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LoveyD
09-29-2021, 06:24 PM
I am looking at a place tomorrow that is super cheap and has its own entry and bathroom. The location would be good for me work-wise. It's the kind of place I would stay and work my ass off so I can get my son and me our own place again. I hate that he is at his Dad's so much. I don't want my son to act like a douche like his dad does.

indiegirl
09-29-2021, 06:24 PM
I'm about ready to just buy a fucking motel 6 room for these men. I just spent 265 on a god damn hotel not including the roundtrip drive that is a 4.5 star hotel and sure enough he makes a comment that I'm in the same dress to identify me. YOU IDIOT!!!! My life does/should not revolve around this job and you certainly have made it so with all your demands 24/7, customers. WHEN do I get a break for being accommodating? SERIOUSLY. 500 an hour isn't worth it with their constant bickering with their needs. I shouldn't be treated like this at all. Should've chose a motel. Damn! I'm only interested in kind and easy-going people at this point. Sorry for my rant.

This is the first time I blew up at a customer LOL! Here I was trying to treat him to a super nice hotel and of course he had to not believe it was me with my photo. BITCH what?!?! I should just stick to one stars so I'm more believable LOLLLLL.

Update: Omg this hotel is so NICE! Lol!!! I even told the front desk guy how fancy I felt LOL!!! They even provided me lavendar essential oil balm to roll on my pillows for restful sleep hahahaha this is awesome! Like I've never seen a hotel with this much smart technology in the room. I'm kind of excited LOL!

WendiStarr
10-01-2021, 01:28 PM
I haven't even told anyone in my family that I'm pregnant yet and I'm pretty far along. I'll be in town next weekend but I am hoping that it'll be cold so I can wear loose fitting clothes and dress in layers. I know I probably sound petty but I'm still feeling salty that nobody helped me when I needed them the most . None of them cared to ask how we were doing and certainly nobody came to visit us so nope. I haven't posted on my personal Facebook account at all in a few months now. They can stay in the dark.

Luci Fer
10-02-2021, 05:25 AM
I'm about ready to just buy a fucking motel 6 room for these men. I just spent 265 on a god damn hotel not including the roundtrip drive that is a 4.5 star hotel and sure enough he makes a comment that I'm in the same dress to identify me. YOU IDIOT!!!! My life does/should not revolve around this job and you certainly have made it so with all your demands 24/7, customers. WHEN do I get a break for being accommodating? SERIOUSLY. 500 an hour isn't worth it with their constant bickering with their needs. I shouldn't be treated like this at all. Should've chose a motel. Damn! I'm only interested in kind and easy-going people at this point. Sorry for my rant.

This is the first time I blew up at a customer LOL! Here I was trying to treat him to a super nice hotel and of course he had to not believe it was me with my photo. BITCH what?!?! I should just stick to one stars so I'm more believable LOLLLLL.

Update: Omg this hotel is so NICE! Lol!!! I even told the front desk guy how fancy I felt LOL!!! They even provided me lavendar essential oil balm to roll on my pillows for restful sleep hahahaha this is awesome! Like I've never seen a hotel with this much smart technology in the room. I'm kind of excited LOL!
I like your posts so much.:-[ I really imagine it would be a great book, as someone mentioned before. Diary-like book full of adventures.

carmen_b
10-02-2021, 12:47 PM
Wendi : I don’t feel like your family treated you quite right just from the glimpses you shared .
As you were leaving with the kids it was seeming like no one even offered you a room for a week or two .
:/
It’s possible they didn’t like your ex or felt justified in “ telling you so “ but damn they could have said “ yeah we never liked him “ and ALSO offered a room / better plan to help a bit.

indiegirl
10-02-2021, 02:49 PM
It's a beautiful dayyyy....to have the washer and dryer fixed. It ended up being a total of $833 bucks (why the extra 3 dollars?)....but those clothes are getting cleaned right now!

Also I'm retrying a previous essential oil diffuser I repurchased because the big one I really loved flopped and stopped working after a few weeks. I want an A+ diffuser to sell and this one was better. I hope it works out this time! :)

carmen_b
10-02-2021, 02:57 PM
Hmmmm
I just feel unhappy today and I know at times it’s “ day by day “.

I could be evaluating this totally wrong on my end but I feel like my partner has a certain needy type of energy when we travel. It’s hard to put a finger on because it isn’t really a thing I see often. It isn’t extreme it’s just something I’m noticing. :/

Maybe I just need a nap !

carmen_b
10-02-2021, 03:04 PM
Maybe I’m being a brat.
I feel like today is just so excessive .
We went out last night 7-11pm with coworkers.

He’s given his work thing 9-5 today.
Now it’s 5:05.... cut out and wish everyone well haha .

miss.a.p1600
10-02-2021, 06:39 PM
Bay bay kids mom (aka the ex Bertha Broad) is leaving town tomorrow

Please pray with me as I pray she take these kids back with her.

LoveyD
10-03-2021, 05:14 AM
So I am moved out of the house away from Homely Bitch and am now sleeping in my car. My stuff is in storage and I found a program in my city where they have Safe Parking Lots where you can safely park and sleep without getting hassled and ticketed by cops. I was pretty fucking livid that Homely was the asshole, but gets to stay in her house while I am the one who is inconvenienced and has to leave. But at least the Safe Parking People are great. They greeted me with empathy, food, water, and other resources as far as where I can shower, etc. They have bathroom facilities and a place to charge your phone here. And I can stay here as long as I need. They made me feel safe here. I am going to sleep here until I have enough $ saved to get my own place. There are a few other cars here, maybe 25 of them. Thankfully everyone is required to be quiet and leave others alone here. This takes the stress off sleeping in your car. At least now I can take my time finding a good place to live. I don't want to rush out of desperation and wind up in another "situation". I can work, save my money, and sleep in my car legally and safely. The workers here have been really kind. I am definitely going to donate to these people over the Holidays. It's really amazing what they do for people.

carmen_b
10-03-2021, 07:37 AM
^ What an awesome program !

carmen_b
10-03-2021, 07:39 AM
J did cut out a bit early but didn’t want to ditch folks entirely.
I kind of get it I suppose .
He left the conference at 5:15 right after I was bitching on here , ha.
Then we went to dinner 6-7 ( reasonable ).
I got an incredible tounge lashing after that hahaha.
So that made the evening nicer . :)

miss.a.p1600
10-03-2021, 08:16 AM
I’ve had some thoughts recently of leaving my dude.

Mainly because of money (would be nice if he made more and was a better steward of windfalls of money) and because he has “baggage” of a bitter bitch ex wife with 2 needy dependent kids.

I question if I’m wasting my last moments of having bio kids with someone who might not provide for them the level I’m accustomed to. And I secretly hope that L turns this around and shows me he can provide wealth or that one of my hot rich clients will save me.

Is the grass is greener on the other side?

miss.a.p1600
10-03-2021, 08:42 AM
Waiting for these edibles to kick in.

ava$
10-03-2021, 08:52 AM
I’ve had some thoughts recently of leaving my dude.

Mainly because of money (would be nice if he made more and was a better steward of windfalls of money) and because he has “baggage” of a bitter bitch ex wife with 2 needy dependent kids.

I question if I’m wasting my last moments of having bio kids with someone who might not provide for them the level I’m accustomed to. And I secretly hope that L turns this around and shows me he can provide wealth or that one of my hot rich clients will save me.

Is the grass is greener on the other side?
Usually when a guy has been a certain way when u met and has continued that into the relationship u can expect that from him if u can deal and your happy do it but if you won’t be happy with this forever don’t do it..

whirlerz
10-03-2021, 09:44 AM
So I am moved out of the house away from Homely Bitch and am now sleeping in my car. My stuff is in storage and I found a program in my city where they have Safe Parking Lots where you can safely park and sleep without getting hassled and ticketed by cops. I was pretty fucking livid that Homely was the asshole, but gets to stay in her house while I am the one who is inconvenienced and has to leave. But at least the Safe Parking People are great. They greeted me with empathy, food, water, and other resources as far as where I can shower, etc. They have bathroom facilities and a place to charge your phone here. And I can stay here as long as I need. They made me feel safe here. I am going to sleep here until I have enough $ saved to get my own place. There are a few other cars here, maybe 25 of them. Thankfully everyone is required to be quiet and leave others alone here. This takes the stress off sleeping in your car. At least now I can take my time finding a good place to live. I don't want to rush out of desperation and wind up in another "situation". I can work, save my money, and sleep in my car legally and safely. The workers here have been really kind. I am definitely going to donate to these people over the Holidays. It's really amazing what they do for people.


^ What an awesome program !

That's awesome, I hope you find a great place for yourself, wish my state Had that, some places you can 'boondoggle' (stay in parking lot) Walmart, Cracker Barrel restaurant, a fishing /sports goods place, but some have cut way down on that..
Wishing you the best, & to find a good place soon!

LoveyD
10-03-2021, 04:47 PM
^^Thank you. In my city, it's illegal to sleep in your car except for designated safe parking lots. I don't want this to become a downward spiral where I wind up getting tickets and citations when I am in money-saving mode.

I have been sad and upset about this, but I realized today that I have more safety and privacy sleeping in the safe lot than I did at the house I was staying at. At least I'm not paying assholes to live with them anymore. Now I have a safe, quiet place to sleep that is free and I have helpful people who are there to provide support.

Now I have to make a car payment and get my car fixed. Thank God I have the money. After a quick repair I will be back in business. Just going to work and save as much as I can. Working makes things feel normal and the more I make, the less I stress.

whirlerz
10-03-2021, 05:06 PM
Well, good to hear, hon.
I will be praying for you!
Take care, God Bless!

ava$
10-03-2021, 05:09 PM
I want to dance again but i am still a little too heavy in my opinion from having my 2nd baby about 6 months ago and lack of self control like ive not dieted at all and workout but not that hard then I get nervous about covid also ive not vaxxed but i think i shouldbe if i go back tho... idk what to do...

Elektra Luxx
10-03-2021, 05:56 PM
It was warm enough to get in the pool. I was able to catch up on some pool maintenance. Pools are a pain in the ass to maintain. We don't have a cover and the leaves are piling up. The pool is cloudy so tomorrow I'm going to get a few gallons of acid to clear up the pool. I couldn't do any skinny dipping today because I was expecting my mom to come over so I can help her with some tech stuff.

My mom comes over and as I was getting out of the pool and she says "estas poniendo gorda." I'm getting fat?!! This coming from a person that never had weight problem in her life. Thanks mom.

charlie61
10-03-2021, 08:43 PM
I take care of my guy in the morning so i don't have to worry about ruining my good skincare at night. Priorities.

indiegirl
10-04-2021, 06:54 AM
Bahahaha. What the hell happened in that shower?!?! LOLLL. I went in the bathroom and the previous customer had an empty glass of Camron's Pink Horse Powder Bedroom Love in the shower. He prolly downed the whole thing! LOL never heard of this stuff in my life! I thought he was bathing in it. And then he broke the shower gel.

I had to call room service for new supplies. I so love 4-5 stars because they actually have room service come to you. 2-3 stars are like "come downstairs for a towel." or they say they have no maids on staff for towels.

Also I've been getting lazy in these hotels and I've been proud of me last night. I made 2500. I turned down only 1 extra hour request because past the 2 hour mark I'm exhausted with the same person as an introvert. Trying this morning before checkout for more monet for another 2 hour scheduled :).

Edit: I am home and at 3500 for the end of the night and early morning. It's now nap time. Now, time to catch up on true crime shows before sleeping :D!

miss.a.p1600
10-04-2021, 10:44 AM
I’m about to get a refill on the edibles.

I don’t gaf!!!!

I need it to deal with my space being invaded by another woman’s annoying ass kids.

xxxGothBarbie
10-04-2021, 10:50 AM
Ever since I blocked ALL porn crap on his phone & youtube accounts on his tv I've been getting fucked nice & proper again without even blinking haha. The beauty & funny part about all of this is he's not smart in the tech sense & has even admitted he has no clue how that stuff has randomly disappeared lol He even helped me make foot content last night which was really cool ��
I love the fact that he cant watch other feet bitches anymore anymore. He always says how mine turn him on more anyway so I'm happy.

carmen_b
10-04-2021, 12:05 PM
^ Haha

He probably knows you did something but is rolling with it.
It seems like a good solution. :)

xxxGothBarbie
10-04-2021, 03:30 PM
^ Haha

He probably knows you did something but is rolling with it.
It seems like a good solution. :)

Oh ya he's def trying to please me more ways than just sexually. Im glad I gave him another chance.

indiegirl
10-04-2021, 08:44 PM
Fudge monkey's! I have to find a handicapped room at this hour and carry someone who is wheelchair bound who can't move again. These 2 Dui's that disqualified me from working as a firefighter can suck it. I can carry a full blown man no problem.

Also it rained temporarily in LA county. YES bitch. I had to announce it to everyone out of excitement....and customer messaged me worried he could turn me into an addiction he couldn't afford. Not sure how to proceed. Thinking of keeping myself busy with other people after he wanted to see me the next day. Just him having a brain tumor removed is enough for me to not be in business mode.

Whats going on with all the outcall requests.....UGH. I need to be in control. I entered a food coma right before my incall one and need an hour or so break. My stomach hurts.

PhatGirlDynomite!!!
10-05-2021, 10:48 AM
It was warm enough to get in the pool. I was able to catch up on some pool maintenance. Pools are a pain in the ass to maintain. We don't have a cover and the leaves are piling up. The pool is cloudy so tomorrow I'm going to get a few gallons of acid to clear up the pool. I couldn't do any skinny dipping today because I was expecting my mom to come over so I can help her with some tech stuff.

My mom comes over and as I was getting out of the pool and she says "estas poniendo gorda." I'm getting fat?!! This coming from a person that never had weight problem in her life. Thanks mom.

What's worse?:

1. A relative w/o weight issues pointing out your weight gain...

2. Or a tubby relative commenting on your weight gain?

For everyone reading this, which one is worse and why?

miss.a.p1600
10-05-2021, 10:54 AM
^shiiiit I usually just let weight comments go in one ear n out the other.

“Like look heaux my body looks how it’s supposed to look rn so fuck off …… unless you paying for some waist trainers, some plastic surgeries, n a lifetime Jenny Craig membership then Im good!”

carmen_b
10-05-2021, 11:31 AM
^ I honestly wish my relatives would have said something when I got too curvy.
Oh well I have 90% fixed it. :)
I think maybe my mom hinted once that this dress I was looking for in storage might not work for this event. My relatives were too kind in my opinion ( because family should intervene on bad choices IMO ).
My brother ( around same age ) has also been too big before and works hard on it currently too.

carmen_b
10-05-2021, 11:31 AM
I think your Moms comment was off though Electra. You’ve posted pics and are nowhere near “ too curvy “!

indiegirl
10-05-2021, 11:39 AM
What's worse?:

1. A relative w/o weight issues pointing out your weight gain...

2. Or a tubby relative commenting on your weight gain?

For everyone reading this, which one is worse and why?

On the opposite spectrum, I'll never forget going to a family Thanksgiving dinner and slimey Keleigh Sperry Teller calling me anorexic for no reason when I was dealing with my own issues. That dumb bitch had no room to speak and photoshops all her photos. LOL it's still ingrained in my head how upset I felt having to show up to events with her there. She married Miles for a reason. They're both POS. I love shouting people's name or phone numbers out who did me wrong.

carmen_b
10-05-2021, 11:41 AM
^ Body shaming a thin person is wrong also 100%!

Shut up !

JGB2009
10-05-2021, 11:43 AM
What's worse?:

1. A relative w/o weight issues pointing out your weight gain...

2. Or a tubby relative commenting on your weight gain?

For everyone reading this, which one is worse and why?

I think it is rude for anyone to say anything. Its hurtful and people really should learn to be more polite.

carmen_b
10-05-2021, 11:45 AM
“ if you don’t have anything nice to say ... stfu “!

Always a polite / good option.

miss.a.p1600
10-05-2021, 12:35 PM
^ I honestly wish my relatives would have said something when I got too curvy.
Oh well I have 90% fixed it. :)
I think maybe my mom hinted once that this dress I was looking for in storage might not work for this event. My relatives were too kind in my opinion ( because family should intervene on bad choices IMO ).
My brother ( around same age ) has also been too big before and works hard on it currently too.

My relatives are OBSESSED with being thin.

They have unrealistic (IMO) perceptions of weight and beauty standards.

In their minds you are either big/fat or you are normal size. Normal to them is a size 2/4

And they make comments all the time about it “Wow you look like you’ve picked up some weight” or “girl you losing some weight? You looking good now”

I doubt men obsess about other men’s weight.

Luci Fer
10-05-2021, 12:41 PM
My relatives are OBSESSED with being thin.

They have unrealistic (IMO) perceptions of weight and beauty standards.

In their minds you are either big/fat or you are normal size. Normal to them is a size 2/4

And they make comments all the time about it “Wow you look like you’ve picked up some weight” or “girl you losing some weight? You looking good now”

I doubt men obsess about other men’s weight.

oh I remember my grandma was so easy with such remarks. 'you 're skinny like a herring!' hahahaha
then the other day I was wearing an oversized hoodie. 'Dear, are you pregnant? Come on, tell granny.'
Wtf grandma! I'm not!

miss.a.p1600
10-05-2021, 12:45 PM
^ I honestly wish my relatives would have said something when I got too curvy.
Oh well I have 90% fixed it. :)
I think maybe my mom hinted once that this dress I was looking for in storage might not work for this event. My relatives were too kind in my opinion ( because family should intervene on bad choices IMO ).
My brother ( around same age ) has also been too big before and works hard on it currently too.

Agreed.

One of my relatives told me to appreciate my body (even what I perceived as the imperfections) and not to go through with the butt implants.

Glad I listened because my body I don’t think it will accept foreign objects like how other women’s might. I slightly envy the ladies who can get surgeries n recover with no complications n look great but oh well.

Mfs just gonna have to love this flat ass n when my tits hit floor when my bra comes off……whoever I’m with will just have to love it too.

Aurora_Sunset
10-05-2021, 02:19 PM
I got asked a couple weeks ago if I wanted to train in some other "indirect" roles at work, and I said sure, because they sounded easy. One is quality assistance which involves SO much more walking, especially up and down stairs, than I'm already doing, and I hate it already. The other would be basically as a desk-bound person, dealing with making sure that stuff goes out on time and fixing people's problems. They showed me a little bit of it last week, and, again, I hate it already. When they re-asked if I wanted to do the desk stuff, I said not really, but she asked if I would at least give it a try...

Like, fuck, I miss the days of just coming in and working in the fucking department and job that I was HIRED to work in. No forcing me to cross-train in shit I have no desire to do. None of these extra little jobs that are more responsibility but don't come with any sort of actual promotion or raise. I don't wanna do this desk shit. I hate standing in one place all day - it's too hard on my knees and back (and yes, these are all standing desks) - and Also... that's just a lot of people-y interaction. The only damn thing I like about my job right now is the fact that I don't have to deal with people. I don't want to spend all day fixing people's problems. And part of it was "talking to people" about problems that they get flagged for in the system - which they fully admitted during training are usually really stupid things to get flagged for that aren't even anyone's fault, you just get unlucky being stuck with a problem sometimes. I get irritated when I'm the target of one of these stupid talks - I can't stomach the idea of being a part of that bullshit, nonsense system, just because "that's the way things are done." Fuck off

WendiStarr
10-05-2021, 03:37 PM
I've been putting off doing laundry since we don't have a washer and dryer here. It's in storage and we have to go to the laundromat to do laundry. I was down to my last pair of panties, which happened to be crotchless panties with the beads in the crotch area that rub against the clit area. I totally did laundry with that kind of awkwardness going on.

indiegirl
10-05-2021, 04:03 PM
I've been putting off doing laundry since we don't have a washer and dryer here. It's in storage and we have to go to the laundromat to do laundry. I was down to my last pair of panties, which happened to be crotchless panties with the beads in the crotch area that rub against the clit area. I totally did laundry with that kind of awkwardness going on.

I totally relate haha!

LMAO. I got sushi 2 days ago without underwear. Couldn't find them. I reached the "fuck it I'm hungry level. I totally get it. Make do with what you have in the present" lol!

Back to my attempt at power napping before work. :)

lurkingtitties
10-05-2021, 05:08 PM
^ Body shaming a thin person is wrong also 100%!

Shut up !

Omg yes…this happens to me often when I’m at my fighting weight. (Which is ridiculous bc even when I’m “skinny” I’m still a size 10 in pants and an F cup, I just carry it well) Both behaviors are wrong but these days it’s less socially acceptable to fat shame. Too many people think skinny shaming is ok.

xxxGothBarbie
10-05-2021, 06:00 PM
^ I stopped giving a fuck honestly. If they aren't helping me financially in any way shape or form they can fuck off. I'll eat what I want when I want & that's that! My fam has def made remarks over the years as well as this one lady I've known for 20 yrs. She's fat AF & gross yet has tried to make me feel like shit for being heavier than I am normally in the past. Fuck her, she's jealous & family is probably miserable & bored which is why they say shit.

LoveyD
10-05-2021, 08:26 PM
My family body-shamed me when I was 11 and called me "bumper butt." Then I became anorexic. I was 5'3 99lbs at 14. God forbid if I got "chunky."

I am adjusting to car life. Took today off and took a long walk. Showered at the park. Tomorrow I have to get my car fixed and make a car payment so that is going to eat up my funds. Kiddo said I could borrow his car tomorrow to run grocery orders. After I get my car fixed I will resume working and saving for a new home. I am hoping to find a home and move in early November.

It was a damn good call to live in the safe parking lot. This is potentially saving me from being attacked, ticketed, arrested, or worse. Plus I like the workers. They treat us so kindly here. Like they know we've been through some shit

miss.a.p1600
10-06-2021, 07:05 AM
I don’t think L realizes that this engagement is his probationary period.

If I don’t see some career/income advancement, some better control over this Bertha bitch and her annoying kids, then I’m going to leave. I’m going to start hustling and saving up anyways so I can be ready to go if necessary.

I feel kinda bad cause he is trying but I also feel like there is a probability the grass could be greener on the other side (aka a man with no kids to take care of/no ex wife to pay) and it’s taking everything I have not to explore my options.

Why couldn’t I be like the ladies here who are good with other people’s kids n good step mothers

Fml

LoveyD
10-06-2021, 07:34 AM
I don’t think L realizes that this engagement is his probationary period.

If I don’t see some career/income advancement, some better control over this Bertha bitch and her annoying kids, then I’m going to leave. I’m going to start hustling and saving up anyways so I can be ready to go if necessary.

I feel kinda bad cause he is trying but I also feel like there is a probability the grass could be greener on the other side (aka a man with no kids to take care of/no ex wife to pay) and it’s taking everything I have not to explore my options.

Why couldn’t I be like the ladies here who are good with other people’s kids n good step mothers

Fml

Being dad's girlfriend/stepmom was the most thankless task I have ever endured. But of course that was because the ex bertha is a narcissist.

I will only do it again if the man appreciates what I do for him and his kid. And if my boundaries are respected.

I miss the guy I walked recently away from. I still feel the connection. I just want him to know that due to being abused in my previous relationships, I need to be treated with extra care, lots of communication, and most of all, *respect*. MAKE ME feel safe in this relationship. He knows what to do, he just has to do it.

Falling in love is scary, especially after narcissistic abuse. Is my judgemental off again? Is he going to abuse me too? The PTSD is real.

I think if we talk, we can work this out. I know he is scared too. I know he cares about me and he has done things to show he respects me. I just want him to put forth more effort.

ava$
10-06-2021, 07:52 AM
I don’t think L realizes that this engagement is his probationary period.

If I don’t see some career/income advancement, some better control over this Bertha bitch and her annoying kids, then I’m going to leave. I’m going to start hustling and saving up anyways so I can be ready to go if necessary.

I feel kinda bad cause he is trying but I also feel like there is a probability the grass could be greener on the other side (aka a man with no kids to take care of/no ex wife to pay) and it’s taking everything I have not to explore my options.

Why couldn’t I be like the ladies here who are good with other people’s kids n good step mothers

Fml
Ugh, step mothering is the worst!! They never appreciate u so eff um!! Lol sorry sounds bad but it’s not for me either, I cannot pretend to mess w other peoples kids equally to mine, I definitely put mine first sorry not sorry and there’s r in the way!

carmen_b
10-06-2021, 08:15 AM
I think you could benefit from therapy. Then you can say outright " the lack of career focus is scaring me " and instead of him being like " oh , we are fine" you would have a third party sort of giving a nudge to more fully listen. You can more fully lay it out such as " the household income I want to hit in a year is XYZ amount ". On the flip side, he can bring up anything as well ( criticism can be hard to take even in a therapy environment ).
Just my two cents.
Therapy helped my ex and I ( 7 years ) learn to live and grow together and even though we didn't make it, I'm still very pro therapy for couples.

Honestly ..... being a step parent is very hard even in the best situations. I consider my situation an " ideal " one . We get along ( J's daughter and I ), the interference with the ex is minimal ( she is only here once a week for 3-4 minutes on kid exchange days ) , and scheduling is on point placed in our calendars about 30-45 days AHEAD ( no one asks for short notice schedule changes unless it's an emergency ). Even with ALL that it still has challenges such as J not being able to more easily travel ( which is something I continually work on " letting go " ) . I consider it a trade off somewhat. Like ..... my scrappy style of living ( to be able to afford travel ) has been replaced by a much more luxe one . It's almost like I needed someone to show me that throwing down the $ for a nice home actually IS worth it and now I'm sold , ha. It is honestly STILL hard sometimes though ! The fact is, there will be challenges along the way which is true also for being with a kid free person. It can be very hard for two people to bring their 1-2 year goals together cohesively.


I don’t think L realizes that this engagement is his probationary period.

If I don’t see some career/income advancement, some better control over this Bertha bitch and her annoying kids, then I’m going to leave. I’m going to start hustling and saving up anyways so I can be ready to go if necessary.

I feel kinda bad cause he is trying but I also feel like there is a probability the grass could be greener on the other side (aka a man with no kids to take care of/no ex wife to pay) and it’s taking everything I have not to explore my options.

Why couldn’t I be like the ladies here who are good with other people’s kids n good step mothers

Fml

indiegirl
10-06-2021, 03:43 PM
Confession: I got a request to sign off for fed ex yesterday for my roomie and a big pat on the back text from my roomie for signing off on her fed ex escrow paperwork when they arrived (I think she's in the process of moving out after 2 years to finally live with her kids after her divorce). I napped the entire time when fed ex was here. All I did was post a piece of paper slapped on my door saying to knock or ring the doorbell and signed off on the release fed ex paper she decided not to read in the notice LOLL.

All they wanted was that signature on the paper they stuck on the door. lol.

moneybags
10-07-2021, 01:08 PM
I almost sent a nude to my trainer . Glad I was able to delete it!