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WendiStarr
04-30-2022, 06:02 PM
A single, childless friend my age was talking about trying for a baby using donor sperm. I felt like saying,"No! Don't do it!" and telling her about colic, sleepless nights and sleep deprivation, poop blowouts, the newborn tar poop, the terrible two's, the 6-8 weeks straight of bleeding after giving birth, losing any sense of privacy while pooping, shaving, or showering because a kid wants to follow you everywhere, and how trying to maintain your sanity through everything as a single mom with no support system is very fucking hard. Add the pandemic and worrying about your baby who is too young to get a covid vaccine possibly getting infected and parenting right now is terrifying. I love my kids but sometimes I wonder what the heck I got myself into. 2 of them are here from fertility drugs so I feel bad for thinking that.
ravenskyy
04-30-2022, 07:53 PM
A single, childless friend my age was talking about trying for a baby using donor sperm. I felt like saying,"No! Don't do it!" and telling her about colic, sleepless nights and sleep deprivation, poop blowouts, the newborn tar poop, the terrible two's, the 6-8 weeks straight of bleeding after giving birth, losing any sense of privacy while pooping, shaving, or showering because a kid wants to follow you everywhere, and how trying to maintain your sanity through everything as a single mom with no support system is very fucking hard. Add the pandemic and worrying about your baby who is too young to get a covid vaccine possibly getting infected and parenting right now is terrifying. I love my kids but sometimes I wonder what the heck I got myself into. 2 of them are here from fertility drugs so I feel bad for thinking that.
I love my kids, but I really wish that I could go back to being single and childless. I wish I could press pause on them for a few years, then press play when I'm in a better place mentally and financially. Lol
My confession tonight is that I wish that I could skip mother's day this year. I really don't feel like being around my husbands family right now. I'd rather not have to fake smile and pretend to be happy, when all I want to do is be rid of my husband. He sucks! I don't know what's wrong with him, but I hate it. It's so bad now that my antidepressants aren't even keeping me from hating him. I also am not in the right mindset or financial situation, to shop for gifts. I'm getting mentally overwhelmed as I'm typing this. I just really want to be left alone for a week. No social media. No kids. No annoying ass husband. Just me, my pets, my podcasts and camming.
I feel like an awful person every time I see my in-laws, because they don't know how much I can't stand their son. I feel like I'm disrespecting them whenever I visit. I'm pretty sure they would hate me if they knew how bad our marriage is.
chanzep
04-30-2022, 08:26 PM
Remember those job apps and interviews?
Now his ass is asking me “how much will you make if you get that job?”
And getting mad when I don’t tell him. Hitting me with the “I tell you everything” and “how are we going to move forward if we can’t be open with each other” lines.
Mf doesn’t ask about the culture, the duties, the benefits. Just straight up “how much will you be making”
Asshole!!!
Focus on how much YOU will be making when I leave your ass and stop checking and chasing MY coins.
THIS is why I knew I should have kept my job search secret.
I did him like those annoying strip club customers be asking “how much money you making tonight” I got up and left mid “discussion”
Omg when are you leaving this dude he does nothing for you such a drain. He's like a girl thinking he's going to live off your money. He doesn't deserve you. The audacity of him. I would like and say I'm taking a pay cut in New job because in a year they will offer me a lot and it saying it's such a career blah, blah blah. Say money will be tight for you for a while . Say the hours are long and get out of the house make loads and stack then disappear one day lol.He's had long enough to better himself in order to keep you.
He expects you to share your business. I would share fake shit so he think he know you. These nosy men think they are slick.
miss.a.p1600
04-30-2022, 10:44 PM
^the more i thought about the shit the more enraged I became because just the day before he refused to tell me why he keeps turning down opportunities to stay in a job he claims he wants to leave.
hypocrite.
Anyways the lease ends in August and I’ve dealt with this shit for as long as as I can so I can secure my finances. I’m getting a new job so I can stack even more and make a move into a better environment. One with no little kids, no batshit poverty minded resource sucking ex wives, no dead weight period. I can’t wait!
chanzep
04-30-2022, 11:06 PM
He's weird to not seek better jobs. He has kids to think about and expects to have you around. He has been doing for opposite of what he should .
Good for you for finding a better job and making your plans.If lease is up in August then start looking for a place now. You might be able to get a early deal. You will feel a breath of fresh air once your away from him. In your own space without him watching your every move and his kids making noise.
Aurora_Sunset
05-01-2022, 03:43 PM
I think I have a good handle on geography until I look at a map. In my mind, I really thought Colorado and Nevada were right next to each other LOL I just..... forgot... about Utah. I think I thought it was up there by Wyoming and Idaho or something... bahahaha
lynn2009
05-01-2022, 04:56 PM
I think I have a good handle on geography until I look at a map. In my mind, I really thought Colorado and Nevada were right next to each other LOL I just..... forgot... about Utah. I think I thought it was up there by Wyoming and Idaho or something... bahahaha
I barely could get around the 5 miles surrounding my house without a GPS.
indiegirl
05-01-2022, 05:59 PM
I barely could get around the 5 miles surrounding my house without a GPS.
I still use GPS to get home from school bahahaha. It's the same route for 2 months.....I literally would be lost in this world without my phone LOL. Or even when someone tells me to go east on a street I think in my head "well that's nice. I see a Del Taco. Am I close?" hahahahahaha
Dreamqueen
05-01-2022, 11:16 PM
I think I have a good handle on geography until I look at a map. In my mind, I really thought Colorado and Nevada were right next to each other LOL I just..... forgot... about Utah. I think I thought it was up there by Wyoming and Idaho or something... bahahaha
I remember when South America was directly below North America.
When the Panama canal ran east and west.
When the boot of Italy looked like a boot, not a high heel. It's also cocked back more.
When Cuba was tiny. It's huge now, and Florida has shrunk.
WendiStarr
05-02-2022, 01:04 PM
This is ridiculous but I have an odd obsession lately with smoked paprika. I have been putting it on chicken and potatoes every time I cook it. Even when I don't cook with it that day, I still open it just to smell it. I love the smell of smoked paprika! Lol
seashell
05-02-2022, 01:10 PM
I finally have my own place, and I can't stop buying books. I used to love my Kindle, but paper just feels sooooo much better to read!
Genoveve
05-02-2022, 01:45 PM
This is ridiculous but I have an odd obsession lately with smoked paprika. I have been putting it on chicken and potatoes every time I cook it. Even when I don't cook with it that day, I still open it just to smell it. I love the smell of smoked paprika! Lol
I loooove smoked paprika. Especially in mac n cheese omg. :yummy:
seashell
05-02-2022, 07:36 PM
I loooove smoked paprika. Especially in mac n cheese omg. :yummy:
Smoked paprika is freaking delicious! I used to add it to everything! Speaking of, time to buy some more, lol
Second confession of the day... it's embarrassing how big of a nerd fetish I have.
ravenskyy
05-02-2022, 09:18 PM
I wish that I could clone myself so that I can still work and also be depressed in peace. I have so much weighing on me and no one to turn to. I've never been so unmotivated in my life.
Also, I've been feeling fatigued a lot lately. I fall asleep multiple times a day, even on 8 hours of sleep. I have a doctor's appointment next week, so I'll get to find out if I have an issue with my thyroid. Kinda hoping I don't, but also hoping I do so I can get some medication and start feeling like myself again. I thought the fatigue and weight gain was just depression, but I'm starting to doubt that.
charlie61
05-02-2022, 09:56 PM
I wish that I could clone myself so that I can still work and also be depressed in peace. I have so much weighing on me and no one to turn to. I've never been so unmotivated in my life.
Also, I've been feeling fatigued a lot lately. I fall asleep multiple times a day, even on 8 hours of sleep. I have a doctor's appointment next week, so I'll get to find out if I have an issue with my thyroid. Kinda hoping I don't, but also hoping I do so I can get some medication and start feeling like myself again. I thought the fatigue and weight gain was just depression, but I'm starting to doubt that.
Ugh, fatigue. Could be so many things. Stress, iron deficiency, b12 deficiency... I'm glad you have the appointment. Keep us updated! ♡
seashell
05-02-2022, 10:06 PM
I wish that I could clone myself so that I can still work and also be depressed in peace. I have so much weighing on me and no one to turn to. I've never been so unmotivated in my life.
Also, I've been feeling fatigued a lot lately. I fall asleep multiple times a day, even on 8 hours of sleep. I have a doctor's appointment next week, so I'll get to find out if I have an issue with my thyroid. Kinda hoping I don't, but also hoping I do so I can get some medication and start feeling like myself again. I thought the fatigue and weight gain was just depression, but I'm starting to doubt that.
Could also be a vitamin D deficiency! Definitely do a full blood panel...
Dreamqueen
05-02-2022, 11:08 PM
I finally have my own place, and I can't stop buying books. I used to love my Kindle, but paper just feels sooooo much better to read!
I love books too.
I was just looking at book lights on Amazon, so I can read in one of my beds, or on the couch.
Nothing like holding the book in your hands.
I collect book marks too.
Are you into them also?
indiegirl
05-02-2022, 11:11 PM
Mister needy dog eating 3 times his normal chicken meal and whining over everything he has left to whine over because he's an old big baby. 12 yrs old in October. *eye roll*No sign of aging. He's going to get fat soon eating that much so I'm going back to Vallartas hispanic market instead of El Super this time LOL. I don't even think this counts as a chicken thigh because they are so big :P.
kimbe
05-02-2022, 11:20 PM
I finally have my own place, and I can't stop buying books. I used to love my Kindle, but paper just feels sooooo much better to read!
Me too! My partner calls me old fashioned since I prefer paper books…
miss.a.p1600
05-03-2022, 07:08 AM
Told L I was getting an office with my 'small' 9-5 paycheck LOL
He's trying to talk me out of it
Nope.
I'll be using my new office to land my next sugar daddy/your replacement.
You should have gotten that raise and put that Bertha bitch in check
carmen_b
05-03-2022, 07:26 AM
^ I love that ! :)
A place just for you 9-5 .
You wouldn't be doing it if he wasn't attempting to infringe on those hours, ha.
miss.a.p1600
05-03-2022, 07:58 AM
^yeah I'm going to enjoy the freedom
I started outlining all the ways I would be unavailable at this house, have long hours, and be on a STRICT schedule (which I HATE) and instead of doing his part so he can have the homemaker experience his dumb as is like 'welcome to my world'
I guess him being lazy, lying to me about wanting to get ahead in his career, refusing to do simple shit to make me happier, is what I needed to see in order to pull myself together to fast track my plan out of here.
carmen_b
05-03-2022, 08:01 AM
Well to him your schedule can be strict . :)
He doesn't need to know if you are at yoga .... or the movies .... or having a drink somewhere ha.
It can be such a tricky balance.
I have the option to work part time right now with how much J does ..... I just don't want it.
I tried it in Jan and Feb. and HATED it.
I can not even describe how boring I found even part time home making. Now I will cook like one meal a week instead of a little more and order some take out or something for us another time or two in the week. I try to automate certain things for J ( to contribute here ) . I just don't want to *personally* do the tasks if that makes sense. I still want to contribute.
moneybags
05-03-2022, 10:53 AM
I’m done being nice to people for awhile. I think I need to go through a phase of being bitch and let people hate on me and not like me. I need to set boundaries with my time and energy. I’ve already started taking baby steps in setting boundaries with how much energy I give people.
Marina Starr
05-03-2022, 01:40 PM
I’m done being nice to people for awhile. I think I need to go through a phase of being bitch and let people hate on me and not like me. I need to set boundaries with my time and energy. I’ve already started taking baby steps in setting boundaries with how much energy I give people.
I will tell you there's no going back once you go bitch because people treat you so much better, at least in my experience.
People come and go but those that can't respect boundaries have to go.
https://i.ibb.co/SNy9dHh/its-not-your-job-to-like-me-its-mine.webp (https://imgbb.com/)
seashell
05-03-2022, 10:45 PM
I love books too.
I was just looking at book lights on Amazon, so I can read in one of my beds, or on the couch.
Nothing like holding the book in your hands.
I collect book marks too.
Are you into them also?
Bookmarks are awesome! I like to collect ones from the library & bookstores. I just got a set of magnetic bookmarks with adorable nerd dogs wearing glasses, lol
Omg book lights... haven't used one in a long time, but might have to get one again!
indiegirl
05-03-2022, 11:08 PM
When you're a "man" but grew up with a dog mom to make sure you were warm when those ears got cold! LOL. He's in his burrito blankie! hehehe
https://i.ibb.co/bLnn8r0/IMG-4630.jpg (https://ibb.co/Y8GGqtC)
whirlerz
05-04-2022, 08:27 PM
When you're a "man" but grew up with a dog mom to make sure you were warm when those ears got cold! LOL. He's in his burrito blankie! hehehe
https://i.ibb.co/bLnn8r0/IMG-4630.jpg (https://ibb.co/Y8GGqtC)
Aw, what a cute face!
indiegirl
05-04-2022, 08:46 PM
Aw, what a cute face!
He kinda resembles this with the top of the blanket LOL:https://i.ibb.co/gFLDPSs/Screen-Shot-2022-05-04-at-8-45-25-PM.png (https://imgbb.com/)
whirlerz
05-04-2022, 09:24 PM
I’m done being nice to people for awhile. I think I need to go through a phase of being bitch and let people hate on me and not like me. I need to set boundaries with my time and energy. I’ve already started taking baby steps in setting boundaries with how much energy I give people.
Sounds good to me!
WendiStarr
05-05-2022, 06:04 AM
I bought myself this for Mother's day:
https://www.sendflowers.com/product/the-ftd-french-garden.htm
seashell
05-05-2022, 06:07 PM
I confess I'm going back to my old strip club, where I've worked since 2009... god I'm so old... but I am really excited to audition again! I dropped by today, saw the old manager who originally hired me, and now I'm re-learning to walk in those heels. My audition is tonight. Super nervous, hoping this goes well...!
lynn2009
05-05-2022, 06:19 PM
I confess I'm going back to my old strip club, where I've worked since 2009... god I'm so old... but I am really excited to audition again! I dropped by today, saw the old manager who originally hired me, and now I'm re-learning to walk in those heels. My audition is tonight. Super nervous, hoping this goes well...!
Good luck!!
miss.a.p1600
05-08-2022, 01:07 PM
I didn’t feel like dealing with my partner on Mother’s Day. So I cut the time with him and his kids short.
He didn’t have anything planned FOR ME today.
Instead he helped his ex wife enjoy a peaceful weekend while I have to deal with her loud ass needy kids who he refuses to allow to do chores.
His kids demanded he take them for smoothies and to buy their mom a gift.
He started loudly burping and I told him to stop. He was like I don’t think I can. I said I think you will refine yourself on Mother’s Day. Then he had the audacity to wear this ugly ass tattered sweater I told him to take it off and he’s like “why? I’m just hanging inside the house?” Bruh that is UGLY and it’s Mother’s Day
Plus,
How tf are these kids demanding to come to this house, make it about them and their mom while I sit here and cook and clean up after these mfs?!? No ma’am.
I tolerate a lot and I’ll be damned if I make reasonable requests and get any push back.
Made me realize just how controlling and forceful and set in his ways about topics surrounding those kids and his personal development.
They can all celebrate together.
Not today satan! Not today.
#stepmotherchronicles
#berthacomegetyourkids
smeca
05-08-2022, 01:38 PM
I'm so damn horny. Any sexy music plays in the car with my bf I'm sitting there biting my lip. Even the chef songs from South Park album. I need more D
carmen_b
05-08-2022, 01:42 PM
^ Great day to step out and then back when they are gone or nearing bedtime !
I joined this step mom forum thing and omg I can’t believe some of the shit on there.
I imagine I’ll be removed within days for telling some of these women their partners are out of line ( rampant disrespect omg ). One girl posted something that made me go back in her threads. I guess the first Christmas her partner left her alone and was at the ex’s opening presents.
^ You touched him again after that ?
He might as well be dickless in my eyes.
I found some of the stories super abusive.
Civvy ladies are just .... difficult sometimes ha.
Anyway that was a ramble but I hope you enjoy your solo day ha.
carmen_b
05-08-2022, 01:42 PM
Smeca :
I hear that. I attacked my partner yesterday and he’s very pleased. :)
Aurora_Sunset
05-08-2022, 02:17 PM
I spent too much money yesterday in the little tourist-y town we visited, but I got legitimately cool stuff and am happy with all my purchases.
miss.a.p1600
05-08-2022, 02:40 PM
^ Great day to step out and then back when they are gone or nearing bedtime !
I joined this other step mom forum thing and omg I can’t not believe some of the shit on there.
I imagine I’ll be removed within days for telling some of these women their partners are out of control ( and the rampant disrespect omg ). One girl posted something that made me go back in her threads. I guess the the first Christmas her partner left her alone and was at the ex’s opening presents.
^ You touched him again after that ?
He might as well be dickless in my eyes.
I found some of the stories super abusive.
Civvy ladies are just .... difficult sometimes ha.
Anyway that was a ramble but I hope you enjoy your solo day ha.
lol @ dickless!
Some men are so stupid and act in ways that go against their own self interests just so they can inflate their fragile egos.
Those stepmom forums actually keep me sane knowing that I’m not some weird oddball and my thoughts and feelings are legitimate. I feel less guilt.
Cutie101
05-08-2022, 07:31 PM
lol @ dickless!
Some men are so stupid and act in ways that go against their own self interests just so they can inflate their fragile egos.
Those stepmom forums actually keep me sane knowing that I’m not some weird oddball and my thoughts and feelings are legitimate. I feel less guilt.
I hear you. I've read horror stories too and I only can get to the conclusion that those are irresponsible dads altogheter, constantly looking for women to take care of their children, using the "step mother love" to pressure them. You're not crazy, kids have no fault obviously, it's only his irresponsible and passive ass at fault, because he has no accountability over his own life. If you want me to love your children and care for them, make sure I have the environement and resources to do so. Don't just dump them on me, like it's my fault you didn't use a condom in time.
Don't get pregnant with this asshole, ever.
chanzep
05-08-2022, 07:46 PM
Miss P those kids should be with her this weekend so they can celebrate. Not bothering you. You should treat yourself to a spa day or something and switch your phone off.
miss.a.p1600
05-08-2022, 07:59 PM
^i did. I left at 1:30pm, when I came back they were gone to their aunts house (took Carmen and other ladies of stripper web advice).
I gave zero fucks about any obligations that I did not voluntarily obligate myself to AND I refuse to be guilt tripped on this glorious day.
carmen_b
05-08-2022, 08:55 PM
To be totally honest I did the same two days a week ago out of the 4 days J’s daughter was here.
I struggle on the longer visits so I wanted to be proactive and plan ahead to treat myself . I did a movie / dinner out two days back to back which put me out of house 3:45 -7:30 roughly . I did feel *some* guilt but I just knew I needed it. I wanted to try more space to myself on the longer visit ( without leaving town ).
I fibbed though and said I was at a gym class one day. I felt like I’d get judged if I admitted to both movies ha.
I think if I'm in town during those longer 4 days visits that is probably what it will often look like to keep it sustainable.
carmen_b
05-09-2022, 08:28 AM
I will stay out of that resource for a bit because the abuse I hear about there is disgusting and triggering.
Could you imagine ? Being at the ex's for Christmas ? Disgusting !
Anyway .... next time he got naked I would have just been like " I don't see anything what happened ? "
I'd look closer " yep I don't see a dick here "
Maybe your EX could pull out a magnifying glass to see it.....ask her while I pack up all my stuff haha.
lol @ dickless!
indiegirl
05-09-2022, 12:18 PM
Woot woot! Term 1 of school is over. I got two 99%’s and a 96% in my 3 classes!!! Term 2 starts Wednesday.
trustfundkiller
05-09-2022, 02:10 PM
I'm starting to date again and I'm considering experimenting with being honest when guys ask what I do for a living. I used to say "bartender" because I wanted them to "get to know me" instead of judging me based on my job. Telling them upfront would save time for everyone. If someone is so judgmental they can't deal with me being a stripper, then that's not the right one for me and it's better I know that immediately. But the other reason I don't tell guys right off the bat is because I don't owe details of my personal life to anyone, and my reasoning comes more from a place of privacy than fear of judgment.
Idk. This has always been something I've found difficult throughout my dating life. A lot of my exes I've met in the club, so it was never something I had to explain.
carmen_b
05-09-2022, 02:30 PM
^ Ugh it can be such a hard call ! :/
Update us on those dates hahahaha.
carmen_b
05-09-2022, 02:32 PM
J sometimes is the not the best travel planner / schedule arranger ha.
He's great in day to day life but kind of freezes when it comes to larger scale.
SO .... I took the reins and tried to position us for Hawaii in June ( towards the end ).
I actually had a client request June 20 ( the day we are supposed to leave ) so I'm like " ok if I'm referring this job to someone and making $200 instead of $900 you are SURE I'm holding June 20-28 for you " ?
He'd better be sure . If I flip someone into position as " me " ( the part I usually do ) it costs me .
I'm fine with the cost if we are traveling.
It won't be fine if we aren't.
I really want to see this 8 ish day duration come together smoothly because even a year ago I'd say he was more hesitant to get away ( for even 6-7 days ) so I will consider this progress.
chanzep
05-09-2022, 02:43 PM
My internet went out just before lunch but came on. I don't want to go back to working today. I feel like my job might try to check. Blah
indiegirl
05-09-2022, 02:58 PM
I'm starting to date again and I'm considering experimenting with being honest when guys ask what I do for a living. I used to say "bartender" because I wanted them to "get to know me" instead of judging me based on my job. Telling them upfront would save time for everyone. If someone is so judgmental they can't deal with me being a stripper, then that's not the right one for me and it's better I know that immediately. But the other reason I don't tell guys right off the bat is because I don't owe details of my personal life to anyone, and my reasoning comes more from a place of privacy than fear of judgment.
Idk. This has always been something I've found difficult throughout my dating life. A lot of my exes I've met in the club, so it was never something I had to explain.
It's such a tough call being upfront about sex work. But maybe you can go into details and lighten the mood calling it just a fantasy experience and talk about all the positive aspects/safety/professionalism of the biz.