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indiegirl
07-05-2022, 06:17 AM
^police don’t do shit about illegal fireworks on holidays because they don’t have the manpower for it.
I thought about calling the laws on my neighbors who were blasting loud ass music all day and night for fucking 48hours straight and popping fireworks late into the night (well past the noise ordinance) but I realize police wouldn’t do shit about it.
I had to take thc to calm my nerves from endless loud random popping noises that could have been gunshots lol
I swear, this holiday gets even more awful every year. I would've been loaded on edibles last night but I have school this morning to deal with. It's like people are getting worse with their disrespect. I retaliated and while everyone decided to go to sleep last night I opened all 4 doors of my jeep, blasted rap music as loud as my speakers would permit while I cleaned up THEIR fireworks mess in my backyard. Don't worry, I was also angrily shouting while doing this haha. I'm sure I looked clinically insane but I don't care. People shouldn't have to tolerate RUDE ASS neighbors so I decided to inconvenience them after a full day of hearing their explosions.
Aurora_Sunset
07-05-2022, 09:21 AM
When I left my parents' house last week, I told myself it probably wasn't going to be the absolute last time I was there, because I had been talking to my dad about possibly coming back for my grandmother's actual burial in a couple weeks. But now that COVID really fucked up my work and paychecks, I don't think that's going to happen. They have an accepted offer on their house, so if all goes well, I know I won't have time to get back up there for a visit until after the house is sold.
I don't know why, because it seems really overdramatic, but I almost have an anxiety attack when I think about never going back there again. I think my hometown, and that house I grew up in, in particular, has always felt like a constant and a safe space in my life. No matter what else was going on, where I moved to, what job I have, or if relationships and friendships come and go, going back there was always this immediate comfort. It's decades of familiarity, and the only place that I've ever truly considered "home" since I've never stayed longer than 2 years anywhere I've lived since I turned 18. Knowing that next time I visit them, I'll be driving down unfamiliar streets, staying in an unfamiliar house, that has no memories attached to it or anything in it that's mine, feels really jarring. It feels like I'm losing the one calming, consistent place in my life. Which probably sounds stupid to the majority of people whose parents most likely did not live in the same house for almost 30 years.
I'm having such an emotional reaction to it, I'm almost glad I deluded myself into thinking I'd be back one more time. Sometimes, it's better not to know that it's officially the last time.
miss.a.p1600
07-05-2022, 11:03 AM
I swear, this holiday gets even more awful every year. I would've been loaded on edibles last night but I have school this morning to deal with. It's like people are getting worse with their disrespect. I retaliated and while everyone decided to go to sleep last night I opened all 4 doors of my jeep, blasted rap music as loud as my speakers would permit while I cleaned up THEIR fireworks mess in my backyard. Don't worry, I was also angrily shouting while doing this haha. I'm sure I looked clinically insane but I don't care. People shouldn't have to tolerate RUDE ASS neighbors so I decided to inconvenience them after a full day of hearing their explosions.
Took my edibles then woke up at 4am for work purposes too.
Im probably immune to it and my subconscious won’t let me sleep deeply if I know I have something important to do next morning.
Lol at you shouting into the air at your neighbors. They deserve it.
I’m going to pay back all these fools and blast some Mexican music early this upcoming Saturday morning while they’re trying to sleep in ……
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-05-2022, 03:27 PM
When I left my parents' house last week, I told myself it probably wasn't going to be the absolute last time I was there, because I had been talking to my dad about possibly coming back for my grandmother's actual burial in a couple weeks. But now that COVID really fucked up my work and paychecks, I don't think that's going to happen. They have an accepted offer on their house, so if all goes well, I know I won't have time to get back up there for a visit until after the house is sold.
I don't know why, because it seems really overdramatic, but I almost have an anxiety attack when I think about never going back there again. I think my hometown, and that house I grew up in, in particular, has always felt like a constant and a safe space in my life. No matter what else was going on, where I moved to, what job I have, or if relationships and friendships come and go, going back there was always this immediate comfort. It's decades of familiarity, and the only place that I've ever truly considered "home" since I've never stayed longer than 2 years anywhere I've lived since I turned 18. Knowing that next time I visit them, I'll be driving down unfamiliar streets, staying in an unfamiliar house, that has no memories attached to it or anything in it that's mine, feels really jarring. It feels like I'm losing the one calming, consistent place in my life. Which probably sounds stupid to the majority of people whose parents most likely did not live in the same house for almost 30 years.
I'm having such an emotional reaction to it, I'm almost glad I deluded myself into thinking I'd be back one more time. Sometimes, it's better not to know that it's officially the last time.
I'm glad you shared this. Things like this have been on my mind.
carmen_b
07-05-2022, 03:34 PM
I hope my partner cuts me some slack.
I'm not sure he realizes my sister and her family joined me at the cabin two nights ago !
It was her , her two kids, and husband and me in a tiny cabin ha !
I had no idea I wouldn't sleep well or come back physically exhausted *despite* good planning.
I am the queen of talking shit about people who don't plan well so I do realize this sets me UP for a lecture today.
I was NOT awesome to deal with last night. The bottom line is that I probably should have stayed back even though I *promised* to watch the fireworks with him and daughter. I was pretty pissed he found a spot requiring a long hike ( 2 miles ) to do at 9p.m. !
I have talked before about hating holidays more than is probably normal and this is just an example of that.
I definitely hate the 4th .... like ..... wtf is there to celebrate as our country is literally taking about women's basic rights ?
Every fire work should be stuffed up the old white dudes asses and lit who had a part to play in this . Now THAT is a display I would like to see.
I hope my partner cuts me some slack on this!
I'm getting nervous. We both get done working in 30-40 minutes ha.
I kind of feel bad I wasn't more on top of the holiday even though I really tried to be!
indiegirl
07-05-2022, 04:01 PM
Took my edibles then woke up at 4am for work purposes too.
Im probably immune to it and my subconscious won’t let me sleep deeply if I know I have something important to do next morning.
Lol at you shouting into the air at your neighbors. They deserve it.
I’m going to pay back all these fools and blast some Mexican music early this upcoming Saturday morning while they’re trying to sleep in ……
LOL!!! Go for it!!!
I'm banging at pot and pan and blasting music around 2am from now on if this continues next year hahaha.
Genoveve
07-05-2022, 04:16 PM
I'm sure it's easy to read my posts and think, "just ditch the dude!" But you guys have to realize that I'm the problem, not him. His drinking habits have no objective impact on me or us. His drinking doesn't affect how he treats me, our finances, or his responsibilities.
Well I definitely think it's you, LOL. On a less 'LOL' note though it does sound very OCD, I know people with OCD can obsess over their loved ones' health and have irrational fears of them dying and it reminds me of that.
Just put the mini fridge in his room or wherever and fill it with his beers and be like "Look at what I did for you babe, convenient beer fridge" and he'll probably be like "Sweet!" Men are simple, they don't overanalyze everything like we do and take things at face value. And then just always refill it with beer for him because he might not think to do it.
You will probably start obsessing over something else or over tracking the refills though so it's good that you want to work on yourself.
ETA this is the mini fridge I bought my friend last Christmas, I got her pink but the green is nice: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B089PYWXSC/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_search_asin_image?ie=UTF8&th=1
lynn2009
07-05-2022, 04:35 PM
I have ended up with four interviews this week, but I am feeling so incredibly insecure and anxious about it all.
charlie61
07-05-2022, 06:41 PM
Well I definitely think it's you, LOL. On a less 'LOL' note though it does sound very OCD, I know people with OCD can obsess over their loved ones' health and have irrational fears of them dying and it reminds me of that.
Just put the mini fridge in his room or wherever and fill it with his beers and be like "Look at what I did for you babe, convenient beer fridge" and he'll probably be like "Sweet!" Men are simple, they don't overanalyze everything like we do and take things at face value. And then just always refill it with beer for him because he might not think to do it.
You will probably start obsessing over something else or over tracking the refills though so it's good that you want to work on yourself.
ETA this is the mini fridge I bought my friend last Christmas, I got her pink but the green is nice: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B089PYWXSC/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_search_asin_image?ie=UTF8&th=1
Yesss girl, exactly all of this. If he stopped drinking completely, I'd just be obsessing over the next thing (exercise, sugar consumption, etc.).
And you also nailed it when you said that men are rarely overthinkers when it comes to this kind of thing. It can even feel to me sometimes that he doesn't care about me, since he isn't overthinking in the way i am. I know, i know...
Definitely taking responsibility here! Thank you for your words. It means a lot because you've actually known me on here when i was with a real addict, lol.
Genoveve
07-05-2022, 08:47 PM
It can even feel to me sometimes that he doesn't care about me, since he isn't overthinking in the way i am. I know, i know...
You and I think most women. You know what they say….men are from Mars and women are from Venus.
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-06-2022, 08:38 AM
I confess I'm going to glue my favorite ashtray together since I am too cheap to throw it out. #bumlife
Marina Starr
07-06-2022, 10:49 AM
I confess I wanted a box of crispy fried chicken from Publix so bad even though it's so bad, lol.
Haven't had it for over a year so the body wants what it wants.
lynn2009
07-06-2022, 12:44 PM
I have ended up with four interviews this week, but I am feeling so incredibly insecure and anxious about it all.
I had two today and both went well! The interviewers told me they want to set up a next round before we hung up.
This is so refreshing, my current work has me feeling like such a flipping loser.
WendiStarr
07-07-2022, 03:44 PM
I keep seeing this same IHOP commercial and it's making me want that junk. I went even more nuts when I looked at their menu and saw that they have a combo where you can get an omelette and pancakes or french toast. I don't need that junk but it starts sounding good for some reason at night.
LoveyD
07-08-2022, 12:07 AM
I confess...
I'm seriously considering contacting the family who bought my childhood home from my rapist father. He sold it to them in 2011, then croaked in 2017. Thinking about tipping them off to the fact that he raped his kids and trafficked them out of that house, (as compassionately as I can). I'll tell them to talk w the neighbors who still live there on that street bc they knew/ heard rumors what was going on, so they can verify. I know it would shock and upset them but they have kids & I know if I was raising kids in a house where the previous kids were raped & trafficked, I'd want to know. Wouldn't it be interesting if they filed a lawsuit against my father's estate...the one I was purposefully excluded from...
How fun would it be to see my sister sued lol
All three inheritance thieves would get sued & lose it haha!!
They could also sue the broker who would then, in turn, sue my nasty sister & aunt...
I found the current owner on fast people search & FB.
Bwahaha...
Cutie101
07-08-2022, 11:08 AM
I confess...
I'm seriously considering contacting the family who bought my childhood home from my rapist father. He sold it to them in 2011, then croaked in 2017. Thinking about tipping them off to the fact that he raped his kids and trafficked them out of that house, (as compassionately as I can). I'll tell them to talk w the neighbors who still live there on that street bc they knew/ heard rumors what was going on, so they can verify. I know it would shock and upset them but they have kids & I know if I was raising kids in a house where the previous kids were raped & trafficked, I'd want to know. Wouldn't it be interesting if they filed a lawsuit against my father's estate...the one I was purposefully excluded from...
How fun would it be to see my sister sued lol
All three inheritance thieves would get sued & lose it haha!!
They could also sue the broker who would then, in turn, sue my nasty sister & aunt...
I found the current owner on fast people search & FB.
Bwahaha...
Ok, my skin crawled reading this. I am so sorry this happened to you, it's devastating to read this, Lovey. I know the first thought was to not burden yourself with even more negative emotions, but whatever brings you peace is more desired so... why not going for it? Just make sure you talk to a lawyer and see if you can actually win, to avoid wasting time and energy, because it's not gonna be a breeze to go trough something like this.
LoveyD
07-08-2022, 12:49 PM
^^ turns out that they wouldn't have a legal leg to stand on. This happened in PA.
Oh well. They won't be able to sue.
But I can still promote the book I wrote/ tell my story. That seems to be the only way for justice. Creative street justice.
He raped & trafficked my big sister and me, then when we called him out he purposefully excluded us from the will. Fucking dick. So glad he's in hell now.
Thank you for your kind words, Cutie.
carmen_b
07-09-2022, 04:59 PM
^ Lovely I'm always so sorry to hear this stuff ! I hope for some reason their efforts in the estate go bust ( such as being stupid with investing ).
Shitty people deserve shitty results.
carmen_b
07-09-2022, 05:03 PM
I went to this nice Mexican food place.
I don't want to tell J I went.
He is downstairs cooking hot dogs at 6 p.m.
I hate eating after 5 haha.
This will end the indulgence hiding from J hahaha.
miss.a.p1600
07-11-2022, 08:42 AM
Today is my car service at the luxury dealership.
Since L isn’t helping me with my bills I decided to not wear my ring because this place is sugar daddy central.
My consultant is sexy af .mmmmmmmmm
Why he give me his business card and circle his cell phone number lol!!!
whirlerz
07-11-2022, 09:34 AM
Today is my car service at the luxury dealership.
Since L isn’t helping me with my bills I decided to not wear my ring because this place is sugar daddy central.
My consultant is sexy af .mmmmmmmmm
Why he give me his business card and circle his cell phone number lol!!!
Nice! ^
My ex fiance was a great car dealer, & was good w/investments.. He wanted to make sure you call! :yes:
Aurora_Sunset
07-11-2022, 02:17 PM
I really need to find a new doctor and schedule a checkup. Nothing's wrong, I just haven't gotten one in 4 or 5 years, oops
Aurora_Sunset
07-11-2022, 02:23 PM
My car died leaving work today. I got it going again quickly and took it to Jiffy Lube cuz I was due for an oil change anyway. They diagnosed it as my alternator, and quoted me $900 to replace it. I asked my husband, and he said the part only costs about $400 and he can put it in himself, so I got my car home and let him deal with it.
He knows that I only have $2 to my name right now because of all the work I missed with family emergencies and unpaid COVID leave. So he bought the part. Normally, I'd be fretting about when I can pay him back, but honestly... I've decided that unless he brings it up and specifically asks, I'm not going to offer to pay him back. I've given him hundreds, if not thousands, of dollars for emergencies over the years that he's never paid me back for. Quite frankly, I'm owed a time where he covers MY ass in a tight spot.
carmen_b
07-12-2022, 02:59 PM
^ Ha, agreed. You are gifted the car part hahaha.
seashell
07-12-2022, 11:06 PM
I confess that I've been referring to one of my exes as Voldemort. Mostly in my head, but to some friends/family as well. But he was really sweet today, I got locked out of my apartment, and he tried to help, since we used to live here together. Guess I should be nicer. I've been such a cranky bitch lately, oops
miss.a.p1600
07-13-2022, 05:05 AM
Today I’m hanging out in the Sugardaddy Suburbs. I love men who love to provide and splurge like it’s their duty.
indiegirl
07-13-2022, 01:57 PM
I admit I am just overall bored with the same food I purchase at the grocery store. :(. I'm need some new ideas, sauces, or foods I am obsessed with to try.
carmen_b
07-13-2022, 08:22 PM
I really feel sometimes like I had a " few " different lives.
I am in this dive motel and I feel like it brings out my greed. Like .... in this other life I had 10-11 years ago I would camp out in the dive motel for 3 days and try to make AS MUCH AS I COULD from the strip club nearby hahaha before rolling on .
I would describe my energy level today as a " 2 " on a 1-10. Like ..... could I dance a shift tomorrow ? I don't know ...... maybe ? lol
I am not here for the strip club. I am here for Vanilla work ha so it doesn't matter.
Aurora_Sunset
07-14-2022, 06:28 AM
I'm grateful my husband has stepped up and said he'll help with my car payment, because it would be extremely hard for me to do it myself. But I hate it at the same time. I've been wanting him to have this new income and start contributing more financially for years, but from a place where it was supposed to give me a breather and allow me to save - not be because I can't pay my bills myself and cover just enough that I'm back to square one of just scraping by. It makes me feel reliant, and doesn't solve the problem of not making enough to save. It's the fucking story of my life - the second more money starts coming in, something will happen to make it just enough to cover the next increase in the price of life, and there's never any getting ahead...
I really hope something pops for my job search soon.
miss.a.p1600
07-14-2022, 04:35 PM
I confess that (on multiple occasions) I’ve thought about calling up my old sugar daddy (or any of my established exes) …..
The one with the nice house and no dependent kids who paid like it was his duty.
I wonder if he is single.
He was annoying but so is L.
If I have to deal with an annoying man, he might as well have some abundant resources to make it worth my while.
Cutie101
07-14-2022, 05:02 PM
I'm grateful my husband has stepped up and said he'll help with my car payment, because it would be extremely hard for me to do it myself. But I hate it at the same time. I've been wanting him to have this new income and start contributing more financially for years, but from a place where it was supposed to give me a breather and allow me to save - not be because I can't pay my bills myself and cover just enough that I'm back to square one of just scraping by. It makes me feel reliant, and doesn't solve the problem of not making enough to save. It's the fucking story of my life - the second more money starts coming in, something will happen to make it just enough to cover the next increase in the price of life, and there's never any getting ahead...
I really hope something pops for my job search soon.
Ummm, what's the point of being married if not for supporting each other during low times? I mean, seriously, what's the point of getting married if you live like roomates or unmarried couple. Very good that he's helping you, I am sure the new car will lift your vibe and will atract more opportunities. It must feel great to drive something newer and better. Enjoy the whole thing and stop worrying, good things will come your way! Be grateful you have a supportive husband!
We go trough highs and lows into this life, it doesn't matter we can't get back up there. You will get back up, you'll see. The good part is that you have your ass covered when in a struggling time. You are good!
I do understand your struggle tho, haha.
carmen_b
07-15-2022, 08:22 AM
Woo-Hoo.
My dude arrives back today.
I sure am missing that DICK !
About 12 hours till I head to the airport.
indiegirl
07-15-2022, 10:28 AM
Earned my spot in the new school after the 3 week trial (aka 60 hours of trial class) and picked up my new books and new scrubs. I believe 4-5 people dropped in the 3 weeks and two weren't selected. I made it abundantly clear that I was there and ready to be leaving with a degree with how prepared and dedicated I sounded in the interview. I was told I was a breath of fresh air ;P. Apparently I was already on the list to be placed in the class a while ago LOL. Here's to week 1 starting Monday!
xxxGothBarbie
07-15-2022, 10:41 AM
Ummm, what's the point of being married if not for supporting each other during low times? I mean, seriously, what's the point of getting married if you live like roomates or unmarried couple. Very good that he's helping you, I am sure the new car will lift your vibe and will atract more opportunities. It must feel great to drive something newer and better. Enjoy the whole thing and stop worrying, good things will come your way! Be grateful you have a supportive husband!
We go trough highs and lows into this life, it doesn't matter we can't get back up there. You will get back up, you'll see. The good part is that you have your ass covered when in a struggling time. You are good!
I do understand your struggle tho, haha.
Girl I really love your advice you give on here :)
I need to make a sticky of all your wise words and hang then up to see when I hit lows. <3
Aurora_Sunset
07-15-2022, 02:04 PM
I left myself a note in my phone that just says '400.' What does that mean? Why did I write that?
The dumbest part is that I remember doing it just YESTERDAY, but I don't remember why.
Cutie101
07-15-2022, 02:31 PM
Girl I really love your advice you give on here :)
I need to make a sticky of all your wise words and hang then up to see when I hit lows. <3
Awwww, I am blushing here, haha. Well, I gained some experience in 10+ years of relationship, we both started really young and really imature and I can tell, it does take two people to have a family and build a solid relationship going, otherwise, what's the point of calling ourselves a couple. The whole core of being a solid couple is the team spirit, where both work for the team, one falls, the other lifts them up and vice versa. ESPECIALLY after you sign the papers.
Staci
07-15-2022, 03:27 PM
I left myself a note in my phone that just says '400.' What does that mean? Why did I write that?
The dumbest part is that I remember doing it just YESTERDAY, but I don't remember why.
You could probably rule out 'weight' or 'number of steps I took today'. LOL
Maybe number of calories in something?
How much something cost?
Score on some game?
Aurora_Sunset
07-15-2022, 04:12 PM
You could probably rule out 'weight' or 'number of steps I took today'. LOL
Maybe number of calories in something?
How much something cost?
Score on some game?
LOL! I remember it being a number that I expected to change, by going up. So I was gonna keep track of something... wtf was I trying to keep track of?
Staci
07-15-2022, 06:18 PM
LOL! I remember it being a number that I expected to change, by going up. So I was gonna keep track of something... wtf was I trying to keep track of?
Gave you my best shots. You're on your own! LOL
Edited to add:
If it were me...it would be the light bill. It is always going up!
Genoveve
07-16-2022, 02:18 PM
I left myself a note in my phone that just says '400.' What does that mean? Why did I write that?
The dumbest part is that I remember doing it just YESTERDAY, but I don't remember why.
Oh lord I do this all the time. Or I can't understand my handwriting which is especially tricky when I'm in the grocery store and literally can't decipher what's written on my list.
Cutie101
07-16-2022, 02:44 PM
I left myself a note in my phone that just says '400.' What does that mean? Why did I write that?
The dumbest part is that I remember doing it just YESTERDAY, but I don't remember why.
Oh lord I do this all the time. Or I can't understand my handwriting which is especially tricky when I'm in the grocery store and literally can't decipher what's written on my list.
Me too, until I realized I suck at deciphering my own notes and now I add extra info on it, even if it's just one word lol.
indiegirl
07-17-2022, 11:31 AM
Me when I'm talking to a customer about school and they question if I'm actually in school: *eyeroll*
Where the fuck do you think we all wind up when we leave? We have to have a future too like EVERYBODY ELSE.
This is exactly why I am not an outspoken sex worker in the public. There is so much stigma behind this job that it is not worth it.
miss.a.p1600
07-17-2022, 11:40 AM
I left myself a note in my phone that just says '400.' What does that mean? Why did I write that?
The dumbest part is that I remember doing it just YESTERDAY, but I don't remember why.
I’ll take “Sugar Daddy for $400, Alex” :D
Aurora_Sunset
07-17-2022, 04:39 PM
Gave you my best shots. You're on your own! LOL
Edited to add:
If it were me...it would be the light bill. It is always going up!
I REMEMBERED!
It's how much money is in my savings account that is specifically what my parents have sent me to help with student loans. They send a small amount every week, and I'm trying to keep track of the total so I can know exactly how much to pay them back some day. They've never said they want to be repaid, but I want to.
Staci
07-17-2022, 06:51 PM
I REMEMBERED!
It's how much money is in my savings account that is specifically what my parents have sent me to help with student loans. They send a small amount every week, and I'm trying to keep track of the total so I can know exactly how much to pay them back some day. They've never said they want to be repaid, but I want to.
I can't even TELL you how many times I have found a phone number I've jotted down....an ingredient I've purchased to make a particular dish...etc - and am totally clueless as to who or what. At least you did finally remember! LOL
carmen_b
07-17-2022, 07:25 PM
There is a lot to be said for discretion. I don't want to get caught in long winded debates about sex work ( which is easy since I'm closeted ).
:)
Give me my money , get OUT of the club, go home and count.
That is what you don't need to know about my sex work.
It's NONE of your business is what you need to know.
Me when I'm talking to a customer about school and they question if I'm actually in school: *eyeroll*
Where the fuck do you think we all wind up when we leave? We have to have a future too like EVERYBODY ELSE.
This is exactly why I am not an outspoken sex worker in the public. There is so much stigma behind this job that it is not worth it.
indiegirl
07-18-2022, 01:48 PM
I hate when I tell my mom not to get involved with a situation and she takes it upon herself to get involved and call up this business anyways. I probably come across like I live with my mom having her get involved with my situation at the car dealership when I'm a 33yr old woman LOLLL. So embarrassing!!!
miss.a.p1600
07-19-2022, 09:32 AM
^parents gone parent…….till the day they die lol!
I’m sure you’re not the only 30+ year old that has their parent do that.
Sometimes mfs need to be tag teamed up on so they act right.
PhatGirlDynomite!!!
07-20-2022, 11:35 AM
Last Sunday we had a dinner party with one of my close friends and her new boyfriend. This was the very first time we met him and I was so impressed, plus my homegirl is in LOVE! Unfortunately after they left my husband told me while he and her new guy were in another room he began to talk about his favorite porn. She told me that he was a huge anime nerd and hubby is to an extent. Remember this is the first time we're meeting him and even showed my husband the stuff he had on his phone.
It was all loli type stuff and she doesn't know about this because he asked my man to keep quiet about it. If she knew wouldn't have asked him to keep it on the low once he realized he was uncomfortable. I feel like I need to tell her about this but I don't know where to begin because she is so into him.
Dreamqueen
07-20-2022, 12:45 PM
I confess that, as much as I hate the hot weather, I Iove that nobody's around and it's super quiet.