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carmen_b
04-22-2022, 07:17 AM
Miss P :
I think it can be good to have each parent have a little alone time with each child.
BUT the weather is good.
They can be OUT instead of just lingering around the house also if they are doing a " split the kids up type of day.

PLUS I have to say ...... even if L went " full time " supposedly I'm 99% sure Bertha would still be rolling around causing shit ! From you have written she is not the type to just relax and move out of town. She would probably be doing inconvenient nonsense seeing them a few hours a week . You might as well just split the custody !

carmen_b
04-22-2022, 07:23 AM
Raven :

I feel for ya !
I would probably make a list of your " must haves " in order to stay ( and make sure he knows you are serious about leaving if he doesn't do it ALL ).

You seem very unhappy and it doesn't seem sustainable to keep going like this .
I am biased probably because I know if my former partner in 2011-2018 would have let me know he was prepping to leave I would have done it all ( got on meds + therapy + fitness ).

ravenskyy
04-22-2022, 08:38 AM
Raven :

I feel for ya !
I would probably make a list of your " must haves " in order to stay ( and make sure he knows you are serious about leaving if he doesn't do it ALL ).

You seem very unhappy and it doesn't seem sustainable to keep going like this .
I am biased probably because I know if my former partner in 2011-2018 would have let me know he was prepping to leave I would have done it all ( got on meds + therapy + fitness ).

Thank you for the advice and the responses. I will definitely take some time to think and figure out another way to approach him with these issues. I'm good at making lists, so this is a really good idea for me.

Todays confession- I think I have a bad relationship with food. I'm starting to find comfort and happiness in food and eating. I literally eat much more than I used to and I'm not making an effort to control myself. Ugh. Thanks depression!

miss.a.p1600
04-22-2022, 09:02 AM
I think it’s okay to find comfort and happiness in food. If it’s food that nourishes your body mind and spirit.

What else do you find comfort in. Me. I love warm tea at night and park walks during the day. Sometimes taking a self care day off is wonders.

Well I could ramble on but instead maybe a self care thread if there isn’t one already ?

indiegirl
04-22-2022, 10:06 AM
Right when my roommate left the house since she's been here all week watching tv and napping (THE PANDEMIC IS BASICALLY OVER, GO BACK TO WORK) I proudly timed releasing a loud fart right when she left her room for her to hear. :) You are welcome.

miss.a.p1600
04-23-2022, 09:18 AM
I confess. I slightly exaggerated my day so I wouldn’t be obligated to more unstructured last minute childcare that L was going to try to push off on me.

This is YOUR parenting time that YOU wanted so figure out how to take care of your damn kids and stop haggling me forcing me into roles that require free labor.

carmen_b
04-23-2022, 10:04 AM
^ Enjoy “ working “ till 7 pm haha

:)

carmen_b
04-23-2022, 10:05 AM
I went to an arts event all day yesterday.
I felt a little guilty leaving partner ( working 8-4 ) but loved the event so much.
:)

When’s the next one ?

carmen_b
04-23-2022, 12:58 PM
I confess I'm disappointed with the day job AGAIN .
Omg such an ongoing thing . Last month ( I own a little vanilla business ) I made 4 k which is such a perfect happy amount. It's not so much that life is stressful but *enough* to feel like goals are moving instead of waiting !

I don't know if my advertising resources just screwed me and not really showed my ads.
I ended up with like 3 " meh " leads this entire first three weeks of April. I moved two into the contracting and invoicing phase but I feel like I may get lucky and have one book of those two ( each has a retainer of about 1 k ). I don't even want to say what I made the first few weeks ( it's under $1,000 yikes ).

I'm trying to enjoy the weekend but I'm also like .... ok ...... wtf do I do now ?
Do I get another local type job ?
TRY for a tech job ?
^ J started talking months ago about helping elaborating a resume.
I have some " project manager " experience and now we are getting more serious about doing it.

My real estate leads right now are also " soft " . I have two people " slowly " getting ready to look but not actually setting appointments and going looking with me. :/

There is the club obviously but .......... " eh ".

whirlerz
04-23-2022, 01:02 PM
Yep it's a job where you are on your feet all the time.

Omg I even looked up stenographer in the past. They get paid pretty well. I wonder how all that schooling works but it sounded fun. I remember one who was a higher up stenographer was making $$$,$$$. But that is rare I think?

I'm currently researching this now, after licensing, the sal is like 50k, goes up w/experience..
Looking for schools (none in my area, I do want to do online)
You must get a machine, (they have refurbs) & some other stuff.

I couldn't be on my feet constantly, for that other job

carmen_b
04-23-2022, 01:02 PM
^ One of the leads is also a " deal with the devil " ha.
They want me up on Montana in Oct. and I won't want to be driving then so instead of leisurely making my way there as a 6 day driving trip I'll need to fly . It's a 2k job and I might be giving $800-$900 to travel costs. If they give me the retainer though it's 1 k NOW and I'll worry about the " devil " in October !

charlie61
04-23-2022, 01:14 PM
Daaaaang.... flight prices during the summer. I am not paying $1k+ to go visit family in the Midwest for a few days. I think we'll delay the trips we wanted to take.

carmen_b
04-23-2022, 01:15 PM
^ Did you also search the ones like SouthWest ?
They don't show on Expedia and can sometimes be good.

I can relate to the frustration.
I'm looking for a stay-cation for us in Vegas in a week and our visit is one weekday ( easy and affordable ) and one friday ( super expensive ) . Oh well at least they balance each other since only one is a week end day. :/

I'm just SO POUTY .
I feel like I'm missing like 2k this month at least and just feel upset and unsure how to move forward. If I got about that I'd feel so much better about the month!

miss.a.p1600
04-23-2022, 07:48 PM
I confess I'm disappointed with the day job AGAIN .
Omg such an ongoing thing . Last month ( I own a little vanilla business ) I made 4 k which is such a perfect happy amount. It's not so much that life is stressful but *enough* to feel like goals are crackin ' instead of waiting !

I don't know if my advertising resources just screwed me and not really showed my ads but I ended up with like 3 " meh " leads this entire first three weeks of April. I moved two into the contracting and invoicing phase but I feel like I may get lucky and have one book of those two ( each has a retainer of about 1 k ). I don't even want to say what I made the first few weeks ( it's under $1,000 yikes ).

I'm trying to enjoy the weekend but I'm also like .... ok ...... wtf do I do now ?
Do I get another local type job ?
TRY for a tech job ?
^ J started talking months ago about helping elaborating a resume since I have some " project manager " experience and now we are getting more serious about doing it .

My real estate leads right now are also " soft " . I have two people " slowly " getting ready to look but not actually setting appointments and going looking with me. :/

There is the club obviously but .......... " eh ".

This sounds quite similar to how I feel about my career right now.

miss.a.p1600
04-23-2022, 08:45 PM
I’m so tired and need a shower but don’t feel like going through the motions.

I wish I had some body wipes good enough to refresh instead of taking a shower.

Buuut im going to drag my lazy ass in the shower So I can feel refreshed even though im tired as hell.

This will be the quickest shower of my life.

kimbe
04-23-2022, 11:53 PM
I’m sitting in my bed with my Mac catching up on work while T sleeps like a baby besides me. I gave him head just before we went to bed and that makes him sleep so well ;)

~Carmen~
04-24-2022, 02:13 AM
I’m so tired and need a shower but don’t feel like going through the motions.

I wish I had some body wipes good enough to refresh instead of taking a shower.

Buuut im going to drag my lazy ass in the shower So I can feel refreshed even though im tired as hell.

This will be the quickest shower of my life.

This is exactly how I'm feeling right now.

I have been working my butt off the last few days and just want to go to bed. My sheets are clean so I need to be clean.

whirlerz
04-24-2022, 06:00 AM
Trader Joe's has some great body wipes, they're big & citrus scented. :)

miss.a.p1600
04-24-2022, 08:28 AM
^thanks for the idea whirler

I’m going to grab some next time I go there.

carmen_b
04-24-2022, 08:39 AM
I really didn't want to go to the club ( at all this month ) but it is feeling irresponsible to make so little ( so far ) this month. My bills are paid and I've got a decent savings but I am finding it pretty upsetting any month my business makes less than 3 k . My rental is making $800 a month currently so I am not even aiming for big numbers ..... just consistency.

Any thoughts are welcome. Ugh.
I may read them from the dressing room at the club damm it.
At least I can do long hours there if needed.
I can hustle WHILE my day job customers are taking all day deciding what they are doing.

indiegirl
04-24-2022, 03:09 PM
The new room rental contracts have been created. My mother is going to hand deliver them separately to each roommate. The roommate I want to head out isn't allowed to have her boyfriend over at night and her rent is at 1200 a month. The other roommate is still at 900 a month. Guess which one will be leaving when she sees the price increase? :).

LoveyD
04-24-2022, 08:10 PM
I dropped a rude, pushy, demanding IC customer in mid-order today bc they flooded the chat with demands and questions. " Are you at the store yet? I need my meat done first. Where's my chicken parmesan? I have to have my order by 7...why can't you find my chicken? I called the store and they said they had it...." And on and on. I couldn't even fill the order bc she kept firing off messages. No please or thank you. I'm thinking to myself I don't get paid enough to deal with this. Nor did I really wish to approach this weirdo at their home. So I left the store and said fuck it. If his person treated me with respect, they wouldn't have had a problem.

charlie61
04-24-2022, 09:52 PM
Gonna tell an executive this week that his idea is dumb

miss.a.p1600
04-25-2022, 04:53 AM
I really didn't want to go to the club ( at all this month ) but it is feeling irresponsible to make so little ( so far ) this month. My bills are paid and I've got a decent savings but I am finding it pretty upsetting any month my business makes less than 3 k . My rental is making $800 a month currently so I am not even aiming for big numbers ..... just consistency.

Any thoughts are welcome. Ugh.
I may read them from the dressing room at the club damm it.
At least I can do long hours there if needed.
I can hustle WHILE my day job customers are taking all day deciding what they are doing.

my thoughts…..totally respect your hustle.

Just hope your partner isn’t going to give you grief about it ?

carmen_b
04-25-2022, 07:41 AM
^ He's alright with it now ( supposedly ) .
I think after a little more time with me he GETS IT .
This is a money thing. Nothing more.

It is really just more *me* lately who honestly doesn't want to be there. :/
It isn't really the environment. It's the late hours.
I guess I could experiment with some day shifts.

I feel like my life is weird lately. I can skate by making very little from the business ( $1000-$1200 covers me a month with my rental up north making a bit ) .
I feel like it would be a good TIME to push forward on some larger savings goals. Plus I just feel like my overall " business hour " time that I protect religiously ( M -F 9-5 ) should YEILD more.
One day you'll catch me going " ok , I'll do this suburban trophy gf thing and do it well " and the next day I feel like I would DO ANY job the pays a consistent 50k or more a year. I am just so worn out from under earning in 2020 / 2021 .

Right now my numbers from April are *bad* from the business. There just isn't any other to put it unless another retainer or two comes in before the end of the month.

Most of my advertising spend was with Google Adwords. Buyer beware. They sent me three slow moving lame customers this month ( wtf ) instead of anyone normal. But .... 5 days left. Maybe it'll be a " final hour " type month. :/

Oh ..... I should probably mention that I've run this business ( various versions ) and been self employed for 17 years. I guess I should be grateful for having some good years but if this thing doesn't PRODUCE more CURRENTLY I need to make decisions on the next move.

carmen_b
04-25-2022, 07:43 AM
Nice ! I'm so happy for you that you are pushing that girl to move on ! Yes !!!
The new room rental contracts have been created. My mother is going to hand deliver them separately to each roommate. The roommate I want to head out isn't allowed to have her boyfriend over at night and her rent is at 1200 a month. The other roommate is still at 900 a month. Guess which one will be leaving when she sees the price increase? :).

carmen_b
04-25-2022, 07:44 AM
Weirdo.

Also who does their meat first ? She really wants you to roll around the store and then wait in line while the meat starts warming ( barf ).

Anyway ......


I dropped a rude, pushy, demanding IC customer in mid-order today bc they flooded the chat with demands and questions. " Are you at the store yet? I need my meat done first. Where's my chicken parmesan? I have to have my order by 7...why can't you find my chicken? I called the store and they said they had it...." And on and on. I couldn't even fill the order bc she kept firing off messages. No please or thank you. I'm thinking to myself I don't get paid enough to deal with this. Nor did I really wish to approach this weirdo at their home. So I left the store and said fuck it. If his person treated me with respect, they wouldn't have had a problem.

indiegirl
04-26-2022, 07:43 AM
I am so fucking tired today. I couldn’t sleep at all. I have to do finish a project that took me 6.5 hours total to do though Bahhhhhhhh.

WendiStarr
04-26-2022, 09:42 AM
I took cold medicine and feel high as a fucking kite. I was feeling awful before. My 2 year old's repetitive cocomelon and baby shark marathons doesn't bother me today.

charlie61
04-26-2022, 02:08 PM
Gonna tell an executive this week that his idea is dumb

Update: he loved the feedback and agreed

xxxGothBarbie
04-26-2022, 03:04 PM
My crush has been looking at my pics ��

JGB2009
04-28-2022, 08:45 AM
Earlier in the year my doctor gave me a prescription for Azithromycin. After reading about the scary side effects I didn't bother taking it.

miss.a.p1600
04-28-2022, 05:36 PM
I lied to my partner about MY money and told him I didn’t get any money back in tax returns when in actuality I did

I just didn’t want him counting my coins and erroneously thinking he could slither out of providing if he knew I received $$$$

Aurora_Sunset
04-28-2022, 05:45 PM
I checked my old provider email tonight and I have a message (sent back in January but I rarely peek back at my stuff since retiring) from an old client saying he still thinks fondly of me and wondering if I ever got back into the business. I am SO tempted to email him back and say to contact me the next time he's in town. I didn't want to go as far as advertising again, per se, since I'm sure I'd never be able to keep up a consistent clandestine schedule, but if people pop up and wonder if I'm available for a little extra cash.... ?

I honestly don't know how "guilty" I'd feel either, because my husband has been kinda fucking up lately. But, of course, two wrongs don't make a right yada yada

Did I mention today is my anniversary? That just feels like it makes it so much worse on my end.

carmen_b
04-29-2022, 09:29 AM
Smart.


I lied to my partner about MY money and told him I didn’t get any money back in tax returns when in actuality I did

I just didn’t want him counting my coins and erroneously thinking he could slither out of providing if he knew I received $$$$

xxxGothBarbie
04-29-2022, 09:31 AM
I lied to my partner about MY money and told him I didn’t get any money back in tax returns when in actuality I did

I just didn’t want him counting my coins and erroneously thinking he could slither out of providing if he knew I received $$$$

I constantly lied to all my bfs about how much $ I actually had LOL
They can keep paying for me & giving me $$ to go play with my friends in the city. If his mother wasn't so annoying I'd still be there soaking up the free rent :)

miss.a.p1600
04-29-2022, 10:01 AM
I checked my old provider email tonight and I have a message (sent back in January but I rarely peek back at my stuff since retiring) from an old client saying he still thinks fondly of me and wondering if I ever got back into the business. I am SO tempted to email him back and say to contact me the next time he's in town. I didn't want to go as far as advertising again, per se, since I'm sure I'd never be able to keep up a consistent clandestine schedule, but if people pop up and wonder if I'm available for a little extra cash.... ?

I honestly don't know how "guilty" I'd feel either, because my husband has been kinda fucking up lately. But, of course, two wrongs don't make a right yada yada

Did I mention today is my anniversary? That just feels like it makes it so much worse on my end.


Oh! Happy anniversary :)

moneybags
04-29-2022, 10:29 AM
So I probably won’t be posting anything too personal anymore. I have some
“friends” from the club that know I’m on here, so you can always PM me, but I’m gonna try to be more low key in general.

Like I make the mistake of thinking that people care. Nah most people are curious, but they don’t care. This goes with crushie. He’s not getting anymore personal info either.

miss.a.p1600
04-29-2022, 11:49 AM
I feel ya moneybags

Even though it’s supposed to be a safe space there is always going to be salty lurkers waiting to rain on your parade.

Sorry to hear. I’ve experienced it myself too. And it sucks!

smeca
04-29-2022, 01:32 PM
Idk if it's a confession bc I literally gasped out loud next to my bf, but a girl I follow/chat to on a few platforms has posted a picture and she is so pretty. I wanted to make friends but now I have a huge crush. I'm so straight but go weak for some girls, what is that!

chanzep
04-29-2022, 01:32 PM
I lied to my partner about MY money and told him I didn’t get any money back in tax returns when in actuality I did

I just didn’t want him counting my coins and erroneously thinking he could slither out of providing if he knew I received $$$$

Good your money not his business.

indiegirl
04-29-2022, 02:30 PM
I showed up to my outcall and a second guy was there. The other guy being there really bothered me so I took all my things with me at all times. The second guy offered me cocaine and I politely declined. He was wearing a shirt that said "Don't give whores drugs" LOLLLLL oh man. I dunno why but that guy creeped me out wearing that shirt. I wish I was told in advance a second person was there. Showing up for outcalls can be scary if they don't relay the situation going on at their place. I need to start asking in advance for special details before outcalls :(

I'm trying to make money today even though I should be studying. I'm gonna learn sterile processing as fast as I can on Saturday and Sunday before the test. I want to make more money before things get tough and I only have 1 day for work next term.

Aurora_Sunset
04-29-2022, 03:27 PM
I took the time off opportunity presented at work, left after only 3 hours, and took myself to the movies. I saw Everything, Everywhere, All of the Time. It was really good!

Wish the food was better though. I hate when they charge you $14 for a sandwich where there's hardly any filling, and it's all just a huge bun. But I guess that's most places these days.

whirlerz
04-29-2022, 04:18 PM
Where did you eat, Aurora?
I got a decent fish sandwich at Popeye's.
Also I like Culver's a burger chain, but they have lots other stuff, I prefer grilled items.
There's a place in a gas station, Urban Counter, they have good burgers & grill chicken sandwiches.
I also go to a burrito place.
& I like Starbucks breakfast sandwiches, the egg white wrap, & the egg white turkey bacon sandwich.

All had decent portions..
Me personally, I'd complain about something like that, inflation is one thing, but that's a ripoff.

Aurora_Sunset
04-29-2022, 04:50 PM
Where did you eat, Aurora?
I got a decent fish sandwich at Popeye's.
Also I like Culver's a burger chain, but they have lots other stuff, I prefer grilled items.
There's a place in a gas station, Urban Counter, they have good burgers & grill chicken sandwiches.
I also go to a burrito place.
& I like Starbucks breakfast sandwiches, the egg white wrap, & the egg white turkey bacon sandwich.

All had decent portions..
Me personally, I'd complain about something like that, inflation is one thing, but that's a ripoff.

At the theater, they're one of those places with a grill where you can order from your seat. I think they're just a local place, but they're in the REALLY nice part of the city so I expect more from them.

miss.a.p1600
04-30-2022, 06:41 AM
Good your money not his business.

Remember those job apps and interviews?

Now his ass is asking me “how much will you make if you get that job?”

And getting mad when I don’t tell him. Hitting me with the “I tell you everything” and “how are we going to move forward if we can’t be open with each other” lines.

Mf doesn’t ask about the culture, the duties, the benefits. Just straight up “how much will you be making”

Asshole!!!

Focus on how much YOU will be making when I leave your ass and stop checking and chasing MY coins.

THIS is why I knew I should have kept my job search secret.

I did him like those annoying strip club customers be asking “how much money you making tonight” I got up and left mid “discussion”

carmen_b
04-30-2022, 07:16 AM
^ Tell him it’s an internship for experience.

Where is his raise ?

whirlerz
04-30-2022, 08:02 AM
Remember those job apps and interviews?

Now his ass is asking me “how much will you make if you get that job?”

And getting mad when I don’t tell him. Hitting me with the “I tell you everything” and “how are we going to move forward if we can’t be open with each other” lines.

Mf doesn’t ask about the culture, the duties, the benefits. Just straight up “how much will you be making”

Asshole!!!

Focus on how much YOU will be making when I leave your ass and stop checking and chasing MY coins.

THIS is why I knew I should have kept my job search secret.

I did him like those annoying strip club customers be asking “how much money you making tonight” I got up and left mid “discussion”

Did he mow the lawn yet, lol?

indiegirl
04-30-2022, 08:42 AM
My neighbors can be so tacky sometimes. How about trying not to park your car on the front lawn today? It looks trashy!

whirlerz
04-30-2022, 08:55 AM
My neighbors can be so tacky sometimes. How about trying not to park your car on the front lawn today? It looks trashy!

Not to mention terrible for the grass!