a.p1600
07-17-2021, 06:53 AM
^if this is a guy then they are notorious for gaslighting women’s pain.
I confess, I’ve enjoyed the break (possibly permanent) from my wealthy yet oppressive family members.