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charlie61
11-15-2021, 09:41 AM
Ever since I started tracking my cycles n ovulation, I find myself being more sexually stimulated when I am ovulating
I suppose I’d consider myself asexual since most times I have no desire to be with a man sexually.
Right??!! It's only like once a month that i want to have sex, and the expectation of the experience is rarely satisfied by the reality. I mostly give my guy oral and then enjoy my vibrator on my own time. Would rather give oral where it's clearly just about him, instead of having sex and feeling used/dissatisfied (i don't aaaalways feel that way).
There are all sorts of other terms that you might find more relatable, like gray-asexual or demisexual.
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gray_asexuality
indiegirl
11-15-2021, 02:28 PM
I've never felt karma being served like this having a reference request from a woman when her customer stood me up 2 times in a row and cost me money. He always calls me when he's drunk in the morning and doesn't show up. But now he wants to see someone else in the afternoon! FUNNY how this email will go unanswered just like him not arriving. Ya cost me 30 bucks for late checkout.
Also nursing school is completely out the door and crossed off after the interview. I was told my background check is officially not possible for entrance so I'm taking some practice tests for the surgical tech program tomorrow and doing the official entrance test for Surgical Tech the following day. It's one thing my background will allow me to pursue. Starts in March. At least I now have a direction that is definitive. Actions have consequences for sure.
moneybags
11-15-2021, 02:45 PM
^^^seriously! I have a hard time believing that. There’s gotta be a work around. Can you get it expunged or something? If you really want it don’t give up, but sometimes it’s better to just move on than fight an uphill battle. I kinda live with the fear of being outed-it’s stressful, and so oppressive. All you had was one DUI? There’s gotta be a way round because I have a friend from AA that became a nurse after getting sober. I think the problem is you live in CA where it’s competitive as it is let alone with a background check. Don’t give up on your dream if that’s what you want. You can take your prerequisites now and keep applying to other schools.
I’m proud of myself for keeping it professional with my taken crush. Even though I want to rip his clothes off-I don’t mess with taken men. No judgement-it’s just bad karma that I don’t need in my life right now. I swear every guy I’ve ever liked ends up dating someone besides me. I’m beginning to think I have a think for unavailable men. At the same time, it’s just common for young people to settle down early, so it’s partly just the culture here. In the city, people stay single in their midlife and no one thinks anything of it. Oh well, I’ll just focus on living my best life until Mr. right comes along.
indiegirl
11-15-2021, 03:06 PM
^^^seriously! I have a hard time believing that. There’s gotta be a work around. Can you get it expunged or something? If you really want it don’t give up, but sometimes it’s better to just move on than fight an uphill battle. I kinda live with the fear of being outed-it’s stressful, and so oppressive. All you had was one DUI? There’s gotta be a way round because I have a friend from AA that became a nurse after getting sober. I think the problem is you live in CA where it’s competitive as it is let alone with a background check. Don’t give up on your dream if that’s what you want. You can take your prerequisites now and keep applying to other schools.
I’m proud of myself for keeping it professional with my taken crush. Even though I want to rip his clothes off-I don’t mess with taken men. No judgement-it’s just bad karma that I don’t need in my life right now. I swear every guy I’ve ever liked ends up dating someone besides me. I’m beginning to think I have a think for unavailable men. At the same time, it’s just common for young people to settle down early, so it’s partly just the culture here. In the city, people stay single in their midlife and no one thinks anything of it. Oh well, I’ll just focus on living my best life until Mr. right comes along.
They said because I am actively on probation until 2024. I have 2 dui's and this is the 4th place I've talked to who won't let me in because of it. Schools don't want to waste your time because the nursing board is so strict as well as they want to present the fact they've placed people in jobs after graduating to new students. During the zoom interview, even the nursing director came in to speak and said it would be a no from the board. I'm kinda at the point where I'd accept something new because I don't want to wait 2 more years to get it expunged and stay forever in the sex industry.
Good for you for keeping boundaries with someone you like. Sometimes it's even more appealing when they're taken, which is odd lol :)!!
miss.a.p1600
11-16-2021, 06:28 AM
Took the emergency contraceptive pill yesterday.
I’m relieved those exist and without a prescription.
I've never felt karma being served like this having a reference request from a woman when her customer stood me up 2 times in a row and cost me money. He always calls me when he's drunk in the morning and doesn't show up. But now he wants to see someone else in the afternoon! FUNNY how this email will go unanswered just like him not arriving. Ya cost me 30 bucks for late checkout.
Also nursing school is completely out the door and crossed off after the interview. I was told my background check is officially not possible for entrance so I'm taking some practice tests for the surgical tech program tomorrow and doing the official entrance test for Surgical Tech the following day. It's one thing my background will allow me to pursue. Starts in March. At least I now have a direction that is definitive. Actions have consequences for sure.
Really, u can’t be an rn but can be a surgical tech? I would’ve thought they have the same background requirements.. I am wondering cause I am entering the rn program and something showed up in my background I didn’t even know was there, so I’ve asked the clinical instructor if it will get In way, she’s gonna get back w me but like I’m supposed to start in January so like I’m gonna need to know…
anyways, confession is I get mad at my husband and killed most of his marijuana plants by poring vinegar in them while he was gone. I did it right after he had watered/feed so he thought he did it n blamed himself, a lot like how he had made me blame myself for all the BS he has done to me.. eff him, he isn’t ish
WonderWoman0642
11-16-2021, 08:47 AM
I'm not looking forward to the holidays. I love my family but it gets to be a bit much. I was already stressed over christmas, because it'll be a full house for a week, and I have to get gifts for a lot of people. I'm happy to get gifts for the kids but all the adults exchange gifts too. I just want to be like, hey guys this was a rough year for me. And now, my family wants to have a big thanksgiving too. I actually moved away so I don't have to go to every single event. But I always feel bad anyway if I don't show up.
On the other hand, I've been down lately and I'm at home all the time. So it might be what I need. I just hate forced small talk. And I hate the question, " So what have you been up to?" I don't talk about my job at all, so I don't know what to say. A few years ago, a distant cousin showed up who I've never met. And she strolled up to me and was like, "So what do you do exactly?" So I told her I was a model. (I really have done nude/art/glam modeling work so I just say model, and leave the adult stuff out). And this bitch just kept prying. "So...how does that work exactly? Do you have an agent? How do you get work without an agent?Hm...How old are you?" I seriously wanted to slap her. It was obvious that side of the family talks about me too.
My immediate family is fine but all the extended relatives who I hardly know...meh.
carmen_b
11-16-2021, 08:57 AM
^ Maybe you can suggest drawing names for adults ?
Possibly even the kids ?
Holidays are so high stress. People don’t need more junk.
indiegirl
11-16-2021, 11:11 AM
Really, u can’t be an rn but can be a surgical tech? I would’ve thought they have the same background requirements.. I am wondering cause I am entering the rn program and something showed up in my background I didn’t even know was there, so I’ve asked the clinical instructor if it will get In way, she’s gonna get back w me but like I’m supposed to start in January so like I’m gonna need to know…
anyways, confession is I get mad at my husband and killed most of his marijuana plants by poring vinegar in them while he was gone. I did it right after he had watered/feed so he thought he did it n blamed himself, a lot like how he had made me blame myself for all the BS he has done to me.. eff him, he isn’t ish
If enough time has passed then it should be good since you can get it expunged.
All the schools said I would need it to be expunged to enter. I have 2 years to wait for it to be considered. There's no way this judge I have is going to excuse me early. He lectured me the first time since they were aggravated dui's (high bac's of .26 and .375 for each), made me come in for progress reports every 2-3 months for the 2nd dui, put me on house arrest (Shoulda seen the look on his face for the 2nd one because they factor in your BAC. He pretty much stopped reading paperwork and stared at me). He's the type that does not forgive despite you wanting to move forward because this was criminal court I was in unlike being in drug court where they treat you verrrrry differently.
Yep my mother said she worked with someone who was ineligible and he wasted his time/money trying to become a firefighter because of his DUI and it disqualified him. But he's able to be a surgical tech still. They said they aren't as strict with surgical tech's as they are with nursing during the zoom meeting. Dunno why but I'll take it LOL! :P
If enough time has passed then it should be good since you can get it expunged.
All the schools said I would need it to be expunged to enter. I have 2 years to wait for it to be considered. There's no way this judge I have is going to excuse me early. He lectured me the first time since they were aggravated dui's (high bac's of .26 and .375 for each), made me come in for progress reports every 2-3 months for the 2nd dui, put me on house arrest (Shoulda seen the look on his face for the 2nd one because they factor in your BAC. He pretty much stopped reading paperwork and stared at me). He's the type that does not forgive despite you wanting to move forward because this was criminal court I was in unlike being in drug court where they treat you verrrrry differently.
Yep my mother said she worked with someone who was ineligible and he wasted his time/money trying to become a firefighter because of his DUI and it disqualified him. But he's able to be a surgical tech still. They said they aren't as strict with surgical tech's as they are with nursing during the zoom meeting. Dunno why but I'll take it LOL! :P
I called the rn state boards they said what I have won’t disqualify me from boards but hospitals n places look at that and I might not be able to work but I wonder about aesthetics… also lawyers have said they can most likely remove this for me but it will take time and $$.. idk what to do, don’t wanna waist time
indiegirl
11-16-2021, 06:22 PM
I called the rn state boards they said what I have won’t disqualify me from boards but hospitals n places look at that and I might not be able to work but I wonder about aesthetics… also lawyers have said they can most likely remove this for me but it will take time and $$.. idk what to do, don’t wanna waist time
I'd totally remove it if it's possible. It's worth the money. If it is substance related you gotta get that removed. I was told there was a suspension period if it is related to drugs/booze as well as giving random drugs tests if they want to. (I don't recall if that is through the boards you are put on suspension or the hospital that hires you?)
In hindsight, I do think "Damn. Could you imagine going out to dinner and having a glass of wine and getting fired over it through a random drug test they ask you for? That's a hard way to live for 3 years until your suspension period is over."
I'd totally remove it if it's possible. It's worth the money. If it is substance related you gotta get that removed. I was told there was a suspension period if it is related to drugs/booze as well as giving random drugs tests if they want to. (I don't recall if that is through the boards you are put on suspension or the hospital that hires you?)
In hindsight, I do think "Damn. Could you imagine going out to dinner and having a glass of wine and getting fired over it through a random drug test they ask you for? That's a hard way to live for 3 years until your suspension period is over."
It’s not substance, it says it’s a neglect finding with the state from 10 years ago. I had no idea they determined that as I’ve never been charged or arrested for anything ever. I would think if u could pass boards, u should be able to work, did they tell u that u could take boards but not work for the dui? Or did they say it will stop u from even taking the boards? Yea I want that removed from my name if I did nursing or not, it just sounds terrible and I have to little kids..
indiegirl
11-16-2021, 08:15 PM
It’s not substance, it says it’s a neglect finding with the state from 10 years ago. I had no idea they determined that as I’ve never been charged or arrested for anything ever. I would think if u could pass boards, u should be able to work, did they tell u that u could take boards but not work for the dui? Or did they say it will stop u from even taking the boards? Yea I want that removed from my name if I did nursing or not, it just sounds terrible and I have to little kids..
You could ask an attorney about it over the phone to check what they can do and some do phone consults and some with free consultations in person. I'd check out pricing from multiple people as well as years of experience practicing that area of law. The more reputable attorney is worth the money spent or else you are back at square one and wasted money.
The schools said the nursing boards would not pass me to become licensed because they are strict, active probation, and needed them to be expunged and rightfully so. The schools didn't want to waste my time and money. For all the nursing board can see on my record when reviewing it would be "well it seems to us she's got a substance problem and is reckless on active probation." There is plenty of other people they could choose without a record.
miss.a.p1600
11-17-2021, 09:09 PM
I am so glad L solved his problem of leaving work and driving all the way across town to pick up his son from school n take him to Berthas house.
He kept throwing out his fear and didn’t know what he was going to do so I just brainstormed some ideas that didn’t involve me doing any of it.
Picking up another bish kids (unless I’m a paid nanny) is beyond my pay grade.
WendiStarr
11-18-2021, 09:03 AM
I'm so over being pregnant. I just want to not pee 100 times a day, not get heartburn about everything, not have random nausea or get motion sickness every time I drive anywhere, and have my boobs and nipples finally stop hurting and totally dry up because I'm not interested in breastfeeding again. I will bind those son of bitches because I want my normal boobs back.
miss.a.p1600
11-18-2021, 10:29 AM
^reminds me of the time my mom said she told her narcissistic bf she wanted implants. He went with her to the consult then talked her out of it (most likely only because he didn't want to pay for her to look good to where other men would be attracted or allow her to reap any worthwhile benefits from their 'relationship'). She was frustrated because he told her her boobs looked fine. She was like 'well youre not the one wearing them 24/7'. Then, a short while later he got some cosmetic dental surgery, then told her 'you know, you can go ahead and get those breast implants now'.
Totally unrelated but the boobs thing reminded me of my moms story about her boobs
miss.a.p1600
11-18-2021, 10:31 AM
I confess I haven't done a lick of work for my day job. And I need to get paid so my chill mode will only last for a few more min.
I am tired of the effort I put into it and feeling like I'm barely getting anything out of it. Also L was off yesterday so I need a day to just have the house to myself n relax from all the stress of him popping up with his kids, trying to have a baby before I believe we are ready, and contemplating my next step to uplift myself from these seemingly invisible shackles
carmen_b
11-18-2021, 10:37 AM
^ I feel like people really have a tight hold on their cash before the holidays and my business slows down and agitates me every year around this time. It's a time you really have to claw it out of them.
kimbe
11-18-2021, 10:48 AM
^ I feel like people really have a tight hold on their cash before the holidays and my business slows down and agitates me every year around this time. It's a time you really have to claw it out of them.
Yes, that's my impression too, this time of year is always slow!
whirlerz
11-18-2021, 11:02 AM
It's f'd right before, during, & after a holiday. ^
carmen_b
11-18-2021, 11:11 AM
^ Yup. It’s aggravating.
I have finally learned not to set sights sky high mid Nov - mid Dec !
:/
It’s annoying but part of the deal.
Get enough to pay the basics and wait till Jan.
It's really hard to give the follow through needed to get things closed when you know people are ( mostly ) going to be slow . I am struggling with that right now too ! I don't have the option to just not buy advertising and fade for 5 weeks. I need to keep going ha. I need to make at least " the basics " even when it's not easy .
My good friends know I HATE the holidays at some level because of this slow down effect. :/
CLAW open those wallets ha !
I don't want to think in terms of slowness. I will think in terms of them BUYING quickly and taking all my steps to lead it that way.
miss.a.p1600
11-18-2021, 02:15 PM
L is going out of town
Yasssss!!!!!!!!!
LoveyD
11-18-2021, 09:47 PM
I think I'm going to try life without weed for a little. It just seems like I've built up a tolerance to it and I barely feel my edibles working anymore. Why buy edibles if you can't feel them? Might wait a little for my tolerance to drop and then keep taking lower doses. Weed is good for my CPTSD.
WendiStarr
11-19-2021, 08:59 AM
I bought myself a silly present that I don't need but us supposed to be coming today and will make me laugh. I have a doctor appointment today and really dread going to them.
https://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/B00IPAVIOO?ref=ppx_pt2_mob_b_prod_image
miss.a.p1600
11-19-2021, 09:20 AM
I guess I am just realizing that all my rants (even though they are valid) about L's behaviors that annoy me are blocking my blessings/
Instead of waking up grateful everyday, I find things about him that boil my blood.
I'm going to do my best to focus on improving myself, getting more clients, and finding things to be grateful for starting today.........
charlie61
11-19-2021, 01:12 PM
I guess I am just realizing that all my rants (even though they are valid) about L's behaviors that annoy me are blocking my blessings/
Instead of waking up grateful everyday, I find things about him that boil my blood.
I'm going to do my best to focus on improving myself, getting more clients, and finding things to be grateful for starting today.........
I really struggle with judgmental thoughts, too, and i always do my best to hide them from my partners, but sometimes i fail. I'm sure if i were with somebody who was literally perfect, I'd channel that tendency into insecurities about myself. But with my imperfect partners, i really do struggle, and I'm not sure what to do about it. Sometimes the judgment pops out (I'll make a judgmental comment or observation), and all it does is hurt the other person and the relationship. Literally journaling about this right now.
I guess I am just realizing that all my rants (even though they are valid) about L's behaviors that annoy me are blocking my blessings/
Instead of waking up grateful everyday, I find things about him that boil my blood.
I'm going to do my best to focus on improving myself, getting more clients, and finding things to be grateful for starting today.........
I do this too, probably cause the good things don’t need changing so I don’t focus there but should!
miss.a.p1600
11-20-2021, 11:08 AM
I am so pissed at L rn. And I have to fake it
I hate how his desire to have a baby is being pushed upon me whether I want that or not.
I took emergency contraceptive a little over 48 hrs (which it should be fine cause that’s within the deadline) but the “what if’s” are causing me anxiety.
Although I’d love to work from home today, I’m going to do my work outside this house today. And hit the gym. Get my mind off this shit
indiegirl
11-20-2021, 11:28 AM
I always laugh when the ultra rich in videos push their "do what you love in life" onto people. Hunnyyyyy....that's not how the world works! Let me just open up an organic drive thru, which costs thousands in rent, remodeling, purchase all the produce, hire people, marketing, and pray that I actually get business. I'm not gambling my life away with your words of wisdom. Recall watching how desperate this business owner was in the past who opened up a sad organic market and it failed miserably. He only had like 3-4 aisles of things to be purchased and Ross eventually bought the place when he sunk under.
I'll settle for whoever will hire me LOL. Being an entrepreneur is tough. After my failed dog walking business and etsy business, I don't think I'll ever attempt again to be an entrepreneur. You need money to start with.
I'm starting to get why people want to be youtubers or influencers. They can have a high school education and make millions regardless. LOL.
Also I have WELL overstayed 24 hours with an early check in at 10am yesterday to a late checkout at 12:15pm today. I'm livin' on the edge bahaha :P!! Mama's got her money's worth this trip at the hotel aka my second house.
charlie61
11-20-2021, 12:06 PM
^i totally agree on that. Unless you have a deep, deep passion for something that will keep you going through the toughest of times (for years) and are willing to work 12+ hours a day (for years) to keep things going, entrepreneurship is probably not for you. That even holds for stuff like massage therapy (as an independent LMT), because that shit takes so much energy.
And a lot of people don't factor in paying for your own taxes and benefits as an independent contractor. In corporate, I make $xx,xxx base, but with benefits and whatnot, i make $xxx,xxx. And that's on a strict 40-hour-per-week schedule, salaried, no hustle, no sales. There's no way i could do better than that on my own, lol. I do not have the energy or drive for that shit.
carmen_b
11-20-2021, 12:07 PM
All sex workers are business owners though.
I have owned a vanilla business forever but without a storefront ( so it’s not as terrifying when slow ).
I regret it at times ha ! Sometimes I feel good about it.
It being slow at certain times is when I’d do club work more often.
I joke that “ show me a business owner who loves it 100% of the time and Ill show you a liar “!
At this point I just tolerate the sales back and forth and income flux because it’s 90-95% remote now. I only have to physically show up somewhere about 1 day a month.
carmen_b
11-20-2021, 12:12 PM
Businesses NEVER run “ hands off “.
Business owners love creating systems to allow you to “ walk away “ at times but they never seem to 100% work !
You also need to be involved so people are not stealing or up to something. I know someone that had an employee embezzle just because she was exhausted and so desperate to be more hands off.
charlie61
11-20-2021, 12:24 PM
All sex workers are business owners though.
I have owned a vanilla business forever but without a storefront ( so it’s not as terrifying when slow ).
I regret it at times ha ! Sometimes I feel good about it.
It being slow at certain a times is when I’d do club work more often.
I joke that “ show me a business owner who loves it 100% of the time and Ill show you a liar “!
At this point I just tolerate the sales back and forth and income flux because it’s 90-95% remote now. I only have to physically show up somewhere about 1 day a month.
Yep, but a lot of sex workers are using strategies like not paying taxes, not giving themselves benefits (like 401k), etc to help make it feel like they're making more than they are. I honestly never made a ton of money in sex work. I made a lot for my age group and for the amount of time i was working, but not when you consider that it was under the table, no benefits, lots of time taken off due to burnout, etc. A lot of the time, i could only work one shift a week, and I'd spend the rest of the week recovering and dreading the next shift.
Just saying that it's definitely not for everyone as a long-term gig, though it can be great for some situations. I think sex work is ideal as supplemental income for people who have a straight job and want to boost that bottom line, or for people who need temporary work to bridge the gap between other things. For other situations, expectations for earnings should be modest when all is said and done. And there's nothing wrong with a modest income. But 10-20% will make 80-90% of the money.
Anyway, I'm threadjacking, lol!
carmen_b
11-20-2021, 12:27 PM
^ Dancing when you are not feeling it is traumatic in a way so I can see why at times it was once a week!
I wish I would have started in TECH 10 years ago like my partner.
I don’t want to thread jack either ha !
moneybags
11-20-2021, 01:46 PM
Omg…I really am bisexual! At Starbucks, I was about speechless when I saw this beautiful barista. Well that’s nice I have more options now!
SnuffleUffleGrass
11-20-2021, 02:24 PM
Omg…I really am bisexual! At Starbucks, I was about speechless when I saw this beautiful barista. Well that’s nice I have more options now!
Tell us more....................
carmen_b
11-20-2021, 03:08 PM
^ Yes hahaha . :)
You should strike up a convo with her.
charlie61
11-20-2021, 03:26 PM
Omg…I really am bisexual! At Starbucks, I was about speechless when I saw this beautiful barista. Well that’s nice I have more options now!
Something else must have happened for you to have had that thought about being bisexual, because I'm pretty sure even straight women find other women beautiful and have fantasies about them, even if they don't actually want to act on those fantasies!
Genoveve
11-20-2021, 03:51 PM
Something else must have happened for you to have had that thought about being bisexual, because I'm pretty sure even straight women find other women beautiful and have fantasies about them, even if they don't actually want to act on those fantasies!
Agreed. There was a insanely beautiful stripper at the first strip club I ever worked at and one time I was coming out of the dressing room right while she was coming in, and so for a second we were stuck face-to-face and she had just had her makeup done by the makeup artist and I literally froze. Like I was literally stunned by her beauty. But I am straight as an arrow.
What annoyed the shit out of me with her was that her stripper name was Lisa. This chick looked like a combination of Salma Hayek and Marilyn Monroe, extremely exotic, and she picked the most basic, boring name to go by. /:O
charlie61
11-20-2021, 06:35 PM
Do they make edibles without sugar? I don't eat any sugar (no honey, agave, or any form of sugar unless it's in a whole food like a fruit, lol), and it seems like all edibles have sugar.
My partner is going on a guys trip in a few weeks, and i think I'll try some edibles, then! I'll work up the courage to go to a dispensary. I'm so ridiculous.
kamiliam
11-20-2021, 06:41 PM
Do they make edibles without sugar? I don't eat any sugar (no honey, agave, or any form of sugar unless it's in a whole food like a fruit, lol), and it seems like all edibles have sugar.
My partner is going on a guys trip in a few weeks, and i think I'll try some edibles, then! I'll work up the courage to go to a dispensary. I'm so ridiculous.
I have seen them made with keto sugars, occasionally baked goods with just fruit
WonderWoman0642
11-20-2021, 07:08 PM
Do they make edibles without sugar? I don't eat any sugar (no honey, agave, or any form of sugar unless it's in a whole food like a fruit, lol), and it seems like all edibles have sugar.
My partner is going on a guys trip in a few weeks, and i think I'll try some edibles, then! I'll work up the courage to go to a dispensary. I'm so ridiculous.
No sugar? That's awesome! I want to give up sugar but I don't think I can give up honey. I love tea and raw honey.
LoveyD
11-20-2021, 07:20 PM
Try sugar free kushy punch.
miss.a.p1600
11-20-2021, 08:38 PM
Do they make edibles without sugar? I don't eat any sugar (no honey, agave, or any form of sugar unless it's in a whole food like a fruit, lol), and it seems like all edibles have sugar.
My partner is going on a guys trip in a few weeks, and i think I'll try some edibles, then! I'll work up the courage to go to a dispensary. I'm so ridiculous.
Yes.
“Edibles” can be food or tinctures.
I recently discovered my fav cbd store sells peanut butter n crackers infused with thc. I asked him about low sugar options bc I was constantly eating brownies which I’m sure have hella white sugar.
Tinctures are the best way bc you can mix the tincture in a drink or put drops under your tongue. You can also buy pills that have a thc tincture with mct oil filled into capsules.
Another way is to buy distillate (more advanced method) and mix it into cake batter, etc n from there you can add some Splenda or Stevia or whatever
carmen_b
11-21-2021, 02:41 PM
I will probably delete but I feel very " meh " about this situation yesterday.
I had a weird time where I didn't see my family in 2-3 months ( I was just to lazy to drive to them 5 hours away ).
They came down here the last 4 days and I was with them roughly 2p.m. -8p.m. most days .
I cut my work days short Wed - Fri by a few hours to maximize their visit.
I think my partner had a mental blip or something because he mentioned this weekend not being " fun enough " or something like that last night around 10p.m. if I remember right.
Um.... you knew exactly what we were in for ( a lazy weekend ) with much of MY time going to my family. I told him openly that I didn't care if he only saw them one time for a short visit. I didn't want to burden him with " insta plans " and obligations. It was just a “ join as you want “ vibe.
I reminded him that I'm very triggered by complaining ( all my ex did in 2018 ) and to PLEASE offer a SOLUTION within 2-3 minutes of any complaint .
At one level I know this is my BIG trigger but on the other ...... wtf ..... watch yo-self .
We had two really sexy days ( thurs and fri evenings ) .
Maybe he was hoping for " round 3 on day 3 " per say and was trying to lead it that way. Lets just say it did not work. Once the complaining started I was as dry as at the Sahara.
I honestly don’t know what goes through dudes minds sometimes.
You had the house to yourself 2-8pm three days in a row. You got sexy stuff 2 out of 3 days.
You were free to join ( or not !) any activities. Say “ thank you “ for making this family visit so EASY and obligation free. Don’t complain.
I was attempting to give this 24 hours hoping I'd feel better and it's been like 19-20 hours I think.
It didn't really escalate . We have never " fought " ( have never raised our voices to each other ) . We keep communication issues " clean ". I am just unsettled by the commentary that took place. :/
carmen_b
11-21-2021, 03:17 PM
If you need extra entertainment hire a circus clown and please keep me out of it.
Marina Starr
11-21-2021, 04:18 PM
My confession is I'm a liberal Hoe that loves conservative money.
#liberalhoe #conservativemoney
Aurora_Sunset
11-21-2021, 04:45 PM
In the words of miss.a.p, I feel like a "mega cunt" for bitching at my husband last night about the pizza he got. He even got kinda serious in saying that he was sick of me acting ungrateful when he does something nice and thinks about me. But the problem, which I told him, was that it didn't feel like he was thinking about me. Because whenever he orders a pizza for us to share instead of us getting our own, he ALWAYS orders a meat lover's, despite me saying every single time that I don't like meat on my pizza. I told him I don't mind sharing, or having some pepperoni or something on it, but he always just gets exactly what he wants with no compromise or input from me. Which I feel is a valid complaint. But I did feel bitchy about it.
carmen_b
11-21-2021, 04:56 PM
^I see how it could be frustrating. Can they put half the meat just on the OTHER HALF ( so he gets double ) ?
Our spot does that for us ( J can't have chicken so I get them to put it all on my side ). Or is what you want your own small pizza with certain veggies ? I think he should do it for you ( get your request not expect you to eat his fave )!
Mega Cunts unite lol.
I'm hiding upstairs for a bit.
Ah damn he just ordered these delicious noodles.
It’s hard to stay mad with hot noodles luring you downstairs.
I may have to revisit the convo though and I’m dreading it. :/
LoveyD
11-21-2021, 07:46 PM
I'm kinda over the guy I've been seeing. He doesn't put much energy or effort into the relationship at all and I feel like he's not ready for a relationship, like he is too scared of getting hurt again. He can't just keep dragging this along until he actually feels ready. Plus the age difference makes me concerned. I am 14 years older than he is. Next time he texts I may have to talk with him about this. I want a guy who wants me and shows it. This breadcrumbing is for the birds and I deserve a helluva lot better.
Kinda want to end it, but on peaceful terms. He's not a bad guy, just has a lot of issues. He's too cranky too.
I think I need a break from guys. I just want to focus on my career and get it together.