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Cutie101
07-20-2022, 01:29 PM
Last Sunday we had a dinner party with one of my close friends and her new boyfriend. This was the very first time we met him and I was so impressed, plus my homegirl is in LOVE! Unfortunately after they left my husband told me while he and her new guy were in another room he began to talk about his favorite porn. She told me that he was a huge anime nerd and hubby is to an extent. Remember this is the first time we're meeting him and even showed my husband the stuff he had on his phone.

It was all loli type stuff and she doesn't know about this because he asked my man to keep quiet about it. If she knew wouldn't have asked him to keep it on the low once he realized he was uncomfortable. I feel like I need to tell her about this but I don't know where to begin because she is so into him.

Oh gosh, this is all weird. I mean, you gotta be coo coo, to tell your gf's CLOSE FRIEND's husband about such an intimate (and borderline creepy) thing, first time you meet? On top of her, not knowing? Or any of her friend's... this is a huge no. I don't know how you can approach this either, but in the same time, you don't tell me intimate stuff that you wanna keep away from your gf? To her freaking friends, lol.
It would be horrible if my partner would tell my friends about his sexual fantasies and I wouldn't know about. On a fact, I know all of his weird shit and none of our friends know, because this should be a couple thing and a trust thing that stays between me and him.
He seems weird and seems that he doesn't know how a relationship is supposed to work. Speaking of trust... maybe he should learn that it's not ok to be such dumb and try making your gf's friends shut up about the sexual weird shit your gf should know, in first instance. I mean, you trust showing them and not her? Why you don't trust her?
I think you should tell her, of course, be delicate, but what he did is clearly not alright and who knows what else he does, if he's so open to confess his sexual fantasies to total strangers at the first meet.

lynn2009
07-20-2022, 08:56 PM
Now that I have finally gotten what I wanted, I confess that I am more remorseful about leaving my current job than I expected. I am going to stay strong but I am going to miss a lot of the people, and so many people have reached out with such nice comments that I would have never expected. So I guess I don't really regret leaving but I'm sad it got to this point where for my own health I feel like I need to. I basically have no friends, so my work friends and acquaintances are kind of it. Plus now I will have to prove myself all over again, and I've gotten so complacent.

carmen_b
07-21-2022, 08:27 AM
^Agreed.
Porn guy is probably nuts .
Telling on a first meeting is kind of announcing you are a creep and almost hoping for a reaction.
Discrete porn use is probably a good way to go lol.

WendiStarr
07-21-2022, 06:06 PM
I ate 2 pieces of dark chocolate.

Genoveve
07-21-2022, 09:23 PM
Porn guy is probably nuts .
Telling on a first meeting is kind of announcing you are a creep and almost hoping for a reaction.

Exactly.

indiegirl
07-21-2022, 10:42 PM
Oh gosh, this is all weird. I mean, you gotta be coo coo, to tell your gf's CLOSE FRIEND's husband about such an intimate (and borderline creepy) thing, first time you meet? On top of her, not knowing? Or any of her friend's... this is a huge no. I don't know how you can approach this either, but in the same time, you don't tell me intimate stuff that you wanna keep away from your gf? To her freaking friends, lol.
It would be horrible if my partner would tell my friends about his sexual fantasies and I wouldn't know about. On a fact, I know all of his weird shit and none of our friends know, because this should be a couple thing and a trust thing that stays between me and him.
He seems weird and seems that he doesn't know how a relationship is supposed to work. Speaking of trust... maybe he should learn that it's not ok to be such dumb and try making your gf's friends shut up about the sexual weird shit your gf should know, in first instance. I mean, you trust showing them and not her? Why you don't trust her?
I think you should tell her, of course, be delicate, but what he did is clearly not alright and who knows what else he does, if he's so open to confess his sexual fantasies to total strangers at the first meet.

Seems far too comfy exposing that and makes you wonder.....what are his actual secrets he doesn't tell anyone?

carmen_b
07-22-2022, 01:32 PM
^ Hahaha. omg

Was it pointed at your sniff ?

IF it was even on ( prob wasn't ) he probably won't check the footage unless someone messed with his car.

carmen_b
07-22-2022, 01:41 PM
$4,000 for the month or BUST.

If my day job customers fail me I'm headed to the club lol .
I'd really like to keep these cans locked away for just my partner but you have to do what you have to do !

indiegirl
07-23-2022, 08:38 AM
DICK PIC's!!!! Don't send them! PSA to men. Like WHYYYYY.

Also I'm double watching this SUPER cute cat. Lolll. This cat would easily earn a spot at my house if I could. Any weirdos are welcome as my pet if I could.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qaKtCkpTxVk

carmen_b
07-23-2022, 09:51 AM
^ This one comedian I love says she requests them so she knows whether or not to even meet the guy for a coffee.

Maybe efficiency lol ?

Dreamqueen
07-23-2022, 02:24 PM
I confess that when I had my r*pe counseling session, I acted like I was fine.
This is the therapist that I mentioned who is always distracted and never retains what I say.
Log in. Right away her cat jumps up and puts his ass in the camera.
Lol, here we go folks.
I see her figiting and opening other tabs, etc.

She comments how much better I seem.
Nope. I'm not.
I'm just ACTING!
You know, like I do on cam, or when I want to hide my true feelings?
If these sessions weren't free, I'd be long gone.
Le sigh.

carmen_b
07-23-2022, 02:34 PM
^ I would give honest feedback and how bad these distractions have made you feel.

It's just rude not to recommend you at least to someone else. Sheesh.

Dreamqueen
07-23-2022, 02:50 PM
^ I would give honest feedback and how bad these distractions have made you feel.

It's just rude not to recommend you at least to someone else. Sheesh.

You're probably right.
I'm contemplating doing just that.

carmen_b
07-24-2022, 07:27 AM
^ I never went back to this therapist who did this " let me fill the silence " in the room thing.
It was so awkward to me to not have him ask questions.
Now I've been without therapy for four months and getting started again is on my to do list.

neverendingkneebruises
07-24-2022, 02:40 PM
One of my boyfriends and I broke up awhile ago and I had a period of accepting the loss quickly, peace, and self reflection. I've thought a lot about what I've wanted to do in life. I became a stripper at 19 because my parents were narcissists. Then was in a relationship with a narcissist a year after that. I've always kind of been in survival mode and could never really think about what my dreams were except when I was a small kid. Since I've been stabilizing and focusing on myself, I've figured out what my life's calling is. Funnily enough, snippets of my true passion have showed ever since young childhood. I just wasn't able to clearly focus on it and think about it until I healed. If I have to be a stripper and save my money to retirement I'll be okay with that, but I'm only young once ya know? I have to at least try while it's not too late. I'm going to use the rare connections I've made dancing in the meantime to elevate me.

I feel pretty safe sharing this here, this forum feels intimate enough :)

carmen_b
07-24-2022, 03:06 PM
^ This sounds like such wonderful introspection.
The fact is .... sex work can help get us to our dreams faster at times .
More $ per hour leaves time for other things. That is why it draws us in.
It can absolutely get derailed as all hell if not careful ( as all of here have seen with people ) !

Moving towards what you feel is the " calling " is going to be amazing. :)
I hope you expand on it on the site at some point.

Aurora_Sunset
07-25-2022, 06:30 AM
I sincerely planned to work today, because I've actually been in a fantastic mood the last several days, even at work. But my period hit hard and fast yesterday. Between the cramps, period shits, fatigue, and the onset of general irritability, I just knew I didn't have a 10-hour shift in me today.

smeca
07-25-2022, 07:57 AM
I have more stripper bikinis than when I was dancing. All my shop bought are ill fitting and the bottoms are saggy. A dancewear dress maker from my old region still has an ebay shop, and she has my loyalty. I have a few colours but there are so many 0.0 A purple one arrived today, it's so bright and makes me happy

indiegirl
07-25-2022, 08:10 PM
I’m beyond excited for Britney Spears to release a song with Elton John. Bring it on! So excited. This one YouTuber I watch ended up finding out she was releasing a song with Elton John and he started crying at the Gym. Im not on that level but I’m certainly excited!

miss.a.p1600
07-26-2022, 08:56 AM
Im detoxing from thc because I got hit with a last minute “ we need a drug test. And by the way you only have 5 days to complete it” for this job.

Ughhh!

Im irritable af and hungry af. I already lost 6lbs and down to 118 which is the smallest I’ve been since high school

Everything I want to eat is on the “do not eat” list for detoxing your system.

I hope my detox drink has arrive or else I’m going to have to fake an illness to stall for time.

I need a prayer and a miracle rn

carmen_b
07-26-2022, 09:23 AM
Ok ..... I'll confess I wish my partner wasn't traveling in a week .

The reason is that it THROWS our schedule so much ( to have one of us out solo v.s. out together ).
It reduces Aug. down to only 25 days in the month ( at home ) and his child will be there for 15 of them.

That said ..... rock on you know. He is doing this to follow a band for three days haha.

I'm going to Montana for a week Aug. 14-20 so that will impact us too haha.
It's easier to be the one " on the road ".

So I guess between these two trips we have more like 18 days in the month together.
Quality over Quantity for Aug !

Jucie
07-27-2022, 06:25 AM
I dumped SD last week…

An update on this:

It seems like I’m going back to SD. I panicked due to halting economy and not being able to give my daughter the life she definitely deserves so I sent him a text. It was a mistake to leave him, but it just didn’t work out then.
In the meantime since I left him, I’ve realised it’s not easy to find someone else that ticks off as many boxes; he’s a really nice person, handsome, great sex drive (horny), nice body etc etc. And he’s happy with oral, for the most at least.

I didn’t hear anything for two days but then I got a text saying that he had missed me etc etc. I answered with stating my terms&conditions and he just answered with a thumbs up. A couple of days later he texted me and asked for a meeting on Thursday (tomorrow) with a question if it was okay. That question is important to me as it indicates that he has taken my point, that I have schedule as well and we need to agree on when to meet. I’ve initially agreed to 3 short meetings a week, and one weekend getaway each month.

Marina Starr
07-27-2022, 07:31 AM
Sometimes I wish I have someone to go to Walmart with me. It can get overwhelming.

Aurora_Sunset
07-27-2022, 08:49 AM
I drank too much wine last night, and now I'm kinda useless today.

miss.a.p1600
07-27-2022, 09:08 AM
I feel like my partner should go back to his ex wife since he wants to be a full time dad.

I really didn’t want a divorced dad with young kids. But I powered through because he seemed like a decent dude.

But when his ex-wife pulled a 52-fake out (claimed she was leaving town, taking her kids, then lading right back in town 2 short months later and pretending she can’t parent her way out of a paper bag), I realized I definitely don’t want a man who has young kids AND desires full-time custody.

His debt, his divorced dad guilt, his resources going out, his smothering, it’s all weighing heavily on me.

He should be with someone who loves kids, loves his spontaneity, can help him pay his bills. I’m not it and I should let him find something else or go back to Bertha so he can be with his kids as much as he desires

Add to this, as I’m trying to get better career standing I applied like crazy to multiple positions and kept getting denied or confused.

The stress of all this crap led me to find comfort in thc because I got depressed and didn’t think I would get anywhere.

Then all of a sudden I get a job offer from a decent job. Enough to give the the money to just get out of here.

And they want a drug test so now my fate is up in the air.

Im tired of lying an faking and being on edge because this dude lied about his desire for being a full time dad

Im hungry, depressed, and irritated af rn

carmen_b
07-27-2022, 09:40 AM
^ I think what he may not realize is that NO ONE wants to help him parent and help him pay bills.

My partner does 97-99% of the parenting ( which is the right way to run things since he is the Parent ) .

L can't seem to let it go ( the idea that he needs to go get them at random times ) .
I think L didn't really think it through . Women do not want to be " helpers " .
If you are with a guy who has kids and can accept a limitation on the guys time ( obviously his time for you is limited with custody ) that is one thing.
Stepping up and helping A LOT is another thing and literally no one wants it.

whirlerz
07-27-2022, 10:18 AM
I hear ya, Mini!

I just texted my ex crush, (current roomie)..

He's been away working, I'd texted him about mini ac units57520
not that he cares probably, he didn't respond, so F U pal.
Doesn't need any rides to jobs now, has co. truck.

indiegirl
07-27-2022, 10:20 AM
Bahahaha my shitty roommate who officially moves on the 10th missed her long process of cooking her breakfast for 2 hours in the morning because I was in there doing a lab experiment that involved cooking hahahahahaha! Move out already woman! She fucking lives in that kitchen and she hogged it along with the laundry all day long yesterday. I was pissed.

whirlerz
07-27-2022, 10:27 AM
Bahahaha my shitty roommate who officially moves on the 10th missed her long process of cooking her breakfast for 2 hours in the morning because I was in there doing a lab experiment that involved cooking hahahahahaha! Move out already woman! She fucking lives in that kitchen and she hogged it along with the laundry all day long yesterday. I was pissed.

OMG, this's so the couple (specifically her) that live across from me..

The literally have 90% of the kitchen w/all their 'toys', air fryer, utensils, etc.
Kitchen table laid out w/dishes..

TG she at least has been keeping up washing them, for now::)

miss.a.p1600
07-27-2022, 10:38 AM
^ I think what he may not realize is that NO ONE wants to help him parent and help him pay bills.

My partner does 97-99% of the parenting ( which is the right way to run things since he is the Parent ) .

L can't seem to let it go ( the idea that he needs to go get them at random times ) .
I think L didn't really think it through . Women do not want to be " helpers " .
If you are with a guy who has kids and can accept a limitation on the guys time ( obviously his time for you is limited with custody ) that is one thing.
Stepping up and helping A LOT is another thing and literally no one wants it.

Wait J does 97% of the parenting?!?

Wtf are these women getting paid child support for if they’re not supporting their kids?

when I asked for boundaries, structure, and a parenting schedule.

i get hit with “they’re kids” or “I pick up the slack for Bertha because the kids shouldn’t suffer” or “I barely see my kids” or “I miss them and enjoy them” or “Im being punished for being an involved dad”

complete stonewalling.

I never told the mf not to take care of or be involved with his kids. All I said was if you bring them to this house I was a start time AND end time and I want it IN ADVANCE. I only agree to host them here when you’re off work! I don’t want the responsibility if your not off work but I will either do it WITH COMPENSATION or you can take them OUT. Idiot how hard is this to comprehend?!? Tf!!!

Anyways,

he can stonewall his ass right back to Bertha (be a full time dad to his hearts content) right where he belongs.

miss.a.p1600
07-27-2022, 10:40 AM
I’ve never been so hungry and stressed in my life.

carmen_b
07-27-2022, 11:02 AM
^ Oh I meant when she is here ( 14-15 days per month ).
I just mean the person should be able to function with minimal assistance from their partner on their custody days.

indiegirl
07-27-2022, 11:40 AM
OMG, this's so the couple (specifically her) that live across from me..

The literally have 90% of the kitchen w/all their 'toys', air fryer, utensils, etc.
Kitchen table laid out w/dishes..

TG she at least has been keeping up washing them, for now::)

It's like they might as well keep their bed in the kitchen with how much people like this are in it. WHICH MEANS, she is always in the bathroom as well because that food amount has to go somewhere. Fuck the dining room table, put the bed there instead and this would be her ideal home. LOLLL

Dreamqueen
07-27-2022, 12:33 PM
I hear ya, Mini!

I just texted my ex crush, (current roomie)..

He's been away working, I'd texted him about mini ac units57520
not that he cares probably, he didn't respond, so F U pal.
Doesn't need any rides to jobs now, has co. truck.

This photo is porn for me.
I have 3 of these, and am buying more.
I wouldn't have lasted this long in the desert without them.
My a.c. only drops the room temps down to 88.
These keep the air at 73 when I'm sitting in front of them.

kimbe
07-27-2022, 01:14 PM
An update on this:

It seems like I’m going back to SD. I panicked due to halting economy and not being able to give my daughter the life she definitely deserves so I sent him a text. It was a mistake to leave him, but it just didn’t work out then.
In the meantime since I left him, I’ve realised it’s not easy to find someone else that ticks off as many boxes; he’s a really nice person, handsome, great sex drive (horny), nice body etc etc. And he’s happy with oral, for the most at least.

I didn’t hear anything for two days but then I got a text saying that he had missed me etc etc. I answered with stating my terms&conditions and he just answered with a thumbs up. A couple of days later he texted me and asked for a meeting on Thursday (tomorrow) with a question if it was okay. That question is important to me as it indicates that he has taken my point, that I have schedule as well and we need to agree on when to meet. I’ve initially agreed to 3 short meetings a week, and one weekend getaway each month.

I hope it works out better this time! I think it's a good decision to give it another try, he seems like a decent guy :)

miss.a.p1600
07-27-2022, 03:04 PM
I just did a fast detox and took a drug test at a lab.

My at home test was barely passing and I rushed over to the lab before the window of “clean” would disappear. But when I get home an hour later it’s back to positive.

Please let this be passing so I can level up out of here.

Now I feel like I should have just lied to get an extension vs going through this uncertainty.

My partner arguing with me about marriage, trying to gain custody of his kids, etc. Stressing me out made this whole ordeal worse.

chanzep
07-27-2022, 04:07 PM
I'm sorry that sounds so stressful. When you they tell you the results hopefully soon. I hope you can get away from this guy soon. I agree he should go back to Bertha. You need to be free to get the life you really want.

indiegirl
07-27-2022, 06:32 PM
I got carried away in Sprouts grocery store and went through their aromatherapy spray aisle today spraying all of their room sprays bahaha. I'm sure the security staff thought that I was insane looking trying to catch wiffs of spray in the air and then moving locations so I can have a new batch of air to test on LOL. I smell like 9 different essential scents right now LOL.

chanzep
07-27-2022, 07:12 PM
I love Sprouts they do good gluten free stuff and Vegan ice cream.

indiegirl
07-27-2022, 08:41 PM
I love Sprouts they do good gluten free stuff and Vegan ice cream.

They have so much vegan stuff. Honestly, I wish they had a sampler for some of their food just so we know what it tastes like instead of spending like 8-10 bucks to find out. I rarely go to stores like this anymore :(. Once every year or less.

miss.a.p1600
07-28-2022, 04:32 AM
Back to the drawing board.

Idk what the results are yet or if I can cut my thc but I’m trying to stay free until I land a vanilla position. If I don’t sink too far into depression.

Next time, if I’m not clean, I’m just going to use the best fake piss on the market.

Employers are fucking nutjobs testing for thc anyways.

Im deleting my social media and staring up my adult-ish Instagram }:D

Mark my words - im leveling up no matter what it takes!

indiegirl
07-28-2022, 07:49 AM
Back to the drawing board.

Idk what the results are yet or if I can cut my thc but I’m trying to stay free until I land a vanilla position. If I don’t sink too far into depression.

Next time, if I’m not clean, I’m just going to use the best fake piss on the market.

Employers are fucking nutjobs testing for thc anyways.

Im deleting my social media and staring up my adult-ish Instagram }:D

Mark my words - im leveling up no matter what it takes!

Yep it's ridiculous how both alcohol and weed are legal yet we can't have it in our system from the day before or 3 days later (depending on the test). People can get completely whacked out on high doses of Benadryl yet they don't test for that. Go figure.

Fake pee is a PITA to deal with. I remember hearing about one guy who used his girlfriends urine and they called him up and said "congratulations you're pregnant!" He got in trouble lol.

miss.a.p1600
07-28-2022, 08:22 AM
^ahahaha

I agree. All of it really is a headache compared to just quitting substances for a month or so. But sometimes these mf be trying to catch you off guard.

I could be wrong but I think they only test for the drugs not pregnancy so I wonder what made them test it for more than what they said….the drugs only.

My guy friend said he once tried to smuggle in his sisters pee. She also was pregnant at the time. He said the vial accidentally fell out of his pants while he was in the bathroom (and they had a monitor standing in there too). Lol!!!

He said he just ran out and didn’t even complete the test.

I saw on YT people passing with some powered pee that you mix (apparently they sell it at smoke shops) but it has to be warm, quietly opened, and of course can’t let it fall out or leak. Probably have to pour some in the toilet too to make it seem like you actually peed in toilet to collect the sample.

indiegirl
07-28-2022, 08:37 AM
^ahahaha

I agree. All of it really is a headache compared to just quitting substances for a month or so. But sometimes these mf be trying to catch you off guard.

I could be wrong but I think they only test for the drugs not pregnancy so I wonder what made them test it for more than what they said….the drugs only.

My guy friend said he once tried to smuggle in his sisters pee. She also was pregnant at the time. He said the vial accidentally fell out of his pants while he was in the bathroom (and they had a monitor standing in there too). Lol!!!

He said he just ran out and didn’t even complete the test.

I saw on YT people passing with some powered pee that you mix (apparently they sell it at smoke shops) but it has to be warm, quietly opened, and of course can’t let it fall out or leak. Probably have to pour some in the toilet too to make it seem like you actually peed in toilet to collect the sample.

I think people on specific types of probation have to take extra tests of some sort. He wasn't applying for a job lol.

kimbe
07-28-2022, 10:39 AM
I confess our dinner meals are way too dependent on what I find at Whole Foods...

miss.a.p1600
07-28-2022, 03:23 PM
I should have just declined to take the damn test.

xxxGothBarbie
07-28-2022, 03:36 PM
Feeling hopeless and angry at myself about my living situation. I am at a loss as to where to go anymore. Friends are not an option and neither is family. I'm too depressed to work from here. Just this whole environment. I'm not whining just being realistic. I really don't wanna have to spend hundreds per week on a hotel or airbnb bc my taxes will be thru the roof.

indiegirl
07-28-2022, 04:04 PM
I just bought 4 security cameras for outdoor with night vision that come with a monitor as well as phone capabilities. If I have to live with roommates for a while, I'm making myself feel comfortable and safe with having them here. No more funny business when I'm not home cuz I'll be watching. Cough* shitty roommate *cough*

indiegirl
07-28-2022, 04:40 PM
I should have just declined to take the damn test.

Did you not pass it?

whirlerz
07-28-2022, 10:47 PM
I just bought 4 security cameras for outdoor with night vision that come with a monitor as well as phone capabilities. If I have to live with roommates for a while, I'm making myself feel comfortable and safe with having them here. No more funny business when I'm not home cuz I'll be watching. Cough* shitty roommate *cough*

What kind did you get? ^